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@here I’ve Archived the old vents channel. Confessions won’t work here until I fix them tomorrow
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How come?
02:37
Dammit I should s l e e p.
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The old vents channel was bad for my health as well as others
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well i have the first one for this channel
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things at uni being targeted and marketed for women but including non binary people giving the same energy as the womens+ shit that the uni pulled
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Mei
things at uni being targeted and marketed for women but including non binary people giving the same energy as the womens+ shit that the uni pulled
notliamhyde02 03/07/2022 4:05 AM
seeing a lot of discourse around the they/them pussy meme
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has a similar feel to it
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like i find it funny
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but it’s also sort of putting nb in a binary
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literally
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notliamhyde02 03/07/2022 4:05 AM
like with afab/amab
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i dont mean to dog on them specifically but uea judo
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'this girl can' for women and nb
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notliamhyde02 03/07/2022 4:06 AM
mm
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i just sent them a dm on instagram that tldr says it can be quite harmful to associate the two and in future please be more aware
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notliamhyde02 03/07/2022 4:07 AM
also just being seen as a diet man because i’m nb but don’t look adrogynous
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and still present “male”
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im so sick of it because personally im either fem or andro presenting depending on the day and it gives me the ick because i fit that category that people think is the stereotype for nb people
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notliamhyde02 03/07/2022 4:08 AM
i mean id love to present andro
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but i like looking masc
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but that also doesn’t mean i am masc
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the closest i can get to andro is skater boy clothes and scruffy mullet 😭 but its so gender comfy
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notliamhyde02 03/07/2022 4:09 AM
the dream
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honestly
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wish gender was easy
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honestly
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notliamhyde02 03/07/2022 4:10 AM
or better yet
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no gender
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for everyone
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just look how you want with no consequences
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unless it’s offensive
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but you know what i mean
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gender removal services
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ye
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no gender. only rage.
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notliamhyde02 03/07/2022 4:11 AM
mhm
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Mei
things at uni being targeted and marketed for women but including non binary people giving the same energy as the womens+ shit that the uni pulled
please elaborate on this "womens+ shit" this is the first ive heard of it
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ohh im currently strying to handle it
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Basically Womens+ was originally supposed to be women + nonbinary people, and it got massive backlash
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Instead someone in the SU is trying tos ay to me its supposed to be inclusionary of trans women
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but
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Trans women are women, there is no need to refer it as Womens+
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I am just about ready to break at this point
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Trans women are women, there is no need to refer it as Womens+
yeah that. seems incredibly silly
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i do kind of get the point since most things advertised as "women only" can seem trans exclusionary but if you want to be clear saying "trans women are welcome" seems a lot better than saying "womens+"
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and if you want to do stuff for nonbinary people just. say that as well.
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there is no need for an extra category like that.
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Is it so hard to put 'women and nonbinary/gnc' rather than group it all in
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veryangry
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yea it's not that hard they just cba
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notliamhyde02 03/07/2022 3:46 PM
or better yet
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have them all separate
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cos what about amab nb/gnc people
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making it sound likes it’s
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men
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and then the others
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notliamhyde02
cos what about amab nb/gnc people
Literally
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Mei
Is it so hard to put 'women and nonbinary/gnc' rather than group it all in
I personally still take issue with this take, as it continue to equate/group NB with femininity.
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I'm talking bare minimum here, not a solution
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Mei
I'm talking bare minimum here, not a solution
Ok, to explain further why I think that isn't even the bare minimum. If I (a person who presents very masc 98% of the time, more muscular than average, and generally a bit bitch-faced) went into that space, often set up to be a safe space for SA/DA survivors, despite the fact I am categorically NB, it would be an issue to some of those individuals.
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I am also not here to argue over it
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My point was about the womens+ used by the university, not the judo
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Meaning that it would define it as man and non-man. That is all. Forgive me if my wording isnt exactly perfect when Id literally just woken up
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Not trying to continue the discussion, but genuine curiosity - what do you mean by 'judo'
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Uea judo, my original point
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They used the This Girl Can charity branding and bunched nb people in with it
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Oohhhh, sorry, missed that 😅
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My judo point being they shouldve just said 'trial day for women and gender non conforming' etcetc (edited)
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No worries, easy mistake
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Ok, to explain further why I think that isn't even the bare minimum. If I (a person who presents very masc 98% of the time, more muscular than average, and generally a bit bitch-faced) went into that space, often set up to be a safe space for SA/DA survivors, despite the fact I am categorically NB, it would be an issue to some of those individuals.
notliamhyde02 03/07/2022 5:41 PM
yeah i’d feel like i’d be in the same situation
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pretty much masc presenting
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facial hair
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voice etc
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it’s something that could be so easily fixed but no one in power seems to care enough to do anything
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mumblingmiss 03/07/2022 5:43 PM
They need a serious kick up the ass
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it's really frustrating watching their attempts
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My life is turning into an installment of the Jeremy Kyle show and i would very much like it to stop.
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You can take the girl out of Ipswich, but you can't take Ipswich out of the girl
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kazoo girl
You can take the girl out of Ipswich, but you can't take Ipswich out of the girl
Ok who did you stab /j
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Hope you’re okay as well btw ❤️
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I'm close to stabbing the world's best boyfriend bc I literally saw him out today and considered risking getting hit by a car to avoid him
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I am tired of feeling unsafe because of a stupid angry boyman
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Just let me walk to my burlesque shit jfc (edited)
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Here for you always ❤️
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Thank you babes 💜
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Maddi villain arc honestly As soon as I can justifiably seperate myself from these people, I'm gone.
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What do you mean my actions have consequences??? What do you mean i can't just take other people's money without telling them and have them be okay with it??
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How the fuck am I the smartest person in this situation
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kazoo girl
You can take the girl out of Ipswich, but you can't take Ipswich out of the girl
mumblingmiss 03/07/2022 8:22 PM
As a half-Ipswich breed, I agree 👍
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mumblingmiss
As a half-Ipswich breed, I agree 👍
will.minchin25 03/07/2022 8:24 PM
Wdym half Ipshit
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😂
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will.minchin25
Wdym half Ipshit
mumblingmiss 03/07/2022 8:26 PM
Oh did I not tell anyone? My mum's an Ipswich babe 😘 I'm the classic shiny half-Norwich, half-Ipswich cross breed
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will.minchin25 03/07/2022 8:26 PM
Ah I see
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mumblingmiss 03/07/2022 8:26 PM
If you think about it it explains a lot about me
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will.minchin25 03/07/2022 8:26 PM
I wouldn’t know lol
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mumblingmiss
Oh did I not tell anyone? My mum's an Ipswich babe 😘 I'm the classic shiny half-Norwich, half-Ipswich cross breed
if your mum's from suffolk and your dad's from norfolk does that make you just folk?
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Ripfangs
if your mum's from suffolk and your dad's from norfolk does that make you just folk?
mumblingmiss 03/07/2022 8:27 PM
Yes
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Am folk
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I am the colliding of a family with generations of Suffolk bitches and a family with generations of Norfolk bastards (edited)
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(I'm the final boss)
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by this same logic, my mum's from kent and my dad's from wales so that makes me kale
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off topic but will you ever change your name to CBeebies
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Ripfangs
by this same logic, my mum's from kent and my dad's from wales so that makes me kale
delightfully vegan
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mahariel
off topic but will you ever change your name to CBeebies
mumblingmiss 03/07/2022 8:30 PM
I've thought about it a lot
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ofc i mean your real legal name
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mahariel
delightfully vegan
i am vegetarian...
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mumblingmiss 03/07/2022 8:31 PM
One day I will confuse everyone and just use my actual name on here
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nobody will see it coming
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mumblingmiss 03/07/2022 8:31 PM
It will be a big plot twist
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shock and awe will spread through the server
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it's a v v cool name tho
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mumblingmiss 03/07/2022 8:34 PM
My parents definitely couldn't have provided a name that people spell and pronounce with ease
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mood and then when i picked a new name i did the exact same thing to myself
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mumblingmiss 03/07/2022 8:36 PM
They liked to do normal names and then sprinkle in a bit of why the fuck not with others
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Ripfangs
mood and then when i picked a new name i did the exact same thing to myself
mumblingmiss 03/07/2022 8:37 PM
I love that for you
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yes
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I'm agreeing
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despite the fact that I've already thought of what i want to name my future kids (edited)
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and they're all slightly strange lol
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mumblingmiss 03/07/2022 8:38 PM
Glad it's not just me prenaming all my kids lol
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mumblingmiss
Oh did I not tell anyone? My mum's an Ipswich babe 😘 I'm the classic shiny half-Norwich, half-Ipswich cross breed
disgustatorium 03/07/2022 8:39 PM
omg me too
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disgustatorium
omg me too
mumblingmiss 03/07/2022 8:39 PM
We've cursed this server
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disgustatorium 03/07/2022 8:39 PM
heheh
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me, in norwich: wow why are there so many people from Norfolk here
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disgustatorium 03/07/2022 8:39 PM
my dad grew up on the street I live on rn
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mumblingmiss 03/07/2022 8:40 PM
I live 5 mins from where my dad grew up lol
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mahariel
me, in norwich: wow why are there so many people from Norfolk here
a true mystery of the universe
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mumblingmiss 03/07/2022 8:41 PM
Now I'm just thinking about me and my siblings names
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i have 4542 miles from where my father grew up
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mumblingmiss 03/07/2022 8:42 PM
Damn that a lot of miles
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i have an appointment to hopefully diagnose pcos in a couple weeks, so i'm leaving all my symptoms (mostly to do with my skin) to run rampant but holy shit its frustrating me so much and i'm scared i'm just gonna be brushed aside again stitchSob (edited)
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also can't wait to be told once again that i might want kids in the future !!!
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Deleted User 03/08/2022 8:59 AM
Ever wake up and just feel like you don’t want people to see you. Like ur skin feels shit, you’ve ran out of hair spray and ur hairdresser isn’t responding so you feel silly and sit in your car feeling to stupid to go to lecture?
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Ever wake up and just feel like you don’t want people to see you. Like ur skin feels shit, you’ve ran out of hair spray and ur hairdresser isn’t responding so you feel silly and sit in your car feeling to stupid to go to lecture?
Deleted User 03/08/2022 9:07 AM
Really hope this is a late puberty thing and once it’s over I won’t feel sad for no good reason. I say this cos a person nocked on my car door to ask if I’m ok 😭
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Deleted User 03/08/2022 11:20 AM
Spent some money on new hair products and feel better now ☺
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Deleted User
Spent some money on new hair products and feel better now ☺
notliamhyde02 03/08/2022 12:21 PM
aahhh the joys of retail therapy
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mumblingmiss 03/08/2022 8:33 PM
I'm just a girl standing in front of a guy hoping that all the cunts of the world will shut the fuck up
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mumblingmiss
I'm just a girl standing in front of a guy hoping that all the cunts of the world will shut the fuck up
love this version of notting hill
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mahariel
love this version of notting hill
mumblingmiss 03/08/2022 8:41 PM
I love that movie and this is my version
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will.minchin25 03/09/2022 11:51 PM
Block button be your bestie rn
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Just saying
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will.minchin25 03/10/2022 7:51 PM
My hallway stinks of ✨weed✨ and my landlords are coming over in a few days who are very anti drug
19:51
This is gonna be fun
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ʕっ• ᴥ • ʔっ 03/10/2022 7:55 PM
Incense time babey
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will.minchin25 03/10/2022 7:56 PM
Funny enough
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That’s banned as well
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will.minchin25
This is gonna be fun
notliamhyde02 03/10/2022 8:23 PM
febreze the ever living shit out of the place
20:23
like a whole can
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will.minchin25 03/10/2022 8:23 PM
Hahaha
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Confessions BOT 03/10/2022 8:36 PM
You can find your server's config using /config show
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?config
Confessions BOT 03/10/2022 8:36 PM
Protip: Confessions is switching from regular message commands to slash commands. Try it out using /!
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✅ Successfully removed #deleted-channel from the list of confessions channels
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✅ Successfully added #vents to the list of confessions channels
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Michaelflat1 03/10/2022 8:41 PM
so tired not sure if i should go to sleep /nap now and mess up my sleep schedule or soldier on in the hope i'll get a burst of energy to last me till 10/11pm
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i wanted to do some uni work tonight and i'm just so tired i don't want to
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will.minchin25 03/10/2022 11:19 PM
Note to self: if everyone’s out and you dk who’s washing it is or where to put it when you need the washing machine, go with the dirty floor
23:19
Because the clean sofa wasn’t a good idea as it’s ever so slightly damp
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Ngl realised that my talking about myself in the 3rd person is kinda cringe
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Why do I do that I blame Lewis
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I’ve realised something
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After
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A long think
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And trying to not wake will up
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I realised, I am literally above the people who try to drag me down. The people who supported or helped in my own abuse and look past the shit that has happened.
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They aren’t entitled to me, I am worth more than that. I don’t deserve to be treated that way
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notliamhyde02 03/11/2022 2:29 AM
for the love of god can i please sleep at a decent time
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notliamhyde02
for the love of god can i please sleep at a decent time
Mood
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But head moving so fast
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Zoom zoom
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But head moving so fast
notliamhyde02 03/11/2022 2:30 AM
for once mines not
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notliamhyde02
for once mines not
Zoom is
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Actually me
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But still
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notliamhyde02 03/11/2022 2:31 AM
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@Unknown ITS THAT EMOJI
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They aren’t entitled to me, I am worth more than that. I don’t deserve to be treated that way
will.minchin25 03/11/2022 6:43 AM
You deserve the word brandon, and yes you are above them as you said you’re so much better
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Fucking CHRIST facial hair
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I don’t mind it, but I left it grow too long and it needed two shaves to clear.
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And I cut myself twice.
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Wonderful
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Truly wonderful.
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Enigmatik
And I cut myself twice.
Hmu if it gets too long again, I can give you a hot towel and straight razor shave
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Eeeeen
Hmu if it gets too long again, I can give you a hot towel and straight razor shave
Frantically growing my facial hair out as fast as possible
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This offer is open to anyone with facial hair and will cost you one (1) pint at the SU bar
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Also you have to promise not to sue me if I nick your face
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I am minimally litigious
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notliamhyde02 03/12/2022 4:01 PM
i sometime wish i could be bothered to shave with clean shaving (edited)
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W... What do you shave with.
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notliamhyde02 03/12/2022 4:02 PM
but idk how to so i just use an electric one
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wax strips
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no fuck it
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duck tape
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...
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Duct tape.
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you are not human
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you are beyond human
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Please tell me you haven't gotten through multiple decades of existence not knowing it's duct tape not duck tape.
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what is this anti-duck propaganda
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Ok
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Y'know what.
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Nope
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I'm wrong here.
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Enigmatik
Please tell me you haven't gotten through multiple decades of existence not knowing it's duct tape not duck tape.
notliamhyde02 03/12/2022 4:04 PM
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quack
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I swear to God I feel like I've just been fucked with because it has always been Duct Tape to me.
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notliamhyde02 03/12/2022 4:04 PM
i mean that is what it is
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but like most other things the brand name takes over
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like velcro
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It's actually the other way around.
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Tbh I only heard of duck tape like a year ago
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Duck tape is so named because it's made from cotton duck.
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It was used in HVAC systems back in the way and thus became known as duct tape.
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What the fuck.
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Ok this threw me for a loop.
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A. Apologies Liam, that was presumptuous of me.
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B. My brain has just been fuckspanded.
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absolute mindfuck of an etymology
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Enigmatik
B. My brain has just been fuckspanded.
notliamhyde02 03/12/2022 4:07 PM
think you’re having a stroke over duck tape
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can you smell burnt toast
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notliamhyde02
think you’re having a stroke over duck tape
I haven't slept for like 28 hours.
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please sleep soon 🫂
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notliamhyde02 03/12/2022 4:08 PM
ah that’ll do it
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E r i n
please sleep soon 🫂
I dislike that you have aikido'd my concern for you against me.
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But I appreciate the concern nonetheless.
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notliamhyde02
Click to see attachment 🖼️
Isn’t that one of the gen 9 starters?
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Isn’t that one of the gen 9 starters?
notliamhyde02 03/12/2022 5:34 PM
dont diss quaxly
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notliamhyde02
dont diss quaxly
Oh no I’m gonna diss when he turns into Donald Duck
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notliamhyde02 03/12/2022 5:34 PM
its just ducktales
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final form is darkwing duck
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notliamhyde02 03/12/2022 5:35 PM
weed cat
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i actually cant remember its official name
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i just call it weed cat
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same
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will.minchin25 03/12/2022 5:35 PM
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corporate needs you to find the difference between these two pictures
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notliamhyde02 03/12/2022 5:36 PM
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^^^ final form
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Weed cat must stay on four legs, or I will personally murder every last one that evolves
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Weed cat must stay on four legs, or I will personally murder every last one that evolves
notliamhyde02 03/12/2022 5:38 PM
i agree
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but if its sexy
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jk
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will.minchin25 03/12/2022 5:38 PM
I just wanna know what the fire croc will look like
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will.minchin25
I just wanna know what the fire croc will look like
notliamhyde02 03/12/2022 5:38 PM
something chilli related
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will.minchin25 03/12/2022 5:38 PM
Maybe
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notliamhyde02 03/12/2022 5:39 PM
considering its a chilli
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it is actually adorable
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but if its sexy
I swear to god (edited)
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You furry
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I swear to god (edited)
notliamhyde02 03/12/2022 5:39 PM
whos good?
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also we still need to do smash or pass with pokemon
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you have to have at least one
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Okay I’m home in like 20 mins
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We will VC and go through everyone
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notliamhyde02 03/12/2022 5:39 PM
ok cool
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E r i n
Click to see attachment 🖼️
notliamhyde02 03/12/2022 5:41 PM
ok thats sick
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oh my god this is adorable
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i will post the other images ive found
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dont think i wont
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will.minchin25 03/12/2022 10:06 PM
Hosuemate 1- “can you sort your stuff out in the kitchen please cause you said you would” Me- “didn’t get chance today” Me again- “is housemate 2 gonna sort their shit out too?”
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Fed up of that other housemates shit
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will.minchin25 03/13/2022 7:05 AM
Update she put the sofa back together after her tantrum lol
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@Unknown
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will.minchin25 03/13/2022 7:18 AM
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did i just spend the last 5 minutes making a poster just to have trump kill it
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will.minchin25 03/13/2022 7:19 AM
I mean
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If the shoe fits
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fixed
07:21
okay i should really start doing work
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will.minchin25 03/13/2022 7:22 AM
07:22
I will find anyway I can to shut you down
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i will dropkick that elf so fucking hard
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will.minchin25 03/13/2022 7:22 AM
😂😂
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the spirit of christmas can burn like the fossil fuel empire it encourages if it means hashbrowns die with it
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disgustatorium 03/13/2022 10:21 AM
i hate loft
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disgustatorium
i hate loft
You good?
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will.minchin25 03/13/2022 6:00 PM
“Can you clean the whole kitchen down please whilst you sort your stuff out”. No, no I cannot
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Now fuck off and leave me alone
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Confessions BOT 03/13/2022 7:31 PM
Anonymous Confession
"ah dating apps you absolute bastard of a creation. Being left on read indefinitely the few times I do get matches proves there’s clearly something wrong with me and I just gotta accept that"
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will.minchin25 03/13/2022 7:32 PM
No it just shows that they’re twats. OP you’re amazing okay
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mumblingmiss 03/13/2022 7:44 PM
Constantly having that battle in my head between the bit of me that wants to go out and have fun and the other bit that refuses to step out the front door
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will.minchin25 03/13/2022 8:02 PM
the fact that if i owed them this money i wouldnt get away with not oaying the extra 67p but both of thme can irritates me, i know it only wokrs out to be like an extra £1.30 or something but still
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notliamhyde02 03/13/2022 8:07 PM
i have not gotten out of bed all day
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i aimed to be productive this weekend
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but ive done nothing i set to do (edited)
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Confessions BOT 03/13/2022 8:52 PM
Anonymous Confession
"had a terrible night's sleep, threw up all of breakfast this morning and haven't eaten since. full day of anxious waiting and I'm starting to go numb"
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will.minchin25 03/13/2022 8:53 PM
im so sorry op i hope youre okay
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will.minchin25 03/13/2022 11:27 PM
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“Everything has to be washed up and cleaned and tidied todya begire they come tomorrow”
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DONT FUCKING MOAN AT ME IF YOURE GONNA MAKE MORE FUCKING MESS
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Confessions BOT 03/14/2022 9:20 AM
Anonymous Confession
"I'm so fucking angry right now. I'm shaking and I can't sleep. There's only so much my constant stream of music can do to help when things are this out of my control"
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Dating apps can both be really cool and just drain the fuck out of me
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TW - fetish over trans people if I get one more person obsessing over the fact that I'm a girl with a penis after I have made it plenty clear I'm not comfortable with it, I may just start screaming.
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I hate my family sometimes
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notliamhyde02 03/15/2022 1:58 AM
seems like the one time i’m tired and go to sleep at a normal time i only sleep for like an hour
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so now i’m just awake
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🙃👍
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will.minchin25 03/15/2022 1:59 AM
im really sorry about that
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hopefully you can get more sleep
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notliamhyde02 03/15/2022 7:18 AM
well
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i’ve not slept all night
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notliamhyde02 03/15/2022 7:27 AM
is it worth sleeping now if i’ve got to get up at 9?
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I am depressed
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Not really a vent, but just wanted to apologise for not really being all that great of a friend at times. People show me kindness and support and more often than not I find myself struggling to give it back when they need it. I don't mean it to be like that, I just don't really know how to help, so I either don't do anything or do something that has no impact on it. Really sorry, I do care about you, I'm just not great at repaying the kindness you show me. I'll try to do better, because making excuses isn't fair, and everyone here and I care about deserve better, I hope I'll be able to give better at some point ❤
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ForestBae🎄 03/16/2022 5:25 PM
Can I please stop burning myself before I go to Games Soc, it’s happen every single time I’m planning on going
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mumblingmiss 03/16/2022 5:38 PM
Feeling extremely out of my own body today. Like I'm not quite here.
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disgustatorium 03/17/2022 8:49 PM
tw drugs getting slightly worried about my substance abuse problem i literally rely on my weekly usage of it atp
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acknowledging it is the first step to getting help
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idk much about this but you should definitely reach out to the uni or smth
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Twink Antony 03/17/2022 8:56 PM
Definitely agree with Jory here, the fact that you’ve realised it’s a creeping issue is 100% a step in the right direction
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Proud of you for it x
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Dupendous Lew 03/18/2022 3:48 PM
Tinder really isn’t my best gauge for it but it truly feels like I try to come across as well as I can through there and it’s like chatting to the wind or a wall as I get no sign or validation for me trying to put myself out there, I’m fully aware it’s likely cause a lot of girls get absolutely swamped with matches so I shouldn’t take it personally but yeah self conscious hour abounds I suppose 🙃
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will.minchin25 03/19/2022 4:33 AM
In all honestly tinder rally isn’t worth it, I can’t think if anyone I’ve met from tinder who has turned out to be creepy, a dick or just someone who’s like talking to a brick wall as you put it. You’re best bet in my opinion is it find out if any of your friends know anyone single who you might get along with and to introduce you. Ik it sounds cringey or like a set up but you don’t have to go into it with the intention of falling for them more just getting to know them
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Tinder dick don't talk right
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Tinder dick don't talk right
Dupendous Lew 03/19/2022 10:32 PM
What?
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Tinder dicks don't communicate well
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Confessions BOT 03/20/2022 3:56 AM
Anonymous Confession
"Do you ever feel like the outsider looking in? Like everyone is talking and having fun and you just sort of exist on the side as a fair-weather friend? That's my vibe right now"
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will.minchin25 03/20/2022 5:13 AM
Was not impressed when I had to take blue roll, sanitiser and a pair of gloves to sort out the toilets because someone had had an explosive shit that had gone all up the back end of the seat bowl edge and lid yet didn’t say anything and just left it to be discovered
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Men are disgusting at times
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Like you didn’t even have to admit it was yours, just say “oh yeah someone’s had what looks like an explosive shit in that end cubical”
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But no
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They left it (edited)
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mumblingmiss 03/20/2022 10:09 AM
Big up the brain fog I'm coping with today
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notliamhyde02 03/20/2022 4:53 PM
why do i get a horrendous cold when it’s becoming nice out
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and when i make plans to go on nights out
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and when i make plans to go on nights out
Vodka shots with Lemsip
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notliamhyde02 03/20/2022 5:05 PM
no
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lemsip is gross
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mumblingmiss 03/20/2022 5:11 PM
Ah yes the only problem with that equation
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notliamhyde02 03/20/2022 8:02 PM
i have an assignment i want to work on
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but i’m sat in bed
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falling asleep
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mouth breathing cos my nose is blocked
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feeling like actual ass
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i hate this so much
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notliamhyde02 03/21/2022 8:53 AM
ok so this cold is kicking my ass rn
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woke up in a sweat and feel like shit
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although thank god my mood is better cos if i was depressed with this cold idk if i could cope
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it’s not covid
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but tbh i wish it was
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cos then it’ll be like “oh you’ve got covid that’s why you feel like this”
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but instead it’s just a cold
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that’s decided to just destroy me from the inside
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with no real reason as to why you have it
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On the one hand, I love how I hardly recognise when people call me by my deadname anymore, I almost forget it exists entirely On the other hand, it makes it so much more annoying when I realise someone deadnamed me, and my shock stops me from correcting them
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Michael Emily 03/21/2022 8:12 PM
im really struggling atm and i dont know what to do, all inwant is a hug but theres no one that i can ask or would say yes
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I am sending virtual hugs!
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Confessions BOT 03/22/2022 12:51 PM
Anonymous Confession
"getting sick really does remind me of how lonely I feel deep down This brain sucks how dare it make me analyse my own person imma fight it"
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notliamhyde02 03/22/2022 2:00 PM
it seems like whenever i’m sick it’s when i’m in a good mood, so it feels like i can be either mentally good or physically good
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but not both
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notliamhyde02 03/22/2022 2:01 PM
which then makes me wish i was head empty all the time when this stuff happens
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mumblingmiss 03/22/2022 6:00 PM
My dad likes to blame my headaches on me 'staring at screens all day' 🙄
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will.minchin25 03/22/2022 6:01 PM
I swear it’s just a parent tbing 😂
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H-how are you supposed to do work at uni?
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IT IS 6 PEE EMM WHERE THE FUCK IS MY DISSERTATION GRADE
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I JUST WOKE UP AFTER HAVING A PANIC ATTACK WHERE ALL MY BRAIN WOULD TELL ME WAS "MAGICARP" AND "IPSWICH IS AN EVOLUTION OF SUFFOLK" WHILE MY BODY CRAMPS UP LIKE IVE BEEN STABBED WITH BATMANS SUPER SPECIAL ADRENALINE PEG AND IM BEING STEPPED ON MY BODY STILL FEELS LIKE IM VIBRATING WHAT THE FUCM
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will.minchin25 03/22/2022 6:04 PM
I’m sorry maddi I hope you’re okay
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I have no idea what happened I needed to lie down and the next thing my body is reacting like I've just been injured and I keep jittering because I have random thoughts that are now scaring me physically
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Guess I'm going to k.r.s office tomorrow to ask why they gave me a deadline if nobody was going to meet it
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I get it uea, you hate me.
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Just give me my fucking degree and let me leave
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All this university experience has done was give me actual physical trauma and the horrible realisation that nobody fucking cares.
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I just want my fucky wucky number back
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OK so I'm not getting my grades back today. Great. They don't know when they'll get them back. Great.
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🤡 🤡 🤡 🤡 🤡 🤡 🤡 🤡
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Like I feel bad for being pissed off becusse the marking on their end seems to have been absolute hell. I'm trying my best to be considerate but fucking hell from start to finish this diss process has been like pulling teeth.
18:41
Wow, I'm a cunt
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Dupendous Lew 03/22/2022 7:44 PM
You’re not a cunt maddi you’re going through a lot of stuff and when something goes wrong it makes you more likely to react negatively it’s a naturally human thing and the anticipation of wanting that grade back is fair enough as long as you aren’t lashing out at people they will understand the frustration it’s completely normal
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notliamhyde02 03/22/2022 8:43 PM
um what??? 🤨🤨
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ffs
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think I'm coming down with smth. suddenly feel extremely nauseous and i think i have a fever cwying
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notliamhyde02 03/23/2022 8:35 PM
like a cold?
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trying to focus on this essay and I'm struggling to comprehend words
20:35
yeah maybe idrk
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notliamhyde02 03/23/2022 8:35 PM
got the same thing currently
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mahariel
trying to focus on this essay and I'm struggling to comprehend words
notliamhyde02 03/23/2022 8:35 PM
also same
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ughhh suffering together
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notliamhyde02 03/23/2022 8:35 PM
meant to do some productive things today but just slept and did nothing
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unfortunately i have a v important presentation tomorrow that i need to practice for
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notliamhyde02 03/23/2022 8:35 PM
ah fuck
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and i am struggling
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my anxiety has suddenly spiked for no reason too
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my brain is just whispering "hmm smth is wrong" over and over and i just ??? what ??
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it's so weird bc I'm really happy that I'm finally understanding and enjoying my coursework while simultaneously feeling so anxious about smth terrible happening
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think I'm coming down with smth. suddenly feel extremely nauseous and i think i have a fever cwying
I think I have this too
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I felt really sick this morning
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Now my eyes are low-key burning
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mumblingmiss 03/23/2022 9:03 PM
Oh nooooo I hope you guys are okay :(((
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will.minchin25 03/23/2022 9:03 PM
Knew you weren’t well
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Literally said to holly I didn’t think you were well, make sure you rest up
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How about I recover in 10th bites
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Minutes
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May go for a walk soon as well
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Just Bleugh
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will.minchin25 03/23/2022 9:04 PM
You’re gonna feel miraculously better in 10 minutes
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covid-22 uncontrollable_sobbing
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mumblingmiss 03/23/2022 9:04 PM
Make sure you have lots of fluids and rest
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will.minchin25 03/23/2022 9:04 PM
Also don’t push your self Ik you’re injured rn
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Watch me recover
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I’m about 2 minutes away from entering God Complex B
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will.minchin25 03/23/2022 9:07 PM
Do it
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think I'm coming down with smth. suddenly feel extremely nauseous and i think i have a fever cwying
Fuckboy Drag King 03/23/2022 9:16 PM
me knowing full well you're getting sick, days after when I was dying of flu
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I want to stop completely freaking the fuck out when I see my old housemate on campus why do I feel like I'm in immediate danger around him.
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Confessions BOT 03/24/2022 3:54 PM
Anonymous Confession
"tfw you nearly come out to your family as trans 😶"
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Confessions BOT 03/24/2022 7:49 PM
Anonymous Confession
"First appointment with my GP to discuss Trans issues in a few weeks 😳"
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will.minchin25 03/24/2022 7:53 PM
Go you op! (edited)
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aww proud of you OP
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Hell yeah! ❤️
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will.minchin25 03/24/2022 10:48 PM
I swtg if I get ill
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I am gonna hang myself
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Someone at one of my jobs came up positive
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The day after I’d been working with her
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Then 4 kids have had and are currently off with covid (potentially more but as of yet is unconfirmed)
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I had a child tell me there older sibling was sent home from school for being unwell to only have them turn around and cough directly into my face 4 FUCKING TIMES!
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On top of that they also have a case of explosive diarrhoea going around and we had at least 3 chidkren j can think of from the top of my head that had it
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notliamhyde02 03/24/2022 10:52 PM
jesus christ
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will.minchin25 03/24/2022 10:55 PM
The joys of working with children
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I nearly threw up after I had to deal with the toilet stuff earlier
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I just couldn’t cause ya know
22:56
Being watched by kids
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notliamhyde02 03/25/2022 12:21 AM
what year were they in
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will.minchin25 03/25/2022 12:21 AM
They were toddlers in the 2-3 room
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I think it’s 2-3’s anyway
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notliamhyde02 03/25/2022 12:22 AM
i could never
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eyfs is something i’m staying away from
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not just cos of that
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will.minchin25 03/25/2022 12:22 AM
I wnat to go into teaching
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notliamhyde02 03/25/2022 12:22 AM
but i don’t want to fuck their education up early and then mess them up for the rest of school
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will.minchin25 03/25/2022 12:23 AM
Tbis is just something to do on the side cause it’s kinda relevant
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Or related
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However@you look at it
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notliamhyde02 03/25/2022 12:23 AM
do you get paid?
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will.minchin25 03/25/2022 12:23 AM
Yes
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notliamhyde02 03/25/2022 12:23 AM
ah fair enough
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will.minchin25 03/25/2022 12:23 AM
It’s an actual job
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notliamhyde02 03/25/2022 12:23 AM
i see
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will.minchin25 03/25/2022 12:23 AM
Not just a placement
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But I’m bank staff
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notliamhyde02 03/25/2022 12:23 AM
i’m going for my first placement after easter
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bricking it ngl
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like ive had experience but ive not had to actually teach
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will.minchin25 03/25/2022 12:24 AM
I’ve had placement experience where I’ve run and created activities for small groups
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But never a whole class
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I’ve got a morning in tinny babies and an afternoon in pre school tomorrow
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Tbh preschools alright after lunch
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notliamhyde02 03/25/2022 12:25 AM
hopefully i won’t have to do full class yet
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will.minchin25 03/25/2022 12:25 AM
You can sit and talk to the kids and have actual conversation
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notliamhyde02 03/25/2022 12:25 AM
yeah i guess mornings are stressful
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yeah i guess mornings are stressful
will.minchin25 03/25/2022 12:26 AM
Lunch is stressful
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Some kids don’t eat
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Some go home
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You get the odd one who needs a nap
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And if it’s two sittings then bloody hell
00:27
But no we were talking who are favourite superheroes and villains were and why last week which was quite cool
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Ofc we got the Spider-Man stans but one kid was like “my favourite is ant-man” and when I asked why I was told “because he can go really really small or super big and tall”
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I wanted to make a non binary joke earlier cause I had a toddler sitting with me and I was like “are you a boy” and they said no, so I asked if they were a girl and again they said no and when I said what are you then they went “I’m insert child’s name😂
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Oh and everyone else was a girl even tho they were calling half of them he
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So I don’t think the kid quite realises the different between a boy and girl yet lol
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notliamhyde02 03/25/2022 12:33 AM
honestly embrace that
00:33
just refer to that kid by they’re name for the rest of time
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will.minchin25 03/25/2022 12:33 AM
Not gonna tell them what they are lol
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notliamhyde02 03/25/2022 12:33 AM
don’t be the blue haired lib with pronounce
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will.minchin25 03/25/2022 12:34 AM
It was funny I asked if their teddy was a boy or a girl and they said no it’s just “Roar” (that’s the teddy’s name) and then the kid kept referring to it as a he 😂
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notliamhyde02 03/25/2022 12:50 AM
gender is a social construct after all
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they’ll get it
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eventually
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I’m getting
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Really bad
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Intrusive thoughts which won’t let me sleep
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I haven’t had them in a while and it’s freaking me out
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I haven’t had them in a while and it’s freaking me out
notliamhyde02 03/25/2022 2:29 AM
what’s up?
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what’s up?
Dmed you
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notliamhyde02 03/25/2022 1:10 PM
onthatass just charged me a tenner for no reason
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cancelled the subscription and apparently it’s still gone out 🙃
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and my mother’s day gift i sent home didn’t get delivered
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it’s lego why did they not just leave it
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will.minchin25 03/25/2022 9:54 PM
Well that’s crap
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notliamhyde02 03/25/2022 10:13 PM
luckily i could send the thing from dpd to my dad and he picked it up
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and my mum loved it so that’s good
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but still
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Dupendous Lew 03/26/2022 12:44 PM
Bloody work day from hell and there’s still 3 1/2 hours left 🙃
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mumblingmiss 03/26/2022 12:47 PM
:( hope it goes fast so you can escape
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Dupendous Lew 03/26/2022 12:50 PM
Thank you. Glad I have next Saturday off so hopefully I avoid this shot show next week
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notliamhyde02 03/26/2022 3:54 PM
this annoys the fuck out of me
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it annoys me that i can’t just correct people
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i hate it
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Ow
notliamhyde02 03/26/2022 7:01 PM
ikr
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notliamhyde02
this annoys the fuck out of me
notliamhyde02 03/26/2022 7:01 PM
wait ow to this or something else?
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will.minchin25 03/26/2022 7:53 PM
Tesco had no white monsters or any caramel lattes 😭😭
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will.minchin25 03/28/2022 6:01 AM
I actually hate that I thought I’d plugged my phone in but hadn’t
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Send reinforcements I'm seeing isaac today
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kazoo girl
Send reinforcements I'm seeing isaac today
Dupendous Lew 03/28/2022 11:28 AM
I send you all my hope and patience
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kazoo girl
Send reinforcements I'm seeing isaac today
will.minchin25 03/28/2022 12:46 PM
You got this
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Mini rant but got around to ordering some new boots because my other ones are awful. Turns out I ordered the wrong size and they don't take returns :)
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will.minchin25 03/28/2022 2:00 PM
What about exchanges?
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Nope, nothing
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On that topic if anyone wants a free pair of 39 sized white boots hmu
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will.minchin25 03/28/2022 2:01 PM
What’s that in terms like uk sizing
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No idea, but I feel like I should find out for future reference too
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will.minchin25 03/28/2022 2:02 PM
Is there a sticker on the inside flap?
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Or does it say on the bottom of the shoe?
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Nope, just 39
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It's a 6 apparently
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mumblingmiss 03/28/2022 2:03 PM
I think a 39 is an 8?
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will.minchin25 03/28/2022 2:03 PM
Okay according to Google it’s a 6.5
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mumblingmiss 03/28/2022 2:03 PM
Wow many different results lmao
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Wow I was so very far off with my order
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This is why you don't do online shopping without sleeping kids :)
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mumblingmiss 03/28/2022 2:04 PM
What do they look like?
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will.minchin25 03/28/2022 2:04 PM
I would take them, cause I’m desperate for a pair of boots. However they’d be too small for me
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mumblingmiss 03/28/2022 2:05 PM
Omg they're cute
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Are you by any chance a size 6?
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mumblingmiss 03/28/2022 2:06 PM
I actually am lmao but sometimes depending on the brand they can be too big
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Well I'm happy to hold onto them and next time you're in Norwich you can try them out if you want?
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mumblingmiss 03/28/2022 2:07 PM
That would be great :) do you want anything for them I don't mind paying
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No need
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Thanks though :)
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will.minchin25 03/28/2022 3:17 PM
I was in the middle of playing and the game card popped out 😭😭😭😭
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I am going to find the lazy pos who hasn't even finished marking my dissertation yet and I am going to punch them
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Dupendous Lew 03/28/2022 5:53 PM
Give them a second one from me as well pls
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notliamhyde02 03/28/2022 11:15 PM
why the fuck has my laptop just stopped connecting to wifi (edited)
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like there not even an option for wifi
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what the fuck
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i need to do my work but i can’t if ive got no fucking internet
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please some help me i may actually cry
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mumblingmiss 03/28/2022 11:18 PM
That's weird, have you done the usual restart trick?
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notliamhyde02 03/28/2022 11:18 PM
yep
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like i’m not kidding wi-fi just doesn’t exist
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either have to use ethernet, hotspot or fucking dial up
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mumblingmiss 03/28/2022 11:20 PM
Oh shit
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notliamhyde02 03/28/2022 11:25 PM
fucking agony
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literally working fine one second
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and broke the next
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notliamhyde02 03/28/2022 11:34 PM
ok it’s decided to work now
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jfc
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mumblingmiss 03/28/2022 11:34 PM
Omg so glad
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Tech is so frustrating
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Dupendous Lew 03/28/2022 11:35 PM
Can someone pls take liams internet off of a boomerang it’s causing them distress
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But in all seriousness I’m glad it started working again
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Confessions BOT 03/28/2022 11:37 PM
Anonymous Confession
"don't take stimulants you shouldn't be taking kids"
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mumblingmiss 03/28/2022 11:42 PM
I am so tired. I was happy today. Now I'm just so tired.
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mumblingmiss
I am so tired. I was happy today. Now I'm just so tired.
Dupendous Lew 03/28/2022 11:44 PM
Get some rest it’s deserved. I think everyone here has had a tiring day albeit all of us for different reasons so remember be kind to yourself
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Dupendous Lew
Get some rest it’s deserved. I think everyone here has had a tiring day albeit all of us for different reasons so remember be kind to yourself
mumblingmiss 03/28/2022 11:47 PM
You too. Thank you 💖
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Am I a bad person Do I get caught up in people's circuses because I'm a bad person Is this my fault
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mumblingmiss 03/28/2022 11:49 PM
No not at all
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Dupendous Lew 03/28/2022 11:50 PM
This is not your fault maddi you’re not a bad person at all. Someone else talking to you about something that you don’t wanna hear is never your fault
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Like I understand his frustration but if someone doesn't want to have a dialogue with you then they won't!
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It sucks but you need to accept that
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mumblingmiss 03/28/2022 11:50 PM
It's super difficult to avoid being dragged into others problems unfortunately so it's not your fault
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You see I know my brain fucks with me late at night and early in the morning so I don't trust it and thats okay
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That being said my brain sometimes takes that as a challenge and just goes 'ha you fucking lonely loser' despite me literally texting and sometimes flirting with people at the same time
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notliamhyde02 03/29/2022 1:02 AM
is there like a motivation shot i can take
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Not one that doesn't destroy your liver, in my experience
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notliamhyde02 03/29/2022 1:02 AM
seriously lacking in motivation for this assignment and it’s not helping in the slightest
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i don’t understand why
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i’m not depressed atm
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moods pretty decent actually
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Sometimes brains just suck and don't want to do stuff :(
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notliamhyde02 03/29/2022 1:03 AM
and ive nearly recovered from my cold
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and now im just sat here looking at books and not being able to do anything
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it’s just ass
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it’s my last written assignment of the year
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i just need a pass
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why can’t i just do it
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notliamhyde02 03/29/2022 2:04 AM
🤏 this close to just giving up on this assignment
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it’s literally one of the easier ones ive had
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especially compared to the shit show that was my last one
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but i just can’t bring myself to do it
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just want it to be over
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You can do it
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i am fucking tired of being sick ( >:, c 」∠ ) (edited)
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God same Being ill sucks I just want to be healthy again
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So I'm a failure fraud bitch who should just quit her degree now.
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will.minchin25 03/29/2022 2:35 PM
Absolutely not
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You’re an amazing human and you’re gonna ace your degree
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No I didn't get on a first on my diss it's over I'm done
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I've actually been trash this entire time
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I'm delusional
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will.minchin25 03/29/2022 2:37 PM
Get just because you didn’t get a first doesn’t mean your trash
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At least you submitted and passed your dis which is more than what some people do
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Be proud you got that far
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Well it means I'm not getting let on any masters course for cw Ever
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will.minchin25 03/29/2022 2:39 PM
Are you able to redo it!
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*?
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If so maybe consider it
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And a masters isn’t everything
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You at least have a degree now
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No. Can't get it remarked bc of how the module works without making a complaint.
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will.minchin25 03/29/2022 2:40 PM
That’s so weird surely you should be able to resist it
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Nope. Considering this was my second time on the module (1st time actually submitting bc I was hospitalised twice the first time) I don't think it's worth it
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i feel just defeated rn
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notliamhyde02 03/29/2022 4:30 PM
need to do 2 1000 word paragraphs
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and i just cannot find anything helpful for them to reference
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and what i’m writing doesn’t feel like it’s going to be enough for what they’re asking
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just doesn’t feel right
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@kazoo girl have to say, the consensus among cw diss students seems to be that our marking was v rushed and the marks were all over the place bc the 1st markers were rather incompetent. i understand your frustration tho bc i didn't quite get the mark i thought i would either. but if you remember what Giles said, a good deal of his 2:1 diss students went on to get massive publishing deals so masters courses aren't the be all and end all of things
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i lost it because my first marker complained that a story about generational trauma had too many generations in it.
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there was a grandmother/mother/grandchild relationship
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without the three characters there would be no story
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so in my perspective my first marker missed the fucking point
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this has actually fucked over my postgrad prospects.
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who did you have as your first marker?
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bc mine seems to have missed the point too lmao
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Linden Hibbert
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never fucking heard of her
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wonder if these are just postgrad students they've enlisted bc there weren't enough professors to mark these
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thought she was a man until mike googled her. shes a ldc/philisophy person bc at the very least i can understand a dude not understanding a story about mothers.
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i cant get a remark :/
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it sucks that our degree is so damn subjective
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and a bit of a slap in the face getting praise heaped on by my supervisor and workshop group and then it all being halted by one person
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like quite frankly linden didnt understand my piece she just didnt. and her feedback makes it SO CLEAR she didnt any other module i could get a remark for that
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if it was any other module i could
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anyway friendship ended with ldc
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looked over my feedback lindon thought the "witch" referring to lorelei was a separate character got another characters name wrong pain
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im gonna have to make a formal complaint arent i
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Honestly seems likely from what I've read here :/
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will.minchin25 03/29/2022 5:31 PM
Honestly gonna kick off
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How dare she blame me
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And how dare the other one try to guilt me
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The first one can’t keep putting it off and now blame me for not having money
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She owes a minimum of £80
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And now says I shoudlnt go out and enjoy myself on the rare occasion I do
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Like actually go fuck yoursef
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How I spend my money is irrelevant
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She’s owed money since January and keeps putting it off
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And is now trying to guilt me
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And Lucy
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Absolute fucking twat (edited)
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How fucking dare she try and guilt me like that
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Ik I have someone in here I live with
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And if you see this
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I’m sorry
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But I’m fed up of her fucking shit
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I’m fed up of being emotionally abused by her and she can’t tell me to not bring up the debt owed by someone else
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And she can’t talk about how she stopped talking about being evicted because she didn’t
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She saw how stressed we were
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We told her
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And she carried on all the time about how unfair it was and “did we not care she was being evicted” which never happened in the end
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I am literally one incident away from ratting them out for EVERYTHING and ending the tenancy early
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Sorry to everyone who reads this
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Omfg the audacity
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“I get paid a week on Saturday I’m sure you can manage 10 days x” (edited)
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The audacity
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I’ve been so patient because she’s pregnant and I wanted to give her the benefit of the doubt but I’m so fed up of it
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Will I’m really sorry :/
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will.minchin25 03/29/2022 5:53 PM
It’s not your fault
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Ellie’s taking the piss and you know what Lucy’s like
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In fact she told me not to bring it up them about ellie but talk to you instead @B
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In fact she told me not to bring it up them about ellie but talk to you instead @B
Sorry who!
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will.minchin25 03/29/2022 5:54 PM
Lucy
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And why bring it to me?
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will.minchin25 03/29/2022 5:55 PM
Cause “it stresses sav out”
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I’m sorry, but do they not understand the stress you are out under
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You are made to pay for the bills they refuse to pay
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will.minchin25 03/29/2022 5:55 PM
Yep
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You work 4 days aweek and have people literally take the piss out of you for money
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will.minchin25 03/29/2022 5:55 PM
But that’s not there problem
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So they don’t care
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And blame you when you can’t go out
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will.minchin25 03/29/2022 5:56 PM
Ellie told me if I didn’t go out I might have some money
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Sorry but you don’t go out for weeks?
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will.minchin25 03/29/2022 5:56 PM
Yep
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I’ve been out Sunday and for a little bit Monday
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And that wasn’t really going out
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Omfg
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will.minchin25 03/29/2022 6:01 PM
I hate it there
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Im gonna match the energy now
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Im not gonna be polite
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I’ll treat them how they treat me
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mumblingmiss 03/29/2022 6:02 PM
As you should
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They get back what they give
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will.minchin25 03/29/2022 6:02 PM
I’m ready to fight lucy honestly
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I’m fully prepared to stand there and have a screaming match with her
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notliamhyde02 03/29/2022 6:03 PM
why are flatmates/housemates so inconsiderate
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will.minchin25 03/29/2022 6:03 PM
Because they’re selfish
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mumblingmiss 03/29/2022 6:03 PM
I'm sorry that you are stuck dealing with this bs
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will.minchin25 03/29/2022 6:03 PM
I’ve been dealing with it since July it’s just coming to a head now
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mumblingmiss 03/29/2022 6:03 PM
Nobody deserves a bad roommate other than a bad roommate
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will.minchin25 03/29/2022 6:03 PM
Again
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notliamhyde02 03/29/2022 6:04 PM
literally just asked some of mine for some help with this assignment and they kept dicking about while i was talking to them
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mumblingmiss
Nobody deserves a bad roommate other than a bad roommate
will.minchin25 03/29/2022 6:04 PM
I’ve got 2 so it’s fine
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mumblingmiss 03/29/2022 6:04 PM
I hope you get away from them soon and they get what's coming to them
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will.minchin25 03/29/2022 6:05 PM
June I might
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mumblingmiss 03/29/2022 6:05 PM
Bless you
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notliamhyde02 03/29/2022 6:06 PM
good things happen in june
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will.minchin25 03/29/2022 6:10 PM
Hopefully
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mumblingmiss 03/29/2022 7:17 PM
My dad says things he knows I'll argue with and always looks straight at me when he does because even as he's just said he looks straight at me bc he knows I will argue with him, but if i argue he's always like why do you always have to argue with me when I say something so I was just like because that's what you wait for me to do so maybe if you just stopped saying those things you know ill argue with then I won't have to argue and then he just talks to me like a kid like if you're gonna act like that you can go sit in your bedroom. He can't seem to grasp that I'm only like this because of him, I don't want to hold back a panic attack every time he talks just because he's allowed to say whatever he wants but seemingly I'm not otherwise I'm attacking him and it's just so exhausting. I'm fuckin 20 I have opinions I have a voice and I'm not some mindless woman without rights, this is my home and my family too and there are some comments I simply can't let slide and sometimes I'll say something simple and very uncontroversial and apparently that's me arguing???? Fucking hell (edited)
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My dad says things he knows I'll argue with and always looks straight at me when he does because even as he's just said he looks straight at me bc he knows I will argue with him, but if i argue he's always like why do you always have to argue with me when I say something so I was just like because that's what you wait for me to do so maybe if you just stopped saying those things you know ill argue with then I won't have to argue and then he just talks to me like a kid like if you're gonna act like that you can go sit in your bedroom. He can't seem to grasp that I'm only like this because of him, I don't want to hold back a panic attack every time he talks just because he's allowed to say whatever he wants but seemingly I'm not otherwise I'm attacking him and it's just so exhausting. I'm fuckin 20 I have opinions I have a voice and I'm not some mindless woman without rights, this is my home and my family too and there are some comments I simply can't let slide and sometimes I'll say something simple and very uncontroversial and apparently that's me arguing???? Fucking hell (edited)
Dupendous Lew 03/29/2022 7:24 PM
I feel this one to my core my dad is pretty much exactly the same way I’m so sorry you have to deal with that. Freedom to speak your mind is for everyone but you still gotta expect to get your ideas challenged at the same time Bloody boomers
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Dupendous Lew
I feel this one to my core my dad is pretty much exactly the same way I’m so sorry you have to deal with that. Freedom to speak your mind is for everyone but you still gotta expect to get your ideas challenged at the same time Bloody boomers
mumblingmiss 03/29/2022 7:25 PM
For real I just don't understand the audacity of it really especially if you know you're gonna make me say something. Goddamn boomers
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pain of getting everything done for my masters application and then having to wait around for my dad to send me my a-level transcript uncontrollable_sobbing
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that little yellow uncompleted dot pains me
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mumblingmiss 03/29/2022 9:09 PM
Oh god that's sickening
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Hey at least youll actually be considered for a masters
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My life's fucking ruined
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hnnnnnggggg done.
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kazoo girl
Hey at least youll actually be considered for a masters
it's still definitely worth applying. grades are a v small part of applications and they're much more interested in your personal statement, portfolio, and work experience
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kazoo girl
Hey at least youll actually be considered for a masters
Dupendous Lew 03/29/2022 9:34 PM
What Jory said, grades are not the be all end all of something like this I’ve known people go on to go masters with worse grades overall then you have gotten.
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I'd be more at peace about this if my grade hadn't been messed with because the marker didn't read the fucking properly.
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Dupendous Lew 03/29/2022 9:38 PM
Oh for sure that’s valid reason to be annoyed
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Dupendous Lew 03/30/2022 10:20 AM
So that was perhaps the worst early awakening I’ve ever had. Woke up at 6 to what I can only describe as a very mild form of sleep paralysis which I’ve never experienced before. I was able to get out of it after only a little bit but still was rough as hell
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mumblingmiss 03/30/2022 10:24 AM
Are you okay??? Sleep paralysis can be pretty scary especially if you haven't dealt with it before 😔
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Dupendous Lew 03/30/2022 10:41 AM
I think I’ll be alright it’s been a few hours now and feel ok did just shake me up a little bit even if it was way shorter then when most people experience it
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mumblingmiss 03/30/2022 10:57 AM
Well I hope it doesn't become a common thing for you, all good as long as you're okay now
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Dupendous Lew 03/30/2022 10:59 AM
Same here, thanks for the concern tho really appreciate it 🧡
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Confessions BOT 03/30/2022 2:29 PM
Anonymous Confession
"hate how paranoid I get. Whenever I'm supposed to get out and do something with someone new, or even people I know on occasion, I end up backing out or being really nervous the entire time. Ends up with me (TW: alcohol) drinking, often a bit too much by the end of the night, to tolerate it. Feeling like I need to drink every time I go out with new people or I'm nervous at this point, and I know that's really not healthy"
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what the fuck
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is going on
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Touching grass is no longer enough, I need the grass to touch me (edited)
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Dupendous Lew 03/31/2022 9:53 PM
Having big self doubt/self esteem issue hours rn. Fun times 🙃
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will.minchin25 04/01/2022 6:34 AM
Pretty sure a wisdom tooth is starting to come through and the pain has woken me up
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will.minchin25
Pretty sure a wisdom tooth is starting to come through and the pain has woken me up
mumblingmiss 04/01/2022 7:36 AM
Oh no are you okay?? Those things are torture
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mumblingmiss
Oh no are you okay?? Those things are torture
will.minchin25 04/01/2022 11:19 AM
I’ll be okay it just woke me up at like 6am and I wasn’t impressed lol
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Just tired
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And feeling a bit down today
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will.minchin25 04/01/2022 1:37 PM
I’m sorry to hear thst, if I can help you feel better at all let me know
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will.minchin25 04/03/2022 2:45 AM
If I ever find out who stuffed a glass down the loo I will literally slap the shit out of you xoxo
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who the fuck are you living with jesus christ
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will.minchin25
If I ever find out who stuffed a glass down the loo I will literally slap the shit out of you xoxo
notliamhyde02 04/03/2022 1:49 PM
i’m hoping that’s at work not at home
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will.minchin25 04/03/2022 3:07 PM
Sorry yes this was at work
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I’d have gone ape shit if it was at home
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will.minchin25 04/03/2022 4:50 PM
Yet again 90% if the cutlery is gone
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where do you work??!
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will.minchin25 04/03/2022 11:31 PM
Well I have one job in a nursery and another in a nightclub
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In this context it’s a nightclub
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ah the nightclub makes sense unless some 4 year old was playing "will it flush" with a stolen glass
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notliamhyde02 04/04/2022 8:04 AM
fire alarm at 8 am when i couldn’t sleep until half 6 🙃
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ah the nightclub makes sense unless some 4 year old was playing "will it flush" with a stolen glass
will.minchin25 04/04/2022 9:47 AM
Hahaha
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mumblingmiss 04/04/2022 9:55 AM
Endless tiredness I stg
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will.minchin25 04/04/2022 9:57 AM
What’s up
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mumblingmiss 04/04/2022 10:01 AM
I just have work to do but I keep having to push it back constantly bc god I hardly even have the energy to move myself around the house let alone write stuff. And I know it will pass eventually but these lows just leave me frustrated as hell. Like this is my body and mind and I can't even make it do what I want or need to do
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It's the kind of thing I forget I have to deal with until it comes back around to make me tired again
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will.minchin25 04/04/2022 10:04 AM
I’m really sorry to hear that hopefully things improve for you
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mumblingmiss 04/04/2022 10:06 AM
Thank you
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Dupendous Lew 04/04/2022 10:31 AM
I’m sure you will get through this CB sometimes your body and or mind can be your worst enemy but as you say it passes eventually and when it does you will feel loads better so keep that in mind
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But yeah take it at your own pace
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mumblingmiss 04/04/2022 10:58 AM
Thanks Lewis
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i have an irrational feeling that whenever a specific housemate is at home i simply do not want to be here
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i have an irrational feeling that whenever a specific housemate is at home i simply do not want to be here
will.minchin25 04/04/2022 7:48 PM
Ha same
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problem is i have drunk a bit and don't think i should be out wandering the streets of norwich, and I have nothing to do at the library lol
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will.minchin25 04/04/2022 7:50 PM
Ah
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Deleted User 04/05/2022 11:03 AM
Ok I’m so embarrassed right now. I thought I’d got past all the voice braking and puberty but no,so I answer the door to the postman and as I start to say “hello” my throat makes a horrible squeaking sound and my voice breaks. Never been so embarrassed in my life, even the postman gave me a funny look as if to say “well that’s unfortunate” 😭😭😭
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Just milk it, try to make the most eldritch noises possible
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Ok I’m so embarrassed right now. I thought I’d got past all the voice braking and puberty but no,so I answer the door to the postman and as I start to say “hello” my throat makes a horrible squeaking sound and my voice breaks. Never been so embarrassed in my life, even the postman gave me a funny look as if to say “well that’s unfortunate” 😭😭😭
will.minchin25 04/05/2022 11:40 AM
Omg id feel so embarrassed
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Yesterday I squeaked at one of the construction workers outside because they jogged their wheelbarrow and it made a noise that started me
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Doesn't help that he looks suspiciously like the guy who tried to dox me (and that I got messages from this when next door started to yet building work done) but lol I'm being paranoid
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will.minchin25 04/05/2022 3:51 PM
That’s normal tho
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Ngl i still get worried that I’ve found this creep who lives near B fairly often and he was being creepy and rude
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Nothing anywhere near as bad as what that guy did to you
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So it’s normal
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Try not to stress it
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mumblingmiss 04/05/2022 4:59 PM
Missed a train and cried. That's all.
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I have accidentally black metal screeched at our postie before because the scream part of song kicked in as I opened the door to leave
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Eeeeen
I have accidentally black metal screeched at our postie before because the scream part of song kicked in as I opened the door to leave
notliamhyde02 04/05/2022 8:05 PM
oh dear
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poor postie
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notliamhyde02 04/05/2022 8:21 PM
A police sergeant grabbed a junior officer by the throat after she tried to pull him away from threatening a Black man in custody — watch the shocking moment (warning: distressing)
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fucking vile
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notliamhyde02 04/06/2022 2:25 PM
just saw the cutest tiktok of a couple and it’s made me feel so lonely
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the heartstopper audio was a must 😁#gay #lgbt #fyp #heartstopper
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i know i should be hopeful but i’m finding it very hard to not think i’ll be alone forever
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notliamhyde02 04/06/2022 2:36 PM
feels like i’m going to be waiting forever
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notliamhyde02
feels like i’m going to be waiting forever
Dupendous Lew 04/06/2022 3:26 PM
I can assure you that won’t be the case, these things can a lot of the time jump out at you when you least expect you just gotta be ready to grab that opportunity. Very motivational pageant ass response I know but I do believe it. But fair enough being in your feelings about it I cannot criticise that I’m like that more then anyone lol
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Dupendous Lew
I can assure you that won’t be the case, these things can a lot of the time jump out at you when you least expect you just gotta be ready to grab that opportunity. Very motivational pageant ass response I know but I do believe it. But fair enough being in your feelings about it I cannot criticise that I’m like that more then anyone lol
notliamhyde02 04/06/2022 3:28 PM
thank you x
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notliamhyde02 04/06/2022 4:36 PM
you know i really didn’t need to see this
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ik it’s probably a joke but still :/
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will.minchin25 04/06/2022 5:51 PM
Ouch that’s not fun when your down I’m sorry
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notliamhyde02
feels like i’m going to be waiting forever
Honestly same, but the wait will be worth it. Waiting for a good person is always a good thing ☺️ (sorry, just looking through messages to get an idea of the server and people and thought I should say something)
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Bv_
Honestly same, but the wait will be worth it. Waiting for a good person is always a good thing ☺️ (sorry, just looking through messages to get an idea of the server and people and thought I should say something)
notliamhyde02 04/06/2022 10:19 PM
aw thanks
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also dw i’m not always this sad
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¯\_(ツ)_/¯
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All feelings are valid
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mumblingmiss 04/06/2022 10:19 PM
Good luck with figuring out everyone btw
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notliamhyde02 04/06/2022 10:20 PM
yeah that’s a tough order
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but good luck :)
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i have
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a fever
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cwying
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mumblingmiss 04/07/2022 9:34 PM
Nooo :((
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head has that "filled with cotton" feeling and I'm freezing
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hope this passes soon
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i have so much work to do jfc
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mahariel
hope this passes soon
Dupendous Lew 04/07/2022 9:46 PM
Same here can’t be having fever season rn you gotta work to do and goblin antics to achieve I’m sure
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hahaha v true
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hope you get better soon
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Dupendous Lew 04/07/2022 9:47 PM
Oh sorry don’t think I worded that correctly I meant same I hope it passes soon, I ain’t sick myself aside from mentally I guess but that’s to be expected
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Oh sorry don’t think I worded that correctly I meant same I hope it passes soon, I ain’t sick myself aside from mentally I guess but that’s to be expected
mumblingmiss 04/07/2022 9:50 PM
Oh god I felt that one
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slowly working through the stuff i have to write but keep passing out midway
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words are v blurry and that's not helping
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nausea bad
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v bad
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mahariel
v bad
Please rest
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Confessions BOT 04/08/2022 12:02 AM
Anonymous Confession
"I’m so very lost, things are going my way but I still focus on the things that I don’t have? I know I need to concentrate on the now and the things that I’m doing but honestly these holidays at home just slow my brain down too much"
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notliamhyde02 04/08/2022 12:23 AM
think my whole blocks lost wi-fi
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which is fantastic 🙃
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started young justice today and was really enjoying it until i was rudely interrupted
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Please rest
trying to. just woke up again after passing out and feels like my heartbeats at 200mph lol
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mahariel
trying to. just woke up again after passing out and feels like my heartbeats at 200mph lol
Maybe you wanna see how you are in the morning and if it’s worse phone the doctor?
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yeah i will but its fine
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deadlines fucking with me
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Dupendous Lew 04/08/2022 6:32 AM
Tired and motivationless at work ain’t the best combo tbh
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hate this illness. i get brief moments of feeling alright before suddenly getting hit by nausea
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whole body's shaking again and i can't keep anything down
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will.minchin25 04/08/2022 4:38 PM
I’m really sorry to hear that, maybe take a rest
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I've been resting all day really
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haven't felt this lethargic in so so long
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Please ring a doctor
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it's nothing major dw
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just a shitty case of the flu i assume
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besides docs are so overwhelmed rn that they'll just tell me to deal with it
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Confessions BOT 04/08/2022 7:06 PM
Anonymous Confession
"Strange feeling finding out that half of my course dislikes me bc of my history with one person. Thought I made great impressions with all of them before the drama went down but guess gossip and that person's hatred of me travelled faster. Will only have to deal with them for another couple of months but it hurts being isolated"
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notliamhyde02 04/09/2022 4:11 AM
no sleep for me
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just as soon as i was getting my sleep schedule back on track
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Oh no, I'm sorry
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I hope you managed to get some sleep at least
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Dupendous Lew 04/09/2022 2:40 PM
Big time tired the one two punch of my Friday and Saturday shifts still tires me out
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hope you'll be able to get some rest after this shift is done
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TW: threats honestly dont expect to get rattled by the stupid threats that I get but sometimes they fuck with me more than I realise initially
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Fuckboy Drag King 04/09/2022 4:47 PM
are you alright Erin?
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will.minchin25 04/09/2022 4:47 PM
Hey are you okay erin? I’m here if you wanna talk about anything
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what's up erin? who's threatening you?
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It's just stupid people on dating apps, they don't mean anything other than them being petty but I let it effect me more than I should. Sorry, should've clarified 😓 I'm not in actual danger
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no that's still incredibly shitty of them and I'm sorry you've had these experiences
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ik there's not much you can do beyond reporting them but pls still do
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Will do, thanks
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Confessions BOT 04/09/2022 10:07 PM
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"i really need to get over this person. i keep thinking about being with them when i know it’s not going to happen and that they are already happy. i know it’s not going to happen yet i cant see to get over it"
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Honestly I've been there, it's really tough 😓 it can take a long time to get over something like this unfortunately, but you do eventually. Hope you feel better soon OP ❤
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Maybe talking to the person could help?
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I've gone through the exact same thing recently and there were two things I did that stopped my feelings for him
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One was to block him and everyone connected to him
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The other was...well kinda bad so I'll not suggest that
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Removing all contact with the person and any mutuals will be the only way to ensure you are removing them from your life
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And by getting rid of them, finding a new path in life will make it easier
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But it's not easy
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It takes time
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A lot of time
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notliamhyde02 04/09/2022 11:07 PM
very lonely
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Currently drowning in alcohol, which is not the best idea but too late 😂
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Well I'm not drowning yet, I've only had two glasses recently, three in total today
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I'm a huge lightweight so two is enough (edited)
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notliamhyde02 04/09/2022 11:09 PM
i have to wait until monday night when i’m with my friends to get drunk
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unless i get more but ive already spent sm recently
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notliamhyde02
very lonely
Honestly though, if wanna talk, I'm happy to chat about it, bcs like fully feeling the same
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notliamhyde02
i have to wait until monday night when i’m with my friends to get drunk
Ooh have fun 😊
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Bv_
Honestly though, if wanna talk, I'm happy to chat about it, bcs like fully feeling the same
notliamhyde02 04/09/2022 11:10 PM
may take you up on that, thanks x (edited)
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Np, I know what it's like to feel alone...like rn 😂
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Bv_
I'm a huge lightweight so two is enough (edited)
Depends on what I'm drinking tbh
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Dupendous Lew 04/09/2022 11:12 PM
Squad depression hour amiright, but nah you’re very much not alone here bud. Here for the support
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We love mutual aloneness
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I should just book a lecture theatre on campus for a week
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That way I can set up discord 24/7 and just wait for people to come in person or virtually and no one will be alone
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And then I'm also close to the su shop for more alcohol
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To quote Wilbur Soot
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'I'm bored, pissed off and lonely horny'
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'I'm bored, pissed off and lonely horny'
notliamhyde02 04/09/2022 11:36 PM
yep feel that
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Very very relatable
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Confessions BOT 04/10/2022 12:53 AM
Anonymous Confession
"conflicted on whether i should say something to this person about my feelings. i don’t want anything bad to happen and im not too sure it will even help how i feel"
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Op is there a reason why you can’t tell them
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Like are they single or?
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Confessions BOT 04/10/2022 1:33 AM
Anonymous Confession
"they’re taken. i’m sure nothing bad would happen but i don’t want to risk it, tho i may have to bite the bullet"
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Valid, I hope it’s okay
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Being single is the fucking worst/being in a toxic relationship is the fucking worst (hate that those have been my only experiences in relationships)…everyone deserves someone to love them and keep them warm and safe
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My brain is misbehaving again 🙃 at this point I have no idea what's going on half the time
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Confessions BOT 04/10/2022 5:09 PM
Anonymous Confession
"I need change in my life so badly. I'm miserable and self destructive and constantly living for other people. I need to change or else I think I might actually die soon. Not to be dramatic ofc, I just think if i don't change, my life won't get any better."
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I doubt I could be much help OP but I felt somewhat similar a year ago, if you ever want to talk please be free to DM, or want to do something fun for yourself. Really hope things improve for you soon ❤
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https://vm.tiktok.com/ZMLX5NDAU/ what in the fuckin toxic masculinity is this
If you read this and don’t follow, you’ll lose your headphones :) // #couple #flirt #cute #tease #relationship #crush #love
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Take a read of this
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Tw; mentions of SA and victim blaming. As well as disgusting Cis het man
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will.minchin25 04/10/2022 11:22 PM
Kid deserves a slap
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will.minchin25
Kid deserves a slap
notliamhyde02 04/10/2022 11:30 PM
needs a kick in the balls
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notliamhyde02
needs a kick in the balls
will.minchin25 04/10/2022 11:41 PM
That’s being nice
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will.minchin25
That’s being nice
notliamhyde02 04/10/2022 11:42 PM
fine, castration
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garden sheers
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will.minchin25 04/10/2022 11:45 PM
Be more creative
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notliamhyde02 04/10/2022 11:48 PM
fine ill just rip them off
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once again uea are telling me to stop writing and that im shit (edited)
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getting the fucking rejection email from someone i know personally just adds salt to the wound
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and now im spiralling on a conspiracy theory that my old housemate was an editor (bc he would be) and veto'd my work on the spot
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would really love to have a supportive group of writing friends but that was taken away from me and cw soc has my abusers in so fuck me i guess
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notliamhyde02 04/11/2022 10:40 PM
feeling very conflicted rn
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wanna do something but idk how or if i should
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but it’s making me feel very lonely
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was meant to see some friends today but had to wait until later cos it was gonna rain when we planned to meet
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and now i’m at home stuck in the house with not much to do
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notliamhyde02
wanna do something but idk how or if i should
What would you do?
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notliamhyde02
but it’s making me feel very lonely
Understandable, it's a horribly complex emotion
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i am Not counting the days but i Am going absolutely nuts
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notliamhyde02 04/13/2022 12:46 AM
not so much a vent but
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why do i only like my face when it’s not smiling
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and my hair is slightly all over the place
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There's a thing that suggests that certain emotions, like smiling, when you see yiur own face causes a sense of distrust and fear
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notliamhyde02 04/13/2022 12:55 AM
i wouldn’t say it’s that necessarily
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i just like how my face looks more when i’m not smiling
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like i’ll just stare at myself in the mirror and “appreciate” my face
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but i resist the urge to smile cos i feel like it would ruin it
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idk it’s very odd
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I don’t think it is
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I don’t like myself when I smile
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And I know a lot of other people who have felt the same
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So from my personal experience, it seems to be a relatively normal feeling?
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notliamhyde02 04/13/2022 12:57 AM
hmm
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i guess so
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notliamhyde02
why do i only like my face when it’s not smiling
i get what you mean but the opposite. i only like my face while smiling and hate how flat and shapeless my face looks without round cheeks
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currently unable to sleep and I’m really bad pain
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So I’m currently in my front room so I don’t disturb anyones sleep
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Like physical pain?
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Can you take some painkillers?
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Most boring response, but still
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Are you also hydrated? Try and drink some water if you aren’t
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genuinely see a doctor
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or at least go to the pharmacy
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And then maybe do something to try and calm your mind to help sleep, like reading or something
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mahariel
genuinely see a doctor
Also this
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mahariel
genuinely see a doctor
The problem is
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I have a problem most likely genetic
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Which makes me susceptible to mouth ulcers (Yknow the non contagious untreatable stuff). It’s literally not curable bc it’s not caused by a virus or disease. Just stress triggers them. And leaves me in severe pin
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Pain
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To a point i couldn’t eat for like a solid week before whilst crying for most of it because it got so bad
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ahh yikes that's really bad then
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hm i still think a doctor's visit would be useful in getting smth prescribed to help with symptoms even if there's no cure
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hm i still think a doctor's visit would be useful in getting smth prescribed to help with symptoms even if there's no cure
Done it before
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Literally nothing they can do
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Except “wait it out”
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I hate the fact like it’s not even like anything viral or anything it’s just I had it all my life
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that sucks dude 🫂
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hope it gets better quickly this time
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A couple of things that work for me when I get them is to either swill my mouth with salt water, suck an ice cube or eat natural yogurt (helps in healing). Don’t know if you tried any of those, but could work, the first two anyway to numb the pain a little
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A couple of things that work for me when I get them is to either swill my mouth with salt water, suck an ice cube or eat natural yogurt (helps in healing). Don’t know if you tried any of those, but could work, the first two anyway to numb the pain a little
it doesnt help for too long tbh
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thanks though everyone
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I seriously should lay down but at the same time I dont wanna wake up will
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So im honestly tempted to take the sofa
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will.minchin25 04/13/2022 3:56 PM
It’s getting fucking ridiculous now, it’s been almost 2 hours since we ordered food and it’s not arrived yet
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It’s been out for delivery for at least 35 minutes if not longer and they don’t know where the driver is but apparently “it’s still on its way”
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mumblingmiss 04/13/2022 3:58 PM
I have food but I cant eat it bc there's people next to me on this train so I understand this frustration
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It's still ridiculous how long delivery can take
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will.minchin25 04/13/2022 3:59 PM
The food was meant to arrive between 2:30-2:50
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mumblingmiss 04/13/2022 3:59 PM
Thats ridiculous
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will.minchin25 04/13/2022 3:59 PM
It’s now 4pm and we don’t even know where the driver is
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mumblingmiss 04/13/2022 3:59 PM
Make sure you get a refund
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will.minchin25 04/13/2022 3:59 PM
The last update we had was 3:40
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At this point I want to cancel it but I can’t
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This is all I’m getting
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mumblingmiss 04/13/2022 4:00 PM
Wtf
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will.minchin25 04/13/2022 4:00 PM
It’s so annoying and there’s nothing I can do
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mumblingmiss 04/13/2022 4:01 PM
Can you contact the place?
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will.minchin25 04/13/2022 4:01 PM
Yeah I can call the restaurant but it’s just eat that are the problem (edited)
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Sometimes they'll just dump it outside your door tbh, which is awful in itself. Other times they do just go off the radar. Sorry you're having to deal with that
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Sometimes they'll just dump it outside your door tbh, which is awful in itself. Other times they do just go off the radar. Sorry you're having to deal with that
will.minchin25 04/13/2022 4:01 PM
I’ve checked the door
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Notbing
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mumblingmiss 04/13/2022 4:01 PM
Well they better clean up their act
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will.minchin25 04/13/2022 4:02 PM
I can’t even make a complaint atm tho
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Or even know if I can afterwards
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JustEat are being little shits then :/ might be worth calling the restaurant and just checking that the order was picked up, so you at least have some idea of what's going on. Not really much that can be done though, yeah, sorry :(
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will.minchin25 04/13/2022 4:10 PM
It’s annoying me because I have no way of contacting just eat or the driver to find out what’s going on
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Dumbest vent ever: I'm stressing so hard that my ex is still using my account on netflix bcs I never logged out the last time we used it and it's kinda stressing me out to a stupid level for no reason (it's my dad's account, just my profile thing)
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Dumbest vent ever: I'm stressing so hard that my ex is still using my account on netflix bcs I never logged out the last time we used it and it's kinda stressing me out to a stupid level for no reason (it's my dad's account, just my profile thing)
kick them off it lol
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there should be an option to sign them out of it and change the password
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I don’t know how considering I have no access to his computer anymore
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your dad's?
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My ex’s
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I assume I’d need to log him out and then he has no more access
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nah you can change the password from your dad's account page and then click the "sign out everywhere" button
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he'll automatically be kicked off it
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Oh shit, really?
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Ok, I’ll do that
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Thank youuu 💜
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you'll have to re-login to netflix on all your devices but he won't know the new password so he can't
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no worries!
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Dupendous Lew 04/14/2022 7:30 PM
Feels like this has just been me today
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Oh no, I'm sorry you've felt like that
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Bv_
Oh no, I'm sorry you've felt like that
Dupendous Lew 04/14/2022 7:52 PM
I’d say it’s more apathy then sadness when I think more about it but I appreciate that thank you
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Was drinking daily for about a week and a half, stopped yesterday because its expensive. Now I'm just bored and sober, why is the world like this, I'm going mad
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Dupendous Lew 04/15/2022 7:52 AM
Tired mf, this 6am shift never fails to feel draining lol
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notliamhyde02 04/15/2022 2:53 PM
bogged down by bad thoughts and can’t do anything
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will.minchin25 04/15/2022 2:53 PM
Ik the feeling, I’m really sorry you feel that way. All I can suggest is maybe trying to do something simple you enjoy to cheer yourself up
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will.minchin25 04/15/2022 4:10 PM
What a surprise, I come back to find out the house stinks of mould, the bathroom is filthy and it looks like no one’s cleaning it in idk how long
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I’m not being responsible for it anymore
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I’m done
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If they wanna complain it’s dirty that’s fine
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They can sort it
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I haven’t made the mess
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So I’m not sorting it
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Like there’s literally what I’m guessing is either loads and loads of folded up toilet paper or lady products just sitting in the toilet
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mumblingmiss 04/15/2022 4:13 PM
Wtf
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will.minchin25 04/15/2022 4:13 PM
There’s long hairs everywhere and just all around dirt
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mumblingmiss
Wtf
will.minchin25 04/15/2022 4:14 PM
They don’t care but infuriates me when I hear “I’m so depressed living in a dirty hosue”
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Like if you don’t like that bad clear up after yourself
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It isn’t hard
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I’m not clearing up after them tho
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mumblingmiss 04/15/2022 4:15 PM
Damn right if you can't be bothered to clean up after yourself then you have no right to complain about it
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will.minchin25 04/15/2022 4:15 PM
If it was a bit untidy I wouldn’t have an issue
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No one’s perfect
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But it’s not just untidy it’s dirty
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And I hate that
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mumblingmiss 04/15/2022 4:15 PM
You shouldn't have to be responsible for filthy lazy little assholes
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will.minchin25 04/15/2022 4:15 PM
I mean I do get made responsible
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And I hate it
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Someone told me it sounds like they see me as a “parental type figure” and that’s why they assume im gonna deal with everything regarding the house
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(Idk how tho cause they’re all older than me)
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mumblingmiss 04/15/2022 4:17 PM
And you then have to live with their bs you aren't their parents ^ especially if they're older they should have the common sense and decency
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will.minchin25 04/15/2022 4:17 PM
I’m literally so fed up of their shit
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mumblingmiss 04/15/2022 4:18 PM
I'm sorry you're stuck with this shit
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By now I'd have left some very angry paper signs around the house
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By now I'd have left some very angry paper signs around the house
will.minchin25 04/15/2022 4:19 PM
Tried leaving messages and directly addressing it with them
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Doesn’t work
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mumblingmiss 04/15/2022 4:19 PM
Jesus christ
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will.minchin25 04/15/2022 4:19 PM
I’ve literally started counselling because of shitty I’ve been made to feel by these people
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It’s that bad
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mumblingmiss 04/15/2022 4:19 PM
That's horrible
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Is there anyone else you can get to deal with them? I know its a massive pain in the ass and a mega drain but will a landlord or anyone help
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bruh i feel you so hard my housemate is the same thankflly its just her like i love her but shes so hard to live with
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Is there anyone else you can get to deal with them? I know its a massive pain in the ass and a mega drain but will a landlord or anyone help
will.minchin25 04/15/2022 4:36 PM
The landlords gave up a long time ago, one of them has her mum clean the place most of the times she comes to visit, which whilst appreciate it, I also don’t think is fair
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mumblingmiss 04/15/2022 4:40 PM
Thats completely unfair
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My mum would stop talking to me if I asked her to do something like that
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will.minchin25 04/15/2022 4:40 PM
Yep
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mumblingmiss 04/15/2022 4:40 PM
They need grow the fuck up
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will.minchin25 04/15/2022 4:40 PM
She comes in and sees it’s a mess and cleans it
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I’m just glad that by the end of June I’ll be gone
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mumblingmiss 04/15/2022 4:41 PM
Bless you
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The sooner the better
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will.minchin25 04/15/2022 4:42 PM
Not allowed to go earlier but I recon I’ll get everything out the day before clean it all and one communal area, take pictures and drop my keys of the next day. That way if there’s any problems I can go “well this is how it looked when I left”
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mumblingmiss 04/15/2022 4:43 PM
Good plan
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Honestly if you ever need a hand lmk
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will.minchin25 04/15/2022 4:44 PM
Thank you
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mumblingmiss 04/15/2022 4:45 PM
Shouldn't have to deal with it at all let alone by yourself
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will.minchin25 04/15/2022 4:45 PM
I mean B helps where he can, he’s great at that, but unfortunately that’s the way it is
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TW: Pedophilia just matched with someone on a dating app that tried to get me involved with a 16 year old, themselves saying they were 18. I feel sick
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will.minchin25 04/15/2022 4:48 PM
That’s vile
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mumblingmiss 04/15/2022 4:48 PM
Nightmare
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fucking hate this, glad I asked how old the person was because they showed no inclination of saying otherwise. Why do I even bother with this shit anymore
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mumblingmiss 04/15/2022 4:48 PM
They should really have an age check with ID or smth
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The person who was claiming to hold the account was apparently 18, just trying to get me involved with what they were doing with a 16 year old. Based on the situation, it seemed more likely it was the 16 year old pretending to be an 18 year old on a dating app. Both are disgusting as fuck though
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mumblingmiss 04/15/2022 4:50 PM
That's horrific
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It's super disgusting but unfortunately there's little we can do with the legal age of consent being 16 so as long as they are both consenting. I hate it
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thats awful i hope youre okay?
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will.minchin25 04/15/2022 7:28 PM
Update, they’ve got rid of whatever it was in the toilet
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mumblingmiss 04/15/2022 7:53 PM
Good
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Update, they’ve got rid of whatever it was in the toilet
Twink Antony 04/15/2022 8:04 PM
You kinda need water in a toilet
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You kinda need water in a toilet
will.minchin25 04/15/2022 8:09 PM
Ik that😂
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✨ Why do I bother talking to new people ✨
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mumblingmiss 04/16/2022 7:13 PM
:(( you okay??
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Just close to giving up on meeting people online at this point. Deleted dating apps yesterday, far too much shit happened with them at this point. Now one of the few people I'm talking to off those apps is just being really sketchy, asking the same question multiple times when I've already told them, they're just not satisfied with the answer
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mumblingmiss 04/16/2022 7:16 PM
Sorry to hear you keep encountering so much bs
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will.minchin25 04/16/2022 8:11 PM
Dating apps can suck I’m sorry you had a bad experience
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Also my hosuemates have literally left shit stains in the toilet upstairs
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Like they say men are bad
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But Jesus Christ
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I think girls are worse 😂
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No offence to any girls who can actually clean up after themselves
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mumblingmiss 04/16/2022 8:16 PM
Your housemate is giving us a bad rap
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I'm disowning her
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will.minchin25 04/16/2022 10:36 PM
Go ahead
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"I'm just tired at this point. I don't feel comfortable in my home half the time, I don't feel anywhere near as comfortable online now either, and there is no where I can use as an escape long term. I feel like it's partially my fault, as if I actually acted on these issues early on then I probably wouldn't have to deal with them anymore. I'm eating less again, resisting the urge to drink more, and most days just watch random rubbish or listen to music until I go to bed, despite having work due. Just think I'm about ready to start screaming at people, but I know that'll do no good, just make others feel shit too"
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will.minchin25 04/17/2022 4:05 PM
I hope you’re okay op, my dms are always open if you need a chat
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Why has my housemate dumped beans in the sink
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LoLo <3
Why has my housemate dumped beans in the sink
notliamhyde02 04/17/2022 6:02 PM
honestly it’s such a piss take when i rightfully complain about leaving food in the sink and then they all moan at me
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like the amount of effort ive put into the kitchen and most don’t seem to care
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Yeah it’s really annoying I want to make the place nice before the rest of us get home but I’m not cleaning that up
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That was the same with my last kitchen, I’m a very clean person but they all just left food and stuff engrained into the surfaces and sink. So glad I’ve left
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I started not using the kitchen and then when everyone left, I’d deep clean it bcs it was so gross
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notliamhyde02 04/17/2022 6:17 PM
think what annoyed me more was that one of my flatmates literally called himself a clean freak
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and yet didn’t care about some of the messes left behind
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like?
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That would wind me up so much, sorry you had to deal with that
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I’m honestly sorry for anyone who has to deal with messy people
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Bcs they gross and nasty
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And from my experience, their personality will be too
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notliamhyde02 04/17/2022 6:22 PM
i’m not saying i’m the cleanest person ever
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but, especially with communal areas, i’m at least courteous
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As anyone should be
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'pleeeease take the beans out the sink i'll clean the sink after i just don't wanna handle your cold and soggy beanssss'
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If they don't, get like a wooden skewer or something, add some bleach in the drain and stab at the beans, they'll break up easily
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And then ofc run the tap
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i'd just get rubber gloves fish them out its just more annoying than getting him to do it
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not that he knows what a food bin is i came back after easter when hed stayed here the whole time to a kitchen full of flies and a big ball of white mould in the food bin
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Disgusting
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I'm so sorry
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he's denying the beanage
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i'm so invested now
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like please
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who else would be putting beans in the sink WERE THE ONLY 2 IN THE HOUSE
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Delete him from the house (edited)
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mumblingmiss 04/17/2022 6:38 PM
Jeez you know it's bad if you have to start blaming demons for your mess
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will.minchin25 04/17/2022 6:56 PM
This is just one example of them not being able to clear up themselves
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Move out
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Why are people gross
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Move out
will.minchin25 04/17/2022 6:57 PM
I can’t yet
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Not until the end of June
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But trust me
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mumblingmiss 04/17/2022 6:58 PM
Ughhhh people do that in my house too
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will.minchin25 04/17/2022 6:58 PM
I spend as little time here as possible
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mumblingmiss
Ughhhh people do that in my house too
will.minchin25 04/17/2022 6:58 PM
Yeah that plug has been like that for at least the last month
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mumblingmiss 04/17/2022 6:58 PM
Ewww
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will.minchin25 04/17/2022 6:58 PM
And I refuse to touch it
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It’s not my hair
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And the bin is full upstairs
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Still
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Someone else already kicked off about it
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You are stronger than me, I'd be running around with bleach and rubber gloves
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will.minchin25 04/17/2022 6:59 PM
Trust me I want to
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But I’m trying to prove a point
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Yeah, that's understandable
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will.minchin25 04/17/2022 7:00 PM
I’m not gonna keep clearing up after everyone
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I’m fed up of it now
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And you shouldn't have to
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notliamhyde02 04/17/2022 7:00 PM
im glad i dont share a bathroom cos i can’t do that id throw up
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will.minchin25 04/17/2022 7:05 PM
It’ll all be fine in September
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I’ll have my en-suite and everything will be okay
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notliamhyde02 04/17/2022 7:07 PM
yeah kinda wish i looked for somewhere with an en-suite
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but it’ll be fine cos i’m moving in with someone who also has long hair
19:07
so we good
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yeah kinda wish i looked for somewhere with an en-suite
Same, but didn't have much choice as got kicked out my original house
19:07
Next year though...yes
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All I’m saying in here is this
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If someone else ever weaponises my abuse trauma again
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I am going to throw a fucking house
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mumblingmiss 04/17/2022 7:10 PM
I'll murder them
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notliamhyde02 04/17/2022 7:10 PM
who am i fighting (edited)
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don’t worry team rockets got you
19:10
Thank you
19:10
I’m not going to say much
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But all I’m saying is
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THROW THE ROOF
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mumblingmiss 04/17/2022 7:10 PM
Partners in crime babyyyyyyy
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Just kill them, problem solved
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its when you trust someone w stuff like that then they use it to win an argument like fuck you i told you that in confidence you cant use that because i called you out on leaving snot on the bathroom wall
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i will fully fight them for you
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i have all the physical strength of an overcooked noodle but still
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Yeah it's really shit B, I will crime them for you if I could
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mumblingmiss 04/17/2022 7:17 PM
B's hunger games coming through for you
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Can’t cry at my parents house ✨
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Can’t cry at my parents house ✨
notliamhyde02 04/17/2022 7:18 PM
the amount of hugs i need to give you before this was high
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will literally be hugging you for days when i come down
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mumblingmiss 04/17/2022 7:19 PM
Lmk if you want to hang out when you get back B, big love
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I feel like I won’t ever be let go of
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mumblingmiss 04/17/2022 7:20 PM
I'll take you to Primark and Greggs
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notliamhyde02 04/17/2022 7:20 PM
team rocket date?
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mumblingmiss 04/17/2022 7:21 PM
Thats a good bad idea
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mumblingmiss
Thats a good bad idea
notliamhyde02 04/17/2022 7:22 PM
i was thinking the primark and greggs thing but we can make it more “fun”
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notliamhyde02
i was thinking the primark and greggs thing but we can make it more “fun”
mumblingmiss 04/17/2022 7:22 PM
I am very concerned by this, I was just saying it's good for us but bad for the universe
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Signing off for a few mins time to stab some people in blade and sorcery
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mumblingmiss 04/17/2022 7:23 PM
Okay lmk how that goes
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mumblingmiss
I am very concerned by this, I was just saying it's good for us but bad for the universe
notliamhyde02 04/17/2022 7:23 PM
by fun i mean mischief
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Signing off for a few mins time to stab some people in blade and sorcery
notliamhyde02 04/17/2022 7:23 PM
have fun x
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notliamhyde02
by fun i mean mischief
mumblingmiss 04/17/2022 7:23 PM
What kind
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notliamhyde02 04/17/2022 7:23 PM
the mischievous kind
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mumblingmiss 04/17/2022 7:24 PM
Meowth
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I don't trust you
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notliamhyde02 04/17/2022 7:24 PM
🙂
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😈
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mumblingmiss 04/17/2022 7:25 PM
I, considerate evil mega bitch bimbo Jesse, do not trust you.
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mumblingmiss
I, considerate evil mega bitch bimbo Jesse, do not trust you.
notliamhyde02 04/17/2022 7:28 PM
☹
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that’s not very girl queen pussy slay of you
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mumblingmiss 04/17/2022 7:29 PM
I'm sorry I don't trust evil talking bitchy monster ass cat looking bitches
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mumblingmiss
I'm sorry I don't trust evil talking bitchy monster ass cat looking bitches
notliamhyde02 04/17/2022 7:30 PM
now that hurts
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notliamhyde02
now that hurts
mumblingmiss 04/17/2022 7:30 PM
That's how it is, Meowth
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notliamhyde02 04/17/2022 7:31 PM
may have to resign from team rocket
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mumblingmiss 04/17/2022 7:31 PM
But then you miss out on team rocket uno
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I'll be nice
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mumblingmiss
I'll be nice
notliamhyde02 04/17/2022 7:34 PM
you better be
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notliamhyde02
you better be
mumblingmiss 04/17/2022 7:35 PM
um tipsy
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notliamhyde02 04/17/2022 8:34 PM
reapplying for student finance and apparently i’m gonna be getting £2300 less than last years maintenance loan yet nothings changed?
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notliamhyde02 04/17/2022 8:34 PM
it’s pulled the financial info from my application last year and that hasn’t changed at all
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if anything i should be getting a little more cos my dad got a small pay rise
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but i definitely shouldn’t be getting less
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and definitely not over 2k less
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tf is going on
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have they changed the boundaries for how much your parents earn to how much you get maybe?
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notliamhyde02 04/17/2022 8:35 PM
i don’t know
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They should have informed everyone if that was the case
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notliamhyde02 04/17/2022 8:37 PM
yeah
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hmm
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has anyone else applied and seen a drop in there loan? (edited)
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i havent applied yet i keep procrastinating it and its really bad
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Not yet, I'm doing it later in the week, I'll let you know if there is a drop
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yeah will also let you know if theres anything weird
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notliamhyde02 04/17/2022 8:49 PM
ive asked my flatmates
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one has said he got more
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another said he got 600 quid less
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which seems more normal than 2300 less
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genuinely so odd
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mumblingmiss 04/17/2022 8:59 PM
Have you definitely put that you're living away from your parents?
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notliamhyde02 04/17/2022 8:59 PM
yeah ive been stupid
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like tremendously stupid
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mumblingmiss 04/17/2022 9:00 PM
What you do boo?
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notliamhyde02 04/17/2022 9:00 PM
the 4525 that i thought would be what i was getting as my full maintenance loan was just the minimum
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mumblingmiss 04/17/2022 9:00 PM
Ahhh
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notliamhyde02 04/17/2022 9:01 PM
which didnt depend on household income
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so now ive got to wait until my parents fill the rest of their bits in to receive the actual amount
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which should be the same as last year
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god im fucking dumb
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Ah there we go, at least you don't have a such a big decrease
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notliamhyde02 04/17/2022 9:01 PM
actual bimbo behaviour
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well no just moron behaviour
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mumblingmiss 04/17/2022 9:01 PM
I'm sorry it's infectious
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notliamhyde02 04/17/2022 9:03 PM
jfc
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hopefully im getting the 6825 i was getting this year cos im gonna need it
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mumblingmiss 04/17/2022 9:06 PM
I'm actually gonna be able to afford to live and breathe next year with mine bc this year I had a big chunk deducted after a bit of loan from a previous drop out
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notliamhyde02 04/17/2022 9:16 PM
that’s good
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mumblingmiss 04/17/2022 9:17 PM
Hopefully yours ends up being alright
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I can rest now.
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mumblingmiss 04/17/2022 9:19 PM
You okay?
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mumblingmiss 04/17/2022 9:29 PM
Relax now, love uuuuu
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mumblingmiss 04/18/2022 10:50 AM
It's getting hormonal af and trying not to get angry or sad at things time
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mumblingmiss
It's getting hormonal af and trying not to get angry or sad at things time
Here for you
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Here for you
mumblingmiss 04/18/2022 10:51 AM
Thank youuuu
10:52
I gotta inhale exhale every time I glance at the pride server 😂😭
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I gotta inhale exhale every time I glance at the pride server 😂😭
Don’t get me started
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dare i ask whats going on w the pride server ?
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mumblingmiss 04/18/2022 10:53 AM
The run down is people being v disrespectful
10:54
Basically
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Without going into too much detail
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ah just what youd want in a safe space
10:54
i'm sorry i hope youre all doing okay and staying safe ❤️
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mumblingmiss 04/18/2022 10:55 AM
Yeah we'll get through it don't worry
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Honeslty prides gonna go through alotta changes in July
10:55
This is my safe server (edited)
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mumblingmiss 04/18/2022 10:55 AM
It's gonna have to
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Always and forever ✨
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mumblingmiss 04/18/2022 10:55 AM
💖
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I will go into stuff soon. I will put my venting here
10:56
Stuff I can say
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mumblingmiss 04/18/2022 10:56 AM
We got you
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i mean were here support system and all that (I should probably join pride just never got round to it and will probably wait until september now)
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mumblingmiss 04/18/2022 10:58 AM
I feel like we'll be more equipped as a committee this time with so many roles being actually filled and doubling up on presidents
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Feel sorry for @hazlilley when I give him my shitlist file
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There's a shitlist file?
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omg shitlist
11:01
im obsessed
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mumblingmiss 04/18/2022 11:03 AM
22/23 committee is violent presidents time and we ain't having no bs
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I say shitlist
11:05
It’s mainly a warning list
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Next years committee looks awesome, that health and safety officer is very very cool
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Which is passed from secretary to secretary
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Has it grown a lot this year?
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irltardis
Next years committee looks awesome, that health and safety officer is very very cool
Heard he’s a truly amazing person
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irltardis
Has it grown a lot this year?
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irltardis
Next years committee looks awesome, that health and safety officer is very very cool
That dude does seem pretty cool
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ty ty
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both impressive and terrifying
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mumblingmiss 04/18/2022 1:43 PM
Inhale exhale :)
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mumblingmiss 04/18/2022 1:57 PM
Where all my money go 👉 👈
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Mood
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mumblingmiss 04/18/2022 1:59 PM
I want hang out and go primark and greggs but where my money go 👉 👈
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All the ghosts must've spent it those assholes
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mumblingmiss
Inhale exhale :)
inhale exhale
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inhale exhale
mumblingmiss 04/18/2022 2:25 PM
inhale ExhALe
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mumblingmiss
inhale ExhALe
INHALE EXHALE (edited)
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INHALE EXHALE (edited)
mumblingmiss 04/18/2022 2:26 PM
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In Ex Ha Ha Le Le
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All the ghosts must've spent it those assholes
The money winded itself
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Where all my money go 👉 👈
Dupendous Lew 04/18/2022 2:32 PM
Your two waifus on your thighs probably
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Dupendous Lew
Your two waifus on your thighs probably
mumblingmiss 04/18/2022 2:34 PM
Lmao what a phrase
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E r i n
The money winded itself
mumblingmiss 04/18/2022 2:34 PM
I can't believe it did this to me
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read that as 'I can't believe I did this to me' and if that isnt the mood of the century
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LoLo <3
read that as 'I can't believe I did this to me' and if that isnt the mood of the century
mumblingmiss 04/18/2022 3:05 PM
I mean that's the truth really. I spended all my money on anime girls 👉 👈
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no better use of money than thighfus
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LoLo <3
read that as 'I can't believe I did this to me' and if that isnt the mood of the century
God I feel that
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LoLo <3
no better use of money than thighfus
mumblingmiss 04/18/2022 3:24 PM
thighfus
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✨ I hate my braiiiinnnn ✨
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Not me crying over repotting the plant my ex bought me back when we just started dating 😂😭
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mumblingmiss 04/18/2022 4:40 PM
Aw
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My rooms is covered in teddies from my ex
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tfw the only thing your ex got you was a pair of cat ears you didnt want that didnt fit----
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mumblingmiss 04/18/2022 4:45 PM
Woah wtf is up with your ex babes
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cishet man
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some cases youre better off staying fwb
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My ex just got me trauma 😌
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mumblingmiss 04/18/2022 4:49 PM
Ah now I'm thinking about my ex
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Those were the days
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this one didn't give me trauma
16:50
so were still friends
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but dear god if i could buy you all teddies rn i would
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mumblingmiss 04/18/2022 4:51 PM
Do you wanna buy teddies for each other
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Bc that's my only standard apparently
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omg yess that'd be so cute!!
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mumblingmiss 04/18/2022 4:52 PM
Yessss
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People should just do that
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It should be more socially acceptable to just approach people with a teddy
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mumblingmiss 04/18/2022 4:53 PM
Definitely
16:53
Forget can I buy you a drink let's do can I buy you an assortment of teddies
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May I introduce you to one of the best gifts I’ve ever got
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LoLo <3
May I introduce you to one of the best gifts I’ve ever got
Twink Antony 04/18/2022 4:56 PM
vvv cute
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its a bulbasaur but w a ROSE
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mumblingmiss 04/18/2022 4:57 PM
Aaaa omg
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Dupendous Lew 04/18/2022 4:58 PM
Very good bulba
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#1 in the dex #1 in the heart
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Ugh these last few days
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Have been a mess
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mumblingmiss 04/18/2022 4:59 PM
Big hugs B
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What's up? Do you also want an assortment of teddies?
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I have loads atm lmao
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But it’s just
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I’m fed up tbh
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mumblingmiss 04/18/2022 5:00 PM
I can't blame you
17:00
You can't seem to get a moment of peace
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Dupendous Lew 04/18/2022 5:07 PM
Just picturing bulbasaur wearing one of those #1 hats now
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Just picturing bulbasaur wearing one of those #1 hats now
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I’m fed up tbh
Dupendous Lew 04/18/2022 5:10 PM
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Snapchat editor does it again
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Dupendous Lew 04/18/2022 5:10 PM
Have some love from the queen Brandon
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Please this is single-handedly the best gif ever sent to me
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notliamhyde02 04/18/2022 5:10 PM
the mother
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the mummy
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notliamhyde02 04/18/2022 5:11 PM
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mumblingmiss 04/18/2022 5:11 PM
My tattoo artist has really cute bulbasaur piece she wants to do
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DONT TEMPT ME LIKE THIS
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no but ive already sent one email enquiry today
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whats 2
17:12
tattoo enquiry not email enquiry i know how talking works
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mumblingmiss 04/18/2022 5:12 PM
For mine I just insta message lmao
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thats probably faster the person im getting to do my first doesnt answer dms tho
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mumblingmiss 04/18/2022 5:12 PM
Ah
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Fuck my two new ones are still healing but I'm constantly ready to go
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But I need to go back up to my arms and get some more of those done
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omg how many do you have thats so cool!!
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mumblingmiss 04/18/2022 5:17 PM
I only have 2 on my left arm and then one on each thigh but I'm doing no colour on my arms and wanna fill them out
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notliamhyde02 04/18/2022 5:17 PM
my grandparents gave me 100 quid for the next few weeks and was hoping to spend it on some nice things
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but ended spending 50 of it on groceries
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:(
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mumblingmiss 04/18/2022 5:17 PM
I feel that 😭
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I just spent the rest of my money on groceries
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notliamhyde02 04/18/2022 5:18 PM
i mean i still might
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ive already had my loan tho so
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and i’m gonna be spending a bit on fuel for my placement
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cos my driver can’t claim it back
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you've had your whole loan?
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notliamhyde02 04/18/2022 5:18 PM
yeah had the last payment on the 1st
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got an extra £70 compared to the other two
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so it’s a bit more
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my epipens expire at the end of the month and the med centre wont give me them without an appointment for some reason and they dont have any until 9th may so chuckles im in danger meme i guess
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keep your nuts away lads ❤️
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will.minchin25 04/19/2022 3:14 PM
All I can think about is how I was worried I was gonna kill my colleague now😂
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you what???
15:15
should i be concerned?
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will.minchin25 04/19/2022 3:15 PM
No
15:15
So basically
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She didn’t tell me she had a nut allergy and that she couldn’t be bothered to go get epipens and I gave her some of my bakewells and then we realised the ingredients said something about almonds
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Turns out it was a flavouring but still had me worried lol
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pahahaha i sent myself to hospital for eating a naked bar w cashews
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BAKEWELL FLAVOURED
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will.minchin25 04/19/2022 3:18 PM
Wow
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😂😂
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always stay away from bakewells
15:18
lethal buggers
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will.minchin25 04/19/2022 3:19 PM
I bin the cherry and eat the rest lol
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LoLo <3
keep your nuts away lads ❤️
Twink Antony 04/19/2022 3:21 PM
I apologise, this is a vent but absolutely brilliant
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hey if i go out choking on nuts ill take that as a w
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anaphylaxis is shit but if you cant laugh about it what can you do
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mumblingmiss 04/19/2022 5:11 PM
I am once again asking that my body sit the fuck down and shut the fuck up you spicy bitch
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Confessions BOT 04/19/2022 6:04 PM
Anonymous Confession
"Vaping makes you skinny??!"
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Twink Antony 04/19/2022 6:31 PM
I guess through vaping you technically could? Not healthy though, I think vaping has the potential to take away the feeling of hunger
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while nicotine is an appetite suppressant, it will also give you gum disease and a myriad of other health issues, it’s not worth it at all
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notliamhyde02 04/20/2022 12:05 AM
take this with a pinch of salt
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but why is tiktok now showing me bpd videos (edited)
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i’m not gonna diagnose myself from tiktok dw
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but last time this sort of thing happened it made me think and i do genuinely think i have adhd and want to get checked for it
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tf going on
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Lol I could have BPD tbh
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I wouldn’t worry about TikTok tbh, sometimes fyp works on your friends likes too
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notliamhyde02 04/20/2022 12:14 AM
yeah true
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i do definitely wanna get tested for adhd tho
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and maybe maybe autism
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it’s hard tho cos the ones i wanna get tested for overlap in symptoms sm
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like with bpd
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i should sleep
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shit
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gonna be waking up at 6 for the next 6 weeks
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kill me now
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will.minchin25 04/20/2022 2:31 AM
Tiktok shows me a lot of videos and I never know how to interrupt them
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I had a lot of enby content for a while, not trans, specifically enby and I get videos come up semi-regularly about dyslexia, autism, adhd etc
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Some of them feel like call outs😂
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Confessions BOT 04/20/2022 8:28 AM
Anonymous Confession
"my brain is obsessing over the small things again and it's tearing down my good moods. I know it's unhealthy but literally only way for me to deal with that right now is to drink and it's starting to cost quite a bit"
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taps mic Ahem FUCKK OFFFF
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mumblingmiss 04/20/2022 10:05 AM
Omg was that a premeditated fuck off bc I would like to join you
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2 years....2 FUCKING YEARS!! I went 2 years without catching COVID and now on the first 420 ive been able to celebrate at uni I have finally tested positive. Could the universe give me a bigger middle finger
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That's awful, hope it doesn't hit you too bad and you get over it quickly :/ not the same but hopefully you'll be able to celebrate some point after
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Im already feeling a bit better than a couple of days ago I just didnt manage to get a test til today
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Glad you're feeling better at least, hope you recover well soon ❤
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mumblingmiss 04/20/2022 3:50 PM
Sometimes I wish everything I might find upsetting could wait for me to not be menstruating
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Like let me just get through this and then I'll deal with all of that
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Confessions BOT 04/20/2022 7:40 PM
Anonymous Confession
"Idk, everything came crashing down at once. I was doing pretty good, I thought I had a group of friends and someone who was interested in me. Now all of the sudden that’s fallen apart and that person decided they don’t want to speak anymore. I try to come across as a really happy does everything on the spur of the moment, absolutely nothing bothers kind of person but the reality is I’m pretty lonely and often fall asleep with tears in my eyes. Just really sad cos since starting uni everything was on the up in my life and now I have nothing, should have seen it coming as good things never last but I didn’t. Idk what to say, I’m just really disappointed."
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will.minchin25 04/20/2022 7:41 PM
I’m so sorry you feel this way op (edited)
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Hey op, you will always have me, and I’m happy to listen to you in dms whenver
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will.minchin25 04/20/2022 7:42 PM
You always have us in here and my dms are open if you need to talk to anyway:)
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Happy to talk whenever, I'm awkward but will try to listen at the very least ❤ hope things get better OP, sounds really tough
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Mental health go Brrrr
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Mental health go Brrrr
will.minchin25 04/20/2022 10:25 PM
You okay hun?
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will.minchin25
You okay hun?
I think the past few days caught up to me
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And hit me in one go
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will.minchin25 04/20/2022 10:28 PM
Shit I get that, you shouldn’t have to be dealing with it all. I get that you feel a responsibility for some things but it’s not fair on you. Remember to take time away for yourself and relax
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I wish I could
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will.minchin25 04/20/2022 10:31 PM
Trust me you need you time
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I do, but sometimes I feel like I can’t
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will.minchin25 04/20/2022 10:33 PM
I’m sorry you feel like that. It’s not fair on you
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This was exactly the same situation that I'm actually still going through, so happy to talk if you wanna share experiences or just have someone to listen 😊💜
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mumblingmiss 04/20/2022 11:26 PM
Emotional as hell and it takes way too much energy
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notliamhyde02 04/20/2022 11:27 PM
i’m only done two days of placement and i’m already over it
23:27
it’s too much
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Confessions BOT 04/20/2022 11:27 PM
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"How tf can someone play the victim and the heart strings of so many people, when they genuinely caused all this anguish. Cry some more. Fucking mess"
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mumblingmiss
Emotional as hell and it takes way too much energy
Try and remove all stimulation and just do something relaxing to try and get in a more calm and sound mind maybe
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notliamhyde02
it’s too much
You can do this, I believe in you. You are doing something that is actually incredible and while you’ll have bumps, you can do it and things will go your way in the end
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notliamhyde02 04/20/2022 11:35 PM
xxx
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I speak only facts
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will.minchin25 04/20/2022 11:42 PM
Hope you’re okay op, my dms are always open if you need to chat
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Confessions BOT 04/21/2022 2:13 AM
Anonymous Confession
"I feel like things have gotten really complicated in every area of my life, and my own shit sense of morals just doesn't fit in anywhere at this point"
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mumblingmiss 04/21/2022 9:54 AM
I hate how insecure I'm feeling with some of my friendships right now. Just last year my closest friend kept asking and asking when am I gonna come up and see him and spend time with him like I promised and then I did and it was fun and afterwards we continued to talk about me visiting again. But just the other day I spoke to him about it saying I can come up again in the summer like last time and he didn't really seem to care all that much, rather than it being this exciting thing we could plan he was kind of just like yeah if you want. I know we haven't been talking as much because of uni taking up so much time but it feels like there's been a shift. Like our wavelengths are no longer synced. And I don't want that, he's really one of the people I trust the most and I'm not ready for our lives to pull apart from one another. Maybe I'm just overthinking things and being someone with bpd and anxiety I know I push people away unintentionally and that people will just tell me to talk to him about it. I just really needed to get it down and hope that it helps me arrange my thoughts
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So uhh, forgiving the abuser? Nah. Found another of his victims
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will.minchin25 04/21/2022 9:14 PM
We forgive abusers?
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Was gonna say the same thing
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Apparently I had to or let go
21:14
Not anymore
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mumblingmiss 04/21/2022 9:35 PM
Lovingly requesting that uea kiss my fuckin ass xoxo
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will.minchin25 04/21/2022 9:42 PM
Why
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mumblingmiss 04/21/2022 9:44 PM
I'm allowed 5 days extension on work as a reasonable adjustment for my disabled students allowance as per my mental health but they won't let me use it because I already got an extension for having covid
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Like I get what they're going for
21:45
But having a physical illness affect my work and my mental illness is different
21:45
And often one can follow the other
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will.minchin25 04/21/2022 9:45 PM
Surely it should be stacked up?
21:45
Like so you need an extra week because of your disability and then getting covid sets you back another week or so
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mumblingmiss
And often one can follow the other
I’m sure it stacks speak to your hun
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Bub*
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Hub*
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mumblingmiss 04/21/2022 9:48 PM
They're saying I can only claim it as extension from the original due date and not from the extended one from covid and I'll have to get more evidence of mental health impact for more days
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mumblingmiss 04/21/2022 9:49 PM
Don't think the system understands how I fuckin work babes
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Deleted User 04/21/2022 11:03 PM
A more positive vent than I’m used to but I do love dreaming ☺️ Does anyone look at brands like Valentino and Alexander McQueen wondering what they would do if they could afford it. Some of there cloths are amazing at the moment, which is something considering a lot of fashion is bs at the moment is bs. However the mens section is bs as usual as I’m yet to see something I’d actually wear so I go to the woman’s section and dream of some really amazing outfits, plant them, what accessories would be perfect for them, wonder how I’d look in them. Ugh I wish I had that kind of money and the places to wear them to. Honestly if I could get my first job at the legal department of a big fashion house I’d freak out, wear something amazing one day, start hanging with the designers and then end up working on outfits and what should go together in catalogs. Oh the lives we dream of huh…
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will.minchin25 04/21/2022 11:04 PM
I kinda get what you mean
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A more positive vent than I’m used to but I do love dreaming ☺️ Does anyone look at brands like Valentino and Alexander McQueen wondering what they would do if they could afford it. Some of there cloths are amazing at the moment, which is something considering a lot of fashion is bs at the moment is bs. However the mens section is bs as usual as I’m yet to see something I’d actually wear so I go to the woman’s section and dream of some really amazing outfits, plant them, what accessories would be perfect for them, wonder how I’d look in them. Ugh I wish I had that kind of money and the places to wear them to. Honestly if I could get my first job at the legal department of a big fashion house I’d freak out, wear something amazing one day, start hanging with the designers and then end up working on outfits and what should go together in catalogs. Oh the lives we dream of huh…
me with Paolo Sebastian
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will.minchin25 04/21/2022 11:16 PM
I put this ring on and my fingers are too fat to get it off 😭😂
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mumblingmiss 04/21/2022 11:22 PM
Get your finger soapy it should come off if it's slippery
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will.minchin25 04/21/2022 11:23 PM
I got there in the end
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mumblingmiss 04/21/2022 11:23 PM
It happens to everyone lmao
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there's always the gollum method of ring removal
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Ripfangs
there's always the gollum method of ring removal
will.minchin25 04/21/2022 11:34 PM
Gonna pretend I’ve seen the hobbit/lord of the rings
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(he bites the ring off Frodo's hand and the finger with it)
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mahariel
me with Paolo Sebastian
Deleted User 04/21/2022 11:36 PM
Omg wow, I just looked on their website and the dresses are just, omg wow.
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Omg wow, I just looked on their website and the dresses are just, omg wow.
ikr?? check out their Starlet collection
23:37
my dream wedding dresses
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Just finished a crying sesh after literally NOT knowing what to do
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Just finished a crying sesh after literally NOT knowing what to do
will.minchin25 04/22/2022 5:30 AM
You okay hun?
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mumblingmiss 04/22/2022 9:56 AM
Hoping my doctor approves and writes me my medical note. I can't tell though because the gp that knew me with my conditions retired a while ago and I've only just been reassigned a new gp and I haven't met him yet so I'm nervous that I might be asked to come in for an appointment
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mahariel
my dream wedding dresses
Deleted User 04/22/2022 12:06 PM
Omfg, that dress is incredible. Honestly i didn’t think modern fashion could do it 😆
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fuck those dresses are so pretty
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Opens old flat group chat filled with ex and bad people and sees one of them tried to re-friend me so I just left and now stressing again for no reason..life is far too complicated
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Just ignore the request you don't owe them anything. Internalise the unwarranted confidence of a middle aged white guy and choose yourself
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babes, didnt you like manipulate me into bed when I couldnt consent due to like... alcohol and mental health. Dont think you should be calling me a sociopath. xoxo
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seems like my statuses are really calling people out 💀
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[Sorry about the random vent] Just had me cackling
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will.minchin25 04/23/2022 3:12 AM
Let me at them?
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will.minchin25
Let me at them?
No
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Why do you still have their discord if they've treated you that badly?
10:11
Not saying I'm not down to fight them but you can block people not have to deal with it anymore?
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LoLo <3
Not saying I'm not down to fight them but you can block people not have to deal with it anymore?
I don’t even have them
10:40
They are on a mutual server and keep stalking what ever I put as my statuses
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Wow that's really disturbing
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Nothing I can really do though to be honest. If I were to call them out, they’d do something to themselves and I don’t want that
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That's a horrible position to be in I'm so sorry this shouldn't be your burden to bear. If I can do anything to help tho let me know yeah?
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Will do, thank you 🙂
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will.minchin25 04/23/2022 1:24 PM
Come on
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will.minchin25 04/23/2022 1:25 PM
Urgh fineee
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will.minchin25 04/23/2022 2:02 PM
Totally didn’t just knock my speaker to the (yet again) I flushed toilet
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June can’t come quick enough tho lol
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will.minchin25 04/23/2022 7:22 PM
So I’ve now had to moan at thrm because I had no plates and still cutlery or glasses
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I’ve received a singular plate, glass, knife and fork
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That’s it
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Confessions BOT 04/23/2022 8:19 PM
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"TW: Alcohol misuse probably first day in like two weeks of drinking that I've been properly sober (so far), or about 2 months if you ignore the occasional day or two I didn't. Finding it slightly concerning that I keep thinking about drinking still, think I may have overdone it a bit. Usually drinking about 5-12 units a day I think, although I can't really be sure. Think I probably need to give it a break"
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Deleted User 04/24/2022 12:12 AM
Perhaps if you think it’s a problem you could speak to someone about it, a supportive friend perhaps, or even a councillor at university. Drinking is meant to be enjoyable but if you feel it’s a burden you may want to consider stopping. You don’t need to stop 100%, like if you give yourself days you allow yourself to drink like Friday and Saturday nights you may find yourself happier with it. Hope your hanging in there cos university is stressful and perhaps your drinking to feel less stressed. Tho if you’re definitely serious about a break set yourself a target like a week and see what you think, could turn it into 2, 3 and then a month. Hope this helps, It’s what I’d say to a friend so not 100% on how it may be received but whoever you are I hope your doing well ☺
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will.minchin25 04/24/2022 4:41 PM
Why you so obsessed with us and boy I wanna know
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mumblingmiss 04/25/2022 10:40 AM
Oh man first day back (all online today for me) and why am I so fucking tired and sad like let me just get on with my fuckin work stop crying please
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Feeling this a bit, if you need anything, lemme know, even if its just to rant, it really sucks
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mumblingmiss 04/25/2022 10:49 AM
Thanks :) it sucks you're feeling it a bit too. It's just so annoying like I feel ashamed when I keep extending deadlines and then have to keep pushing it back further and further like it's just a 2000 word essay or something most of the time but it's like my head won't let me get it done and that's a major part of the frustration. Especially if I did previous ones way faster. My bursts of energy need to be timed better so I can actually make use of them (edited)
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You're allowed to extend your deadlines and I'm actually pretty proud of you for doing that. Its really frustrating though, sending you the best vibes
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mumblingmiss 04/25/2022 10:51 AM
Thank you
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mumblingmiss 04/25/2022 11:49 AM
FUCK FUCK FUCK my doctors won't give me a medical note for my mental health until they've done a routine phone consultation with me. When have they booked me in? In two weeks. They can't fucking call me until the 9th of May. I get it they're busy but jesus christ
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will.minchin25 04/25/2022 11:50 AM
Try to stay positive cause at least it’s better than nothing
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Maybe send a thing to the uni they do single session therapy things if you book in for one of those you have to explain your situation at least then they’ll have record of it before you get a doctor thing?
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The single session therapy team have been very understanding when it comes to extensions in my experience
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Hope things improve for you soon ❤
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mumblingmiss 04/25/2022 3:00 PM
How do I book one of those?
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The survey gives you the opportunity to get your voice heard, tell us about your experience and put you at the heart of UEA’s decision making.
15:05
Or just fill this out
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mumblingmiss 04/25/2022 3:06 PM
thanks
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Just made the mistake of looking at the comments of a JKR tweet
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notliamhyde02 04/25/2022 9:09 PM
spoilers for pose s2 ep4, cw: death rewatching that episode was sad enough but i’m fucking balling my eyes out over it. i am so lucky that ive never had any experiences that are necessarily bad when it comes to my sexuality or gender identity, but i feel genuine guilt for those who have suffered, it is not fair that ive been lucky enough to have barely any threats to my identity while others are suffering much worse. and the fact they use candy as the character to die. her final talk with her parents will always make me crumble cos that closure is something i’m still yet to receive. and on top of that, i’m not one to cry at much but i am fucking terrified for the day a loved one dies and i will break down, whether it’s an early death or an expected one, im so scared of that day
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that sense of community in pose is something ive not yet had really
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and i don’t care if i’m getting all of this from a tv show i don’t fucking care
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everyone’s identity is valid and i am so sorry for those who have suffered for it
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Omg that episode made me cry SO HARD
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I loved pose sm omg
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Deleted User 04/26/2022 12:57 PM
I’m listening to a person invalidating people who have mobility scooters disabilities, im really tempted to walk over and talk them about hidden disabilities and that they have no idea how this person uses and needs a mobility scooter. I honestly really don’t like this person they’re so rude and I’ve been around them as they’ve mocked the way people look including LGBTQ+ people.
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Sorry to hear you're dealing with that, some people just need to learn when to shut up. Their words are hurtful, be it jokes or opinions or anything, there is no reason to seek causing harm to someone else's mental wellbeing
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i am a homosouarus 04/27/2022 12:01 AM
I am so fucking creeped and uncomfortable at what just happened. Some 60 y/o dude from my hunting camp just hit me up on grindr saying just saying hi, hope you are doing well. Like he just crossed a fucking line. Its one thing to see someones social and just say hey, but a sex app is not the place. It made me so uncomfortable i deleted the app and my account.
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Like hes almost as old as my fucking grandfather (edited)
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will.minchin25 04/27/2022 12:02 AM
Bit weird nyl remember the block button is your bestie
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Deleted User 04/27/2022 12:02 AM
Hope you’re somewhere safe, that really does sound like crossing the line.
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i am a homosouarus 04/27/2022 12:02 AM
i immediately blocked him
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im in my dorm room, no way he can get in with out a RFID key card and a room key
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will.minchin25 04/27/2022 12:03 AM
Imagine your grandparents being 60 or younger👀
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i am a homosouarus 04/27/2022 12:03 AM
my grandpa it like 67
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oh wait no
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im mixing up ages
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my grand father is 70
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but still
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60 is close enough
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will.minchin25 04/27/2022 12:04 AM
Imagine having grandparents under 70👀 (edited)
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Deleted User 04/27/2022 12:04 AM
Idk why men of that age think it’s appropriate to hit on younger guys.
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i am a homosouarus 04/27/2022 12:04 AM
it is borderline pedophilia imo
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i am a homosouarus
it is borderline pedophilia imo
Deleted User 04/27/2022 12:04 AM
True, he only thing that stops them going younger is the law.
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i am a homosouarus 04/27/2022 12:07 AM
Honestly kinda a red flag.
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Deleted User 04/27/2022 12:07 AM
Ikr, what’s wrong with people their own age?
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will.minchin25 04/27/2022 12:59 AM
Honetsly
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I mean I had people of all ages messaging me on that app and it turned out some of them were underage so it’s a good thing I didn’t send them anything let alone do anything with them lol
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i am a homosouarus 04/27/2022 1:26 AM
Do yall not have a Romeo and Juliet Law?
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will.minchin25 04/27/2022 1:27 AM
Don’t think so
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Why
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What does the law say?
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i am a homosouarus 04/27/2022 1:32 AM
The law says that "a person can legally have consensual sex with a minor provided that he or she is not more than a given number of years" These years are typically 1-3 years and thats from the age of consent which is normally 16. For Example, someone who is 16 coild legally be in a sexual relationship with a 18 or 19 year old. However, the law is different in each state and has stipulations.
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will.minchin25 04/27/2022 1:32 AM
I don’t think so
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Pretty sure an adult isn’t allowed to sleep with anyone under the age of 18
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I might be wrong tho
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i am a homosouarus 04/27/2022 1:33 AM
whats the age of consent there
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will.minchin25 04/27/2022 1:33 AM
@B does law so they’re the best person to ask
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i am a homosouarus
whats the age of consent there
will.minchin25 04/27/2022 1:33 AM
16
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18 to be an adult there
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i am a homosouarus 04/27/2022 1:34 AM
yeah out adult age is weird
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its technically 18 but not really
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like at 18, you can have bank accounts, make medical choices, get married, make all the decisions for yourself, etc.
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no alcohol or tobacco though
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will.minchin25 04/27/2022 1:37 AM
You can drink certain alcoholic drinks at 16 here haha
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Things like cider, wkd or Smirnoff Ice
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As long as it’s with a meal
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18 to send nudes 16 to duck
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Deleted User 04/27/2022 8:09 PM
The marriage age is going up to 18 tho.
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will.minchin25 04/27/2022 8:10 PM
It is? (edited)
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Ik it’s 18 without parental consent
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16 with
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It's 18 regardless now I think
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will.minchin25 04/27/2022 8:11 PM
Oh I didn’t know that
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mumblingmiss 04/28/2022 8:22 PM
Just saw the worst fuckin ad on tv and it was for piers morgans new show and I rolled my eyes so far into the back of my head I entered an alternate timeline where there's a prophecy in the department of mysteries that says for one of us to live the other must die
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I get they do ads like that because people like me the so called 'snowflakes' will complain about it as I am right now but that doesn't mean they should do it. It brushes off all this progress we've made in making the world a safe place for all types of people with different struggles and identities and old assholes like him who can't handle that get a huge network to spread bs on.
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They can't cope with the fact that their opinions will no longer shape our future and new generations. Their influence is limited to horrible old bastards and people that will be shamed for their oppressive and phobic views or will learn to become better. So they try their very hardest to talk about how oh so sensitive we young people are, as if being sensitive towards other people and caring so much and having the confidence to stand up for our peers is a problem. We will continue to complain, not because we're a weak generation, but because we've fuckin had enough of all of this.
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So between me and piers morgan, one of us is gonna have to die and honey it ain't gonna be me
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Just saw the worst fuckin ad on tv and it was for piers morgans new show and I rolled my eyes so far into the back of my head I entered an alternate timeline where there's a prophecy in the department of mysteries that says for one of us to live the other must die
Deleted User 04/28/2022 8:48 PM
Seen it as well, was cringing the entire time. Honestly it was so invalidating and the knowledge that people will watch the show and agree with its thinking is upsetting. Just seems like the show is giving phobic and hateful people a space to legitimise those views. It’s just so bizarre it’s being aloud cos it’s a platform for hate which is only going to be damaging to vulnerable people and communities.
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Also if calling people out on their hate makes you a snowflake I’m glad to be one.
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mumblingmiss 04/28/2022 8:49 PM
For real!!
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will.minchin25 04/28/2022 10:49 PM
The only thing I enjoyed from the advert i saw was the double standard of “cancelling cancel culture”😂
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The thing about people who complain about snowflakes is that they’re the biggest snowflakes of them all like they say all this bigoted shit but that’s because their precious world has changed slightly and they can’t cope with it being slightly more accommodating to people who aren’t exactly like them like what are you actually talking for?
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Or as my mum put it ‘people like that are the kind of men who beg for nudes then have a dying grandad when you charge for them’
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LoLo <3
Or as my mum put it ‘people like that are the kind of men who beg for nudes then have a dying grandad when you charge for them’
Dupendous Lew 04/29/2022 7:54 AM
Your mother is very wise
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LoLo <3
Or as my mum put it ‘people like that are the kind of men who beg for nudes then have a dying grandad when you charge for them’
Deleted User 04/29/2022 12:22 PM
I’ll never see Piers in the same way again 😂
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will.minchin25 04/29/2022 7:39 PM
What a surprise the hosue is a shit hole as usual, there’s not even a bin just a pile of 2 bin bags sitting where it should be
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I refuse to deal with it though
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will.minchin25
I refuse to deal with it though
Deleted User 04/30/2022 9:38 AM
Take pictures of the messes they’re leaving as evidence for your landlord, tho you should at least make yourself look perfect doing the chores and keeping evidence that your the one doing the chores.
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Take pictures of the messes they’re leaving as evidence for your landlord, tho you should at least make yourself look perfect doing the chores and keeping evidence that your the one doing the chores.
will.minchin25 04/30/2022 2:47 PM
I will do thank you
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will.minchin25 04/30/2022 9:28 PM
So my new deputy manager is really rude and I’m not a fan
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It’s not what he says, it’s how he says it
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But he’s just asking like he owns the place
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And like last night he just stood watching me for half an hour before talking to me
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notliamhyde02 04/30/2022 9:35 PM
creep
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will.minchin25 04/30/2022 9:39 PM
Basically
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Praying he stays out of the upstairs potwash
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notliamhyde02 04/30/2022 9:45 PM
god was he staring at you for an hour and a half at pot wash
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jesus
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will.minchin25 04/30/2022 9:45 PM
Nah just 30 minutes
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notliamhyde02 04/30/2022 9:46 PM
still
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will.minchin25 04/30/2022 9:47 PM
Not comfy
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notliamhyde02 04/30/2022 9:47 PM
mm
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Seeing my abuser at A list and fucking girl issuing the feelings
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I feel okay
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Progress challenge
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will.minchin25 05/01/2022 1:58 AM
Hun you got this I believe in you <3
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Deleted User 05/01/2022 10:18 AM
Not a bad vent. I think I might be out to my family cos I’m the car yesterday my mum said “does this mean you’re out of the closet then”. I had no idea what brought it up but it ended in a fist bump and my assuring her it doesn’t mean she won’t get grandchildren. Weirdest conversation of my life… 🤔😅😳
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Not a bad vent. I think I might be out to my family cos I’m the car yesterday my mum said “does this mean you’re out of the closet then”. I had no idea what brought it up but it ended in a fist bump and my assuring her it doesn’t mean she won’t get grandchildren. Weirdest conversation of my life… 🤔😅😳
notliamhyde02 05/01/2022 11:12 AM
that’s very out of the blue
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but congrats:)
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will.minchin25 05/01/2022 10:52 PM
Congrats
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notliamhyde02 05/02/2022 12:39 PM
fuck man my back is in agony
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lower back
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That's shit, hope you feel better soon :/ 🫂
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notliamhyde02 05/02/2022 12:40 PM
idk if it’s cos the shitty chairs im sitting in at placement or my posture
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or what
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don’t have any painkillers either
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Can you not ask someone to go get you some painkillers? (edited)
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will.minchin25 05/02/2022 12:42 PM
Could you get some on your lunch break?
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Ngl a school always has painkillers
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It's bank Holiday
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will.minchin25 05/02/2022 12:43 PM
True
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Schools aren't open
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will.minchin25 05/02/2022 12:43 PM
Also trye
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*true
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Be good for tomorrow though
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But seriously ask someone to get you some painkillers
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notliamhyde02 05/02/2022 12:45 PM
i need to go shopping anyways
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i’ll try and remember this time
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Be careful then
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Don't put strain on your back
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notliamhyde02 05/02/2022 12:45 PM
i wont
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thank you :)
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Dupendous Lew 05/02/2022 2:33 PM
So despite every other bank holiday shift ending at 6pm they chose today to just stay open till closing when no one is gonna come in at all and the duty manager has kidney problems so can barely do anything, make it make sense
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Can’t even see profits being the motivation on this one cause no one’s coming in as other bank holidays have shown so genuinely can’t see a point
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will.minchin25 05/02/2022 2:55 PM
£11.50 for a taxi Jesus christ
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will.minchin25 05/03/2022 8:23 PM
Update I only got a goodbye from 4 people that I work with because I saw them in the staff kicthen
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And no none of them were managment
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I will be GLAD to see the back of that place
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notliamhyde02 05/03/2022 8:24 PM
wait which place is this?
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will.minchin25 05/03/2022 8:24 PM
The nursery
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Honestly sounds toxic af
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notliamhyde02 05/03/2022 8:24 PM
oh damn
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thought this was the club
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will.minchin25 05/03/2022 8:24 PM
The manager is just awkward for the sake of being awkward I swear
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notliamhyde02 05/03/2022 8:24 PM
yeah that’s fucked (edited)
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will.minchin25 05/03/2022 8:25 PM
They literally went “oh if you didn’t know it’s managers last staff meeting today”
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But no goodbye will thank you for your help over the past year
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Not like I worked full time for 6 months when I started
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will.minchin25 05/04/2022 8:31 PM
“(Deputy Manager of nursery) added you to the chat ‘(SENCO’s Birthday)”
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Actually fuck off I’m leaving in less than a week I’m not gonna put in for anyones birthday especially after I don’t even get a goodbye
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Deleted User 05/04/2022 10:17 PM
Good vent. It’s taken 2 retests but I can finally wear my glasses, I love them and they add to my low key gay aesthetic. I love it all ☺
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Good vent. It’s taken 2 retests but I can finally wear my glasses, I love them and they add to my low key gay aesthetic. I love it all ☺
notliamhyde02 05/04/2022 10:33 PM
lovely stuff :)
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Hung out w my ex and his best friend and good I love them both sm like I’m not inlove w my ex anymore (any of them) and I’m so glad my ex bf is in my life but I’ve missed him sm I’m glad hes around again I’ve missed knowing him and like all his friends like yeah no it’s just fun I’ve missed getting drunk w people I fully know and trust you get me?
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Confessions BOT 05/05/2022 2:43 PM
Anonymous Confession
"Starting to get a little tired of people only talking to me with the intention of getting into my pants. Was getting on really well with a guy recently which escalated to “adult twister” but afterwards he’s lost interest in me and doesn’t talk to me anymore. Idk, what’s up with people 😭"
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sorry you had to deal with that :(
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thats pretty shitty of the people who do that
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will.minchin25 05/05/2022 2:54 PM
People suck I’m sorry you have to deal with that OP
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will.minchin25 05/05/2022 11:40 PM
I’m too socially awkward to go back to the bar and tell them they got my drink order wrong by putting in a completely different spirit 😂
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I have now abandoned the drink😂
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Told one of my closest friends that I had a crush on them last night and he very maturely turned me down but still,, in my feels
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I also did this and yeah It's fine but also ouch my emotions
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Told one of my closest friends that I had a crush on them last night and he very maturely turned me down but still,, in my feels
notliamhyde02 05/06/2022 12:24 PM
probably the best of the worst outcomes 🫂
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mumblingmiss 05/06/2022 4:19 PM
I didn't even drink alcohol last night and I'm so fucking sick
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hope you feel better soon
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will.minchin25 05/07/2022 2:46 AM
Why is it that the moment I have a nice ring or piece of jewellery fully stop everyone assumes that it was bought for me or if it’s a ring that B proposed to me. It’s getting annoying like am I not allowed to just wear jewellery
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will.minchin25 05/07/2022 4:21 AM
“Don’t get humpity with me” “you literally just snapped” fuck right off, you can already see I’m in a foul mood don’t go moaning at me and snapping at me because I’m trying to do my job and you aren’t ready for me
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Do people like get when to stop harassing people?
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will.minchin25 05/07/2022 7:09 PM
Ha no
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will.minchin25 05/07/2022 7:26 PM
Genuinely ready to throw hands
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I’m so fed up of the shit in that house
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They take my shit and don’t return it
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They leave dirty shit everywhere
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They don’t clean up anything
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They make me feel guilty for being upset about it
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They also break or loose shit, don’t tell me and just expect me to be okay with it
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I’ve had enough
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And I’m so tempted to just quit my job and move out of that house now
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notliamhyde02 05/07/2022 7:40 PM
sounds like a plan
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if it’s feasible
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will.minchin25 05/07/2022 7:41 PM
It’s not sadly
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I’d still have to pay rent till the end of June
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still feeling kinda not the greatest i know its only been like a day but god i wish i could just be over this and feel normal again already
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just had a moment of intense panic from a scam contact tracing text
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im still far too tired to process stuff like this right now
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notliamhyde02 05/08/2022 10:10 PM
my teacher from placement messaged me earlier saying she’s got covid
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so now i have to teach ALL WEEK
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Shit, you got this
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notliamhyde02 05/08/2022 10:10 PM
this is gonna be fun 🙃
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You will smash this, you will be great! I have all faith in you 💜
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so now i have to teach ALL WEEK
You’ll smash it
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so now i have to teach ALL WEEK
will.minchin25 05/08/2022 10:22 PM
I believe in you!
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Try to see it as a learning experience rather than a burden lol
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notliamhyde02 05/08/2022 10:23 PM
it’s stressful
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will.minchin25 05/08/2022 10:23 PM
Ik trust me
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I haven’t had to teach a whole class myself but just a large group was stressful
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idk if you can view that but that’s what ive got to do
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will.minchin25 05/08/2022 10:24 PM
Was about to say I can’t sorry
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notliamhyde02 05/08/2022 10:24 PM
wait
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that blacked out part is my ppa time
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will.minchin25 05/08/2022 10:25 PM
A lot then by the looks of it
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notliamhyde02 05/08/2022 10:25 PM
yeah
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the cold write on thursday and the hook on friday are some of the things is was going to be teaching anyways
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and then 2 maths lessons
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the rest she said she’ll have all the planning done
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will.minchin25 05/08/2022 10:27 PM
That’s good then
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notliamhyde02 05/08/2022 10:28 PM
and if i really need it they can get a supply
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will.minchin25 05/09/2022 4:51 PM
Argh it’s not fair
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Why do I have wait almost a year for the next heartstopper book
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I’ve finished volumes 1-4 and now I need volume 5 but it’s not out until February 2023😭
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In the meantime I’m thinking of ordering the solitaire series which has Nick and Charlie in it
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there is a book called Nick and Charlie too i think
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There is
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i just finished volumes 4 and 5 last night, waiting to collect solitaire and Nick and Charlie
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i just finished volumes 4 and 5 last night, waiting to collect solitaire and Nick and Charlie
will.minchin25 05/09/2022 5:20 PM
Yeah but how can you read volume 5 if it isn’t out yet😂
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there is a book called Nick and Charlie too i think
will.minchin25 05/09/2022 5:21 PM
Yeah that’s part of the solitaire series
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wait
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volume 3 and 4
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im clever
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will.minchin25 05/09/2022 5:21 PM
😂
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lmao
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honestly though they are very good, fucking destroying me, but very good
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i know im a shit friend, but i do try, and im finding it very difficult to keep trying with this one person who isnt
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if it really means this little i dont know why i try at all at this point
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Deleted User 05/10/2022 9:55 AM
Does anyone else get the gay or general LGBTQ panic when in public. Just left a lecture knowing I look pretty gay with my outfit today and was worrying about what people think or what they may say and had to remind myself that I’m pretty proud of my outfit today, I look great and nobody actually cares.
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nearly got hit by a car!
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hope youre okay 🫂
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Remind me next time I’m sad and want a cigarette that what I actually want is to sit outside and have a cup of tea until I don’t feel like crying anymore
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Confessions BOT 05/10/2022 11:09 PM
Anonymous Confession
"Lately every other thought running through my mind has been a variation of "at least suicide is an option". struggling to think of a time I have been more depressed than now"
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I'm really sorry you've been having a tough time. I know it's anonymous, but if you want to talk, DMs are always open. Keep safe and look after yourself 💜 🫂
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Deleted User 05/12/2022 1:42 PM
Gay panic. There’s talk of a trip abroad in may family recently and each time a place is mentioned I’m immediately looking up (is (location) LGBTQ+ friendly?). Does anyone else do this or am I over thinking things?
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Cant say I do, but I think it's a valid thing to check out!
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Gay panic. There’s talk of a trip abroad in may family recently and each time a place is mentioned I’m immediately looking up (is (location) LGBTQ+ friendly?). Does anyone else do this or am I over thinking things?
will.minchin25 05/12/2022 3:02 PM
I have done it before I can’t lie, my friend was suggesting all these nice holiday places I could go dirt cheap and I had to look it up so I understand what you mean
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I have a positive vent to share bcs I can apparently x) Really sorry it's so long, and it doesn't make much sense This my sound dumb but my switch means so much to me. I'll explain. So when I first got a switch (which became the family switch), we were given breath of the wild. I had never played a Zelda game before and when I did play BOTW, it was actually incredible. As a musician, the music became a big focus and I bought the OST and started learning the music etc. This led to hyperfixation but we move. I then got a few more games, until I bought Hollow Knight. That game changed my life...literally. I continued doing music and started doing fan music for the game bcs why not, no harm. I then got invited to a server filled with content creators and I've made a couple friends which mean a lot to me who help me with music and I help them too. It's actually incredible that I've gotten to meet these people just by buying a game. I now just keep buying games and either just enjoying it or getting obsessed and becoming fixated on the music 😂 Basically, tiny decisions I made on a game by deciding to buy it has introduced some incredible people in my life and given me lots of happy moments. I've discovered new music and lots of nice things and stuff. I've found that tiny decisions give the best rewards
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Sorry it's huge
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Just felt positivity for once
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Hollow Knight!? S tier game
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You like Hollow Knight and Doctor Who... we're friends now sorry
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This is acceptable
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:D
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I loved that game. I spent so many hours playing when I first got it. And the music is what I listen to when working xD
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Like, so much
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I've added a 1000 views to that playlist at least (edited)
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I fully have over 150 hours in the game
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That's alot!
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I've added a 1000 views to that playlist at least (edited)
Very very impressive
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Josh
That's alot!
It is literally my favourite game
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Good choice tbh
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I've 112% at least 3 times
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Haha xD
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I'm actually so happy to find another HK lover though x)
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I spend way to much time on the reddit looking at art for HK
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Use to have my discord all HK themed while I wasn't working lol
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I respect that
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Massively
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The art tbf in the community is insanely good
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Yea I love it.
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Did you take part in r/place ?
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I didn't, but my friend kept me updated with it
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In there thr community made a few HK things. Which I loved taking part in
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The community is so good
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Yes yes yes
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It's just so wholesome
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Do you mind if I DM you something?
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Yea go ahead :P
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Pls teach me what hollow knight is
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THE BEST GAME EVER IF YOU DON'T PLAY IT I'LL SLAP YOU /J
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https://store.steampowered.com/app/367520/Hollow_Knight/ Best metroidvania to exist imo, incredible music/bosses/world design/lore/community/everything
Hollow Knight Expands with Free ContentGodmaster - Take your place amongst the Gods. New Characters and Quest. New Boss Fights. Available Now!Lifeblood - A Kingdom Upgraded! New Boss. Upgraded Bosses. Tweaks and Refinements across the whole game.The Grimm Troupe - Light the Nightmare Lantern. Summon the Troupe. New Major Quest. New Boss Fights. ...
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$14.99
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Pls play it
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Like
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It's so good
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Dupendous Lew 05/12/2022 9:19 PM
Hollow knight is an easy top tier game and that’s a great choice to obsess over the music for
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I feel like I should play it
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You should
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I think it might even be on sale atm
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Even more reason
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Hollow knight is an easy top tier game and that’s a great choice to obsess over the music for
Speaking facts
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notliamhyde02 05/12/2022 9:21 PM
it’s hard but heard good things
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Yeah, it will kick your ass many times
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But so good
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me, God's shittest student, slowly piecing together what the fuck i have to do for my 5000 word final essay without having read half of core readings
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did i mention i have a week to do this in and i have written exactly 2 words
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will.minchin25 05/13/2022 8:39 PM
Welp as expected the hosue is basically the same as when I left it
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will.minchin25 05/13/2022 8:47 PM
Also I swear my shfits are getting shorter and shorter by the week
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I now start at 10 next and finish at 3
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I also got asked if I could work this Sunday last week and haven’t heard anything since
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Dupendous Lew 05/13/2022 11:07 PM
Feeling unlovable and lost and confused hours who up
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will.minchin25 05/13/2022 11:07 PM
I can be around for 10 minutes or so if you need to chat?
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im not really good at advice or feedback but im happy to listen if wanted (edited)
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Dupendous Lew 05/13/2022 11:12 PM
I was saying the who up as more of the meme format itself but I appreciate you guys for being willing to chat and whatnot, not much to elaborate on just one of those nights where I’m just feeling like I’m not someone people wanna hang out with and that I’m just terrible at adulting in general I dunno
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nighttimes suck for mental health, cant remember what the exact post was but it was something like how we shouldnt trust our brains past a certain time at night
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mumblingmiss 05/13/2022 11:14 PM
Past 9pm
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youre a really caring and supportive friend, times get tough but people do love you, no matter what our brains insist on telling us at times
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ahh cool, ty
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ive been meaning to put it on a post it note but i keep forgetting
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mumblingmiss 05/13/2022 11:15 PM
Love you Lewis 💖 hope you're okay despite the sad times hour
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Love you Lewis 💖 hope you're okay despite the sad times hour
Dupendous Lew 05/13/2022 11:16 PM
Thank you babe I appreciate it, I’m sure I will be just one of them nights I suppose
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Thank you babe I appreciate it, I’m sure I will be just one of them nights I suppose
mumblingmiss 05/13/2022 11:17 PM
Always here for you, these nights are always a struggle
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Hope everyone is okay ❤️
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Sending my love and support
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Nervous when I get home tomorrow
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There’s gonna be a new housemate
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It's going to be ok 😊
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I'm sure they'll be a nice person
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Panic attacks over back to your regular scheduling I can hopefully sleep now
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will.minchin25 05/14/2022 4:42 AM
It’ll be okay don’t stress hun
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ahehehehej
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and another new hobby called "10 AM" where basically you wake up from a dream and you get so, so sad
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i suck at interacting with people
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Badgers at Dawn (he/him) 05/15/2022 6:50 PM
You’re not alone, don’t worry
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Someone just randomly removing me off everything and leaving a server I’m in? I’m so confused
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Id be confused to lol
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I’ll live just Yknow
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Bleugh
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How bizarre
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Wouldn't give it much thought, clearly a nutter :)
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I wanted to sleep early tonight, but it's just turned in to me over thinking and replaying past mistakes 😪 (edited)
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Maybe do something to distract, bcs you won't be able to sleep with those thoughts, so may as well do something you enjoy
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Maybe, I'm feeling a tad sad to say the least so I don't think I can bring myself to actually do anything. Hoping exhaustion will take me soon though.
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Maybe just watch some tiktoks or something in bed, and take care of yourself as much as you can
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And I hope the sadness doesn't last long :)
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Maybe just watch some tiktoks or something in bed, and take care of yourself as much as you can
A yes feeding my crippling tiktok addiction. You know me too well Zach xD
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Well, it isn't too difficult to figure out :P
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But what can you do
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Gotta do something easy to distract yourself from evil thought times
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I wouldn't call them evil, more accountability I suppose. Taking responsibility for my actions is a big thing for me. But the situation I'm thinking back to doesn't really have anyway for me to. Or atleast not that I can think off.
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Oh well tiktok time it is.
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Enjoy tiktok 💜
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This has got to be a fucking joke right??? IDA-HOBIT?? I dont think ive seen virtue signalling this obvious in years. Surely we should be against these things 365 days a year?!?
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I mean if they're as half assed about pride/lgbt as they are the treatment of their neurodiverse students it's hardly a surprise
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I wish for summatives to end I wanna get drunk and steal shit
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Confessions BOT 05/19/2022 8:49 PM
Anonymous Confession (#3)
"if you reach a simple conclusion that answers what needs to be answered, is it worth looking for alternatives? especially ones take so long and you have no idea how they could help. might as well just go for the answer youve already figured out makes the most sense, right?"
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Depends on the question + current answer tbh.
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If whoever op is would like to chat about it then feel free to dm me. Cant promise I can help but I can lend a sympathetic ear at least.
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Welp Its my birthday on the 26th and originally I was suppose to be going bowling and then grabbing some food with my friends. But one of them has to work that day now so its been pushed back to the 27th. Which isn't that big of a deal since I don't normally celebrate my birthday tbh, but it does mean this will be the first year I don't see anyone on my birthday full stop since I'm seeing my mum earlier in the week. I'm not too sure how I feel about it. Since I don't celebrate my birthday normally if anything I just enjoy the social element that a birthday brings which I guess ill have but on another arbitrary day.
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That sucks, I'm sorry, but at least you still get to see your friends :)
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Yea thats my thought process atm, I just hope I dont end up the big sadge on the day because maybe I do care more than I think.
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I like celebrating other peoples and going out of my way for them. But thats mainly because other people care alot about the day. I think I dont care that much. But idk ill find out lmao xD
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Ngl kinda sad, bcs tomorrow, half of my friends are leaving for the summer, and the last thing we are doing tonight, only a few are coming and it's just kinda bittersweet
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¯\_(ツ)_/¯
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Just not a big fan of goodbyes ig
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Hope you have fun at least with the few who are coming over tonight <3
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Confessions BOT 05/21/2022 9:40 PM
Anonymous Confession (#6)
"TW: suicide Last night I almost killed myself and the only thing that held me back was this song I keep looping even now. I know I need serious psychiatric help but it's too late in my degree to talk to the uni and everything else is too expensive. I keep re-reading the personalised letters I was going to leave for my loved ones and wondering if a couple of them even think about me anymore."
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Dupendous Lew 05/21/2022 9:57 PM
I can assure you your loved ones do even if they don’t show it outwardly if failing that I care because even if I don’t know you very well or much at all I’ve seen people in the position you’re in and I would never ever want that for anyone ever so I care about you and I hope that you can get the help you need because no one deserves to feel like that. All of my love to you 🫂
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sorry i cant help more but worth mentioning that the Crisis Support team with the NHS is a free service, avaliable over the phone almost always i believe and do in person consultations, check ups, and try to help anyway they can. im currently with them and they do try to make themselves avaliable as much as possible, and if they think you need to go to see them in person they'll pay for a taxi as well
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ill try to get the contact info here in case you or anyone else could find it helpful, but im really sorry youre having to deal with this
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How to get rid of Body Dysmorphia
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If you find an answer, lemme know
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Drugs?
notliamhyde02 05/22/2022 10:59 PM
no
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What about the good ones that are medication for Dysmorphia
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If they exist
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Do they?
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I don't think they do
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Do they?
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How to get rid of Body Dysmorphia
Following others if you find an answer feel free to slip in my dms xD
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What about the good ones that are medication for Dysmorphia
notliamhyde02 05/22/2022 11:03 PM
if not they should
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Bcs then I'd be able to take pictures with me in it 😂
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@B SSRIs apparently are medication that work on moderate symptoms
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@B SSRIs apparently are medication that work on moderate symptoms
All SSRIs prevented was me cumming
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notliamhyde02 05/22/2022 11:05 PM
oop
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6 fucking hours
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notliamhyde02 05/22/2022 11:05 PM
yeah i’d rather be depressed than not finish (edited)
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I fucked for 6 hours
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NOTHING
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That is not good
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notliamhyde02
yeah i’d rather be depressed than not finish (edited)
Speaking facts (edited)
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Was a good 6 hours tho
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But still
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Not ideal
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I could start talking about my levels of finishing
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But I feel like that’s a lot
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Not really to mr
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Me
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But like
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For vents it’s a lot
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Ok yeah, I didn't realise what channel it was 😂
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For vents it’s a lot
notliamhyde02 05/22/2022 11:10 PM
id talk about last night but it’s a lot for vents too
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pun intended
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BESTIE WHAT HAPPENED LAST NIGHT X)
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BESTIE WHAT HAPPENED LAST NIGHT X)
notliamhyde02 05/22/2022 11:10 PM
nothing major
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well
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YOU DO NOT
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LEAVE ME ON A CLIFF HANGER LIKE THAT
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notliamhyde02 05/22/2022 11:11 PM
OK TO CLARIFY I DIDNT HAVE A GUY ROUND
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but fun stuff still happened
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;)
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I WKSIDJEJEIDSI
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You realise that just makes more questions :p
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I wanna throw myself from a window. Im doing some work which requires me to watch back some VoDs to gather some data that I cant get from anywhere else. But one of my players being stupid has temporarily closed his youtube account or something. Essentially removing like 3 weeks of VoDs I need to review.
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Players are annoying asf.
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Okay no longer annoyed at this player, turns out he got a virus (?) which changed all his passwords, then apparently uploaded videos or something that got his channel banned. Weird to think that in 2022 people do genuinely get viruses still. PSA: Get a password manager (1password is pretty good, you can get a student discount for your first year. Paying like £20 or something. Or you can pay monthly for more) (edited)
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mumblingmiss 05/23/2022 12:24 PM
My meds have me so tired holy hell when did I last speak to friends where am I what day is it
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My meds have me so tired holy hell when did I last speak to friends where am I what day is it
Dupendous Lew 05/23/2022 12:37 PM
It’s ok CB it’s an adjustment period you’re still going through it’ll get better for sure and your friends will be there whenever you can talk to them
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Confessions BOT 05/23/2022 3:47 PM
Anonymous Confession (#8)
"After talking about body dysmorphia yesterday, I took to google to take a look at what it actually is. And Im pretty sure I have it. Worse part is thinking back it only started this year after I met a guy who by all social norms is really attractive. The thoughts of me wanting to look better and realising how 'bad' I look only really started flooding in then. Also on this journey of self discovery I suppose, I think I might have also developed a slight ED the last few months. But that's a future me issue. I only deal with one internal crises a week. Maybe 2 if its a bank holiday."
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I’ve been there before it’s fucking horrible if you need a friend or shoulder to cry on, anything I’m here 💗💗
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Trying to deal with the council is like pulling teeth xD
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Just take my god damn tax exception form and fuck off
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Watch me enter with the dumbest vent in the world
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Not spoken to anyone in over 24 hours
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Therefore not used my vocal chords
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Trying to sing Six bcs it's daily routine at this point
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And I sound even more so like a cat being strangled
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Trying to sing Six bcs it's daily routine at this point
will.minchin25 05/24/2022 7:48 PM
We Stan for this
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I wanna take B one day but he’s so busy atm lol
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notliamhyde02 05/24/2022 8:07 PM
not really a vent but i had stones thrown at me by some gits when i was walking back from the bus
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id be more pissed if they could actually hit me
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Oh shut are you okay?
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notliamhyde02 05/24/2022 8:08 PM
yeah
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On my way! To murder them
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notliamhyde02 05/24/2022 8:08 PM
one stone like tapped my arm
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the rest were just flying over me
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idiots
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anyways im fine
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glad youre okay but thats fucking awful, im so sorry you had to deal with that
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notliamhyde02 05/24/2022 8:34 PM
there were also throwing stones at a house before they moved on to me
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dont think it was specifically me that was the thing
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think they wouldve done it to anyone
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sounds like some true assholes
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notliamhyde02 05/24/2022 8:35 PM
just being general pricks
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yeah
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will.minchin25
We Stan for this
:) It is a very important thing to do 😂
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notliamhyde02
not really a vent but i had stones thrown at me by some gits when i was walking back from the bus
Ew, slap them 😂
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very small vent but im starting to notice a pattern with myself: i feel lonely i am shit at communicating so i rarely meet new people or actually talk to people i want to be friends with i feel lonely again
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example: i was supposed to go on a date this afternoon, would be the first date ive been on in a year and since i came out as trans yet i cancel it because of a combination of paranoia and being awful at interacting with people
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i should really work on this
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will.minchin25 05/25/2022 12:20 PM
It’s gonna take time but at least you’re aware that this is an issue for you and are willing to work on it
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micro vent I need a bitch who will shoot me in my sleep
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I need a hoe to cut the brakes in my car
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that doesnt sound overly healthy
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Deleted User 05/26/2022 1:10 PM
Are you ok?
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Me: lives my life
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Compsci:
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will.minchin25 05/27/2022 2:55 AM
You can’t help it if they all come to you with their problems with comp sci students lol
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Deleted User 05/27/2022 12:09 PM
My family were casually talking about monkey pox today and someone said it’s spreading among the gays cos you know what they’re like (thinking it’s like aids), I honestly had to hold back the tears cos I’ve never been made to feel like this in my house and I know the attention was somewhat on me, does this count as homophobia? I really hate when these people are guests in my house cos they always say something offensive. Also am I just being sensitive cos I don’t think I’ve ever had homophobia directed specifically towards me before?
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My family were casually talking about monkey pox today and someone said it’s spreading among the gays cos you know what they’re like (thinking it’s like aids), I honestly had to hold back the tears cos I’ve never been made to feel like this in my house and I know the attention was somewhat on me, does this count as homophobia? I really hate when these people are guests in my house cos they always say something offensive. Also am I just being sensitive cos I don’t think I’ve ever had homophobia directed specifically towards me before?
youre completely valid to feel that way
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and yeah, there is an increased homophobic rhetoric going around recently, because many people are just ill informed of how the disease is being spread
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Monkeypox is not an STI (edited)
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Its spread through skin to skin contact, which is literally the same as other illnesses.
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Im sorry you have encountered that though
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Its spread through skin to skin contact, which is literally the same as other illnesses.
Deleted User 05/27/2022 12:17 PM
Thanks for making this clear, I was just in total shock. Especially when the people are older and probably didn’t like the gays when aids was a big issue.
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Thanks for making this clear, I was just in total shock. Especially when the people are older and probably didn’t like the gays when aids was a big issue.
Even then, Aids is so misunderstood in that time.
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Yes it was spread between predominantly gay men
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But that is because of the stigma of Homophobia, as well as NSFW warning
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Anal sex, is the higest way of reciveing HIV, especially bottoming
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Deleted User 05/27/2022 12:25 PM
Yeah this is completely true, I was looking at something in 3rd world countries where moscitoes are rife and men, women and children were locked up like animals cos people thought they were gay and stuff but didn’t understand HIV.
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Yeah this is completely true, I was looking at something in 3rd world countries where moscitoes are rife and men, women and children were locked up like animals cos people thought they were gay and stuff but didn’t understand HIV.
Yeah especially in third world countries
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Where HIV transmission is more common
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HiV is definitely something that is going to change in the next 30 years (edited)
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HiV is definitely something that is going to change in the next 30 years (edited)
Deleted User 05/27/2022 12:26 PM
What you mean?
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What you mean?
with treatments and well
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hopefully a cure
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Deleted User 05/27/2022 12:26 PM
Ahh yeah, hopefully.
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I wish more was done to commemorate the people who died in the 80s and 90s of aids cos they were shunned by society and completely ignored by the system. Like why isn’t this taught in our history about predjudis and stuff.
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But that is because of the stigma of Homophobia, as well as NSFW warning
notliamhyde02 05/27/2022 12:51 PM
expanding on this it also spread due to the lack of education around gay sex, and the unavailability of protection in some areas
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It has been recommended to me a couple times and it is on my watch list, so eveb though I haven't seen it, it actually looks great
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notliamhyde02 05/27/2022 8:51 PM
pose is fucking brilliant
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Deleted User 05/27/2022 8:51 PM
Finished it 3 days ago 😂
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notliamhyde02 05/27/2022 8:51 PM
honestly one of my favourites
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Deleted User 05/27/2022 8:51 PM
Was beautiful and hot!!!
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And Olly, omg!!!
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notliamhyde02 05/27/2022 8:51 PM
also 3 seasons are on iplayer
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notliamhyde02 05/27/2022 8:52 PM
spoilers for pose candy’s funeral kills me every single fucking time
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Deleted User 05/27/2022 8:52 PM
The show just shows how bad homophobia was then, I know I wouldn’t have coped.
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I willll, it's the next thing on my list
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The show just shows how bad homophobia was then, I know I wouldn’t have coped.
notliamhyde02 05/27/2022 8:53 PM
particularly transphobia
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queen
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also my god angel is perfect
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so hot
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Deleted User 05/27/2022 8:54 PM
Ohh, I was thinking of “it’s a sin” 😅
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will.minchin25 05/27/2022 8:54 PM
Was walking to work and walked past a group of girls and one looked dead at me went “smash” as I walked past
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Dk how I feel about that
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Ohh, I was thinking of “it’s a sin” 😅
Is that any good?
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Is that any good?
Deleted User 05/27/2022 8:54 PM
Yes!!!
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Where...can I watch
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Ohh, I was thinking of “it’s a sin” 😅
notliamhyde02 05/27/2022 8:54 PM
i’ve been meaning to watch it
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netflix
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Deleted User 05/27/2022 8:54 PM
It’s about aids and how it was handled
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notliamhyde02 05/27/2022 8:54 PM
or all 4
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Russel T Davis
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He did it
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Omg
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notliamhyde02 05/27/2022 8:55 PM
yeah
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AND KEELEY HAWES IS IN IT (edited)
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So many things to watchhhh
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I cannot rest in this house 🙂
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will.minchin25 05/27/2022 10:21 PM
What’s up
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You know who
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You know who
notliamhyde02 05/27/2022 10:49 PM
voldemort?
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notliamhyde02
voldemort?
Leave
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Leave
notliamhyde02 05/27/2022 10:50 PM
never ❤️
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never ❤️
Don’t make me banish you
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Don’t make me banish you
notliamhyde02 05/27/2022 10:52 PM
you’ve threatened before and never followed through
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Followed through...😂😂
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I'm so immature
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THIS FUCKING MAN
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PISSES ALL OVER THE TOILET
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THERE IS MORE PISS OVER ANYTHING
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I HATE LIVING HERE
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That's honestly grim, I'm sorry
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The fact there's no embarrassment concerns me
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You can see I’m about 1 moment away from snapping mentally
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This...is bad. Like ew
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I'm sorry you gotta deal with these levels of immaturity
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Idk if it was a petty move or just negligent
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I’m not
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Ugh
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That’s it I’m gaying the house
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Where’s my flags
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Idk if it was a petty move or just negligent
Both are actually vile
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Where’s my flags
Don't start a war in your house 😂😂
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Don't start a war in your house 😂😂
will.minchin25 05/28/2022 5:52 AM
The person in question is also responsible for breaking one of my expensive cocktail glasses j have at Brandon’s
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will.minchin25 05/28/2022 6:06 AM
There was a customer tonight who came up a few times to the bar ordering the same thing which normally wouldn’t be an issue except this time not only did they want 6 lots of drinks each time but also 10 baby Guinness. 10!!
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(For anyone who doesn’t know a baby Guinness is a shot made up of coffee liqueur and baileys which is made to look like a pint of Guinness)
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It’s not even like a jäger bomb where you just fill the middle with jäger and put red bull on the outside part it all has to be done in one of those tiny shot glasses
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The 25ml ones
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For those who don’t know this is what a Guinness looks like
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And this is a baby Guinness
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And to get it to look good like that you have to pour the baileys at an angle up against the side of the glass😭
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So it’s awkward enough doing 1 let alone 10
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OMG I RELATE SO HARD
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The amount of times people do this
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Makes me actually wanna die
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The person in question is also responsible for breaking one of my expensive cocktail glasses j have at Brandon’s
Ew, how dare they
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will.minchin25 05/28/2022 3:01 PM
Literally so annoying
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will.minchin25 05/28/2022 8:45 PM
Get shit thrown at me on the way to work for no reason ✌️
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Omg ew, I’m sorry, that’s awful
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will.minchin25 05/28/2022 11:27 PM
🤷‍♂️
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very small thing but tomorrow will be the first exam ive done since my first year of sixth form, and the first one that matters since gcses back in like 2016 or something
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very small thing but tomorrow will be the first exam ive done since my first year of sixth form, and the first one that matters since gcses back in like 2016 or something
Same, im kinda nervous
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youll do fine ❤ guess being nervous is to be expected for any exam, but especially after the last few years
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yeah this is also my fist ever
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2 and a half hour exam
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2 and a half hour exam
Deleted User 05/29/2022 2:23 PM
Awe bless you 🥺
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best of luck!
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On a scale of 1-10 how hard is it to flush a toilet and NOT PISS ALL OVER IT
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AGAIN
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Deleted User 05/29/2022 7:22 PM
Even then wipe it down after yourself, you should always leave a bathroom cleaner that you found it!!!
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And to get it to look good like that you have to pour the baileys at an angle up against the side of the glass😭
Pour the 10 kalua/tia maria then use the back of tea spoon to go along do the baileys on top. Shouldnt take more than 5 mins
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Pour the 10 kalua/tia maria then use the back of tea spoon to go along do the baileys on top. Shouldnt take more than 5 mins
will.minchin25 05/29/2022 7:48 PM
I work in a nightclub lol you think we have that time
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Its the quickest method to do it is all in saying. A lot quicker than pouring ine giving it over then pouring the next. You just line up the ten coffee shots and cream them all in a row
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It’s officially exam day
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AAAA
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DON'T STRESS
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You'll be ok
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Try and get some rest
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If you can
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good luck!! you'll do great
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ur gonna smash it 😤 😤
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had brief panic as to why i couldnt find the exam paper only to realize its released at 9:30, not 9, because im smart
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Deleted User 05/30/2022 12:26 PM
Going out today and am having to wear my straight cloths, wish I was wearing one of my new outfits but what am I supposed to do, just don’t feel anything when I look in the mirror.
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I'm sorry, that must be really awful
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So I'm almost home...and this man on the train has decided to stare at me the whole time and it has been an uncomfortable train ride lmao
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will.minchin25 05/30/2022 3:52 PM
I’m sorry to hear that I hope you’re okay
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Is all good
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Was just super uncomfortable
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will.minchin25 05/30/2022 4:46 PM
Tbh Ik the feeling I had some guy staring me down last night simply because he had made out with my friend
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Yeah, it's a gross feeling
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notliamhyde02 05/30/2022 5:21 PM
honestly can’t wait to leave uni now
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getting sick of my flatmates
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Honestly I relate, I'm sorry they are sucky
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Happy to slap some if needed x)
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Deleted User 05/30/2022 6:05 PM
It’s cool now, I quickly changed into a nicer outfit before I left and had a nice time ☺
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Ayyy, glad you had a good time :)
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just realized ive been answering the exam question wrong this entire timd
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literally wasted the last 10 hours
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Will (he/they) 05/31/2022 8:20 AM
I can’t do this anymore. For honestly the first time in my life I’m confused as to what to do. I don’t know if I should withdraw my uni application, I don’t know if I should stay at my job, I don’t know what to do
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Will (he/they)
I can’t do this anymore. For honestly the first time in my life I’m confused as to what to do. I don’t know if I should withdraw my uni application, I don’t know if I should stay at my job, I don’t know what to do
Why would you want to withdraw your application outta curiosity
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Will (he/they) 05/31/2022 8:41 AM
We’re moving (more than likely), and the uni is super far away from the new place and also… i dunno if I wanna go anymore
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Will (he/they)
We’re moving (more than likely), and the uni is super far away from the new place and also… i dunno if I wanna go anymore
That’s valid, is there any unis closer you like the look of maybe?
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Will (he/they) 05/31/2022 8:43 AM
i haven't rly looked, mostly because i've been busy with work and also trying to find a house
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for me and my sister
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Maybe if you need time, think about delaying for a year maybe?
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got a new phone....fucking whatsapp didn't backup properly....have no access to any of my old messages
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got a new phone....fucking whatsapp didn't backup properly....have no access to any of my old messages
Yikes
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Can you use your old phone to try and rebackup
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I'm trying it againnnn
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Gotta wait 7 hours
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Before it can re-verify my phone
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But hopefully
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It'll work
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will.minchin25 05/31/2022 6:42 PM
Fingers crossed
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If it doesn't, I'm gonna be sad
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will.minchin25 05/31/2022 6:47 PM
I would be too
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whenever i talk about sorting stuff out for the new house in september one of my housemates huffs and leaves
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small thing but bare in mind i tried to get stuff sorted out early last year, they told me to shut up about it because it annoyed them, then got annoyed by stuff being not sorted right before we move in
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i know im paranoid and over cautious but there is no harm in at least talking about the bills we're going to pay
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Deleted User 06/01/2022 4:52 PM
Having a 30 minute break from my exam where I decided to read an article on the LGBTQ community, unfortunately I decided to read the comments which led from be being stressed to strait up mournful 😭
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I'm tired of feeling sick and being too scared to eat
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Like is it nausea or am I hungry
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Like is it nausea or am I hungry
notliamhyde02 06/01/2022 5:51 PM
think soup is your best friend here
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mumblingmiss 06/01/2022 5:55 PM
Actually, I recommend eating something dry, ginger biscuits are pretty good for nausea
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Dupendous Lew 06/02/2022 3:41 PM
I despise being caught in the middle of relationship issues, and I’m currently stuck in a house where my brother and his girlfriend are going through some big issues and my niece is just kinda also here mostly oblivious excited that she has some lemonade, dunno how to deal with this kinda situation at all
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Deleted User 06/03/2022 2:26 AM
Not used to being stood up but tonight seems to be one of those nights.
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mumblingmiss 06/03/2022 7:50 AM
Fuck me fuck you fuck off I have covid again
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Not used to being stood up but tonight seems to be one of those nights.
Omg ew, that's disgusting, I'm sorry
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Omg ew, that's disgusting, I'm sorry
Deleted User 06/03/2022 8:58 AM
Should have seen it coming tbh, he was always funny even in college.
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Fuck me fuck you fuck off I have covid again
will.minchin25 06/03/2022 8:59 AM
No I hope you’re okay
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Should have seen it coming tbh, he was always funny even in college.
Well, not your fault. He missed out... massively 😂 (edited)
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will.minchin25 06/03/2022 2:48 PM
I actually feel really sick and idk what to do
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I’m stuck on a train too
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Have you got water
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Drink water
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will.minchin25 06/03/2022 2:49 PM
Not atm
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I’ve had some earlier so it’s not dehydration
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I’ve drank plenty today
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Turn off phone and all devices, travel sickness, even if you don't have it can appear
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Stare out the window
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Take as many layers off as you can
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So you aren't too warm
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will.minchin25 06/03/2022 2:49 PM
Can’t unfortunately I’ve only got one layer
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It was the only clean thing I had
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will.minchin25 06/03/2022 2:50 PM
Staring at the window hasn’t helped cause I tried that and if anything I’ve felt worse
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If you're worried that you will be unwell see if you can speak to a member of staff and you'll be let off at the next station to be looked after. I was very unwell on a train once and the staff were amazing
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will.minchin25 06/03/2022 2:51 PM
I can’t get off until my stop or I won’t be able to get back
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I have an advanced single so it’s only valid on this train
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I’m considering running to the nearest loo but it’s kinda far
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Like 2-3 carriages back I think
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The closest one is out of order so
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Will (he/they) 06/03/2022 4:51 PM
I’ve got this coworker who’s been with the company the same amount of time as me and doesn’t know how to do literally anything. I’ve explained it to him several times and several different ways
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Can’t stop crying
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Can’t stop crying
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Can’t stop crying
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Manic mode aaa
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🫂 hey you're going to be ok
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I got to work early tomorrow
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And I feel like I’m pissing the people off at my work by it
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And it’s just
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Ducking stupid
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I'm sure you aren't
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the people at your work like you
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I feel like I was shit to them today
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they'll understand that you're going through a lot
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Yeah I guess
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Deleted User 06/04/2022 4:32 PM
When random people send me 🍆 pics online can you at least say hello first, also I can tell ur obviously in ur 60s and it’s not happening 🙄😡
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Ew, kill them
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Ew, kill them
Deleted User 06/04/2022 4:34 PM
I made a nasty comment and then blocked them, it’s close enough.
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Actually bets move
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best*
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Deleted User 06/04/2022 4:34 PM
I’m curious where they got my details tho
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Creepy old men have their ways
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Deleted User 06/04/2022 4:34 PM
They really do
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At work, gets asked about my degree and my career path etc
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As soon as I mention psychology
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The talk turns to sexuality and gender labels and how there are too many
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Concerning that psychology is related to LGBT in the modern day
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A little flustered ngl
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will.minchin25 06/04/2022 8:10 PM
I would be too
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Oh and now I've heard the f* slur 17 times
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Oh and now I've heard the f* slur 17 times
notliamhyde02 06/04/2022 8:59 PM
slap them
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whoever it is
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They've gone now
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Oh and now I've heard the f* slur 17 times
Deleted User 06/04/2022 9:23 PM
Omg public casual homophobia is the worst, just have to grin and bare it cos if you says something you could be putting urself in danger or be seen as the unreasonable one 😭
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Yeah, I'm used to it at work ngl
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will.minchin25 06/06/2022 12:28 PM
Anyone else no longer find a joke funny if you have to break it down and explain it someone or is it just me?
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I only get jokes half the time
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So normally I need them explaining
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will.minchin25 06/06/2022 12:29 PM
Like I’ll make a joke about something going on and then I have to explain every little detail
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Giving a quick explanation is fine
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But it’s when I have to break down every small detail
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Yeah that's fair
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Hollow Cadbury caramel?! Not on
stare 2
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Hollow Cadbury caramel?! Not on
mumblingmiss 06/06/2022 7:48 PM
I would actually have to throw hands with someone wtf
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Literally two bits
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Was so upset
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mumblingmiss 06/06/2022 7:48 PM
I'd probably cry
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🫂 was disappointing to say the least
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mumblingmiss 06/06/2022 7:49 PM
I'm praying that your next bar is blessed with caramel
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Thank youuuu 💜
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will.minchin25 06/06/2022 10:19 PM
I’m actually so fucking fed up of my brother constant going on about my driving
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There is nothing wrong with it
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He’s never been in a car with me
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And it pisses me off
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What car do you drive?
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will.minchin25 06/06/2022 10:19 PM
I struggle to get any extra practice as it is
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What car do you drive?
will.minchin25 06/06/2022 10:20 PM
I’ve not passed my test yet
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Fairs, me neither
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will.minchin25 06/06/2022 10:21 PM
But it doesn’t help when he sits there talking about how I’m gonna crash and I can’t be trusted and how unsafe I am and saying things like “the exception to national speed limit is when you’re on the road”
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Like fuck off
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Actually ew
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will.minchin25 06/06/2022 10:21 PM
Just cause I can’t get a car yet or afford some fancy course ti get my license in a week like you
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I don't drive national speed limit, just below for safety
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So like
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That's so dumb
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will.minchin25 06/06/2022 10:21 PM
And the fact my dad refuses to take me out 99% of the time is great
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He always goes “you can get practice on your lessons”
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And then I feel judged by the pair of them everytime I cancel a lesson for whatever reason
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But it’s all he does everytime I mention driving and I’ve had enough
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No one else in my family drives
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And any friends I have that drive haven’t been driving for 3 or more years and aren’t 21 so they can’t take me out
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So I never get any practice as it is
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I’m staying at home for this long to try and feel better about life not be put down by the people around me
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And not to he made to feel even more shir
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*shit
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Eeeeen
Fairs, me neither
notliamhyde02 06/06/2022 11:05 PM
wait so how do you ride your bike?
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just a cbt?
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Im on L plates baby, CBT squad
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notliamhyde02 06/06/2022 11:07 PM
ah i see
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Eeeeen
Im on L plates baby, CBT squad
notliamhyde02 06/06/2022 11:08 PM
CBT or CBT?
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cock and ball torture?
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Compulsory Basic Training. Which is what HR will make you do when I send screenshots to your job
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Eeeeen
Compulsory Basic Training. Which is what HR will make you do when I send screenshots to your job
please theyd sack me on the spot
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Deleted User 06/07/2022 10:04 AM
My only post today then im doing my exam work. I could not be happier with the questions and content today, I lost so much sleep last night panicking and now im like "Well, this is a nice surprise" ☺
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Gl with the exam! (edited)
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My only post today then im doing my exam work. I could not be happier with the questions and content today, I lost so much sleep last night panicking and now im like "Well, this is a nice surprise" ☺
You are going to do great! Good luck
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Will (he/they) 06/07/2022 12:43 PM
Man, fuck GameStop. Manager wrote me up over stuff that either was ridiculously small or I flat out didn’t do. It’s my second write up which means I’d be fired. I put my two weeks in on Sunday anyways but after that notice I’m turning my keys in tomorrow and telling them to fucking suck it
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will.minchin25 06/07/2022 12:44 PM
I had something similar at one point but in my current job
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Will (he/they) 06/07/2022 12:46 PM
I don’t owe them shit
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And it’s not like I worked many hours anyways
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notliamhyde02 06/08/2022 11:28 AM
one of my friends told me that all 3 of her dogs just died
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after she told me her nan died a few days ago
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not sm a vent
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but i just feel awful
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Just send her plenty of love and support
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🫂🫂
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That's really horrible
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notliamhyde02 06/10/2022 12:34 AM
mini rant - don’t understand how for a whole year at uni my face has been fairly spot free (aside from like the same four that always seem to pop up, but they were fine)
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and as soon as i get home my face starts flaring up again with way more
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and my hairs getting greasier quicker
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must be the water
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but still annoying :(
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I get it though
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It's the worst
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And all those who have seen me irl know I really don't have the clearest skin so like, I really get it
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🫂
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notliamhyde02 06/11/2022 9:54 AM
well
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i’ve gained weight again
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Nothing wrong with that
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I know its hard but the numbers on the scale really are arbitrary
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Its much more important to feel at home in your body and diet and excercise based off how your body feels to you rather than what numbers gravity is putting on you
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notliamhyde02 06/11/2022 6:11 PM
i’m suddenly regretting coming home !!!
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notliamhyde02
i’m suddenly regretting coming home !!!
Why? Are you ok?
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Why? Are you ok?
notliamhyde02 06/11/2022 6:16 PM
yeah but i’m in one of those moods where little things really annoy me
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notliamhyde02 06/11/2022 6:17 PM
and it’s just not helpful
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It never is
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notliamhyde02 06/11/2022 6:17 PM
just counting down until september now
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It'll be ok 🫂💜
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notliamhyde02 06/11/2022 6:23 PM
still i’m excited to go to brighton and norwich soon :)
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gonna spend all the money i said i’ll probably save so i’m not broke in the new semester
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Mood ngl
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Currently removing my exes stuff from my room and it’s heartbreaking
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Life really said Imma gonna drop ill health, boiling weather and bereavement on you right before your last exam 😭
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mumblingmiss 06/14/2022 9:08 PM
Needed an excuse to be angry at something bc of hormones so I went and read back a bunch of the angry conversations I had with my ex during our relationship. Fucking fired up rn
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mumblingmiss
Needed an excuse to be angry at something bc of hormones so I went and read back a bunch of the angry conversations I had with my ex during our relationship. Fucking fired up rn
notliamhyde02 06/14/2022 9:44 PM
use that energy to kick them in the shins
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not me getting a bad migraine the day of my last exam
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It's really warm today make sure you stay hydrated that normally helps ~ I hope you get through it okay!
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Thanks, I'm just having some caffeine now to get me through the next few hours and I'm going to properly hydrate in a bit
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If anyone sees me on campus rn, have pity on me 😂
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there are these cooling pad things you can put on your head thats supposed to help with migraines? might also help with the weather, but not sure if anywhere near campus has them. hope you feel better soon though and good luck 🫂
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Put a water bottle in the freezer then once its frozen wrap it in kitchen roll/teatowel and its like a hot water bottle but like cold which can be good for stuff like that
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Yeah my exams in person so unfortunately can't do many of my usual tips and tricks but I just gotta get through the next few hours and then I can pass tf out
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Yeah my exams in person so unfortunately can't do many of my usual tips and tricks but I just gotta get through the next few hours and then I can pass tf out
hang in there
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nearly there!"
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thanks b
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Yeah my exams in person so unfortunately can't do many of my usual tips and tricks but I just gotta get through the next few hours and then I can pass tf out
you got this!
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notliamhyde02 06/15/2022 2:34 PM
so booooooorrred
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very glad i can just exist as an emotionless husk from time to time
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(just popping in to say I survived my exam)
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Proud of you, hope you feel better!!
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(just popping in to say I survived my exam)
Ayyy
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doing an exam while looking after another person is proving difficult. not their fault obviously, but just proving difficult
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how bad would it be to drink during an exam?
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i mean i know its probably not a great idea but if its only a bit it might make it easier to write at the very least, if i get the research done first
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My gut reaction is omg no
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But like one shot would probably be okay right? Like you wouldn’t be shitfaced and might make it more bearable?
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thats how i did my interview and that turned out well apparantly
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It’s not something I’d do so ig I’d advise against it but also as an experiment could be interesting to see how you do
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i'll give it a go if im stuck on the first question in three hours, i can always use energy drinks to sober me i guess lol
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i have not slept in so long and i still have an entire essay question to do in 9 hours
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if my housemate doesnt have another nosebleed that is
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i feel like this is a good time to start using energy drinks but i only have two ive now realized
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Been in A&E for nearly 4 hours now waiting for xray results. Starting to feel a little forgotten 😂
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notliamhyde02 06/17/2022 12:08 AM
hang in there 🫂
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Eeeeen
Been in A&E for nearly 4 hours now waiting for xray results. Starting to feel a little forgotten 😂
I hope someone attends to you soon! :(
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Thank you guys. Just playing the waiting game :(
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A&E is horrible to deal with so hope you get seen soon and heal up
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I agree, it's definitely not a fun environment to be in
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My circus career is gonna be on the back burner for a couple months 😂
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I'm sure you can find a way to get a wheelchair on that slackline
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Have been seen, got a cast and they took some more xrays. Waiting for an orthopaedic consultation
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ForestBae🎄 06/17/2022 2:11 AM
Bruh u still in hospital kannaOof
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Hope the consultation is quick for ya
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Yeah, im still here :/ theyre busy people y'know. Thank you
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Will (he/they) 06/17/2022 7:16 AM
Oh you’ve gotta be pulling my damn leg My screen on my MBA is starting to flicker Ugh I haven’t even dropped it
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Think they had to stay in hospital over night
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Okay gang, been sent home but theyre calling me back in because my ankle requires a surgical procedure. I am going back to my parents in the mean time. It is with great sadness I must admit I will not be making it to any Liam based events. Sorry folks :(
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Will (he/they) 06/17/2022 8:39 AM
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ForestBae🎄 06/17/2022 8:39 AM
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Eeeeen
Okay gang, been sent home but theyre calling me back in because my ankle requires a surgical procedure. I am going back to my parents in the mean time. It is with great sadness I must admit I will not be making it to any Liam based events. Sorry folks :(
notliamhyde02 06/17/2022 8:57 AM
god is cruel
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rest up and take care 🫂❤️
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Thank you all 💖
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I am very sad because this has fucked all my plans for the next 3 months
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I am very sad because this has fucked all my plans for the next 3 months
notliamhyde02 06/17/2022 9:00 AM
oh shit even your trip?
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Yeah, I cant say goodbye to my girlfriend this weekend, I cant go out for my housemates last hoorah, I cant go to the festival ive got tickets for, Im holding out all hope that if we move out flights back a couple weeks I can still go to the states but its not looking great rn
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notliamhyde02 06/17/2022 9:02 AM
fuck man
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Yeah, it fucking blows
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@Eeeeen if you need anything let me know
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Even if I need to carry you around somewhere I will
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Thank you 😂
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god vomiting up only fluids is the worst. my entire body paralysed with tension from the sheer effort of it
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Have some plain toast if you can, that's meant to help settle your stomach I hope you feel better soon:(
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ST spolier: can Vecna pls come kill me, honestly, I'm living the scary fear bit, just need the bone snapping bit
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really hating my brain right now
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Hospital told me not to eat after Sunday midnight and theyd call me around 9am today to update me on when my surgery is happening. Still not had a phone call 🙃🙃🙃 We called them at 11am to ask whats going on and just got told the receptionists dont know but I should continue to wait. Im so damn hungry
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That is absolutely ridiculous, I’d be calling on the hour every hour and asking for an update and tell them that you will continue to do so until you get a call back
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Annoy the shit out of people and they will deal with you
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As someone who's done a lot of fasting in their day, avoid chewing gum too much ~ it's a good appetite suppressant but too much erodes your stomach lining and that's really painful, if you can, have tea with milk bc that's actually got stuff in and will stop you feeling as hungry but also juice is good bc it replenishes electrolytes and is also higher in sugar and will make you feel less dead while you're empty. I really hope they hurry up and sort you something out tho
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Im all good, I've done an amount of fasting before myself. Thank you though
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Annoy the shit out of people and they will deal with you
As much as I want to I know that the hospital is not the place to pull this because it'll just slow down the actual process. If I dont hear anything by this evening I will abso-fucking-lutely kick off
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I swear in the event I possibly move on campus in September it had better be like a lgbtq coming of age drama or no1 bestselling book otherwise I want my mom back - I just started love Victor if you can tell ☺
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ForestBae🎄 06/20/2022 11:28 PM
hey im also gonna be on campus in sep, where u gonna be at?
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also is love victor any good?
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Me too I’ll be in Ziggs
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💀 rip
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ForestBae🎄 06/20/2022 11:29 PM
im gonna be in nelson court with one of my current housemates
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it has a small ass kitchen which im sad about, but i get a big bed room though
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Idk where I’ll be, probably most affordable tho. My only conditions are that i need my own bathroom and I need a proper oven for when I bake 😉
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ForestBae🎄 06/20/2022 11:40 PM
i hope you get an oven
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i will miss my oven
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PokiCry
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i remember not having one in village and just fried everything
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and borrowed other peoples ovens
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i remember not having one in village and just fried everything
Wait, village doesn’t have ovens? That where I was considering 😭
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ForestBae🎄 06/20/2022 11:45 PM
normal village doesnt have ovens but village plus does (edited)
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if ur lucky you could get one in normal village however doubt
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Wait, village doesn’t have ovens? That where I was considering 😭
NO IT DOESN'T AND IT HAS KILLED ME FOR A WHOLE YEAR MEANING I COULDN'T BAKE OR COOK PROPERLY
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Me too I’ll be in Ziggs
Twink Antony 06/20/2022 11:48 PM
Ah you’ll love it x
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ForestBae🎄 06/20/2022 11:50 PM
i only bake on special occasions such as my friends birthday
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dont really get the urge to bake
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Though village plus does have ovens
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ForestBae🎄 06/20/2022 11:50 PM
now, my urges to cook during the ungodly hours of the night
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Which was a godsend when I moved flats
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ForestBae🎄 06/20/2022 11:50 PM
always
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Which was a godsend when I moved flats
ForestBae🎄 06/20/2022 11:50 PM
lucky
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which i could have moved, my flat was dead and i only got along with 2 people ish
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one im living with next year and the other one i lost contact with and just see during lectures and such
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NO IT DOESN'T AND IT HAS KILLED ME FOR A WHOLE YEAR MEANING I COULDN'T BAKE OR COOK PROPERLY
Ooh, I think village plus might have ovens.
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ForestBae🎄 06/20/2022 11:52 PM
they do, i can confirm
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which i could have moved, my flat was dead and i only got along with 2 people ish
I mean, my flat that I moved into, they were all very cold towards me but it was better than being frightened of being in my own flat
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ForestBae🎄 06/20/2022 11:55 PM
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Ooh, I think village plus might have ovens.
It does, I fully recommend village plus
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Tbh I think village pulse is best value for what I want out of accommodation, like I don’t want the ritz or Savoy (tho the Gucci room there loos amazing) I just want privacy and a place to bake.
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Tbh I think village pulse is best value for what I want out of accommodation, like I don’t want the ritz or Savoy (tho the Gucci room there loos amazing) I just want privacy and a place to bake.
Village plus baby here
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It’s amazing
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I moved in first year bc of my flatmates it’s not that hard tbh if that’s what you need Britten house doesn’t have an oven (my ex was there)
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Honestly village plus is great
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It’s amazing
I’ll pass the idea by my dad, he’s probably be happy I’m picking something that isn’t the most expensive for once 😂
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Most of normal on campus doesn’t
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NO IT DOESN'T AND IT HAS KILLED ME FOR A WHOLE YEAR MEANING I COULDN'T BAKE OR COOK PROPERLY
fr ive literally had so many things go so bad ohmagod
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mumblingmiss 06/21/2022 1:05 PM
Ew. All the shit on her story was super fake and scammy so I reported it all but still ew. I hope it's a hacker and not actually her
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'not at all girl' sounds like mlm chat to me
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mumblingmiss 06/21/2022 1:08 PM
It's worrying
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If I'd spoken to her more than once before I'm sure I could tell but I haven't lol
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Why did I read Mlm as in Men who love men smh
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gay
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yea theres a lot of that sort of hacking atm, if anyone asks u for a favour / to send a code, dont lol
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My cousin got hacked and I knew bc I got a dm going 'hello how are you' and immediately knew that's not him bc he doesn't care how I am we communicate solely through zelda and mario memes
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Thinking of deleting TikTok and instagram, I like looking through the fashion and stuff but I keep seeing really pretty people and afterwards I hate seeing myself in the mirror and just hate my body. Does anyone else think this is an issue?
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It can definitely be a big issue, seeing “really pretty” people all the time on these sites but I try to remind myself that the majority of them are edited lots, the poses that people do are very specific to make their bodies look “better”. It is hard seeing those things and thinking negative things about yourself, remind yourself that you are beautiful, handsome, sexy (not an exhaustive list of complimentary words but choose whichever ones work for you). Also remind yourself that you are smart, kind and have great fashion sense. 💕
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got a slightly dysphoria inducing appointment tomorrow and as it gets closing getting more and more uneasy about it
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necessery but annoying
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Have you got something like affirming you can wear for the appointment that might make you feel more comfortable?
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feel like that might make it a bit worse, imposter syndrome and all. im going to just try to focus on other stuff, then drink in the evening lol thanks for the advice though ❤
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i wish my mother would stop calling me when I'm high. trying to have a nice evening and then it’s just a lot of yelling while my mind is goop
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ForestBae🎄 06/21/2022 10:05 PM
that is an F
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That sucks, I’m sorry you have to deal with that. Could you maybe, not answer the call? I have a rule of 3 calls in rapid succession is an emergency, otherwise I don’t have to answer. I understand that might not work for everyone though
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Gang im fucking dying. My ankle hurts more following surgery that it did when I broke it. This shit SUCKS
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Eeeeen
Gang im fucking dying. My ankle hurts more following surgery that it did when I broke it. This shit SUCKS
notliamhyde02 06/22/2022 9:15 PM
just shovel in those painkillers
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Yea, I have a rota for them. Im also doing my own injections daily because no one wants a blood clot so theyve put me on blood thinners
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Eeeeen
Yea, I have a rota for them. Im also doing my own injections daily because no one wants a blood clot so theyve put me on blood thinners
notliamhyde02 06/22/2022 10:01 PM
oof ruff 🫂❤️
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Idk why but no matter when I go to bed I always wake up at 5/6 in the morning and reslly struggle to go back to sleep. I drank a bunch last night... and still wake up at 5. I just want to sleep 🥺 (It's only started this past week) (edited)
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Are you under a lot of stress/ pressure atm? I always find myself sleeping in a similar pattern when I’m under a lot of stress
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If anything this is the most unstressed I've been in a while. Which makes it all the more confusing xD
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Intriguing, hm well if that seems to be your natural body alarm atm I would suggest going with it. Try going to bed earlier for a few nights in a row and just tracking it. It’s not necessarily a bad thing if you don’t need as much sleep because it might be that the sleep that you’re having is ‘deeper’ more REM etc
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Josh
If anything this is the most unstressed I've been in a while. Which makes it all the more confusing xD
It’s probably the lighting maybe
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I get weeks like that
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Have a glass of water and maybe lay back down
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Intriguing, hm well if that seems to be your natural body alarm atm I would suggest going with it. Try going to bed earlier for a few nights in a row and just tracking it. It’s not necessarily a bad thing if you don’t need as much sleep because it might be that the sleep that you’re having is ‘deeper’ more REM etc
I'll try sleeping earlier and see how that goes.
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i have the same issues but i think my terrible curtains and early sunrises are partially responsible. also recommend sleeping earlier and maybe drinking herbal non-caffinated tea
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anything that makes you sleepy tbh. blue light filter on your screens and try not to look at them for about 30 mins before you want to sleep
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its one of those days 🍷
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Yes blue lights on screens are the devil
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very very much one of those days
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that interview was fucking nerve-wracking as hell
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I've never been grilled on so much so incessantly before 😭
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i think it went well? but also I'm just exhausted
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hope it went well and you can rest now 🫂
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notliamhyde02 06/23/2022 5:10 PM
come back home and now i’m stuck at home doing nothing
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fomo kicking me in the bollocks rn
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tried making plans to meet up with a friend but i’d have to work around my dog and it just wouldn’t be worth it
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:((
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If you ever wanna go to the beach or something for a day, I'll happily drive up, it's really not that far
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ForestBae🎄 06/23/2022 5:42 PM
i live near a beach
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uwu
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I do...ish 😂
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ForestBae🎄 06/23/2022 5:59 PM
i say near it be like a 10 min drive from my house i think
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but i dont drive fo it be about a 30 min bus journey for moi
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i say near it be like a 10 min drive from my house i think
notliamhyde02 06/23/2022 6:08 PM
yeah same it’s like 10-15 mins from me
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It's like an hour for me 😭😭
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Ding dong wills a cunt
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?ban @Unknown yayeet
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dynoSuccess savaynay#9902 was banned
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Sorry for the vent besties
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Don't apologise
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You are as valid as everyone else
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^^^
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Sorry for clarification that person was wills housemate
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And like
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Wills being a cunt saying the worst shit about me
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Some people just thrive on toxicity and are just poisonous
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Guess who’s Covid positive?
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ForestBae🎄 06/24/2022 9:14 AM
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Anonymous Confession (#131)
"do you ever just wanna make friends with people but don't want to bother them as you don't know enough about them to start a conversation 😭"
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unfortunately yes, it can be really tough at times :/ I just try to remind myself that they're still a human, and even if its a bit awkward trying to start a conversation they shouldn't hold it against you in any way
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A single bus broke down on the mouth of the round about in Norwich... and has just stopped like every bus from Norwich lmao
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I just want to get home :(
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all the time
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I just want to get home :(
beryl its easier than buses ngl (edited)
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Tempted. Plus all the taxis are more or less booked atm lol
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More expensive though
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Tempted. Plus all the taxis are more or less booked atm lol
better than a taxi
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better than a taxi
Welp got my friend to pick me up. Cuz hes a true chad.
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I totally get that. Personally I just shoot a message saying Hi, or if theres something in particular thats made me want to be friends with someone for example them mentioning a similar hobby to me in the server I open with that xD Worse that can happen is the convocation dies early. But the best outcome is you make a new friend :D
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notliamhyde02 06/24/2022 8:32 PM
i don’t want to be at home anymore
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just so dull
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House party at mine 😂😂
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Plusnet supposedly the best for customer service, set up a new mobile sim only tariff with them today and they’ve charged me twice. I call them back and say “hey, I’ve been charged twice” the response being “ah, I can see that there has been a duplicate order processed, you will have to wait until both sims arrive and then call us back to cancel one”…
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WTAF?! You can take my money just like that, YOUR fuck up but I have to call back in a few days to reclaim it??
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Jesus Christ, not only that but they didn’t have Mx as an option and the guy was kinda rude being like “did you mean Miss or Ms” NO YOU FUCKING STUPID PRICK OR I WOULD HAVE SAID THAT WOULDN’T I?!
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And then to top this off they set my birth year as 1966
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Like fuck me
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Kick in the teeth why don’t ya
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Jebus
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I just want that sweet 30gb deal and non of this bs pls
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Sorry everyone, rant over. I’m on a high energy ranting rn given the current situation with our fellow humans in the states and not being able to do much about that from the U.K. so I’m just kinda angry at everything
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honestly valid, having the extra stress on top of that worry is a lot 🫂
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Confessions BOT 06/25/2022 3:50 PM
Anonymous Confession (#144)
"feels like im having to learn a bunch of rules that keep changing for me to take care of myself, and its really difficult to keep track some times"
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No bcs work is so fucking shit, I wanna cry
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Sorry babes
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Literally so close to dying and crying and everything
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ForestBae🎄 06/25/2022 8:52 PM
but getting paid is worth right?
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Yeah that's true
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Think of the money, remember they need you more than you need them. Hold your head up high and carry on bitch, you got this
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notliamhyde02 06/26/2022 11:26 AM
did not want to come home to be bossed around when i’m literally 20
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Ugh I know that feeling, except it’s the expectation that I will do things because I’m presumed woman. We’re all ill, everyone’s ill here so we have to look after each other but noooooo
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notliamhyde02 06/26/2022 11:36 AM
that’s rough
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it just gets exhausting
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hoping next year im just gonna stay at my uni house and not have to come home
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it’s also just so limiting as well
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Yeah for sure, it’s like they just expect you to fit back into a child’s role. It’s a power play whether or not they realise it
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It really sucks but not too long and then you are free again 💜
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I'm sorry but why are a bunch of old men talking about how to best shave their balls
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Like no thanks
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I don't wanna hear that
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Now I'm gonna punch a wall bcs the pub has completely cleared out
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So I'm stood behind the bar
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For another hour
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Hope yous all don't mind my work vents
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Let me know if they are a problem or just annoying ☺
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I'm sorry but why are a bunch of old men talking about how to best shave their balls
Gotta stay tidy y'know, its an important conversation. Did you remind them to check for testicular cancer?
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No bcs I was frightened they were gonna start whipping them out
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Will (he/they) 06/26/2022 10:50 PM
lol tmw you barely have enough money to make it the 3+ weeks you're out of a job and you can't get one rn because you're in the middle of a move AND you had to buy shampoo and conditioner yesterday because you were out and that was $40
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:))
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Why was shampoo and conditioner so expensive?
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Will (he/they) 06/26/2022 10:51 PM
they're separate bottles and salon grade. they're basically a necessity, my hair gets all wiry with other brands
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Ah that's fair
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I'm sorry
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💜🫂
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I hope everything gets sorted and you manage
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I know I can't do much, but if you need anything, lemme know
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lol tmw you barely have enough money to make it the 3+ weeks you're out of a job and you can't get one rn because you're in the middle of a move AND you had to buy shampoo and conditioner yesterday because you were out and that was $40
I'm in the same position so i understand and it's infuriating how much it costs to literally just be alive
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honestly im so thankful for my hair. As long as I condition it every couple days it tends to stay pretty silky
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Someone: I'm glad I'm not there then Me: You had better be bcs if you were... I'd punch you in the face 😊
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Fuckboy Drag King 06/27/2022 3:34 PM
Got 83% on the last project of the year ✌️ it was group work, ended up doing most of it, got about 15 marks more than my team so we take the W friends 💪
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Fuckboy Drag King
Got 83% on the last project of the year ✌️ it was group work, ended up doing most of it, got about 15 marks more than my team so we take the W friends 💪
congrats! honestly deserve more than that from all the stories about your groups lmao
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That's awesome! Sorry you had to do all the work but holy shit that's amazing especially considering that!!
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Fuckboy Drag King
Got 83% on the last project of the year ✌️ it was group work, ended up doing most of it, got about 15 marks more than my team so we take the W friends 💪
Twink Antony 06/27/2022 3:36 PM
Ayyy, need to find out how the rest of my team did tbf
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Fuckboy Drag King 06/27/2022 3:36 PM
Bless you both! Group work can suck, especially when they're literally playing chess in the labs rather than doing the CSS of a website, BUT we move
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Twink Antony
Ayyy, need to find out how the rest of my team did tbf
Fuckboy Drag King 06/27/2022 3:36 PM
how did you end up doing James? You had it even worse than me
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Twink Antony 06/27/2022 3:36 PM
But big congrats Caz, you nailed it x
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chess? not even anarchy chess? fucking nerds
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But it's OVER and you did AMAZING so fuck them (edited)
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Fuckboy Drag King 06/27/2022 3:36 PM
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Fuckboy Drag King
how did you end up doing James? You had it even worse than me
Twink Antony 06/27/2022 3:37 PM
My grade was so very specific, 67 followed by 5 numbers after decimal point
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group projects aka how to overwork yourself to death in 4 weeks or less
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Twink Antony
My grade was so very specific, 67 followed by 5 numbers after decimal point
Fuckboy Drag King 06/27/2022 3:37 PM
.....?
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Swear down if your team was like "yeah he did 3.888694937/5 of the work"
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Fuckboy Drag King
Swear down if your team was like "yeah he did 3.888694937/5 of the work"
Twink Antony 06/27/2022 3:37 PM
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Like what
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Fuckboy Drag King 06/27/2022 3:38 PM
What
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I'm gonna have to ask your team how they did
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Interesting lol
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i have never seen more than one number after the decimal
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Fuckboy Drag King 06/27/2022 3:38 PM
Group work moment
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surely just round up to a 67
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Twink Antony 06/27/2022 3:38 PM
It honestly confuses me so much
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Fuckboy Drag King 06/27/2022 3:38 PM
No we need the exact fucking grade
15:38
the EXACT fucking grade
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Twink Antony 06/27/2022 3:38 PM
The fuckers undercut me what
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Fuckboy Drag King 06/27/2022 3:39 PM
Wait really
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What did they get?
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Do I need to set a Russian man on fire again I'll do it
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Twink Antony 06/27/2022 3:39 PM
Igor got 72%
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molotov cocktail time
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Fuckboy Drag King 06/27/2022 3:39 PM
In fairness he did do quite a bit iirc?
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Twink Antony 06/27/2022 3:39 PM
Actually tbf, he did do like most of the documentation
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Fuckboy Drag King 06/27/2022 3:40 PM
But the other two
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Twink Antony 06/27/2022 3:40 PM
Need to find out what the others got yeah
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Fuckboy Drag King 06/27/2022 3:40 PM
my teams marks were fucking scattered like
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someone got 68, I got 83, like there's entire ballparks of difference, and we didn't even throw each other under the bus that much
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Just after my presentation Nik was like "so it's really clear you're the only one who knew what you were talking about" and I just took that W
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Twink Antony 06/27/2022 3:41 PM
Weird as hell
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Fuckboy Drag King 06/27/2022 3:41 PM
Also depends on marker
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Fuckboy Drag King
Just after my presentation Nik was like "so it's really clear you're the only one who knew what you were talking about" and I just took that W
Twink Antony 06/27/2022 3:41 PM
Oh fairs
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Fuckboy Drag King 06/27/2022 3:41 PM
you had Aaron right?
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Twink Antony 06/27/2022 3:41 PM
Yeah
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Fuckboy Drag King 06/27/2022 3:41 PM
Bostrom my beloved
15:41
You still did well though gj
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Twink Antony 06/27/2022 3:41 PM
Tbf its not a bad grade
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congrats on your hyperspecific grade james shookpeach
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mahariel
congrats on your hyperspecific grade james shookpeach
Twink Antony 06/27/2022 3:42 PM
Thank you, I’ll hold my grade with honour
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Twink Antony
Tbf its not a bad grade
Fuckboy Drag King 06/27/2022 3:42 PM
Absolutely! Esp considering literally one of your team mates dropped out of uni lmao
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good luck for your year in industry , you'll do great I'm sure
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mahariel
good luck for your year in industry , you'll do great I'm sure
Twink Antony 06/27/2022 3:42 PM
Need to find a house 😬
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Fuckboy Drag King
Absolutely! Esp considering literally one of your team mates dropped out of uni lmao
how bad was this project lmfao
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mahariel
how bad was this project lmfao
Fuckboy Drag King 06/27/2022 3:42 PM
It wasn't even that bad LMAO but it was like
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the straw that broke the camels back for like
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4 people I know
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They're either retaking or just dropped out entirely
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Comp sci moment
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love that for them
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Twink Antony 06/27/2022 3:43 PM
Tbf, If I continued on with next year, I know I’d come out with a 2:2 or something
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compsci 🤝🏽 physics 20% dropout rate
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Twink Antony 06/27/2022 3:43 PM
Cause I really don’t care all too much
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mahariel
compsci 🤝🏽 physics 20% dropout rate
Fuckboy Drag King 06/27/2022 3:43 PM
It's because it's such a fun degree
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Twink Antony
Cause I really don’t care all too much
Fuckboy Drag King 06/27/2022 3:44 PM
Same, this year was a bit of a shit show
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Twink Antony 06/27/2022 3:44 PM
Come back with new energy
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Twink Antony
Need to find a house 😬
in this economy? you're welcome to crash in my cardboard box under a bridge
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Twink Antony 06/27/2022 3:44 PM
I say that as I’m sat in a&e with like 6 hours ahead of me
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Fuckboy Drag King 06/27/2022 3:44 PM
honestly
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what happened lol
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mahariel
in this economy? you're welcome to crash in my cardboard box under a bridge
Twink Antony 06/27/2022 3:45 PM
Oh boy, maybe I’ll get some room 🤩🤩
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Fuckboy Drag King 06/27/2022 3:45 PM
like man you're a great friend but I died when I saw you fucked your finger up
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mahariel
what happened lol
Twink Antony 06/27/2022 3:45 PM
Oh I fell on my finger when I was rock pooling in Tenerife
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Fuckboy Drag King 06/27/2022 3:45 PM
I was quietly sobbing at your incredible ability to injure yourself
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coding is that strenuous huh?
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Fuckboy Drag King 06/27/2022 3:45 PM
"you rock the pool it rocks back"
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dead
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Fuckboy Drag King
like man you're a great friend but I died when I saw you fucked your finger up
Twink Antony 06/27/2022 3:45 PM
Know I can rely on you to care <33
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Twink Antony
Oh I fell on my finger when I was rock pooling in Tenerife
NOO that's one of the injuries that makes me cringe the most. anything to do with my fingers or eyes
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Fuckboy Drag King
"you rock the pool it rocks back"
Twink Antony 06/27/2022 3:46 PM
Wordsmith innit
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Fuckboy Drag King 06/27/2022 3:46 PM
How was your flight back James
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did you not go to a&e in tenerife??
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mahariel
did you not go to a&e in tenerife??
Fuckboy Drag King 06/27/2022 3:46 PM
Imagine if James was smart enough to do that
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He did the man thing of "its not that bad ill sort it later"
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you do literally the same thing so you can't talk
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Fuckboy Drag King 06/27/2022 3:47 PM
😔
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all men are masochists
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mahariel
all men are masochists
Fuckboy Drag King 06/27/2022 3:47 PM
keeps it interesting wdym
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obligatory "why women live longer"
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i say as i leave bronchitis untreated for 2 weeks
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Fuckboy Drag King 06/27/2022 3:48 PM
does class a drugs everytime they go out
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pop off queen as you should
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hey listen it's not every time i go out
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Fuckboy Drag King
How was your flight back James
Twink Antony 06/27/2022 3:49 PM
Oh brilliant, I love having no space at all for my lanky legs
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My friend's brother skiied into a tree and got air lifted back to the uk to go to hospital
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mahariel
did you not go to a&e in tenerife??
Twink Antony 06/27/2022 3:49 PM
I didn’t trust it
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You could've gone in a helicopter but no had to be a guy about it
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rare 6'5 L
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rare tall person L
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relishing in this
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Twink Antony 06/27/2022 3:50 PM
The nearest clinic was one that was called “Doctor” with a PNG of a kid doctor as it’s logo
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Fuckboy Drag King 06/27/2022 3:50 PM
It's the leg space + hitting your head off the baggage storage that's the sender
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Twink Antony
The nearest clinic was one that was called “Doctor” with a PNG of a kid doctor as it’s logo
Fuckboy Drag King 06/27/2022 3:50 PM
Should've gone
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Twink Antony
The nearest clinic was one that was called “Doctor” with a PNG of a kid doctor as it’s logo
i would trust that kid with a wordart M.D. certificate with my life
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Fuckboy Drag King 06/27/2022 3:50 PM
Just for the photo op if nothing else
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Fuckboy Drag King
It's the leg space + hitting your head off the baggage storage that's the sender
Twink Antony 06/27/2022 3:50 PM
Oh it really hits the spot
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It’s all good, I just chill in a&e reading my book
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Fuckboy Drag King
It's the leg space + hitting your head off the baggage storage that's the sender
i sometimes can't reach the baggage area 😊
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furiously tapping someone's shoulder to ask them to get my stuff down while they're booking it to arrivals
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mahariel
i sometimes can't reach the baggage area 😊
Fuckboy Drag King 06/27/2022 3:51 PM
That's alright, adults should be the ones storing the luggage anyway 🙂
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compsci moment 😊
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Twink Antony
It’s all good, I just chill in a&e reading my book
Fuckboy Drag King 06/27/2022 3:52 PM
What are we reading?? The Java bible I hope??
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the uwu manifesto
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Fuckboy Drag King 06/27/2022 3:52 PM
James does indeed have massive uwu energy
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Fuckboy Drag King
What are we reading?? The Java bible I hope??
Twink Antony 06/27/2022 3:52 PM
“The Subtle art of not giving a fuck”
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Fuckboy Drag King
James does indeed have massive uwu energy
Twink Antony 06/27/2022 3:53 PM
I’m going to end you
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Twink Antony
“The Subtle art of not giving a fuck”
Fuckboy Drag King 06/27/2022 3:53 PM
Yooo Mark Manson right?
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Twink Antony
I’m going to end you
Fuckboy Drag King 06/27/2022 3:53 PM
But bro our celebratory drinks 😢
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mahariel
i sometimes can't reach the baggage area 😊
Twink Antony 06/27/2022 3:53 PM
What the fuck, are you even allowed on the plane? I’m sure you’re meant to go in the cabin at that size
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mahariel
Click to see attachment 🖼️
Fuckboy Drag King 06/27/2022 3:53 PM
Looks like welsh ngl
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mahariel
Click to see attachment 🖼️
my bible
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Twink Antony
What the fuck, are you even allowed on the plane? I’m sure you’re meant to go in the cabin at that size
Fuckboy Drag King 06/27/2022 3:54 PM
Do they do booster seats on flights? Feel that they must
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wise wowds to wive by
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Fuckboy Drag King
Yooo Mark Manson right?
Twink Antony 06/27/2022 3:54 PM
Bingo, brilliant read
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somewhere in Brussels, Ross Gower just bolted upright with rage
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Fuckboy Drag King
But bro our celebratory drinks 😢
Twink Antony 06/27/2022 3:54 PM
I can do body shots at your funeral dw
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like on his corpse?
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in the coffin?
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Twink Antony
Bingo, brilliant read
Fuckboy Drag King 06/27/2022 3:54 PM
Ironically read his other book "Everything is Fucked" whilst waiting for an MRI
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mahariel
in the coffin?
Twink Antony 06/27/2022 3:55 PM
Killer shots yknow
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Fuckboy Drag King 06/27/2022 3:55 PM
come on my funeral will be a massive party as long as my parents aren't invited
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Fuckboy Drag King
Ironically read his other book "Everything is Fucked" whilst waiting for an MRI
Twink Antony 06/27/2022 3:55 PM
WHY ARE YOU IN AN MRI
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Fuckboy Drag King
Do they do booster seats on flights? Feel that they must
i will smash your kneecaps
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Twink Antony
WHY ARE YOU IN AN MRI
Fuckboy Drag King 06/27/2022 3:55 PM
✌️
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wtf did you do to your head
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Fuckboy Drag King
✌️
Twink Antony 06/27/2022 3:55 PM
That’s just rubbing it in, you know I can’t do that
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Fuckboy Drag King 06/27/2022 3:55 PM
doctor thought I was dying lmao
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Twink Antony
That’s just rubbing it in, you know I can’t do that
Fuckboy Drag King 06/27/2022 3:55 PM
LMAO
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???
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are you going to explain??
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Fuckboy Drag King 06/27/2022 3:56 PM
This was a while ago don't worry this did not just happen
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Fuckboy Drag King
LMAO
Twink Antony 06/27/2022 3:56 PM
Can’t even flip people off smh
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Fuckboy Drag King 06/27/2022 3:56 PM
Was like 7 months ago? Maybe 8, doctor thought I might have a brain tumour or that I might've had a mild stroke was very cool
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just gesture vaguely
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assuming it was neither?
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Fuckboy Drag King
This was a while ago don't worry this did not just happen
Twink Antony 06/27/2022 3:57 PM
Go to hospital in the UK 🚫 Wait until you’re abroad ✅
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Twink Antony
Go to hospital in the UK 🚫 Wait until you’re abroad ✅
Fuckboy Drag King 06/27/2022 3:57 PM
Absolutely, free healthcare? Fuck off
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rich boy settings
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Fuckboy Drag King
Absolutely, free healthcare? Fuck off
Twink Antony 06/27/2022 3:58 PM
Why on earth would you want that, go to America instead, $500 for a few pills and a bandage
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mahariel
assuming it was neither?
Fuckboy Drag King 06/27/2022 3:58 PM
Yeah turns out I had such an acute fucking hemiplegic migraine for about 4/5 days that completely paralysed the left side of my body, was extremely sexy of me
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Bro??!
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Fuckboy Drag King 06/27/2022 3:58 PM
Hey it wasn't a tumour??
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MASSIVE W's out here
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alright what the fuck
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That's a W but still a concern
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Fuckboy Drag King
Yeah turns out I had such an acute fucking hemiplegic migraine for about 4/5 days that completely paralysed the left side of my body, was extremely sexy of me
Twink Antony 06/27/2022 3:59 PM
Two Face Daddy 😳😫
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Caz Stanley Ws - "i do not have brain cancer"
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does have severe brainrot tho
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Fuckboy Drag King 06/27/2022 3:59 PM
It was great, the doctor who examined me was like "are you on drugs, be honest, it'd explain everything" , me sadly shaking my head "no doctor I'm just fucking unhealthy"
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mahariel
Caz Stanley Ws - "i do not have brain cancer"
Fuckboy Drag King 06/27/2022 4:00 PM
It is a massive W
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what eating only fried eggs for every meal every day does to a mf
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Twink Antony
Two Face Daddy 😳😫
Fuckboy Drag King 06/27/2022 4:00 PM
😳 why settle for one daddy when you can have two 😳
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Fuckboy Drag King
😳 why settle for one daddy when you can have two 😳
Twink Antony 06/27/2022 4:00 PM
Looking for one 👀
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Twink Antony
Looking for one 👀
Fuckboy Drag King 06/27/2022 4:01 PM
😳
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Fuckboy Drag King
😳
Twink Antony 06/27/2022 4:02 PM
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Who broke @Xoxo Go piss Girl
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Smh
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Fuckboy Drag King
It was great, the doctor who examined me was like "are you on drugs, be honest, it'd explain everything" , me sadly shaking my head "no doctor I'm just fucking unhealthy"
"Alas doctor, I do compsci. The cool kids won't share their drugs with me"
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well he's definitely not getting any more of my mdma
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B
Who broke @Xoxo Go piss Girl
maybe she's taking a bathroom break
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mahariel
well he's definitely not getting any more of my mdma
Fuckboy Drag King 06/27/2022 4:04 PM
druggie
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since when
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Fuckboy Drag King 06/27/2022 4:05 PM
It's fine the cool kids nowadays sustain themselves on caffeine and nicotine
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Nah the cool kids do weed and write gay smut
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mahariel
since when
Fuckboy Drag King 06/27/2022 4:05 PM
since you do mdma on a semi-frequent basis, its a druggie moment
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Ripfangs
Nah the cool kids do weed and write gay smut
Fuckboy Drag King 06/27/2022 4:05 PM
I do this too, am I cool yet
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please say yes
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Fuckboy Drag King
since you do mdma on a semi-frequent basis, its a druggie moment
i haven't touched mdma in weeks pls, leave me alone
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Fuckboy Drag King
please say yes
no.
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mahariel
maybe she's taking a bathroom break
She gotta go piss girl
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Fuckboy Drag King
I do this too, am I cool yet
Perhaps
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Ripfangs
Perhaps
don't encourage him
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Data inconclusive, more research requited
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freyja as your father I'm urging you to take that back
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Fuckboy Drag King 06/27/2022 4:06 PM
jory might be your father freyja but I'm your daddy
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mahariel
freyja as your father I'm urging you to take that back
Did you get custody of me in the divorce?
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Ripfangs
Data inconclusive, more research requited
REQUITED spoken like someone who really do write gay smut 😳
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LoLo <3
REQUITED spoken like someone who really do write gay smut 😳
No I just can't spell meant to put required
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Ripfangs
Did you get custody of me in the divorce?
i got custody of everyone including my ex-wife
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mahariel
i got custody of everyone including my ex-wife
Fuckboy Drag King 06/27/2022 4:07 PM
Who's the ex-wife remind me (edited)
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who gets the baby gor 😳
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someone please love me
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Fuckboy Drag King
Who's the ex-wife remind me (edited)
either Bran or Lo i can't remember. too many hoes you know?
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LoLo <3
who gets the baby gor 😳
Fuckboy Drag King 06/27/2022 4:07 PM
me 😳
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mahariel
either Bran or Lo i can't remember. too many hoes you know?
Fuckboy Drag King 06/27/2022 4:08 PM
Ah yes, same here, same here. Lots of loveable people in rehab w me
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grippy socks gang
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the UEA medical office keeps phoning me up bc the ADHD therapist sent a concerning letter to them a week ago and i refuse to pick up
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mahariel
the UEA medical office keeps phoning me up bc the ADHD therapist sent a concerning letter to them a week ago and i refuse to pick up
Fuckboy Drag King 06/27/2022 4:09 PM
Any reason why?
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Answering phones is simply a lot of effort
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Fuckboy Drag King
Any reason why?
lmao I'll tell you in dms later
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Answering phones is simply a lot of effort
Fuckboy Drag King 06/27/2022 4:10 PM
We do the GenZ thing of ignoring the caller, googling the number, realising it was someone you should've answered, wait for them to call again
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i have to fucking answer every call now in case it's job related
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but as soon as i hear "hi it's the uea medical centre here, we're just checking up on yo-" i smash that hang up button like youtubers taught me
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Not today, medical professionals
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therapist: here is a long list of numbers you should dial me: noted
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i don't need helplines, i have harry styles and drugs
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(I'm kidding, pls don't go med centre on me)
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mahariel
the UEA medical office keeps phoning me up bc the ADHD therapist sent a concerning letter to them a week ago and i refuse to pick up
Are you okay?
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LoLo <3
Are you okay?
just hot girl problems dw dw
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Valid sexy and respectable
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that therapist appointment was the worst fucking thing istg. she had a trainee shadowing her so i had to recount my childhood and the last couple months of problems to two whole people
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for 3 hours straight and then had to run across the city bc i was 30 mins late for a coffee meetup while severely spiralling
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all in all, kind of a bad day so i sat in my garden smoking a pack until it turned into night and it got too cold for me to stare at a hedge and listen to Dreamland
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Confessions BOT 06/27/2022 8:46 PM
Anonymous Confession (#160)
"Y'all need to post more selfies. I can't keep searching the server to find out what someone looks like and then get to the end and see theyve not posted face or hole. Like c'mon!!! We might already know eachother, why r u hiding those gorgeous mugs??!?!"
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I DON'T POST ANY BCS I'M UGLY AS ALL FUCK
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Soooo
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Sorry
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And dysmorphia
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That too
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I DON'T POST ANY BCS I'M UGLY AS ALL FUCK
Fuckboy Drag King 06/27/2022 8:50 PM
BRUHHHH I'll be stabbing you in a second
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Stabbing you with positivity and the truth more like
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You've seen me once
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And you probably don't remember
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So shush
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Fuckboy Drag King
BRUHHHH I'll be stabbing you in a second
Also pls do, living is effort
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Don't shush them, theyre right
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Youre far from ugly thats for fucking sure (edited)
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Disagree
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You've seen me once
Fuckboy Drag King 06/27/2022 8:52 PM
Hey you've also seen me once, that's whack lmao sorry off topic
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Disagree
And youre wrong
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Fuckboy Drag King 06/27/2022 8:52 PM
I get body dysmorphia is a cunt (it is)
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Fuckboy Drag King
Hey you've also seen me once, that's whack lmao sorry off topic
And you are STUNNING
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Fuckboy Drag King 06/27/2022 8:52 PM
But genuinely I have every faith with the right encouragement, partners and friends you'll be able to see how attractive you actually are Bv
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Eeeeen
And youre wrong
Incorrect
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And you are STUNNING
Fuckboy Drag King 06/27/2022 8:52 PM
BRUHHH SEE YOU REMEMBER THAT IM STUNNING BUT I CANT REMEMBER THE SAME ABOUT YOU?? SHEEESH
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Flawed logic my guy I'm sorry
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You're a total cutie, certified even and I don't have bad taste so hold that L
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I will slap you
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Yous are all wrong
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Majority rules bitch, youre cute and you lose
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Everyone here is cute
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Anyone who says they aren’t gets
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Sticker
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Murdered?
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KILL PLS
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Do i need to post the axe selfies again?
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Behead me like K Howard
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Let me become K Howard
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Pls
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Eeeeen
Do i need to post the axe selfies again?
PLEASE
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Chop me in half
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See, you mean it horny
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I mean it...I wanna die bcs I hate life
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Axe selfies?
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Hold on I'll find them and drop them in selfies
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You know you have some right cunts
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When someone reports me to the supervisor for being too “gay” which apparently means I’m sassy
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AND USES THE excuse I’m gay
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LIKE FUCK OFF YOU CUNT
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what the actual fuck
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so sorry you have to deal with thats ludicrous
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TOO GAY?? They’re obviously TOO MUCH OF A CUNT
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HE SAID BECAUSE HES GAY HE CAN SAY THAT
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But like Jesus fucking Christ
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My managers are trying to calm me down rn but I’m not having it
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I’m literally not staying later if they ask me, when I go I’m gone
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Trying to not have a panic attack right now
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Holding it in so fucking much
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thats really shit 🫂
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Hopefully I have a break soon
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That's actually disgusting, I'm so sorry you've had to deal with that 🫂🫂
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HE SAID BECAUSE HES GAY HE CAN SAY THAT
No no you can’t say that regardless of your own sexuality ffs
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bruh wtf thats so icky :(
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John Lewis for you
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say the word and arson shall commence
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I'll join in
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Arson is fun
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alliteration means its true and arson is awesome
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🫂 sucks you had to go through that bran
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ForestBae🎄 06/28/2022 2:12 PM
IfritArson
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i shall comit arson
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If I ever see him on the streets I’ll roast him so hard
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got another medical appointment im dreading tomorrow with a long walk there and back
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but bus routes are really stressful and expensive
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Long walk might be good to clear your head before and after?
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If I was there, I'd fucking drive you 💜, but agreed, put some music in, use the walk to keep calm before the appointment
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You got this
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appreciated, thanks :)
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tbh its only 2 hours, i used to do that for work so if its a nice morning idc that much
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Yeah, not always brilliant but if you enjoy walking that’s not so bad, blast music on the way there, probably won’t be as bad on the way back bc the stress of the actual appointment will be over but if you want some company message me I’m happy to come with you/meet you halfway on the way back ~ I’ll need to be in town for 4 so I can make sure I’ve got plenty of time before my tattoo but even if you just want to call and take your mind off it I’m not doing anything better 💗
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Fuckboy Drag King 06/28/2022 10:38 PM
To second that if you need to chat or support on the way there/whilst you're there/after, lots of people myself included are here for you queen 💗
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thats really appreciated, thanks 🫂 im sure ill be fine, i listen to music 24/7 anyway so i have lots of backup earphones
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Get out of myy house
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I dont know who you people are
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I cant cook properly
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when I feel anxious
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You dont live here
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I dont know who you are
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why are you living in my house
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They're still there?
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Well
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Two new men, idk where the girl is
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Jesus
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Can I kill them
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Beat you to the server orgy
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Can you blast baby shark or something?
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Weird them out
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mumblingmiss 06/29/2022 11:03 AM
These goddamn vets are sending me on a wild goose chase holy shittttt. Glaven Vets posted they had recieved a ginger male cat. I messaged them to see if it was mine, they say that they gave the cat to Westover out of hours Vets and to contact them. I messaged Westover to see if it was mine, and they're like we don't have a ginger cat GiRL whAT. Where. Is. The. Ginger. Cat. I just want them to fuckin identify it against a photo of my cat.
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Westover is like did your cat go missing and I'm like yeah and they just go
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notliamhyde02 06/29/2022 11:14 AM
ffs knew this would happen
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i woke up and thought oh new ms marvel ep
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forgot about it
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remember an hour later
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as soon as i’m about to press play my mum wants me to get up
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like she’s said nothing until now
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ffs
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i want to live alone again
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If you're not doing anything all day why would you need to get up tf
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Westover is like did your cat go missing and I'm like yeah and they just go
Tf? DO YOU HAVE MA CAT BITCH?!
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Tf? DO YOU HAVE MA CAT BITCH?!
mumblingmiss 06/29/2022 11:28 AM
Sir, do you have my cat? I gave a cat to that guy over there Sir, do you have my cat? I have never seen a cat in my life :))
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Could you give a description of the escaped cat? Four legs, ginger fur, pointy ears, long tail. Well its a cat isnt it Thank you sir
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mumblingmiss 06/29/2022 11:32 AM
I'm v concerned about this supposed cat they received that seems to have disappeared into the fuckin void lmao
11:32
Sounds like something my cat would do
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notliamhyde02 06/29/2022 11:32 AM
it fell into the backrooms
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Have you spoken to the first people again and gone wtf happened if the people you sent me to haven't got a cat can you check the records or something?
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mumblingmiss 06/29/2022 11:35 AM
Yeah I messaged the first vets again saying that the other guys said they dont have that cat. They icon says they've read it but no response yet.
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...encouraging
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mumblingmiss 06/29/2022 11:35 AM
Don't come out to the north nrofolk coast with your pets, I think there's a wormhole
11:35
Pet Bermuda triangle shit happening
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Maybe they are checking tho? Idk I really hope they find something soon tho
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mumblingmiss 06/29/2022 11:36 AM
Yeah they best do
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PLeeeeaaaasEEE OMfG my leg is so ITCHYYYYYYYY. Fuck this CAST!!! I should only have it for another week but bitch if im not 5050 on cutting it off RIGHT THIS SECOND
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Fuckk it’s nights like tonight which are so hard
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I just want someone here holding me shitttt
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I just want someone here holding me shitttt
notliamhyde02 06/30/2022 2:57 AM
im on my way
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I finally sent this to the house gc
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When you have to cook food for your family tea but you are having a hate food and will throw up day
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Great time
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Literally crying over making chocolate covered strawberries 😂
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Packing up my room and there’s so much shit from my ex I forgot I had I bought her a fucking ring and I just found the box it came in with the wrench that came with their wifi they gave me when I was crying about to go home after staying for a week?
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CW:Death of Technoblade So the youtuber Technoblade past away recently. He was a minecraft youtuber who was some what popular back in the day but over lockdown grew a crazy amount. He had stage 4 cancer and made a few videos about it but there wasnt too much of an update about it till yesterday when a good bye video was posted on his behalf by his dad. He was only 23, so basically the same age as me and a majority of my friends. I dont think I've ever cried this much after the death of a person who I didnt know personally but his passing has me crying whenever I think about it. I think its because of how he died combined with how similar in age we are. Really makes you think about how fragile life is. I have so much more in this life I want to do and that I need to achieve its scary to think it could be stopped by something so out of your scope of control. His content helped me alot last year when I was at a low point, it was a nice escape from things. He played a small but important part as to why I am who I am today which Im thankful for. I cant imagine what it was like for him and his family, and I hope I never will. I hope for a day when nobody does.
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CW:Death of Technoblade So the youtuber Technoblade past away recently. He was a minecraft youtuber who was some what popular back in the day but over lockdown grew a crazy amount. He had stage 4 cancer and made a few videos about it but there wasnt too much of an update about it till yesterday when a good bye video was posted on his behalf by his dad. He was only 23, so basically the same age as me and a majority of my friends. I dont think I've ever cried this much after the death of a person who I didnt know personally but his passing has me crying whenever I think about it. I think its because of how he died combined with how similar in age we are. Really makes you think about how fragile life is. I have so much more in this life I want to do and that I need to achieve its scary to think it could be stopped by something so out of your scope of control. His content helped me alot last year when I was at a low point, it was a nice escape from things. He played a small but important part as to why I am who I am today which Im thankful for. I cant imagine what it was like for him and his family, and I hope I never will. I hope for a day when nobody does.
I hope you’re okay, I honestly saw that and felt quite similar to you.
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Yea, I'm fine. It's just triggered a mini questioning of life and what I'm even doing in it.
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its honestly pretty tough, ive felt off all day about it to be honest, despite not knowing them personally the whole it kind of leaves in your life speaks about how much of a positive impact their content had
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notliamhyde02 07/01/2022 6:05 PM
id never even watched any of his content and it made me tear up a bit
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seeing all the people on twitter sending their condolences was bittersweet too
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Confessions BOT 07/01/2022 7:36 PM
Anonymous Confession (#171)
"I expect absolutely nothing and am still let down. Not sure why that hurts"
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I'm sorry to hear you feel that way
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If you ever wanna chat, I'm always free 💜
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I completely relate as well so please if you ever just wanna chat, lemme know
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To go back to the technoblade stuff and trigger warning here about cancer:
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The fucking audacity of grown adults on fucking social media making this battle a meme. Despite everything techno did for his family is descpicable. I did not know much of technoblade but like I respected him before and after he passed and I watched the message left for people and cried at how much he did for his family for his siblings to go to college. To see the jokes people make. It really angers me and makes me cry. I have lost people to the Big C. And I have my cousin who is battling it currently. I DONTGET WHY PEOPLE MAKE THESE JOKES
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To go back to the technoblade stuff and trigger warning here about cancer:
The one joke / reference I think is okay is ' Technoblade never dies' which he referenced during his past cancer related videos. Outside of that I've not seen any memes about his passing. Ive only seen love for him, so im not gonna bother looking for the negative stuff (edited)
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The one joke / reference I think is okay is ' Technoblade never dies' which he referenced during his past cancer related videos. Outside of that I've not seen any memes about his passing. Ive only seen love for him, so im not gonna bother looking for the negative stuff (edited)
yeah I’ve seen the never dies thing. The ones I’ve seen have been primarily on TikTok tbh
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Obviously wouldn’t recommend looking for them
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Yea, I'll take your word for it. But continue to live in bliss of those dickheads
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Josh
Yea, I'll take your word for it. But continue to live in bliss of those dickheads
Always do, you know me rise above the negativity
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Good vent. A gay couple came into the store today and I literally went “awe”, explained I was thinking of something else lol. I also snuck some extra cookies in their bag. Gays stick together ☺
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That's actually adorable
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Confessions BOT 07/02/2022 3:53 PM
Anonymous Confession (#174)
"Not me writing poetry about my ex and then having a sexual dream about them after 😔 Why brain whyyy"
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rip but you'll get over them, eventually
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Did I just start crying at Heart of Stone at WEL for no reason?
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Yes
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Confessions BOT 07/02/2022 9:07 PM
Anonymous Confession (#182)
"tw: death, grief, suicide I know its really bad because its not about me, but sometimes when I see how bad people feel after someone they care about dies I feel really shit about myself. I've made a couple of suicide attempts in the past and always worried a lot about the negative impact I'd have if I killed myself, but thought the impact would be better than me continuing to be alive and the negative impact that would have. I don't feel that last bit as much anymore. But seeing the grief that me killing myself might have caused, even if it is a fraction of what I see in other peoples grief, makes me feel awful for what I almost inflicted upon people. And its awful to look at such tragedy and grief and think about yourself rather than the people actually suffering."
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There’s no right or wrong way to grieve or process emotion like that. I think reflecting on what could have happened and being grateful you didn’t when you had wanted to shows how far you’ve come. It’s not awful to think of yourself, it’s a natural thought progression of oh shit that could’ve been me. It’s okay to consider this stuff, it shows how far you’ve come.
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Confessions BOT 07/02/2022 10:06 PM
Anonymous Confession (#186)
"I have a friend whose stopped messaging me for some reason, won’t even open my messages on 2 social medias. Idk what I’ve done to deserve this as we were getting on really well. We hung out a lot and messaged a lot recently until a week ago. I’ve had sex with this guy and opened myself in ways to him that I have never with anyone else. Idk what I’m supposed to think."
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Op I’m sorry you’ve experienced this I’ve had similar and it’s not fair I’m sorry
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^^ I'm so sorry you've experienced that, some people are seriously cunts and I will run them over with my car if you need me too 💜
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Confessions BOT 07/03/2022 8:18 PM
Anonymous Confession (#191)
"I hate being at home, my parents and sister are so rude and judgemental and control everything I do and when I voice concern or worry or literally anything, they accuse me of being controlling and nasty, but if my sister is rude or nasty to me, I’m the one in the wrong. I hate being at home"
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Anonymous Confession (#192)
"I’m an adult with opinions, if you don’t want me around that’s fine, I know you have little to no opinion of me anyway. As soon as I can move out I will and just ugh, I’m almost 20 I don’t need this drama that is apparently always my fault. Just want a hug and to have people around me that respect me"
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sorry you're having to put up with that OP, living with family can be challenging at times, hope it improves :/
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I don’t know if these are two separate ones but I’ll answer the same thing to both if they are, you are an adult, it’s shitty that your family are treating you this way. They clearly don’t respect you as an adult, that’s something I can sympathise with all too well. Toxic people or groups of people have a way of messing with us, stay strong, keep busy, out of the house as much as you can and how much it’s safe to do so. These weeks will fly by and before you know it, you’ll be back with your friends again, with people who truly love and respect you ❤️
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Confessions BOT 07/04/2022 11:56 AM
Anonymous Confession (#196)
"I think I’m starting to struggle with food again. All I’ve had today is toast and I feel fat. I was peckish just now and was going to have a cookie where I had second thoughts and put them all in the bin. Just feel bloated and uncomfortable all the time. Kinda upset cos I thought I’d made some progress in this area. Idk what to do now tbh."
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Oh I'm so sorry, food and eating can honestly be the worst and I hope that in time, you remember that it's ok to eat nice things and if you ever need to talk about it, I'm happy to
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It's easy to relapse when you get home, you fall back into old habits from the routine and it can be hard to break out of it even after some time away. Try and remember food isn't the enemy even if that can be hard to think when you're in the moment, maybe try and keep some safe foods available if they're all you can bring yourself to have, it's better than nothing. My DMs are always open if you need support, I appreciate how hard this stuff can be sometimes. Take care of yourself op, you are so loved ❤️
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notliamhyde02 07/04/2022 6:31 PM
so i need a job for money before i move in to my house in september
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and i know this
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and yet when my parents constantly nag at me to find one i lose all motivation to find one
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Just tell them to leave you alone and that you are searching
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In the end, what actually got me my job was not the fact they kepy nagging me, as soon as they left me alone, I found a job and got in
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notliamhyde02 07/04/2022 6:33 PM
but they’ll ask and i wont have anything to show
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I'm so sorry, the only thing I can suggest is just keep trying
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notliamhyde02 07/04/2022 6:33 PM
also a bit bummed i didn’t get the last one cos it would’ve been perfect
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£10/hr (edited)
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16hrs per week
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near where my mum works so she can just drop me off
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but no ofc i didn’t get it
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not even a response from my application
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job hunting is excruciating but you'll get call backs I'm sure. if you need help with your CV, cover letters and the like them lmk and I'll be happy to help
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i didn't get good responses until i seriously overhauled mine
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Confessions BOT 07/04/2022 6:52 PM
Anonymous Confession (#198)
"I really hate my brain sometimes. I just wish I could go meet my friends one-on-one without the feeling like they don't actually want me there and they are just being nice. I'm going to see two people in different occassion and I already feel imposter syndrome. I just want to know that people actually like me and want to be around me"
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Op I know your brain is telling you they don’t want you there
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But I’m sure they really want you there
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job hunting is excruciating but you'll get call backs I'm sure. if you need help with your CV, cover letters and the like them lmk and I'll be happy to help
disgustatorium 07/04/2022 7:03 PM
if this applies to anyone i might take u up on this sometime
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disgustatorium
if this applies to anyone i might take u up on this sometime
yeah ofc go for it
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trust your friends when they say they want to see you. no one's hiking about this badly designed city for politeness, they like being around you
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mahariel
yeah ofc go for it
might just write a little starter on what to do here rn
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cv crash course: - first, make a Master CV which will go over 2 pages (usually) bc you should write down all of your job experiences, volunteering, qualifications etc. + a generic Personal Profile paragraph - next, cut down and tailor that to fit whatever you're applying to. if you're applying to Google, take out your summer job at Tesco and expand the details section of your work experience for a tech company. take out your "good customer service skills" etc. from your Personal Profile and insert stuff like "3+ years experience with [coding language #1, #2], intermediate knowledge of [idk some other UX tool?]" instead. do the reverse for a job at Co-Op - best practice is to look at the skills listed in the job listing and literally copy-paste what they want in there to bypass any shitty bots that auto-screen CVs - list all of your technical skills (programming languages, Adobe etc.) + general job skills (marketing strategy, SEO optimisation etc.) in a sidebar where the interviewer can clearly see it immediately - keep your education section short and succint. don't list your 12 GCSEs like i did at first bc that wastes valuable space. instead just say "12 GCSEs A*-B including [specific subjects related to the job]", you can list your A-Levels and degree in full tho - did smth cool at uni? awarded smth? put that in the Achievements section to show that you're a well-rounded person who cares about more than work and school. have a short Hobbies section to show that you're an interesting person with a range of talents too
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and general shit like keeping a consistent readable font, no eye-hurting colours, professional
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disgustatorium 07/04/2022 7:24 PM
that is such a good idea omg, making a master copy
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ive been trying to haphazardly re-edit it everytime
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here's the tailored one i sent off to the company i just got an offer from in case you want inspiration on layout. feel free to copy-paste anything you like lmao idm
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disgustatorium 07/04/2022 7:25 PM
Ooh that’s pretty, thank u
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disgustatorium
ive been trying to haphazardly re-edit it everytime
yeah saves a whole lot of time and you don't lose any valuable info you put in last time
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disgustatorium
Ooh that’s pretty, thank u
no worries! any questions lmk. I'm mostly reiterating what my careers adviser told me
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disgustatorium 07/04/2022 7:25 PM
damn ur grades
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LMAO "this bitch stupid"
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it's called having Asian parents 😎
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disgustatorium 07/04/2022 7:26 PM
girl u the furthest thing from stupid
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omg I gotta show u my mechanical keyboard collection
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also when looking for jobs, look for companies in the area first and then look at their vacancies bc your degree will have a tonne of transferable skills into other fields you haven't thought of. all the good Publishing companies are in London so my job search in my English Literature field was sooo crappy at first. looked at the job descriptions of vacancies in marketing, finance, etc. (bc of my internship as a Banker) and found so many good jobs that still fit me despite me not doing an Economics or Accounting degree
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omg I gotta show u my mechanical keyboard collection
👀👀👀 omg pls. prefer tactile switches or linear? i like the super clicky ones
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mahariel
also when looking for jobs, look for companies in the area first and then look at their vacancies bc your degree will have a tonne of transferable skills into other fields you haven't thought of. all the good Publishing companies are in London so my job search in my English Literature field was sooo crappy at first. looked at the job descriptions of vacancies in marketing, finance, etc. (bc of my internship as a Banker) and found so many good jobs that still fit me despite me not doing an Economics or Accounting degree
disgustatorium 07/04/2022 7:31 PM
ill keep this in mind for when i actually look for a proper job, currently only want a Tesco job or smthn
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👀👀👀 omg pls. prefer tactile switches or linear? i like the super clicky ones
disgustatorium 07/04/2022 7:31 PM
i always get mixed up but linear are the non clicky right? because those, i love as thocky and quiet as possible
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i used to be obsessed with blue switches
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clicky hell
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ill keep this in mind for when i actually look for a proper job, currently only want a Tesco job or smthn
yeah that's fair! in that case, emphasise your people skills and customer service but still keep your compsci stuff in minimally to show you're a problem solver (edited)
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i always get mixed up but linear are the non clicky right? because those, i love as thocky and quiet as possible
yep and that's fair. the really buttery thocky ones are so nice too
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disgustatorium 07/04/2022 7:33 PM
currently tho I only really collect prebuilts
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i haven’t done much modding or building myself
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akkos are my love
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lmao mood. the audacity of it being significantly more expensive to build one from scratch 😭
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disgustatorium 07/04/2022 7:34 PM
fr but it sounds so much nicer tho
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all i do is buy keycap sets
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disgustatorium 07/04/2022 7:35 PM
show show show
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i bought some miku caps the other day
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i way prefer 60%s, but I’ve had to buy 100%s more since i need the entire layout for coding :(
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all my tech stuff is in a storage unit rn but I'm heading into town to collect bits tomorrow so will send 👀
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omg how are the miku ones?
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disgustatorium 07/04/2022 7:37 PM
they’re super cute!! p sure they’re bootleg since there was an official release I found and I got em on aliexpress but they’re super nice anyway
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plus I don’t use that keeb much anymore
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60%s are so pretty that i simply put up with having to add 20 fucking layers to do basic functions lmfao
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disgustatorium 07/04/2022 7:38 PM
literally 😭😭
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it was mainly the lack of arrow keys that made me go insane
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it was fine before uni Isg2
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fuck
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*s2g
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they’re super cute!! p sure they’re bootleg since there was an official release I found and I got em on aliexpress but they’re super nice anyway
honestly, keycaps are so expensive sometimes that bootlegs are the way to go. also bc the mfs set up a groupbuy and it sells out in 10 minutes. would rather wait 3 weeks for some aliexpress ones than 7 months for the official ones to be made and shipped
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disgustatorium 07/04/2022 7:39 PM
groupbuys make me suicidal
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it was mainly the lack of arrow keys that made me go insane
ohh i re-programmed my right shift, alt, ctrl and fn keys into arrow keys bc that bothered me sm
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disgustatorium 07/04/2022 7:40 PM
shit that’s a good idea
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but honestly yeah aliexpress and Amazon rn are the best even if they are less quality
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i rarely use those and i eventually got used to not having right shift
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as long as they're PBT caps, they should hold up
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Fuckboy Drag King 07/04/2022 8:14 PM
small pissed off vent moment: comp sci (haha) wanted to go to the cinema today, i said i couldnt make it, one of them @d me asking if could, i was asleep so couldn't react, he buys me a ticket anyway, i can't go, now he's asking me to pay him back for something i said i couldn't do it like
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fuck off arun lmao
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can't he just refund it?
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wouldn't this just be you paying him? lmao
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Fuckboy Drag King 07/04/2022 8:26 PM
yeah he literally
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out of nowhere
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dms me his bank details
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and im just like
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??
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mate
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I said
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I couldn't make it
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you buying me the ticket is your own fucking issue
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notliamhyde02 07/04/2022 8:31 PM
starting to feel depressed again
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which feels worse cos i’ve been feeling my best for ages now
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fuck off arun lmao
Fucking tory
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Want me to handle it? :3
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Confessions BOT 07/04/2022 8:32 PM
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"Ever finish talking to someone and think 'this is a lost cause no matter how hard I try'?"
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Fucking tory
Fuckboy Drag King 07/04/2022 8:34 PM
honestly the fucking gall of this man
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I'll just egg his house
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Want me to handle it? :3
threatening 👀
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yes all the time but if they matter to you then i, personally, would keep trying unless it's at the expense of your own health
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I would just dm him
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Caz don’t owe you anything bye
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Will 2.0
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Me everytime I talk to anyone
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which feels worse cos i’ve been feeling my best for ages now
Ahhh 🫂🫂🫂🫂
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yes all the time but if they matter to you then i, personally, would keep trying unless it's at the expense of your own health
side note, not completely endorsing this bc you know, could end badly
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Caz don’t owe you anything bye
Fuckboy Drag King 07/04/2022 8:38 PM
I love you so much
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PLEASE LET ME
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Fuckboy Drag King 07/04/2022 8:39 PM
I'll just ignore him what's he going to do
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Actually talk to me?
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I'm far too scary to do that
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PLEASE if you yell at him in the wrong way he will snap backwards
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Not like he has a spine
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Fuckboy Drag King 07/04/2022 8:39 PM
I've seen that man at clubs
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Fuckboy Drag King 07/04/2022 8:39 PM
Nothing is more depressing than that
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PLEASE ILL cry
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Fuckboy Drag King 07/04/2022 8:39 PM
YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN
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send the video (edited)
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of him dancing
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Fuckboy Drag King 07/04/2022 8:40 PM
ahh shit do i still have it
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let me check
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fuck i don't
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ill find it
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can't remember where you sent it to me lol
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Fuckboy Drag King 07/04/2022 8:42 PM
Me neither
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But
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the energy is there
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Saw him out in a club once and that man could not be more static
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my friend does the same thing but in his defence he's 6'4 and can't move properly without people's heads slamming into his drinks
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(I'm people)
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Fuckboy Drag King 07/04/2022 8:43 PM
That's a decent reason
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Arun is what
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5'10? No idea I never cared
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Literally two points of his personality: codes in Python and is a Tory
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Like I could not tell you anything more about him
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Not because I don't know him, just because there is nothing else
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Literally two points of his personality: codes in Python and is a Tory
two points of yours too 😌
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two points of yours too 😌
Fuckboy Drag King 07/04/2022 8:45 PM
Not a Tory and I don't recreationally make Python bots for Discord servers because I like the outdoors 👼
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Anyway I'll hire Bran to kill him if he gets annoying
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brandon's knife kink coming in handy
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Fuckboy Drag King 07/04/2022 8:48 PM
Got it
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literally my level of dancing
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disgustatorium 07/04/2022 8:54 PM
arun moment
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bunnyhopping is not that hard
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makes everyone else around you do it too and it's great
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just bob your knees and do CoD reload animations with your hands if you really are struggling
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notliamhyde02 07/04/2022 8:56 PM
just got angry cos my dog picked up some shit and wouldn’t drop it, had to go inside and just scream cos i got so mad, haven’t gotten like that in a while, that’s how i know my mental health is going
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to clarify i didn’t do anything to my dog, just made me irrationally angry
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ive had a good few months of feeling great
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one of those overwhelming days huh? I'm the same today. reining myself in from being pissed off at the smallest things bc i know I'll regret it later if i let my emotions get the best of me
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notliamhyde02 07/04/2022 8:57 PM
why now do i have to feel like shit
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maybe being back at home? whatever it is, bad mental health days can hit you and you have to persevere through them
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one of those overwhelming days huh? I'm the same today. reining myself in from being pissed off at the smallest things bc i know I'll regret it later if i let my emotions get the best of me
notliamhyde02 07/04/2022 8:58 PM
my hair band was falling out so i just took it out and snapped it
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my hair band was falling out so i just took it out and snapped it
hey sometimes small things like this can release a lot of that pent up anger without hurting yourself or anyone else
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I've been biting my vape to pieces lmfao
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notliamhyde02 07/04/2022 9:00 PM
this sounds bad but last thing i want to do when i’m depressed is take care of a dog (edited)
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i don’t have the motivation nor the energy
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nah i get you. could anyone else take care of them while you wind down?
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notliamhyde02 07/04/2022 9:01 PM
my parents are out so no
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he just needed a walk
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a walk could help you clear your head too maybe?
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being cooped up in a house definitely isn't great for the mind
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might take my own advice and go for a walk too. everything matters so much when you're staring at your ceiling but whatever’s bothering you, people, events, stress, doesn't seem so frustrating when you're in a field or bridge (edited)
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A walk while listening to a comfort album helps me sometimes
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notliamhyde02 07/04/2022 9:05 PM
i just don’t want to live at home anymore
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like at all
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walks take you out of the house for a little while at least. i completely get you tho, I've done the utmost i can to stay up here since graduating
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terrible home lives really take a toll
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catch me yelling at a tree about all my problems in like 30 mins lmfao
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notliamhyde02 07/04/2022 9:07 PM
it’s not terrible tho that’s the thing
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it’s just so limiting
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it could be way worse
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i’m just fed up
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could be worse but you're allowed to feel down when you do 🫂
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and we're here if you ever need to vent about it too. or provide some support
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catch me yelling at a tree about all my problems in like 30 mins lmfao
highly recommend this lmfao. nothing odd about it when you're alone in a field somewhere
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notliamhyde02 07/04/2022 9:11 PM
my throat would be completely messed up by the time i’m done
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when you feel like you can't rely on anyone else, random tree is there to help and not judge
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my throat would be completely messed up by the time i’m done
take some water and lozenges and get at it. your throat will hurt but your mind will feel better for letting it out
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your dog can go run around for a bit too
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my own personal vent here is that i really need to articulate when i need someone's help or comfort instead of hoping they pick it up from me dropping hints that I'm sad while talking to them. it's a terrible habit of mine bc I'm really good at gauging how someone is feeling and can instantly tell their mood from how they're acting but that really only seems to be a me thing that few other people have
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i'M aN EmPaTH
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my own personal vent here is that i really need to articulate when i need someone's help or comfort instead of hoping they pick it up from me dropping hints that I'm sad while talking to them. it's a terrible habit of mine bc I'm really good at gauging how someone is feeling and can instantly tell their mood from how they're acting but that really only seems to be a me thing that few other people have
notliamhyde02 07/04/2022 9:17 PM
my issue is taking the next step of actually asking for help
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Feel free to dm me ‘AAAAAAA’ if you ever need to vent about crap I’m happy to ask if you need and just let you rant
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notliamhyde02 07/04/2022 9:17 PM
the most ill do is just vent like i have done
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and then not do anything about it
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my issue is taking the next step of actually asking for help
oh god me lmao. them: do you need help? me: AHAHAHA NOO WHAT MAKES YOU SAY THAT
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as with 90% of my issues, i proudly blame my mother
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but that's an issue I'll bring up with my therapist when i next see her
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always need to refuse help unless they specifically tell me it's ok to do so and that I'm not distracting them from whatever they're doing. otherwise the guilt is all-consuming
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Same honestly
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Help, don't need it
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I'll suffer
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notliamhyde02 07/04/2022 9:21 PM
and now my parents are asking why i’m getting angry and swearing and asking if i hit my dog
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good end to the day
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that's horrible and I'm sorry you're going through that
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notliamhyde02 07/04/2022 9:22 PM
just let me fucking leave this house im sick of it now
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Help, don't need it
i'm the one helping everyone else so when it comes to needing my own i freeze up
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No I completely get it
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It's very valud
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Valid*
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just let me fucking leave this house im sick of it now
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notliamhyde02 07/04/2022 9:23 PM
and she’s home tomorrow so i’m probably gonna be feeling like shit
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and something will happen
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Can you maybe just go out to the beach or something tomorrow?
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notliamhyde02 07/04/2022 9:24 PM
not out of the blue
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me: i want to die them: expresses any bit of concern me, taking the largest hit of nicotine i can muster while wobbling down a road: oh shit oh fuck oh no I'm mentally stable I swear
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A dangerous one
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But a mood
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me: i want to die them: expresses any bit of concern me, taking the largest hit of nicotine i can muster while wobbling down a road: oh shit oh fuck oh no I'm mentally stable I swear
notliamhyde02 07/04/2022 9:25 PM
me using the usual “im just tired”
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not out of the blue
hm could you tell your parents now so they have a bit or warning that you're taking a trip?
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notliamhyde02 07/04/2022 9:26 PM
well i’m not sure how i’d even get to the beach so
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no
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cos i don’t drive
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train maybe?
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or bus if that's too expensive?
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Or even just go for a long-ish hike through fields
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Fuckboy Drag King 07/04/2022 9:28 PM
Though the outside is wonderful (it is), maybe just a shower or a bath? Or even just taking a bit of time out for yourself, I don't want to assume but it sounds like you need a bit of a breather from the world, and with slightly more involved families, showers (etc) are the only real time you can get it.
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actually yeah that's a lot more practical at 9pm
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notliamhyde02 07/04/2022 9:30 PM
i do need one
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i’ll see if i can muster the motivation for a shower
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it’ll probably be tomorrow tho
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Don't force yourself, but it might clear your head a bit
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i used to find just laying in bed, under the covers (not ideal with the weather tbh) watching a comfort film or tv show helped me escape from stuff a bit
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its pretty simple but gives a bit of freedom
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notliamhyde02 07/04/2022 9:42 PM
i’ll probably just fall asleep
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thank you for the suggestions people
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really appreciate it x
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Fuckboy Drag King 07/04/2022 9:42 PM
Sleep is extremely good, highly recommend
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We're here if you need us Liam, but you'll get through this 🫂
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me: i want to die them: expresses any bit of concern me, taking the largest hit of nicotine i can muster while wobbling down a road: oh shit oh fuck oh no I'm mentally stable I swear
Will (he/they) 07/04/2022 10:14 PM
me with weed (edited)
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Anyone else exhausted? Just so fucking drained? Completely wiped out? (edited)
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Anyone else exhausted? Just so fucking drained? Completely wiped out? (edited)
Fuckboy Drag King 07/04/2022 11:37 PM
You alright? Or is it just sort of burnout/fatigue?
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I cant sleep properly at night at the minute (various reasons - see complaints about my broken ankle) and im just fed up with not having any energy
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I cant sleep properly at night at the minute (various reasons - see complaints about my broken ankle) and im just fed up with not having any energy
Fuckboy Drag King 07/04/2022 11:39 PM
Bless you friend, I hope your ankle stops being so fucking unpleasant soon. I know you're quite an active person, and the whiplash to being sedate must be really shit :(
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If you want to just like scream your thoughts out there about how shit broken bones are I am so down to hear it, they suck
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Thank you, I appreciate it. Ive got my way of dealing with this kinda thing though. There's no use complaining once its broke, that energy is better used on fixing it Its the sleepy bitch disease (lethargy) thats getting me down at the minute
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It’s understandable that in your situation going from exercising and going out to limited to what you can do with your foot in the state it is has got to be a pretty big contrast and that’d have anyone fed up. Also being stuck inside all the time does fuck with your sleep and energy levels because you’re not as exposed to the sun and effectively your routine goes out the window which really isn’t going to help. I think being able to work out like you did this morning is probably going to help but sleepy bitch disease is a bastard and I hope you feel better soon 💗
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note to self: DO NOT TAKE MEDS IN THE DARK. i just swallowed 4 period delaying pills 💀 (edited)
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note to self: DO NOT TAKE MEDS IN THE DARK. i just swallowed 4 period delaying pills 💀 (edited)
Are you okay?
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Are you okay?
yeah I'm fine! should just be uh interesting few days
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notliamhyde02 07/05/2022 10:40 AM
sad cos i thought my mum was at home today so bv couldnt visit me
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but she’s at work and i have to wait one more day
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and i’m also stressing cos i thought i knew when she worked but now i’m not sure and i need to check if she actually is at work tomorrow
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but if i just ask she’ll wonder why and i honestly can’t deal with it rn
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Just say hey when are you working? I want to make plans but need to make sure I can work around when you're available Or something like that?
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Either way it's a shitty situation and I'm sorry:(
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It'll be ok, we will sort something out 💜
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minor thing but went to get my cleaning stuff only to find a large ant infestation taking up the corner of the conservatory
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Grosssss
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dont know when the conservatory was last cleaned, we split up room responsibilities, but thats going to be a fun group (at least i hope group) activity later
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If it's not your room and no one wants to do it as a group just leave it for the person who's responsibility it is
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Not your problem
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thats what ive done for the last at least two months
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just gonna have to bite the bullet and start myself and hope someone else helps
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Oh god that's Not a fun situation to be in I'm sorry
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I'd offer to come and help but Bowthorpe is like an hour from me at uni and I'm 2 hours from Norwich right now:(
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thanks itll be fine though, will only take a day max and i can still listen to music and drink while doing it
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update on ants: managed to mostly contain them within a rough perimeter of chili powder, and cleaned as much of the conservatory as we could otherwise
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downside is ive now noticed they have wings and can climb the wall to bypass the perimeter, there is one confident little shit that crosses the powder while the others are scared to, and it looks like our fridge is haunted and we are scared of it
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also lost a lot of chili powder :(
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My dad kills ants with boiling water but idk how doable that is in a house
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idk either, we've reported it to the agents because it seems they got in through the walls
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Oh fuck yeah that’s not great
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and with how shit this conservatory is that checks out, we have a hole in the ceiling too
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additional downside is that the tomatos i was going to raccoon are in that fridge and will be lost
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:(( I’m sorry
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oo ill keep that in mind
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hopefully itll be sorted tomorrow or something but idk, as long as the ants dont take flight and ascend the stairs into my room idc too much
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we also have floor tv now and the quality is so much better when looking down on it
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i think my tv is a sub
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my housemate just said they put chili powder in their food to mark yhe occassion i asked how it was, talking about the taste they just said there is no ants in it
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You’d think they’d just get some more chilli powder
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Twink Antony 07/05/2022 7:05 PM
Do you not have any ant powder Erin?
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Confessions BOT 07/05/2022 7:07 PM
Anonymous Confession (#201)
"anyone else have this ritual before leaving the house where they look out for signs on whether it will go well or badly? i have two rings that look the same but only fit on certain fingers, if i don't get them in the right places first time, i know whatever I'm heading off to do will go badly. similarly with my shoelaces coming undone, my contacts taking a long time to put on. it's like the universe is trying to stop me and i should listen. every time this has happened, my fears have been realised"
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Do you not have any ant powder Erin?
nah i dont really know how to do that stuff, so dont want to mess it up and make them in pain or anything
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Magpies are so fucking cute
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Lil shiny goblin birds 🥰
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honestly
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love how many there are in norwich
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I LOVE the birds in Norwich
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The ones on the street are SO FUCKING FRIDNDLY
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Nope...terrifying
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I literally run away from all birds
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@Unknown can attest 😂
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Not a bird person?
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That’s fair enough they are mini dinos
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Literal phobia
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I think they’re gorgeous but I can understand the anxiety ig it’s the same as some people think about bugs
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LoLo <3
Not a bird person?
notliamhyde02 07/05/2022 7:18 PM
he’s a human silly
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Shame
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he’s a human silly
bold of you to assume I am not a plant
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Plant > human
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As a biologist, can confirm
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mumblingmiss 07/05/2022 9:28 PM
Was looking at the customisable pride converse they're doing atm and was very interested until I was customising and there was not any asexual representation available in the options and was likely not the only one not available. I know these silly big company things shouldn't get to me but it's made me feel very small and like my own identity that I share with so many people still isn't seen as as important or as valid as the others within our community.
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i doubt its much consolation, but you and all aesexuals are completely valid and valued ❤ im sorry people and companies make you feel like that, theyre idiots and dont speak for the actual community, who im sure will always support you however they can, despite the assholes
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Will (he/they) 07/06/2022 6:01 AM
i literally just broke down in bed
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unprompted
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i'm... not ok
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I'm so sorry
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If you need anything, let me known
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Confessions BOT 07/06/2022 9:42 AM
Anonymous Confession (#223)
"Another night of me smoking whilst staring at my ceiling. The loneliness do hit sometimes 😔"
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I’m not saying, they’re bad
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Butttt
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Referring to yourself as pure blood
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is boris becoming the second trump
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i always thought there was a thin line but please dont say its been crossed entirely yet
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me but my vape ran out so I'm just staring at my ceiling
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Confessions BOT 07/06/2022 11:42 AM
Anonymous Confession (#225)
"if i could not dream about them for one night that would be great"
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My dad is pissed off today because...I like my eggs differently to how he likes his eggs??
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that is somewhat confusing
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ForestBae🎄 07/06/2022 9:10 PM
Fuck COVID
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Confessions BOT 07/06/2022 9:12 PM
Anonymous Confession (#229)
"not a vent but just wanted to say i love all of you, youre so supportive and deserve great things 💜"
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ForestBae🎄 07/06/2022 9:14 PM
My sister has a concert tomorrow but she also has COVID. I’m sad for her because she was looking forward to it so much and put so much time practicing for it
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Aww bless her
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thats awful, im so sorry, i hope you both recover well 🫂
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Fuck this fuck everything I wanna be home
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I wanna be in bed
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I hope it gets better 💜
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I'm sorry you are feeling like that 🫂
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covid is kicking my ass, I feel terrible physically and mentally ://
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notliamhyde02 07/07/2022 9:49 AM
nerves are kicking in for this interview
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and i realised this morning i dont know where to go
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i mean it’s probably one of two places but still
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covid is kicking my ass, I feel terrible physically and mentally ://
covid fucking sucks, hope it passes quickly <3
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notliamhyde02 07/07/2022 10:12 AM
ok so it went well
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and i should know in a few days hopefully
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but when i said to my mum i said i can start on monday
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she got all pissy at me saying why i can’t start immediately
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Donna really knows gaslight guilt trip and manipulate god
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notliamhyde02 07/07/2022 10:13 AM
and then a bit later said to start looking for other jobs just in case
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like tf
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I’m so glad I’m going home
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notliamhyde02 07/07/2022 10:14 AM
have a bit of hope
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notliamhyde02
and i should know in a few days hopefully
I'm gonna stay positive and say: yayyy I'm so happy for you and I'm sure you'll get it!! 💜💜
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I’m so glad I’m going home
notliamhyde02 07/07/2022 10:14 AM
i can’t wait to say “i’m going home” in reference to lincoln
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I'm gonna stay positive and say: yayyy I'm so happy for you and I'm sure you'll get it!! 💜💜
notliamhyde02 07/07/2022 10:15 AM
thank you x
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I literally hate being there
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You have not got much longer ( I assume), you can get through this and then go back home
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You have not got much longer ( I assume), you can get through this and then go back home
Ohh I’m on the train right now
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Ya Yeeet suffolk
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Ya Yeeet suffolk
notliamhyde02 07/07/2022 10:27 AM
in the bin
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Ohh I’m on the train right now
Oh excellent, back to freedom
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irltardis
covid is kicking my ass, I feel terrible physically and mentally ://
Covid is really shit for some and a breeze for others, listen to your body, relax, DO NOT overdo it! I cannot stress that enough, take lots of vitamins and stay hella hydrated even if it means you’ll be weeing lots, do it anyway because you need it
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For the first time in my recovery I felt legitimately lonely today. Both my parents work and my little brother has school so im on my own 4/5 days a week. To start with I was too busy being in pain and distracting myself with youtube/tv/netflix. But today I just felt porperly on my own, I guess its a good thing? That ive reached a point where my ankle is no longer bothering me but like....still sucks y'know
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Let us know if there's anything we can do ☺
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Let us know if there's anything we can do ☺
Thank you handsome, I might bother you for some company tomorrow 😊
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Np, around all day 😊
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(Good vent) Just discovered the best glute exercise ever, I honestly feel the burn pretty quickly and can easily do it every day in a short time!!!
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Eyyy that's fantastic!!
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So pleased for you
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Dad walks into the house Looks at me First thing he says to me: "do you ever do anything that isn't sit on that sofa and play on your phone?" And walks away
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Like hi dad, thanks for your opinion
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I've been out all day and also will be at work all night
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My Dad used to say shit like that all the time, drove me mental. Sorry youre putting up with that
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Not in the fucking mood for straight men and just working with people
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Might cry
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Might have a breakdown
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notliamhyde02 07/07/2022 5:34 PM
what is it with parents and them asking you to do stuff when youve probably been doing things all day
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and just cos they’ve not seen it it means you’re a lazy piece of shit wasting away at home
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Then again, unless I'm doing everything for everyone in my family, I'm not doing enough
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notliamhyde02 07/07/2022 5:36 PM
well that’s bullshit
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Yet my sister is free to do whatever she wants bcs she is "still at school"
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I still had to fucking do so much when I was at school
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The double standards
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And they don't recognise it when I call them out
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Fuckboy Drag King 07/07/2022 5:38 PM
You both alright? Obviously going through it a bit, but do let it out if you can
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I'm just in a pissy mood 😂
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Fuckboy Drag King 07/07/2022 5:38 PM
Dw I'm always in a pissy mood
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Did something happen in particular?
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Dad walks into the house Looks at me First thing he says to me: "do you ever do anything that isn't sit on that sofa and play on your phone?" And walks away
This
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And now I have a really busy shift and everyone who was supposed to be working is "ill" (edited)
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Fuckboy Drag King 07/07/2022 5:39 PM
Odd question but does your dad do what he was accusing you of doing? My mother did that a lot when I lived with her
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E.g does he just "waste time"
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And now I have a really busy shift and everyone who was supposed to be working is "ill" (edited)
Fuckboy Drag King 07/07/2022 5:39 PM
That does fucking suck I'm sorry 🫂 Is it a bad shift?
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Really bad
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E.g does he just "waste time"
Not really
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Fuckboy Drag King 07/07/2022 5:40 PM
I'm sorry man, I doubt you can get a cover for your shift then?
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Bit of a shit day definitely
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I'm sorry man, I doubt you can get a cover for your shift then?
Nah, it's not like that here
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And everyone else will get the day off
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BCS it is nice
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Actually angry
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you can let the anger out here
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sounds like an extremely frustrating day in frustrating environments
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Fuckboy Drag King
You both alright? Obviously going through it a bit, but do let it out if you can
notliamhyde02 07/07/2022 5:43 PM
just the usual dw
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🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂
notliamhyde02 07/07/2022 5:44 PM
🫂❤️
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tho i do have to say im a bit annoyed that i’ve lost so much motivation to play any games
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like playstation recently released the updated ps plus and i upgraded to the next tier
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which gives me a whole bunch of free games
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and while ive finished some of the games i got
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most of the ones ive got left i just don’t want to play for some reason
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i do usually have a mindset where i have to get to a point where im invested enough to continue playing it
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but considering some of these games ive wanted to play for ages now and ive literally got them all for free pretty much
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just annoyed that i don’t want to play
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and yet the one game i do want to play i haven’t got yet
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cos my luck is actual ass
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i have the same issue. no idea how to fix it but i hope you get the joy back soon
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notliamhyde02 07/07/2022 5:50 PM
thanks
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Honestly sometimes it takes ages to get joy like that back
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But once it does, I'm gonna be so happy for both of you
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i thought it was my crappy old laptop not being able to run much and the new one seems to have partially fixed that but gd it was not the euphoric "wow I'm having so much fun" i expected right away
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AND WHEN THE ONLY OTHER PEOPLE WORKING ARE ON THR GAMBLING MACHINES
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Gonna kms
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Or someone else
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And now it's relive trauma time
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Today is not the day
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Why is Will in norwich… again
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Fuckboy Drag King 07/07/2022 11:29 PM
Give me his coordinates
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Just wanna say hi as im in town :)
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ForestBae🎄 07/07/2022 11:32 PM
make sure to say hi with a knife
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blobcat_knife
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Fuckboy Drag King 07/07/2022 11:32 PM
giggle
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He’s on clathorpe road o
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mumblingmiss 07/08/2022 6:42 AM
I watch car cleaning guy on YouTube when I'm ill bc I can watching without sound and it's satisfying which can be super comforting when I'm not doing well. But then this post came up on my feed and it bugged me. I wasn't the only one that commented on how unnecessary the vomiting emoji was here and how often he overreacts to feminine products in his content but it appears that now those other comments have been deleted and he thought it appropriate to reply to me like this. This is disgusting and disappointing behaviour and frankly I feel sorry for any women who have to deal with him in person because I never expected someone whose content made me feel better to be so fucking toxic.
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Good morning me 🙂
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sorry youre having to deal with that, thats so stupid
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best of luck ❤
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I just want my money
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Lmao
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people who withhold money that was given specifically from someone being kind are something else
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someone was kind enough to lend you money so you didnt have to struggle or be uncomfortable, and then you are either negligent or purposefully withholding from it when they want it back
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i cannot understand what goes through someones mind to act with ill intent when someone was kind to you in this situation
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mumblingmiss 07/08/2022 9:37 AM
I'm here if anyone wants to band together and be angry at people today lmao
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09:40
WHEN I SAY EVERYONE
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i will email his employers
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Because fuck yes
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mumblingmiss 07/08/2022 9:40 AM
Yes
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Immense power
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how can someone gaslight someone about money
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you literally have bank records ffs lmao
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mumblingmiss 07/08/2022 10:30 AM
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Proud of you for standing your ground
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Would LOVE to know how he tried to gaslight you tho what
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Need to find you someone who's not a complete wanker wtf
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that really sucks im sorry :/
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mumblingmiss 07/08/2022 11:19 AM
Sorry to see this bs babes
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We should place curses on them with ritual sacrifices
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Deleted User 07/08/2022 11:26 AM
They deserve each other😤 dw, if he comes for his stuff I’m gonna be waiting for the door bell😡
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If I didn't have work, I'd be driving straight to you rn
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Excellent
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notliamhyde02 07/08/2022 12:57 PM
you’re NOW in your arson era?
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I'm sorry you are stuck in an uncomfortable atmosphere, I know what it is like and it sucks
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Always happy to chat if you wanna just talk to someone ☺
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Makes pasta and has flashbacks to how I taught certain people how to make better food, how to chop garlic etc and how they used me
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Whoop
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Ah I'm sorry bv, if you need anything, including a chat, I'm around
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Thank you, I appreciate it
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You deserved better and sending all the hugs your way
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Confessions BOT 07/08/2022 5:16 PM
Anonymous Confession (#233)
"I hate people I hate myself I want to die"
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idk if you want to talk about it op but be free to dm me if you want, im not good at advice but happy to listen ❤
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^^ same offer here
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There are people who love you op or you wouldn’t be in the server I don’t know what happened to cause you to post this but I’m really sorry you’re going through this 💗 Some people really fucking suck but if they’re that shitty it might be worth doing what you can to limit your contact with those people where possible. As for hating yourself there’s more flexibility. There’s no one on this server I’ve come across so far that I dislike therefore that’s gotta include you too, op. You don’t need to change anything about yourself for other people to like you but if you want to work on yourself to find yourself more likeable that’s valid too! Sometimes it’s not about wanting to die but about changing how you look at yourself and the world. When I feel like that it’s normally bc I’m tired/sleepy so if you can, maybe have a snack and take a nap. We love you op, I really hope you feel better soon. My DMs are open if anyone wants to talk 💗
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Yet to find reason to but go off
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Your struggling doesn’t make us love you any less
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You’re going through a lot right now and the world isn’t being very kind to you
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But that doesn’t mean we aren’t here for you
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You categorically Do Not deserve to be hated
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You deserve softness, you deserve love, it’s going to be okay
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Imagine watching a show where someone has a concealed pregnancy but your brain doesn’t work properly so you have horrible anxiety about it for a fucking day and even tho you know you can’t be pregnant you have to take a test to make sure you’re not? Couldn’t be me. Anyway I’m not pregnant guys
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the brain sucks sometimes, sorry you had to deal with that
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Confessions BOT 07/09/2022 11:10 AM
Anonymous Confession (#235)
"I relapsed last night due to anger at my housemate and everything going on I just lost control. Idk I feel okay now?"
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11:12
Anonymous Confession (#236)
"should clarify it wasn’t solely their fault but it was the tip of the iceberg for a lot of it"
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That can happen OP, try and remember to keep reaching out to people. I know there are many in this server who would gladly listen and support. It can be hard to express ourselves and talk difficult things through, even with those who care deeply for us. People here love and support you, allow us to take a little piece each of that heavy load you’re carrying and we’ll all get there together 💕
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Confessions BOT 07/09/2022 12:30 PM
Anonymous Confession (#237)
"I’m not ok I’m not ok"
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You will be, I promise OP
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We are all here to support you
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We all love you
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If you need anything
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All you got to do is ask 🫂
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My dm’s are open OP, I will be travelling today so may not reply immediately but feel free to use my dm’s as a talk at space and I will reply when I can ❤️
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Confessions BOT 07/09/2022 2:39 PM
Anonymous Confession (#238)
"TW: SH at work at the moment and idk why the urge to SH is so much higher here"
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Tell someone
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Or ask to take a break
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Your safety is of highest priority
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You are going to be ok
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Just stay strong, I know how hard it is
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🫂🫂
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Have something really cold to drink if you can, maybe with some ice in it, I find chewing ice helps with wanting to do that sometimes as it’s a shock with the cold and something to do with a different part of your body to your hands and just feel the cold going through your body and just breathe. I really hope you’re okay, feeling like that but having to be around people especially work people is never easy 🫂🫂
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probably bad rn
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but im completely numb to every emotion lmao
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is this the emotional dysregulation or have I developed Sociopathy who knows
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I can promise you you haven't developed sociopathy
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Sometimes, the brain can shut off the emotional portions of the brain as a way of dealing with trauma
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Which is most likely what you are experiencing
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When you get through this, which I know you can bcs you are incredible, you'll get back to normal
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Either that or im gonna end up screaming in tears in 10 minutes
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Who knows
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its like big brother house
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but with mental state3
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I'm so sorry
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You will be ok, I promise
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It's difficult, I know it is
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im honestly ready to start a fight
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Fight me, let's go
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to the next person who crosses me
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No
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not yuou
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I may be numb but still care about you ;p
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You know I'd be there if I wasn't working/going on holiday next week
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Bv_
You know I'd be there if I wasn't working/going on holiday next week
No youre goodddd
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But I will be there
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Two weeks on Monday
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🫂🫂
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BUt today#
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Me: Crying in potwash bc annoyed at people
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Don't bottle it up either, if you need to scream and cry, do it
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My Supervisor:
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Brandon get out of potwash jaines going in there
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Want me to stab?
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iTs fine its Karen
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Ill probably ring shauna tomorrow
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bc she knows i had a breakdown in potwash yesterday bc jodies most likely ld her
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Yeah if you can avoid going to work, that's probably a good idea
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Have a self care day
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Play a game, read a book, cry and watch a film
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I burn shit
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Also valid
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Just do it safely and don't hurt yourself
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Get marshmallows
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There goes my plan of setting myself o nfire
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There are better things to set on fire
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Pls don't set yourself on fire (edited)
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It'll hurt
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if you need to fight someone i volunteer as tribute
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but seriously hope things improve 🫂
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mumblingmiss 07/09/2022 6:20 PM
Set me on fire
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Set me on fire
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No one is being set on fire as long as I'm alive
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Istg
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mumblingmiss 07/09/2022 6:27 PM
But
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I want it
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mumblingmiss
I want it
Should we do it as a presidents intro
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Should we do it as a presidents intro
mumblingmiss 07/09/2022 6:28 PM
Yes.
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Wait
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Omg
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Idea
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Pokemon battle presidents intro but gay af
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mumblingmiss
I want it
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IM ON THE SU WEBSITE
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Ayyyyy! V cool
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mumblingmiss 07/09/2022 6:29 PM
AAA
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Looking incredible!!!!
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IM ON THE SU WEBSITE
Ew whos this queer?
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IM LITERALLY THE BIGGEST PHOTO THERE
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is this my god ccomplex coming out
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thats not good
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mumblingmiss 07/09/2022 6:31 PM
Hell yes
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Just means you are the most important
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I’m so out of my mind bored today that I actually scrolled through Facebook 😭😭😭
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Literally me rn
19:51
At work
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Please can someone come down 😂😂
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Last night I was close to deleting this server
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in a state of i dont know how to explain it
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Im glad i didnt but still
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Yikes
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Thank you for not deleting it
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I'm proud of you
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Confessions BOT 07/09/2022 10:15 PM
Anonymous Confession (#239)
"trying to hard to not relapse again. But I’m out of nails to paint instea"
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Little bit of a dumb vent but ok here we go: So I am going on holiday with my friends from school next week and I'm already regretting it because I they are all very weird (like me but way worse), and it made me remember the last time I went on holiday with them. I hated it, was left alone and was just miserable. This was also when I first started talking to my ex before I moved to university. So now my very stressed brain is associating miserable holiday with ex trauma and making me want to cry a little bit
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Really dumb, like seriously nothing
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But annoying nonetheless
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Here for you
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Hey BV, that's really not dumb and its allowed to upset you. I'm sorry it's really rubbish, I'm a message away if you need it 💜
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Confessions BOT 07/10/2022 2:06 AM
Anonymous Confession (#241)
"They're not worth any of the effort you're putting in"
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Not sure I quite understand this
02:09
But I can promise that everyone here is worth all the effort in the world
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Twink Antony 07/10/2022 2:13 AM
Y’all ever have that moment where your head it just screaming
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Like, no words
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All the time
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Twink Antony 07/10/2022 2:13 AM
Just full of shouting
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Not fun
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Take some deep breaths
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Try and focus on one thought
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It's honestly the worst
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And slowly blot out the rest
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I get it
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I genuinely do
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I find closing my eyes help
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going to visit my parents for like a week so i can dogsit one evening
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despite things improving with them recently dont know why i feel so on edge lol
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Confessions BOT 07/10/2022 11:20 AM
Anonymous Confession (#244)
"really fucking angry at people today"
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Confessions BOT 07/10/2022 5:55 PM
Anonymous Confession (#246)
"me recovering from the past few days body dysmorphia: SUP FUCKER YOU LOOK TERRIBLE NO ONE WILL LOVE YOU LOOK AT YOUR STOMACH NO WONDER WHY YOUR Ex got with your other ex"
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OP I can guarantee you are beautiful
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Dysmorphia sucks so fucking hard and I know it's difficult to ignore
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But I can promise you that you are gorgeous and attractive
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And if your ex got with your other ex... basically means they are gonna have a really shit time bcs they are both gonna be toxic af and hopefully they kill each other 💜
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^ all of this. body dysmorphia is a bitch and none of this means you're any less of a person
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And you will find love again, I can promise you that
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Your ex getting with your other ex says faaaar more about them than it does about you OP, you are hot, gorgeous, fiiiire 💕
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F A C T S
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notliamhyde02 07/10/2022 7:54 PM
bit of a rant but why the fuck are people so critical of films now
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like when did it become a thing to bash a film that’s come out even tho the general review is positive
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trying to review bomb something that is objectively good
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like just let people like what they want ffs
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and on top of that why are all of the shitty films from before suddenly “underrated classics”
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99% of people did not like any of the star wars prequels
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now they’re suddenly amazing
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same with the amazing spider-man
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most didn’t like them
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and then when no way home came out they were good all of a sudden
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i understand people can change their opinion on something but when it’s suddenly gone from like a 3/10 to an 8/10 somethings up
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but then ofc this is the thing people here
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and all the filmbros get the attention on their opinions and then when someone else tries to justify their opinion it’s met with just bullshit
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notliamhyde02 07/10/2022 8:08 PM
just gets me riled up cos it’s just pathetic reasoning and barely gives the film a chance
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think the one thing that pisses me off the most is that i bet most of the people that complain
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and this can be about a lot of things
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they will continue to watch/read/play whatever
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like you obv don’t like it
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so don’t watch it
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Completely valid
20:22
People just have an opinion based on something that someone said and it spirals bcs conformity
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I think its one thing to have an actual criticism (e.g. I dont like the way Marvel movies are written and directed so I dont watch them because I find them too formulaic) but its something else entirely to expect other people to not watch them because you hate them. Allow people to enjoy themselves even if its something you dislike. If its not harming others directly then there's nothing wrong with it (This is not taking into account disneys ethical malpractice in terms of labour and shady shit. I am only using Marvel films as an example)
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People should just be allowed to do what they want without being judged by people
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I think its one thing to have an actual criticism (e.g. I dont like the way Marvel movies are written and directed so I dont watch them because I find them too formulaic) but its something else entirely to expect other people to not watch them because you hate them. Allow people to enjoy themselves even if its something you dislike. If its not harming others directly then there's nothing wrong with it (This is not taking into account disneys ethical malpractice in terms of labour and shady shit. I am only using Marvel films as an example)
notliamhyde02 07/10/2022 8:48 PM
you provide an actual answer for why you don’t like/watch marvel movies
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most don’t
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and but because what they say is controversial enough i guess
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it just gets carried
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and to extend what i was talking about
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promise this is the last thing i just forget everything
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people not liking things cos it’s either new/different, changes things or is progressive in anyway (edited)
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like i heard someone say that in umbrella academy s3 (spoilers?)viktors transition “took over the plot” when it actually just spanned like 2 eps at most, after that it was only brought up to mention he changed his name and stuff and that was it
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TUA S3 discussion Bruh he didnt even really transition. Dude got a hair cut in a 15 second scene and then said, actually call me this
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notliamhyde02 07/10/2022 8:54 PM
and even if it was bigger than that it’s a side story, what makes it different than klaus’ story or alison’s
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like??
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and then with ms marvel, it’s style is more of a kids show, but not only is she a child herself it’s also a nice change in pace
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TUA S3 Yeah, Klaus spent longer dying than Viktor spent transitioning (edited)
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notliamhyde02 07/10/2022 8:56 PM
not everything has to be dark and grim
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and edgy
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which in itself gets bashed anyways
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although i’m glad to say i haven’t heard much backlash from all the muslim rep in ms marvel
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aside from the usual christian idiots but that’s inevitable anyways
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Tries to pack for my holiday bcs my parents are forcing me to do it bow
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Now*
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Gets overwhelmed
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Wants to cry
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Sitting in in a very hot and very messy room
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🫂 hey bud it's alright (edited)
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How tf am I supposed to do anything when I'm really angry
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Gonna punch a wall
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Brb
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bv kyle arc
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punch a pillow instead of a wall, it might help
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Nah the wall works
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And who's Kyle
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oh kyle is just a meme about an imaginary guy who drinks monster energy drinks and punches walls
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Okay but I didnt realise dry wall existed when I was younger so when I heard about punching walls I literally started punching brick walls in my house and thats why my knuckles are fucked lol
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Okay but I didnt realise dry wall existed when I was younger so when I heard about punching walls I literally started punching brick walls in my house and thats why my knuckles are fucked lol
notliamhyde02 07/10/2022 9:34 PM
ewan you silly billy
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oh kyle is just a meme about an imaginary guy who drinks monster energy drinks and punches walls
‘Imaginary’ may I introduce you to teenage white boy
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I have ended up under my bed...this has escalated
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LoLo <3
‘Imaginary’ may I introduce you to teenage white boy
LMAO
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Entering my villain arc rn
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mahariel
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Compsci christening
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Entering my villain arc rn
Do it
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Already have
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I’m still in my test me and I’ll set fire to your bedsheets mood
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I will stab someone rn
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I’m still in my test me and I’ll set fire to your bedsheets mood
notliamhyde02 07/10/2022 9:45 PM
ah i’ll be warm and cosy then ☺
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And also dead
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notliamhyde02 07/10/2022 9:48 PM
yeah warm and cosy
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in hell
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Me: gonna have a scroll through insta cos that seems like a fine idea Insta: here’s a really attractive, skinny, feminine guy who dresses amazingly in things you could never pull of Me: well, guess I hate myself again and wish that I had a completely different bone structure🙄
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Fucking guess who forgot to do their injection tonight!!! Now im going to have to fuck with dosage times because I did it so late 🙃🙃
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I'll have to work it back to the proper timing over the next few days, its annoying as fuck that Ive done this
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I'm sorry
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I'll have to work it back to the proper timing over the next few days, its annoying as fuck that Ive done this
notliamhyde02 07/10/2022 10:18 PM
have you set alarms?
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have you set alarms?
Usually I just remember because I know I need to stab myself or I might die. But ive set alarms now
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notliamhyde02 07/10/2022 10:22 PM
ah ok fair enough
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Confessions BOT 07/10/2022 10:32 PM
Anonymous Confession (#249)
"really struggling with my psychosis right now, I can't make it go away"
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Anonymous Confession (#248)
"just got my head against the wall many times"
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notliamhyde02 07/11/2022 12:12 AM
i hate spiders
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so fucking much
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Give them to Ewan
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Problem solved
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Confessions BOT 07/11/2022 12:49 AM
Anonymous Confession (#250)
"This close to downloading a dating app, I'm feeling so fucking lonely. I miss my ex so much and though I know all the bad things that made us not work, I can't stop remembering the good."
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dating apps are a mixed experience and i got a lot of creeps when i briefly tried it months ago but your mileage may vary. just make sure you're in the right mindset, happier with yourself and your mental health so you can shrug off anything it throws at you
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If you want to try a dating app, go for it, but they are often more harmful than good.
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And I'm sorry you feel lonely, I get it, it's such a horrible feeling
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But surround yourself with all your friends
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Do things that bring you joy
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And you'll find someone who you want more with
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It just takes time
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Confessions BOT 07/11/2022 10:10 AM
Anonymous Confession (#253)
"wake up from a dream about my ex. immediately grab the happy nicotine stick."
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Confessions BOT 07/11/2022 11:27 AM
Anonymous Confession (#254)
"I feel horrible when I go so long without a shower or a bath or something but even if I really want to do it the motivation is ridiculously hard to find. Makes me feel disgusting."
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Sometimes the best thing to do is to literally drag yourself to the shower
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It sucks
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But as soon as you've showerwd
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You'll feel better
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it's like every time i get good news about the super stressful things holding my future to ransom, i get socked in the face by another issue the day afterwards. i can't even celebrate progress anymore bc it keeps getting ripped away soon after. I'm so goddamn tired
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Are you okay? What's come up can we help?
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it's more of the visa bullshit i think i told you about. they can't seem to verify my right to rent the house i just got accepted for
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my family and i did everything right, we submitted our visa extensions in october 2021 the day the government asked for the applications and they still haven't gotten back to us even tho it's been 8 months. it's seriously fucking me over rn bc without those fucking documents, it's a lot harder to prove i can legally work and rent in the UK bc half their stupid software doesn't work
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They're still fucking you over with that??! I thought you'd at least be able to get the place when you have the money for it thats bs
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it's a legal requirement bc i'm not a british citizen so i can't blame the landlords. last 4 times we've extended our visa, it's taken max 3 months to get everything sorted out and our new documents sent to us. covid backlogged thousands of cases so it's dragged onto month 8 with no sign of our visas
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I'm having a breakdown bc i worked my mental health to the ground getting this amazing job and then finding a place to stay and it's all being ripped away by forces i can't control
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that is unbelievably shit im so sorry
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what's even the point of trying anymore if every time i do everything I'm meant to, it's all going to collapse right before the finish line?
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Is there any way we can call the people and get them to send it off faster?
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Or even explain to the landlords like this isn't because of anything you've done this is a government issue
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Again
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sorry no, my lawyer has kept contacting them frequently for months with no change. he's trying the best he can to find workarounds for all this but i start the job on monday so if their right to work check also fails i really dk what I'm going to do
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Or even explain to the landlords like this isn't because of anything you've done this is a government issue
they're not going to budge on a legal issue I'm afraid
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i really hope it gets sorted, i know there probably isnt anything we can do but if there is please say, you dont deserve to have this stuff piled up on top of you
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thank you 🫂
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to you both
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It’s really shitty that you’re having to deal with that Jory, I hope they can get it through quickly for you 🫂
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I'm holding out hope that the letting agent just entered the details wrong. my brother's right to work check was approved a month ago when his employer did it so i can't imagine why mine wouldn't. it's just such a massive headache and i feel so sick
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That’s a possibility
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this breakdown isn't on the level of some of my others from the last couple weeks but I'm so drained. trying to keep the usual extreme thoughts out of my head
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Do you have any distractions that would help this week while you’re waiting?
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If not, I’ll happy scour the internet for weird videos
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i have a lot of free time between now and monday so I'm trying to fill it with distractions yeah. i appreciate all your help though
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i have a lot of free time between now and monday so I'm trying to fill it with distractions yeah. i appreciate all your help though
I’m nearly home I can distract you for a bit if you want (edited)
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I’m nearly home I can distract you for a bit if you want (edited)
thank you 🫂
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I’m a 20 year old who when he makes a mistake will try covering it up rather than tell anyone and be in the verge of crying and shaking when people see through me. I really hate that I’m still like this.
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I told you, any time you need to talk about mistakes, talk to me
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Here for you whenever
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notliamhyde02 07/11/2022 10:30 PM
i don’t have a job yet
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which sucks cos i wont have money for when i move in
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but also i probably won’t be able to do any plans i had
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Are there places local to you you can apply to? Even if it's not brilliantly paying it's better than nothing?
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Are there places local to you you can apply to? Even if it's not brilliantly paying it's better than nothing?
notliamhyde02 07/11/2022 10:43 PM
been doing that
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might look and see if there’s anything online i can do
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Twink Antony 07/11/2022 10:44 PM
McD are always hiring right?
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woah i cannot handle my alcohol anymore
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that was a nasty overwhelming feeling of beinf sick
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Fuckboy Drag King 07/11/2022 11:34 PM
You doing alright?
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mahariel
that was a nasty overwhelming feeling of beinf sick
notliamhyde02 07/11/2022 11:37 PM
eat bread
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Fuckboy Drag King
You doing alright?
uhh idk
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notliamhyde02
eat bread
can't keep anything down lol. will drink lots of water
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just lying down rn
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notliamhyde02 07/11/2022 11:41 PM
good call
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try and get some food if you can
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something to soak up the alc
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Fuckboy Drag King 07/11/2022 11:42 PM
Do you have anyone with you?
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food bad, got me into the sudden sickness
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Fuckboy Drag King
Do you have anyone with you?
in my room rn, orhwrs in lounge
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others
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Fuckboy Drag King 07/11/2022 11:44 PM
Okay, you're going to be alright, focus on water rn, I'll make sure the others check in on you
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why cant you :<
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I'll be fine just haven't had proper alcohol in months
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Fuckboy Drag King 07/11/2022 11:47 PM
LMAO I don't think either of us want me walking 30 minutes just to see you asleep in your bed
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when he won't pull an edward cullen 🥺
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i have thrown up so i feel a lot better
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toxins toxins
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what 3 months of nights out only on molly + water will do to a mf
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i have thrown up so i feel a lot better
hope you're alright!! take small sips at some water and rest ✨
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hope you're alright!! take small sips at some water and rest ✨
I'm ok! sipping water and hugging myself mostly
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ik it's like 29 degrees rn but my anemic self has gotten to the stage of post-drunk where I'm super cold and shivering
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might crack open my hot water bottle
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anything that u need, dewittt
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hahahaa i need to learn my limits again bc they are NOT what they used to be
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Confessions BOT 07/12/2022 5:35 PM
Anonymous Confession (#265)
"im a fucking terrible person and i let everyone down"
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Hey op I am sure you haven’t done anything, here for you
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You are wonderful
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I can promise you
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We all love you
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And like talking to you
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thepuppymuffin 07/12/2022 5:40 PM
its so tempting to reply to various confessions with 'mood' but i dont cuz am guessin it would be taken the wrong way
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GOOD MORNING VIETNAM
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Fuckboy Drag King 07/12/2022 8:43 PM
ask what's on his harddrive (edited)
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Fuckboy Drag King
ask what's on his harddrive (edited)
AHAHAHAHAHAHA
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GOOD MORNING VIETNAM
notliamhyde02 07/12/2022 8:55 PM
oh god what does he want
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SHOULD I STAB HIM?
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He’s saying stop saying I cheated when i didn’t
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Liek bestie we were exclusive
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I get we weren’t together but we were exclusive and about to be the day he cheated lmao
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Give me his contact, gonna kill him
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How dare he have the cheek
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mumblingmiss 07/13/2022 5:02 AM
Ouch my uterus :(
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Also lmk if murders need to be done
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thepuppymuffin 07/13/2022 4:03 PM
i put wrapping it off for so long that it's now too late to do before i leave for tenerife and now i can't mail her birthday present until i get back
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Gets called racist, homophobic and sexist by my friends
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Actually hate this so much
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Wtf?
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Lovely people
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They're. Not your friends bro
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I'm really sorry
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No they aren't
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But I felt bad bcs I hadn't seen them in a year
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And decided to invite them on holiday with me
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Knowing full well I'll hate it in the end
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You don't owe anyone anything I know your self esteem is low but you don't have any obligation to spend time with people who bring you down
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So now I'm sat on the steps of the caravan and trying to not cry
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Is there any way you can uninvite them? Or is it already too late
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Nah we still got two more days
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You don't owe anyone anything I know your self esteem is low but you don't have any obligation to spend time with people who bring you down
I tried to get away from them today but they just called me and made me feel worse
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PhantomBeef 07/13/2022 4:41 PM
I'm sorry to hear that, you do not deserve to be surrounded by such disgusting behaviour. You deserve to be in the company of those who accept and love you. I am always here if you need anything. Please keep occupied and don't let what they say bring you down. You're amazing and we're here for ya
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Gotta go cook for them all in 15 mins
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Do you know anyone where you're staying you can make an excuse to spend time with instead?
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I can just go stay with my family
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Np
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But
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I paid a lot of money to have the caravan room
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So like
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Wanna make the most of it
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Despite how miserable I am currently
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Are your family w you at the caravan place?
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Can you not explain to them what happened and get away from it for a bit?
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No I drove up myself
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Like I could go stay with a grandparent or aunt or someone
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PhantomBeef 07/13/2022 4:45 PM
I think it would be best for you to be away from that toxic energy, I don't want it to keep you down. I understand it's hard because you paid and made the efforts to go, but your happiness and health must take precedence always
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Yeah I'm just keeping away from them
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Bcs it's a lot
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Thank you both ❤️
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PhantomBeef 07/13/2022 4:50 PM
always :) please take care !
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notliamhyde02 07/13/2022 11:02 PM
kill me pls
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But I can offer hugs
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In a bit
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notliamhyde02
kill me pls
No. Commit arson instead
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notliamhyde02 07/13/2022 11:03 PM
just angry and sad
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Babes what's going on
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notliamhyde02 07/13/2022 11:04 PM
just let myself get angry and now im sad about it
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You are allowed to be angry
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It's acceptable
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Sending many hugs ❤️
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I JUST HAD TO TAKE MATCHES AWAY FROM A 19 YEAR OLD BCS THEY ARE PLAYING WITH THEM IN THE CARAVAN
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I JUST HAD TO TAKE MATCHES AWAY FROM A 19 YEAR OLD BCS THEY ARE PLAYING WITH THEM IN THE CARAVAN
Bro??
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If I am not dead by Friday (edited)
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It'll be a miracle
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And we all want to go to bed and they are refusing to
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And I'm trying to not explode
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Bcs I already have about the drugs
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But like
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Why are they behaving so petty
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Sorry Liam, I'm not invalidating your vent, lemme know if you want me to delete all this
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I'm really sorry you have to deal with this, you deserve a nice rest and holiday. Not an unpaid babysitting gig
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So much more I'd rather be doing
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Yeah, it's completely not fair to you
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Confessions BOT 07/14/2022 6:08 PM
Anonymous Confession (#271)
"body dysmorphia hits hard I wanna lose weight and I keep trying but it won’t work"
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Body dysmorphia is a BITCH I’m really sorry you’re going through it op 💗
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It really sucks but if you ever want to do exercise or plan food, I'm happy to do it with you bcs I'm in the same situation atm
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notliamhyde02 07/14/2022 6:52 PM
why can’t i get a fucking job
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if i can’t get one i’m gonna have to stay at home longer than i wanted to
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i wont have money for rent
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my parents said they’ll help and my grandparents probably will too but i’d feel guilty
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and all my plans for september will go out the window
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i’ve applied for loads around me
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and i’ve heard nothing back
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Our September plan won't change regardless if you have a job
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notliamhyde02 07/14/2022 6:55 PM
literally what else can i do
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I know hard you've tried
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And I'm so proud of you
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Maybe something to do is start looking for some jobs in Lincoln?
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Summer work is never a bad idea
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Still shitty if you can’t get anything near uni
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I’m sorry 🫂🫂
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Also very sorry 🫂🫂
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You'll get one eventually
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It's just really difficult atm
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You are great so everyone who ignores you is missing out
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Maybe something to do is start looking for some jobs in Lincoln?
notliamhyde02 07/14/2022 6:58 PM
there’ll be more stuff there yea but that won’t be until september
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or even possibly october
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Just keep looking
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You can do it
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I believe in uou
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Have you looked at summer internships? There could be something localish you could do that you hadn’t thought of?
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Oooh good idea
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thepuppymuffin 07/14/2022 8:15 PM
sh ;w; the scars on my arm are raised so you can feel them and I don’t like it, i wish they’d be flat and smooth like the ones on my thigh so they don’t remind me of sh as much
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Runs away bcs gets extremely triggered and I'll just get made fun of
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Crying on a beach...great way to end my holiday
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Crying on a beach...great way to end my holiday
notliamhyde02 07/14/2022 10:08 PM
right i’m heading your way
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prepare for hugs
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I'm sorry you gotta deal with that Bv, we're all here if you need anything at all. It's not fair that this happened
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right i’m heading your way
Pls do
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Ngl tempted to just go drown myself or at the very least get swept out to sea
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Sea
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A very good song once said the sea is a good place to think of the future Just gaze off for a bit and vibe, I'm sorry your 'friends' are crap, you deserve so much better, you really do 🫂
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One of them won't leave me alone
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Taunting me
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Sorry for all that
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Hey you don't have to apologise for being upset
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Nah all my trauma, course choice and personal growth has just been invalidated
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Will (he/they) 07/15/2022 5:35 AM
currently in the hospital because i feel like ass. time to go into debt :)
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Oh shit, I'm sorry
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Hope it isn't anything too serious
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It’s worse when you realise he’s 80. Like bro I don’t need to know you think about me stripping 💀
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Tbf, its pole you do. Not burlesque right? Or are you in Burlesque as well? (edited)
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I did burlesque in first year tbf
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But didn’t have time this year
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Confessions BOT 07/15/2022 1:11 PM
Anonymous Confession (#273)
"How can a person be so perfect. How can you be born pretty, be born into a wealthy family, be immediately talented, not have any medical issues, put minimal effort into everything, have a successful life and never have an issue. I just don’t understand why some people get this all easily and I’d just like on of these…?"
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notliamhyde02 07/15/2022 5:40 PM
CAN MY FUCKING ICLOUD STOP TELLING ME IM RUNNING OUT OF SPACE I FUCKING KNOW THAT ITS BEEN LIKE THAT FOR THE PAST FEW MONTHS SENDING ME 20 NOTIFICATIONS A MINUTE TO TELL ME
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I JUST WANT TO WATCH MY TIKTOKS IN PEACE JFC
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notliamhyde02 07/15/2022 5:42 PM
it’s like 79p a month to upgrade but i don’t want to
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just fucking annoying
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Confessions BOT 07/15/2022 6:36 PM
Anonymous Confession (#277)
"It’s really embarrassing asking people if they want to meet up or do something together and then being ignored."
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Literally ask me, I'm always down to do something, provided I can get I've my anxiety
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And if they ignore you, definitely not worth your time
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Any online socials im absolutely up for, I cant really do in person at the minute sorry
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My DMs are always open for conversation though 🥰
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to vent
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I think I have broken my laptop even more than before
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Its now not booting even though I replaced the ssd
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Its now not booting even though I replaced the ssd
did you have the OS on that SSD?
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but it would at least say
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theres no bootable thing
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Its literally just black
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huh have you tried putting the old SSD back in?
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I think I may have fucked up
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Idk
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If i have broke it
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BUt that doesnt work either
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Lemme try them in my pc
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Confessions BOT 07/15/2022 7:33 PM
Anonymous Confession (#279)
"Just tell me that you won't be able to make it instead of saying you'll let me know later and not following up or ignoring it entirely. My anxiety keeps wondering what I'm doing wrong."
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I can promise you it isn't you
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I'm sorry this person keeps messing you about
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🫂
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Sorry to diminish op
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But I couldn’t fix my PC and spent so much on repairs and I’m so angry
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Gonna see if I can return some of the stuff
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Also sorry you haven't been able to fix your pc 🫂🫂
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Gonna see if I can return some of the stuff
Best bet
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im probably going to be booking lecture theatres quite a bit over the next week, so happy to stream whatever i end up watching/doing if people want something to do (edited)
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although fair warning the first one will be watching hamilton with my housemate, with a bit of awful singing on my part
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although fair warning the first one will be watching hamilton with my housemate, with a bit of awful singing on my part
Stream it? I wanna join innnn 🥺
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notliamhyde02 07/15/2022 8:07 PM
my dad has found a pub that looking for people to work there
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notliamhyde02 07/15/2022 8:07 PM
but ofc you have to call them to ask
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Ew
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notliamhyde02 07/15/2022 8:08 PM
and i get anxious af with phone calls
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i said ill do it tomorrow morning
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but my parents are making me do it now
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You've got this, it'll be ok
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notliamhyde02 07/15/2022 8:08 PM
i said i’ll do it in my own time
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but i think they don’t believe me when i say i’ll call in the morning
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saying “it’s been up for 20hrs it’ll probably be gone by then”
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like anyone would’ve heard about it
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i just hate when they constantly badger on and on about jobs and stuff
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it makes me want to not look for jobs
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notliamhyde02 07/15/2022 8:10 PM
it’s already stressful enough
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can they just leave me to it
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If I could drive to you and support you through the phone call I would, I'm sorry your parents are making this so difficult for you
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Good luck Liam!!!!
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Oh wait, also this ^^
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notliamhyde02 07/15/2022 8:13 PM
easy enough for my mum to say to “psych myself up” when she keeps badgering on about it
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and shit i already know
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I'm so sorry, I really get it
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The best I can offer is a video call or something to support you during the phone call
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But I can promise you the call will be relatively easy, you'll be asked a couple questions (edited)
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Yeah it’s shitty the amount of pressure they’re putting on you:( I’m sorry
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I’m glad you’re finding a way to get away tho that’s massive
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notliamhyde02 07/15/2022 8:23 PM
right im gonna do it
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You got this
20:23
We believe in you
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notliamhyde02 07/15/2022 8:24 PM
well they said they’ll call me back after 9
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cos they’re still in service atm
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notliamhyde02 07/15/2022 8:24 PM
all that for nothing
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well
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not completely nothing anyways
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i completely stumbled my words tho
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They are going to call you back, that's good news
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notliamhyde02 07/15/2022 8:25 PM
sounded like an idiot
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You will not have sounded as bad as you think
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notliamhyde02 07/15/2022 8:26 PM
no i properly stumbled
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like had to restart my sentence stumbled
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I'm sorry I can't be there to support you
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notliamhyde02 07/15/2022 8:28 PM
so now i’m just gonna be sat here for 30 mins just waiting
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see if this was tomorrow morning they would be available
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Anything you can do to clear your mind? Play that game with Ewan?
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notliamhyde02 07/15/2022 8:29 PM
i hate job seeking
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can suck my dick
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fucking hate it
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Bv_
Anything you can do to clear your mind? Play that game with Ewan?
notliamhyde02 07/15/2022 8:29 PM
could do
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At least you can distract yourself for a bit
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What I imagine @Unknown to be like when they threaten me to sleep
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Look out your window.... I'm there
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notliamhyde02 07/15/2022 9:42 PM
can these guys fucking call me back
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Have they still not?
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Ew
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notliamhyde02 07/15/2022 9:42 PM
nope
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Oh I'm sorry
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notliamhyde02 07/15/2022 9:43 PM
i’ll just ring in the morning if they don’t
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Good plan
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notliamhyde02 07/15/2022 9:43 PM
i doubt they’ll ring past 10pm (edited)
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Probably not
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I'm sorry they are messing you around
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GUESS WHO JUST REMEMBERED HE HAS THE DENTIST ON THE HOTTEST DAY OF THE YEAR
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Oop, good luck with that!
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Gonna ring them and try and get it moved
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Bcs fuck if I'm driving in that heat
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I will die
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No air-con?
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I mean I do
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Have that
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But I will still have to get in the car after being in the dentist
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And it will be burning hot
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notliamhyde02 07/16/2022 11:32 AM
need to call the pub again
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really wish i didn’t last night cos i feel really awkward now
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They’re not gonna think anything of it just that you’re following up and dedicated
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in fact, calling them back up shows that you're interested
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notliamhyde02 07/16/2022 12:04 PM
going in on tuesday
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to see them
12:04
im guessing for a trial shift? idk
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Nice!! Good luck!!!
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notliamhyde02 07/16/2022 12:06 PM
thank you
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can relax a bit now
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Omg that is so exciting!!!!
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notliamhyde02
going in on tuesday
Keep safe, the heat is going to be evil
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thepuppymuffin 07/16/2022 6:00 PM
I’m in the mood again for telling strangers (who mostly live quite close to me so may bump into at some point) about my mental health issues and staggeringly bad decisions so here goes wheeeee so uh I had a nasty breakup with someone (completely my fault, I basically cheated without realising it (long story)) and i also didn’t understand that she never wanted me to talk to her ever again so I sent her a birthday card but at the same time I was having bad thoughts about hurting people so i vented in a discord server which she also happens to be in and now she thinks her mentally ill ex who cheated on her is thinking about stalking and/or killing her, as do all of her friends I really am not very good at communication lol Yes I’m in therapy btw do hopefully I’ll get better over time (edited)
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Time will heal this, best thing sometimes
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Bv_
Time will heal this, best thing sometimes
thepuppymuffin 07/16/2022 6:17 PM
I hope so ;w; Three months ago we were literally in love and now she’s scared for her own safety because of me it’s all happened gone down hill so fast i just hope one day they can see me getting better but i know that’ll be many many years from now (not because im not getting better but because I don’t wanna scare them by violating their boundaries) (edited)
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Okay have you tried sitting down with someone when you get into that kind of situation just voicing your expectations/view of what’s going on and ask them to do the same and see where things lie and what happens from there? As for the other stuff I think that’s up to you like venting can be helpful but I get how it’s been taken might have been less great, maybe it’s worth saying something similar to what you did here in that chat, maybe anonymously if you think that would be better, or say something to one of their friends so they understand it was just a misunderstanding and you’re not intending to be threatening if that’s how you feel you came across. I hope everything works out, my DMs are open if you want to talk 💗
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Gets screamed at for making cakes
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Loving life
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notliamhyde02 07/16/2022 8:21 PM
tf
20:21
no banana bread for them
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Just wanna move out
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Like I am actually done with living here
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Honestly if I didn't have work
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I'd go live in a tent
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Somewhere
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In a field
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notliamhyde02 07/16/2022 8:29 PM
can live in my house
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No don't be silly
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(though I fully would)
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We love when the brain spirals and now I wanna die
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Hey its okay, can you take some deep breaths and ground yourself?
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I'm really sorry this is happening, it's such bullshit
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Just so angry
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Like my parents and I have a really good relationship
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But like
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This just doesn't work anymore
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Where's the beach when I need it
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It actually calmed me down so much the other day
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Beaches are absolutely lovely and calming
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You're allowed to be angry and you're allowed to struggle being back with your parents
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Sad that my favourite hoodie and my favourite jacket are lost forever
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Bc of Will
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Istg I will kill that man
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Sad that my favourite hoodie and my favourite jacket are lost forever
Wait has he just fully stolen them?
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That money and clothes lmao
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Disgusting
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What a cunt
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I’m literally just lost for words for you cause how does he think that that is a normal thing to do
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hazlilley
I’m literally just lost for words for you cause how does he think that that is a normal thing to do
I mean you heard what else he did right
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Oh god
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No
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What did he do?
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Had the audacity to continue existing
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hazlilley
What did he do?
Yknow
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The sleepijg with max
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The guy who cheated on me
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To either hurt me or whatever
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Oh yeah you told me that
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Wills knew who he was
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That’s just so scummy
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No
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Wtf
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Yknow what Idc I just want my money and my clothes back 😔
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How do you know
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Bv_
How do you know
Mutual friends
22:21
Also he literally was bragging about it to people
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Fucking fuming
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Making them uncomfortable too
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If I hadn't blocked him
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He would be getting hell rn
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Fuck his dad
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I’ve not blocked him and I’m tempted
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Or his best mate
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LoLo <3
Fuck his dad
This is the best course of action
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hazlilley
I’ve not blocked him and I’m tempted
Give him hell, then do it
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His dad isn’t my type
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You have a type?
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What is it
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Rude q
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Compsci
22:24
Omg
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Bv_
Give him hell, then do it
You’ll literally remove what’s left of his hairline if you did
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LoLo <3
Compsci
No lies were told here
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B
You’ll literally remove what’s left of his hairline if you did
JABJDRJDK
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B
You’ll literally remove what’s left of his hairline if you did
Please can I then? He deserved baldness
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Yay
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If y’all tell him and he has to cope, that’s not on me
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Yeah it’s just us sticking up for our friend who’s been treated like shit
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So we’re dropping some truth bombs
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@hazlilley obviously feed back to the class
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Oh I shall
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@Unknown if you want I have his number
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WAIT
22:26
I HAVE MY EX'S NUMBER TOO, TWO BIRDS WITH ONE STONE LETIGOOOOO
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I was actually tempted to call him the other day
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Dunno what I was gonna say
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Nah don’t ring your ex
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I was just bired
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Don’t let him live rent free
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Bestie I don't
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I was just so bored I wanted to start a villain arc
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This isn’t villain arc stuff
22:29
This is hero arc
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Lemme be emo though
22:31
still waiting for the number....
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why call your ex when you can just call a friend instead. it'll be a much nicer conversation
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What if you are really angry and want to shout at someone
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call your MP
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Ripfangs
call your MP
Our mp is labour. So thin ice
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Can I phone Priti Patel and tell her to fuck off
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And liz truss
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Who is somehow POPULAR (edited)
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...I really don't follow politics, I don't know any of these names
22:39
It is done B
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B
And liz truss
thepuppymuffin 07/16/2022 10:39 PM
Can we get a spoiler on that please /j
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hazlilley
Click to see attachment 🖼️
YOU ARE ICONIC
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The SCREAM I just made
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hazlilley
Click to see attachment 🖼️
SCRWAM
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IM HOWLING SO MUCH RN
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I’m LITERALLY CHOKING
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B
Can I phone Priti Patel and tell her to fuck off
i'm pretty sure norwich north has a tory mp, so you can always call that one
22:40
IM ACTUALLY WHEEZING
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@Pure-Homo THIS ISNWHAT I MEANT
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L response
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L moment
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What’s remaining of his weave got snatched 💀💀💀
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I’ve blocked him now
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Don’t need him clogging up my insta Dom’s
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I’m actually crying
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*DM’s
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Insta doms?
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Dm’a
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With laughter
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hazlilley
I’ve blocked him now
thepuppymuffin 07/16/2022 10:42 PM
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Ffs
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B
Insta doms?
me
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PhantomBeef
me
Your a dom?
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PhantomBeef
me
👀
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Yeah HAHA
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Didn't peg you for a dom
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VALID THOUGH
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I look like a little sub bitch
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In this server
22:42
Is?
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Right
22:42
Right??
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Rude
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Bv_
Didn't peg you for a dom
I told you @PhantomBeef no one thinks you’re a Dom
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Forgetting Ewan
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Harry asked me to have a scrap with him
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and I decked him
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With him or will?
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I mean Harry is
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NOOO HARRY
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Idk who Will is
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The one who Harry just sent back to the dark ages
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B
I mean Harry is
Harry is what?
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B
@Pure-Homo THIS ISNWHAT I MEANT
?
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Pure-Homo
?
I told you about people dming my ex
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hazlilley
I told you @PhantomBeef no one thinks you’re a Dom
I'm full of surprises what can I say
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Honestly I feel like there are more doms here than realised
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I told you about people dming my ex
Ah
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Everyone has the capacity to be a Dom, like chef gusteau says
22:44
Anyone can cook
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I have tried to be a sub before but I got so uncomfortable last time
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Not @Unknown
22:45
They are sub permanently
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I feel like I am both, but I'm also like... I'd rather top and be dom 😂
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I felt that way for a long time also tbh, like I could be submissive, but eventually I'm skewed and now would only be a top + dom
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True chaotic Vers here
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B
They are sub permanently
notliamhyde02 07/16/2022 10:46 PM
do i need to remind you
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Y’all think you can dom me
22:46
Then I got you in a choke hold
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Choke me and I'll kick you in the balls ♥
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Bv_
Choke me and I'll kick you in the balls ♥
Not if your legs are tied
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I can still move my kegs
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Legs
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Just one swift movement upwarda
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Not if they’re bound to a bed
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For example
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Good luck tying me to a bed
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Bv_
Good luck tying me to a bed
I can literally carry you
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notliamhyde02 07/16/2022 10:51 PM
it’s cute when brandon pretends to be dom
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But I'm wriggly
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notliamhyde02 07/16/2022 10:51 PM
funny even
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And I'm happy falling distances
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MAX IS TYPING
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notliamhyde02 07/16/2022 10:51 PM
oh god
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Well this is going to be interesting
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Here for you if needed
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thepuppymuffin 07/16/2022 10:52 PM
I want pet rats but if I got some my greyhound would eat them
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“God Brandon stop harassing that man, I’m giving you one chance before I let people know who the real Brandon is”
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Sorry I didn’t realise my name was Harry
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Harry?
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COUGH I'M SO FUCKING ANGRY WHY THESE PEOPLE TREATING YOU LIKE THIS ISTG SOMEONE WILL GET SKINNED
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It’s fine. I got my ways to handle max
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Still wanna skin someone
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Max craves attention
22:54
I don’t open his messages
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Love it
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I only half swipe on his snaps
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LoLo <3
Harry?
That’s me 😊
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Ohhhh bc you messaged will
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Yee
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I'm a bit slow
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So it’s not B harassing people technically
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Damn my expose video got dropped
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HAHAHA
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that’s amazing
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How tf do I slepe for under an hour to an hour
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And wake up with a nightmare
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A really vivid one too
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PhantomBeef 07/17/2022 3:28 AM
I hope you’re alright :((
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Nightmares suck
03:29
Meanwhile I’m in bed getting paranoid over every sound the house makes + from outside lmfao (Which can get really bad as a result of past trauma so fun 😗🏼) (edited)
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Will (he/they) 07/17/2022 5:03 AM
have had strep for three days, gone to er twice. first time was for a penicillin shot, second time was because fever didn’t go down in 24hrs… second time i was given a tylenol and told to wait two more days
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05:04
but hey insurance covered it because it was an emergency
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PhantomBeef
I hope you’re alright :((
I’m ok
11:15
I sometimes get them
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11:16
Thanks to the past
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I’m ok
I’m glad you’re alright, nightmares can be intense and leave you quite shaken. make sure to keep hydrated and try do something calming if you struggle to get back to sleep (edited)
11:27
Taking a few deep breaths straight after a nightmare can really help to calm your body + brain down also :))
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PhantomBeef
I’m glad you’re alright, nightmares can be intense and leave you quite shaken. make sure to keep hydrated and try do something calming if you struggle to get back to sleep (edited)
Can’t sleep it’s the work train today
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11:34
But Thabknyou oh
11:34
I really appreciate the caring
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I hope it's a slow one so you don't have to use too much brain when you're this drained 🫂 treat yourself to something if you can afford it, anything to make you feel a bit better, then take a nap when you get home. Flashbacky nightmares are gross I'm really sorry you're struggling with all of this
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Definitely take a nap later if you’re feeling exhausted and drained, you deserve a good rest. You’ve got this !
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LoLo <3
I hope it's a slow one so you don't have to use too much brain when you're this drained 🫂 treat yourself to something if you can afford it, anything to make you feel a bit better, then take a nap when you get home. Flashbacky nightmares are gross I'm really sorry you're struggling with all of this
Brought a maccies for me and my workmate
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Proud (+ a bit jealous of) you 💗
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In a non patronising way
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PhantomBeef
Definitely take a nap later if you’re feeling exhausted and drained, you deserve a good rest. You’ve got this !
It’s fine I’m gonna just go for drinks with my work after
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I don’t need sleep I promise
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Pls sleep
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sounds chill but stay safe, this heat sucks with speep deprivation
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hope you enjoy!
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not the 40 mins the alcohol
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J got about 3-4 hours
14:47
Which is kinda average for me anyway
14:47
Someone hold me when I sleep pls
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That’s very bad
14:47
Istg
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I will give you sleeping medication if you need more sleep, like go to the shop and buy some so you can have it if you need it
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I would if I was there (platonically) 🫂
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I will be there in a week for two nights
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:)
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Bv_
I will give you sleeping medication if you need more sleep, like go to the shop and buy some so you can have it if you need it
Sees
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It’s hard enough waking me up. When I sleep I sleep deep
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Kerryns normally up early can you not get him to bang on your door when he’s about t leave?
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LoLo <3
Kerryns normally up early can you not get him to bang on your door when he’s about t leave?
Surprisingly would sleep through that
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Sees
If you want it, I’ll get it for you
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Confessions BOT 07/17/2022 2:57 PM
Anonymous Confession (#295)
"tw: suicide mention. i know it's the drugs but god i want to fucking kill myself right now. have to carry on pretending to be normal because too many people rely on me"
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14:58
I'm really sorry to hear that OP
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If you ever want to talk, my DM is open
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14:58
You can be how you want to be and how you feel around me, no judgement
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I know it's difficult, but you can do it
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People rely on you bc you’re a trustworthy and reliable person but their issues don’t take away from yours. Everyone is allowed to struggle, or you’d have turned them away when they come to you for help. I’m not going to pretend I know how drugs can affect this stuff but if it’s making your mental state worse maybe it’s worth having less or stopping for a bit. I don’t know your circumstances but you’re allowed to tell people you don’t have the mental capacity right now to have that kind of conversation and you need to take care of yourself. I know when you’re the ‘mum friend’ that can be hard to do but it’s important to prioritise your own headspace and mental situation. I’m not in Norwich right now or I’d give you the biggest hug but if you need to talk I’m more than happy to help out if I can. You are so loved, I hope you know that 💗
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mumblingmiss 07/17/2022 3:52 PM
Oh boy sometimes Facebook memories really do just punch you in the face huh
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STOP TALKING TO ME PLEASE LIKE YOU ARE NOT A GOOD PERSON AND I AM SO CROSS AT YOU BUT RN I CAN'T PROCESS MY OWN BRAIN, DON'T NEED YOUR MANIPULATIVE THOUGHTS TWISTING ME TOO
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Sorry
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no need to apologise, sorry youre dealing with that, that kind of thing can be tough :/
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hope you can get space from whoever is doing that and feel better 🫂
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STOP PLAYING THE VICTIM
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16:08
You are not the victim
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I will show you everything you've done
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If you really want me to
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...sorry again
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It's okay that's what the channel is for 🫂 I hope you're okay and get the space you need to clear your head before you have to talk to them
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GETS UPSET SO GOES AND WRITES MUSIC
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Confessions BOT 07/17/2022 6:10 PM
Anonymous Confession (#296)
"I wish I didn't fall in love so hard and for so long. if i could remove all my emotions and replace them with a blank slate of not giving a shit that would be great"
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RELATING SO HARD TO YOU OP
18:11
If you ever wanna talk, my DM is always open
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BCS it sucks
18:11
It really does
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But emotions and feelings are healthy and if we can get you to a more positive mindset, then that can be done
18:12
Happy to support you if you need it ❤️
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If one more person...replies to me using the word "K", I'm actually going to lose it
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reaching the manic afterglow stage of MDMA comedowns, kids. pray for me while i live my best life for the next couple hours
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ah fuck, i have lockjaw and can't open my mouth wide enough to eat properly. if i open my jaw beyond a certain point it's excruciating
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Can you drink? Maybe make a smoothie or something to get some food in you
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yeah just sipping orange juice rn. should have started doing this since i got in last night but i spent 3 hours sitting on the bathroom floor instead
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Lock jaw? Do we need to ring anyone??
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don't do drugs during volatile emotional periods, kids!
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I’m gonna hug you
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I hope it gets sorted
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if you need anything let us know 🫂 be it soup, drink or anything. hope things improve!
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Lock jaw? Do we need to ring anyone??
LMAO nah nah all good. it's from excessively chewing gum and grinding my teeth. side effect of MDMA. should clear up in a few days i hope
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Breakdown moment
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23:37
Yayyyyy
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Confessions BOT 07/17/2022 11:50 PM
Anonymous Confession (#298)
"is it selfish to feel betrayal. Genuinely don’t know anymoren"
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Betrayal is acceptable
23:52
And if you feel betrayed, tell the person
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And it is not selfish either
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You can get rid of them
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Just block them
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You don't need betrayers in your life
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Idk the context but feeling betrayed is valid ~ you don't ever have to feel like your emotions are selfish, you feel the way you feel it's how you act that can be put into words
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NO BCS I WAS TALKING WITH MY FRIENDS ABOUT SEXUAL STUFF AND I SAID I WAS A TOP AND THE PERSON WHO MADE ME ALMOST WALK INTO THE SEA SAID "K"
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I think
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I'm going
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To
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Bestie this person is not your friend
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But if I leave the server
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I lose contact with a bunch of others
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Can you add them individually first?
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I mean I already have but they donytalk much in DMs
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Or talk to the admin get the person restricted from you maybe
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Idk how discord works
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It's a friend only server
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So like
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Just ahh
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If you block them and are in the same server what happens?
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Very much
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Hate
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Me
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Rn
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LoLo <3
If you block them and are in the same server what happens?
I don't see their messages
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Invite some of the friends here if you wanted
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No they are weird
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And I went on holiday with most of them
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So is the rest of the server
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And we know how that turned iut
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Is that going to help? If you don't see their messages at least you'll be shielded from it
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Gonna block them
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Bcs I keep getting fucking invalidated and I don't deserve it
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You deserve better than that and I'm glad you're taking the steps to take care of yourself
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Ffs actually wanna die
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Like
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Why does this person get to me so kuch
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I feel so pointless
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I let down everyone I know
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I'm genuinely a terrible person
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You base your validation from those around you not yourself. You let things people say affect you and take them to heart when in reality if you wanted advice you wouldn't go to them, you don't actually care for their opinion you just internalise their criticism because you don't want to trust your own judgement that you're worth more. You haven't let me down and you know me so by logic that can't be true, I can't comment that you're 'genuinely a terrible person' but you lift up others when they're down and always give people the option to talk to you when they have problems, you're a kind and talented person and you deserve better than you let yourself believe
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TW: SH. Will responding to the actions he done. Claiming he doesn’t have any responsibility for what he did
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notliamhyde02 07/18/2022 4:43 AM
why am i not only awake at this time but why can’t i fall asleep
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absolutely bricking myself bc the only bus that goes to my work is not appearing on the map 🙃
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I'm sure the bus will appear
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a whole slew of them got cancelled today so ahhhhh
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i love norwich public transport
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mahariel
a whole slew of them got cancelled today so ahhhhh
Ew gross, that's not helpful
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ok hopefully it will appear but i have a taxi booked just in case
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Sounds like a good plan
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going to be such a kick in the monetary nuts if this becomes a frequent thing
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mumblingmiss 07/18/2022 8:54 AM
Oh boyyy I got so many delayed assessments/reassessments to do gonna fuckin lay here and cry what the fuck. This shit got pushed bc of my mental health but now I have a month to do 5 assessments so that's not exactly helping me really. It's like they told me they can help me and then punched me in the face
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I know I only need to pass them but this is still a piss take
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The UEA owes me a pair of barbie heelys
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mahariel
going to be such a kick in the monetary nuts if this becomes a frequent thing
hopefully its just because of the heat? hope you get there all right
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mumblingmiss
Oh boyyy I got so many delayed assessments/reassessments to do gonna fuckin lay here and cry what the fuck. This shit got pushed bc of my mental health but now I have a month to do 5 assessments so that's not exactly helping me really. It's like they told me they can help me and then punched me in the face
best of luck 🫂
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hopefully its just because of the heat? hope you get there all right
yeah crisis averted, it arrived on time and i cancelled the taxi
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now just listening to metal to hype myself up to work in an office lmfao
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mumblingmiss 07/18/2022 9:21 AM
To avoid getting too stressed I will be hiding inside and I will start my reassessments when it's not fuckin 30 degrees I think that's perfectly acceptable. Girl gotta be her own doctor lmao
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yeah crisis averted, it arrived on time and i cancelled the taxi
glad to hear it, hope work goes well!!
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To avoid getting too stressed I will be hiding inside and I will start my reassessments when it's not fuckin 30 degrees I think that's perfectly acceptable. Girl gotta be her own doctor lmao
honestly fair, if there is anything that can be done to support you please say 🫂
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honestly fair, if there is anything that can be done to support you please say 🫂
mumblingmiss 07/18/2022 9:24 AM
Thank you :)))
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Missing people a lot, really need to get back to uni bcs home rn is quite toxic
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Parents keep saying things that are quite horrid
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They keep saying this isn't a hotel, you are just staying for a bit, you are free to leave at any time
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That's really crap of them to say honestly, they have no right to say that stuff to you. I hope you can come down to norwich soon
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Confessions BOT 07/18/2022 11:57 AM
Anonymous Confession (#301)
"i play it fairly loose with money but ive always been cautious to ensure i can buy the stuff my housemates often forget they need to buy (laundry pods, kitchen roll, toilet roll, bin bags etc.). its partially my fault but a few of them have got really dependent, with one of them not buying any of that stuff to my knowledge this entire year. now im struggling a bit more with money, at least until the end of this month where i can figure out where i am. but there are no laundry pods and im in the middle of doing my washing. ive put in the house group chat asking if anyone is willing to split the cost with me cause i cant afford it, and practically the only other person who sometimes remembers this stuff has offered to buy them for me. but theyre also struggling financially right now, and the only other person in the house is the one who - as far as i know - has never spent any money on stuff, and rarely cleans or anything. theyre not staying with us next year but i really feel they should be contributing, even if its my fault theyve never really felt the need to before, rsther than the other person who also buys this stuff sometimes sorry, its a bit of a rant, and i know there are better ways to deal with this. i set a precedent though that was stupid to begin with, and now my housemate who actually helps out at times is now literally paying when the one who doesnt should be. they always feel bad whenever i bring up talking directly to the housemate who doesnt do much, so i feel like i cant do anything rn"
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Love being yelled at by my dad because the wind blew a door closed
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Sorry you got shouted at
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ForestBae🎄 07/18/2022 5:06 PM
Walking in 37C heat
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Loving life
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Confessions BOT 07/18/2022 6:26 PM
Anonymous Confession (#303)
"I think I may want to get into a relationship now, I think I might be ready. Shame that the situation is too complicated so forces feelings away to avoid getting hurt"
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Have a conversation with the person you want to be in a relationship
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Who knows the situation could be sorted
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no better time than summer holidays tbh. if it goes well, v cute but if it doesn't, don't have to see them for like a month
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Confessions BOT 07/18/2022 6:39 PM
Anonymous Confession (#304)
"no just going to stay single thanks, don't want to hurt anyone anymore nor hurt myself"
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headpat hey that's alright. you do what you're comfortable with but I'm a v much "seize the moment" person with my feelings bc otherwise they stew away in my brain. do you know if they have feelings for you too?
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Either way you're clearly thinking about it if it's got to the point of talking to us about it. As someone who ignores crushes until they go away I feel you. If it's meant to be it'll be, but if you feel that strongly about them it might be worth mentioning relationships in a casual way and see how they respond before pursuing it further. Completely up to you, of course, I wish you luck whatever you decide to do!
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Confessions BOT 07/18/2022 6:57 PM
Anonymous Confession (#305)
"yes they do have feelings for me but it's a bit more complicated"
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in a sense, that makes it easier bc you know they like you BUT if it's complicated beyond that you're going to have to take the leap and talk it out I'm afraid. headpat you'll be alright kiddo, whatever you do
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notliamhyde02 07/18/2022 7:28 PM
id say just go for it and see what happens but i completely understand if you don’t
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been in the same situation myself
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It fully sucks honestly
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Confessions BOT 07/18/2022 8:10 PM
Anonymous Confession (#306)
"ngl I'm in a similar situation atm OP and I get it, it's scary. Just do what I do, feel the emotions but not act on them until it's too late and everyone moves away from you and you are alone"
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no! bad.
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talk to them, both of you dumbasses. nothing hurts like bottling up feelings
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Watch them be talking about each other
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LMAO i hope it is bc that would be a modern day rom com
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THE MUSICAL STORY
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Discord gay romance
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us rn
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Confessions BOT 07/18/2022 8:31 PM
Anonymous Confession (#308)
"I can promise you I'm not talking about the same person"
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THE MUSICAL STORY
YES WE GOT THE PLOT
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No that’s perfect actually with us making it we can do ACTUAL representation
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AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
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THAT IS ACTUALLY SO PERFECT OMG
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No that’s perfect actually with us making it we can do ACTUAL representation
No but we do need to start actually writing this nowwwww
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I’m trying to lose belly fat so I can work on my abs but I found something saying to stop eating carbs but another place says you need carbs to help build muscle. I just want to get fit but I can’t get any straight answers and when I look at where I want to get I just get frustrated. 🙄🙄🙄
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Ok from my experience
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Your diet has nothing to do with changing your appearance
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As long as you eat a healthy balanced diet (and yes, you can eat chocolate and cheese etc) and do your exercise, you will see an effect
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You need a balanced diet to actually be healthy
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So loading on one thing or ignoring something else is just dangerous
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Pretty much every diet plan doesn't work, or is based on eating tiny portions or avoiding foods seen as bad
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I’m trying to lose belly fat so I can work on my abs but I found something saying to stop eating carbs but another place says you need carbs to help build muscle. I just want to get fit but I can’t get any straight answers and when I look at where I want to get I just get frustrated. 🙄🙄🙄
Carbs are good, just in moderation
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Literally
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Cutting out carbs completely is more harmful
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Protein is good though
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Mhm, protein is the one food group in which, when trying to build muscle, is ok to eat more of
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As long as you are doing the exercise
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But diet has no effect on weight gain or lose, no compared to cardio and other exercises (I know it's difficult for you but all in moderation and you'll get there)
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I've done a couple courses in nutrition over lockdown, carbs are really important for energy, but if you're trying to build muscle it might be worth looking at the contents of the carbs; even vegetables are technically carbohydrate, I had porridge and raspberries for breakfast for a while bc oats are high in protein and raspberries as one of my 5 a day kind of thing. As for 'losing belly fat' you can't spot burn fat, but focusing on ab exercises will help
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Just got maintain a healthy balanced diet, focusing on proteins for building muscle
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Prioritise but don't eliminate. Food is good and you won't build muscle at a calorie deficit; it's important to have enough. And please be careful exercising in this heat and stop if you get light headed, passing out in the gym is not fun
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AND DRINK PLENTY OF WATER
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Water is excellent
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Water is a given,, please stay hydrated everyone!!!
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Good tips, thanks guys.
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notliamhyde02 07/18/2022 10:51 PM
ik you’re not exactly going for a body builders physique but eating carbs can be good cos you’ll build up bulk and store a lot of energy, which you then burn of during exercise
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so eating a lot of carbs and then slowly reducing them probably isn’t a bad idea (edited)
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(not completely though, but they are literally the way your body gets energy :P)
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notliamhyde02 07/18/2022 10:54 PM
oh yeah ofc
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Confessions BOT 07/18/2022 11:47 PM
Anonymous Confession (#309)
"Kinda coming to terms with the face I don’t have any proper close friends. I just feel lonely all the time and there’s nothing I can do about it at the moment. I know I speak to people in this server but we’ve never actually met and I don’t actually have a close relationship with anyone. Idk what the point of this vent is, just needed to think someone would read this."
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Heyyy op I’m here for you ❤️
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If you wanna talk I’m here
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I think I have met everyone on the server ehre as well?
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I haven't met everyone here irl but from those I have you're lovely 🥺
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exhausted, v much need to sleep but i don't want to bc i want some free time to myself and not skip to getting up for work tomorrow lol
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Ugh heat bad. Feel sticky :(
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Tips for heat. Keep a jug of icy water near by with a fruit flavouring if you so desire. A fan is a good way to create an artificial cool breeze. A cool shower in the morning is a great way to refresh yourself in the morning. Keep all your upstairs windows open but the blinds 2/3 shut to keep the sun out. Keep to the side of the house that the sun sun shining on. As much as I hate to say it comfort outweighs fashion in this heat. At night a fan is your best friend. Personally I sleep with the covers of with the fan rotating around me, PJ’s are optional in this heat. This is my short guide for when you are in heat. ☺
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good tips ty
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More of a funny joke for me to practice my literacy skills but you’re welcome all the same.
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Confessions BOT 07/19/2022 11:29 AM
Anonymous Confession (#310)
"I forgot you were raped okay well I wish I could maybe you shouldn't be joking about it anyway to someone you're sleeping with I fucking trusted you I thought you were a safe person I could let my guard down with who accepted that I have trauma and was helping me work through it but I can't even express that to you because you have to be the one to start the conversation or I look like I'm clutching at straws"
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I am always down to meet new people and make new friends BCS until like March, I was in the same position for my whole life so feel free to reach out
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Anyone else feel really sick the past few days? Idk if it's the weather or if there's something wrong with me
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Oh no, I'm sorry you've been feeling like that
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Is it maybe the heat?
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I don't know it's just annoying, gets worse when I drink anything which makes hydration interesting lol
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That's really sucky, I'm sorry
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Just take care fo yourself as best you can
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Anyone else feel really sick the past few days? Idk if it's the weather or if there's something wrong with me
You sound dehydrated. You need to have a drink every hour or two hours if you can.
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God I feel awful, the heat, dysphoria, I've had to lend my mum £50 even though I've got less than £200 to last me until student finance. I've also upset my friend accidentally and I'm anxious and so much trauma stuff is making a reappearance and just bleh, I am not doing great rn hom(o/ie - delete as appropriate)s
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Slightly dumb, but I actually hate my skin so much. Since I was like 11, I've never had clear skin and it really had a big effect on my self-esteem. I'm going to be 20 soon and I still don't have the skin I hoped I would have. It has calmed down a lot, and I take care of my skin really well, but it still pisses me off that literally everyone has perfect skin and then there's me. Just upsets me ig
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i know its probably not much consolation, but i dont think most people have perfect skin. still, i hope you feel better and your skin gets to the point you want 🫂
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Oh my god im so fucking unmedicated, i need to be given something, this cannot be what life is. I havent had a drink or a smoke in over a month. Ive got no painkillers and ive got no caffiene in my system. This isbwhy humanity ate random shit back in the early days, this is how shrooms were discovered
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I'm sorry you are going through that, that sounds truly awful
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notliamhyde02 07/19/2022 5:39 PM
god that’s so dry
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fuck man hang in there
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Not even got tea in the house? Diy iced tea?
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I could have caffiene but im home alone and I am not pouring boiling hot water when im standing on one leg. I trust my balance but I dont trust it that much
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Confessions BOT 07/19/2022 5:54 PM
Anonymous Confession (#311)
"This is defo more of a positive-vibes type post but thanks to the hot weather I've basically been wearing only underwear around the house (no housemates about dw) and it was the first time I noticed my abs/v muscles coming in! I normally don't really look at my body, but if there is any upside to the heatwave, is that it made me see my body and not hate it for the first time in ages."
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OMG THAT'S FANTASTIC
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I'm so pleased for you 💜
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congrats OP, that's awesome news. get those gains bc you're going to look absolutely great 💪🏽😎
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I could have caffiene but im home alone and I am not pouring boiling hot water when im standing on one leg. I trust my balance but I dont trust it that much
🫂🫂 I'm sorry I can't do anything to help
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🫂🫂 I'm sorry I can't do anything to help
Didnt expect you too but thanks ❤ Vents is for vents y'kno 🙃
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You know I would if I could, I'd drive to you and pour you a cup of coffee if it wasn't 400 degrees
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Confessions BOT 07/19/2022 7:07 PM
Anonymous Confession (#312)
"can't stand the thought of them so why am I still so invested in their wellbeing and whether they're thinking of me too?"
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Sometimes making long term attachments, it becomes difficult to detach from the original person
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Over time, you'll unattach from them and you'll have peace of mind again
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every time i see how round my face looks or how my legs look on camera i die inside lol
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ik my mother will make comments on how much weight I've gained when my family come over for my graduation next week. v excited to use up a whole day of my annual leave being unimaginably stressed and insulted/shouted at constantly. if my photos don't look good enough for them, it'll be a fun night i guess
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also no alcohol or nicotine the entire time I'm with them so uhhh i hope the withdrawals don't hit too hard
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Have you got anyone you know graduating the same day? Maybe you can stick with them a bit so you don't have to spend too much time one on one with your family
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It sounds horrible though, I'm really sorry:( I'd come along and support you if I could
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ah unfortunately they will throw a fit if i don't spend the whole time with them. they don't approve of any of my friends who are the graduating at the same time either
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It sounds horrible though, I'm really sorry:( I'd come along and support you if I could
i really appreciate it 🫂 I'll most likely block them out of my hearing for a lot of it
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selective hearing is the only skill i gained from listening to my parents constantly scream at each other while I'm at home lol
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That doesn't sound entirely healthy but I'm glad you have a way through it
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At least with the documents going through and you being able to work and all you won't have to go back and stay with them anymore
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Hope you manage to get away and have a sneaky vape atleast a couple times
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selective hearing, social anxiety, people pleasing, general distrust that people are being authentic with me. it's an interesting cocktail of mummy and daddy issues
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Parental trauma cocktail...that's gotta be one of your concoctions right? Something that gets you absolutely fucked
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At least with the documents going through and you being able to work and all you won't have to go back and stay with them anymore
haha you're right. i should really focus on the net positives that have been happening recently. my emotional state has just been a whirlwind of fucked up for the past couple of days. i don't think that molly comedown happened right so my sense of feeling kind of feels,,, broken? idk it's v weird. I'm in the same state of numbness as i was on sunday and it's a little scary
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Parental trauma cocktail...that's gotta be one of your concoctions right? Something that gets you absolutely fucked
LMAO sounds like i need to mix the recipes for A Short Trip to Hell and The Vasectomy into some super-awful cocktail
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haha you're right. i should really focus on the net positives that have been happening recently. my emotional state has just been a whirlwind of fucked up for the past couple of days. i don't think that molly comedown happened right so my sense of feeling kind of feels,,, broken? idk it's v weird. I'm in the same state of numbness as i was on sunday and it's a little scary
I couldn't comment on the molly but with everything going on in your world recently numbness wouldn't be beyond the realms of your brain trying to protect you from the whirlwind that has been. Be kind to yourself, you've dealt with a lot and got through it, now you get to have the good bit, graduated uni and have a job with people you seem to get on well with. That's amazing!! Just do what you can when you can and don't stress too much, I'm sure the feels will come back soon, it's too hot to care about too much right now anyway
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LMAO sounds like i need to mix the recipes for A Short Trip to Hell and The Vasectomy into some super-awful cocktail
Add absinthe and set it on fire
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I couldn't comment on the molly but with everything going on in your world recently numbness wouldn't be beyond the realms of your brain trying to protect you from the whirlwind that has been. Be kind to yourself, you've dealt with a lot and got through it, now you get to have the good bit, graduated uni and have a job with people you seem to get on well with. That's amazing!! Just do what you can when you can and don't stress too much, I'm sure the feels will come back soon, it's too hot to care about too much right now anyway
you're so fucking good at giving advice and helping people holy shit. this is v reassuring and you're right, i just need to focus on work and getting through the rest of this
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Add absinthe and set it on fire
absinthe, my detested
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ok searched it up and people (reddit hehe) report feeling numb for a couple weeks-months after having a v v bad molly trip. hope mine doesn't last v long but the advice seems to be to uhhh not do any more molly for a year
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I'm not trying to give advice ik this is vent I'm just trying to make sure people feel seen and like not alone which sometimes just sounds like a you-should-do-this but I am by no means telling you what to do, just trying to give you a hug through the screen <33
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yeah i understand, it's v sweet
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ok searched it up and people (reddit hehe) report feeling numb for a couple weeks-months after having a v v bad molly trip. hope mine doesn't last v long but the advice seems to be to uhhh not do any more molly for a year
Is there a way to take smaller doses? I get that with addiction stop isn't always possible but take care of you!!!
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i do feel seen and it's nice. not screaming into the void so much you know?
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Is there a way to take smaller doses? I get that with addiction stop isn't always possible but take care of you!!!
oh no, molly isn't chemically addictive so I'm not worried about that. it's just that I'm usually quite emotionally volatile but now I'm neither particularly happy about things happening to me nor annoyed/angry. it's like emotional exhaustion
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emotional exhaustion + only anxiety as my main feelings about literally anything. no heart skipping with joy or super-depression which is how my mood used to swing before. did this shit comedown?? work as an anti-depressant and wipe my personality?? lmfao
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but i swear I'm fine, dw about me. It’s quite confusing though
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Turn off your alarms on Saturday morning and let your body sleep as long as it needs, then drink as much water as you can when you wake up. That should reset your sleeping patterns after all this heat and make sure you're hydrated properly. You're emotionally and probably physically exhausted, take your advice with drinking the juice and hope for the best? I don't know, I hope you're alright tho, maybe it wouldn't be the worst thing if it lasts until graduation so you don't care what your family are saying but if it affects your headspace around graduation itself maybe not like you'd at least want to remember it right? Idk
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Turn off your alarms on Saturday morning and let your body sleep as long as it needs, then drink as much water as you can when you wake up. That should reset your sleeping patterns after all this heat and make sure you're hydrated properly. You're emotionally and probably physically exhausted, take your advice with drinking the juice and hope for the best? I don't know, I hope you're alright tho, maybe it wouldn't be the worst thing if it lasts until graduation so you don't care what your family are saying but if it affects your headspace around graduation itself maybe not like you'd at least want to remember it right? Idk
thanks darling, you're right with all of this and i feel like I'll definitely be out like a light for most of the weekend. should be good to finally rest for a bit
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im sorry youre having to deal with so much, but i hope graduation is somewhat enjoyable at the very least, you deserve to be congratulated and celebrate 🫂
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thank you sm, that's so sweet of you
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ForestBae🎄 07/20/2022 12:03 AM
If the warmth isn’t keeping me awake, the racing in the streets will
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Once again
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Me: gets bit by ant in three places
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Me: opens drawer to find my germalene
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Me: FINDS THIS AND STARTS CRYING
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Oop time for Arson. Burn that shit baby (edited)
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ForestBae🎄 07/20/2022 2:01 AM
Eh just wanted to ask do u wanna burn it?
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Cause I need some kindling for a bonfires at some point this week
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burn it
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ForestBae🎄 07/20/2022 2:02 AM
IfritArson
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I do I guess
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It just
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Hits a wave of hurt
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🫂 feel it but don't let it consume you or ruin your night
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ForestBae🎄 07/20/2022 3:14 AM
I have a 9am tomorrow and I have not rested as all
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RIP, I hope you manage to atleast get some rest
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notliamhyde02 07/20/2022 8:35 AM
icl i did struggle to read it
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Confessions BOT 07/20/2022 9:58 AM
Anonymous Confession (#314)
"am I gonna get friendzoned by my crush, again for like the 3 time this academic year? Been different people each crush. Ideally no, realistically yeah."
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it can hurt, but id say its always worth trying just in case
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i think most people are mature enough to respect someone having a crush on them and try to make things as comfortable as people, regardless of whatever they respond with
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This is very true, and if they’re not mature about it, that gives you an indication as to what they’re like anyway
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yeah being an adult means you should just talk openly about your feelings
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sometimes i feel like im really not doing enough, no matter what excuses i make just feels like i should be doing more
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You're allowed to not be productive all the time, especially right now. It's summer, everyone's too hot to be doing shit allow your body and mind some time to just exist, you're allowed, it's arguably just as productive as doing Things anyway, especially right nwo
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Still to hot to fucking do anything I actually like here Fucking bored and frustrated as hell
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Mild medical tw, mentions of surgery and healing, just an ankle update really Ankle is feeling stronger which is good! But its making me more and more impatient to walk again. I'm still on no weight bearing so doctors would be very grumpy if I tried anything. The reason this is in vents is the skin irritation. I havent been able to wash my leg for over a month, in this heat, my skin is suffering, I can feel spots and irritation. The surgery scar tissue is starting to dry which is an important step for healing but.....its INSANELY itchy. I have been scratching the odd itch using a chopstick but I cant go near the surgery wound because its got a dressing on it. Oh and the adhesive of the dressing has been pulling on leg hair since day 1 which SUCKS. Im just getting fed up with it at this point. Im 2 weeks off from getting it removed and hopefully getting a walking boot. But it'll be my surgeons call when he looks at it in clinic. Ive got an extra screw in the leg the bones which will need to be removed so ive got to have another procedure for that which means MORE recovery. I just dont have the energy to be thinking about that rn though. Im excited for my placement, good things are coming. But they really are taking their fucking time :( (edited)
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and you fucking bet I'll be posting badass scar pictures. Im telling idiots it was a fucking lion attack or some shit lmao
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That really does suck Ewan, I’m sorry that you’re dealing with that atm. Sending all of my positive energy and thoughts your way for a speedy recovery 💕
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hope you feel better soon ❤
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and you fucking bet I'll be posting badass scar pictures. Im telling idiots it was a fucking lion attack or some shit lmao
honestly wouldnt be surprised if people beleived it, sounds like the kinda chaotic thing youd find yourself doing
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To be fair yeah
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But god I'm so sorry I hadn't even thought about that but in this heat having a goth leg you can't take off can't be pleasant even I've reverted to pastel goth in this:(
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Confessions BOT 07/21/2022 1:40 PM
Anonymous Confession (#316)
"did I see my ex on someone's Instagram story just now and I'm already in a very fragile state and now all the guilt has come.back.and I don't want to have any friends nor my current feelings towards people, I also don't want to exist rn. Why is he still affecting me so much"
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I'm so sorry you're having to deal with that OP, I know you said you don't want friends but we're here to support you if you want ❤️ regardless of what you say, you deserve to be supported and cared for
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Mild medical tw, mentions of surgery and healing, just an ankle update really Ankle is feeling stronger which is good! But its making me more and more impatient to walk again. I'm still on no weight bearing so doctors would be very grumpy if I tried anything. The reason this is in vents is the skin irritation. I havent been able to wash my leg for over a month, in this heat, my skin is suffering, I can feel spots and irritation. The surgery scar tissue is starting to dry which is an important step for healing but.....its INSANELY itchy. I have been scratching the odd itch using a chopstick but I cant go near the surgery wound because its got a dressing on it. Oh and the adhesive of the dressing has been pulling on leg hair since day 1 which SUCKS. Im just getting fed up with it at this point. Im 2 weeks off from getting it removed and hopefully getting a walking boot. But it'll be my surgeons call when he looks at it in clinic. Ive got an extra screw in the leg the bones which will need to be removed so ive got to have another procedure for that which means MORE recovery. I just dont have the energy to be thinking about that rn though. Im excited for my placement, good things are coming. But they really are taking their fucking time :( (edited)
Ive manage to avoid pressure sores as far as I can tell so thats positive but like....ew leg
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Sometimes this stuff can come back at the worst moments and really mess with you. I’m sorry you’re feeling like this, let us know if we can do anything to help ❤️ maybe shut off social media for a bit so you can focus on yourself, maybe restrict that friend’s Instagram story in case that happens again if you think that might help. Have a glass of water and breathe, you’re going to be okay ❤️
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Confessions BOT 07/21/2022 1:51 PM
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"I don't even know why I am still friends with her, all she does in my social media is be a reminder that my ex exists. Also doesn't help that I just remembered how I was invalidated so much the past week so gonna be a really shit day"
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Op if it feels better to remove her than do it
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It’s worth it trust me
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I don’t know the context of your past week but 🫂 I’m sorry you’re going through it op Please know that if you’re on this server it’s bc you are wanted here, your feelings are valid, your pain is understandable. You’re loved, you’re worthy, we’re here for you. My DMs are open if you want to talk but I’d completely understand if you just want to turn off your phone for today. I hope you feel better soon ❤️
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Does anyone want to come over for cuddles? I've got cramps from hell and feel like shit and just wanna be held
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im sorry :( hope you feel better soon 🫂
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I wish i was close enough to come hug you, hope you feel better soon
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you're getting a whole lot of hugs when you get back to norwich
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me: cuts my lunch break in half so i can leave work half an hour early bus: is late for 30 minutes 😐
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Confessions BOT 07/21/2022 7:40 PM
Anonymous Confession (#318)
"I keep seeing these people and they aren't there and it's very very scary"
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Confessions BOT 07/21/2022 7:53 PM
Anonymous Confession (#319)
"love not feeling safe because my brain has created a new terrifying scenario for me, like if I die, I will not be surprised"
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Hey it will be okay op
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That’s terrifying I’m so sorry op 🫂 are you eating/drinking/sleeping enough? @ both of you idk if you’re the same person 🫂
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Confessions BOT 07/21/2022 8:00 PM
Anonymous Confession (#320)
"I'm eating and everything is ok, my brain just really hates me and gives me this terrifying hallucinations"
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i sometimes get these too under extreme stress so i hope things aren't too much in your life rn. i would see a doctor or mental health professional about this though. hallucinations are a big deal
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Confessions BOT 07/21/2022 8:43 PM
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"I refuse to see a doctor about this, I'm fine"
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Anonymous Confession (#322)
"I had a great day yesterday, and then got really really triggered this morning and now it feels like someone is cutting my skin off in little chunks and then the things that were following me are now hiding on my walk back from where I currently am and I will get attacked. I'm so scared and in so much pain"
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kind of worried about you OP bc, respectfully, this does not sound fine
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Can you call someone on your way home so you feel safer?
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Confessions BOT 07/21/2022 8:57 PM
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"I promise I am, I'm just very scared and in a lot of pain. It'll pass though"
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"I could call people, but a) imposter syndrome, b) don't wanna bother anyone since I know it's irrational and c) I just don't wanna exist lmao"
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My number is here
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07483839303
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Ring me
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Whenever you need
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^ that goes for anyone who is too scared to walk home alone, I’m here if you need me. (Or even if you’d rather text than talk over discord DM I completely get it and I’ll get back to you when I can) I can’t promise to always be by the phone but if I’m free I’ll pick up and talk as long as you need. I hope you get to somewhere you feel safe op, please take care of yourself 💗
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notliamhyde02 07/21/2022 10:32 PM
nerves are kicking in for my shift tomorrow
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really hope it goes well
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Just go with the flow and be your lovely self. It's a trial so they won't expect you to know everything straight off
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Hospital sent me a letter about my appointment and its not for another month which means I will be in CUMBRIA on placement before i see this fucking doctor. So uuuhhh gonna be calling these fuckers tomorrow to get that shit rearranged
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So in a biy of a shit mood tonight gang
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Send memes and good vibes if you would be so kind
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This for the getting the goth leg off and the boot on?? I thought that was in a week or so? Fuck Ewan I'm so sorry that doesn't make any sense
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Yeah, i went to a clinic on July 6th and was told "thursday in 4 weeks time" which makes it August 4th. The letter is saying my appointment is August 18th. I cannot be in casts for 2 months. (Hyperbolic rage abour doctor) I will cut the cunt off and take a screwdriver to my leg to get the screw out myself before I let that happen. Or maybe I'll go for the SAW approach and just remove by ankle entirely, that'll fix it fucking quicker but yeah im just pissed about this shit because the hospital have fucked me once already by giving me the wrong appointment after I first had surgery and now theyre trying to fuck me again and I will not let it happen
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Yeah I remember them asking you to fast then giving you the surgery the day after but 2 extra weeks is just excessive
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Also telling you one thing then doing another what if you had made plans around it
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I mean tbf you kinda have
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Yeah so I'll be calling them tomorroe to bitch about this shit
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im so sorry, hope they sort it tomorrow, theyre just adding stress onto something that really doesnt need anymore :/
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nerves are kicking in for my shift tomorrow
I promise you it'll be ok, just keep calm, be as friendly as you can and you'll be fine ❤️
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best of luck 🫂
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Confessions BOT 07/21/2022 11:46 PM
Anonymous Confession (#325)
"ok OP from the whole thing earlier, I completely blacked out for the past two hours I think, not entirely sure and can't remember most of it, but I'm all good now"
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Glad you're feeling better op ❤️
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i had the most disturbing dreams last night. and i keep waking up randomly with really bad cramps in my neck or legs (edited)
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i HATE being alive
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The 26a is literally the worst bus, do not miss it. Sorry you have to deal with that, public transport is so bad right now
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i had the most disturbing dreams last night. and i keep waking up randomly with really bad cramps in my neck or legs (edited)
i hope youre okay and feel better soon, sorry youve had to deal with that 🫂
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Love having my self esteem eroded by an insecure man who can’t deal with my healthy coping mechanism being wearing clothes I like and doing makeup properly bc spending time with me when I look like that makes him uncomfortable Thanks a lot dad now I feel worse with guilt on top
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Sorry you’re dealing with that Lo, you do not deserve that but remember that his feelings is not your problem to reconcile. Those are his issues. You look fabulous honey and you should know that and own it because god damn it life is too short to spend it appeasing other people and comforting their reactions to ourselves. Screw that! You are FIERCE!!
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Confessions BOT 07/22/2022 2:48 PM
Anonymous Confession (#329)
"tw: self harm I hurt myself yesterday after my SA try to message me and im so angry and disappointed. im getting better so I wish that asshole would go away so my brain would stop trying to make me lose so much progress"
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Sorry you’re dealing with that Lo, you do not deserve that but remember that his feelings is not your problem to reconcile. Those are his issues. You look fabulous honey and you should know that and own it because god damn it life is too short to spend it appeasing other people and comforting their reactions to ourselves. Screw that! You are FIERCE!!
Thank you, I needed that 🫂🥰
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I’m so sorry op 🫂 if you don’t have any reason to need to stay in contact with this person maybe consider reducing your contact with them or even blocking them if you feel confident to do that. I’m proud of you for taking care of yourself, progress isn’t linear and sometimes relapses happen but the important thing is that you recognise how they make you feel and protect yourself accordingly. I hope you’re feeling better ❤️🫂
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I’m sorry OP, as Lo said, progress isn’t linear and remember that you’re amazing and that asshole is the lowlife. Delete delete delete! Rise up my love ❤️
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notliamhyde02 07/22/2022 5:03 PM
got a nervous tummy :(
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i hate it
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haven’t got to be there until 6 but fucking brickin it rn
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Best thing to do, go to the toilet, drink some water
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And then just try and breathe
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notliamhyde02 07/22/2022 5:58 PM
so i’ve been told to come back tomorrow cos they’re really busy and really short staffed
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at this point im debating whether it’s gonna be worth it now
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Ah that sucks
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notliamhyde02 07/22/2022 5:59 PM
i mean it’s not entirely their fault (edited)
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cos obv can’t help with being ill (edited)
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but i rang them on saturday
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got told to come in on tuesday
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came in today
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and now have to go back tomorrow
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Well hopefully midweek it'll be quiet and you'll get the chance for your trial shift
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I'm sorry they are messing you around, but don't take it as they don't want you
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Sometimes shit happens
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We all still love you and support you and supporting this journey
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now that i don't have work to distract me, I'm getting kind of overwhelmed by my thoughts. don't like this v much
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notliamhyde02 07/22/2022 8:35 PM
don’t you hate it when you’re sat in bed and suddenly your stomach goes “you know what? you haven’t shat yourself in a while…” (edited)
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luckily i made it to the toilet in time but what the fuck
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Confessions BOT 07/22/2022 8:36 PM
Anonymous Confession (#330)
"most mentally unstable person you know: I'm going to do a powerful hallucinogenic drug this weekend!"
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OP pls stay safe
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Confessions BOT 07/22/2022 9:58 PM
Anonymous Confession (#331)
"welp, my crush isnt mutual. so time to destroy and burry any romatic feelings for a while again"
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hope youre okay ❤️
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here if you need to talk
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I'm sorry, you'll be ok
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mumblingmiss 07/22/2022 9:59 PM
Feel you OP, hope you're okay darlin
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Always sucks to go through, hope you're doing alright OP
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At least now you know. I hope you’re okay op 💗 here for you if you need
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im really concerned about how i percieve and process emotions sometimes
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Confessions BOT 07/22/2022 11:16 PM
Anonymous Confession (#333)
"My shitty superpower is caring far too much about people who don't give a shit about me."
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I'm sorry OP, that really sucks
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He doesn't deserve happiness nor opportunity. How dare he do all this and pretend like I'm the evil one...wait, am I?
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I don't know the context but knowing you I'm gonna have to go with no
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He pisses of me off so much, he twisted everyone into thinking I'm evil, he got the house, he got the friends, he got the opportunity,.all I got was just more mental health problems
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You do have somewhere to live, right? I'd invite you to live with us but we have our 5th housemate but if you're struggling and need somewhere to stay until you find a place in Norwich you can come and stay at mine??
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Oh no, I do have somewhere to live, a friend of a friend had a spare room so I'm moving in there
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Thank you though, that's really kind
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I promise not every relationship ends like that, I appreciate yours wasn't exactly healthy but coming from someone who's friends with almost all their exes it isn't always like that
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I'm glad you've got a place to stay though, I can imagine that's stressful as fuck on top of a breakup and strained mutual friendships
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Thank you
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Dad just shouted at me bcs I don't want him to help me move my stuff into my new house, I can fit the bare essentials into my car for the first week and I just want freedom and he's taking it as offence that I don't want his help and now he's just shouting at me, I hate it here, I just want freedom. It's great he wants to help but it is also like...too much, I need space and to do my own thing bcs I just yeah I'm not making much sense and sorry I keep typing in this channel, it's very superficial, sorry
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I get it genuinely
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Fucking sucks
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thepuppymuffin 07/23/2022 1:24 PM
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Confessions BOT 07/23/2022 3:11 PM
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"I wish I'd stop getting comments about my eating, I already have disordered eating issues and now I just don't want to eat"
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hope youre okay OP :(
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Confessions BOT 07/23/2022 3:47 PM
Anonymous Confession (#347)
"Saw an old friend the other day and he told me I'm in a position in my life that a lot of people envy. I know he's right so why am I still miserable? It seems like no matter what I do, I still end up dissociating alone somewhere. Yesterday I walked down to a spot where I go to think and then my sense of reality... melted? I've walked those paths a million times before but I kept getting lost and running into dead ends. Ended up sobbing in a field near midnight before attempting to get home. Kept going in circles because my brain couldn't figure out any sense of direction. Started walking towards my old house before backtracking again and eventually finding the road to my new place. The entire time at the end, I wanted to sit down right in the middle of the motorway."
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I'm so sorry OP, you don't deserve to feel like that and have to deal with that
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If you need to talk, I'm always available
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And dissociation is really scary, I understand how it can affect you, and the best thing is to call someone or talk to a friend if you get like that because you may lose control or do things you don't intend to do
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Confessions BOT 07/23/2022 4:10 PM
Anonymous Confession (#348)
"I just want to be happy again. And in control of my mind and emotions. It's not in my nature to hurt anyone else so I'm not worried about that. It's more that I have almost everything I could ever want at this stage and none of it seems to be making a dent in my overwhelming sadness. I have tried every remedy and substance and care tactic I, or anyone else, could think of and it's not working. I'm going through the motions of being a functional person and everyone who looks at me probably sees success in areas they're still working on. I'm a deeply private person and the only people who I could talk to about any of this without sugarcoating are too far away or don't want to speak to me anymore. My other friends try and I appreciate them deeply but I can't reveal much of what's been eating at me. It’s not their fault, it's just how I am. I suppose I just want someone else to care for me like how I stretch myself to my bare bones to care for them."
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OP I’m so sorry you’ve been dealing with the emotions by yourself
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Maybe it’s worth talking one of your friends and explaining how you feel, bcs you deserve the same amount of care you give out (edited)
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It also may be worth talking to a doctor regarding your sadness, if you haven’t already
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But I’m happy to talk as well, if you ever want to vent or just go and do something to try and cheer yourself up
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Will (he/they) 07/23/2022 4:40 PM
snake friend had to go to urgent care because of injury (attached and spoilered) and i’m not happy. i’m nervous waiting on the phone call from the vet because i’m scared they’ll say something about how i’m taking care of him
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notliamhyde02 07/23/2022 4:56 PM
right going back to the pub in an hour
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and if anything goes wrong just gonna leave it
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Good luck!!!
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notliamhyde02 07/23/2022 4:57 PM
i’m hoping that itll be quiet and ill actually be able to stay for a trial
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It's highly unlikely they'll send you away again
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notliamhyde02 07/23/2022 4:57 PM
ik ik
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i’m also hoping that if i do get it they won’t want me tomorrow cos i’m going to a friends house for her bday
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i mean i won’t miss out on all of it if i have to stay but still (edited)
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Just explain you have plans for Sunday if they do, they'll understand
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notliamhyde02 07/23/2022 4:58 PM
yeah ok
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also not free this monday either but i don’t think they’re open mondays anyways
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It's understandable, they'll get it
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notliamhyde02 07/23/2022 4:59 PM
just got a nervous tummy again
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You'll be ok
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Go to the toilet, drink some water if you can
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Take some deep breaths
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Just smile, be friendly and just ask if you need help
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every time i talk to my mother i want to smash my phone against a wall. tw: sh I've taken to tearing at my arms with my nails instead so i don't break my phone but ow (edited)
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im here for you
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if you need anything
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it's just a constant cycle of: talk to mother -> get extremely hurt and angrier than i ever get with anyone -> hurt myself to release some of them and stay calm on the line -> bunch of blood that i have to clean up
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Oh I'm so sorry 🫂
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can't pin all the blame on my mother for my nicotine addiction but it's either start smoking while talking to her multiple times a day or, well, hurt myself
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she calls me multiple times a day and throughout the night bc of the most unnecessary shit and gets angry if i don't answer straight away. won't accept that i can't take calls at work or that I'm asleep. then she starts guilt-tripping me about how i must hate her, how she's going to die soon bc of my actions, how she's going to not come to my graduation or any other event or ever speak to me again. all over the most arbitrary reasons or shift in tone that she perceives as malicious. it's a v fun mix of growing up with my father telling me he'll kill me and my mother telling me she'll kill herself if i don't make them happy
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idk sorry for dumping all this v heavy shit here. can't seem to talk to anyone else
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Bro it’s a vent channel this is what it’s for
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I’m so sorry this is happening to you
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I think if it comes to it smoking is a healthier coping mechanism and if that’s what you have to do to get through it that’s what you have to do to get through it
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I’m here for you, I’m so fucking sorry 🫂🫂
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i hate hate hate that my upbringing has made me so bad with interacting with people i love. i can see that I'm emulating my mother by being overly clingy and thinking someone hates me if they don't respond to me or keep me at a distance. god I'm such a people pleaser and go out of my way to make sure they aren't mad at me. if someone is angry with me or if i feel like I've ruined their fun, i pretty much fold into a massive pit of self-hatred until they tell me the opposite. it seems to make relationships and the like almost impossible
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I'm so scared of ever starting a family bc what if i end up acting like either of my parents? i have most of their issues already and i try to keep them at bay but idk if I'll manage to not become them
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Your very feeling that way is what will stop you from behaving like that
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Ok I can promise you that you will learn from your parents and this pain will make you a much better parent (literally proven in psychology of attachment so trust me)
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I'm really sorry you have to deal with all of this, you don't deserve it. You are your own person, a kind, supportive and brilliant person, and you should never have to worry about not being one. But as Lo said, the fact you feel this way and worry about this stuff shows that you would never let it end up like that, and you will always try to be the best person you can be at any given time, even if awful things effect that. We're here for you if you ever want a chat, distraction or anything. I really hope you feel better soon 🫂
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^^ if you need anything, just let us know, always around for people 🫂💜
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I’m so sorry that you have to deal with that Jory, that’s so unfair on you. You are not responsible for other people’s insecurities, you are loved, you are enough. My dm’s are open if you need, I don’t get notifications other than text messages as it stops me being too obsessed with my phone but I do check regularly enough. 🫂💕
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mumblingmiss 07/23/2022 7:02 PM
My supposed best mate Brodie saying "you don't need to come out or tell anyone like others do, you're only asexual so nobody has to know" boy if u don't shut tf up 😡👊
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Confessions BOT 07/23/2022 7:37 PM
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"I really get what the other OP was saying. I don't want to blame my parents entirely for the way that I am but it's made me so avoidant and terrified of love that anytime someone shows love to me I'm worried that they'll abuse me, or worse, i'll abuse them. Really makes relationships hard when someone says they love you and all you want to do is never see them again in case you hurt them or they hurt you."
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Not be to all psychology student, but parents give you an idea of what relationships and friendships should be, and if you haven't got a positive idea, the best thing to do is surround yourself with positive people and friends and eventually, you'll recondition to knowing what love really is
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And I know this is true because I am currently going through this myself, learning what real friends and relationships are
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Also if you have a bad relationship with your parents the natural thing to want to do is to be as different from that as you can when you realise it’s unhealthy. Sure that’s easier said than done but if you know what you don’t want it’s easier to work for what you do
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If either of you want to talk, my DM is always open
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Also if you have a bad relationship with your parents the natural thing to want to do is to be as different from that as you can when you realise it’s unhealthy. Sure that’s easier said than done but if you know what you don’t want it’s easier to work for what you do
This is also very true
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If either of you want to talk, my DM is always open
Same here ❤️
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thank you, all of you. talking to you guys (+ bran's hugs) has really helped. I've been an absolute state today and last night and it's quite taxing
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I'll keep what you've said in mind and i think my insecurities just got the better of me
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Anytime, always here for you
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Good vent. I can’t stop eating pickled onion monster claws. I just did a workout and am now starving, kinda missing the point of working out. 😂
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Good vent. I can’t stop eating pickled onion monster claws. I just did a workout and am now starving, kinda missing the point of working out. 😂
notliamhyde02 07/23/2022 9:56 PM
you need energy 🤷
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Mhm it's a valid thing to eat
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I’m on my 7th packet tho 😂😭
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That...might be too many bestie
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But they’re so good tho!
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Honestly if you are hungry, there's no harm
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Usually if you’re craving something there’s a reason, no harm in listening to your body!
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Now on my 9th packet 😂
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notliamhyde02 07/23/2022 10:26 PM
munch munch munch
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ForestBae🎄 07/23/2022 11:46 PM
yeanyaeatingpeanuts
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I love this!
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ForestBae🎄 07/24/2022 12:34 AM
Why do feelings be complicated and annoying
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And so hard to kill off
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Also spiders in my bed
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ForestBae🎄
Also spiders in my bed
They are friends, they want you to stop feeling lonely 💖
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ForestBae🎄 07/24/2022 12:39 AM
They unfortunately cannot give me the hugs I’m craving
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Also love that I now associate hugs and cuddles with my crush
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Need to kill that thought process off
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I am experiencing symptoms ✌ Apparently that is the kind of night I'll be having tonight
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Are you okay?
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Yes and no. Its the usual insomnia but I experiencing some spicy physical feelings which I have not experienced before. I dont want to call it hallucinating but it might be audiotry and sensory hallucinating so hmmm 🤔
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Babe wake up, my paranoia and insomnia are tag teaming my sleep deprived ass. New symptoms just dropped 😂
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Have you ever tried the military falling asleep tactic?
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Ive tried almost every trick in the book and unfortunately none of them work on a regular basis
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Okay the seeing out the back of your head thing sounds kinda cool if you took it out of context but yeah I can imagine that's quite bizarre. As for a rustling idk where you are but presuming it's not been that way until now tho it probably won't suddenly be windyish outside loudly enough for you to hear it in your room. My friend has pretty bad insomnia and listens to music to sleep idk if that would help you or if anyone but he could sleep to acdc but it's a tactic I know works for him>
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LoLo <3
Okay the seeing out the back of your head thing sounds kinda cool if you took it out of context but yeah I can imagine that's quite bizarre. As for a rustling idk where you are but presuming it's not been that way until now tho it probably won't suddenly be windyish outside loudly enough for you to hear it in your room. My friend has pretty bad insomnia and listens to music to sleep idk if that would help you or if anyone but he could sleep to acdc but it's a tactic I know works for him>
Thank you, I often use asmr but fancied some quiet tonight. That hasnt worked out great 😂
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Eeeeen
Ive tried almost every trick in the book and unfortunately none of them work on a regular basis
Valid, the military one is kind of like a system reboot and forces your body and mind to relax. I mean it does with mine 🤷🏼
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It’s like whispering to myself “fall asleep Roux”
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Also, if you’re struggling to sleep. Sometimes getting up and doing a thing can be good instead of continuing to lie there, listening to the sounds etc
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Often when I really can’t sleep, I get up and like fold some laundry or clean something, organise something
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Idk, maybe none of those suggestions will work for you but I hope you manage to get to sleep soon
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Thank yoouu
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ITS NOT DELUSIONAL PARANOIA!!!
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There was a 2 inch house spider crawling around in the bag of rubbish I had near my bed and it was causing super gentle rustling that I kept hearing!!!
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PICS
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OMG BABEY
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I yeeted her across the room sorry :(
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Spider hisss
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As you should
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That's valid given the circumstances
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Spider hisss
Spider cute
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Shes was big and she was frightened and I am unable to manouvre myself to the window to put her outside so she got yeeted somewhere her noise wont bother me
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Cannot believe a spider actually cause me to think I had slipped further into insanity. Good lord my psyche is so fragile this night that an eight legged wonder nearly brought me to the brink of despair
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01:26
I know 90% of us are going to hell but if you have any deities you like im begging y'all to pray for me 😂 (edited)
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I am in a way very glad that there was indeed a spider causing those noises, hope you managed to get some sleep after that 🫂
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Eeeeen
Cannot believe a spider actually cause me to think I had slipped further into insanity. Good lord my psyche is so fragile this night that an eight legged wonder nearly brought me to the brink of despair
notliamhyde02 07/24/2022 10:09 AM
I TOLD YOU SPIDERS ARE FUCKING BASTARDS
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Confessions BOT 07/24/2022 7:00 PM
Anonymous Confession (#352)
"I'm feeling v numb today but it's an almost calming sort of numb. i think i like it compared to the mood swings"
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If you need anything OP, my DMs are open
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thepuppymuffin 07/24/2022 7:03 PM
How tf do i make friends I’ve got as far as joining discord servers but after that am stuck cuz not currently in norwich ;w;
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we should really have an online games night on this server at some point
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thepuppymuffin 07/24/2022 7:04 PM
owo
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Fun fact
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I got pushed against a wall and screamed at today by grown adults
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At work?
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Nope, on the walk back
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Holy shit are you okay?!
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These strangers?
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Yup strangers
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And I wasn't
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I just tried to forget it
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And now I am
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jfc that's horrible
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hope you aren't hurt
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I mean, they pushed me into nettles and brambles that were against the wall, but no, I wasn't actually hurt to a degree that is bad
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Any idea as to why??! Sounds fucking weird from strangers 🫂🫂
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I’m so sorry that happened to you
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Nope, they just came up to me
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Pushed me
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Shouted at me (which is really upsetting bcs trauma)
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And then
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Walked away
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shitty people
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sorry that happened to you
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Nah it's cool
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Just thought it was a fun story
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Oh baby I’m so sorry 🫂🫂 you’re taking care of yourself now yeah?
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Lo, we need to go smash some kneecaps
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I mean, I don't take care of myself anyway 😂
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I promise I'm just repressing it
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I just thought it was interesting
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Dude I will swaddle you up in blankets like a burrito and give you hot chocolate, I am so worried about you respectfully
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Bv_
I promise I'm just repressing it
That’s not ideal either
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mahariel
Lo, we need to go smash some kneecaps
We do.
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Yous, don't worry, it's ok
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Disrespectfully, I am going to take care of you. I want to wrap you in a blanket and sit you in front of a movie and bring you comfort food
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I can’t do that right now but when we get to Norwich we’re doing a starkid marathon w anyone who wants to join us
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I fucking care about you bro I want to make sure you’re okay
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It's ok, honestly 💜💜
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People are allowed to be worried about you and show they care bc you're fantastic and deserve the world
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I'm just shit at accepting kindness so I just reject it bcs it makes me uncomfy 😂😂
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Okay then we’ll make it mutual kindness. You watch shit w me next time I’m sad then we can bake something together blast musicals and sing
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Oh I'm always down to give kindness
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Particularly when yous are all living so close
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You’re like a street away from me too
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Good luck getting away
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Ahhhh so if I'm hypothetically in need of company when watching Doctor who, I can con you into watching comfort show with me :3 mwhahahaha
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If yous want me for anything, all you have to do it ask and I'll be there
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I will use this to trick you into self caring
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irltardis
Dude I will swaddle you up in blankets like a burrito and give you hot chocolate, I am so worried about you respectfully
I’m gonna do this
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If yous want me for anything, all you have to do it ask and I'll be there
What’s the first thing you want when you’re being sad?
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The next few days is gonna be protect BV at all costs arc
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LoLo <3
What’s the first thing you want when you’re being sad?
To die
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The unthank gang form a protect bv at all costs club for next year 👀
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Ahhhhhhh
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irltardis
The unthank gang form a protect bv at all costs club for next year 👀
I'd be down
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The next few days is gonna be protect BV at all costs arc
No bcs if you burrito blanket me I will never move and never leave bcs burrito blanket is comfy
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No bcs if you burrito blanket me I will never move and never leave bcs burrito blanket is comfy
Good
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You’ll be safe that way
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guess youll have to stay there
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permanently
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Even when you move house
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I'll still be there
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not if i carry you
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NO BCS YOU CAN
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Cries
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!dalle Carrying a huge burrito bridal style
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LoLo <3
You’ll be safe that way
Safety? Don't relate 😂
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!dalle Carrying a huge burrito bridal style
Bmagine BOT 07/24/2022 9:52 PM
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Basically that?
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But...you know we need to actually do this tomorrow now right
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Bcs I'm gonna be tired
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Two hour drive + two hour walk
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Yum
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Hey if it’s easier for you
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You don’t have to come before my appointment
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Nah it's ok
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Idk why I can only get 2 weeks worth of medication at a time. Last time I only had a days worth left when I got some as the surgeries online system mucked up. It just makes no sense. My biggest concern is running out which is so easy when you only get 2 weeks worth at a time. Idk why I can’t get at least a couple of mother worth so I can get a decent stock to make running out virtually impossible. I’m really upset/angry cos if I run out I’ll go into withdrawal and possibly trigger a seizure. It’s total bs.
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I'm sorry, that fucking sucks and is actually ridiculous
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Confessions BOT 07/25/2022 5:21 PM
Anonymous Confession (#355)
"Anyone want my boobs, i very much dislike them on my chest today."
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thepuppymuffin 07/25/2022 6:12 PM
Yes please anon
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The Revolution for trans folk is being able to remove someone’s boos onto another
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notliamhyde02 07/25/2022 9:41 PM
i hate walking in unexpected rain
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Looking a bit wet
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Sorry you got stuck in the rain x
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notliamhyde02
i hate walking in unexpected rain
Not to be horny in vents but damn 😳😳
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Confessions BOT 07/26/2022 10:25 AM
Anonymous Confession (#360)
"Something my friend told me but i think everyone should hear since there are a lot of empathetic people in here: it's ok to prioritise yourself. You care so deeply about others, some who deserve it and some who don't, and it's admirable but don't stretch yourself thin. stop worrying about them, how they're doing and if they're ok. Because in the kindest way, they don't think about you at all. Keep your friends close and by friends i mean those who check up on you when you're having terrible days because they are harder and harder to come by. You're a wonderful person who deserves everything you put out in the world"
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notliamhyde02 07/26/2022 10:29 AM
that’s something i’ve slowly learnt over the last few years and it’s totally acceptable to just step back from things and take care of yourself first
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thanks OP this feels aimed
10:31
good morning kids i just woke up from the weirdest dream I've had in a while. like subconsciously i should be hurt bc it's a really sad dream but I'm more just ??? since it was so bizarre lol
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my usual hairstylist isn't in so wish me luck 🤞🏼
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mumblingmiss 07/26/2022 11:38 AM
Oh god I'm praying for you
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these guys are v much "trust the process" hairstylists so I'm hoping i won't look like a youth pastor after i go home and have a shower
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mahariel
these guys are v much "trust the process" hairstylists so I'm hoping i won't look like a youth pastor after i go home and have a shower
Expecting a selfies post asking if ive heard about a real cool dude named Jesus
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"He swagged for our cringe and his father is totally based"
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‘If I don’t sleep for a week the hand man hides behind my bedroom door’ - Liam (not from this gc) + his artistic interpretation
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Confessions BOT 07/26/2022 4:19 PM
Anonymous Confession (#362)
"I think my eating disorder might be coming back. I'm calorie counting again and obsessed with how my body looks and feel sick when eating."
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Hey OP, it's ok
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Just eat little bits occasionally
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And if you need help, I'm here 💜
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"He swagged for our cringe and his father is totally based"
jesus christ is AMONG us. and the devil is sus
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I’m glad I’m gay. I don’t understand most strait men: we have near nothing in common and the macho chavy thing makes me uncomfortable. Anyone else feel like that?
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For me it depends on environment, if its somewhere I expect those people to be (i.e. a sports bar) then I can get along quite well with them. If they show up in a space where I am visibly queer (certain nights at WF) then I am incredibly uncomfortable around them and would rather they didnt exist
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I just don't get along with people, every "group" of people confuses me
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So I pick and choose my friends carefully
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So yeah, I do feel like that @Unknown
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dinner with the parents, an exercise in gritting my teeth hard enough to hurt for hours afterwards
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mahariel
dinner with the parents, an exercise in gritting my teeth hard enough to hurt for hours afterwards
Lemme know when your back
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And I’ll give you a hug
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Lemme know when your back
🫂 ty unfortunately won't be for some time tho
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It’s ok just lemme know
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mumblingmiss 07/27/2022 7:44 AM
Stuck with a dilemma but I have a feeling I know what way I'll sway. Saturday is obviously Norwich Pride, which would be my first official pride, but now my trains have all been cancelled and I would only be able to get there with being on a bus for probably over an hour with motion sickness. But Saturday is also my eldest sister's 32nd birthday and it will be the first birthday I celebrate with her in 10 years since she just moved back. Kinda stuck but knowing me I'll end up going for the easier option of staying home, but my head just keeps wavering between them.
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Trains rn are an absolute disaster but I’m sorry yours was cancelled:( I guess this kind of depends on how sick you think you’d be once you got there if you think it would be worth getting to Norwich like that or if it’s better to wait for next year. While I’m sure everyone would love to see you they’re also reasonable people who would completely understand your reasons for staying home
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notliamhyde02 07/27/2022 10:39 AM
so i was told after my trial shift that i would get a text/call on sunday or monday telling me when i’m working
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and ive not received anything
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ffs
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now i have to call them to ask if i’m meant to be working this week but it should be up to them to let me know right?
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why is this so complicated
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I'm so sorry they are fucking you about
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🫂🫂
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notliamhyde02 07/27/2022 10:49 AM
my mum is wanting me to call them so we can sort out lifts
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but should be telling me when im in, i shouldn’t have to ask
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they have my number so they have no excuse
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notliamhyde02
they have my number so they have no excuse
I get that tbh, i would suggest ringing them even though it’s unfair on you.
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So you get those shifts
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notliamhyde02 07/27/2022 10:51 AM
ik
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just wish it was simple now
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thought the hard part was getting the job
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not this
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Yee, hopefully this is the only time you have to ask
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notliamhyde02 07/27/2022 11:17 AM
now they’re not picking up
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wtf is going on
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nvm
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said they’ll let me know when they get in
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That’s something
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notliamhyde02 07/27/2022 11:20 AM
yeah something
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So I now have to do my works training week in my fucking cast and then leave 2 days early in order to attend surgery clinic all because my CUNT surgeon is on FUCKING HOLIDAY for the next 2 weeks. Why do you need a holiday when you work 3 days a fucking week bro?!?!?
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I need to hold a frog. I need the little frog in my hands. If I stare into their little eyes I will feel better. Please, I need this, I need a frog
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I can offer you little toad man and some frog emojis 🐸🐸
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I’m so sorry Ewan 🫂🫂
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Eeeeen
I need to hold a frog. I need the little frog in my hands. If I stare into their little eyes I will feel better. Please, I need this, I need a frog
notliamhyde02 07/27/2022 12:20 PM
i can’t physically give you one but you can have this
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Thank yous ❤
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i offer this
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notliamhyde02 07/27/2022 12:23 PM
wtf why is that so perfect
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Confessions BOT 07/27/2022 2:27 PM
Anonymous Confession (#363)
"I actually miss them so much, I am genuinely falling for them"
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Wow op are you me Fr tho it’s been like a month we’ll be back in Norwich again before we know it and then you can see them again 💗 (edited)
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Sameee, literally missing so many people
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notliamhyde02
said they’ll let me know when they get in
notliamhyde02 07/27/2022 4:16 PM
they’ve said nothing yet… 😐
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notliamhyde02
they’ve said nothing yet… 😐
Same still waiting on my train tickets for tomororw
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notliamhyde02 07/27/2022 4:21 PM
why tf can they not just tell me when im in
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ive said i’m available everyday until i go back to uni
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just give me hours and i’ll do them jfc
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so you're all °▪︎☆yearning☆▪︎°
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everyone is yearning for something
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feel like a poem could be written based on this servers yearning
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That's your next mission Erin
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E r i n
feel like a poem could be written based on this servers yearning
i can and have written poems for past yearnings
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i just incorporate their characteristics into the characters in my stories so they're well-rounded and deeply flawed lmfao (edited)
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honestly both of those are valid af
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That's your next mission Erin
im awful at poetry and my strategy is to just crush my own yearning
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oh same i can't write poetry for shit. novellas tho? 😚👌🏽
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valid, im just bad at writing lmao novellas are cool though
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i just incorporate their characteristics into the characters in my stories so they're well-rounded and deeply flawed lmfao (edited)
Every character I write is either an extension or aspiration of me
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i am in awe of anyone and everyone with artistic talent, ngl, you're all awesome
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LoLo <3
Every character I write is either an extension or aspiration of me
fair fair. I've always found that using real characteristics make the people seem all that more real
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tho some of you in here would make an editor say "this is unrealistic" lmfao
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Lmao we're just too spicy for the uncultured mind
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mahariel
oh same i can't write poetry for shit. novellas tho? 😚👌🏽
i very rarely write poetry but when i do its basically all super gay yearning shit done at midnight
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you are so incredibly valid
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i v rarely write but when i do it's on the floor hiding from the person i slept with after v disappointing sex lmfao
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Ripfangs
i very rarely write poetry but when i do its basically all super gay yearning shit done at midnight
sometimes you've just got an excess of gay emotions, y'know?
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I DO know
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what's a girl to do if not write gay poetry about it?
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"i'm having a real time of it. might as well get some art out of this"
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Lmao me writing a song about my ex
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Best song I ever wrote too:(
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awww
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that's so sweet
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tragic but sweet
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notliamhyde02
just give me hours and i’ll do them jfc
I'm really sorry they are doing this 🫂
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changed it out of shame 😮💨
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Ow, I just punched my wall
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notliamhyde02 07/27/2022 9:33 PM
chances of them tell me when my shifts are?
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21:33
no clue
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Why tf did you do that?!
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Ow, I just punched my wall
notliamhyde02 07/27/2022 9:33 PM
shit you ok?
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Istg I'm gonna drive to the pub like rn and get them to tell you
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Fucking ridiculous
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No I'm not ok, but it's fine, I'm pissed off at this pub istg
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Me, anger problems? Maybe
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Please take care of yourself
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Sorry
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It’s okay!! We care about you we want to make sure you’re okay 🫂🫂
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No I'm not ok, but it's fine, I'm pissed off at this pub istg
notliamhyde02 07/27/2022 9:39 PM
what are up with pubs
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LoLo <3
It’s okay!! We care about you we want to make sure you’re okay 🫂🫂
Haha thanks, sorry again
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notliamhyde02
what are up with pubs
They are ridiculous, that's what
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notliamhyde02 07/27/2022 9:39 PM
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Haha thanks, sorry again
You’re all good 🫂💗
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They are messing you around and it's pissing me off so much
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I just wanna hug you all rn
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notliamhyde02 07/27/2022 10:14 PM
god im going to bed before 11pm
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who am i, my dad?
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If you are tired, you are tired
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There’s no harm in going to sleep earlier than normal
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Besides you’ve had an emotionally draining day
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Confessions BOT 07/27/2022 10:50 PM
Anonymous Confession (#371)
"need to get out of my head, I need to get over them, they were good I know, but they didn't deserve me and that wasn't a relationship. Need to move on and put energy into this new exciting thing"
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Anonymous Confession (#373)
"also I think I am falling for them as they fall out of love with me 😂 story of my life"
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Anonymous Confession (#374)
"so now I'm crying because I miss them so much"
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it's ok kiddo, crying helps a lot sometimes. idk what you went through but everyone ik here deserves the world
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This shit comes with time, beating yourself up about it won't change anything, ik it's hard but you need to be kind to yourself, it's the easiest way to heal in these situations. I'm sorry you're struggling op but 'this new exciting thing' could be exactly what you need ~ getting over someone is rough but if you have a positive distraction that can be what takes you out of the headspace and gets you enthusiastic about other things again. Rooting for you!!
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You can't be certain they're falling out of love with you but either way, just take it as it comes, see how the land lies and go with what feels right. You can't know anything for certain unless you start the conversation. You got this ❤️
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Sending you ALL THE VIRTUAL HUGS 🫂 crying can be really helpful in getting your emotions out but please try to stay hydrated if you're crying a lot, emotions can be rough with that stuff, I hope you're okay. Please know my DMs are open if you need anything
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key thing: communication. talk to them
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That last bit goes for everyone ofc ~ please stay hydrated and my DMs are open if anyone ever wants to talk. I love you all ❤️
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same
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love you guys 💛
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Mum says it's MY TURN w the saviour complex
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but seriously, have a honest talk with them OP. at least sort out where both of you stand and it'll make it a lot easier for whatever you want going forward
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LMAO
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LoLo <3
Mum says it's MY TURN w the saviour complex
BYE
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MUMMY NO
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Wakes up in such a bad mood that I just wanna not exist lmao
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I can’t wait to move in campus, won’t have to deal with the bullshit of living at home. I’m an adult and I deserve the respect of a fucking adult.
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Oh I'm so sorry, it's not long now
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I’m spending the day in my room because I know very well that I can have a better day by myself. I seriously miss having a car cos I feel so trapped at home.
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If you ever wanna do something virtually, have a chat or watch something, just let me know
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Going back to live at home after being at uni is rough, I'm sorry your family are making it difficult for you:( won't be too long now and we'll all be back and we'll have to take you out make it worthwhile hanging in there. If you want to rant or whatever we're here for you, my DMs are open if you wanna complain at any point 🫂 💗
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Mhm we are gonna do so much stuff together
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Going to be great
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LoLo <3
Going back to live at home after being at uni is rough, I'm sorry your family are making it difficult for you:( won't be too long now and we'll all be back and we'll have to take you out make it worthwhile hanging in there. If you want to rant or whatever we're here for you, my DMs are open if you wanna complain at any point 🫂 💗
I won’t burden you with my rants when I’m in a bad mood,I do appreciate the offer tho. Look forward to hanging tho! Same for BV.
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I can promise you neither of us would be bothered by your rants
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It's kinda of what I want to do for a living, listen to vents
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So like
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Always here for you x
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Same here
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Bv_
It's kinda of what I want to do for a living, listen to vents
Yeah but if I start telling you what goes on in my mind you might get me sectioned 😂
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I highly doubt it
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We all have hidden issues
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I'm here for anything
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No judgement
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Only support
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If we seriosuly think you need help we'll recommend it but regardless as to your decisions we're here for you
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We'll listen if you want us to, we just want to support you
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Or if you just want company, we can provide that too
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I honestly do like my family. However, I also find them seriously mentally draining. (edited)
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That's understandable
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Being around any people for that long is bound to have its tolls in one way or asnother
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I honestly do like my family. However, I also find them seriously mentally draining. (edited)
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notliamhyde02 07/28/2022 5:23 PM
well i’m depressed again
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done fuck all all day
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had nothing back from this fucking pub
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barely eaten, not showered
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and just as i thought things were getting better
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it's absolutely shit that they're running you around like this
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job hunting put me in the lowest place I'd ever been
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Healing isn't linear. The pub isn't being helpful, I'm really sorry. Have you called them up or gone in to ask? It's okay to have bad days, try and eat something if you can, and go outside for a few minutes to get the sun on your skin, sometimes that can be helpful if you've been inside all day. I hope you hear back from them soon 🫂
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Healing isn't linear. The pub isn't being helpful, I'm really sorry. Have you called them up or gone in to ask? It's okay to have bad days, try and eat something if you can, and go outside for a few minutes to get the sun on your skin, sometimes that can be helpful if you've been inside all day. I hope you hear back from them soon 🫂
notliamhyde02 07/28/2022 5:26 PM
well they said after my shift on saturday they’ll let me know on sunday/monday
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i heard nothing
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so i rang yesterday, got told i’ll hear from them later
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i heard nothing
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and now ive pretty got just over a month left until i go back
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im not gonna get a job anywhere else
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it’s either this place just fucking tells me when i’m in or i’m not getting a job
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luckily it’s not a case of needing this job to pay rent
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but im also not gonna have a lot when i pay that off
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such a pisstake
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the sheer fucking panic of my sister messaging me about her pregnancy test and my data not being able to load snapchat
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it came back negative THANK FUCK
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mumblingmiss 07/28/2022 5:33 PM
Fuck what terrible timing
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i was straight up about to vomit
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I’m hope she’s alright
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she's fine, just a dumbass
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mumblingmiss 07/28/2022 5:33 PM
Lmao
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going to mildly reprimand her when i get home and can call
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i HATE snapchat with a passion lmfao
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mumblingmiss 07/28/2022 5:34 PM
Same deleted the app the other day
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"oooh you have one of the most important texts of your life coming? sowwy here's a spinning circle of death even tho every other app loads just fine :3"
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mumblingmiss 07/28/2022 5:35 PM
Mine wouldn't tell me I'd have a message until like hours or days later
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fair fair. I'm v close to my sister so I'm glad she immediately came to me when she had concerns
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idiot teenager with the first "love of her life uwu" tho
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mumblingmiss 07/28/2022 5:36 PM
It's nice you have that close of a relationship 💖 also ew lmao
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i know I'm throwing stones in a glass house but her boyfriend's name is Quinten lmfao 💀
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mumblingmiss 07/28/2022 5:37 PM
Lmaoooo wtf
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Is he an old god
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Or like a shitty poet
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LMAO he's a lanky nerd
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QUINTEN
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THAT'S WORSE THAN PIERRE
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that's all i know
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IS SHE MY OLD HOUSEMATE
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HAHAHAHA
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SHE WENT FOR AN OSCAR, A BRIAN AND A FERGUS THAT'S ALL I'M SAYING
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GET YOUR GIRL O U T
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mahariel
LMAO he's a lanky nerd
mumblingmiss 07/28/2022 5:39 PM
Ew I dated one of those called Byron
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notliamhyde02 07/28/2022 5:39 PM
bernard cribbins has died
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HE DID THE VOICE FOR THE WINNIE THE POOH TAPES WE HAVE IN THE CAR MY MUM WAS SO UPSET
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aww no :<
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LoLo <3
SHE WENT FOR AN OSCAR, A BRIAN AND A FERGUS THAT'S ALL I'M SAYING
BRIAN. FERGUS HAHAHAH
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BRIAN. FERGUS HAHAHAH
Brian was 27. We were 19.
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They met on tiktok
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No I am not over this
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ahhhhhh yikes
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what
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LMAO
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i have never met a baby called Gary, Ian, or Fergus. fully believe they just spawn as middle aged men
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Lmao Fergus was 20
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Apparently he's a cokehead tho (definitely doesn't work on unthank)
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that's not evidence that he was ever a baby
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can't judge cokeheads anymore with how many drugs i used to do
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Apparently he's a cokehead tho (definitely doesn't work on unthank)
Fuckboy Drag King 07/28/2022 7:44 PM
I swear if this is the Fergus I know I might just cry
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mumblingmiss 07/28/2022 7:50 PM
Having a rough sad evening rn and wish I had someone here to hug me
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Fuckboy Drag King 07/28/2022 7:52 PM
Hope you're alright CB. We're all here if you need to vent or talk 🫂
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Fuckboy Drag King
I swear if this is the Fergus I know I might just cry
Wait so we know the same fergus
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WHAT
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I think me and caz mean the same one
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Idk abiut you though
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I think me and caz mean the same one
Fuckboy Drag King 07/28/2022 9:06 PM
YEAH I THINK SO
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Can't really describe fergus
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comp sci
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He wasn’t a student
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Fuckboy Drag King 07/28/2022 9:06 PM
Ah not him then
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Though tbf he never went to classes so
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Basically wasn't a student either
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Nah ik of a Fergus a year or so above who lived halfway between me and uni
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I got drunk at a party at his house and did the washing up
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Never met him but he lived w a couple girls from pole
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Fuckboy Drag King 07/28/2022 9:09 PM
Nah not our Fergus he wouldn't shut up if he lived with people from pole lmfaoo
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Nah not our Fergus he wouldn't shut up if he lived with people from pole lmfaoo
WBEJDHEBEJD
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Ngl fergus is someone I couldn’t tell was a red flag
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Or Yknow
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Fuckboy Drag King 07/28/2022 9:13 PM
I like to consider him both
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Definitely a red flag individual, could let emma explain that better but he's just a bit... off really
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Fuckboy Drag King
Definitely a red flag individual, could let emma explain that better but he's just a bit... off really
probably not best here
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I want to smoke but I know I shouldnt smoke and I dont have anything here to smoke but like, fuck I want a smoke
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I want to smoke but I know I shouldnt smoke and I dont have anything here to smoke but like, fuck I want a smoke
notliamhyde02 07/28/2022 11:25 PM
wait until you can smoke again and then just throw a massive smoke sesh
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I wont be smoking again for at least 6 months. Both tabacco and weed can have serious affects on the rate at which bones and scar tissue heal and once I have my ankle back I would like to keep it
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notliamhyde02 07/28/2022 11:27 PM
well in 6 months you can hold the biggest session ever
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Hotbox the entire fucking lake district
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notliamhyde02 07/28/2022 11:28 PM
do it
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Valid honestly
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notliamhyde02 07/28/2022 11:28 PM
most interesting thing to happen there
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most interesting thing to happen there
Incorrect, there are some incredible highline spots in the lakes
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notliamhyde02 07/28/2022 11:29 PM
this is true
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Eeeeen
Incorrect, there are some incredible highline spots in the lakes
notliamhyde02 07/28/2022 11:30 PM
highline perhaps?
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If you blaze before a highline its referred to as a safety meeting. Highlines always require safety meetings 😂
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Been underpaid
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Now my heads not letting me sleep
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Because I’m worried I’m gonna be sacked or something
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Uwu what’s this, me messaging my supervisor and her being angry too
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Is this a work rebellion
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Yes it is
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mumblingmiss 07/29/2022 8:51 AM
The universe really throwing hands w me lately. Fully ready to fight some gods rn
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I don't wanna be pathetic, but when you have a cold, it fucking makes you miserable
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Just want a hug lmao
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Bv_
Just want a hug lmao
Hi
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hope you feel better soon
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Confessions BOT 07/29/2022 3:25 PM
Anonymous Confession (#375)
"Tw selfharm every day I want to cut and it's fucking me up. My life is objectively good, there is nothing wrong but every thing that goes slightly not to plan or I can't do something properly and I just want to hurt myself I don't know what the fuck to do anymore. I've been clean for 3 years and 4 months but it's getting harder to stay like that"
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im sorry to hear that OP, hope youre okay and here to talk if you ever want to ❤
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Just reported an account on TikTok that is obviously a child groomer. They also deleted their comments but I reported them before they did. I honestly feel pretty sick right now. His pfp is him in his underwear and is obviously an elderly man. Idk I just feel helpless that I can’t do more.
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Can people please find this account and report it!!!!
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Thank you for drawing it to our attention
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And you are doing the best you can
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Reporting is the best thing
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^^^ reporting is the best thing to do
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Some people are right dickheads at the airport. Like 15 seats in the waiting area are being taken up by people's hand luggage. So me and like 8 other people are just sat on the floor xD (edited)
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oh boy reminiscing memories from covid lockdown concerning my old housemates and fully feeling this
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Guess who thought pride was tomorrow 🤦🤦🤦
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All moved out of my room, i am so sad. Never though I could form an emotional connection with the worlds thinnest walls
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Confessions BOT 07/31/2022 10:49 PM
Anonymous Confession (#387)
"trying to get some sleep and all the family shit and mental health stuff starts resurfacing in my mind. this time last year was leading up to one of my worst breakdowns so feels like everything is just buzzing under the surface waiting to rear its head at every moment rn, eager to ruin what little respite i can get from all the other horrible, triggering stuff im currently dealing with. every time the pressure eases its only a matter of time until its back, fucking with my head and making it difficult to be coherent or make any clear or decent decision, but now its new and old stuff, fun :)"
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I'm sorry OP
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If you ever need to talk, my DMs are open
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I know I’ve said it a lot of times on here, but healing isn’t linear. You’re allowed to feel your emotions, I’m sorry your family put you in such a difficult situation. A lot can change in a year; you aren’t the same person you were back then, your circumstances are different, and you have a community around you here who care about you and want to support you. Look at your schedule and see what breaks you have that you can take to prioritise your mental health and do what necessary steps you need to protect yourself. I don’t know what your coping mechanisms are, but do what you can to make sure they’re readily available to you when you need them. If you can’t get a clear head I’m sure you could message your situation in advice or something and anyone who’s online could help out from an outsider perspective. I’m sorry you’re struggling op, I’m here if you need me <£
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Gonna pretend I spelt ❤️ right
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Confessions BOT 08/01/2022 1:23 AM
Anonymous Confession (#395)
"after staying with people in your bed it’s so hard to sleep on your own"
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Get another pillow and position it sideways. pull the duvet so it rolls in towards you then pull your legs up. It's not the same as being spooned but it works as a diy when you won't get to see them for a few weeks
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Mhm, that works really well, gotta agree
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It the only way I've got through this summer
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Do keep rolling over and giving the pillow a kiss on the 'forehead' tho which is quite embarrassing when I'm properly awake
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that's fucking adorable
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mumblingmiss 08/01/2022 11:30 AM
Hermes or evri or whatever can actually suck ass at this point holy shit
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Hermes or evri or whatever can actually suck ass at this point holy shit
notliamhyde02 08/01/2022 11:31 AM
theyre shit honestly
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mumblingmiss 08/01/2022 11:31 AM
You know its bad when yodel is better than you
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notliamhyde02 08/01/2022 11:32 AM
think they rebranded to try and distance themselves from the (deserved) hate but they’re still shit
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You know its bad when yodel is better than you
notliamhyde02 08/01/2022 11:32 AM
oh god yeah that’s rough
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Confessions BOT 08/01/2022 1:50 PM
Anonymous Confession (#397)
"So I look up and there was a terrifying tall monster poking it's head around the corner of my room, it grinned and laughed at me and then disappeared"
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When was the last time you: ate, drank, slept? When you start seeing things like that it's generally a good idea to make sure you're hydrated, not hungry and well rested
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I hope you're okay op 🫂
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idk if this is the same hallucinations OP from a couple weeks back but do everything Lo said, maybe see a professional, and i hope you're ok
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mumblingmiss 08/01/2022 4:38 PM
I could've gotten to the seller in Cambridge and back in under a day so hermes/evri needs to buck the fuck up. girl wants her ugly cute playsuit for cromer carnival season
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(Also if anyone wants to come down for some cromer carnival shit or go to cromer beach lmk)
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mumblingmiss 08/01/2022 5:08 PM
My brothers girlfriend just got a hermes parcel delivered just now when I answered the door WHERE THE FUCK IS MINE WHERE IS MY PARCEL WHAT THE FUCK MY DUDE
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Ooooff
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mumblingmiss 08/01/2022 5:10 PM
Absolutely just gritted my teeth collecting that from the guy in his brought blue evri shirt
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parcel for shauna WHERES THE PARCEL FOR CHEYENNE WHERE IS IT
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parcel for shauna WHERES THE PARCEL FOR CHEYENNE WHERE IS IT
If they don't call it a C Barcel you gotta slam the door in their face
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If they don't call it a C Barcel you gotta slam the door in their face
mumblingmiss 08/01/2022 5:12 PM
I fuckin will
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Im so fucking DONE with this ankle. I want my life back. I'm fed up of standing like a goddamn flamingo just to make myself food. I want to piss standing up again. I want to walk barefoot in the grass and feel it between my toes. I want to wear a PAIR of shoes again instead of just one foot. I get that its important to take time and recover but like im fucking BORED
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Oh I'm so sorry
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I can't imagine how difficult it is for you
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If you need anything
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Just message me
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Can we make you one of those person carrying things like a stretcher but fancy so we can parade you around? Feels like a great solution to me /j (edited)
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My cousin started calling me tripod because of how I stand with my crutches which is cheering me up a little
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A joke could be made
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It has been
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Aw that's kinda sweet
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It is honestly
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mumblingmiss 08/02/2022 11:30 AM
Hermes need to hurry up fr bc I'm an anxiety baby who checks the tracking constantly and it's gonna destroy me
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Cw period shit and mental health rant I've been bleeding for 2 weeks now called the med centre and ofc it's the one week they can't prescribe anything bc they're changing systems so I'm stuck with constant pain, throwing up, passing out and feeling sick every time I eat anything for another fucking week and I swear it's taking all my self restraint to not get a kitchen knife and remove this fucking implant myself it's been nothing but shit and now I need to go on more birth control to stop the bleeding when last time that happened my mental health hit fucking rock bottom I can't do this again I'm just not strong enough
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Oh I'm so sorry
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That's really awfuk
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🫂🫂
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If you need anything, let me know
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mumblingmiss 08/02/2022 12:28 PM
That's horrible I hope you get everything sorted ASAP. Feel free to message me if you ever want or need to darling
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mumblingmiss 08/02/2022 1:18 PM
Okay fine now hermes says they'll deliver today but idk if I bloody believe them
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Yay CBackage!!
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mumblingmiss 08/02/2022 1:30 PM
CBackage
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Cw period shit and mental health rant I've been bleeding for 2 weeks now called the med centre and ofc it's the one week they can't prescribe anything bc they're changing systems so I'm stuck with constant pain, throwing up, passing out and feeling sick every time I eat anything for another fucking week and I swear it's taking all my self restraint to not get a kitchen knife and remove this fucking implant myself it's been nothing but shit and now I need to go on more birth control to stop the bleeding when last time that happened my mental health hit fucking rock bottom I can't do this again I'm just not strong enough
that's horrible and I'm sorry you're having to go through that. I'm hesitant about sharing meds (with your allergies) but if you were here, i would have offered my own meds that i have for a similar reason. in the mean time, could you get a hot water bottle and put it on your abdomen? that helps me a lot
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I’m drinking my body weight in tea trying to keep warm ~ another excuse to break out my favourite cardigan ig
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Really regretting how I lived first year
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I made hardly any notes
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I didn't try hard enough
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I was kinda dumb
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So now, I'm making notes on every single lecture and seminar I have had since the start of first year
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Gonna go cry rq
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Don’t put too much pressure on yourself it’ll all be on blackboard until you graduate, this is a really good way to get ahead but you have like over a month before uni starts so there’s no rush yeah?
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Yeah this is true, but I've put it off for so long, so I just need to get it done now
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And my parents will give me hell if they realise how little I've actually done this year
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I'm failing at adulting so hard, everything with this new house is so stressful that I'm just currently sitting at the top of the stairs having a bit of a panic because I can't get the keys to work properly and the state of the property stuff is really stressful and just hnnnng
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So now, I'm making notes on every single lecture and seminar I have had since the start of first year
notliamhyde02 08/02/2022 4:13 PM
i’m gonna start doing this for second year
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i passed first year fine but sometimes it really got to me and i just couldn’t cope
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so hopefully i’ll sort my life out and do this
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My anxiety has gotten to me, and like, I passed first year no problem, but it's still freaking me out, so I'm hoping if I get my year one notes sorted, I can be in a better position to be more productive in year 2
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notliamhyde02 08/02/2022 4:15 PM
might have to splash a bit on fancy notes apps
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ive got an ipad and apple pencil
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i should probably use them for that
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Not me just using OneNote
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might have to splash a bit on fancy notes apps
Honestly about halfway through first year I was tempted to just buy a good tablet and pencil and do all my notes like that
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Honestly about halfway through first year I was tempted to just buy a good tablet and pencil and do all my notes like that
notliamhyde02 08/02/2022 4:37 PM
i kept getting tiktoks saying people’s life got better when they bought an ipad
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Lmao mood
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I'm failing at adulting so hard, everything with this new house is so stressful that I'm just currently sitting at the top of the stairs having a bit of a panic because I can't get the keys to work properly and the state of the property stuff is really stressful and just hnnnng
Are any of your housemates home maybe you can work something out together as a backup for getting in if you're struggling with the keys? Mine were an issue for me this year too and didn't work for me twice but there was always someone home when I had issues so it wasn't a problem
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notliamhyde02 08/02/2022 4:38 PM
and then i bought an apple pencil cos why not
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intended to start drawing with it but never did
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intended to start drawing with it but never did
You draw? 👀 (edited)
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Are any of your housemates home maybe you can work something out together as a backup for getting in if you're struggling with the keys? Mine were an issue for me this year too and didn't work for me twice but there was always someone home when I had issues so it wasn't a problem
Unfortunately I'm the only one in Norwich for another week :/, I managed to get into the house but I can't lock the front door or unlock the back door now
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Is there someone you can get to stay with you for a couple days maybe until you get more used to it? Or at least stay in the house while you get used to unlocking the door so they can let you in if it doesn't work? Idk if your parents have been able to do that for you already or if you came up by yourslef
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If not you might be able to sort something out with the backdoor so it doesn't close on its own but looks shut so you don't have to worry as much with leaving the house
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I know it isn't ideal but might be a short term solution?
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You draw? 👀 (edited)
notliamhyde02 08/02/2022 4:47 PM
i want to
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wanted to get procreate and do it properly
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but just never did
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That is honestly really awesome
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Get it and do it
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Thanks for the advice, I'm going to see what I can do, it's just a whole mess and there's been more stuff earlier on in the week that's been stressing me out
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So I managed to get the front door working and able to lock/unlock but I did get locked out and have to climb in through the window
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But all in all, a little dent to my dignity aside, this is a success story
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Shit are you okay?
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Ayyyy
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Yeah I'm all good! I got a free funny story out of it!!
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mumblingmiss 08/02/2022 7:35 PM
Oh yes add this one to your story telling bank
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A classic uni moment added to the scrapbook of life
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Freyja, you've heard most of my stand up set of mishaps, this is just another one
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It's a great set of your antics
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Truly you get into some comedic situations
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If my med course fails, at least I'll have stand up to have a go at
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mumblingmiss 08/02/2022 7:47 PM
I'd go to your comedy shows
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Aww thanks CB
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If my med course fails, at least I'll have stand up to have a go at
Honestly you're fucking hilarious you could do it
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Gross medical stuff just complaining to the void so my cast leaves my toes exposed and I cant clean them properly because I cant get the cast wet and like theyve just been hanging out for 6 weeks, exposed to the heat and air and whatever else theyve seen while ive been hopping around on crutches. The skin on my toes is peeling off. In chunks. Its horrendous. I dont know how far back on my foot it goes in the cast but the exposed skin is just peeling. Its fucking horrible. It feels disgusting. "BRO, if im being real with you for a sec, im straight up not having a good time rn"
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I'm sorry
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PhantomBeef 08/03/2022 2:07 AM
my body temp cannot cool down whatsoever, months of struggling to sleep because it’s so warm 😔
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Being too warm to sleep is really not nice, some good ways to get your core temperature down are to have your feet in cold ish water (not ice cold), have a cold/ Luke warm shower before bed (just a rinse will do), freeze a wet flannel and put it in a bag in the bed
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Being too warm to sleep is really not nice, some good ways to get your core temperature down are to have your feet in cold ish water (not ice cold), have a cold/ Luke warm shower before bed (just a rinse will do), freeze a wet flannel and put it in a bag in the bed
PhantomBeef 08/03/2022 9:35 AM
I’m gonna try the feet in cold-ish water technique, I’ve heard of that before but never remembered to try it myself. Thank you for the advice 🤍
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notliamhyde02 08/03/2022 9:59 AM
minor vent
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but my parents aren’t at work all day cos the car needs to go to the garage
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so they’re coming back at midday
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so i wont have the full day to myself
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I’m gonna try the feet in cold-ish water technique, I’ve heard of that before but never remembered to try it myself. Thank you for the advice 🤍
I’ve done it, genuinely works. Brings your core temperature right down, I’ve been working from home during the heatwave and those hottest few days I was just sat with my feet in cold water and a cold flannel round my neck
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mumblingmiss 08/03/2022 10:38 AM
Playing the fun spiralling game of is my memory shit or is that a new patchy bit of skin and what the fuck cream did I used to use 😩 (edited)
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Time for huge psychotic episode just before I start driving? Yayyyy
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Not really a vent but I nearly killed this lil guy in my shower and now he’s all soggy and google won’t tell me how to revive soggy moth :(((((
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just leave him on the paper for a bit maybe?
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Yeah, let it dry iut
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mumblingmiss 08/03/2022 6:40 PM
I just wanted to put something in here because time is going so fast atm and if it keeps going that way then I want to keep aware of some personal things. Over the next few months there may be points, whether they are days or weeks, where I don't talk as much or I'm a bit off and I genuinely don't want anyone here to be too worried about it. So I just wanted to let you know that from September into December I struggle a lot with grief and things get very difficult as a result of lots of loss over the past few years around the same time of year and some of it is a lot deeper or a lot fresher in my mind still. I do have a support system around me and I will make it through just fine even if this time is harder than the last times. I hope you all understand and I love you all but truthfully if you notice something different about me at points please do not worry too much, I'm much stronger than people think. 💖
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I just wanted to put something in here because time is going so fast atm and if it keeps going that way then I want to keep aware of some personal things. Over the next few months there may be points, whether they are days or weeks, where I don't talk as much or I'm a bit off and I genuinely don't want anyone here to be too worried about it. So I just wanted to let you know that from September into December I struggle a lot with grief and things get very difficult as a result of lots of loss over the past few years around the same time of year and some of it is a lot deeper or a lot fresher in my mind still. I do have a support system around me and I will make it through just fine even if this time is harder than the last times. I hope you all understand and I love you all but truthfully if you notice something different about me at points please do not worry too much, I'm much stronger than people think. 💖
Here for you 💗 SAD is a bitch, I'm proud of you for recognising your experiences with all that ~ we're here if you ever wanna do anything (I find company always helps when I'm feeling bad but I get that differs on person) all the love 💗💗💗
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Here for you 💗 SAD is a bitch, I'm proud of you for recognising your experiences with all that ~ we're here if you ever wanna do anything (I find company always helps when I'm feeling bad but I get that differs on person) all the love 💗💗💗
mumblingmiss 08/03/2022 6:45 PM
Thank you so much 💖
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We’re here for you always CB. Keep being strong and being great and we will always be there as a support group for you
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it's so weird that I'll be elated for a couple days, feel like I'm on top of the world, and then everything crashes again at a completely unexpected pointn :/
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idk if it's external factors but it's like my brain going "you've been happy for too long. time to get a lot of anxiety about this insignificant thing now"
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maybe not a great idea to stave off the inevitable anxiety attack and subsequent depression with nicotine but
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tempted to take a mental health day off work but i haven't been working here for 3 months so i wouldn't get sick pay. and i have a bunch of projects due
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fuck I'm struggling sm rn
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but I'll be ok I'm all good
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literally can't afford this lmao
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Okay put the yucky nic stick down and open a window, sit and watch the sky for a bit, it's calming even if you can't see the stars. Regulate your breathing, the world's a bit nicer when your breathing is stable. Anxiety can affect the way you think and even if there isn't a 'reason' (as if you need a 'reason') you can just anxious out of nowhere, it happens. Take a mental health day if you need it, one day won't affect things too much, and you'll be in a better place to tackle the projects when your mind is rested. It's also pretty close to the weekend, you should be able to take some time off then too and sleep in if you need it. Everything's more expensive right now but the sky is free and beautiful (as is looking in the mirror which is also a pretty decent therapy). I'm here if you need me, always 💗
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i really appreciate this Lo. i need to get up for an 9am meeting so need to sleep ASAP so will skip the sky for now but thank you
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i really appreciate this Lo. i need to get up for an 9am meeting so need to sleep ASAP so will skip the sky for now but thank you
Then omg bestie go to sleep????
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everyone's asleep in the house so ig I'm just rambling myself out of a depression cycle bc i don't really have anyone else to talk to
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hahaha I'm trying
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it's just the "i can't be alone with my thoughts" thing paired with my insomnia. so I'm just listening to music and distracting myself
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hopefully it'll tire me out to the point that i just crash
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Apparently a milky tea with cinnamon is meant to help w sleepy idk I don't normally take more than half an hour to fall asleep so I'm not too familiar w insomnia
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Do you knit? That always calms my mind gives me something to do with my hands and brain go quiet
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don't have any of that or knitting tools but I'll be alright
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i always am
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ik you're the therapist of the friend group but i need to be up and stable so i can help people too
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I don't think I'm really the therapist I'm not even doing a psych degree
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well close enough
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your advice is v v appreciated by everyone you reply to
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You're so sweet 🥺
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i promise I'll try not to spiral tonight
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like i said, can't afford it and work should distract me from the utter worthlessness i feel
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If you do need to talk or whatever, I'm not doing anything more important, I'm happy to call until we fall asleep, however long it takes if you need it, I'm here for you
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We don't have to talk about anything deep if you don
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t want to but I am here
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might be too late to call but mind if i text you?
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Go for it! On here or over text normally?
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don't think i have your number so I'll text you on here
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Okay:)
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Going to fucking kms
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So fucking cross
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Trying to buy a car parking permit
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And it's fucking annoying
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I can't do anything
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I'm useless
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mumblingmiss 08/04/2022 4:15 PM
Oh man I'm broke af and I'm probably gonna have to ask my parents to borrow some money from them. They've said loads of times before that I can always ask for help with money but I just hate the feeling so much it feels icky. Girls gotta put her pride down for a moment and get it over with
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Oh man I'm broke af and I'm probably gonna have to ask my parents to borrow some money from them. They've said loads of times before that I can always ask for help with money but I just hate the feeling so much it feels icky. Girls gotta put her pride down for a moment and get it over with
notliamhyde02 08/04/2022 4:38 PM
i understand that feeling of ickiness
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doesn’t make it better when growing up my parents would always seem overly cautious about money
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which now makes me wonder if i can or not
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Gets to work, it looks dead
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I then look at the diary
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And there's like a million tables
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+ the cunty people are make fun of how I speak and are the rudest people to exist ever
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I'm gonna cry
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Pls if anyone can come down...do it
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Also the fact that I now know who the racists, homophobes and everything under the sun people are is really upsetting
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I should not work in a public job
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Unblocks ex
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Someone stop me
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Actually don't
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I wanna send him a message
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mumblingmiss 08/04/2022 5:03 PM
Don't you fucking dare
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What if I just say Hi
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mumblingmiss 08/04/2022 5:03 PM
No
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That's illegal
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mumblingmiss 08/04/2022 5:03 PM
I'm calling the police
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Can't be breaking the law
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mumblingmiss 08/04/2022 5:04 PM
I will come see you soon at some point and I will hug you so goddamn hard
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mumblingmiss 08/04/2022 5:04 PM
And I'll buy a mcdonalds or smth
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The TEMPTATION to just friend him again is unreal
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I don't want to get back together
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I have new interests
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But I just am curious and want to see how he's doing
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mumblingmiss 08/04/2022 5:05 PM
Please don't
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I understand the curiosity I feel it all the time too
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But it can bring back the sad times
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And that's not very cash money
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Still tempted though
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mumblingmiss 08/04/2022 5:07 PM
Breathe through it
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DOES SOMEONE ELSE WANNA FRIEND HIM?
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Zach please don't, i know it sucks but you deserve better ok?
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I know, I promise it's mostly just curiosity bcs I hope he's ok after what I did
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I mostly wanna apologise
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mumblingmiss 08/04/2022 5:08 PM
You don't need to do anything, you don't need that kind of stress
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¯\(ツ)\
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If someone does, it's there
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😂😂😂😂
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mumblingmiss 08/04/2022 5:13 PM
CBanned
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Unblocks ex
notliamhyde02 08/04/2022 5:16 PM
block him again
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i will take your phone and block him again
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mumblingmiss 08/04/2022 5:16 PM
Block him harder
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notliamhyde02 08/04/2022 5:16 PM
do it
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i will take your phone and block him again
Do it then
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Dont you dare
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Do it then
notliamhyde02 08/04/2022 5:18 PM
i will
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You escaped that and dont let him anywhere near you again
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WELL YOU WON'T BCS NOW YOU AREN'T ABLE TO COME
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You escaped that and dont let him anywhere near you again
I can though
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And I'm bored
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WELL YOU WON'T BCS NOW YOU AREN'T ABLE TO COME
notliamhyde02 08/04/2022 5:18 PM
IK IM SORRY
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YOU SHOULD BE X
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And I'm bored
notliamhyde02 08/04/2022 5:18 PM
not worth it
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Eh it kinda is
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Closure and all that
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What closure is it actually going to give you tho
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Realistically
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You’ll go over what happened
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You’ll apologise
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He’ll either apologise and make you feel worse or not apologise and make you feel worse
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Then he has a doorway back into your life
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You don’t need the added stress
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I just want the pain again, I don't deserve happiness
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You do deserve happiness hun always
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There are better ways to get pain. Get someone and hug them until it hurts
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Sing until your throat aches
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Scream if you want that’s always therapeutic
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But online shit? That’s gonna only give you head pain it isn’t satisfying it’s an anxiety pain and that’s so much worse
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Watch a movie a sad movie. and let your heart out
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There are better ways to get pain. Get someone and hug them until it hurts
That was the plan, but now they can't come
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I can't I'm at work
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I'm just gonna do it
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bv i will come to you i swear
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I don’t know when I’d be able to come up I’m really sorry
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bv i will come to you i swear
Pls do, like actually donit
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mumblingmiss 08/04/2022 5:23 PM
Wish I could come to you rn darling
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Well it won't let me friend him
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And now I'm angry
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Please don’t add him what is it realistically going to do
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I literally can't
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It won't let me
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notliamhyde02 08/04/2022 5:25 PM
good
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Not really
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I wanted to retraumatise myself
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Put your phone away, focus on work for now and try to distract yourself. Have a big sing in the car on the way home and let everything out. Then maybe call someone if you feel that would help, I’m free if you need anything I’m not doing anything tomorrow I’m here for you as long as you need
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We love seeing old man grooming my 16 year old female colleague
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Fucking disgusting
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Asking her if she thinks they are attractive
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No you fucking aren't
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Fuck off
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Cunts
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Wtf Ew what is wrong with some people
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Asking her if she thinks they are attractive
notliamhyde02 08/04/2022 7:14 PM
hope she said they’re not
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Bcs they aren't
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notliamhyde02 08/04/2022 8:00 PM
good
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Confessions BOT 08/04/2022 10:34 PM
Anonymous Confession (#417)
"Kerryn is my little kitty kat uwu :33"
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ugh stop being so cute you little shits 🙄
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ugh stop being so cute you little shits 🙄
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@B approve my confession you whore
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brandon i will fuck your dad if you don't behave
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yes you'll see me as your new mother
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yes you'll see me as your new mother
I encourage you to try to fuck my father
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WHO simps for my mum
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is that a challenge?
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Who is an Incel conservative
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i can fix him
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Who is an Incel conservative
Fuckboy Drag King 08/04/2022 10:45 PM
arun
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AHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAH
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@B so is your father single
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i can fix him
Badgers at Dawn (he/him) 08/04/2022 10:50 PM
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rip that dog's balls
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LMAO
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livestream of me with brandon after all the shit he said tonight
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Confessions BOT 08/05/2022 9:21 AM
Anonymous Confession (#433)
"woke up from the saddest dreams that will affect my whole day now"
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Have a breakfast you really like try and distract your mind on better things, I hope you're okay 🫂
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yeah the sunshine is helping a lot but it's just the annoyance of trying to get some rest and waking up bc my brain is playing scenarios that make me want to cry lol
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just let me sleep? i don't need a recounting of my memories
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Okay oof
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Commit like facemask and cold drink that always makes me feel better when my head's being loud
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hmm got the cold drink, now I'm writing about investment efficiency so brain full
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There are amazing sheet masks on amazon I discovered over lockdown I used to do them every monday religiously ~ guess this is my reminder to start doing that again
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great thing about WFH is that i can just play a random youtube deep dive in the background so if my mind wanders even a little from Capital Gains Tax, it's filled with streamer drama from like 2017
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WHY DOES AMAZON IN THE SEARCH BAR IMMEDIATELY TAKE ME TO A DUREX PAGE I HAVE NEVER BOUGHT CONDOMS IN MY LIFE
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mumblingmiss 08/05/2022 10:45 AM
Lmao
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LoLo <3
There are amazing sheet masks on amazon I discovered over lockdown I used to do them every monday religiously ~ guess this is my reminder to start doing that again
ooooh might ask you for a link
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WHY DOES AMAZON IN THE SEARCH BAR IMMEDIATELY TAKE ME TO A DUREX PAGE I HAVE NEVER BOUGHT CONDOMS IN MY LIFE
amazon predicting the future maybe?
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i have had a bunch of condoms in my bag for a couple months now and i thankfully have never touched them
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mumblingmiss 08/05/2022 10:47 AM
Use them as water balloons to make yourself happier
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They have pomegranate, green tea, aloe vera and honey ~ it's an 8 pack for £8 Tho I might get a subscription you know as a treat for myself 😳
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most action they've seen is when my housemate sheepishly knocked on my door to ask for one
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i have had a bunch of condoms in my bag for a couple months now and i thankfully have never touched them
I've got packs if I needed them but generally I've used whoever's I've been with
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I did put a pack in a kitchen drawer at the start of the year communally so anyone could use them same w pregnancy tests but they were untouched when I left
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"can i get a,,," "a what" "you know,,," "dan pls use words" "well you know, like, my girlfriend's over, so you know, like the, i know you have some, i forgot and i don't want a, uh, can i" "ohhhh"
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"can i get a,,," "a what" "you know,,," "dan pls use words" "well you know, like, my girlfriend's over, so you know, like the, i know you have some, i forgot and i don't want a, uh, can i" "ohhhh"
Are they okay??
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LMAO they're fine
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What's wrong w 'yo you got any condoms
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it was just hilarious to me bc he was bright red
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What's wrong w 'yo you got any condoms
physics student who did multiple compsci modules
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that should explain it
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Wow you described my ex bf wtf
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LMAO
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'It was a compsci module or a chemistry' WHY ARE YOU DOING A FOUNDATION YEAR FOR A PHYSICS DEGREE GO TO THERAPY
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lovely guy, just a massive prude when it comes to women
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he's liked this girl since 1st year and he only asked her out the week before she left for a semester abroad in 3rd year
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Oh bless
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but I'm proud of him. watched my little man grow up 🥺
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That's actually kinda sweet
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it was the funniest shit bc she's liked him this whole time too and just ??? they were both too scared to say anything for 3 years ???
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meanwhile here's to me asking people out a week after meeting them
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Lmao when I met my first gf it took 3 months to ask her out
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I was gonna do it at London pride but was too scared I was reading into things too much so waited until we got back to hers
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awww that's absolutely adorable
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at least you got there in the end 🫂
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She's one of the most wonderful people I've ever met and one of my closest friends now
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v happy and proud of you
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idk how i psych myself up to it but i know asking someone out is a major, anxiety-inducing thing
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i suppose if i like someone that much that it overrides my anxiety
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tho i usually do it by sandwiching it between two unrelated topics
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"that party was really great. do you want to go out for coffee sometime? can't believe Lo threw up on my shoes" etc etc
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I just went ‘I was too nervous to ask you earlier but do you wanna be my gf’ and she was like yeah
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mumblingmiss 08/05/2022 12:06 PM
Got a headache again and it's not like it's painful but it's just there and it's frustrating. I burn through 4head sticks like it's my day job
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notliamhyde02 08/05/2022 1:18 PM
ok so we’ve got people looking at our electrics next week
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and my mum is insisting on cleaning the entire house
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sure things need dusting and stuff
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but that’s pretty much it
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she’s wanting us to clean everything like the fucking queen is coming round (edited)
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notliamhyde02 08/05/2022 2:05 PM
and now ive just been lectured at about how i might want kids in the future when i know i don’t
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literally a half hour lecture
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This house will be the actual fucking death of me, I'm so done with this
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Its the house I've moved into
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The WiFi isn't working, the boiler and oven wasn't working the other day, I just had to pry the gas meter box open and just aaaaaa
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Like all these are small things but they require me to call up and I've been calling up a lot or going and talking to them but every time one thing gets sorted, there's another thing
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Thank you Bv
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Thanks, I really appreciate it
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Its just really frustrating because i have no clue what I'm doing, I've had no support with this from my parents and it's just so so annoying
15:22
Makes me feel so fucking useless
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Dude I am not gonna ask you to drive to Norwich because I can't fix my WiFi and its giving me a meltdown 😂
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You're fantastic bv, I think I'm just going to go to my friends that I've been staying with for a bit to calm down probably
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thanks
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Confessions BOT 08/05/2022 4:47 PM
Anonymous Confession (#435)
"tw: self harm I fucking hurt myself again fuck fuck fuck. I don't know why this is happening I never actually did anything like this even at my lowest points but now that I'm happy and feeling good it's like I can hardly stop myself until it's too late and I've cut again and I feel so ashamed of it. It's gonna be really hard to tell my doctor"
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Sometimes there isn't a reason. You can be in a good place but your head needs some time to catch up. It sucks and I'm really sorry you're dealing with that op. Your doctor will understand that healing isn't necessarily linear and even when you are happier when things aren't as good for a period you can turn to coping mechanisms that aren't always the most healthy. That's okay, you're doing what you need to to cope. Sit with your feelings, acknowledge them. Get to know where your head's at in those moments, you're allowed to cry, you're allowed to feel. There are a lot of alternatives online that're meant to help, only one I found useful was drawing on myself, but different things work for different people. I'm here if you want to talk 💗 hope you're feeling okay
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🫂 I'm so sorry you're going through something that makes you do that. you're wonderful OP, and i would suggest reaching out to someone. you're here bc we all care about you so pls don't suffer alone
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From some of the reading I've done self harm is mostly a response to potent, strong emotions that the brain is unable to regulate easily. Which is why its prevalent in those with depression and in poor conditions. However, if you're brain struggles to process positive things as well then it'll reach for its go to coping mechanism - harm. You cannot blame yourself for responding the way you're used to. The only real way to combat it is to try and find other coping mechanisms and make the conscious effort to hot wire your brain into relying on those instead.
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Regardless OP, progress isn't linear, do your best to be kind to yourself. You are worthy of love and forgiveness, take your time and do what you can. We're all here for you
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Confessions BOT 08/05/2022 7:53 PM
Anonymous Confession (#438)
"feeling just off at this point. tomorrow is going to be a day of painful self reflection at best or a day of really shitty memories and emotions at worst"
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Just found a comment section on TikTok of people defending someone who was bullied out of school when they said they watched child hentai stuff. I’m honestly sick.
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Just found a comment section on TikTok of people defending someone who was bullied out of school when they said they watched child hentai stuff. I’m honestly sick.
Honestly, this shit really pisses me off
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We should not be defending ANYTHING to do with child pornography. I dont care if its animated its fucking wrong
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We should not be defending ANYTHING to do with child pornography. I dont care if its animated its fucking wrong
Someone is literally defending it saying it’s just anime, are you going to arrest all anime people. Idk how that justifies anything.
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'It's just a drawing' yes but it normalises child porn if you go into it knowing they're intended to be underage it's still a big fucking problem
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if it's just a drawing then why don't they jack off to gay hentai even tho they're straight lol. if they say they're not attracted to men then that's admission that they're attracted to children
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Just deleted TikTok. I’m sick of that shit.
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I had tiktok for about 2 weeks. Despised how algorithmic the content was and uninstalled it
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Confessions BOT 08/06/2022 4:44 PM
Anonymous Confession (#456)
"im the person from yesterday about feeling off and dreading today, its actually gone really well. still a slight off feeling but overall feeling better and not letting it define my mood where i dont need to :)"
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I hate having body hair I can't wait for this bleeding to stop and I can finally fucking shave again. I know it's a thing for some people but I can't bear having any hair below the eyebrows I just want to look like me again
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Currently watching the mens diving with family. They’re all really attractive and I’m dying inside cos I’m sure I must be blushing. Idk I’m just trying to keep a straight face. 😭
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This is why I'm on my laptop instead of watching it w my mum bc I'm sure she's the exact same and I do NOT need that
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Taste 😅
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I’m planning to buy some when I’ve worked out enough. 😅
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I want to be able to eat and not have a food baby.
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I bloat like hell too doesn't make us any less hot
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notliamhyde02 08/06/2022 7:13 PM
shut the fuck up have you seen me
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Bodies are meant to have a layer of fat darling otherwise we'd rip when we stand up
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notliamhyde02 08/06/2022 7:14 PM
you literally are tho
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notliamhyde02 08/06/2022 7:14 PM
ik
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Chubby bodies are beautiful but you don't need to be attracted to them for them to be valid and good
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LoLo <3
Chubby bodies are beautiful but you don't need to be attracted to them for them to be valid and good
notliamhyde02 08/06/2022 7:14 PM
preach
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The same goes for you Zach
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notliamhyde02 08/06/2022 7:15 PM
im happy to be chubby
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You're beautiful
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19:15
Regardless as to the way you see yourself
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notliamhyde02 08/06/2022 7:15 PM
ah fuck kept pressing the wrong one
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notliamhyde02 08/06/2022 7:16 PM
going to slap you
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in a non kinky way
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I haven't seen most of your body, I love you platonically. You have a very lovely face and really pretty hair. But your personality is beautiful. I find with most people, their physical appearances are the most boring things about them. If you're nothing but your body, you're gonna be boring. Anyone who is going to be seeing those parts of you, is going to be someone you're close to in that way, and they will love your body for how and what it is, because they will be with you for who you are, not how you look. You might be chubbier than you like, I have no scope of what your body looks like, but nobody taking off your clothes is going to be thinking you could be making improvements on your body but yourself. Give yourself a break, you're doing good
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You get home okay?
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Or are you still in the pub?
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Glad you got back safe 💗 Anything you want to talk about?
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Norwich is missing you too, it won't be long now and when you get here we can do all sorts of fun things
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I'm really sad you're gonna be there and go before I get there
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But it really isn't long now
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I'm going to annoy you so much you'll be missing the peace and quiet Bv
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!!!!
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No pressure but I'm sure I speak for a lot of people here when I say that would be awesome!
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notliamhyde02 08/06/2022 9:38 PM
fuck your ex
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i’ll get a hitman on him
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We can go halves to save money?
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Your ex is an asshole. That being said, understanding what your feelings are and sitting with them isn't a bad thing, and there's no harm in crying. I'm just sorry you're being so sad.
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We're here for you Bv 🫂
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You got this and you're not doing it alone alright?
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If you want to call literally whenever, please do
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Or join a vc on here so anyone can join
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I'd be so down for that
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Okay, don't panic, sometimes that stuff blocks itself out of your head. Are you able to clean it up patch yourself up?
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I'm sorry Zach I'd give you the biggest hug if I could
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Sending you virtual hugs
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I mean it'll get the adrenaline out
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Oh fun
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Can you delete the shared doc from your thing?
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Okay mood but also oof
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I assumed it was for laundry
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Imagine sharing meals w your housemates I could never
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We didn't even have Christmas actually
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OMG BIG GAY CHRISTMAS PARTY???
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gay christmas when?
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We could do it in the kitchen on campus @Unknown was talking about
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That way we could all do it
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Then all go sit somewhere and blast christmas music
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Omg no but I'm getting excited for Christmas IN AUGUST
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I don't really do getting excited
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They got out the videocamera and have film of me saying 'no thank you' to 'do you want to go to Disneyworld'
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Uni has me a changed woman
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be gay do excitement hail satan
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We could do it in the kitchen on campus @Unknown was talking about
its called the green room i think, in the union house
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22:56
should be able to just book it on booker i think, doesnt say it needs to be for a society or anything
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If it did we could always just open it up to the whole of pride soc
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The more the merrier as far as I'm concerned, tho idk how big the room is
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Confessions BOT 08/07/2022 12:33 AM
Anonymous Confession (#466)
"your abandonment issues and painful memories of your ex always appear when your walking alone at night. Fuck. Sake."
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Confessions BOT 08/07/2022 11:23 AM
Anonymous Confession (#467)
"All these cute people here falling in love and having crushes... I want someone to love too goddamn guys, save some for me 😂"
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mumblingmiss 08/07/2022 11:36 AM
Hi OP, I'm your girlfriend now. That's just how it is.
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Yay another person to add to the tangled web of lore
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mumblingmiss 08/07/2022 11:37 AM
Also, you'll have someone to love in your own time and when they come around in your life they will be so lucky to have you. Sometimes love really is worth waiting for 💖
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notliamhyde02 08/07/2022 7:24 PM
very tiny rant but i just want to be at uni now
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want to start second year and move in to my house
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i found a notes app for my ipad that i wanna use in lectures
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actually get some use out of the apple pencil i bought
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if i’m not gonna draw
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Confessions BOT 08/07/2022 7:32 PM
Anonymous Confession (#477)
"ugh i fucked up"
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Fucked up how op?
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notliamhyde02
very tiny rant but i just want to be at uni now
I feel this, I’ve been doing as much pre-reading as possible and planning ahead for my routine etc
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Just want to be back with my friends now
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notliamhyde02 08/07/2022 7:40 PM
mm
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ive not yet pre read anything but i do kind of miss uni life
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well some of it but still
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my short term memory has gone to hell right now and its starting to drive me mad
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my short term memory has gone to hell right now and its starting to drive me mad
Context?
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Confessions BOT 08/07/2022 8:19 PM
Anonymous Confession (#478)
"im ok, not to worry"
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LoLo <3
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lots of small things, forgetting something id say id do, forgetting what i was supposed to be doing, where i left stuff, just adds up over time
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Oh fair
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I use notes app then transfer it to post it notes on my wall
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(I get overwhelmed when I use to do lists most of the time)
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mumblingmiss 08/07/2022 8:58 PM
Playing a dangerous game there I see
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notliamhyde02 08/07/2022 9:01 PM
living life on the edge
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mumblingmiss 08/07/2022 9:03 PM
Stitch?
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notliamhyde02 08/07/2022 9:04 PM
jealous
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mumblingmiss 08/07/2022 9:18 PM
Aw looks like one of the ones you can get at disneyland
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So cute 😍
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Oh fr
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Wait here
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notliamhyde02 08/07/2022 9:21 PM
that’s actually so adorable omfg
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i just want a djungelskog and/or a blahaj
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mumblingmiss 08/07/2022 9:21 PM
:)
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I just remembered getting my old friend the same stitch you have lmao
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Oh shit lmao
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21:26
So giving people stitch and angel teddies is kinda cursed then huh
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i just want a djungelskog and/or a blahaj
I’m literally right here
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Tall andcuddly (edited)
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LIKE COME ON
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B
LIKE COME ON
notliamhyde02 08/07/2022 9:30 PM
WELL COME HERE THEN
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Majority of this server is in Norwich
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notliamhyde02 08/07/2022 9:31 PM
istg i will name my djungelskog brandon and my blahaj zach
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mumblingmiss 08/07/2022 9:32 PM
just get married already
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mumblingmiss
just get married already
notliamhyde02 08/07/2022 9:34 PM
don’t
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tempt
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me
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I’m literally right here
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mumblingmiss 08/07/2022 9:35 PM
I'll literally hold the ceremony for you I stg
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mumblingmiss 08/07/2022 9:35 PM
I'm gonna have nightmares
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HAHAUEIEJEUEJE
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notliamhyde02 08/07/2022 9:37 PM
ONFG
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notliamhyde02 08/07/2022 9:37 PM
you flip those words RIGHT NOW
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LMFAO
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mumblingmiss 08/07/2022 9:38 PM
crisisbitch crisisbitch crisisbitch
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Confessions BOT 08/07/2022 11:05 PM
Anonymous Confession (#481)
"Why do I feel sad at the end of a day? I just feel like every good thing I’m planning is just fantasy and pretty soon I will be back to reality."
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it feels like that a lot but you'll be able to do the things you're thinking of
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Confessions BOT 08/09/2022 8:42 AM
Anonymous Confession (#522)
"loneliness has been hitting quite hard lately. post-graduate life is not the one… very lost, much a mess"
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I’m sure if you’re anywhere near Norwich you can come hang out w people when there are plans going? I’ll be back permanently in September and wanna do stuff w loads of people and if I’m talking about plans in meet-ups here the genera vibe is everyone’s invited
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Stop fucking hitting on me oh my god you had me absolutely demolished 6 months ago and I pulled myself up tooth and nail to get back on my feet without ruining myself entirely. I have a life I live for myself now, not worrying about doing a degree your mother would approve of or how I was going to afford paying for your therapy while you didn't want to work. I want to be your friend goddamnit but there is a line with friendly flirting go hit on your new partner who's so out your league it isn't even funny and has no idea you're calling your ex gf hot or telling her how lovely it would be to spend the night together again. They deserve better than you, I deserved better than you. I went back 3 fucking times for you and kept getting hurt but I've grown and learnt enough that I can move the fuck on. How can you come out with this shit now I tell you how happy I am with someone else? Communicate with your fucking partner if you're not happy but don't try and cheat with me it won't work
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Sorry about that everyone I had to get that out of my system. Guess who's meeting up with their ex this weekend?
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I'm sorry you're going through this, she should respect your boundaries and that you've moved on and it's not right that she's doing this. you're not an accessory that she gets to fall back on whenever she feels lonely. you're wonderful so keep your resolve steady and make sure you're comfortable before meeting her again 🫂
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mumblingmiss 08/09/2022 10:33 AM
I'm sorry to see how upset this has made you, your ex needs to back off and you don't deserve this kind of treatment from anyone. I hope you're doing okay and don't feel like you need to do anything that makes you uncomfortable, you set your own boundaries and nobody gets to cross them like that. Here for you ❤️ 🫂
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They're my best friend of 5 years I'm not willing to break our friendship group over this but clearly I need to communicate better boundaries bc she's not getting how much of a thing this is like yeah I was fine w it when I was in love w them but I can't go through that again, I've moved on and she needs to too. Thanks for the support guys
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mumblingmiss 08/09/2022 3:16 PM
Really wanna hang out with people but it's too warm and I'm broke af right now 😭
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mood 🫂
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pain
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registering on evision right now and my personal details have recorded me with Miss as a title and Female gender, which is great, but I now have to say these details are incorrect because thats not the legal case and not the details student finance have :)
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16:44
love having to misgender myself, its fun
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Don't you just love dealing with bureaucracy
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adore it
16:47
first time doing this with my changed name, I love how accepting the uni has been and that theyve clearly recorded this stuff when they asked about it before, hate how I know have to correct them for legal reasons
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Legal documents are such a fucking hassle
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new issue in having to try and get hold of my medical records to find out whether or not I've been noted down with mental health stuff before, because they never told me, just prescribed me stuff :)
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i hate any form of registration or paperwork, it is so frustrating
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If they prescribed you stuff for mental health they probably have made notes
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Can we register now then? When I tried before it wouldn’t let me
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It's up on Evision now I think
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Nice I’ll have to try and remember to do that, Ty
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and yeah I just need to check if it was an actual diagnosis or if it was just a treatment, I don't want to say I do or don't if it's wrong
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I feel so conspired against… I made all these plans for travel and house/apartment viewings today and one of the viewings got cancelled last minute after I already walked there, another one got delayed by like 30 mins so I had to stand in the sun only to turn out to be a waste of time anyway, and then the connecting train I was going to take back got cancelled (managed to figure out another way to make the connection luckily)
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Why did the universe want to mess with my plans so much today….
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sounds really stressful, hope youre okay and can rest soon 🫂
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mumblingmiss 08/09/2022 5:56 PM
Just putting this here bc I think you guys will find it funny and also v disgusting. I'm pretty annoyed rn after finding out my ex (who I was with almost 6 years) is now just started dating a girl with the same forename as me, and sure if my name was super common that would be fine but I haven't encountered many people going by Cheyenne in my life and somehow he's attracted to someone that just happens to share my name. He probably heard the name and automatically clinged on to the poor girl. I might be overreacting but kinda feels icky and like somebody's got issues that I really don't wanna be confronting.
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Yeah pretty much one of the big reasons I split up with him
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Thanks 😊
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And yeah I really noticed it when I was at my worst and dropped out of my first uni and moved back home and he kept silently following me around the accommodation building when I was packing 😬
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Some people are real dodgy 👀
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Yeah take me as a lesson that you can know someone for a long time and not actually know them
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notliamhyde02 08/09/2022 7:20 PM
bin them
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Good
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Yes, that, exactly
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musical and baking as expressions of happiness are perfect
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Blasting heathers?
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hope youre doing well though
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do the reprise
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send confusing signals
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oh right
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perhaps not
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mumblingmiss 08/09/2022 7:28 PM
biscuits? 👉 👈
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Confessions BOT 08/09/2022 7:30 PM
Anonymous Confession (#533)
"FEEL LIKE SUCH AN ARSEHOLE RIGHT NOW FUCK"
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mumblingmiss 08/09/2022 7:30 PM
Hey OP, what's up?? I'm sure you aren't babes
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The Bvambulance is on its way
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BRANSON YOU WHORE
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IT WORKS SO WELL
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mumblingmiss 08/09/2022 7:33 PM
You've now been given a classic CB nickname
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I SHOULD HAVE NEVER TOLD YOU ABOUT THIS ADMIN POWER
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mahariel
BRANSON YOU WHORE
Branson? Like the pickle?
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no like the virgin media founder bc he's a fuckin virgin
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mahariel
no like the virgin media founder bc he's a fuckin virgin
What happened this time?
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mumblingmiss 08/09/2022 7:34 PM
ANY TIME
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LoLo <3
What happened this time?
mumblingmiss 08/09/2022 7:34 PM
posh boobs
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LoLo <3
What happened this time?
look at my name
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Lmao
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Funniest shit I've ever seen
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evil
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mahariel
look at my name
I thought you did that on purpose
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mumblingmiss 08/09/2022 7:36 PM
Couldve at least called them by their proper name: titties
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@Unknown there now we match 💗
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awww cute
19:36
love boobs
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mahariel
love boobs
Boobs 💗
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mahariel
love boobs
Boobs are great this is true
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Love having them
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LoLo <3
Boobs 💗
Wow really embracing my inner chrissy chlapeka here
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"Ok, hear me out. So it's about this guy named Bran. He's a scientist that turns himself into a pickle. Funniest thing I've seen. In the episode Bran's granddaughter Freyja flips over a talking pickle... And its Bran! It's the funniest thing."
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mumblingmiss 08/09/2022 7:38 PM
This escalated quick
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Wow really embracing my inner chrissy chlapeka here
oh me oh my
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This server right now
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wait is B Freyja's grandparent or parent?
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yes
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mumblingmiss 08/09/2022 7:39 PM
Both
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Yes
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i have no idea how to make this work but i will make it work
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wait is B Freyja's grandparent or parent?
Parent according to the lore so let’s make it grandparent so it’s more complicated 💗
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on it
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tho tbf we're due a new matching nickname update
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This is true this is true
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If I ever get into a relationship tho I wanna do matching profile names
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okay which one of you is B's child
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awwww
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freyja is my child from a previous marriage
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ohh so its adoption
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mumblingmiss 08/09/2022 7:40 PM
B leave my boobs alone
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@B scary boobs
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Yesss boob gang
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SCARY BOOBS
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mahariel
freyja is my child from a previous marriage
Yeah you got me in the divorce
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god's favourite boobs
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Ripfangs
Yeah you got me in the divorce
won custody bc your father is a goddamn deadbeat
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no
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unfortunately not B
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uh
YES
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mumblingmiss 08/09/2022 7:42 PM
Wasn't I your child too
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It’s all coming together
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i think so?
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@Unknown OnlyBoobs?
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it's a wip okay
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What
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HAHAHA
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notliamhyde02 08/09/2022 7:46 PM
wtf i was about to change my name to the server boobs and it’s already changed
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reading through a 60 page document because i was only emailed about a surprised appointment tomorrow last night and only saw it this morning :)
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reading through a 60 page document because i was only emailed about a surprised appointment tomorrow last night and only saw it this morning :)
Change it back Erin
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i miss having lots of alcohol
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B o o b s GODDAMNIT
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reading through a 60 page document because i was only emailed about a surprised appointment tomorrow last night and only saw it this morning :)
Oh oof I am so sorry
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i miss having lots of alcohol
Drinks when I come back week after next?
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sure
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i have no mixers but sure lol
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This place is so fucking fancy
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well i have a bit of carbonated vimto left but that's going to be used up by tonight
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Nah I'll need to stock up when I move in 👀
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i have no alcohol 🥺
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have had a stone cold sober month
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ah maybe i should not be talking about alcohol
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Uncle Steff is coming over taking us out for drinks so I'm getting wasted xo
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mumblingmiss 08/09/2022 7:49 PM
If you yall want some gordon's original gin lmk
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And that would be so sad
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this booklet can fuck itself with how much its calling me out
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id set it on fire but its on drive so its a bit hard to
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ill print it off tomorrow at the uni then do it
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Confessions BOT 08/09/2022 8:46 PM
Anonymous Confession (#537)
"why can’t i just have good things for one second without fucking it up? feel like i’m just in a cycle of having good things and then bad things fucking everything up and now im back at the start, just sad and miserable"
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I'm sorry OP, I hope you're okay 🫂 I really hope things improve for you again soon, you deserve good things and hopefully you'll get them properly soon ❤️
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notliamhyde02 08/09/2022 11:05 PM
i want to cut all my hair off
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just showered and spent like half an hour trying to brush it out but it all managed to tangle up and i hate it
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now i’m pissed off
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keep finding hairs on myself
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Lean your head to the side and go from the bottom up with brushing like little bits at a time that's the easiest way to tease out tangles
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Confessions BOT 08/09/2022 11:22 PM
Anonymous Confession (#541)
"well there goes my trust again"
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Do you wanna talk about it op?
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Confessions BOT 08/09/2022 11:31 PM
Anonymous Confession (#542)
"do I confess to my crush or to I just. Not. Fucking hate this"
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Go for it op!!!
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notliamhyde02 08/09/2022 11:35 PM
here to talk if you need it?
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Confessions BOT 08/10/2022 8:35 AM
Anonymous Confession (#545)
"Just want to meet new people going into my next year of uni! Friends, possibly more, even if not I'm feeling positive about the year ahead ❤️"
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You got this op! We're here for you ~ I don't know who you are but if I haven't met you already and you're on here then I wanna meet you!!
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Confessions BOT 08/10/2022 1:22 PM
Anonymous Confession (#547)
"frightened that I'm now not welcome here and that I've lost one of my closest friends"
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Idk the context but if you're close surely you can talk about it? Communication is so important
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Confessions BOT 08/10/2022 5:36 PM
Anonymous Confession (#548)
"had a good day but overloomed with another stress"
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All the campus accommodation for students with disabilities have all been reserved so I am really pissed. It’s not my fault I was only recently diagnosed and didn’t know I could apply in January. This is a shit system and I am really angry. At the accommodation only having 50 spaces and at myself for getting excited about moving on campus.
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I’m now looking at if campus accommodation close to uni but as it’s so late I bet most are taken up and only shit ones are left.
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They said I’m on a waiting list but that doesn’t mean anything. There’s probably a heap of people ahead of me.
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Thanks for the offer. I just need to be a maximum walk of 5-10 mins from campus and I’m sure they’ll have actual ovens of campus.
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I@ not getting my hopes up.
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Naaah, it’s really not something you should need to help with.
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If it's any reassurance I know a few disabled people who got in through clearing and they got rooms so it's not an impossibility that you'll be accepted
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Obviously there's no guarantee so it might be good to get some backup options
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But there's no certain either way you might get lucky depending on exam results this year
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LoLo <3
If it's any reassurance I know a few disabled people who got in through clearing and they got rooms so it's not an impossibility that you'll be accepted
Thanks, that’s actually great to hear. Im just waiting for access to the of campus residence finder.
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That makes sense, good luck! I'm sorry this has been so stressful for you
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Confessions BOT 08/10/2022 6:54 PM
Anonymous Confession (#549)
"If I wasn't going to visit a friend tomorrow, I honestly not entirely sure I could stay sane right now"
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Anonymous Confession (#550)
"Music is such a good therapy, it always helps"
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So true
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ForestBae🎄 08/10/2022 6:58 PM
Facts, been listen to the Lightning Thief musical basically on loop last month and probs gonna do it this month
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notliamhyde02 08/10/2022 7:12 PM
i just feel shit
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idk if it’s something i’ve eaten but i don’t feel good
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hope you feel better soon :/
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notliamhyde02 08/10/2022 7:14 PM
also just stressed about things that really shouldn’t be stressing me out
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but whatever
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probably only affecting me cos i feel shit
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Are you okay liam? I’m here if you need to talk 🫂
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If you’re bloaty there’s a really good method I learnt on tumblr where if you put 4 fingers above your belly button and push in a little on the 2 furthest away and rub in like gentle circular motion (not hard bc ow ~ it’s not meant to hurt, your tummy will make weird noises tho) it makes the bloat go away and will help make you feel a bit better
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notliamhyde02 08/10/2022 7:17 PM
not so much bloated
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just a rumbly tummy
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had one all day
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can’t think why tho
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but thank you
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Confessions BOT 08/10/2022 7:46 PM
Anonymous Confession (#552)
"I fucking hate everything at the moment. I'm fed up of being trans and being misgendered and not looking like me. I'm sick of being depressed and I'm so done with being traumatised. I've tried to look for therapy and it's just not accessible to me because of money and wait lists. I just want one day where I don't want to kill myself or have a flashback. I know its my fault and I don't deserve it but i want a break"
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I'm so sorry OP, here to talk if you want 🫂 I don't know your exact situation, but I do get how daunting waiting lists can be, and how it can feel so isolating and disconnecting to not be able to reach the help you need when you need it. But if you do ever need support from friends, I'm here for you, even if it's not the same as professional help it might help just to know your heard, and have people who can help distract you from stuff - even for a bit - if you want. Hope things improve 🫂
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You can get a one off therapy session through uni, I had one at the start of the year and it really helped me, might be helpful for you too. I don’t know what it’s like being trans for obvious reasons and I’m not going to pretend otherwise but I know it isn’t easy. We’re all on your side, if you ever need support we’re here for you. Gender is never anyone’s ‘fault’ it’s just a thing that exists and fucks people over sometimes. I don’t know who you are but if you need a place to crash and not be misgendered once we’re all back in Norwich you’re welcome to crash with me for a bit and not think about shit and I’ll do everything in my power to support you. I hope you’re managing okay, my DMs are open if you want to talk 💗💗
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mumblingmiss 08/10/2022 8:15 PM
I hate how often I seem to be posting in here but hey. It's been a long time since I've spoken to any of my long distance friends and I haven't really had the confidence to join any of the voice channels and start communication again but today I've really been building myself up to it and have wanted to talk to them all again but I go to our group and look at who is in the voice channel and now there's no chance I'll join bc my fucking ex is in there so he's a twat and his mate who verbally abused me all the time after the breakup is in there too. I hate cutting people off and I love my lads so much but just when you want to be a part of it again you realise who else they're friends with. And I've had enough of being the person who always initiatives conversations too, I'm always the hey how are you person but they never provide me that same simple courtesy. They're all I have left of me from before college and those are hard relations to let go of when there's nothing left. Sorry to go on and on again. (edited)
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I hate how often I seem to be posting in here but hey. It's been a long time since I've spoken to any of my long distance friends and I haven't really had the confidence to join any of the voice channels and start communication again but today I've really been building myself up to it and have wanted to talk to them all again but I go to our group and look at who is in the voice channel and now there's no chance I'll join bc my fucking ex is in there so he's a twat and his mate who verbally abused me all the time after the breakup is in there too. I hate cutting people off and I love my lads so much but just when you want to be a part of it again you realise who else they're friends with. And I've had enough of being the person who always initiatives conversations too, I'm always the hey how are you person but they never provide me that same simple courtesy. They're all I have left of me from before college and those are hard relations to let go of when there's nothing left. Sorry to go on and on again. (edited)
You’re allowed to be messed up by that anyone would be!! I’m sorry your ex got in the way of you reaching out that really sucks 🫂 is there a chance you could message a few separately so you don’t have to acknowledge your ex as part of that group and just keep in touch with the ones you want to? We’re always here if you want to chat ik we’re not the same as pre-uni people but we’ve got your back 🫂💗
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ForestBae🎄 08/10/2022 8:54 PM
Can people not glare at my family just cause we are different looking
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Just cause we are a different race doesn’t mean we can’t be at a holiday park as well
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thats awful im so sorry
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hope youre all okay 🫂
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I’d say blow them a kiss and carry on with your day or stare back but idk if that’s really bad advice
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But ignore them probably works pretty good too
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ForestBae🎄
Can people not glare at my family just cause we are different looking
that's awful wtf. hope you aren't too shaken up by it
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LoLo <3
You’re allowed to be messed up by that anyone would be!! I’m sorry your ex got in the way of you reaching out that really sucks 🫂 is there a chance you could message a few separately so you don’t have to acknowledge your ex as part of that group and just keep in touch with the ones you want to? We’re always here if you want to chat ik we’re not the same as pre-uni people but we’ve got your back 🫂💗
mumblingmiss 08/10/2022 9:10 PM
Thank you 💖
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Confessions BOT 08/10/2022 11:17 PM
Anonymous Confession (#554)
"I'm honestly terrified. I know it's my brain being irrational, but there are things all over my house, hiding and they will kill me if I don't kill myself first. Help, the dark is not my friend"
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Confessions BOT 08/10/2022 11:29 PM
Anonymous Confession (#555)
"now I’m home I am thinking about the last night more and more and anxiety building up"
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notliamhyde02 08/11/2022 12:04 PM
hate myself
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:)
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need to punch something
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notliamhyde02 08/11/2022 12:54 PM
nothing serious im just being stupid
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letting myself get angry and making myself upset (edited)
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Confessions BOT 08/11/2022 3:02 PM
Anonymous Confession (#556)
"i struggle so much to concentrate right now and with everything that needs to be done with cleaning, sorting out utilities for the place we're moving into (something i havent done before so learning it for the first time), having to sort out contents insurance and just generally keeping my mental health in check it just feels like every time i get a slight respite its a matter of time until pressure builds up and i have a bunch of new things to deal with, and i just feel so useless as i can do fuck all right now"
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Anonymous Confession (#557)
"so I guess that My friendship means nothing to someone now. Heart been broke so many times"
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Confessions BOT 08/11/2022 3:10 PM
Anonymous Confession (#558)
"me: opens up about my growth and learning to like someone again. Them: ok what if I make it hurt"
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im sorry OP, hope youre okay
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Confessions BOT 08/11/2022 3:19 PM
Anonymous Confession (#559)
"feel so selfish feeling bad about myself but knowing my friends gonna end up really hurt aswell"
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I don't know the details of your situation, but try not to hold yourself accountable for everything. It doesn't sound like you intentionally want to hurt anyone, and if you've tried your hardest to try and prevent that, there isn't much you else you can do. That's not your fault though
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Confessions BOT 08/11/2022 3:22 PM
Anonymous Confession (#560)
"I haven’t hurt anyone. It’s just something I know is gonna hurt both of us and I feel guilty feeling bad about myself knowing they’re gonna be in pain too"
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You're allowed to feel bad about yourself, there is never a situation where you're not allowed to feel things in my opinion. It's not something you should feel guilty about, it's not even something you could really control if you wanted to
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I do hope you feel better soon though 🫂
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Honestly I feel an urge to delete this server sometimes
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Because genuinely something hurts me so much to a point that I can’t help crying
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And it’s not fair to do that to the majority of people here and I guess it’s my own fault
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But damn
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(Sorry I won’t delete the server I just needed to get this off my chest) (edited)
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I'm sorry you feel like that, hope you're okay, here if you do want to talk 🫂
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mumblingmiss 08/11/2022 4:34 PM
Hope you're okay B, always here if you ever need to talk or vent or anything 💗 you don't deserve to hurt
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hey bran, ik how you're hurting rn and it's such a shitty situation but I'm here for you 🫂 (edited)
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hey bran, ik how you're hurting rn and it's such a shitty situation but I'm here for you 🫂 (edited)
Thanks it just seems like history really repeats itself huh
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mumblingmiss 08/11/2022 4:40 PM
Yeah it sucks that somehow the same shit can keep happening 😕
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I know it’s hard rn but it’s gonna be okay B just do what you need to cope 🫂🫂
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mumblingmiss 08/11/2022 4:42 PM
If you ever want to meet up and chill or get a coffee or smth lmk, always here to listen xx
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notliamhyde02 08/11/2022 4:51 PM
ffs im getting a headache
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me rn - please tell me someone played this
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hungry hungry hippos?
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mahariel
hungry hungry hippos?
its buckaroo, when you pile stuff onto the back
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and it snaps when it has too much
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loser is who makees it snap
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ohhh
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@Unknown we can probably find it in a charity shop or we can play it in blue bar at some point
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OOOH YES PLS
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wait hold on i have an idea 🤭
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mahariel
wait hold on i have an idea 🤭
I know what you're thinking and don't you even dare...
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I know what you're thinking and don't you even dare...
what am i thinking? 🤭
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what am i thinking? 🤭
YOU KNOW WHAT YOURE THINKING
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JORY I KNOW YOU
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hmm?
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tell me wifey
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Youve made it havent you.
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cazcathehe
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eonfiseoifnsoefinsofinsioefnseoifnsiefon YOU WAIT TILL TONIGHT
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Im stealing your nicotine
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uhh i think you should talk it out first
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Confessions BOT 08/11/2022 5:48 PM
Anonymous Confession (#561)
"so life got worse, I don't feel safe here anymore, I'm going to leave"
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I long to be free of my family
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My bad luck streak today jeez
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Luckily i fixed the laptop
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(Some cheap one i brought from CEX)
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Confessions BOT 08/11/2022 8:57 PM
Anonymous Confession (#563)
"so heartbroken, what the fuck happened"
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know the feeling op
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Thank you to @Unknown @Unknown @Unknown for such a great night and the reassurance i needed I really appreciated it and i genuinely appreciate how magical it was. Cant wait for the next one
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ALSO special mention to my lovely @Unknown and @Eeeeen for being there for me over messages today ❤️ youve been amazing genuinely.
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Thank you to @Unknown @Unknown @Unknown for such a great night and the reassurance i needed I really appreciated it and i genuinely appreciate how magical it was. Cant wait for the next one
Badgers at Dawn (he/him) 08/12/2022 2:24 AM
Love you B, and the next one is coming soon!
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Thank you to @Unknown @Unknown @Unknown for such a great night and the reassurance i needed I really appreciated it and i genuinely appreciate how magical it was. Cant wait for the next one
Deleted User 08/12/2022 2:27 AM
It was a lovely evening definitely going to happen again☺
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Parents told me I can’t have 2 showers in one day, so I just washed myself with a flannel in the sink. Because that is something we do in the 21st century.
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Parents told me I can’t have 2 showers in one day, so I just washed myself with a flannel in the sink. Because that is something we do in the 21st century.
Also caked myself in deodorant and now for some reason smell like a packet of crisps.
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I've been neighbours w these people for 4 years now and found out YESTERDAY that their daughter, who I've been calling Paris all this time IS CALLED CHARIS
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LMFAO
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LoLo <3
I've been neighbours w these people for 4 years now and found out YESTERDAY that their daughter, who I've been calling Paris all this time IS CALLED CHARIS
mumblingmiss 08/12/2022 1:46 PM
That's just Chris with extra excitement
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Or incorrect chairs
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Either way paris is better, no offence
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mumblingmiss 08/12/2022 1:48 PM
Do you think they meant to call her Chris but sneezed when they said it?
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"I'm sorry, but your daughter's name is, well, it's cringe. I'm taking matters into my own hands."
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"always wanted to be friends with an entire city"
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You guys get it
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mumblingmiss 08/12/2022 1:50 PM
I wish my name was Cayenne instead of Cheyenne so that I could be spicy by nature, spicy by name
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be the change you want to see in the world
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mumblingmiss 08/12/2022 1:51 PM
I just need to discover a new pepper
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Change your name, shake things up Sure bureaucracy is a massive hassle but it'll be fun
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mumblingmiss 08/12/2022 1:52 PM
Okay lol boutta go piss off my parents byeeee
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Our chaotic influence
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mumblingmiss 08/12/2022 1:53 PM
My gfs can really make me do anything
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Hell yeah
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That's hot girls for ya
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once i set something in my head properly as a rule it really annoys me when i have to break it
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notliamhyde02 08/12/2022 2:12 PM
yep
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im not supposed to be spending any money at all right now but just remembered i have to go grab a gift for a friend, its just going to be something small but my brain hates me for going back on what i decided
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Confessions BOT 08/12/2022 5:10 PM
Anonymous Confession (#566)
"Ever have feelings for someone and then realise that they irritate you more than you actually like them"
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ForestBae🎄 08/12/2022 5:30 PM
Yes been there OP, its kinda funny how feeling work.
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decided to fuck my brain and picked up a bottle of lemonade as a treat this evening too, can drink gin and lemonade
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What did you end up getting for your friend?
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I need birthdays inspo haha
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not much unfortunately
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just a bottle of schleur, some snickers, and a bag of weathers originals
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going to bake them a cake when theyre back in norwich with candles too so hopefully itll be somewhat decent at least, just trying to get them treat foods they like
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Aw that's so cute!! Lil assortment of shit they like
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decided to fuck my brain and picked up a bottle of lemonade as a treat this evening too, can drink gin and lemonade
mumblingmiss 08/12/2022 6:43 PM
Omg one of my fav drinks good choice
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white grape goes great with vodka
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my priorities never change
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After all that stuff yesterday
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it made me somewhat regret breaking up with my ex, even though the awful shit they did to me
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I could expect it, instead of expecting only goodness out of a close friendship and getting the worst stuff
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Reopening freshly healed wounds challenge 10/10 not click bait
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Okay wanted to let you finish before I started typing anything so you got out everything you wanted. It has been a rough few days for you and you've gone through a lot worrying about how it could affect everything. That doesn't take away from what your ex did to you, and the things you've gone through surrounding that. You don't deserve that. Take some time to heal, I can't begin to imagine what you're going through right now but please remember that you have people here who care about you a lot and are here to support you if they can. (I'll be up soon and give you the BIGGEST hugs)
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LoLo <3
Okay wanted to let you finish before I started typing anything so you got out everything you wanted. It has been a rough few days for you and you've gone through a lot worrying about how it could affect everything. That doesn't take away from what your ex did to you, and the things you've gone through surrounding that. You don't deserve that. Take some time to heal, I can't begin to imagine what you're going through right now but please remember that you have people here who care about you a lot and are here to support you if they can. (I'll be up soon and give you the BIGGEST hugs)
Thank you Lo, youve helped alot over the past days and I genuinely love you so much for it.
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Pink Gang
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Love you too B!! Hope you're holding up okay. Pink Gang!!💗 💗
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❤️ always Lo. I dont let things i didnt do hold me down 😌
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mumblingmiss 08/12/2022 7:23 PM
I hate that bad shit keeps happening to you, B, you've been mistreated so often by people you trust and you never deserved any of it. I hope you find some peace soon so that you can heal a bit from everything 💖
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Twink Antony 08/12/2022 7:23 PM
Isn’t it weird that, whenever you get bored, the instant thought is to just die
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Not actually gonna do it all and that, just a thought I had
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mumblingmiss 08/12/2022 7:25 PM
It's not something I like to admit but yeah I get that too
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I hate that bad shit keeps happening to you, B, you've been mistreated so often by people you trust and you never deserved any of it. I hope you find some peace soon so that you can heal a bit from everything 💖
Pink Wig Thicc ass give them whiplash at the end of the day
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Pink Wig Thicc ass give them whiplash at the end of the day
mumblingmiss 08/12/2022 7:29 PM
YES BITCH
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Yep, guy I knew in college. Used to make me feel like shit but I was obsessed with him. Recently blocked him and now I’m actually happier for it.
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Bennyboy
Yep, guy I knew in college. Used to make me feel like shit but I was obsessed with him. Recently blocked him and now I’m actually happier for it.
Valid Progress we like to see
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Valid Progress we like to see
Other people I knew in college have messaged me asking what’s going on. It was the first time they’ve shown interest in me for just over a year. Left them all on read and feel like I’m finally living for me. ☺
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Bennyboy
Other people I knew in college have messaged me asking what’s going on. It was the first time they’ve shown interest in me for just over a year. Left them all on read and feel like I’m finally living for me. ☺
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VALID
Honestly, he wasn’t even that attractive now I think of it. Think I just wanted his approval. You know, daddy issues and all.
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I get that
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For me it’s someone who wants me first
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Then I seek their approval they know they have me and lose interest
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FINALLY SOMEONE FUCKING ADMITS THAT WHAT THE PERSON DID WAS WRONG
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Thank you
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FINALLY SOMEONE FUCKING ADMITS THAT WHAT THE PERSON DID WAS WRONG
Glad ur getting a bit of closure B, you deserve that.
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Bennyboy
Glad ur getting a bit of closure B, you deserve that.
It’s not really closure when you lost two friends but after the manipulative game one of them pulled last night
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It’s for the best
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It’s for the best
Well, either way I’m glad ur trying to put yourself in a good place.
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Bennyboy
Well, either way I’m glad ur trying to put yourself in a good place.
Yeah, back to regular B coffee house antics
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God I hope I don’t have to do a statement again
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Statement?
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LoLo <3
Statement?
When I remove people from here sometimes people ask why
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dynoInfo Please use specific subcommands such as purge user [user] [count], the old syntax you are trying to use is no longer supported to prevent accidental purges.
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Completely understand, glad you’re keeping yourself safe B 🫂 when you said statement my brain went mental health statemented kinda thing and I got confused lmao
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FINALLY SOMEONE FUCKING ADMITS THAT WHAT THE PERSON DID WAS WRONG
Fuckboy Drag King 08/12/2022 8:19 PM
dead at the fucking face lmfao
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dead at the fucking face lmfao
PFFT HAHAHAHA
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Fuckboy Drag King 08/12/2022 8:20 PM
Fr though hope you're okay B, look at some gorgeous stars & planets and the amazing perseids and take it easy, you defo deserve it 💙
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Thank youuu ❤️
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Confessions BOT 08/12/2022 11:18 PM
Anonymous Confession (#570)
"i don’t want to fucking exist anymore, im so conflicted and it’s killing me, but i’m too fucking pathetic to do anything about it"
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ForestBae🎄 08/12/2022 11:31 PM
OP, my DMs are open if you need some to talk to. (edited)
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Same here
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Mental ickiness
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Feeling very betrayed over the past few days from multiple people. But have had some amazing experiences for people who have been there for me
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Confessions BOT 08/13/2022 12:53 PM
Anonymous Confession (#573)
"you’ve picked a side. I just wish you had the guts to tell me."
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happy vent :) just realised how happy i am. i thought having a job would kill my spirit bc of how much freedom i had while doing a degree but it's the opposite. I'm so much more stable now bc having a set schedule (that my employer adapts to fit with my insomnia and neurodivergency) means I'm doing smth every single day. getting a steady income each month without the worries my student loan gave me. my friends are all in the same walkable city or will be in the next month (v v excited to see everyone). whereas i had to drag myself out of my house to force myself to see people before, i gladly do it now bc i want to do whatever event is happening. my manager encourages me to drop everything at clock out and have a work-life balance. I'm getting praise for picking up software and an entire new industry so quickly that i work all that harder to complete things way before deadline. my degree used to kick my ass with how freeform it was and how little support i got before being handed a "you thought you did great but here's a shit grade". i'm way ahead of schedule and don't do assignments 6 hours before the deadline bc i had no motivation or any clue what i was doing. if anything, this steadiness has given me much more freedom and has mitigated my ADHD to managable levels :D
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that's a wall of text that's rambling and incohesive oops
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but you know, I'm so so grateful i get to spend such a formative and blissful time of my life with everyone i love (aka you guys)
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notliamhyde02 08/13/2022 1:43 PM
good for you
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genuinely
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great to hear you can work around your own needs too
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thats really awesome to hear, congrats, its deserved 🫂
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haha thanks guys. it's been a massive turning point in my life and i know i wouldn't have gotten here without everyone's help
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you all mean so so much to me and i can't even describe how much
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mumblingmiss 08/13/2022 1:47 PM
I'm so proud of you Jory, you deserve the world babes. Congrats on all your achievements so far, and all those you're working toward.
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thank you!! we'll need to cause chaos when you get back. stealing the CB bus stop sign for a start
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mumblingmiss 08/13/2022 1:49 PM
It would be rude of us not to steal it
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So, SO proud of you Jory 💗💗
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tysm, we're also getting up to chaos when you're back 💛
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mumblingmiss 08/13/2022 2:07 PM
Don't think norwich is going to survive this chaos tbh
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chaotic bitches
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mumblingmiss 08/13/2022 2:07 PM
Yes chaotic bitches
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so much chaos
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notliamhyde02 08/13/2022 2:19 PM
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Genuinely hate being harsh to people especially to the ones I care about. But I can’t just forget the pain they’ve put me through
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mumblingmiss 08/13/2022 8:36 PM
Fuck me :( was once again prepared to join my friends voice channel and et voila my ex and his verbally abusive friend. I'm fine.
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not even really a vent but just listening to spotify and they play my spiralling song and i have never shouted alexa to stop with such urgency before
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back to normal pining songs tyvm
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Had to clear my photos on my computer Lock Screen todsy
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Held so many memories which I would rather remember fondly instead of ones I just see with pain now
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im sorry, hopefully you can make some new memories thatll lessen the pain eventually 🫂
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im sorry, hopefully you can make some new memories thatll lessen the pain eventually 🫂
You’re forgetting the great community I have here!
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Went out with family this morning and it was like I didn’t exist. I tried to join in conversations but was immediately talked over. When we got home I got the cold water jug out of fridge and when I open the cupboard to get a cup out a mug fell out chucking the water every. Immediate response I get is “what the hell do you do”. So when I sit outside to have lunch alone all I get is “you in your grump still?”. Idk, it’s odd feeling lonely in a house full of people. Just had to hold back the tears cos just so lonely at the moment and am constantly be berated for the smallest things.
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mumblingmiss 08/14/2022 1:19 PM
That's terrible, I hate that you're stuck feeling that way around a group of people that by their very definition should care for you and be nice to you. Hope you're doing okay and you get to be in a better environment soon. Always here if you need to talk 🫂
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mumblingmiss
That's terrible, I hate that you're stuck feeling that way around a group of people that by their very definition should care for you and be nice to you. Hope you're doing okay and you get to be in a better environment soon. Always here if you need to talk 🫂
Well that’s just it. They do act nice so I feel bad being angry, but then they act like that as well. I just want to move on campus for a bit as I think it will improve my mental health.
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Well that’s just it. They do act nice so I feel bad being angry, but then they act like that as well. I just want to move on campus for a bit as I think it will improve my mental health.
mumblingmiss 08/14/2022 1:22 PM
That definitely sounds for the best, sometimes it's better to see family every so often rather than constantly
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That definitely sounds for the best, sometimes it's better to see family every so often rather than constantly
Yeah, I agree. The thing is you don’t have a choice to be around family, you do choose to be around friends tho.
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Went out with family this morning and it was like I didn’t exist. I tried to join in conversations but was immediately talked over. When we got home I got the cold water jug out of fridge and when I open the cupboard to get a cup out a mug fell out chucking the water every. Immediate response I get is “what the hell do you do”. So when I sit outside to have lunch alone all I get is “you in your grump still?”. Idk, it’s odd feeling lonely in a house full of people. Just had to hold back the tears cos just so lonely at the moment and am constantly be berated for the smallest things.
Here for you Ben, just hang in there you’ll be in Norwich with us very soon
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Here for you Ben, just hang in there you’ll be in Norwich with us very soon
Looking forward to some gay time. ☺
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mumblingmiss 08/14/2022 1:26 PM
Yeah we'll have to hang out when you get here and you can unleash your full gay potential
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mumblingmiss
Yeah we'll have to hang out when you get here and you can unleash your full gay potential
I have so much clothes I want to wear. ☺
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Can’t wait for the first spectrum thing ☺
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mumblingmiss 08/14/2022 1:27 PM
Hell yeah
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It’s gonna be great
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Y’all are at the cool kids table
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Y’all are at the cool kids table
It had to happen eventually 😂
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Tbh, straight people don’t realise how important it is for lgbtq people to be around lgbtq people. The ability to be yourself is so good for the soul.
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mumblingmiss 08/14/2022 1:29 PM
For real tho
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We just don't talk about sexuality in my house
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I just get called the fslur lmao
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Like, I feel amazing after meeting people at a party. Best medicine.
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I just get called the fslur lmao
Well, I apologised for that but you did deserve it. 😂😂😂😂
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Bennyboy
Well, I apologised for that but you did deserve it. 😂😂😂😂
I mean my parents
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You call me an fslur you’re gonna get something else 🙂
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You call me an fslur you’re gonna get something else 🙂
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I was gonna say CBANNED
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but I admire your confidence
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mumblingmiss 08/14/2022 1:32 PM
If my dad uses a slur I just tell him that he can't use that word and he'll call me a snowflake or whatever most of the time but he generally stops saying it
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CBANNED
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cbanned cbanned cbanned cbanned
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but I admire your confidence
Tbh 🍆 gives me lots of confidence. 😂
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If my dad uses a slur I just tell him that he can't use that word and he'll call me a snowflake or whatever most of the time but he generally stops saying it
It’s not difficult to realise how offensive that is. Unless you have a degradation kink. 😂
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Tbh 🍆 gives me lots of confidence. 😂
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I’m gay and have spent 20 years of my life pretty much celibate. I need to make up for it. 😂😂😂
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mumblingmiss 08/14/2022 1:36 PM
I love being celibate
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mumblingmiss
I love being celibate
Like, how? 😂
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Bennyboy
Like, how? 😂
mumblingmiss 08/14/2022 1:37 PM
Bc so many people have told me to go fuck myself and theyre right bc it's way better lmao
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Bc so many people have told me to go fuck myself and theyre right bc it's way better lmao
That’s very true. 😂
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Tbh, 2 of my experiences would have been way better if it was me on my own. 😂 (edited)
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mumblingmiss 08/14/2022 1:38 PM
Exactly
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Being ace is like a miracle for me
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why are vegtables so confidence inducing?
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Bennyboy
I’m gay and have spent 20 years of my life pretty much celibate. I need to make up for it. 😂😂😂
Hey I’m not judging
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I’m currently deciding whether I should try and heal through and find a new relationship
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OR
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Hoe era
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Hoe era
I’d go with hoe era. But picky hoe era, with friends and stuff.
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I’d go with hoe era. But picky hoe era, with friends and stuff.
So you’re suggesting this server just becomes my to fuck list
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mumblingmiss 08/14/2022 1:41 PM
Well
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So you’re suggesting this server just becomes my to fuck list
Well, that’s what I’m doing. 😂😂😂
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Twink Antony 08/14/2022 1:42 PM
Hoe Era into Relationship
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mumblingmiss 08/14/2022 1:42 PM
Yeah I'm just becoming everyone's girlfriend
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Twink Antony
Hoe Era into Relationship
Stop bc that happened to me
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and just like that erin left the server
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mumblingmiss
Yeah I'm just becoming everyone's girlfriend
One day you wake up and CB has decided she's your girlfriend and that's that
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Ripfangs
One day you wake up and CB has decided she's your girlfriend and that's that
mumblingmiss 08/14/2022 1:43 PM
It happens a lot
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CB picks you up in a CBUS with her other partners
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this is getting much more sinister
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E r i n
this is getting much more sinister
You have a choice to get on
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But you don’t want to be CBANISHED to the nether realm
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mumblingmiss 08/14/2022 1:45 PM
Welcome to the cult CB relationship web
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alternative: ill change my name, move to a new university and create a whole new backstory
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alternative: ill change my name, move to a new university and create a whole new backstory
Erin don’t deny the fact you wouldn’t
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hmm?
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mumblingmiss 08/14/2022 1:48 PM
You can't fool us
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why would i want to fool you?
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why would i want to fool you?
Jenovas witness
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im just a humble economics student who grew up in Liverpool with five cats and a guinea pig
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mumblingmiss 08/14/2022 1:48 PM
revolution
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i respect authority
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Boris Johnson
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mumblingmiss 08/14/2022 1:49 PM
revolution
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nope cant do it
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i thought your new name was the country from Princess Diaries
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Genovia
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mumblingmiss 08/14/2022 1:49 PM
Ah shit I love Princess diaries
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idk jenova just came to mind
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new persona
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ill add it to the shelf of the dozens of others
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Princess Diaries is unironically one of the best films ever made
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Ah shit I love Princess diaries
Can you cban yourself?
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mumblingmiss 08/14/2022 1:50 PM
I'll CBan you
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cbanned cbanned cbanned cbanned
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mumblingmiss
I'll CBan you
I’d like to see you try, we twinks are crafty patatos 😂
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Bennyboy
I’d like to see you try, we twinks are crafty patatos 😂
mumblingmiss 08/14/2022 1:51 PM
Don't make me break up with you
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I’m also being twinkified
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Like
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My body is basically twink at this point
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Just bit more build with some muscle
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I need my chest hair to grow a bit more before I’m an otter
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mumblingmiss
Don't make me break up with you
Please, I broke up with you and you didn’t even know it. 😂
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mumblingmiss 08/14/2022 1:55 PM
What the fuck we just got together!
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mumblingmiss
What the fuck we just got together!
What can I say, I’m a player.
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mumblingmiss 08/14/2022 1:56 PM
Fuck this I'm going on love island
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mumblingmiss
Fuck this I'm going on love island
I hate that show. Just a bunch of narcissistic uneducated people acting like teenagers.
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mumblingmiss 08/14/2022 1:58 PM
So do I but I play the game unironically
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mumblingmiss
So do I but I play the game unironically
Lol
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mumblingmiss
Fuck this I'm going on love island
CBOVE ISLAND YES
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mumblingmiss 08/14/2022 2:01 PM
CBOVE ISLANDDDDD
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Could you imagine omg
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Yes it’ll be amazing
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mumblingmiss 08/14/2022 2:04 PM
They'd never let me in the official one bc I have body fat and acne and I like myself but we can start CBove Island
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Twink Antony 08/14/2022 2:14 PM
Christ some things just time themselves perfectly, just went on Facebook, got “memories on Facebook” pop up from when I went to visit my mates memorial. Then Changes by Charles Bradley comes on. Not a fun attack on emotions
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A song exactly about losing someone v close to you 😭
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Bit weird that it’s also the Big Mouth intro, but the whole song is fairly powerful
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sorry for your loss, facebook memories are so mistimed
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sorry for your loss, facebook memories are so mistimed
Twink Antony 08/14/2022 2:32 PM
Honestly, it sucks
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ForestBae🎄 08/14/2022 4:56 PM
Love my MacBook dying on me while revising (edited)
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For my exam tomorrow
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SLdeadstare
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Can you restart it and call it a revision break?
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ForestBae🎄 08/14/2022 5:02 PM
It’s just out of charge, charging it with a cable that works cause I thought the one I was using was working but apparently not.
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So yeah revision break time
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youve got this 🫂 hope you have a nice break and best of luck tomorrow ❤
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^^
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ForestBae🎄 08/14/2022 5:05 PM
Thank you 😊
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Confessions BOT 08/14/2022 7:58 PM
Anonymous Confession (#575)
"POV: your best friend ignores you for days then defends someone who hurts you. Shit sucks"
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mumblingmiss 08/14/2022 7:59 PM
Hope you're okay OP
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We're trying to sell the dryer and freezer we bought from the old tenants to the next tenants, and we paid £85 for each of them. The dryer is utterly awful though, takes at least 2-3 goes to dry things. One of my housemates thinks its reasonable to ask £85 for each of them again
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Originally it was being expected that I'd deal with selling both of them, but I explained I didn't feel comfortable asking for that much. I'd say its a stretch to ask £50 for the dryer, because it's so unpredictable. I've agreed to clean it all up and stuff though, but now that housemate is pushing it on the next one who offered to try and sell it, and I feel shit because it feels like I've brushed the responsibility onto them to deal with that now
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If it isn’t great then yeah cheaper makes sense but you’ve gotta be prepared for the possibility that they might not want them and you’ll need to get rid of them somehow
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If the other person offered to try and sell it that’s their business and not your problem bc they’re trying to help now you can take a step back if you want to or try and help them sell it idk
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Honestly wouldn't surprise me if we couldn't sell it. I'll try to clean it into top condition, but if I'm the one showing it to the potential buyer I'm going to say it can be unpredictable. We weren't told about how unpredictable it could be when we were sold it, I don't want to do that to someone else. I just feel like it shouldn't be expected that we sell it to the next tenant for the price we got it, even if it wasn't like this. It's been through a year of use, that's going to take the value down a bit at the very least. And now I feel like I've just dropped it on the only other housemate who is willing to help, letting them be steamrolled over and told what to do by the other one
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idk i feel like im an idiot with a lot of this stuff, maybe im looking more into it than i should and just seeing problems where there arent
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Nah I get not wanting to lie about it like just be real w them If you’re worried about your housemate then try sell it together if you can but if they feel they’re being steamrolled by the other flatmate they’ll probably say something
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Confessions BOT 08/14/2022 10:30 PM
Anonymous Confession (#576)
"Please god can you let these tears flow as easily as the thoughts in my mind drown me in a tempest of emotion"
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I hope you're okay OP 🫂
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Confessions BOT 08/15/2022 10:08 AM
Anonymous Confession (#578)
"I am so worried of being alone and being left behind by people who used to love me."
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i doubt you will be but you should reach out to them anyway
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been throwing up all night and now today. not a vibe while I'm trying to work
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hope youre okay and feel better soon 🫂
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mumblingmiss 08/15/2022 12:20 PM
Oh god, you okay? Throwing up is horrible it completely interrupts everything
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yeah I'm ok just not recovering v well from drinking a lot last night
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i don't get hangovers, i get extremely nauseous for the next 24 hours lmfao
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Fuckboy Drag King 08/15/2022 12:42 PM
you've probably done all the sensible things so won't do the usual lecture, but I hope it passes soon 🫂
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you've probably done all the sensible things so won't do the usual lecture, but I hope it passes soon 🫂
haha yeah I'm trying to ty 🫂
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Ok does anyone else get like this when they’re stressed? This morning I felt sick, I was shaking, I could hardly think straight, when I was thinking it was pure panic and distortion. Now I have no energy and want to sleep. Does anyone else get like this? It wasn’t even that bigger thing.
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It doesn't have to be a big thing when you're stressed to send you over the edge For me it's normally tummyache or headache but I've been completely destroying my fingernails which is sad bc I really love having them long but I can't seem to stop biting them when I'm stressing out. Then after it passes you're so drained you just need to stop and take a break. It's okay to do that when you feel like that, it can be annoying but listen to your body and do what it needs yk?
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mumblingmiss 08/15/2022 2:42 PM
Well people experience things differently but I only get like that for long minor panic attacks, but I can't in good conscience say that is exactly what youre dealing with. As I said, everyone gets different physical symptoms when it comes to stress
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I hope you feel okay soon and if youre worried please don't be afraid to reach out for help
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mumblingmiss 08/15/2022 3:55 PM
Having a low day, been a few days since I had a decent nights sleep bc of the damn heat and my lacking ability to cope with what should be a lovely temperature. Need it to cool down smh
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When your angry album has the song that makes you cry on it
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Not the vibe I needed
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mumblingmiss 08/15/2022 8:06 PM
Ouch
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Hope you're okay hun
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LoLo <3
Not the vibe I needed
i get that, really sucks, hope you feel better soon 🫂
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mumblingmiss 08/16/2022 2:48 PM
I'm really kind of having a crisis today. I feel like I should want to have a companionship with someone and I want to be able to pursue love but everytime my mind realises that I might be on my way to finding it I freak out. I love romance and finding the right person but something in my gut is telling me that it's not right for me. That I'm just not someone who is destined for that kind of life and that if I enjoy being alone with myself or starting a family on my own then it's okay to do that. But I'm also scared of hurting people who think they have a real chance with me. My mind is telling me to follow everyone's lead and find love but my heart is telling me not to. I don't know if any of this makes sense at all.
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I think its important to not set yourself expectations or a deadline on something that, at the end of the day, is personal and unique to you. You don't have to make a decision that if you don't want to find love, you'll never find it. It can be really confusing, complicated and stressful, but at the end of the day its your life, and if you do or don't want to do something that's up to you. Nothing else is your responsibility, you don't owe stuff like this to anyone 🫂
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How do you get people your related to to pay you back the money they owe you?
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honestly its awkward as hell, sorry youre having to deal with it
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It’s only £65 as well. They keep treating it like a joke but that’s a lot of money to me.
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mumblingmiss 08/16/2022 10:55 PM
I'm sorry if I've been too much or complained a lot lately, I'm often doing very well and terribly at the same time and I know a lot of you understand that. I love you all and you're the best. I can only hope I can help you as much as you've helped me.
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ForestBae🎄 08/16/2022 10:56 PM
Love u CB!
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love it when writing inspiration comes but i hate that it's at 2am on a weekday. i want to overhaul my murder mystery story but work in the morning yay
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also weird finding out I'm a friend of convinience. my housemates since 1st year that I've been singing praises for non-stop and have loved dearly for all these years fucked off to an italian villa without me. even though some of them are back in town now, they're just stopping by my place to pick up their appliances they dumped on me before going to their new house where they're living together (edited)
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all good, all fun. a few weeks ago i might have started spiralling bc of all this so I'm slightly weirded out that all I'm feeling is a quiet "oh well" followed by a muted thing in my chest
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also weird finding out I'm a friend of convinience. my housemates since 1st year that I've been singing praises for non-stop and have loved dearly for all these years fucked off to an italian villa without me. even though some of them are back in town now, they're just stopping by my place to pick up their appliances they dumped on me before going to their new house where they're living together (edited)
I’m so sorry <3. I’m here for you always
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If it means anything You’re not a friend of convenience to me, you’re one of my best solid friends who I love so dearly and cherish
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And Every memory we have together is golden
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i really appreciate it bran. it's not hitting me as hard as i suppose it should really
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I know it’s hurtful
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i think I'm just easily manipulated. i'm shown an ounce of kindness and it's an instant "i will do anything for you" thing. i expect too much of people i love because i end up giving them everything
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Confessions BOT 08/17/2022 9:26 AM
Anonymous Confession (#602)
"tired of conflict let me be happy already, people don't realise what I have to deal with when I get upset"
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also weird finding out I'm a friend of convinience. my housemates since 1st year that I've been singing praises for non-stop and have loved dearly for all these years fucked off to an italian villa without me. even though some of them are back in town now, they're just stopping by my place to pick up their appliances they dumped on me before going to their new house where they're living together (edited)
Sometimes it's hard to gauge how close you are to someone when they've done something that makes you want to be close to them. You clearly really care about these people moreso then they do you. I can't really help you because I'm the exact same and would love to know if someone cares as much as they say from the start bc that would make priorities easier but I think all we can really do is take everyone at face value and if that puts you in a position like this then reevalue where you stand. I'm sorry Jory I know how much it sucks. I can't afford to go on holiday but I
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d take you all to a villa if I could
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pls i all of us in a villa would be so chaotic omg
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Would be fun as hell tho
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Yes (edited)
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we can star in CBOVE Island
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Didn't mean to do a duck but you know what
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mumblingmiss 08/17/2022 9:51 AM
Yes CBove Island I'm on it guys
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But instead of couples it's like most iconic duos
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Wht if my do is the whole server
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mumblingmiss 08/17/2022 9:54 AM
Babes then it's not a duo
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You me and Jory most iconic duo
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Bc yk, we're the same person at this point
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Were literally the three in one
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mumblingmiss 08/17/2022 9:56 AM
Fuck I'm gonna need to sit down and set some ground rules for CBove Island
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Yeah pretty much
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Just nobody try and get me to program anything lmao I can spellcheck code and that's it
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mumblingmiss 08/17/2022 9:58 AM
Maximum groups of three bc it's not fun if everyone wins
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Sometimes it's hard to gauge how close you are to someone when they've done something that makes you want to be close to them. You clearly really care about these people moreso then they do you. I can't really help you because I'm the exact same and would love to know if someone cares as much as they say from the start bc that would make priorities easier but I think all we can really do is take everyone at face value and if that puts you in a position like this then reevalue where you stand. I'm sorry Jory I know how much it sucks. I can't afford to go on holiday but I
yeah dw dw I'm really not that upset about it haha. you're right with all of that though, as usual. we'll all go on holiday together at some point
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mumblingmiss 08/17/2022 10:04 AM
Think I'm just gonna step away from discord today, kinda fucked off this morning I'll be back when I'm not
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Hope you're okay
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yeah dw dw I'm really not that upset about it haha. you're right with all of that though, as usual. we'll all go on holiday together at some point
We better
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Think I'm just gonna step away from discord today, kinda fucked off this morning I'll be back when I'm not
Here for you CB ❤️
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Here for you CB ❤️
mumblingmiss 08/17/2022 10:08 AM
Thanks, just had a rough start 💖
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ForestBae🎄 08/17/2022 10:17 AM
Love walking to the wrong building
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Just got screamed at cos I was annoyed that my mum wouldn’t take me to return my package that she said she would take me to do. Even tho I just cleared a field of horse shit and mucked out a stable for her. I’m sick of being treated like a child, I’m sick of not being able to drive and I’m sick of being at someone else’s mercy. How am I supposed to feel, I’m remembering what it’s like to be at someone’s else’s mercy again who waves it in my face every 5 mins.
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Also, apparently my attitude stinks. I wonder why, it’s not like I’m berated every day for something that isn’t my fault, wishing someone would acknowledge my existence or tired of not being respected as an adult. I’m well aware ur my mother, but I’m also your son and an adult. So treat me like that. Not someone who is bellow you.
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I honestly want to move on campus now cos I’m really worried that my mental health is going to take a dip.
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Hoenstly I’m so pissed off at my CEO
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opening the restaurant when there’s a bat flying around Jl
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Meaning me and my coworker had to deep clean everything
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Making us feel stressed and I’ll
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LoLo <3
WHAT
He went against his own health and safety team too
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Why does he think that's a good idea
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It's a restaurant and there's an animal w access to it????
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Bc he literally said he was worried about profit
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Worry about sanitation first tf
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We know everything is clean me and Jodie literally scrubbed everything
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Santised everything
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But he pushed us to a deadline
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we closed down then reopened then deep cleaned
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And I feel so sick and tired
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I’m on break still got 15 mins
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But I’m so tired
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opening the restaurant when there’s a bat flying around Jl
1) rabies 2) covid-22
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Jesus that's a bit much
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I'm sorry B I hope your break at least lets you relax somewhat
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I’m running to the shop
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yeah this is ridiculous
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For painkillers for both me and my coworker
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why?
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Because she has a severe headache
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And the syress has triggered my stomach cramps
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sorry you're going through this bran
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How am I less stressed at work than I am at home?
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Also, I’m slowly sneaking my femboi cloths to work so I can start chucking it out, too stressful keeping it hidden in my room.
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so i went for a run, then remembered afterwards that im not supposed to, so that sucks
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when i say run i more mean awkward slightly accelerated trot but yeah
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Means you can just vibe on the sofa for the rest of the day tho right?
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mumblingmiss 08/18/2022 5:09 PM
You okay?
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oh yeah i feel fine, i like exercising even if im bad at it, just feel guilty about not following medical advice
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ive got all my cleaning and stuff done already though so its just stardew valley and chill all evening now
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mumblingmiss 08/18/2022 5:10 PM
Good good
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Medical stuff is annoying
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So exhausted rn 😴
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hope you have a chance to relax soon ❤️
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mumblingmiss 08/18/2022 5:14 PM
Been a rough day, got stung by a bee and I'm allergic so that was fun
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Oh shit are you okay?
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mumblingmiss 08/18/2022 5:16 PM
Yeah just got home had to go hospital for a bit bc I don't carry anything around for it. I'll be fine
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That must be fucking scary I'm sorry
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mumblingmiss 08/18/2022 5:18 PM
It's all good I'm lucky my local one was still open so
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Bees are usually pretty easy to avoid
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Learning to walk again is so fucking weird?!? Like I know I can do this, i have the ability. But after 2 months of not walking? Im wobbling around the place like the worlds largest toddler
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mumblingmiss 08/19/2022 8:45 AM
Oh god good luck to you, I remember having to do that when I hurt my foot in high school and I looked ridiculous
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Learning to walk again is so fucking weird?!? Like I know I can do this, i have the ability. But after 2 months of not walking? Im wobbling around the place like the worlds largest toddler
Can we change your name to mr daddler (like dad toddler) until your boot comes off bc it’s funny and cute
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My legs are different sizes 😭😭😂😂 My good leg has been constantly worked for 2 months so is BUFF AF and now my other leg is pathetically weak and small. Its like the fucking doge meme
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Ig do a bunch of leg raises and pray? Alternatively keep just working out the other leg and confuse people
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mumblingmiss 08/19/2022 8:50 AM
Ask them to put a cast on your other leg until you balance it out lmao
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Or go full flamingo and only use one leg
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Brb, gonna post this everwhere (edited)
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mumblingmiss 08/19/2022 8:51 AM
Omg
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Or go full flamingo and only use one leg
The last 2 months babe 😂
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Bro the noise I made
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The last 2 months babe 😂
mumblingmiss 08/19/2022 8:52 AM
Now you can be hot flamingo on purpose
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Ive got a fucking gnarly scar though tbh
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mumblingmiss 08/19/2022 8:53 AM
Finally another human being that uses the word gnarly (edited)
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Decided I could do better than Daddler
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Decided I could do better than Daddler
SCREAMING
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mumblingmiss 08/19/2022 8:53 AM
Aw take a picture it's daddies first steps
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Sounds like someone named their child Daddy
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"I named him after my Grandpa" "Oh yeah? What did you call him" "......Grandpa....."
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mumblingmiss 08/19/2022 8:55 AM
Lmao
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Don’t that sounds like something drunk me would do to a snail or something
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I always name my snails 🥰
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mumblingmiss 08/19/2022 8:55 AM
I'm gonna call my first child Cute Baby
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I might call my first child snail now
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Brb, gonna post this everwhere (edited)
I gotta go post this in as many places as possible lmao
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mumblingmiss 08/19/2022 4:35 PM
So my 18 year old cousin just got back with her ex who she broke up with very publicly because he cheated on her multiple times with minors??? Girl what the fuck please why you letting this pedo back into you and your son's life my duuuude. Ctrl alt delete my family
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I'm fuminggggg
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fucking yikes
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anyone else get really depressed on friday evenings? no idea why but it's like clockwork for me
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Stereotypical people out on Friday nights then you not being the same gives you a weird sense of rejection for no reason?
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mumblingmiss 08/19/2022 7:31 PM
You okay?
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not sure, think it's the lack of distractions
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hope youre all okay 🫂
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mumblingmiss 08/19/2022 7:43 PM
Yeah I suppose if you've been distracted by plenty of other stuff all week then when that's not there it can mean a lot of tired and sad feelings catch up to you
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I felt a lot of that last year when I was working all summer and if I knew I wouldn't have a shift for a bit or my day ended early I just had no energy
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I hope you feel better soon, always here for you x
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thanks guys I'll be fine
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just my mind being annoying
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Confessions BOT 08/19/2022 10:06 PM
Anonymous Confession (#616)
"Hello fellow dysphoria enjoyers, do you have specific parts (despite perhaps the obvious) of yourself that just completely set off your dysphoria? Like just small things about yourself that you look at and think "If I didn't have this i'd definitely pass" or similar?"
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I've been told by people it's not that noticeable, but my throat bothers me. That and arm hair sometimes
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Okay if it helps the arm hair thing is just a having dark hair thing ~ I use hair removal cream on mine when I can afford it but it's certainly not gender specific just depends on if you choose to remove it or not
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it's hard to determine sometimes to be honest, you can pass to some people almost immediately, other people it might take a while, its hard to know completely but im sure youll get there eventually 🫂 dysphoria does suck though, hope things improve for you soon OP ❤
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Okay if it helps the arm hair thing is just a having dark hair thing ~ I use hair removal cream on mine when I can afford it but it's certainly not gender specific just depends on if you choose to remove it or not
i've got some hair removal cream to try actually, im a bit hesitant about it but I'm gonna give it a try when i have a few quiet days, in case it irritates my skin
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If you do, patch test it first to test for allergic reactions ~ same w hair dye it can irritate skin but if you do a small amount for the recommended time then wait 48h and there's no reaction you're golden (don't leave it for longer tho that's how I have permanent discolouration on my top lip)
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ahh good to know, thank you ❤ im very hesitant about that kind of stuff tbh 😅 but definitely worth a try
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i don't like having hair on my knuckles or feet
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i don't think about it in terms of affecting passing or not but i just don't like it
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Not my leg being shrunken to half the size of my other leg and me having dysmorphia about it because "thats not my leg, my legs dont look like that" 🙃🙃🙃🥲🥲🥲
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They’ll get there soon, just gonna take some more time, I hope you’re okay ❤️
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A small vent from me, but kinda ignore mine and just read above. But finally realised my friendship with one of my best friends is over now. And I can’t help but be so heartbroken
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Not my leg being shrunken to half the size of my other leg and me having dysmorphia about it because "thats not my leg, my legs dont look like that" 🙃🙃🙃🥲🥲🥲
Your leg has been through a lot. I can’t imagine having had to wear a cast in all that heat let alone not being able to exercise it it’s going to have changed a bit but you’ll be to train it up again soon and you’ll bounce back pretty quickly w the amount you do
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mumblingmiss 08/20/2022 8:58 AM
Feel like shit this morning, my emotions have gone haywire the last couple of weeks and I'm struggling with urges and what the fuck am I gonna do if I don't pass my reassessments or my reasonable adjustment extension doesn't get approved so I fail anyway? My doctors appointment on Monday needs to come around quickly and I need to get out.
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I had a panic attack last night and the only person I could see was online anywhere was my ex and I almost messaged him and I don't want that for myself
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Proud of you for not messaging him, I was so tired yesterday I went to sleep at about 10 I’m sorry. Assessments are stressful but trust in yourself that you’ve done the work and know what you have to do. You’ve done this before you know more what to expect now which puts you in a better place going into them, you got this. (Also even if you fail it’s not the end of the world there’s more to life than academic success and we’ll support you whatever you want to do, uni or otherwise). Panic attacks are horrible and I’m sorry you’re struggling so much but you’re having the appointment on Monday hopefully that will help and you’re coming back to Norwich soon right? There’ll be people to distract you from it soon. I hope you’re okay 💗🫂
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Fuckboy Drag King 08/20/2022 9:30 AM
Ah I feel this. Mine is my mouth and my legs. Despite myself I have quite an itty bitty pouty mouth that is very naturally dark pink, and it always makes me feel like shit because I know no man's mouth looks like that
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But that's why we have face masks ✌️
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Ah I feel this. Mine is my mouth and my legs. Despite myself I have quite an itty bitty pouty mouth that is very naturally dark pink, and it always makes me feel like shit because I know no man's mouth looks like that
what about young Mick Jagger 👀 v known for his red, pouty lips (edited)
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what about young Mick Jagger 👀 v known for his red, pouty lips (edited)
Fuckboy Drag King 08/20/2022 11:46 AM
Haha bless you, maybe so. Though maybe being a music 'legend' helped him a tad
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Haha bless you, maybe so. Though maybe being a music 'legend' helped him a tad
nah there's a bit of a difference between a musical legend and a sex symbol. not many frontmen had girls after him like he did. his mouth looks almost exactly like yours and he was the height of masculinity
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but I'm not trying to take away from your dysphoria bc ik it's a v personal thing based on your own internal perceptions
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just hope this helps in showing that certain things aren't gender-specific and can be v attractive on the "opposite" gender
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Fuckboy Drag King 08/20/2022 11:55 AM
I appreciate it a whole lot, tbh I've never really seen a man with a mouth like that, so it's oddly, hm, affirming? Comforting? So thank you.
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I appreciate it a whole lot, tbh I've never really seen a man with a mouth like that, so it's oddly, hm, affirming? Comforting? So thank you.
nw 🫂 it's quite interesting bc many male models have similar mouths. it's a big draw in the fashion industry
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Caz modelling arc when
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manny jacinto (my beloved), liam samuels, satoshi toda from off the top of my head
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i used to practice my Adobe suite skills by making high fashion editorials so I'm uhhh v knowledgeable in this really weird niche lmfao
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but I'll stop spamming vents with male models
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Fuckboy Drag King 08/20/2022 12:03 PM
Always appreciated, thank you though <3
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Okay but the middle one LOOK AT THAT HAIR OH MY GOD
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HAHAHA
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i was searching this guy up while thinking "Lo's going to love this"
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i was searching this guy up while thinking "Lo's going to love this"
FUCK OFF
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LoLo <3
FUCK OFF
I AM RIGHT THOUGH
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you have a type 🤭
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enough bullying me, it's time to bully Lo
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Haven't I been through enough 😭
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I just like curly hair it's pretty
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mumblingmiss 08/20/2022 12:12 PM
Curly hair is a pain in the ass
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I've never tried putting it in my ass so I couldn't say
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mumblingmiss 08/20/2022 12:13 PM
Tbf so much of my curly hair falls everywhere I can probably say it actually is
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I like how my hair is kinda wavy but also not super curly, nice middle ground
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your hair reminds me of my old housemate's. she has the same spectacular brown curls
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i think Lo knows her from pole fitness
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Brush mine and it just goes straight :/
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Having long hair is great because it's basically just a free fiddle toy to keep my hands busy when I'm sitting around
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awwww
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freyja blushing and curling a lock of her hair with her finger while looking at world of warcraft combos (edited)
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I mean I don't generally do it when playing world of warcraft because I have all my buttons to press
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But I do it loads when I'm watching shit
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Have a feeling that I have a tendency to over react. Like the over day I was really upset with my parents where the reality is, they do everything for me.
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Fuckboy Drag King 08/20/2022 6:28 PM
Ah. Comp sci. That's it that's the vent.
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Everything ok bro?
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Fuckboy Drag King 08/20/2022 6:29 PM
Just heard some housemates (all comp sci) of my friend have all rather unaffectionately been calling me "the tranny" in my absence.
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What the fuck
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Fuckboy Drag King 08/20/2022 6:30 PM
Yeah we're all good man, just I didn't even know those guys, met them literally once, and this was before I was even out LMAO
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That’s not your friend Caz if they’re not shutting them down you need to walk away
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Holy shit I’m so sorry
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im literally ready to scream at them all
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Fuckboy Drag King 08/20/2022 6:30 PM
Not to worry, he is, absolutely ripped them to shreds and blocked them as he was moving out today. Apparently it was a big argument, that I was "the tranny" and my best friend was "token old man who nobody liked", so
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Can't say I even know their names that's how forgettable they were but hey
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Comp sci moment
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Holy shit
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I’m so sorry your course are Like That
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still, thats awful, im sorry you had to deal with that 🫂 hope youre okay
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Do you want me to casually flirt with them then tell them to stuff it? I can’t fight but I can destroy men’s self esteem
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arson, offers on the table
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Fuckboy Drag King 08/20/2022 6:33 PM
Hey the one who said it is an ex-weed addict who is quite small and quite ugly
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What makes it funnier still, as I am learning, is that he thought I was trans-femme, as in, I was assigned male at birth and I was "pretending to be a woman"
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Which is almost into accidental ally territory. Almost.
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Can I hold him by the throat and throw him off the zigs
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Please tell me the ones I’ve met aren’t like this they seemed lovely
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Fuckboy Drag King 08/20/2022 6:35 PM
Nah not really. It was Rex's housemates though, he's giving them an earful for me
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ngl lo, quite alot of them are like that
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Rex is lovely though
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It doesn’t matter what they thought it’s still fucking disgusting
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Fuckboy Drag King 08/20/2022 6:35 PM
Thanks for listening to me though, all of you, sorry it's a bit of a dampener
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no need to apologise this is vents channel
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Rex is lovely he’s one of the few I’ve met (ik Rex Charlie Freddie Jordan and Lauren that’s it aside from caz lol)
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Caz you’re allowed to vent we’re all here for you
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Fuckboy Drag King 08/20/2022 6:36 PM
Just honestly caught me off guard this man asked me in first year to smoke weed with him, I said no, suddenly, I'm the "tranny"
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I wouldnt say Charlie is-
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unless hes changed ofc
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Really? Shit okay
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But ive heard enough what charlie said about me ngl
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I’ve only spoken to him I think 3 times?
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Fuckboy Drag King 08/20/2022 6:36 PM
Eh Charlie's alright. Dreadfully insecure to his core type person
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someof the shit hes said about me, i kinda feel like apology when pls
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Fuckboy Drag King 08/20/2022 6:37 PM
Rex is a real one though, love that man to death, he's one of few I'm still in contact with
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someof the shit hes said about me, i kinda feel like apology when pls
Fuckboy Drag King 08/20/2022 6:37 PM
Honestly can get that
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Honestly can get that
can get as in ask him to
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or?
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Just get wht i mean
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Rex always comes and says hi when I see him, had impromptu chips w him one night in campus kitchen before pole I’m glad he’s nice to you too
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im sure charlie is nice, dont get me wrong, but he does have a nasty streak
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Fuckboy Drag King 08/20/2022 6:38 PM
Get what you mean, though I can probably ask too, he'll probably tell me to fuck off, that man never apologises for anything, as you well know
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yeah by all means, you can mention it but im not holding out anyform of hope for one
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Fuckboy Drag King 08/20/2022 6:40 PM
Honestly, it naturally makes me a tad sad, but Rex defending me always makes it lighter, you know?
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Apparently me and Arvy are subhuman which is hilarious, pick your poison of minority hatecrime
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just shows rex is a real one
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Rex and Arvy are always welcome here
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if you wanted them here that is
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Who’s Arvy?
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Fuckboy Drag King 08/20/2022 6:40 PM
Arvy's my best mate lmao, does Business systems
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Arvys lovely
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its genuinely a shame I didnt talk with him much
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Fuckboy Drag King 08/20/2022 6:41 PM
He and I go everywhere together, thus we get clumped as "subhuman" for no reason. Campest bisexual man you'll probably ever meet
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Trans people 🤝 bisexuals Force to be reckoned with
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Now trans bisexuals, thats just a god/divine being/godess (edited)
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Fuckboy Drag King 08/20/2022 6:43 PM
Anyway that's all resolved now, also don't like how he (the housemate) was using my friendship with Rex as like some sort of weapon, that Rex was "sad" for hanging out with "subhuman old people and trannies" like
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Fuck off that's my mate you little League player go back to your basement
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giving me proper incel vibes ngl
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Heaven forbid Rex makes friends w someone who doesn’t fit the CompSci™️ requirements of being cishet incellular grime
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ah yes, being friends with actual humans rather than people who will take any opportunity to degrade and insult others, what a terrible fate
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Just heard some housemates (all comp sci) of my friend have all rather unaffectionately been calling me "the tranny" in my absence.
that's fucking horrible, sorry you had to go through that. idk wtf is wrong with them but their insecurity is leaking out in the nastiest ways
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What makes it funnier still, as I am learning, is that he thought I was trans-femme, as in, I was assigned male at birth and I was "pretending to be a woman"
ah the "we can always tell" crowd once again never being able to fucking tell lmfao
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ah the "we can always tell" crowd once again never being able to fucking tell lmfao
Fuckboy Drag King 08/20/2022 7:30 PM
It's the fact that the guy in question was like "yeah well she can't hide her masculine qualities from me, I know what she is" and I'm just like
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My guy you are so close, fundamentally, but yet, so far
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ForestBae🎄 08/20/2022 7:38 PM
The accidental ally
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Ish
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Fuckboy Drag King
Just heard some housemates (all comp sci) of my friend have all rather unaffectionately been calling me "the tranny" in my absence.
Twink Antony 08/20/2022 8:31 PM
I'm sorry but what the actual FUCK
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Thats fucking disgusting
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Actual knock the shit out of them behaviour
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I'm sorry but what the actual FUCK
Fuckboy Drag King 08/20/2022 8:32 PM
Dunno if you ever met James and Patrick? Hopefully you didn't, they're the incelly playing bad games in the basement types.
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Fuckboy Drag King
Dunno if you ever met James and Patrick? Hopefully you didn't, they're the incelly playing bad games in the basement types.
Twink Antony 08/20/2022 8:33 PM
Oh no, what James
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Is it the Brunette and Light brown hair duo
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Fuckboy Drag King 08/20/2022 8:34 PM
Um, Medicine is his usertag
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Twink Antony 08/20/2022 8:34 PM
Tall and small
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Is it the Brunette and Light brown hair duo
Fuckboy Drag King 08/20/2022 8:34 PM
THATS THEM YEAH
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LMAO
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Twink Antony 08/20/2022 8:34 PM
Fuck, and I actually liked him
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Dickhead
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Fuckboy Drag King 08/20/2022 8:34 PM
Was the short fat one who called me tranny
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Patrick isn't so bad, just fundamentally very boring and spineless
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@Twink Antony wanna get them together
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Fuckboy Drag King
Patrick isn't so bad, just fundamentally very boring and spineless
Twink Antony 08/20/2022 8:35 PM
Will be after I rip it out
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Scum of the earth fuckers
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I’m ready to give both of them a Glasgow kiss
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I’m ready to give both of them a Glasgow kiss
Fuckboy Drag King 08/20/2022 8:36 PM
Oi that's my job, Glasgow is in my blood
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I’m ready to give both of them a Glasgow kiss
What’s a Glasgow kiss?
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What’s a Glasgow kiss?
ForestBae🎄 08/20/2022 8:43 PM
A head butt
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I think
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nah it's when you cut someone's mouth from ear to ear
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ForestBae🎄
A head butt
Ohh, tbh that sounds a lot like the Scottish part of my family 😂
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tho that might be a glasgow smile
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tho that might be a glasgow smile
That’s a smile
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Fuckboy Drag King 08/20/2022 8:47 PM
Second only to the Columbian necktie ofc, another specialty reserved for incel compsci
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and that is?
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Fuckboy Drag King
Second only to the Columbian necktie ofc, another specialty reserved for incel compsci
So do you have to be compsci to understand this stuff? 😂
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So do you have to be compsci to understand this stuff? 😂
Fuckboy Drag King 08/20/2022 8:50 PM
Nah my friend just terminally online
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and that is?
Fuckboy Drag King 08/20/2022 8:51 PM
It's a bit explicit lmao it's where you cut someones throat and pull their tongue out through the laceration you made, so their tongue is ripped and sitting somewhere on their neck
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It's a bit explicit lmao it's where you cut someones throat and pull their tongue out through the laceration you made, so their tongue is ripped and sitting somewhere on their neck
That’s a bit to kinky tbh.
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Fuckboy Drag King 08/20/2022 8:52 PM
Oh Ben
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You make my soul so happy
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It's a bit explicit lmao it's where you cut someones throat and pull their tongue out through the laceration you made, so their tongue is ripped and sitting somewhere on their neck
lovely. cartel fun times
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Fuckboy Drag King
You make my soul so happy
Awe, I like how I seem to be a bit of medicine to the soul. The only cost, your soul!!! Mwahahaha. 😈
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Fuckboy Drag King 08/20/2022 8:56 PM
me: violent torture method
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ben: kinky, but not for me :)
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ben would probably be into it if they ate the tongue
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ben would probably be into it if they ate the tongue
Nah, you’d be surprised. I’m not as kinky as you’d think. 😂
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me: violent torture method
Tbh I’d find that a bit to messy for torture…
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Tbh I’d find that a bit to messy for torture…
Fuckboy Drag King 08/20/2022 9:01 PM
Tbf It's normally done post mortem as a statement, not whilst the victim is alive, too much blood otherwise, too messy
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Tbf It's normally done post mortem as a statement, not whilst the victim is alive, too much blood otherwise, too messy
Exactly, imagine the blood pressure, it would be squirting out everywhere. Also, I find blood to be a bit smelly. I know this from high school biology btw.
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Why are we killing just got back to here
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Fuckboy Drag King 08/20/2022 9:03 PM
discussing apt torture methods for incels on my course
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LoLo <3
Hot
We discussed that it was a bit to kinky…
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Fuckboy Drag King
discussing apt torture methods for incels on my course
A valid use of time Fuck those guys
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Another fight w my dad love that for me
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I’m so tired
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hope youre feeling okay, can be tough, here if you want to talk 🫂
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hope you're not doing too bad 🫂 it's horrible having a fight with a parent but we're here for you
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bit annoyed because i let myself get my hopes up with my father, despite him doing the same thing since i was 14, and low and behold im fucked over again. i know on some level i expected it to happen again because id half prepared in case he hadnt, but i was hopeful, and now he has gone straight back to his usual bullshit responses and im left scrambling to work things out with what little i have
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small thing all things considered just frustrated that for the last couple of years id learned to just not trust what he said and prepare anyway, and then im stupid again
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I don't know what he promised you but I'm sorry he let you down again that shit sucks and you deserve better
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Is it something we can help you with you said you'd half prepared but if it's like living arrangements or something I'm sure w enough of us in town we can work something out?
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no no its fine, thank you though. its just money stuff, i still have wages due at the end of the month which will keep me going until student finance, just felt like my shitty financial relationship with him might finally come to an end
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Ah yeah the su pay out on the 28th right? It's been so long since I had a shift I don't totally remember haha ~ if it gets really tight I think you can apply to the uni for extenuating circumstances or something and they can give you something to tide you over
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yeah they should, im sure it will be fine, im not overly concerned about the finances because i know i will get it sorted, im just annoyed at myself a bit, even if its pointless to be like such
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Okay your picrew is Adorable
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Also like I get it but he's the one you should be disappointed in not you, you haven't done anything wrong and you prepared yourself in case this would happen like you're in a decent position regardless all things considered it just sucks bc he let you down
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mumblingmiss 08/21/2022 6:03 PM
I need to accept that my academic career doesn't have to be everything. If I don't succeed that's okay and maybe it just isn't for me or its not the right time for it. Obviously I don't know yet but I often forget that the losses won't be as big as I make them out to be. I've dropped out of uni before and it took a while for my parents to convince me that that was okay and now I need to convince myself. We'll see how it goes.
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Being rushed to get things done from GCSEs to A-Levels without much choice as a teen really fucks you up
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it honestly does, it can be super stressful. hope youre okay though, youre an awesome person regardless of academic achievement 🫂
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mumblingmiss 08/21/2022 6:07 PM
Thanks, there's just a lot of realisations to go through
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Academia is only one measure of intelligence it doesn’t say anything about you aside from how you are in one aspect of your life. You are loved because of who you are, nothing to do with your achievements in school or uni, you’re a kind, funny and lovely person and the focus on school and uni we’re forced through is bullshit, you’re just as worthy as anyone else regardless of where you go aside from the school shit you didn’t get a choice in. We’re here for you whatever your decision
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mumblingmiss 08/21/2022 6:10 PM
Thank you, that really means a lot
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I have to figure out what I want now, its hard to get used to not being a kid. I remember at the end of highschool I didn't want to go to college but I had to do something until I was 18. And then the uni application pressure at college was almost completely unavoidable. So now I need to know what I want.
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But I'll always be CB over here fucking about in this server and growing my harem
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Contrary opinion but you absolutely do not have to know what you want. I also sleepwalked into uni don't know what I want to do after this year but I do well w structure so I'll either do a masters or something sociology-y but the most healing thing for me at uni has been realising that nobody has their shit figured out. When I was with H I had a 5 year plan, I was going to get a masters and work 3 jobs so I could afford to get her out their parents' house and afford her therapy while being a housespouse bc they don't want to work. That's cool and all but when it ended it made me realise everything can be temporary and the only person who's decisions affect me permanently are my own and I needed to like focus on me? Maybe I have more responsibilities than a kid but at the end of the day I'm just a big kid enjoying the freedom uni gave me and the opportunities to do the things mum didn't let me like spending my pay from work on bubbles and play doh and eating chocolate whenever I want lmao This is more a yay let's be a kid thing for me than it was initially meant to be but what I was trying to say was don't stress too much about what you think you have to do, it's fine to not know where you want to be, do something you enjoy until you figure it out or just follow the shit you enjoy and you'll probably find yourself either pursuing education or work in that area anyway. Just don't put too much pressure on yourself ~ you'd probably be surprised how many of us are in a similar place
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mumblingmiss 08/21/2022 6:22 PM
Thanks
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I'm also like almost 2 years out of a 6 year relationship so my brain is like confused about not being a kid and not basing my choices and future on what someone else is planning too
18:26
I'm not saying I want to know exactly everything I want but I just wanna know kinda what my brain is interested in if you know what I mean
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Damn I didn't know it was 6 years that's a lott
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mumblingmiss 08/21/2022 6:28 PM
Yeah it was a long one
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Sorry that's probably not the right thing to say
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mumblingmiss 08/21/2022 6:29 PM
Lol no don't worry
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I don't mind comments about it
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But nah I get that like basing a lot around another person then having to reevalute shit ain't easy
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mumblingmiss 08/21/2022 6:30 PM
Yeah makes me wish I grew up outside of a couple but I'll just have to do all that now
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Idk relationships can teach you a lot about yourself too ~ I didn't date really until I was 17 and learnt distance does NOT work for me even tho it was only 2 hours drive (it was lockdown tbf but even so) then don't stay w a guy who tells you to get a boob job, and poly relationships aren't my thing I get jealous too easily and am not at the stage where I could process that healthily, think the hardest thing for me tho is not changing my entire personality when I like someone just so they won't leave me then them leaving anyway bc they liked me not the me I made up to be compatible w them if that makes sense? I've done a lot of growing since January and while coming to terms w stuff can be rough I like to think it's taught me shit I would be pretty naive about otherwisde
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mumblingmiss 08/21/2022 6:42 PM
I started dating when I was 13, we met in highschool and then he immediately moved like 4 hours away. I didn't know myself, I was very mentally ill and had no coping mechanisms and didn't understand my own sexuality. The relationship ruined all my good friendships because my two closest friends told him they wanted to be with him. We had our first kiss the same year I broke up with him. We went on a break at the end of highschool bc he was struggling and needed space and then a few months later I found out he was cheating on me dating another girl and then I helped him deal with the aftermath and agreed to stay with him (big regrets). I get where you're coming from and everyone benefits from different things but I think I would have benefited greatly from either not having that relationship or cutting it off halfway. Thank you for sharing with me btw :))
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Hope I'm not oversharing
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I've learnt more from the friendships I've had in here and they make me happy and that's all I can hope for
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Wow that’s shitty I’m so sorry You’re not overshadowing you’re fine but please don’t feel like you have to tell me stuff you’re not comfortable to 🫂💗
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Twink Antony 08/21/2022 8:22 PM
Big problem with myself is that, when I want to cry, I just can’t, like I can feel it right behind the eyes and my body I just tired, but I can’t
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It’s okay to feel like that sometimes, sometimes it’s like you wanna let it all out and it’ll be easier ❤️ those moments are the hardest. Just keep rocking yourself and you’ll be ok. We’re all here for you
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Sometimes your body just doesn’t want to it’s okay to cry but it’s also okay to not cry 🫂 I cry a LOT I do get how weird it can be when you can’t but it’ll be okay, the feeling will pass, it’s gonna be okay. Like B said, we’re here if you need anything 💗💗
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Big problem with myself is that, when I want to cry, I just can’t, like I can feel it right behind the eyes and my body I just tired, but I can’t
reiterating what everyone else just said really. it's ok not to be able to cry but hope you're ok and the feeling passes 🫂
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Confessions BOT 08/21/2022 10:45 PM
Anonymous Confession (#625)
"hands shaking while i smoke away the sudden onslaught of sadness"
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hope you're okay op, here if you want to talk or just have a distraction
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A train to Scotland got cancelled so my train to northern England got moved half an hour later so that those passengers could take this one instead - now I’m going to miss my connecting train and I’m not going to be able to make the appointment I booked and the estate agent is saying they can’t reschedule 🙂
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This is literally like a 6 hour journey that costs £70 and it might all be completely wasted if they can’t figure out a way to reschedule because of this one random train to Edinburgh being cancelled - why would ppl going to Scotland want to take a different train that doesn’t even leave England anyway??
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that's fucking stupid. I'm so sorry this happened, could you get a virtual tour with the estate agent or smth? ik it's not the same but maybe it could do smth?
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Unfortunately they insisted that I had to sign the final documents in person - I wanted to also go to the house so I could measure the rooms to plan for furniture but idk what I’m going to be able to do now - literally my only hope is that the estate agent can find availability an hour later
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Still have a few hours of train journey left to find out 🥲🥲🥲
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i really hope they can reschedule it
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bc this is smth completely out of your control
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Been talking to the agents for like an hour but they figured out a way to reschedule so fingers crossed the rest of the journey goes okay and I can make it in time
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Very grateful for the estate agents finding a way to make this work so that the whole trip isn’t ruined 🙂
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And I should still be able to make it back to Norwich tonight
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that's great! hope it works out
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Nice! I’m glad it all worked out 💗
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glad to hear it got sorted, hope it all goes well 🫂
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Confessions BOT 08/22/2022 1:34 PM
Anonymous Confession (#628)
"TW: Alcohol I do not even drink that much at this point, yet I always feel like I am avoiding the temptation to just have a bit to drink, just to make things easier. It makes me stress a lot less, calms me down, helps me make annoying or frustrating things fun and simpler. Even when I am at my worst with mental health, it just makes me feel numb. It does not make me more depressed, just makes me feel more empty, and that feels a lot easier sometimes. But my mental health is not even that bad, but I still feel like the pressure that always builds up every now and then will be so much easier to manage and then overcome, rather than struggle through and avoid."
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Proud of you for making progress drinking less than you were, leaving behind coping mechanisms is never easy. Especially w something like alcohol that’s so normalised in uni culture it can be hard to step away from, but there’s never any pressure to drink if you don’t want to with us, the most important thing is that everyone feels safe and comfortable 🫂 glad you’re taking care of yourself op, I don’t have much experience with this stuff but I’m here if you want to talk regardless 💗
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Been talking to the agents for like an hour but they figured out a way to reschedule so fingers crossed the rest of the journey goes okay and I can make it in time
Made it on time and did what I needed to do, heading to catch the train back now
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Yay!!
14:35
Glad everything worked out!!!
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I’m really glad things went okay in the end because I don’t know what the fuck I would have done otherwise
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Now hopefully the only thinking about it I’ll have to do is being excited about planning furniture until I move in on the 1st 🤞
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Ooo exciting!!!
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Made it on time and did what I needed to do, heading to catch the train back now
I'm so happy and excited for you! glad it all worked out in the end. sucks that you had to face all that stress but take some time to wind down now that that's over
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ahh love the loop of my father being shit, me hating my father, my father being a manipulative piece of shit until i start trusting him a bit more again, then betraying said trust, then being worse, then recycle
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i am absolutely done, except surprise, no im not, because the exact same thing will happen again because im an idiot
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Fuckboy Drag King 08/22/2022 5:33 PM
do you want me to beat him up
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and/or hit on him
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kind offer but im fine thanks
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just slightly pissed off
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again
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but thats why alcohol exists
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Fuckboy Drag King 08/22/2022 5:36 PM
I don't know if you remember you told me bits about what your father had done in the past at Spectrum, and I was fuckin livid lmao
17:37
Abusive parents should just be strangled, whether to death or not remains to be seen but still
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You're doing ever so well putting up with him.
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but thats why alcohol exists
you shouldn't need to resort to substances to feel better after things like this. I'm sorry he's being such a piece of shit and I'll join in on strangling him
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i hope you'll be out of this cycle and his reach soon. as someone with severely abusive parents, ik all too well what you're describing with the abuse-forgiveness thing. it takes time and distance but i promise, it'll get better and we'll help you every step of the way (edited)
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thanks, its appreciated
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im sure ill be fine just annoyed now and need a break from everything
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mumblingmiss 08/22/2022 8:01 PM
My brain for real needs to shut the fuck up bc I don't wanna listen to it no more
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Fuckboy Drag King 08/22/2022 8:13 PM
Another classic from mother dearest this evening, "well, things might be bad but at least you're not trans like some of those poor athletes." Me asking what she meant by that, her reply of "well, you already have quite a lot wrong with you, and I have nothing wrong with trans people! I just know that you're not one." Oh mother beloved, please shut the fuck up.
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mumblingmiss 08/22/2022 8:16 PM
If you tell my brain to shut the fuck up I'll tell your mother to shut the fuck up bc oh boy she needs to before she digs herself a deeper hole
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mumblingmiss
If you tell my brain to shut the fuck up I'll tell your mother to shut the fuck up bc oh boy she needs to before she digs herself a deeper hole
Fuckboy Drag King 08/22/2022 8:17 PM
Sounds like a deal babe, how can I best communicate to your brain
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Fuckboy Drag King
Another classic from mother dearest this evening, "well, things might be bad but at least you're not trans like some of those poor athletes." Me asking what she meant by that, her reply of "well, you already have quite a lot wrong with you, and I have nothing wrong with trans people! I just know that you're not one." Oh mother beloved, please shut the fuck up.
im sorry, that really sucks, i hope youre okay 🫂 here to talk if you want
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Does anyone here have parents who aren’t pieces of shit? Swear down I’ll become all of your adoptive big sisters if I can 🫂
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Fuckboy Drag King
Another classic from mother dearest this evening, "well, things might be bad but at least you're not trans like some of those poor athletes." Me asking what she meant by that, her reply of "well, you already have quite a lot wrong with you, and I have nothing wrong with trans people! I just know that you're not one." Oh mother beloved, please shut the fuck up.
respectfully, i fucking hate your mother with a burning passion reserved for her and her alone
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Fuckboy Drag King
Sounds like a deal babe, how can I best communicate to your brain
mumblingmiss 08/22/2022 8:19 PM
Was thinking maybe a lobotomy
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mumblingmiss
If you tell my brain to shut the fuck up I'll tell your mother to shut the fuck up bc oh boy she needs to before she digs herself a deeper hole
your brain needs to shut the fuck up and stop bothering you, youre awesome and so cool, and dont deserve to be harrassed - letter know by your brain
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LoLo <3
Does anyone here have parents who aren’t pieces of shit? Swear down I’ll become all of your adoptive big sisters if I can 🫂
Fuckboy Drag King 08/22/2022 8:19 PM
My dad is pretty nice. Mother is a bit of a dick sometimes
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mumblingmiss
Was thinking maybe a lobotomy
Fuckboy Drag King 08/22/2022 8:19 PM
Is that legal
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i hope you're ok and ik you're used to letting her words slide off you but ik it can be really hard sometimes. you're wonderful and she's a close-minded bitch
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Fuckboy Drag King
Is that legal
mumblingmiss 08/22/2022 8:19 PM
If we pretend it never happened
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mumblingmiss
If we pretend it never happened
Fuckboy Drag King 08/22/2022 8:20 PM
our secret bestie i'm omw
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Fuckboy Drag King
our secret bestie i'm omw
mumblingmiss 08/22/2022 8:20 PM
Perfect, lmk where your mother is
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Caz can I fight your mum
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mahariel
i hope you're ok and ik you're used to letting her words slide off you but ik it can be really hard sometimes. you're wonderful and she's a close-minded bitch
Fuckboy Drag King 08/22/2022 8:21 PM
I know you're right haha, it just makes it terribly hard to ever consider coming out to them, you know? It was jarring coming back to my parents as it is
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LoLo <3
Caz can I fight your mum
Fuckboy Drag King 08/22/2022 8:21 PM
Please do
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cant wait for parent dome, shove all the shitty parents in an arena and let them fight it out
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honestly, i would pay to watch my mother and his mother duke it out
20:22
feel like mine would hide a shank somewhere
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Fuckboy Drag King 08/22/2022 8:22 PM
sadly I think my mother would win, drink dependant
20:22
though I wish for nothing more than for your mother to shank mine
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my fathers back would break immediately
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mumblingmiss 08/22/2022 8:22 PM
I don't want to be that person but as often as I am angry at my father I like my parents bc theyre always blunt with me which I need
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but that his bones can be used as clubs
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mumblingmiss 08/22/2022 8:23 PM
But my parents could murder all of yours
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Fuckboy Drag King
I know you're right haha, it just makes it terribly hard to ever consider coming out to them, you know? It was jarring coming back to my parents as it is
yeah i get you (in a different way to how you do ofc). it must be shit facing all of that at home but i trust that your sister and most likely your father will support you. it's your journey though and even though it looks bleak, we're here for you no matter what happens. idk if this means much but yeah
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But my parents could murder all of yours
Fuckboy Drag King 08/22/2022 8:23 PM
Honestly do think my mother would have a pretty good chance, I've been on the receiving end of that and sadly got the scars for it
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mahariel
yeah i get you (in a different way to how you do ofc). it must be shit facing all of that at home but i trust that your sister and most likely your father will support you. it's your journey though and even though it looks bleak, we're here for you no matter what happens. idk if this means much but yeah
Fuckboy Drag King 08/22/2022 8:23 PM
Yeah I hope so 🫂
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mumblingmiss
I don't want to be that person but as often as I am angry at my father I like my parents bc theyre always blunt with me which I need
Mine are the same dad and I have our fights but
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honestly have no idea what my dad would do in a fight. he would probably break his back immediately too lmfao
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mumblingmiss 08/22/2022 8:24 PM
My mum is a care nurse who pushed a guy in Lake to defend my brother once and my dad is an absolute unit security guard and we all have anger issues lmao
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We do murders in this household
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mumblingmiss
We do murders in this household
Fuckboy Drag King 08/22/2022 8:25 PM
I'll invite my mother round to yours, unprompted
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Fuckboy Drag King
I'll invite my mother round to yours, unprompted
mumblingmiss 08/22/2022 8:25 PM
Let's go shell never make it out
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i love that this ParentBowl would end up with a bunch of old men crying in pain while two narcissists stab at each other. Caz's mother gets +5 poison damage and mine gets +5 religious damage
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paladin vs druid
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yes
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mahariel
i love that this ParentBowl would end up with a bunch of old men crying in pain while two narcissists stab at each other. Caz's mother gets +5 poison damage and mine gets +5 religious damage
Fuckboy Drag King 08/22/2022 8:26 PM
Then they'd both gaslight each other and the following morning pretend they didn't fight at all
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Fuckboy Drag King
Then they'd both gaslight each other and the following morning pretend they didn't fight at all
yes, my mother telling yours all the ways she's going to burn in Hell
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there wouldnt be a following morning until only one remains
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mumblingmiss 08/22/2022 8:27 PM
Cant wait for my lobotomy
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standard racism vs exotic racism, the ultimate standoff
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mahariel
standard racism vs exotic racism, the ultimate standoff
Fuckboy Drag King 08/22/2022 8:28 PM
tbh I am very glad our mothers will never meet, they'd be so incredibly fake and passive aggressive for the entire duration they were around each other
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and then inevitably blame us, respectively, for something or other
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mahariel
standard racism vs exotic racism, the ultimate standoff
this reminds me of something
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Fuckboy Drag King
tbh I am very glad our mothers will never meet, they'd be so incredibly fake and passive aggressive for the entire duration they were around each other
LMAO honestly this is exactly how it would go down my mother in public: ahaha you're so nice, i love the decor ahahaha my mother in private: that bitch has no morals and God will smite her for her sins. no, you don't get to point out i do the exact same things
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My mum has rheumatoid arthritis and my dad once kicked someone’s teeth out doing karate but he’s now 50 w a bad back
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this reminds me of something
i will strangle you if you mention that
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LoLo <3
My mum has rheumatoid arthritis and my dad once kicked someone’s teeth out doing karate but he’s now 50 w a bad back
Fuckboy Drag King 08/22/2022 8:31 PM
sexy
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mahariel
i will strangle you if you mention that
YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN
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YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN
DIE.
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mahariel
DIE.
HAHAHAHAHAHHAAHAH
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My mum isnt the scary one in the family
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telling you things is always a mistake
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my aunt is, hurt me, she will literally murder you
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your aunt has multiple warrants out for her arrest
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Fuckboy Drag King 08/22/2022 8:34 PM
sexy
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is she a milf
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Fuckboy Drag King 08/22/2022 8:34 PM
hi
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Back off ❤️
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mahariel
your aunt has multiple warrants out for her arrest
oh no she just has multiple charges for GBH
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thats all
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thats pretty tiny compared to others in my family ngl
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Fuckboy Drag King 08/22/2022 8:34 PM
I nearly got my mate's cousins number a few months back, it can be done
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oh no she just has multiple charges for GBH
Fuckboy Drag King 08/22/2022 8:34 PM
or maybe not
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mumblingmiss 08/22/2022 8:37 PM
You can fuck as many of my family members as you like but good luck
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or maybe not
me : explaining some of the thigns my family done to @T_JUS665 @Unknown @Unknown and @Unknown looking in horror like
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me : explaining some of the thigns my family done to @T_JUS665 @Unknown @Unknown and @Unknown looking in horror like
Yay family stories
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me : explaining some of the thigns my family done to @T_JUS665 @Unknown @Unknown and @Unknown looking in horror like
Deleted User 08/22/2022 8:43 PM
Your family is like watching a particularly spicy soap😂
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Also thanks for the new role😂
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Got to my new house and everything’s fine except threes mould on the windows there’s no wifi the hot water doesn’t work and when finn tried to cook a fuse went and now the powers out I feel so isolated and scared I wish I hadn’t come back up
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thats really shit, im sorry
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sounds overwhelming, hope youre feeling okay and im here yo talk. hope things get sorted 🫂
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I can’t use my phone there’s no power to charge it 🥲
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i dont have any powerbanks or id offer some, im sorry
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Got to my new house and everything’s fine except threes mould on the windows there’s no wifi the hot water doesn’t work and when finn tried to cook a fuse went and now the powers out I feel so isolated and scared I wish I hadn’t come back up
that's so shit, i could run over and supply a powerbank if you want?
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We’ve got the power on now, still no wifi or hot water tho:(
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Thank you tho 🫂
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On an up note this is my room
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(Ignore the mess I haven’t had a chance to unpack)
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your room is massive
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hope u can get the utilities sorted asap!
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LoLo <3
On an up note this is my room
cool room!
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it is easily 3x as big as mine haha
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LoLo <3
We’ve got the power on now, still no wifi or hot water tho:(
Twink Antony 08/22/2022 10:57 PM
Has the fuse tripped for the boiler? x
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Or is the boiler producing any error code?
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Wifi should come back slowly with the power x
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There never was any wifi:(
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it is easily 3x as big as mine haha
Same w my room at home
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huh when's the wifi getting installed?
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Is this a boiler?
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i think thats the controls for it?
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Just had/still maybe having a bit of a meltdown Stupid shitty fucking sinks make the water splash up if you turn the tap on too fast because it was apparently designed by an idiot and it goes all over my pajama top and now it needs to dry or I won't fucking be able to sleep in it
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Oh and the soap is terrible it's some fancy shit that smells way too fucking strong on my hands for way too long and that's really just not helping this awful sensory experience
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Fastest way to get it to fry is to wear it but I get how gross it can be 🫂 is there something you’ve worn as a day top you’d not be wearing again that doesn’t matter if you use it overnight? Maybe as a one off it’d be okay?
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Ik textures can be different but that might work in a pinch
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Hope you can get some rest 🫂
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All my day t shirts are short sleeve but I absolutely need long sleeve for pjs
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And now my nose is all stuffy and clogged up
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It just one fucking thing after the other (edited)
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I'm just having a whole fucking time of it tonight apparently
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I'm just having a whole fucking time of it tonight apparently
feeling any better today?
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Eh Still in a weird mood
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hope it eases throughout the day kiddo
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Love getting frustrated and overwhelmed because I can't find something in the fridge because it's in a different fridge There's too many fridges here I don't have the object permanence to handle this
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actually begging my co-ordinator to give me more tasks to do lmao. i am bored out of my mind bc they set weeks to complete projects that i get done in a couple days max. hate feeling unproductive like this
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ik it's a stupid vent but ugh
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Do you want to come over and do some diy I’m doing everything I can to not do something stupid but I’m breaking down
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i really work the best when I'm juggling 4-5 projects and flitting between them so my ADHD doesn't have long periods of time to lose focus
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LoLo <3
Do you want to come over and do some diy I’m doing everything I can to not do something stupid but I’m breaking down
I'm so sorry you're going through this, can you wait until 4:30? I'll talk to you through all of this but my shift doesn't end until then
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It’s okay you don’t have to come over and do diy I just have to use command strips to put shit up which is fine when they’re strong enough but I nearly just broke my mirror
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LoLo <3
It’s okay you don’t have to come over and do diy I just have to use command strips to put shit up which is fine when they’re strong enough but I nearly just broke my mirror
ahh ok I'm pretty good with putting stuff up so sit tight and I'll be there in 3 hours ok?
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LoLo <3
Is this a boiler?
Deleted User 08/23/2022 6:56 PM
My thing at home is just like that! Left side when you click extra hour it will heat water for another hour if it’s run out for showers and isn’t already on. Haven’t really used the other buttons at home because we tend to keep the settings the same but hopefully you can at least have hot showers whilst you figure it out
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Deleted User 08/23/2022 7:27 PM
I asked my mum this is what she said😂
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You (and your mum) are absolute queens thankyou 🥺 we have unlimited bills included so we’ve just put it on all the time for now but if we can set it that’ll save a lot of power thankyou🥺💗
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Deleted User 08/23/2022 7:35 PM
Haha np love that I’ve never learnt our heating system even though I lived there 12 years😂
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I’ve lived in the same house for 16 years I wouldn’t have a clue either 😂😭
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LoLo <3
You (and your mum) are absolute queens thankyou 🥺 we have unlimited bills included so we’ve just put it on all the time for now but if we can set it that’ll save a lot of power thankyou🥺💗
Twink Antony 08/23/2022 7:40 PM
I’m sure you’re aware of this already but please be careful of “all inclusive bills”
19:41
Request the billing invoice every month, a lot of these companies, especially with increasing prices, tend to do all inclusive bills up to £x but won’t say
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Not my parents rather me be homeless than me stay at the house for a couple of nights.
20:26
Luckily Jory is letting me stay
20:26
But they literally were like no, to me asking to stay at their house for two nights
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Wtf?
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I’m not gonna ring them for a while
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Fuck I’m so sorry 🫂🫂
20:27
That’s so shitty
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thats so shit, im sorry
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It’s okay, I will always have backup plans
20:27
But that just really set me back
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hope youre okay 🫂 here if you need anything
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Same here 💗
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Just reasons I don’t want to talk to my parents again
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I don’t have wifi but I have a pretty big room and hot water that works now if you did ever need to crash my door is always open 💗
20:28
But I absolutely don’t blame you I wouldn’t want to talk to mine if they did that either
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Thank you, I really appreciate it
20:29
And I literally woukd have backup plans
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But just shocked about parents
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20:29
It’s not like I ever ask them for anything
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Liek; I’m completely independent financially etc
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mumblingmiss 08/24/2022 9:01 AM
Why do people always come to fix or replace things when I'm the only one home and why thhe fuck does nobody warn me? I mean the workers are always nice but I can never confirm if theyre at the right place or not bc nobody has told me anything so I'm super awkward and unprepared to deal with anyone or help them do their job.
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Your landlord or letting agent should let you know at minimum 24h in advance ik it’s weird w the moving in period but they should at least text to let you know
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mumblingmiss 08/24/2022 9:11 AM
I live at home w my parents so they get told all of it but then they all go to work and don't tell me whether it's because they remembered or not I would just like to know what to expect
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Love finding out the wifi was sent back to virgin so I still won’t be able to book my train ticket home
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10:41
It’s gonna be so much more now
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mumblingmiss 08/24/2022 10:44 AM
Do you need a hand with that?
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@Unknown we got free wifi at work if you need to use it
12:43
Also coffe
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If it’s still open when I can leave the house I’ll take you up on that (still waiting for a microwave to be delivered and the guys to come fit the new oven)
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LoLo <3
If it’s still open when I can leave the house I’ll take you up on that (still waiting for a microwave to be delivered and the guys to come fit the new oven)
Yeah we are
13:25
@Unknown open till 3:30
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Praying the guys have come by then 🥺
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mumblingmiss 08/24/2022 1:29 PM
If you need a hand booking it if you can't get there in time lmk I can always help book it for you
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@Unknown possibly 4:30 if it doesn’t get busier
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There’s still no sign of the guys w our oven or the Amazon truck w the microwave so doesn’t look hopeful 😔
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LoLo <3
There’s still no sign of the guys w our oven or the Amazon truck w the microwave so doesn’t look hopeful 😔
Doesn’t that tell you your delivery time? And is there no one else in the house :/
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can you only book train tickets on your computer?
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Only me and finn rn and he’s at the doctors:( and mum ordered the microwave and it says at some point today
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mahariel
can you only book train tickets on your computer?
The page won’t load on my phone 4g
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huh that's weird
14:44
trainline app?
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I could try getting the app ig just thought it’d be a quick fix on the wifi lol
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yeah this really sucks
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I’ll probably drag myself to town see B when no one’s coming to the house to do stuff get it done there I really miss you guys and thought I’d have been able to see you by now:(
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hey no worries we're doing stuff tomorrow evening
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14:46
don't think we have anything planned for tonight
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I’ll try have you over at some point give you the grand tour
14:46
But might not be this week idk
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LoLo <3
I’ll try have you over at some point give you the grand tour
When Finns back you care welcome to come here
14:47
And I’m happy if you need me to to come over after work and hotspot y’all
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You’re so lovely thankyou 🥺🥰🫂
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LoLo <3
You’re so lovely thankyou 🥺🥰🫂
Free coffee for both of you too ❤️
14:48
If you somehow get here
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But please please please don’t ask for coffee after 16:15
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if you do, Bran has corporate permission to bodyslam you
15:00
ask me how i know
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mahariel
ask me how i know
Nearly threw you down the stairs
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if you're a cute, curly-haired boy, he'll slam you into the wall instead
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Haha duly noted 😳
15:06
Finn kind of fits that criteria but don’t be too full on he has a bf
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No the taken people get the same treatment
15:07
Throwing down the stairs smh
15:07
If I have to be single. So does everyone else! Those the rules
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Bro he’s 6’4 does kayak and triathlon he’s not someone to be throwing down stairs lmao
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LoLo <3
Bro he’s 6’4 does kayak and triathlon he’s not someone to be throwing down stairs lmao
Sneak attacks ofc
15:08
I have 20 years of built up rage from trauma
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levelled up in stealth kills
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Lmfao ~ pole knocked him out maybe you can do something w that knowledge 💀
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mumblingmiss 08/24/2022 3:12 PM
I don't drink coffee but I'd order one for the experience of seeing you try
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LoLo <3
Lmfao ~ pole knocked him out maybe you can do something w that knowledge 💀
I grab a pole and spin
15:13
Spin kick
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He came to bring a boy to pole and knocked on my door the next morning 'HOW DO YOU NOT WAKE UP AND CRY' like bitch I need context for that sometimes I do lmao
15:14
Apparently it's different muscle sets to what you use for kayaking rip
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B
I grab a pole and spin
No bc I'm gonna buy a shorter pole attachment and have it in my room here
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I use my whole body for baristaing
15:14
I have very thick leg muscles tjo
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mumblingmiss 08/24/2022 3:15 PM
Imagine exercising
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My mental health takes a massive dive when I don't now
15:16
Huh actually that's probably why I've been feeling so bad since coming up here I haven't got on a pole in like 2 weeks
15:16
Thanks for the heads up!
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mumblingmiss 08/24/2022 3:17 PM
Get back on that pole
15:20
Looking forward to the part of my day where I can be in my dark little cube of a room I hate the light
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feeling a little bit sad that i didn't get to spend my graduation with my friends bc my parents micromanaged the whole day into endless family drama
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mahariel
feeling a little bit sad that i didn't get to spend my graduation with my friends bc my parents micromanaged the whole day into endless family drama
Shit I was meant to go make friends w your mum drag her away I totally forgot
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Saw this on Instagram and while it’s old it’s still pretty useful if anyones going through The Sad atm 🫂 always here if anyone needs it tho I might not be online as much due to my wifi situation but knowing how to take care of yourself after a big cry can be helpful 💗
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i really needed to read that right now thank you
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Here if you need anything 🫂 💗
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mumblingmiss 08/24/2022 7:19 PM
That's great advice, obviously everyone has their own methods of coping or hitting reset, but it's really good as a guideline for everyone
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Mood lightener / let's all laugh at Lo if anyone needs it ~ I made pasta for dinner tonight and was eating it going huh this has a weird texture today I FORGOT TO COOK ANY PASTA I was just eating tinned tomatoes with peppers, seasoning, and a bit of cheese I MADE PASTALESS PASTA
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LoLo <3
Mood lightener / let's all laugh at Lo if anyone needs it ~ I made pasta for dinner tonight and was eating it going huh this has a weird texture today I FORGOT TO COOK ANY PASTA I was just eating tinned tomatoes with peppers, seasoning, and a bit of cheese I MADE PASTALESS PASTA
@Unknown I really need that braincell back
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LoLo <3
@Unknown I really need that braincell back
sorry i lost it
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MY BRAINCELL
19:29
NOOO
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would love some pastaless pasta tho
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mahariel
sorry i lost it
I stole it
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I was sitting there going huh what did I forget? The seasoning? Then immediately remembered getting garlic granules all over the worktop like nope can't be that
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LoLo <3
Mood lightener / let's all laugh at Lo if anyone needs it ~ I made pasta for dinner tonight and was eating it going huh this has a weird texture today I FORGOT TO COOK ANY PASTA I was just eating tinned tomatoes with peppers, seasoning, and a bit of cheese I MADE PASTALESS PASTA
"And for you?" "I'll have tomato pasta, hold the pasta."
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IT WASN'T INTENTIONAL
19:30
I swear I'm losing the plot
19:31
Also omg Jory can I have your role too
19:31
As the resident bike--
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easily accessible hole?
19:31
LMAO
19:31
sorry my role and i are only easily accessible by certain people
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And yet you're the one riding me
19:32
#makeitmakesense
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hey it's just what gal pals do
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'and they were good friends'
19:33
WHO TF IS STARRING ME IN MY WEAKEST MOMENTS
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what's a little rough riding between good friends
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STOP THIS
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mumblingmiss 08/24/2022 7:33 PM
If you dont ride your friends, are you really friends?
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museum of Lo's failures
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mahariel
museum of Lo's failures
Booty shorts when
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mumblingmiss 08/24/2022 7:34 PM
I'm sorry Lo but I have to
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Bullying
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mumblingmiss 08/24/2022 7:34 PM
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You 3 are damn lucky you're cute smh
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mumblingmiss 08/24/2022 7:41 PM
Teehee
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LoLo <3
Mood lightener / let's all laugh at Lo if anyone needs it ~ I made pasta for dinner tonight and was eating it going huh this has a weird texture today I FORGOT TO COOK ANY PASTA I was just eating tinned tomatoes with peppers, seasoning, and a bit of cheese I MADE PASTALESS PASTA
Fuckboy Drag King 08/24/2022 7:43 PM
Oh Lo
19:43
This made my day
19:43
Thanks for sharing
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LoLo <3
You 3 are damn lucky you're cute smh
Sounds kinda gay to me
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Ripfangs
Sounds kinda gay to me
Just gals being pals
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Ripfangs
Sounds kinda gay to me
mumblingmiss 08/24/2022 7:44 PM
How dare you call my gf gay
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LoLo <3
Just gals being pals
Just gals hanging out being pals aggressively flirting with eachother
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LoLo <3
Just gals being pals
mumblingmiss 08/24/2022 7:44 PM
Just straights being mates
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Ripfangs
Just gals hanging out being pals aggressively flirting with eachother
mumblingmiss 08/24/2022 7:46 PM
Choke me and tell me my hair looks cute
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mumblingmiss
Choke me and tell me my hair looks cute
I don't know how to do the first part safely but your hair is super cute
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Ripfangs
I don't know how to do the first part safely but your hair is super cute
mumblingmiss 08/24/2022 7:48 PM
If I die, I die. It's all part of the plan
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mumblingmiss
If I die, I die. It's all part of the plan
No you must live
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Ripfangs
I don't know how to do the first part safely but your hair is super cute
Squeeze the sides around the windpipe don't just go all in or you can do serious damage ~ if someone's into it and seriously asking you and you're unsure, get them to show you like position your hand bc they're more likely to have experience (ik this is a joke but it could be important)
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mumblingmiss 08/24/2022 7:48 PM
WILL SOMEONE JUST CHOKE ME
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LoLo <3
Squeeze the sides around the windpipe don't just go all in or you can do serious damage ~ if someone's into it and seriously asking you and you're unsure, get them to show you like position your hand bc they're more likely to have experience (ik this is a joke but it could be important)
Don't worry I'll definitely ask for clear instructions and demonstration and explanation I need that anyway for the simplest tasks I've not done before
19:50
Anyway twitter's been putting a bunch of hot butches on my timeline lately and like damn, when will a hot butch flirt with me?
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mumblingmiss 08/24/2022 7:50 PM
Omg I thought you said butcher
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"madam i've seen what you can do with chicken thighs and id like you to do the same for mine"
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butter
"madam i've seen what you can do with chicken thighs and id like you to do the same for mine"
"I heard you're an expert in thighs, care to inspect mine?"
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Pickup lines that shouldn't work for me but would
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LoLo <3
Pickup lines that shouldn't work for me but would
Hey Lo-
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Ripfangs
Hey Lo-
Hi
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mumblingmiss 08/24/2022 7:57 PM
Tbf a pick up line that would make me laugh like that would work on me too lmao
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Ripfangs
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You're already my gf remember? CB harem
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Anyway if any of you meet a hot butch tell them I say hi
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I will let you know how she responds:)
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mumblingmiss 08/24/2022 8:01 PM
If you see me tell me I said hi
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mumblingmiss
If you see me tell me I said hi
Shall do:)
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If you me tell see that say them
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mumblingmiss 08/24/2022 8:04 PM
I promise I will
20:05
man door hand hook car door
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Praise be
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Ripfangs
Anyway twitter's been putting a bunch of hot butches on my timeline lately and like damn, when will a hot butch flirt with me?
Holding out for a hero except its me yearning for a hot butch to come hold me
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Holding out for a hug except my housemate is in his room gaming
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Confessions BOT 08/24/2022 8:43 PM
Anonymous Confession (#633)
"making myself terrified with horror films then making myself incredibly sad. if I'm sad enough, i don't care about the scary things that might jump out at me in the night"
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Don't make yourself sad make yourself food
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It's nearly 9 oclock you can't trust yourself after 9 remember? Have some water and get a snack, watch something that doesn't freak you out and get some goddamn sleep op
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God I'm starting to hate this bed Fucking mattress is too hard, the covers are too warm and the pillows are too thick Impossible to get comfortable on it
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mumblingmiss 08/25/2022 10:17 AM
Might be tmi but anyone else's anxiety make them need to pee like constantly when you're about to do something and it's like girl no you fuckin don't you're only leaving the house you're fine
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YES oh my god
10:18
Getting my mum to stop the car every 10 minutes on the way up to uni the first time bc I couldn't deal w the stress of living 2 hours away from her-
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mumblingmiss 08/25/2022 10:19 AM
Omg thank god its not just me it's been 20 years and I still don't understand!! Like I've peed 50 times already there is nothing leftttt
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I don't know if it's directly the anxiety that makes it happen but I do end up drinking a load of water to procrastinate things I'm nervous about and then end up needing the toilet a bunch (edited)
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I don't drink anything the morning I wake up if I know I have to go in a car for more than half an hour
10:21
I'd rather pass out than piss myself
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mumblingmiss 08/25/2022 10:22 AM
I just hate that my body is telling me I need to pee but I can guarantee there's nothing there like let me do stuff
10:27
Oh and how's the house sorting going, Lo?
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Still no wifi or oven and waiting for the guy to take the last people's rubbish and the gardener to take the budlia out by the kitchen window so we can see out (which I'm a little sad about bc it's pretty) but I'm just gonna live my life and hope for the best at this point, not much I can do so
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Just a 1am, brain thoughts. You know when you lose a bestfriend you kinda just feel empty. Losing someone that close to you because of someone elses malicious actions fucking sucks. I have a few best friends but there was a special part of me with this one, they understood my thoughts and feelings and we bonded over the same shared pain. Seeing them in my dreams which always turn into nightmares, seeing them deep in my mind, seeing something i think theyd enjoy and about to press send and realising they dont care anymore. Whats even worse is there was potentially romantic feelings for this person which I daren't process as it wasnt fair on them as it isnt fair on me. Honestly, just a message just knowing theyre okay would mean the world to me, Loving someone fucking sucks but at the same time, I know that seeing them smile would always make me smile. When I first met them in person I was so excited, not being able to sleep the night before and when finally meeting them hugging them so tight and having one of the most wonderful days together. Just always thinking of the words I can say to them which could make them understand, I genuinely would be happy to at least speak to them one more time, but unfortunately toxic people having hooks into them is just one of those things i need to accept. I just hope they know my door (metaphorically and quite literally) would always be open to them
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Confessions BOT 08/26/2022 6:00 PM
Anonymous Confession (#638)
"Kinda sick of how everytime I'm dealing with a company, or landlord, or agency, or anything, that they seem dismissive or short or uncaring, I always have a little paranoid thought that it's because they know I'm trans and am being awful about it. It's completely unfair on them, and it's probably just seeing something where there is nothing."
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Not to advocate for the landlord community 🤢 but a lot of students are moving in right now and their best case scenario is one where they don’t have to do anything so anyone coming to them with questions or problems will get pretty snappy answers. I don’t know your specific situation but at least for me, my agency is dealing w a lot of student lettings rn and we’ve had a lot of issues and the landlord has already complained to me about how my housemate’s mum complains too much but they’re trying to minimise problems because they’re busy so likely that’s why they’re being dismissive not because of you being trans 🫂 I don’t know if that helps at all but if you feel unsafe handling concerns w your house talk to the people you’re living with see if they can help you with talking to the people necessary about the issue ~ you can’t sort out all the problems on your own you’re part of a house, part of a team
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also sometimes landlords just don't seem to know what to do in certain situations. small thing but my landlord asks to take a photo of our passports for ID, but because mine is in my deadname i offered to bring alternative id and/or my deedpoll. just complicates their job a tiny bit sometimes, and while its definitely unpleasant to seem brushed off or pushed to the side with stuff like this, im sure its not personal
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and if it is then arson
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I don’t go by my birth name either (Ik I’m cis so it’s somewhat different) but if you go in like hey on my passport it says that but I go by this so please can you call me that and they’ll make a note of it for later like they’ve been pretty good w it. It’s more admin for them sure but in my experience anyway they do their best w what they can and are okay w being corrected if they do slip up (and if they’re aggressive about it, arson)
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thats a good point too, at the end of the day theyre human too - vaguely - and if theyre good humans theyll make an effort
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Plus some people are terrible at names!! My landlords called dean and I must have called him Dave at least 4 times
18:16
I got the d right-
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if not im only half kidding about arson i want to explore new hobbies and transphobic people are a good starting point
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Nah he’s like 45
18:17
Not my thing
18:17
Gotta be at least 60 for me
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haha fair fair, maybe you should send me their phone number though haha for a friend, reference for landlord, you know? lol haha haha
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‘Happily married’ I’m afraid
18:19
His son would be cute if it wasn’t for the facial hair tho
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LoLo <3
I got the d right-
That's what she said?
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I could put your @ on his van he parks outside our garage every night
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mumblingmiss 08/26/2022 6:50 PM
I feel like I've done something wrong but I don't know what or why or if it's just classic paranoia
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Compensate with arson
18:51
It does sound like anxiety just straight up like it just happens sometimes doesn’t mean you’ve done anything wrong 🫂 I’m sorry you’re feeling bad, we love you
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hope youre okay cb 🫂
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mumblingmiss 08/26/2022 6:53 PM
Thanks guess it's just that little nagging feeling in the back of my head, I'll just go set something on fire
18:53
I love you guys
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18:55
Gonna blame that single sip of gin
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smh shame on gin
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mumblingmiss 08/26/2022 7:52 PM
I really need a hug rn
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the absolute pain of trying to order a custom gift basket for my friend's birthday but my card keeps getting blocked bc it's delivering to another country and then my bank asking me to confirm all 3 times i clicked "place order" at once so now it's taken £200 out of my account oh my god
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the absolute pain of trying to order a custom gift basket for my friend's birthday but my card keeps getting blocked bc it's delivering to another country and then my bank asking me to confirm all 3 times i clicked "place order" at once so now it's taken £200 out of my account oh my god
mumblingmiss 08/29/2022 7:24 AM
Woah wtf??? That's insane I hope that gets sorted asap
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Imagine having to email your last years landlord bc your housemate got his deposit back at the start of the month and you’re still waiting I really need that money Jonathan
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LoLo <3
Imagine having to email your last years landlord bc your housemate got his deposit back at the start of the month and you’re still waiting I really need that money Jonathan
mumblingmiss 08/29/2022 11:05 AM
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Hope you get your money soon
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This is a vent bc it’s a fucking crisis but I think I might have to take back my aversion to blonds A very gorgeous guy just walked past me on the train without giving a second glance my way who was the polar opposite of my type w blond almost buzzed hair that looked so soft in jeans and a suit jacket and uh hi Genuinely slightly upset by this revelation and might have some apologies to make
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mumblingmiss 08/29/2022 2:15 PM
You're falling for their tricks babes they've casted a spell on you
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Honestly when I thought I couldn’t get any more like Jory
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mumblingmiss 08/29/2022 2:16 PM
Lmaooo
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Tbf they are hot tho
14:16
Just dangerous
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LoLo <3
Honestly when I thought I couldn’t get any more like Jory
happy to say I'm no longer into blonds tyvm
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mumblingmiss 08/29/2022 2:21 PM
Oh no you swapped
14:21
I hope its not a contagious disease
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Curse of the blond
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mumblingmiss 08/29/2022 2:22 PM
Lo I love you but I stg if you spread it to me
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Hope it’s just train guy and Kim Petras I don’t think I could deal if it was people I’m gonna see in my general life
14:23
@ blond community of the coffee house if I fall for you, please end me. The Lo you knew is gone
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oooh i have a song for this situation
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mumblingmiss 08/29/2022 2:24 PM
I'm itchy just thinking about blonde people
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Like I said before, I used to be blonde, but I got better
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LoLo <3
@ blond community of the coffee house if I fall for you, please end me. The Lo you knew is gone
hi
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B
hi
You’re pinkette now it’s acceptable to crush on you
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mumblingmiss 08/29/2022 6:15 PM
Having another one of those big think evenings and I think I've come to the decision that if it comes to it I want to redo my foundation year. I feel like with everything I struggled with last time I owe it to myself to give it another try with uni, third times the charm. I do want my degree whether I do that now or later on in my life. I really want to try again, especially now that I'm in the best state I've been in years. I'm ready to sit down and actually try my best.
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mumblingmiss 08/29/2022 6:29 PM
It's comfort movies and important emails hour
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Confessions BOT 08/29/2022 10:43 PM
Anonymous Confession (#642)
"I don't feel like anyone in my life is happy for my achievements. People always vocalise some form of jealousy (if i lose weight, if i make money, if I have friends whatever) and it makes me feel like I can't win? No matter what. I just want people to be happy for me, if I'm worthy of it ofc"
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you deserve to be proud of your achievements, im sorry if peoples remarks are undercutting that :/ Hope you're okay OP 🫂
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Other people’s views take nothing away from the validity of your achievements. We’re very proud of you op 🫂💗
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Confessions BOT 08/30/2022 10:07 AM
Anonymous Confession (#643)
"if I've done something wrong to you I want you to straight up tell me bc I can tell you've been speaking to me less and I don't know if it's my fault"
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I feel you op 🫂 any way you can straight up ask them that? Doesn’t always go great but it can at least start the conversation
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Just went to the hygienist for the first time in like 3/4 years and ow my teeth hurt:(
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mumblingmiss 08/30/2022 2:21 PM
Well well well would you look at that it's my emotional support Resident Evil game
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just found out that all the cleaning ive been doing - so, so much cleaning - was unnecessary
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the agency apparantly has a standard practice of sending in a cleaning specialist after we move out and charging us £20 each (roughly) from our deposit anyway
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so ive been destroying my body for a week for no reason :)
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You can probably tell them not to? But if they don't think you did it to the right standard they'll do it anyway
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honestly i dont care that much, at least i dont have to go back this evening and clean anymore really
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An earlier nap is something ig
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yeah its a nicer conclusion
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ive been holding myself to unnecessary standards with the cleaning to be honest
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so its nice to no i have to do practically nothing else, even if im losing £20 for it
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okay ngl though this may be shitty but im getting a bit of serotonin from two of my housemates - whove done none of the cleaning - complaining about losing £20 from their deposits
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its mean but i feel a bit of karmic joy from it
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having the best day, kids. got up extra early so i can get off earlier at work but the bus stop is having roadwork done so i had to walk all the way into town for another bus that comes in 40 minutes
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got some overpriced coffee, lost my vape along the way somehow, nearly lost my wallet with a bunch of money missing from it
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can't find my building access key that gets me into work
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the bus I'm waiting for just did a weird turn away from the direction of my stop
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forgot to call my mother last night in the process of helping bran move into my house, got a v v angry and slur-ridden text this morning
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should be fun to sort that out during my break
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Fuckboy Drag King 09/01/2022 8:51 AM
Good lord that is an awful lot of things to happen at once. Are you okay? Is there something I (or anyone) can do to help? Get you a taxi to work? Idk sorry I just woke up but that's terrible Jordan
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And your mother is a cunt, I know that doesn't help but I just like saying it because she is
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Fuckboy Drag King
Good lord that is an awful lot of things to happen at once. Are you okay? Is there something I (or anyone) can do to help? Get you a taxi to work? Idk sorry I just woke up but that's terrible Jordan
no it's fine, i ran to the next stop and am waiting in line for the bus now. this happened when i was coming home from work a few times lmao. no idea why bc no roadwork here or there but bus drivers seem to just entirely skip some stops on a coin flip
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hopefully the nicotine withdrawals don't hit at work bc i can't afford to be crabby with anyone. doubt i would be anyway but grinding my teeth and shaking isn't really smth i can pass off as normal
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feel shit tho bc i really wanted to get out early so i could go for coffee with bran and his housemates but by the time i get home idk if that's going to be strained timing-wjse
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thought i had lost my earbuds case but it turned up under my laptop. if i had i would have gone and laid down in front of this bus lmfao
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And your mother is a cunt, I know that doesn't help but I just like saying it because she is
she's been furious with me all week bc of smth else I'm not going to mention here but dear god it's smth else waking up every day to texts and calls about how I've ruined everything and should have never been born lol
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no it's fine, i ran to the next stop and am waiting in line for the bus now. this happened when i was coming home from work a few times lmao. no idea why bc no roadwork here or there but bus drivers seem to just entirely skip some stops on a coin flip
Fuckboy Drag King 09/01/2022 9:08 AM
Ah man. that's fair ig, hope you get to work eventually in one piece. Bran will defo get it if you need a breather after such a tiring day. Shoot a message here or to me or anyone if we can do something though.
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she's been furious with me all week bc of smth else I'm not going to mention here but dear god it's smth else waking up every day to texts and calls about how I've ruined everything and should have never been born lol
Fuckboy Drag King 09/01/2022 9:08 AM
And yeah gonna reiterate your mother is a cunt (hadn't said it in a few minutes), if you need to talk more privately about her shoot me a text or something, otherwise I hope your day gets better 🫂
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oh my god guess what
09:25
i go to sit at my normal desk and the IT person says "don't sit there, the last person who used it has COVID"
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mumblingmiss 09/01/2022 9:25 AM
NO
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Your day is so fucking cursed??? Here if you need me honestly I'd be screaming if I were you
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yeah expect it to get worse and worse
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have to use someone else's, which can't connect to my laptop
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so i have to redownload adobe and our virtual desktop and set up every single one of my settings
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and also fucking pray that the virtual desktop synced all my work last night and I'm not without my files
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Maybe while they’re downloading get something for lunch? Idk if there’s a shop nearby you can get a vape at but
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mumblingmiss 09/01/2022 9:39 AM
I don't mean to interrupt bc your vent is way bigger than mine. But why the fuck is the UEA so goddamn dumb? After some discussions and decisions I decided that if I can get the repeat year request through then I'll do it but otherwise it'll be a study break. But no matter how obvious I make it that my evidence email is for that repeat year request they keep responding about a different EC from ages ago and its like ye I know that went through but that's not the one I'm talking about. Feels like they're not even reading and it's so dumb, I hope someone that is actually paying attention when they do their job.
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mumblingmiss 09/01/2022 9:48 AM
We did this yesterday too not just this morning
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I don't mean to interrupt bc your vent is way bigger than mine. But why the fuck is the UEA so goddamn dumb? After some discussions and decisions I decided that if I can get the repeat year request through then I'll do it but otherwise it'll be a study break. But no matter how obvious I make it that my evidence email is for that repeat year request they keep responding about a different EC from ages ago and its like ye I know that went through but that's not the one I'm talking about. Feels like they're not even reading and it's so dumb, I hope someone that is actually paying attention when they do their job.
nah dw, this really sucks too. sorry UEA bureaucracy is so shit
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not quite a vent but i have a habit of answering rhetorical questions and it's so goddamn embarrassing sometimes lmao
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ahhhhh just having a day of back to back minor inconveniences and embarrassments
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Have you eaten anything yet today?
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uhhh a coke
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Normally when I’m having a day like that it’s bc I forgot food
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and like half a sandwich
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don't have much of an appetite tbh
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Try and finish something if you can just to keep your energy up ~ if you don’t eat enough your brain won’t work properly and you’ll get sleepy which won’t help much on an already shitty day
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nah it's just withdrawals lol
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sounds like youve had quite a stressful day to say the least, hope things improve for you soon 🫂
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ty tho, appreciate the advice everyone
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Just please look after yourself 🫂
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guess what
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mumblingmiss 09/01/2022 4:49 PM
Oh no
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my favourite coworker just resigned and is starting a new job in 2 weeks
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what is actually going on today
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is it friday the 13th in some culture idk about
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quite comedic at this point. whatever i do, i think "wonder how this will go wrong"
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i really hope things pick up for you soon, you deserve a break 🫂
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thanks kiddo 🫂 it's been a v weird day for sure
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mumblingmiss 09/01/2022 4:55 PM
You're in a soap opera
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pretty much lol
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used my lunch break early and didn't call my mother during it so she's probably screaming
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mumblingmiss 09/01/2022 4:56 PM
Good for her
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Bitch
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I'm oddly serene rn
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You’ve been through a lot today just take it easy where you can
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fully expecting this bus to get T-boned at some point but i am C A L M
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Too much to stress about so your brains going nah
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mumblingmiss 09/01/2022 4:58 PM
I hope you have a super duper lucky day tomorrow
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Lol balance each other out
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mumblingmiss 09/01/2022 4:58 PM
Exactly
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Get a lottery ticket tomorrow Jory
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now is the time for a suspicious lottery ticket to appear on your doorsytep
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beat me to it fuck
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mumblingmiss 09/01/2022 4:58 PM
Gahahahahahaha
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maybe i will actually lol
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mumblingmiss 09/01/2022 4:59 PM
There's gotta be some sort of karmic reward
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my pfp has been my expression for the last 18 hours or so
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hopefully this will be you tomorrow
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my pfp has been my expression for the last 18 hours or so
mumblingmiss 09/01/2022 5:14 PM
Hopefully tomorrow you'll have the expression of my pfp
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Hopefully tomorrow you'll have the expression of my pfp
That's all anyone wants
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mumblingmiss 09/01/2022 5:16 PM
If you want a hat and moustache lmk I've got a source
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thought to myself "I'm going to open the app and see my bus has been cancelled, aren't i" and
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ugly laughing rn
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Please get a cab Jory
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I will pay for you to get a cab home
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Please
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nah it's a 20 min walk it's fine
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if my bus from work into town had been cancelled now that would have fucked me
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I assumed it was the one from work
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That's not as bad but like. It's still bad
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not bad, just annoying
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It's just one thing after another for you today
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I'm so sorry
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At least get yourself a vape on the way home?
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hey dw about me, I'm all good and have bran and co waiting for me at home
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minor annoyances but it's not the end of the world
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I've been pretty happy over the past couple days so i can brush all this off after the initial hellish morning
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Okay,, here for you if you need anything, always 🫂 🫂
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hope you have a really nice and chill evening, as Lo said here if you need anything
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sitting here in my new house crying on the floor air mattress bc moving was so stressful and I am terrified that I am just setting myself up for years of misery with all of the money I’m investing into the decisions I’m making
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moving to a new area where I don’t know anyone or where anything is for a job that I might end up hating and I feel like I made so many mistakes going through everything to get here already
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sitting here in my new house crying on the floor air mattress bc moving was so stressful and I am terrified that I am just setting myself up for years of misery with all of the money I’m investing into the decisions I’m making
Oh darling I’m so sorry 🫂🫂 moving away is a big change but change can be such a positive and wonderful thing! You’re going to have an amazing time with all these new people doing something that you enjoy. It’s daunting now bc it’s new and unknown but once you’ve been there a month you’ll wonder why you were ever so nervous. You’re a lovely person and you’ll make friends so easily it’s all going to be okay 🫂 and we’re always here if you need support
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i promise you will make friends v soon. it's a massive change but you fit so quickly into our outings bc you're really fun to be around. echoing everything Lo says basically
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thanks, both of you, I know part of it is bc I am just super tired and overwhelmed with everything, going to try to sleep now
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thanks, both of you, I know part of it is bc I am just super tired and overwhelmed with everything, going to try to sleep now
Get some good rest, I hope you feel better in the morning
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yeah completely understand the late night misery and being overwhelmed but sleep will definitely help a little
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one day at a time, Erika. you're going to thrive in Durham once the initial anxiety passes
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mumblingmiss 09/02/2022 9:57 AM
Trying to find a good show or a movie to watch that won't completely overwhelm me and all of my senses is like weirdly difficult to do and it's honestly getting frustrating
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mumblingmiss 09/02/2022 12:17 PM
Do you think I made it obvious enough what I'm saying to them? I stg if they talk about the wrong thing again
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im sorry youre having to deal with that, it was obvious enough before
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mumblingmiss 09/02/2022 12:19 PM
Yeah thanks, if it happens again I'm thinking bright coloured large font
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next step after that is fire writing
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mumblingmiss 09/02/2022 12:20 PM
Yeah gonna burn it into some grass
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If I do enough damage they might just give me a repeat year to stop me
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It might have just been lost in the system they're dealing w a lot of requests rn but spelling it out like this will have them confirm in their files what they're looking at so should resolve any issues you would have had so you should be okay
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mumblingmiss 09/02/2022 12:27 PM
Yeah I know it's just annoying that they kept replying talking about a different ec request from ages ago like they weren't reading my emails at all. And the miscommunication isn't gonna help them get through their requests.
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Fuckboy Drag King 09/03/2022 9:59 AM
Absolutely love being the runt of my family. You know those wildlife shows when there's like one cub or something that struggles making it into adulthood for assorted reasons, sort of relating to that rn
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Absolutely love being the runt of my family. You know those wildlife shows when there's like one cub or something that struggles making it into adulthood for assorted reasons, sort of relating to that rn
I mean you’re in Scotland right? Chances of you being hunted by a wild bear or something are pretty small so there’s probably no need for worry lol ~ besides you’re older than me right? So you might not consider yourself a grown up but you made it to adulthood technically, even if you struggled to do it you still did it? I don’t know what your family’s like or why you’d consider yourself a runt in relation but there’s nothing wrong in following a different path to them or something; you’re your own person it’d be weird if you fit every single expectation (and pretty isolating too I can imagine). You’re doing fine, you’re exactly where you need to be. I know nothing I can say will change the way you feel and that’s fine but believe me when I tell you that we don’t see you like that
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LoLo <3
I mean you’re in Scotland right? Chances of you being hunted by a wild bear or something are pretty small so there’s probably no need for worry lol ~ besides you’re older than me right? So you might not consider yourself a grown up but you made it to adulthood technically, even if you struggled to do it you still did it? I don’t know what your family’s like or why you’d consider yourself a runt in relation but there’s nothing wrong in following a different path to them or something; you’re your own person it’d be weird if you fit every single expectation (and pretty isolating too I can imagine). You’re doing fine, you’re exactly where you need to be. I know nothing I can say will change the way you feel and that’s fine but believe me when I tell you that we don’t see you like that
Fuckboy Drag King 09/03/2022 12:02 PM
Thanks Lo 🫂 Don't worry, just a low moment, family's can be tough sometimes. Appreciate your support ❤️
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Thanks Lo 🫂 Don't worry, just a low moment, family's can be tough sometimes. Appreciate your support ❤️
Here if you need anything 🫂
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It is Not My Day today
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Only just getting up and managed to drop 2 eggs on the floor
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And now the sinks overflowed
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Fun fun
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mumblingmiss 09/03/2022 1:52 PM
You okay??
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Here to talk if you need anything x
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I'm good I'm just having a clumsy one lol
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I managed to perfectly separate a yolk I couldn't do that if I TRIED
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But thankyou 🫂 I'm good just annoyed
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LoLo <3
I'm good I'm just having a clumsy one lol
ahh one of those days. good job on the yolk tho lmao
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Fuckboy Drag King
Absolutely love being the runt of my family. You know those wildlife shows when there's like one cub or something that struggles making it into adulthood for assorted reasons, sort of relating to that rn
i really don't think you're anything like the runt of the family. if anything, you're miles better than all of them. it's easy to feel like that when they put you under so much pressure (obligatory: your mother can go fuck herself), but i promise you aren't. less than a week before you're out of that house. you're more than strong enough to get through it but it's ok to feel hurt or down. you've grown so much since you started this year, they can't take that away from you no matter how hard they try
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Fuckboy Drag King 09/03/2022 6:08 PM
Thank you ❤️ Hey, in this particular instance, it means I get to vastly improve my cooking skills, so always a silver lining
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mumblingmiss 09/03/2022 6:22 PM
Hello its little nervous hour welcome
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Fuckboy Drag King
Thank you ❤️ Hey, in this particular instance, it means I get to vastly improve my cooking skills, so always a silver lining
i have no idea what this means but proud of you
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i have no idea what this means but proud of you
Fuckboy Drag King 09/03/2022 6:56 PM
Thank you lmao, nah it's my parents wedding anniversary this weekend. In my mothers infinite wisdom, she, my father and my sister went for a day in the city, cinema etc,(I was not invited because my mother thought i'd be too busy packing even though I leave in 4 days time, and I'm fast at getting shit together). But, because of this, I was left to do all the chores in the house and the land, along with making them a 'special' three course meal for their 30th wedding anniversary.
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Was a bit of work, but seemed to come altogether in the end.
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that is,,, such a bitch thing to do
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would you have wanted to go?
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Fuckboy Drag King 09/03/2022 6:57 PM
Kinda why I said I felt like a runt, I normally get left behind in my mothers plans, and if were were animals rather than humans, I'm fairly certain she would've left me to die somewhere
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would you have wanted to go?
Fuckboy Drag King 09/03/2022 6:58 PM
Yes and no? I leave soon, and it would've been nice to see Edinburgh with my sister and dad and do the things they do together as a family
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But it's not the first time she has actively excluded me from things. Definitely not the last, and besides, got to improve my cooking skills so it all worked out in the end
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Kinda why I said I felt like a runt, I normally get left behind in my mothers plans, and if were were animals rather than humans, I'm fairly certain she would've left me to die somewhere
or thrown off a mountain in sparta lmao
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though I'm fairly sure that's a myth
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Fuckboy Drag King 09/03/2022 6:59 PM
I'm sure it if were legal my mother would've done it, not even in a boo-hoo please pity me way, more in a, she has actively spoken of my death as a child, so it wouldn't've surprised me
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But it's not the first time she has actively excluded me from things. Definitely not the last, and besides, got to improve my cooking skills so it all worked out in the end
hm still an exceptionally horrible thing to do to your child. the neglect and making you do the chores of all things is so infuriating
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I'm sure it if were legal my mother would've done it, not even in a boo-hoo please pity me way, more in a, she has actively spoken of my death as a child, so it wouldn't've surprised me
ahh i can relate. it's quite fun to listen to that sort of tantrum once you've become completely apathetic to it. still hurts the subconscious like hell though
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how are you feeling now?
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Thank you lmao, nah it's my parents wedding anniversary this weekend. In my mothers infinite wisdom, she, my father and my sister went for a day in the city, cinema etc,(I was not invited because my mother thought i'd be too busy packing even though I leave in 4 days time, and I'm fast at getting shit together). But, because of this, I was left to do all the chores in the house and the land, along with making them a 'special' three course meal for their 30th wedding anniversary.
That’s actually really fucking sad 🫂 if people are still up for doing platonic dates we could do something as a big gay family in Norwich maybe? Ik it’s not the same but we’ll adopt you if need be
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Fuckboy Drag King 09/03/2022 7:01 PM
Eh, pretty decent! The dinner looks good, and it was nice to cook in peace and blast my bang bang music out loud
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That’s actually really fucking sad 🫂 if people are still up for doing platonic dates we could do something as a big gay family in Norwich maybe? Ik it’s not the same but we’ll adopt you if need be
Fuckboy Drag King 09/03/2022 7:02 PM
Nah bless you Lo, I'm good, really! My mother is just a bit tricky sometimes
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I'm sure we'll do lots of fun things when we're all back together
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Eh, pretty decent! The dinner looks good, and it was nice to cook in peace and blast my bang bang music out loud
what did you make?
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Twink Antony 09/03/2022 7:03 PM
Oh Caz :( Sorry to hear about all this shit that’s been flung at you. Big hugs for you soon xx
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mahariel
what did you make?
Fuckboy Drag King 09/03/2022 7:03 PM
I love when people ask me this, I can either go down the overly simplification route of like "vegetables" or I can do the posh noncey thing of listing every ingredient like I'm literally a chef
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I think she meant the actual dish lmao
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how on earth is that noncey
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you utter computer science melt
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LoLo <3
I think she meant the actual dish lmao
Fuckboy Drag King 09/03/2022 7:05 PM
No no I know but you can turn, for example, macaroni and cheese into either -> pasta with cheese sauce v/s wholegrain macaronie with a bechamel sauce, served with roasted vegetables, seasoned with balsamic and truffle
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I did not make this, for the record, I'm just listing it as an example
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lmao just say "steak and vegetables" or smth
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Fuckboy Drag King 09/03/2022 7:05 PM
exactly that's the fun of it lmao
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Fuckboy Drag King
No no I know but you can turn, for example, macaroni and cheese into either -> pasta with cheese sauce v/s wholegrain macaronie with a bechamel sauce, served with roasted vegetables, seasoned with balsamic and truffle
Okay now I see how it can be noncey lmao
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lmao just say "steak and vegetables" or smth
Twink Antony 09/03/2022 7:06 PM
Or just do what my brother does and gives the most dead pan answers, “oh smells nice, what is it?” “food.”
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starting to think you're avoiding the question so you don't have to say "boxed spaghetti with canned tomato sauce"
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My mum asked her dad what flavour jam they were having and he replied ‘jam jam’
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LoLo <3
Okay now I see how it can be noncey lmao
I'm so confused where the nonceiness is
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Think every family has someone clever like that
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Fuckboy Drag King 09/03/2022 7:06 PM
nah but fr it was a selection of warm and cold salads for starter, roasted meats and vegetables with some bread I made earlier for main, and a swiss roll with a chocolate mousse piped inside with raspberries from the garden
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look at you go
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not a single fried egg to be seen
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Fuckboy Drag King 09/03/2022 7:07 PM
not too noncey
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LoLo <3
My mum asked her dad what flavour jam they were having and he replied ‘jam jam’
Twink Antony 09/03/2022 7:07 PM
Same level of comedy as Pie Flavour ASDF funny moments
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Twink Antony
Same level of comedy as Pie Flavour ASDF funny moments
Stop omg
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Or just do what my brother does and gives the most dead pan answers, “oh smells nice, what is it?” “food.”
Fuckboy Drag King 09/03/2022 7:07 PM
i much prefer saying this though
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what did you make / sustenance
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Fuckboy Drag King
i much prefer saying this though
Twink Antony 09/03/2022 7:07 PM
I will actually slap you
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Fuckboy Drag King
what did you make / sustenance
With ingredience?
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LoLo <3
With ingredience?
Fuckboy Drag King 09/03/2022 7:08 PM
Maybe
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I will actually slap you
Fuckboy Drag King 09/03/2022 7:08 PM
Knock me out until wednesday please
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Fuckboy Drag King
Knock me out until wednesday please
Twink Antony 09/03/2022 7:10 PM
I can try
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ah i love the smell of fresh energy waiting to be consumed
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hope youre okay though 🫂 families can suck, but theyre not a reflection of you as a person, because you're much cooler
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Fuckboy Drag King 09/03/2022 7:20 PM
Aw bless you Erin. Same to you. Ik your family can suck as well, and you're way too cool to be held down by them 🫂
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mumblingmiss 09/05/2022 8:40 AM
My dad told me he got me more soya milk (which I appreciate obviously) and he put it on top of the cupboard which is odd bc we never put it up there and it's meant to be refrigerated so I'm hoping it will be okay now I've moved it. Also we don't put my stuff on top of the cupboards bc I'm I'm shortest person in the house and I can't reach? Literally so confused by his actions here.
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I did everything fucking right so why am I bleeding AGAIN I swear I'm this close to taking the damn thing out myself I'm so done with everything
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mumblingmiss 09/07/2022 9:42 AM
Hey, you okay? These things are very frustrating to deal with especially when they should work and don't. I'm here if you ever want to talk about it.
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LoLo <3
I did everything fucking right so why am I bleeding AGAIN I swear I'm this close to taking the damn thing out myself I'm so done with everything
that's awful, hope you can get it out soon
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Update tried to get an appointment but they're like £500 that I don't have Trying to do an icash thing for next week ish and the person at reception goes 'are you sure you're 20' BRO I SOUND 6 BC I'M NERVOUS LEAVE ME ALONEEEEE
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wtf why would you not be sure youre 20
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the state of medical health here is ridiculous
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and yeah, surely they have your medical file up??
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I'm sorry you're going through this
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Nah I'm not registered there lol just did that
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sorry youre having to deal with that thats awful
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Tbh it's more funny than anything elser
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I promise I'm not lying about my age for medical stuff I'm pretty sure if I was doing that I'd say I was younger than I really am not older lmao
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My anxiety's so bad I have no nails again:(
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LoLo <3
My anxiety's so bad I have no nails again:(
try biting on a lollipop stick or a pen instead. that's partially how i kicked my nail-biting habit
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🫂 sorry your anxiety is flaring up like this
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LoLo <3
My anxiety's so bad I have no nails again:(
mumblingmiss 09/07/2022 1:55 PM
I'm sorry to hear that babes, I hope you feel better soon
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Twink Antony 09/07/2022 9:21 PM
Not a rant but fuck being ill. Have 0 energy :(
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Fuckboy Drag King 09/07/2022 9:21 PM
Is it the big C
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Being sick is crap I’m sorry 🫂 hope you feel better soon
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hope you feel better soon bud 🫂
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Fuckboy Drag King
Is it the big C
Twink Antony 09/07/2022 9:22 PM
Cant stop addicted to the shindig? Unfortunately yes :(
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Twink Antony
Cant stop addicted to the shindig? Unfortunately yes :(
Fuckboy Drag King 09/07/2022 9:22 PM
We've all been there :/
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did you have to pay for a test
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mahariel
did you have to pay for a test
Twink Antony 09/07/2022 9:23 PM
Nah, we’ve got a bunch left over
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Cause my brother was still in school and they were giving out craploads
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ahh my housemate was a germaphobe and racked up a whole mountain of them
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idk what i have atm but I've been regularly throwing up every day and got my first asthma attack in 10 years yesterday (edited)
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Do you have any coke or Pepsi or something
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but fuck it, we ball
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That’s good for fucked up tummy (edited)
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nope I've been chugging water
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I'm sure it'll pass soon, i just wish ik what it was
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but i can move around and somewhat keep my head on my shoulders so we're all good. office day tomorrow so
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Fuckboy Drag King 09/07/2022 9:29 PM
Are you stressed at all?
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On a sad relatable note I'm on new meds and I literally just threw up what a nice coincidence
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Can we stop throwing up please? I think there’s something going round or something
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mahariel
but i can move around and somewhat keep my head on my shoulders so we're all good. office day tomorrow so
Take it easy, try not to push yourself too much where you don’t need to
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Fuckboy Drag King 09/07/2022 9:31 PM
My new meds are absolutely scuffed, completely eliminate my appetite and make me throw up after I eat, wake up babes new weight loss plan just dropped
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mine's partially this illness, part psychological
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I just cried too hard and puked lmao
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just now??
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We love health anxiety
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are you alright?
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mahariel
just now??
Nah a couple times earlier
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LoLo <3
Nah a couple times earlier
Fuckboy Drag King 09/07/2022 9:32 PM
Oh babes 🫂
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wtf is going on here
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I’m good just stress bc of the meds and the bleeding
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Fuckboy Drag King
Are you stressed at all?
always am lol
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But I had a huge panic attack and ended up being sick
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Fuckboy Drag King 09/07/2022 9:32 PM
I've never been someone who throws up, even when I drink too much I normally just pass out. So being actually physically sick is v fucking odd, almost forgot how it felt
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LoLo <3
But I had a huge panic attack and ended up being sick
Fuckboy Drag King 09/07/2022 9:33 PM
You doing a bit better now?
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I’m never sick but I’m also never ill so it’s weird when I am haha ~ I’m a bit anxietyy but I need to call up tomorrow and get an appointment and hopefully in a couple weeks I’ll be all good:)
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if you need anything, I'm here 🫂 call me at any point if you need to
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Twink Antony 09/07/2022 9:34 PM
There may also a bug going around atm looking at this chat 😭
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Fuckboy Drag King
I've never been someone who throws up, even when I drink too much I normally just pass out. So being actually physically sick is v fucking odd, almost forgot how it felt
Try and have some water (again, coke/Pepsi is good for settling your stomach) I hope you get adjusted to your new meds soon 🫂
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in my case I'm starting to wonder if it's bc i don't eat and just fill the void with smoke
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mahariel
if you need anything, I'm here 🫂 call me at any point if you need to
Thank you that’s really sweet 🫂 I’m good had a big cry on my mum haha but I know where my heads at again now so
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mahariel
in my case I'm starting to wonder if it's bc i don't eat and just fill the void with smoke
I mean that probably won’t help
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mahariel
in my case I'm starting to wonder if it's bc i don't eat and just fill the void with smoke
Fuckboy Drag King 09/07/2022 9:35 PM
That might do it tbf, does smoking make you feel nauseous?
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It’s an appetite suppressant it won’t help if you’re not eating enough anyway
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LoLo <3
Thank you that’s really sweet 🫂 I’m good had a big cry on my mum haha but I know where my heads at again now so
your mother is, again, wonderful and I'm glad she was there to help. when you get back, remember that I'm only 10 mins away and have no qualms about running to people's places at odd hours lmao. if i can chase aurorae with brandon at 2am then i can be there for you
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mahariel
your mother is, again, wonderful and I'm glad she was there to help. when you get back, remember that I'm only 10 mins away and have no qualms about running to people's places at odd hours lmao. if i can chase aurorae with brandon at 2am then i can be there for you
Okay but please know the same goes for you and you can take me up on it whenever 🫂
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Fuckboy Drag King
That might do it tbf, does smoking make you feel nauseous?
it's the cycle of stress -> smoke -> no appetite -> nausea -> no appetite -> stress -> repeat
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Fuckboy Drag King 09/07/2022 9:37 PM
Lo can I like, adopt your mum
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Fuckboy Drag King
Lo can I like, adopt your mum
She can adopt you if you want she’s already kind of adopted Bran haha
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has she adopted me yet lmao
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She loves you she thinks you’re wonderful
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right back at her
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She’s a bit disappointed jory isn’t short for marjory but
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dw i can change my name again for her lmao
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Fuckboy Drag King 09/07/2022 9:39 PM
inb4 lo's mum hates me
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my mother: you changed your name AGAIN?? me: Lo's mum made me do it
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mahariel
my mother: you changed your name AGAIN?? me: Lo's mum made me do it
She won’t make you do anything but wants you to know this is hilarious
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ever since i changed Holly and Kerryn's snapchat names to Mum and Dad respectively, i have become so much calmer
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@Fuckboy Drag King my dad likes you bc your name is also Cas and he wants you to be Caz Cas
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LoLo <3
@Fuckboy Drag King my dad likes you bc your name is also Cas and he wants you to be Caz Cas
Fuckboy Drag King 09/07/2022 9:40 PM
Guess I'm marrying your dad I don't make the rules
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LoLo <3
She won’t make you do anything but wants you to know this is hilarious
HI LO'S MUM, I HAVEN'T MET YOU YET BUT YOU'RE AMAZING
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mahariel
ever since i changed Holly and Kerryn's snapchat names to Mum and Dad respectively, i have become so much calmer
Mood omg
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Fuckboy Drag King
Guess I'm marrying your dad I don't make the rules
He’s in a committed relationship I’m afraid (plus he’s straight) but he’ll adopt you lmao
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LoLo <3
He’s in a committed relationship I’m afraid (plus he’s straight) but he’ll adopt you lmao
Fuckboy Drag King 09/07/2022 9:41 PM
Hey close enough
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Hi I'm in your family now
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HI LO'S MUM, I HAVEN'T MET YOU YET BUT YOU'RE AMAZING
She thinks you’re pretty damn cool too
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getting much needed parental approval by living vicariously through Lo's parents
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mahariel
getting much needed parental approval by living vicariously through Lo's parents
You can tell them all of your achievements and shit and they’ll tell you how proud they are - genuinely they’re like that lmao
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My housemate’s mum didn’t answer once so we called mine and put her on speakerphone and just vibed like they’re fine w that shit dad thinks it’s a bit weird but mum’s cool
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upgraded from absent father and narcissistic mother to 2 sets of loving parents in the space of a month
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absolutely living the best life rn
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LoLo <3
You can tell them all of your achievements and shit and they’ll tell you how proud they are - genuinely they’re like that lmao
are they proud of me for getting a good job 🥺
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mahariel
are they proud of me for getting a good job 🥺
Absolutely!!! They think it’s fantastic that you’ve managed to stay up there and support yourself while still doing the things you like w people you like they want me to be like that haha
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LoLo <3
Absolutely!!! They think it’s fantastic that you’ve managed to stay up there and support yourself while still doing the things you like w people you like they want me to be like that haha
actually reeling, i have never heard any of these words from my parents before lmao. tell them I'm genuinely v grateful
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financially independent yay
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doesn't mean i make good financial decisions but it's getting there
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Nah you’re still fun despite saving that shits important
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this server is leaking into my conversations with my sister
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Lmaooo
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Bully her
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She deserves it
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she says she might drop it bc there aren't any girls in the class 💀
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LoLo <3
Bully her
can't bully her too much, first time i relayed a message to her from Caz, she viciously insulted him in German lmao
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she's not above doing the same to me
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she says she might drop it bc there aren't any girls in the class 💀
Gross
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mahariel
she says she might drop it bc there aren't any girls in the class 💀
Twink Antony 09/07/2022 9:59 PM
She can ask to move to a class that has other girls in it
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It’s what someone in my class did
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mahariel
can't bully her too much, first time i relayed a message to her from Caz, she viciously insulted him in German lmao
LMFAO HE DESERVES IT
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mahariel
can't bully her too much, first time i relayed a message to her from Caz, she viciously insulted him in German lmao
Fuckboy Drag King 09/07/2022 9:59 PM
That was absolutely amazing from her, has to be said
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I’d insult caz in German if I knew German
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Fuckboy Drag King 09/07/2022 9:59 PM
Why :(
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Bc it’d be funny
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Fuckboy Drag King
That was absolutely amazing from her, has to be said
do you remember everything she said?
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Twink Antony
She can ask to move to a class that has other girls in it
ok good point, I'll tell her
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do you remember everything she said?
Fuckboy Drag King 09/07/2022 10:00 PM
Not verbatim no, but some of the keen insults and energy definitely lingers
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Just got played by fucking google
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Fuckboy Drag King
Why :(
Twink Antony 09/07/2022 10:00 PM
Mir kommt es vor als würden wir uns schon seit Ewigkeiten kennen
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Fuckboy Drag King
Not verbatim no, but some of the keen insults and energy definitely lingers
she made good on that promise but i won't pass on what she said to you otherwise you might pass out
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I wanna know
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Nope I love German now
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LoLo <3
Nope I love German now
Twink Antony 09/07/2022 10:01 PM
Come hure
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Twink Antony
Mir kommt es vor als würden wir uns schon seit Ewigkeiten kennen
Fuckboy Drag King 09/07/2022 10:02 PM
Oh mein Herzliebster! Ich zähle die sekunden, bis du zu mir zuruckkerhst
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LoLo <3
Nope I love German now
Fuckboy Drag King 09/07/2022 10:02 PM
fick dich auch hurensohn
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Fuckboy Drag King
fick dich auch hurensohn
Thank you. You too 💗
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mahariel
she made good on that promise but i won't pass on what she said to you otherwise you might pass out
Fuckboy Drag King 09/07/2022 10:03 PM
Aww man I wish I remembered it word for word, it was wonderful
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In my defence I was a bit distracted at the time
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i honestly don't remember what we were doing that day
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just that you were laughing your ass off at her creativity
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Twink Antony 09/07/2022 10:05 PM
Du hast wunderschöne Augen und lächeln @Fuckboy Drag King (edited)
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Fuckboy Drag King 09/07/2022 10:06 PM
Well I hope she does do comp sci after all
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Not for any memes or anything, we need a lot more women in compsci, especially one as bright as your sister
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Ew Compsci RUN
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Fuckboy Drag King 09/07/2022 10:07 PM
fuck off
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fighting a bot, how compsci of you
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Ew Compsci RUN
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Fuckboy Drag King
Not for any memes or anything, we need a lot more women in compsci, especially one as bright as your sister
i suspect she'll do far greater things than i will. she has immense ambition and drive
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also
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translate pls
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Fuckboy Drag King 09/07/2022 10:09 PM
LMFAO
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damn
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mahariel
i suspect she'll do far greater things than i will. she has immense ambition and drive
She says like she hasn’t also done great things
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Fuckboy Drag King 09/07/2022 10:09 PM
Well
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It's not about size but how you use it
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Fuckboy Drag King
It's not about size but how you use it
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Fuckboy Drag King 09/07/2022 10:10 PM
Come on her sister called my dick small allow me
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we need more women who know whatever the fuck a pull request is 🙏🙏🙏
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translate it verbatim lmao
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Fuckboy Drag King 09/07/2022 10:10 PM
verbatim?
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OH MY GOD
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like what did she actually say
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Fuckboy Drag King 09/07/2022 10:10 PM
"small cock, can't wash his ass properly"
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LADJDJMSKDMDKD
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NIKITA
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WTF
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OIFNSeioFnSEOFInSEOFiN literal straight man wouldve sufficed
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PAHAHAHAA WOE
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Fuckboy Drag King 09/07/2022 10:11 PM
you see how I marvel at her creativity
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what a woman
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Why do I detect a tinge of incel
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Fuckboy Drag King 09/07/2022 10:11 PM
Oh that's because I am one
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Did I not mention
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Fuckboy Drag King 09/07/2022 10:12 PM
even my friends family members insult me
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I think I need new friends
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Caz Rn: Was zum Teufel hast du grade über mich gesagt, du kleine Schlampe? Du solltest wissen, dass ich meine Ausbildung beim GSG9 als Jahrgangsbester abgeschlossen habe, in mehrere Kommandounternehmen gegen Al-Kaida involviert war und über 300 bestätigte Tötungen habe. Ich bin in Gorillakriegsführung ausgebildet und der beste Scharfschütze im deutschen Bundesheer. Du bist für mich nichts als ein weiteres Ziel. Ich werde dich mit einer nie zuvor gesehenen Präzision vom Antliz dieser Welt tilgen, merk dir meine verdammten Worte. Du denkst du könntest hier im Internet so eine Scheiße über mich erzählen und damit durchkommen? Denk lieber nochmal darüber nach, du Wichser. Während wir uns hier unterhalten, habe ich schon mein geheimes Netzwerk aus Spionen kontaktiert und deine IP-Adresse wird grade rückverfolgt, also mach dich besser auf den Sturm gefasst, du Made. Der Sturm, der das erbärmliche kleine Ding, das du als dein "Leben" bezeichnest, auslöschen wird. Du bist verdammt nochmal tot, Junge. Ich könnte jederzeit überall sein, und dich auf über siebenhundert verschiedene Arten töten, nur mit meinen bloßen Händen. Aber ich bin nicht nur im unbewaffneten Kampf ausgebildet, ich habe auch Zugriff auf das Waffenarsenal der Bundeswehr und ich werde es aufs Vollste ausschöpfen, um deinen elendigen Arsch von diesem Kontinent zu blasen, du kleiner Scheißkerl. Wenn du nur gewusst hättest, was für eine apokalyptische Rache dein kleiner "witziger" Kommentar provoziert hat, hättest du vermutlich dein verdammtes Maul gehalten. Aber nein, das hast du nicht hinbekommen, das wolltest du nicht, und jetzt wirst du dafür bezahlen, du verdammter Idiot. Du wirst in meinem Hass ertrinken. Du bist tot, Junge.
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Fuckboy Drag King 09/07/2022 10:13 PM
FUCK SAKE
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Fuckboy Drag King 09/07/2022 10:13 PM
do you know the "what the fuck did you just say to me you little bitch" copypasta
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Caz Rn: Was zum Teufel hast du grade über mich gesagt, du kleine Schlampe? Du solltest wissen, dass ich meine Ausbildung beim GSG9 als Jahrgangsbester abgeschlossen habe, in mehrere Kommandounternehmen gegen Al-Kaida involviert war und über 300 bestätigte Tötungen habe. Ich bin in Gorillakriegsführung ausgebildet und der beste Scharfschütze im deutschen Bundesheer. Du bist für mich nichts als ein weiteres Ziel. Ich werde dich mit einer nie zuvor gesehenen Präzision vom Antliz dieser Welt tilgen, merk dir meine verdammten Worte. Du denkst du könntest hier im Internet so eine Scheiße über mich erzählen und damit durchkommen? Denk lieber nochmal darüber nach, du Wichser. Während wir uns hier unterhalten, habe ich schon mein geheimes Netzwerk aus Spionen kontaktiert und deine IP-Adresse wird grade rückverfolgt, also mach dich besser auf den Sturm gefasst, du Made. Der Sturm, der das erbärmliche kleine Ding, das du als dein "Leben" bezeichnest, auslöschen wird. Du bist verdammt nochmal tot, Junge. Ich könnte jederzeit überall sein, und dich auf über siebenhundert verschiedene Arten töten, nur mit meinen bloßen Händen. Aber ich bin nicht nur im unbewaffneten Kampf ausgebildet, ich habe auch Zugriff auf das Waffenarsenal der Bundeswehr und ich werde es aufs Vollste ausschöpfen, um deinen elendigen Arsch von diesem Kontinent zu blasen, du kleiner Scheißkerl. Wenn du nur gewusst hättest, was für eine apokalyptische Rache dein kleiner "witziger" Kommentar provoziert hat, hättest du vermutlich dein verdammtes Maul gehalten. Aber nein, das hast du nicht hinbekommen, das wolltest du nicht, und jetzt wirst du dafür bezahlen, du verdammter Idiot. Du wirst in meinem Hass ertrinken. Du bist tot, Junge.
give me credit for this smh
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Fuckboy Drag King 09/07/2022 10:13 PM
its that in german
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i had to search for that translation
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Fuckboy Drag King
do you know the "what the fuck did you just say to me you little bitch" copypasta
remember when i had you say it? lmao
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mahariel
remember when i had you say it? lmao
Fuckboy Drag King 09/07/2022 10:14 PM
people when they hear I speak german: oh! that's cool how do you say X
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I had my friend sing the SpongeBob theme in German that’s about all I’ve got
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Fuckboy Drag King 09/07/2022 10:14 PM
jory: please read the entire copypasta in german
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hey it was hilarious
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Nah I’d have done the exact same
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Why I got will to do the SpongeBob lmao
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mahariel
hey it was hilarious
Fuckboy Drag King 09/07/2022 10:15 PM
for you maybe!
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i saw you giggling, don't lie
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Fuckboy Drag King 09/07/2022 10:16 PM
I was just fucking shitting myself like "jesus christ how on earth do i try and be cool and do this"
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Fuckboy Drag King
I was just fucking shitting myself like "jesus christ how on earth do i try and be cool and do this"
It’s okay to accept you’re not cool. Surely you know by now
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jory hates me singing in german smh
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Fuckboy Drag King
I was just fucking shitting myself like "jesus christ how on earth do i try and be cool and do this"
how on earth you got the impression that you needed to be cool when i was getting you to read a copypasta is beyond me
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LoLo <3
It’s okay to accept you’re not cool. Surely you know by now
Fuckboy Drag King 09/07/2022 10:17 PM
Just because I know, doesn't mean the girl I was trying to impress at the time needs to know how uncool I am
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jory hates me singing in german smh
i fucking DETEST that stupid english is my favourite subject song with the burning passion of a million exploding suns (edited)
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i fucking DETEST that stupid english is my favourite subject song with the burning passion of a million exploding suns (edited)
WAS IST DEIN LIEBLINGSFACH IS AN AMAZING SONG
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Fuckboy Drag King
Just because I know, doesn't mean the girl I was trying to impress at the time needs to know how uncool I am
i was v aware of how uncool you are tyvm
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mahariel
i was v aware of how uncool you are tyvm
Fuckboy Drag King 09/07/2022 10:18 PM
I don't think you were
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I never showed you my warhammer collectibles
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(that is a joke)
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I won two games of magic the gathering today
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I don’t think anyones ever seen you and gone ohh there’s caz he’s so cool so you’re fine lmao
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does that make me hot?
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hnnng
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Show me 😳
Fuckboy Drag King 09/07/2022 10:19 PM
Come over 😳
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Fuckboy Drag King
Come over 😳
omw
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Fuckboy Drag King
I never showed you my warhammer collectibles
little difference between that and your 5 erwin figurines
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Painting warhammer minis is fun!! I spent a whole day doing that w H and it’s pretty much all Rex and I have ever texted about lmfao
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mahariel
hnnng
Screaming
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mahariel
little difference between that and your 5 erwin figurines
What
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LoLo <3
I don’t think anyones ever seen you and gone ohh there’s caz he’s so cool so you’re fine lmao
Fuckboy Drag King 09/07/2022 10:19 PM
Alas
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It's not FIVE
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Alas
Exhibit A
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erwin tho 🥺
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Does playing MTG make me more compsci
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Ew Compsci RUN
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should I get tested?
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Does playing MTG make me more compsci
Yes
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Exhibit A
Fuckboy Drag King 09/07/2022 10:20 PM
I'll have you know I have been described as cool behind my back on multiple occassions, and don't get me wrong it floors me everytime because it's very incorrect
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bless you Lo but i beg of you, don't call me uncool again
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mahariel
bless you Lo but i beg of you, don't call me uncool again
Don’t think I ever called you uncool?
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mahariel
bless you Lo but i beg of you, don't call me uncool again
my brother in christ, what on earth
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butter
erwin tho 🥺
Fuckboy Drag King 09/07/2022 10:21 PM
Erwin is an amazing character
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Fuckboy Drag King
I'll have you know I have been described as cool behind my back on multiple occassions, and don't get me wrong it floors me everytime because it's very incorrect
Cringe
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LoLo <3
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Fuckboy Drag King 09/07/2022 10:21 PM
How I'm still nice to you I have absolutely no idea
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This server is be nice or be pegged
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LoLo <3
Don’t think I ever called you uncool?
imitating someone
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theres never any inbetween
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Fuckboy Drag King
How I'm still nice to you I have absolutely no idea
Never asked you to be I have the bully me daddy role smh
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mahariel
imitating someone
Fuckboy Drag King 09/07/2022 10:22 PM
🙄 I got it thanks babe
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mahariel
imitating someone
Don’t remember but fair enough lmao (edited)
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LoLo <3
Never asked you to be I have the bully me daddy role smh
Fuckboy Drag King 09/07/2022 10:22 PM
Funnily I'm actually quite nice to my friends, shocking
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Not sure how lmao became kms but
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im nice to everyone 😄
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we're only a couple lmaos away from kms
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im nice to everyone 😄
Fuckboy Drag King 09/07/2022 10:23 PM
...
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mahariel
we're only a couple lmaos away from kms
this is so deep………. 😔😔😔
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B
my brother in christ, what on earth
christ abandoned you long ago
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butter
this is so deep………. 😔😔😔
fuck it we ball
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I FUCKING HATE THE INTERNET
22:25
WHOS AN ESFP HERE
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Me, I think
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ITS CALLING ME OUT :((
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@Twink Antony as well
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mahariel
@Twink Antony as well
Twink Antony 09/07/2022 10:29 PM
Heheh
22:30
Keep me busy
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@B got any ENFJ callouts?
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Or ESFJ
22:33
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Aw I have no personality:(
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wdym I'm not your favourite person, i NEED to be or i will wither away
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Twink Antony 09/07/2022 10:34 PM
Sesh sesh sesh
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B
Click to see attachment 🖼️
holly being "mom"
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Adds up
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mahariel
holly being "mom"
@Unknown always
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also a crybaby?? rude???
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I remember i was one of the little yellow cunts, pretty sure I was the one in the bottom right. Idk
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yeah that's ESFP lol
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I'm the little green cunt with the sword
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im the green cunt which is too hyperactive
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I'm the dude w the cake and umbrella
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LoLo <3
I'm the dude w the cake and umbrella
Twink Antony 09/07/2022 10:37 PM
Dude with the cake, where 👀
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On the right, just above Ewan
22:38
Or are you asking for cake?
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I can make you some cake if you want
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oh my GOD
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I'm not very good but
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certified druggie
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LoLo <3
I can make you some cake if you want
Twink Antony 09/07/2022 10:38 PM
Oh my god yes
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mahariel
certified druggie
Twink Antony 09/07/2022 10:38 PM
Can agree, Kim Ks sex tape had terrible lighting
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mahariel
certified druggie
I'm naming colours apparently
22:39
Very on brand
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that whole tape had 2 whole pixels in it. they should have been on acid for it
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Twink Antony 09/07/2022 10:39 PM
Like you’d think for a celeb they’d have a better studio behind them, or at least some decent camera equipment, boom Mike standard
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This is pink, that's pink lite, this is Pink, that's piNk
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Twink Antony
Like you’d think for a celeb they’d have a better studio behind them, or at least some decent camera equipment, boom Mike standard
ikr? where was the pizzazz? the money shot? the drama?
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mahariel
ikr? where was the pizzazz? the money shot? the drama?
Twink Antony 09/07/2022 10:42 PM
All she got was 7 mins of some Cbat music n that’s it
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if someone fucked me to Cbat music i would marry them
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Took me ages
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but here
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?role @Unknown pro
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WRONG ROLE
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HAHAHAHAA
22:45
NO PRONOUNS DO NOT REFER
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Lmaooo
22:45
She's a pro
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mahariel
if someone fucked me to Cbat music i would marry them
Twink Antony 09/07/2022 10:45 PM
The way it’s the first thing
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Twink Antony
The way it’s the first thing
babies being made to this
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mahariel
babies being made to this
Twink Antony 09/07/2022 10:47 PM
I actually think all the sperm dies due to the frequency
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Twink Antony
I actually think all the sperm dies due to the frequency
only one way to find out 😳
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mahariel
only one way to find out 😳
Twink Antony 09/07/2022 10:47 PM
For science, of course
22:47
As we’re both respectable experimentalists
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ofc ofc, scientific method and all that
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Twink Antony 09/07/2022 10:48 PM
And you know you have to have a fair test, so 3 times for each condition
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with a stopwatch and someone in the corner taking notes on a clipboard
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Twink Antony 09/07/2022 10:49 PM
Oh you wanna record this? Sure xox Can review it
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then you can rate it as per your celebrity sex tape critic job
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mumblingmiss 09/08/2022 8:33 AM
Sometimes when I play certain games I bob my head a little bit for no reason at all which is hilarious bc what are you doing you silly little bean but also bad for my motion sickness. I am my own worst enemy.
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When I play games with aerial mobility I find myself leaning and jumping and craning my neck to get the character to move where I want. The one I always notice is Junkrat from Overwatch
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mumblingmiss 09/08/2022 10:17 AM
Yeah I do that with Mario Kart and sometimes GTA. It's just that I've noticed that I've started bobbing my head playing fucking solitaire lmao
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Fuckboy Drag King 09/09/2022 10:43 AM
Alright habibis, having a tiny bit of a shit morning, any tips to pick up the mood?
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10:44
Just been a bit of a time lately, stressed and too much shit to do to actually enjoy myself
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mumblingmiss 09/09/2022 10:44 AM
Sad to hear that :(((
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Play your fav music
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Treat yourself to snacks you really like
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Do you want a hug
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music, games, anything to distract you really
10:46
if you want to talk, I'm here
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Fuckboy Drag King
Just been a bit of a time lately, stressed and too much shit to do to actually enjoy myself
Have you had that coffee yet?
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Fuckboy Drag King 09/09/2022 10:46 AM
Hugs are always welcome
10:46
I have not
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Put on something that makes you feel powerful put headphones in and walk to the beat and go get that coffee
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Fuckboy Drag King 09/09/2022 10:46 AM
Got some pretty shit legal drama that just smacked me in the face this morning
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10:46
I will babe, ty
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oh shit everything ok?
10:47
well clearly not, but are you coping?
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Fuckboy Drag King 09/09/2022 10:47 AM
Yeah it will be. Two pronged assault of some people wanting to copyright something me and my team were working on at my old job, and the US government just being absolute shits as always
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10:48
Watch me not pay this tax and be a wanted criminal
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I don’t understand much of that but I’m really sorry it does sound shitty
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ahh copyright laws are so stupid
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Also you’re not American ? What?
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i will always support tax evasion
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Fuckboy Drag King 09/09/2022 10:49 AM
They are, and what makes it worse is that my team and I were objectively in the wrong here, but I didn't know this was happening at all until my team mate messaged me like "yeah so remember that thing we did? i stole it and they found out" and I just felt my soul leave my body
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What the fuck
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what the fuck
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Okay so you had no prior knowledge of that right?
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yeah ofc they're going to find out??
10:49
hopefully you can be cleared since you didn't do the crime
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I mean depending how willing you are to throw your team under the bus you could get in the clear if you still have the text. It’s shitty but what they did was also shitty
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Fuckboy Drag King 09/09/2022 10:50 AM
None at all, don't get me wrong I kinda suspected it but I had no fucking proof and ngl, didn't think that he would actually go as far to steal works from multiple people
10:50
I thought maybe he got a mate to give him a hand or something, as he produced a lot of work in a short period of time
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seems like it's one guy. were you supervising?
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Fuckboy Drag King 09/09/2022 10:50 AM
In a way? I was the leader of the team and I was breathing down his neck a lot to get the work done
10:51
He snapped one evening like, don't worry! I'll just get it done in time! and a few days later, he had (edited)
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I just didn't realise he literally broke the fucking law to do it
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That doesn’t make you a supervisor,, or to blame
10:51
what are the charges? are you getting pulled into it?
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Fuckboy Drag King 09/09/2022 10:51 AM
Hopefully we can resolve it rather peacefully
10:52
The (surprisingly many) people he stole from got in contact with him
10:52
And told him off, and also told me off by extension as all our names were on the project
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Keep a copy of the text saying he stole shit in case it doesn’t go peacefully and he tries to rope you into it and you need to explain your place in all this
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Fuckboy Drag King 09/09/2022 10:52 AM
But all I can really do is apologise, remove any references and citations to the work, and just sort of pretend it never existed
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This isn’t your fault Caz
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Fuckboy Drag King 09/09/2022 10:53 AM
Which idm doing, it wasn't great work anyway but still what a fucking ballache
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most copyright stuff goes away once you've removed the stolen work
10:53
so in theory you should be ok
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It’s crappy your teammate did this and you’re now involved in this bullshit but you haven’t done anything wrong 🫂
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and definitely keep the text as evidence
10:53
even if you suspected, you didn't know outright
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Fuckboy Drag King 09/09/2022 10:54 AM
It should be okay, the people in question were angry, very angry, occasionally ramping up to death threat level but tbh that doesn't bother me as much as the thing of, I should've fucking seen it, you know?
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death threat??
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Fuckboy Drag King 09/09/2022 10:54 AM
Like I shouldn't have forced him to work as hard, should've done it myself, etc etc
10:54
easy with hindsight
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ok now they'll be in hot water if this ever goes to court tho that's unlikely
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Fuckboy Drag King 09/09/2022 10:55 AM
Well, "people who steal other peoples work without proper credit are the scum of the earth and should die" which we love to see
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Fuckboy Drag King
It should be okay, the people in question were angry, very angry, occasionally ramping up to death threat level but tbh that doesn't bother me as much as the thing of, I should've fucking seen it, you know?
Fucking hell bro I’m so sorry Maybe keep copy of that too if you can in case it comes to that but Jesus I hope this gets sorted out you really don’t need that stress
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you shouldn't beat yourself up over this, teamwork requires faith in the other members. this idiot just broke that, not on you
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Fuckboy Drag King 09/09/2022 10:55 AM
Like you said, it won't escalate to that level, what makes the anxiety a little worse is that my old teammate quite possibly has the worst sleep schedule known to man and won't wake up until 6pm so I can't even talk it through with him
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Fuckboy Drag King
Like I shouldn't have forced him to work as hard, should've done it myself, etc etc
Team requires everyone to take part, you had your role he needed to do his. This isn’t your fault
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Fuckboy Drag King 09/09/2022 10:56 AM
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10:56
Bless you both
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Fuckboy Drag King
Like you said, it won't escalate to that level, what makes the anxiety a little worse is that my old teammate quite possibly has the worst sleep schedule known to man and won't wake up until 6pm so I can't even talk it through with him
Bang pots and pans outside his door
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Fuckboy Drag King 09/09/2022 10:56 AM
And then naturally to top it of the US treasury has found me
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WAKE UP BITCH YOURE GOING TO COURT
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Fuckboy Drag King
And then naturally to top it of the US treasury has found me
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Fuckboy Drag King 09/09/2022 10:57 AM
"Hi :) you became an adult in our country :) your father didn't pay the correct amount of taxes for you as you were no longer a child :)"
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it's all on him. you're not in any way to blame bc you're not in control of his actions
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LoLo <3
Bang pots and pans outside his door
mumblingmiss 09/09/2022 10:57 AM
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Fuckboy Drag King
"Hi :) you became an adult in our country :) your father didn't pay the correct amount of taxes for you as you were no longer a child :)"
ahh the IRS is relentless
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Fuckboy Drag King 09/09/2022 10:57 AM
"Every moment you don't pay the fine it'll get worse :)"
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yeah the IRS sucks, and my father already had his conflicts with them
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As he lived in one state and worked in others
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So had to pay living tax in one, work taxes in others, was fucking stupid
10:57
America, home of the tax
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has the tax burden been passed onto you then?
10:58
i vaguely know the headache that is their tax system
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Fuckboy Drag King 09/09/2022 10:58 AM
But because I went 16 whilst I was there (gotta love that makes me an adult even though I wouldn't be allowed to drink until 21) it means this shit has come up
10:58
Kind of. It falls either to me or my father and my father doesn't have the spare money atm to actually pay it
10:59
So there's me being poor again how sexy of me
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I'm guessing you don't either?
10:59
hm can i ask how much they're asking for?
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Fuckboy Drag King 09/09/2022 10:59 AM
Eh I just have enough
10:59
Just slightly less than £2k
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I lived there for a few years it makes sense but still my brothers in christ i'm not there anymore
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ouch, the stupid amounts they'll hound you for
11:00
will they keep raising it?
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Fuckboy Drag King 09/09/2022 11:00 AM
Nah, thank goodness, paid it this morning so it shouldn't get any steeper
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Fuckboy Drag King
"Hi :) you became an adult in our country :) your father didn't pay the correct amount of taxes for you as you were no longer a child :)"
Forward it to your dad? His problem not yours
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Fuckboy Drag King 09/09/2022 11:00 AM
Tbh my dad is aware of it, as the letter went to their home address and was officially addressed to him
11:01
Can america just like, go away
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Bloody hell tho 2k is a lot for their fuckup on not checking your dad paid his taxes tf
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Fuckboy Drag King
Nah, thank goodness, paid it this morning so it shouldn't get any steeper
at least you're out of their crosshairs now. even though that's a horrible thing to go through at this time especially
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There's no more relentless force in the universe than the bloody taxman
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Fuckboy Drag King 09/09/2022 11:02 AM
Fr, and my dad paid his taxes consistently why we were there
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Alas
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mumblingmiss 09/09/2022 11:02 AM
Delete America
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Fuckboy Drag King 09/09/2022 11:02 AM
Just woke up and the universe goes "bestie, have I got news for you"
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"you will wish you didn't wake up this morning"
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The IRS, we know exactly how much you owe but we're not gonna tell you. You figure it out and if you get it wrong? You best believe that's a fine
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you've had a v shitty day but be aware that none of it is your fault
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Ripfangs
The IRS, we know exactly how much you owe but we're not gonna tell you. You figure it out and if you get it wrong? You best believe that's a fine
Fuckboy Drag King 09/09/2022 11:02 AM
LITERALLY THAT
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Ripfangs
The IRS, we know exactly how much you owe but we're not gonna tell you. You figure it out and if you get it wrong? You best believe that's a fine
this isn't even an exaggeration
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Fuckboy Drag King 09/09/2022 11:03 AM
And that's the thing that actually sent me like
11:03
"You can appeal this tax, but be aware the longer you don't pay it the worse it gets"
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so basically
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Can I offer you this image of Snoopy's original appearance in these trying times?
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Fuckboy Drag King 09/09/2022 11:03 AM
role the fucking dice do you want to have a 2% chance of paying nothing or a 98% chance you'll pay 5k instead as you have to send a letter via AIRMAIL to D.C
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Ripfangs
Can I offer you this image of Snoopy's original appearance in these trying times?
Fuckboy Drag King 09/09/2022 11:04 AM
I want a dog
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mumblingmiss 09/09/2022 11:04 AM
If you ever wanna hang out and chill lmk you sound like you need to ignore the universe
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Fuckboy Drag King 09/09/2022 11:04 AM
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Bless you queen, it's alright, I got a lot of stuff to do today anyway it'll keep me busy
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mumblingmiss 09/09/2022 11:05 AM
Good good, well the offer will always be there
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Fuckboy Drag King 09/09/2022 11:05 AM
But you better come visit us again soon!
11:06
Feel like I've met you literally twice?
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mumblingmiss 09/09/2022 11:06 AM
Probably lmao
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Fuckboy Drag King 09/09/2022 11:06 AM
Keep us posted on the next travels of CB
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mumblingmiss 09/09/2022 11:06 AM
Hopefully I'll be up next week
11:06
My mum just booked a week off work so I'll be free as a bird
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Fuckboy Drag King 09/09/2022 11:06 AM
Gorgeous stuff
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Caz go get that coffee omg you need it 🫂 it’s been a shitty morning but there’s a rest of the day to make up for it. We’re here if you need anything
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Fuckboy Drag King 09/09/2022 11:07 AM
🫂
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I'll give you a hug when I'm back if your want
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mumblingmiss 09/09/2022 11:09 AM
Oh yeah do you need a hand with anything coming back Freyja??
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Ripfangs
I'll give you a hug when I'm back if your want
Same here 🫂 (applies to all of you and you don’t get a choice but)
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mumblingmiss
Oh yeah do you need a hand with anything coming back Freyja??
Also this ~ all my stuffs moved in already so after Monday I’m around to help out if anyone needs:)
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mumblingmiss
Oh yeah do you need a hand with anything coming back Freyja??
Should be all good but thanks for asking
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mumblingmiss 09/09/2022 11:11 AM
Well lmk if otherwise ❤️
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thats so much shit, sorry you're having to deal with all of that in one go 🫂 hope everything sorts itself out though, here if you need anything
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mumblingmiss 09/09/2022 4:09 PM
If the uea doesn't tell me what I'm doing I'm taking my student finance loans and running bc I'm scheduled to get my first bit in 10 days and lord knows the uea can't do anything in 10 days. Kinda positive kinda venting
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I remember when I dropped out of my first uni but I'd already been given my maintenance loan and student finance didn't contact me about it until the summer
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not quite sure where to post this but bran was giving me funny looks lol. my brain has gotten,,, weird. i keep spacing out, often forget where i am or pass by where i need to be completely, and keep stumbling over sentences. sometimes I'll be writing and forget how words work and often jumble up the order of them. it's gotten worse in the past few months and idk what's going on lol
20:31
the inability to recall common words thing is especially worrying bc i did English Lit?? and i was good at it?? why can't i write or speak properly sometimes
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my stutter has gotten worse too bc i just can't remember what i was saying
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I'm excellent at spelling but that's deteriorating too
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that kind of thing can be really frustrating and confusin :/ it might be worth seeing a doctor, or just looking over your diet and see if anything major has changed (more or less exercise, eating less of a certain type of food, much more or less caffiene, etc.) hope you're okay though, this kind of confusing stuff is really internally frustrating at times, here if you ever want to chat or need a distraction 🫂
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a lot has changed in the last half year so i can't point at anything in particular lol. just major change after major change
20:35
bran suggested seeing a doctor too but idk if I'm overreacting
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my memory has never been good but it's nearly impossible for me to remember things now without reminders. if i don't set an alarm or calendar notification, i simply won't remember smth i was told 5 minutes ago
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it's just weird and unsettling. i get so self conscious speaking now bc my stutter is so bad
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with health id say its never worth overreacting if it means seeing a doctor, its best to be safe. but in this situation, your life has been affected, and thats enough cause to look into it imo
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plus brains are little shit and will always make us worry about stuff like overreacting even if its really important
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hmm I'll see if i can get an appointment. not sure if I'm even registered at a surgery anymore since i graduated
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if not there is a walk in centre in norwich i think, not sure how good they are though
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thank you, I'll call UEA up on monday
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hope it goes well, we're here if you do ever need anything
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google says i have a brain tumour lmfao. I'm sure I'm fine but if it gets worse I'll see someone
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google is intense af
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mahariel
google says i have a brain tumour lmfao. I'm sure I'm fine but if it gets worse I'll see someone
Memory loss and not doing good w words doesn’t mean brain tumour my Nan has the same symptoms for her Parkinson’s and they told her categorically there’s a lot of overlap w stuff like that for a lot of things so try not to stress tooo much. Get an appointment if you can I think you can stay registered if you leave I don’t see why they’d take you off but like Erin said there should be walkins in Norwich so you should be okay 🫂
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LoLo <3
Memory loss and not doing good w words doesn’t mean brain tumour my Nan has the same symptoms for her Parkinson’s and they told her categorically there’s a lot of overlap w stuff like that for a lot of things so try not to stress tooo much. Get an appointment if you can I think you can stay registered if you leave I don’t see why they’d take you off but like Erin said there should be walkins in Norwich so you should be okay 🫂
oh yeah i definitely don't think it's a brain tumour, no matter what dr google says. i don't think it's even anything serious but it is super frustrating and ruins my self-esteem a little when i can't articulate things as well as i could a year ago
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wanted some opinions on the whole thing since Bran was worried
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Bear in mind too you haven’t had your brain switched on or writing stuff as much bc you graduated and didn’t have to assignment so much, also your work description is different so you’re bound to be less practiced at wording as you were yk?
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mumblingmiss 09/09/2022 8:59 PM
I've learnt that it's always worth the hassle to see a doctor when you're worried about something or you're struggling. It can really put your mind at ease and lessen the stress afterwards even if you're like me and going to doctors makes you stressed. Here for you ❤
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thanks everyone, this has made me feel better
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LoLo <3
Bear in mind too you haven’t had your brain switched on or writing stuff as much bc you graduated and didn’t have to assignment so much, also your work description is different so you’re bound to be less practiced at wording as you were yk?
i was in a similar state while writing my masters application and the last few bits of coursework. it's been going on for a while now i think
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though lack of practice is probably a factor
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mahariel
i was in a similar state while writing my masters application and the last few bits of coursework. it's been going on for a while now i think
I thought you didn’t do a masters?
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LoLo <3
I thought you didn’t do a masters?
i got rejected lol
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Oh I’m sorry
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no it's alright, I'm not as upset about it anymore
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i definitely couldn't afford it if i had gotten in
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ah this is what i mean ^ i meant to say "wouldn't have been able to" instead of couldn't
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i keep mixing up grammar and tenses and spelling even tho all that was perfect before
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Couldn’t still makes sense
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hmm i think so? looks odd
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super self conscious about being a hypochondriac
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Hypochondriac? Like being scared of being sick?
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uhh no i meant people who think they're sick when they aren't
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is that not the word
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yeah it seems to be right
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Yeah like scared they’re sick when they’re probably not kinda thing
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Gotta love health anxiety
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yayy haha
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don't mind me, I'm just anxious
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Me panicking every time something goes in my mouth that it’s gonna kill me even if it’s smth I’ve eaten so many times
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understandable with allergies like yours
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But nah I think you’re being reasonable like bran told you he was concerned so you’re making sure everything’s okay there’s nothing wrong w that
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thank you 🫂 i appreciate all the help and advice
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mumblingmiss 09/09/2022 9:10 PM
We're all here for you. It's perfectly okay to be anxious about your own health
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you guys are v v sweet
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The twink has a point ~ we got you if you need anything 🫂
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mumblingmiss 09/09/2022 9:11 PM
I'll take twink
21:12
Just don't do it again, it makes me sound not thicc
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Twicc
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mumblingmiss 09/09/2022 9:13 PM
I love it
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Confessions BOT 09/10/2022 5:11 PM
Anonymous Confession (#666)
"No longer hurt. The anger that I should have felt months ago has finally taken hold. Love that the secrets I know could change a lot of things."
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hope youre okay OP, sounds like a lot to unravel
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Sounds.. interesting, also hope you’re okay but glad you’re healing from what happened to you, anger can be delayed but it’s a sign of progress from where you were, just please be careful with it, anger can be dangerous and I don’t want you to get hurt
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got some food in my room now but now i'm crying again
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what's up? want to talk about it? hope you feel better soon 🫂
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its probably just stress and tired from moving and being on my own again after being back home all summer
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ahh when do your housemates move in?
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one might be tomorrow maybe? not certain
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Oh Freyja I’m sorry 🫂🫂 get some rest if you can, things are usually brighter in the morning and moving in is tiring and stressful. You’ll have people tomorrow and can distract you from yourself it’s going to be okay 🫂🫂 I have dinner soon but I’m more than happy to call you after if you need some company
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sleep does wonders
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maybe, i dunno. i'm just gonna eat some food and watch fellowship of the ring extended edition to minimize the chance of thoughts occuring. also i asked one of my friends to send me pictures of their dog
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listen to good music too kiddo 🫂
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sounds like a plan!
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Dinner eaten, retreated to bed
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Enjoy your movie 🫂
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Confessions BOT 09/11/2022 4:39 AM
Anonymous Confession (#667)
"TW: self harm I think. I don't know what to do. The pain became so much that I started hitting myself. My face is swollen now. I've never gone that far before"
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Here for you op ❤️
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I’m sorry op 🫂 get a cold flannel that should be good for any swelling or pain sorry I’m so late on the replies I’ve only been awake for 10 minutes or so. My DMs are open if you need anything at all, I hope you managed to get some rest and things feel brighter in the morning 💗
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Confessions BOT 09/11/2022 7:54 PM
Anonymous Confession (#668)
"doing drugs in my room and wondering when it'll be my turn to find some happiness"
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Anonymous Confession (#669)
"kicked a hole through my wall. there goes my deposit"
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Take a shower and order some food then go to sleep, things are always brighter in the morning. Please be careful on the drugs, you’ll be able to look at the damage on the wall later on it’ll still be there tomorrow too. Please message me if you need anything at all, I’m here for you 🫂
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mumblingmiss 09/12/2022 2:34 PM
Headaches shouldn't fucking exist what the fuck my dude. I've had them very frequently for a very long time and still do not understand. Gonna go whack my head with an ice pack
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mumblingmiss 09/13/2022 4:39 PM
Always insecure after a day out :/
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minor thing but-
10:03
i hate being threatened with fines
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even if its something small and something i know i wont be in risk of
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i absolutely despise being threatened with fines, its unnecessary the majority of the times and just screams one person wanting to assert authority over another needlessly
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10:06
im not going to vandalise your property, im going to follow covid guidance, im not going to fuck with the tv liscence services - godforbid - so why reiterate these threats so many times to everyone, sending out letters, emails or just telling people in person at every opportunity
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you're 100% right. it's an incredibly stupid system
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Fuckboy Drag King 09/14/2022 10:26 AM
What I hate is that we aren't allowed to threaten them back
10:26
That'd be so much more fun
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Okay now I’m intrigued how tf would you threaten them back
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threaten to throw a TV through the City Council's window
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Fuckboy Drag King 09/14/2022 10:29 AM
Depends on how creepy comp sci you want to be
10:30
alternatively vandalism is fun
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holding up a blank piece of paper in front of buckingham palace gets you arrested these days
10:31
apparently that's threatening enough
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Fuckboy Drag King 09/14/2022 10:32 AM
omw
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on another note: go to bed at 10pm - wake up tired go to bed at 3am - wake up tired why can't i win
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Fuckboy Drag King 09/14/2022 10:35 AM
do you want an actual answer or a meme answer
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give me both
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mumblingmiss 09/14/2022 10:36 AM
But don't say which is which
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Fuckboy Drag King 09/14/2022 10:36 AM
LMAO
10:36
mfw I didn't have a meme answer planned
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but fr it's probably a combo of sleep debt, not having a set sleeping schedule and reduced sleep quality
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meme answer uhhh you're tired because uhh
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I'm tired bc i was up all night with your dad (edited)
10:37
that's the meme answer for you
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mumblingmiss 09/14/2022 10:37 AM
You're tired bc you still girlboss when you're asleep
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Fuckboy Drag King 09/14/2022 10:38 AM
Thanks guys
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also what's sleep debt
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mumblingmiss 09/14/2022 10:41 AM
When the sleep taxman keep knocking at your door
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Fuckboy Drag King 09/14/2022 10:41 AM
Kinda what the name infers tbf, it's basically when you don't sleep for enough hours multiple nights in a row. Say, hypothetically, you get like 3 hours sleep, then 4, then 5, then 3 again
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Most adult humans need 8 hours, some can survive on 6, some need more
10:42
But your body basically starts craving sleep like an mf, it's like "brother please let me sleep, you haven't sleep enough in days"
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so when you do to bed at a reasonable time, say 10pm
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and wake up after 8 hours
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it's still staying
10:42
tired
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sleep tax evasion
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Fuckboy Drag King 09/14/2022 10:42 AM
because it's saying: cool that's 8 hours for last night but what about the hours from the other nights
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pretty much yeah
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if this is how you're going do your lectures then you're going to be a great professor lmfao
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Fuckboy Drag King 09/14/2022 10:44 AM
:D bless you
10:44
I hope so, can't wait to see 18 year olds scared shitless of me
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lmfao like anyone would be scared of a giant chainsmoking golden retriever
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mumblingmiss 09/14/2022 10:45 AM
Separate from this great sleep tax evasion convo. Ever since I've been on my meds I've cried significantly less but now part of me needs to cry after not for ages but the other part is like girl I can't and it's annoying.
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ngl id be down to threaten the tv liscence organisation
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you need to tactically cry so you don't have a blowout breakdown
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Separate from this great sleep tax evasion convo. Ever since I've been on my meds I've cried significantly less but now part of me needs to cry after not for ages but the other part is like girl I can't and it's annoying.
i get that, i find that just cycling through stuff ive done that makes me feel good about myself eases it a little bit, bit of self care and positivity 🫂
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mahariel
you need to tactically cry so you don't have a blowout breakdown
mood still waiting for my next one of those
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mumblingmiss
Separate from this great sleep tax evasion convo. Ever since I've been on my meds I've cried significantly less but now part of me needs to cry after not for ages but the other part is like girl I can't and it's annoying.
Fuckboy Drag King 09/14/2022 10:48 AM
New meds can suck 🫂 Are these anti-depressants? Sadly a lot of the time these meds are given out to purposefully stop "sad thoughts" and the things that enable us to cry
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mumblingmiss 09/14/2022 10:51 AM
Yeah I've been on sertraline since the start of summer. I remember having this exact same issue when I started the combined pill 4 years ago where I just couldn't cry. I welcome these good feelings but I'm a frequent crier so my brain gets confused if I don't for ages.
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Get Jory to send you pictures of dogs that made me cry
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Lo you almost cried bc i said you couldn't hug the creepy monster in a horror film
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HE WASNT CREEPY HES MISNDERSTOOF#D
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mumblingmiss 09/14/2022 10:53 AM
What monster
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i can fix the horror monster
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we were watching this series on youtube called Backrooms lol
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mumblingmiss 09/14/2022 10:53 AM
Ah
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and instead of being scared shitless like Brandon was, this girl sat there and tried to make a plan where we get the monster some friends
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Fuckboy Drag King 09/14/2022 10:54 AM
esfj moment
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shit i still need to watch the backrooms
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He was using English speaking a human language he was asking for help
10:54
HE WAS ASKING FOR HELP JORY
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E r i n
shit i still need to watch the backrooms
Fuckboy Drag King 09/14/2022 10:54 AM
It's good!
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If you were that scared you’d run towards any person too
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HE KILLED SOMEONE AND STOLE THEIR VOICE TO LURE THE MC
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Ik it’s not their fault for running away he’s scary looking but so what at least hear him out
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mumblingmiss 09/14/2022 10:55 AM
Lo babes watch Come Play, its a horror about a misunderstood monster called Larry who just wants a friend
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HE KILLED SOMEONE AND STOLE THEIR VOICE TO LURE THE MC
HE HEARD PEOPLE SCREAMING FOR HELP AND LEARNT THEIR LANGUAGE SO HE TOO COULD ESCAPE
10:55
No bc I’m actually about to cry
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Fuckboy Drag King 09/14/2022 10:55 AM
That might just send them over the edge
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listen my Hero and Saviour Complexes go pretty deep but not to this extent
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It’s not about saviour complex it’s about not judging someone based on how they look
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Fuckboy Drag King 09/14/2022 10:56 AM
Lo watches Gemini Home Entertainment and just wants to understand 🫂
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So what it’s overly tall loud and skinny so is my ex boyfriend and we’re great friends!! This things the same!!
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Fuckboy Drag King
Lo watches Gemini Home Entertainment and just wants to understand 🫂
Idk what that is
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LoLo <3
Idk what that is
Fuckboy Drag King 09/14/2022 10:57 AM
Another analogue horror series lmao
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Lo invites the Intruder from the Mandela Catalogue for tea and a late night talk about feelings
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mahariel
Lo invites the Intruder from the Mandela Catalogue for tea and a late night talk about feelings
And they’d fuckin enjoy it
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mahariel
Lo invites the Intruder from the Mandela Catalogue for tea and a late night talk about feelings
Fuckboy Drag King 09/14/2022 10:57 AM
I mean I would he actually does look lonely
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LoLo <3
So what it’s overly tall loud and skinny so is my ex boyfriend and we’re great friends!! This things the same!!
Shiro my beloved
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Fuckboy Drag King
I mean I would he actually does look lonely
Idk what that is either lmao
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mumblingmiss 09/14/2022 10:57 AM
Omg Lo would not survive in the Mandela catalogue universe
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Fuckboy Drag King 09/14/2022 10:57 AM
No no I think she would
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mumblingmiss
Omg Lo would not survive in the Mandela catalogue universe
It’s a miracle I’m surviving in this universe
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Fuckboy Drag King 09/14/2022 10:57 AM
everyone else: THEY'RE COMING YOU HAVE TO RUN
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this implies that Lo would survive in any horror scenario
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Fuckboy Drag King 09/14/2022 10:57 AM
lo: setting out a tea set
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Way ahead of you baby
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LoLo <3
Way ahead of you baby
Fuckboy Drag King 09/14/2022 10:58 AM
of course it's pink
10:58
very cute tho
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LoLo <3
It’s a miracle I’m surviving in this universe
remind me to never take you to a national park, you would try to hug the bears
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mumblingmiss 09/14/2022 10:59 AM
Hears creepy laughter outside bedroom door Lo: ah shit that sounds funny show me
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Fuckboy Drag King 09/14/2022 10:59 AM
LMAO
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mahariel
remind me to never take you to a national park, you would try to hug the bears
if bears so dangerous why so cute?
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mahariel
remind me to never take you to a national park, you would try to hug the bears
THERE ARE BEARS?!!!
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excellent point
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LoLo <3
THERE ARE BEARS?!!!
Fuckboy Drag King 09/14/2022 10:59 AM
On the planet? yes
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LoLo <3
THERE ARE BEARS?!!!
Brandon is trying
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LoLo <3
THERE ARE BEARS?!!!
i'm fairly certain the only bears in this country are in zoos
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Fuckboy Drag King
of course it's pink
Lmfao throwback to not understanding what ‘is it pink’ meant and replying ‘god I hope so’ 💀💀💀
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if bears so dangerous why so cute?
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CBear!!!!
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Lmfao throwback to not understanding what ‘is it pink’ meant and replying ‘god I hope so’ 💀💀💀
Fuckboy Drag King 09/14/2022 11:00 AM
LMFAO
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CB stands for Cuddly Bear
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Cbat
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mumblingmiss 09/14/2022 11:01 AM
CBolognese
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mahariel
Cbat
oh god 💀
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not to bring things back on topic but I'm wondering if the mental deterioration i was worried about a few days ago is from the lack of sleep lmao
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not to bring things back on topic but I'm wondering if the mental deterioration i was worried about a few days ago is from the lack of sleep lmao
Fuckboy Drag King 09/14/2022 11:02 AM
It is very possible lmao
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insomnia bad, starting an underground fighting ring to fix my issues
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Fuckboy Drag King 09/14/2022 11:03 AM
When I had a few nights of very little sleep I was teetering fully into lowkey psychosis, literally walking on the street during the day and saw shit that wasn't there. Not even like scary shit, just like "Oh fuck there's a lorry I can't cross the road" and the road is literally empty lmao
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mahariel
insomnia bad, starting an underground fighting ring to fix my issues
Fuckboy Drag King 09/14/2022 11:03 AM
imagining brad pitt in gay little outfits
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mahariel
insomnia bad, starting an underground fighting ring to fix my issues
no jory! don't start having homoerotic tension with imaginary brad pitt
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i would 100% fuck my alter ego. you can't stop me
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you know what? valid
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Fuckboy Drag King 09/14/2022 11:04 AM
narcissism example a everybody
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I'm too hot to not be a narcissist tyvm
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i can respect that
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When I had a few nights of very little sleep I was teetering fully into lowkey psychosis, literally walking on the street during the day and saw shit that wasn't there. Not even like scary shit, just like "Oh fuck there's a lorry I can't cross the road" and the road is literally empty lmao
ohh I've had these hallucinations before. it's fun mixed with my complete lack of spatial awareness bc i stop for imaginary cars and then walk out in front of real ones
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Fuckboy Drag King 09/14/2022 11:05 AM
it's probably lack of sleep lmfao
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mahariel
i would 100% fuck my alter ego. you can't stop me
Fuck yourself you coward
11:06
Not a proper narcissist until you hit on a mirror lmfao
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are you telling me to go fuck myself when i just said i would, in fact, fuck myself
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LoLo <3
Not a proper narcissist until you hit on a mirror lmfao
LMAO no that was fucking hilarious
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you were at the heights of self-confidence last night and it was a vibe
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LoLo <3
Not a proper narcissist until you hit on a mirror lmfao
that scene from you
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mahariel
you were at the heights of self-confidence last night and it was a vibe
I’m hot and I should say it
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true
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Confessions BOT 09/14/2022 9:36 PM
Anonymous Confession (#676)
"ngl I have a crush on someone here and I'm just gonna let it sit there and fester in my soul"
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Who is it op 👀
21:36
I’m hPpy to listen
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Confessions BOT 09/14/2022 9:46 PM
Anonymous Confession (#677)
"mood op"
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Anonymous Confession (#678)
"its Lo may as well be honest lol"
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Oh darling I’m so sorry. DM me? I can guarantee I’m a disaster and you do not wanna be with me but I can like counsel you through it or something? Idk I’ve never been in this situation before and idk how to deal with it but please let me be here for you? Sending all the hugs 🫂🫂🫂🫂
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Confessions BOT 09/15/2022 10:45 AM
Anonymous Confession (#679)
"it's fine I can get over it, wouldnt have the guts to do anything anyways"
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I’m really sorry I don’t know how to respond to this stuff it doesn’t happen to me but like drunk me answered last night lol please know I’m here for you. I can’t really say much more bc I don’t know who you are 🫂🫂
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Fuckboy Drag King 09/15/2022 10:54 AM
Can testify that she was very flattered when she saw the message though
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Confessions BOT 09/15/2022 10:55 AM
Anonymous Confession (#680)
"I also have a crush on someone here but idk if he's single 🙈"
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Fuckboy Drag King 09/15/2022 10:55 AM
In these instances I often always think it's better to share those feelings of lowkey adoration rather than squirrelling them away and pretending they don't exist.
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Dont be shy op, say who it is and we can find out 🙂
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Fuckboy Drag King 09/15/2022 10:56 AM
Well that message was not intended for that confession but also works(?)
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so three seperate crushes here wow
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Just send a confession w their name and they can answer 👀
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cant wait to confess my crush for myself
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mumblingmiss 09/15/2022 11:05 AM
Love is in the air
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Confessions BOT 09/15/2022 11:31 AM
Anonymous Confession (#681)
"erin, youre gorgeous, you deserve the world and should definitely start a revolution"
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mumblingmiss 09/15/2022 11:32 AM
Aww @Unknown
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yeah that was me
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why did i have two notifications here
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So our land lord wants to take 300 out of our deposit
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Because they "recently" redecorated the front room
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Anyone whos ben in my front room is bull shit
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I get the gardening even if thats a stupid amount
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Why are any of you surprised about the crushes?! This server runs on sexual tension, its the only thing that keeps thisnplace active
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because they didnt find the loophole
19:12
make confessions confessing a crush on yourself so when no one else does you look cool
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what if when someone else posts a confession, u claim it was u who wrote it
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not sure what the benefit would be but it would increase the chaos for sure
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Then you fight to the death over the person the crush confession is about
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maybe its the best way to get ppl to confess non-anonymously
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when u claim their message they will appear to fight
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Lol I have crushes
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Will I admit them
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Never
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and then the twist at the end of the story is that the two rivals end up in love
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Or you have a threesome, that works too
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i have occassional pining strikes
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You have a occassional pining, I have occassional pinning. Everybody is different
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I usually am occasional liking
19:18
Pining*
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But sometimes. Damn I feel
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i never think abt that stuff until someone like, actively pursues me and then i start feeling it lol
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mumblingmiss 09/15/2022 7:19 PM
I keep mine anonymous ;)))
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if nobody ever asked me out i would just cruise along in neutral forever tbh... (at least at this stage in my life)
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mumblingmiss 09/15/2022 7:20 PM
I'll openly flirt with people but I won't tell them I'm actually into them
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if u jokingly flirt with everybody then the real flirting is disguised nod
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mumblingmiss 09/15/2022 7:21 PM
Exactly
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if u jokingly flirt with everybody then the real flirting is disguised nod
or dont know how to flirt
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also im a coward so if i was to have a theoritical crush i have no idea if id ever act on it unprompted
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very subtle nudge if anyone-
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mumblingmiss 09/15/2022 7:26 PM
Hi
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i try to never let fear/anxiety hold me back from anything so i like to think i wouldnt be afraid of confessing
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but ofc easier to say in theory than actually do when it comes to it
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normalise low stress date/hangout prompting to experiment and see how things feel
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mumblingmiss 09/15/2022 7:30 PM
What if I confess to everyone just to see the response of the person I'm into but if they reject me its like hey I said this to everyone lol
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genius
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honestly debated offering myself as date practice
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Fun fact is if people don’t have crushes on me I won’t say I have crushes on them
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mumblingmiss 09/15/2022 7:32 PM
I have a friend crush on you
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19:34
I have a crush on you in a way where I'd want you to be my 'mate' of honour at my wedding
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Love that this is in vents
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queue donna noble 'you just want to mate?'
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Finally some good fucking positivity, delicious
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Eeeeen
Love that this is in vents
mumblingmiss 09/15/2022 7:35 PM
It's because I'm furiously upset about how much I love these people
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Lies
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Because they "recently" redecorated the front room
Twink Antony 09/15/2022 7:49 PM
Yeah when they bring that to DPS it’ll get rejected for sure
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It’s not something that you caused within the house and needed to be “fixed”. If they decided to do that, it’s up to them
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Yeah when they bring that to DPS it’ll get rejected for sure
no basically
19:56
when we went into our house
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there was tears all over the wallpaper
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and they tried to blame us for that
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Confessions BOT 09/15/2022 7:57 PM
Anonymous Confession (#682)
"Sorry if this makes anyone uncomfortable dw about it at all! People I have had mild crushes on before that I've mostly passed over: Jory, Lo, Caz, B, Ewan, Finch (from memory)"
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there was tears all over the wallpaper
Twink Antony 09/15/2022 8:01 PM
Ah i see
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Twink Antony
Ah i see
we are contesting it though
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Hello???
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LoLo <3
Hello???
Twink Antony 09/15/2022 8:04 PM
Pulling everyone left right n Center
20:04
And rightly so
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we are contesting it though
Twink Antony 09/15/2022 8:04 PM
Good good :) wish you luck x
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mumblingmiss 09/15/2022 8:15 PM
I love the crush energy
20:15
Anybody that ever has a crush on me gets a bar of chocolate
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I'm like the final boss
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mumblingmiss
Anybody that ever has a crush on me gets a bar of chocolate
I have a crush on you
20:23
Where’s my chocolate
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mumblingmiss 09/15/2022 8:23 PM
You can have a bar of choc if you want
20:24
What kind
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Confessions BOT 09/15/2022 10:20 PM
Anonymous Confession (#683)
"I also have a crush on Caz 😂"
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Anonymous Confession (#684)
"I can see why people would love Lo so much she seems so nice!"
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Fuckboy Drag King 09/15/2022 10:26 PM
I can see how Lo was struggling to respond to hers when she got a similar confession now lmao. Hi?
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All im saying
22:27
if anyone touches or hurts lo, I will murder them
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With sheer precision the likes which have never seen
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You’re all so lovely 🥺🥺🥺 can’t wait until everyone’s back I’m gonna give you all the biggest hugs 🫂🫂🥺
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Fuckboy Drag King 09/15/2022 10:27 PM
I completely agree, you guys haven't seen her in action, she's a weapon
22:28
you think Lizzy just vanished because she was old, nono i was there
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Fuckboy Drag King 09/15/2022 10:28 PM
Fucking knew it
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Fuckboy Drag King
I completely agree, you guys haven't seen her in action, she's a weapon
I can guarantee I have no like fighty ability whatsoever wtf does this mean 😭😭 (edited)
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Fuckboy Drag King 09/15/2022 10:29 PM
One of these days I am going to bait you into unleashing all your thoughts about supernatural
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LoLo <3
I can guarantee I have no like fighty ability whatsoever wtf does this mean 😭😭 (edited)
Fuckboy Drag King 09/15/2022 10:29 PM
Wdym I saw what you did to that worm
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Fuckboy Drag King
Wdym I saw what you did to that worm
IT WAS MADE OF PLAY DOH
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LoLo <3
IT WAS MADE OF PLAY DOH
Fuckboy Drag King 09/15/2022 10:30 PM
PAST TENSE
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Fuckboy Drag King
PAST TENSE
I hope he still is 🥺
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Fuckboy Drag King
One of these days I am going to bait you into unleashing all your thoughts about supernatural
i listened to my friend have a bit of a rant about supernatural once, it was fun
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According to google weapon is scottish slang for an idiot lmao sounds about right-
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LoLo <3
According to google weapon is scottish slang for an idiot lmao sounds about right-
Fuckboy Drag King 09/15/2022 10:31 PM
Shoosh no no it was a compliment honest
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Fuckboy Drag King
One of these days I am going to bait you into unleashing all your thoughts about supernatural
you really
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shouldnt
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all I am saying is there will be uncontrollable sobbing and rage
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Fuckboy Drag King
Shoosh no no it was a compliment honest
Nah I like idiot better lmao
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Confessions BOT 09/16/2022 10:59 AM
Anonymous Confession (#685)
"ngl wasn't expecting to start a whole thing by confessing my crush here but I love it sm we're all suffering here lets start a polycule and cry"
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This is why we need the sleepover
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mumblingmiss 09/16/2022 11:05 AM
Can we have a sleepover
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Yes we absolutely can
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mumblingmiss 09/16/2022 11:06 AM
Yes
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the choice of how to respond to so many people having crushes on each other: repress or sleepover
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Repression isn’t a healthy option surely it’s better to talk this stuff out at least that way it’s out in the open and you can make sure no one’s feelings get hurt I’d hate to think anyone’s suffering because of me
11:55
So we’ll organise a sleepover once more people are here one weekend, if people want to come or not is their discretion but anyone’s welcome. We’ll get snacks and do puzzles and board games and sit on the floor and tell stories and fall asleep in a pile
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yesssss
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the watching movies with parents in childhood just reminded me that [tw: disturbing gore] when i was about 8-12, my mother used to show me videos of executions and people dying
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Your mother did WHAT
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now that i say that for the first time ever, i realise it's even more fucked up than i originally thought
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that doesnt sound like a fun thing to remember
12:14
you okay?
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LoLo <3
Your mother did WHAT
executions, violent deaths, people being attacked by mobs etc. i have no goddamn idea why. she thought children's films would lower my intelligence while this kind of thing would toughen me up for the "real world" (edited)
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you okay?
haha I'm alright. she's ultra-religious so another angle for her was "this is what God will make happen to you if you sin"
12:19
i realise this is a v heavy revelation but i had a "huh, that was not exactly normal, was it?" moment while talking about childhood movies
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executions, violent deaths, people being attacked by mobs etc. i have no goddamn idea why. she thought children's films would lower my intelligence while this kind of thing would toughen me up for the "real world" (edited)
If that’s what she expects you to face in the real world maybe making home a safe and nurturing environment where you don’t need to see things like that is a more logical step
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LoLo <3
If that’s what she expects you to face in the real world maybe making home a safe and nurturing environment where you don’t need to see things like that is a more logical step
you would think so lmao. but that's good parenting so i think you expect too much of her
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i realise this is a v heavy revelation but i had a "huh, that was not exactly normal, was it?" moment while talking about childhood movies
I couldn’t handle that now but as a child? Jesus
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12:20
If you weren’t older than me I swear to god I’d adopt you in a heartbeat
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LMAO i think I'm ok
12:21
now I'm a single father devoted to my uhhh (idk how many of you there are here that i call "kiddo" but that number) kids
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glad youre okay but sorry you had to go through that, thats pretty fucked up and you deserve a much better childhood than you got 🫂
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12:23
and the fact that despite stuff like that youre such an awesome person now really shows how determined and adaptable you are, just hope that the path forward is brighter than what youve had to go through so far, here if you ever want to talk
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and the fact that despite stuff like that youre such an awesome person now really shows how determined and adaptable you are, just hope that the path forward is brighter than what youve had to go through so far, here if you ever want to talk
Erin you are absolutely wonderful. thank you for the kind words. I'm trying to be the complete opposite of my parents in every way. i like to think I'm succeeding
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i dont know youre parents well but from what ive heard - and just what youve just said - youre excelling
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mentally unstable but in a cool, empathetic way
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I don’t know much about your parents but I’ve never been anything but happy to have a notification or phone call from you pop up on my phone which I’d say in itself is success
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LoLo <3
I don’t know much about your parents but I’ve never been anything but happy to have a notification or phone call from you pop up on my phone which I’d say in itself is success
same to you. me running out of the office in my break to show you ducks lmfao
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mumblingmiss 09/16/2022 12:31 PM
I lost my glasses so I'm not entirely sure what I just read but I love you Jory you legend you beauty you genius I hope autocorrect didn't just fuck me over
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I lost my glasses so I'm not entirely sure what I just read but I love you Jory you legend you beauty you genius I hope autocorrect didn't just fuck me over
hahaha you're all good. adore you too CB, my fellow agent of chaos
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mumblingmiss 09/16/2022 12:37 PM
I FOUND THEM
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mahariel
hahaha you're all good. adore you too CB, my fellow agent of chaos
mumblingmiss 09/16/2022 12:37 PM
Big love, comrade
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I forgot about my tea
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It went cold
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I just downed half a cup of very cold tea:((
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noo you could microwave it?
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Maybe but sadly now it's in my tummy so uhh no
15:34
I don't think I'd fit
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only one way to find out tbf
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mumblingmiss 09/16/2022 4:29 PM
So I'm not getting my maintenance loan today and I don't know when I will. Apparently the uni hasn't confirmed I'm registered yet. And then when they do it takes up to 48 hours to update and then another 3-5 working days for me to get it. I haven't bought my own groceries in almost 2 months. I'm tired of thinking it's all working out and then being pushed back again, I just want to eat and pay my parents rent and leave the house and replace my broken storage. I cant stand borrowing money off my parents and I need that loan asap
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I'm sorry this has all been so complicated it's really not your fault the uni kept taking the wrong email but now they've recognised you're going to be studying here they'll confirm w the student finance people and it'll come through, it might take a big longer but if anyone's going to understand it'll be your parents who've seen you doing the process and will know the circumstances around it and know you'll pay them back when you have the money
16:32
Ik it doesn't make things better right now but it'll happen, just gonna be a bit more time 🫂
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mumblingmiss
So I'm not getting my maintenance loan today and I don't know when I will. Apparently the uni hasn't confirmed I'm registered yet. And then when they do it takes up to 48 hours to update and then another 3-5 working days for me to get it. I haven't bought my own groceries in almost 2 months. I'm tired of thinking it's all working out and then being pushed back again, I just want to eat and pay my parents rent and leave the house and replace my broken storage. I cant stand borrowing money off my parents and I need that loan asap
everything Lo said but I'm so sorry you're being put through this. if you need any help covering groceries then just lmk 🫂
16:33
dw about paying it back, i would be happy to help
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mumblingmiss 09/16/2022 4:34 PM
That thing I said about not being able to cry, here it is.
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sometimes crying flushes the frustration and stress out of the system. afterwards, drink plenty of water and maybe some tea as well
16:34
listen to music or watch things that make you happier and have a nap
16:35
you're going to be ok
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You don't have to cry, if your body doesn't want to let you it won't,, that doesn't make the emotion any less real. I'm sorry I can't offer more to help. Have a big scream maybe, that's also a good release if crying isn't on the table
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mumblingmiss 09/16/2022 5:02 PM
Thanks for your support guys
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If you need anything we’re here for you 🫂🫂
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Confessions BOT 09/16/2022 6:07 PM
Anonymous Confession (#686)
"I used to be so social with my love life. doing things like going on several dates a week because i wanted to get to know everyone who interested me. I'm going on my first proper one since my last relationship ended tomorrow and the boy seems great. i just hate how terrified i am about it. i can't imagine someone liking me beyond casual sex anymore and i don't want to be hurt again"
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Anonymous Confession (#687)
"I need to hear this but I think some of you do too: harden your heart and stop doing this to yourself. Future you 10 years from now is going to laugh at the energy you put in and never received back. You're young so it seems like the worst and most continuous pain you'll ever feel. But it won't matter at all when you're happy and have forgotten their existence. Keep your head up and let it go"
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Good luck op!! I’m sure he’s lovely and you’ll have a wonderful time, let us know how it goes? Just be your lovely self, I’m sure everything will be fine. You’re a person, not just a thing to have sex with, and if he wants to go on a date with you then clearly he sees you as a person. Good luck!!!
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I hate ‘match their energy’ bc sometimes people can’t return the same but I do really agree you’ve got to take care of yourself first and let the person you’re with be your next priority to that, don’t rearrange your world for something that isn’t sure wants to be a part of it
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im glad youre excited, that fear is probably largely from your excitement. try to have fun and best of luck ❤🫂
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Lmao not me going ooo there a pink contacts pot I’m gonna give that to my favourite friend then realising I don’t have a favourite friend and now I’m crying because I love my friends I hate it here why do I have to have emotions
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Confessions BOT 09/16/2022 9:40 PM
Anonymous Confession (#689)
"Girl invited me over to watch a movie with just her and idk what to do?? I'm nervous?? Help??"
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In my very very limited experience, if you are interested - even a bit - its worth expressing that and exploring it
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easier said than done but its a good way to test the waters, see how you both feel, and take a wild chance. you could really enjoy it, after all
21:45
best of luck with whatever you decide OP 🫂 but id say if youre interested its best to tell them that at the very least - especially when they prompt you
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AWWW
21:47
GO AND WATCH THE MOVIE WITH HER!!!
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Idk if this is meant as a flirty thing but either way it’s a movie
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free movie is free movie
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21:48
maybe theyll have snacks to yoink
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at worst u hang out with a friend at best u make out and start a relationship
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Needed good waterproof, thick, warm walking trousers for work and theyre the most expensive trousers Ive bought - £45 😭😭😭
19:06
Theyre fleece lined and its like sticking your legs into their own sleeping bags made of clouds 😍😍
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Okay but they sound amazing tho
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Yeah, theyd better last because I could got 3 pairs of jeans for that money
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no they sound like a dream
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Confessions BOT 09/18/2022 12:21 PM
Anonymous Confession (#690)
"I want to buy my friends so many gifts this year it's unreal. It's my friends birthday soon-ish and I want to get her all the things but don't want to seem too excessive 😅"
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i get that, i know its very unhelpful advice but honestly id just do what youre comfortable with. you know your friend, and you sound like a really good friend yourself, so i doubt that you could make her uncomfortable with excessivity (is that a word?)
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Imagine doing someone else’s washing up contaminating your glass with nut residue without knowing it and having an allergic reaction drinking water:(
19:25
Really tired of sitting in a&e now
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oh shit im sorry
19:26
are you okay?
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mumblingmiss 09/18/2022 7:32 PM
Omg
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Lo I'm here if you need me, allergic reactions are a pain in the ass and miserable but it's even worse that someone else caused it
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It’s not someone else causing it it’s an accident I just need to not wash up other peoples stuff lmao
19:33
But thank you 🫂 im more annoyed than anything else
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mumblingmiss 09/18/2022 7:33 PM
I get it
19:34
Hope you get better soon lovely
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do you have company in a&e?
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My friend just got called in and the other one got to go home
19:35
But I have a very supportive Jory and my mum on my phone taking care of me
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19:36
I’m okay I’m just complaining
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mumblingmiss 09/18/2022 7:36 PM
If you ever want to call me for a chat dm me and I'll send my number okay?
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honestly fair, glad youre not alone at least, hope it all gets sorted soon 🫂
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mumblingmiss
If you ever want to call me for a chat dm me and I'll send my number okay?
mumblingmiss 09/18/2022 7:38 PM
(offer is open to everyone btw)
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LoLo <3
I’m okay I’m just complaining
you can complain as much as you need to dw 🫂
19:46
everyone learn how to use an epipen bc you never know when you'll need it
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i eventually figured out how after jumping around like a headless chicken for a solid minute
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mumblingmiss 09/18/2022 7:47 PM
That's reminded me I need to go to the doctors and get some more
19:47
I always forget to carry mine around
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mumblingmiss
That's reminded me I need to go to the doctors and get some more
get some ASAP. no joke, probably saved Lo's life today
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Bro seriously fucking carry them omg
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mumblingmiss 09/18/2022 7:48 PM
Ik ik last time I didn't and I got stung by a bee and panic
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It’s annoying and you need clunky bags but like rather look weird but still be alive
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her vigilance of keeping track of her allergic reactions made this whole mess better than it could have been
19:48
they're literal lifesavers so get some more please
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mumblingmiss 09/18/2022 7:49 PM
The summer is danger hour for CB
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Lmao the guy in the ambulance being like you don’t have to stress that much some people coke in every week like sure but I can’t afford £9 for a new epipen every week
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also the mental and physical toll it must take to be in that often
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mumblingmiss 09/18/2022 7:50 PM
Oh man that's too many reactions
19:51
Also snaps for me I only had one reaction this year new record
19:52
But I hope you feel better soon fr
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Someone’s loudly throwing up in the next room
19:52
Love that for them
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mumblingmiss 09/18/2022 7:52 PM
Oh now that's a nightmare
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Fuckboy Drag King 09/18/2022 8:01 PM
Jesus Christ Lo, are you okay?
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damn that sounds pretty shit, hope you're alright
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LoLo rescue mission is en route
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mumblingmiss 09/18/2022 9:44 PM
Late night melancholy: I miss my cat so fucking much I'm gonna punch god in the face
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i hate this country
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fucking 'watching tv illegally' is such a shit sentence
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hate TV licensing and i refuse to ever pay it in my life 🙏
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Lmao there's nothing on anyway
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its just how they phrase everything with pressure
16:09
hate how there is always a little bit of me that goes 'oh it would be easier to just pay it and not risk it' and thats exactly what they fucking want
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they can't do shit
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Ours is apparently through the bills package we got
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ignore them
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Idk how true that is but i'm choosing to believe it
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it's worked for me
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most bills packages cover tv liscences fine so you should be clear
16:11
but yeah i just hate the system and everything about it
16:12
if they visit im going to have to really fight not to be a horrible person to them
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I don't think they ever do
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if they visit im going to have to really fight not to be a horrible person to them
Twink Antony 09/19/2022 4:12 PM
Just don’t let them in as well
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I've never been visited and at home i've been in the same place for 16 years
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what if i just put fuck you by lily allen on loud so they dont think i can hear them
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They legally cannot enter your property without permission. They have no legal rights, they are not the police and they can suck a fucking fat one. The "detection technology" is a bare faced lie theyve been telling since the 70s. Just tell 'em you dont have a tele and that they need to fuck off. Job done
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orrr i seduce them
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orrr i seduce them
And that accomplishes?
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idk but itd be funny
16:22
and practice
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Valid
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They legally cannot enter your property without permission. They have no legal rights, they are not the police and they can suck a fucking fat one. The "detection technology" is a bare faced lie theyve been telling since the 70s. Just tell 'em you dont have a tele and that they need to fuck off. Job done
yeah just don't let them in. there's fuck all they can do
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Imagine rearranging half the lounge then remembering you’re not meant to do ‘strenuous exercise’ for at least a week
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Let’s hope using my whole body weight to shift 4 sofas doesn’t count as exercise
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You better be taking care of yourself or I stg I'll come over there and make you (edited)
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Is that a threat or a promise
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mumblingmiss 09/19/2022 5:14 PM
I will literally strap you to a wheelchair
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i will come there and hug you so you're unable to do strenuous exercise
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Confessions BOT 09/21/2022 10:34 PM
Anonymous Confession (#693)
"sabotaging my own happiness by being incapable of letting go of the past. love that for me"
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dear GOD this fever dream was horrific. not in the nightmare kind of horrific but in the "I've never been so happy in a damn long time" kind of horror. v simple, in little restaurant talking to someone over milkshakes and then suddenly i realised eveything was a little too bright and a little too polished. my heart sunk to my stomach and i straight up asked them "hey this isn't real is it?"
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time for the cigarette and shot of vodka breakfast
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mumblingmiss 09/22/2022 11:02 AM
That's a horrible feeling to experience, I hope you're doing okay. Always here to talk if you need to, got a lot of experience with vivid dreams 🫂🫂
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i don't think I've had one this vivid before. was wondering why i couldn't type properly and just realised there are tears on my screen lmao
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mumblingmiss 09/22/2022 11:07 AM
Oh darling I understand
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I hope you don't have to deal with one like that again
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i can deal with brutal horror and gory nightmares, I'll take waking up in a sheer blind panic. but this hit me in a way that's kind of broken me
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The happy ones are the worst in an unkind kind of way 🫂🫂
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Lol me and @Unknown having The most insane trippy fever dreams rn
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Confessions BOT 09/22/2022 2:09 PM
Anonymous Confession (#695)
"dysphoria has been flairing up a bit over the last few days"
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Confessions BOT 09/22/2022 2:54 PM
Anonymous Confession (#696)
"Classes literally haven't started yet and I'm already feeling like I'm fucking crashing and burning. I barely survived first and second year, and now I've got fucking third year coming up and I'm just... I'm fucking stressed and tired and I literally haven't done any work."
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Confessions BOT 09/22/2022 3:54 PM
Anonymous Confession (#697)
"can my brain not push the exact buttons to convince me to off myself for a single week please"
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im sorry op, please be free to dm me if you want to chat or have a distraction. the brain can suck, youre a brilliant person and worth better than the shitty thoughts that you are sometimes forced to deal with 🫂
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mumblingmiss 09/22/2022 5:20 PM
tw: mentions of death tomorrow is the 3rd year anniversary of my Nan's passing and grief is such an insane thing to experience. It's like feelings I've had before but it just sits there constantly. I miss her more than words can explain
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🫂 I'm so sorry for your loss. grief is one of the hardest things to deal with. lmk if you need anything
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Confessions BOT 09/23/2022 5:33 PM
Anonymous Confession (#698)
"okay now dysphoria is just beginning to kick my ass"
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Confessions BOT 09/23/2022 11:01 PM
Anonymous Confession (#699)
"feeling very rough and dysphoric but hope itll pass in a few days as i get back into better habits. sorry for vent confessing so much"
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It’s okay darling my DMs are open if you need me, I can’t relate but I can support 🫂 I’m here for you I’m sorry you’re struggling so much I think you’re wonderful
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mumblingmiss 09/24/2022 7:19 AM
Okay so sometimes my vivid dreams really destroy my day, usually it's fine I can move past it but I had a full on long ass dream when I fell back to sleep for 10 minutes this morning that has genuinely left me upset. I'm glad it wasn't real but still
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sorry you're going through that 🫂 fever dreams are the absolute worst
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Confessions BOT 09/24/2022 12:44 PM
Anonymous Confession (#700)
"as soon as my passport gets here I'm fucking off to the Tibetan mountains to eat tree bark and drink ayahuasca for a month"
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mumblingmiss 09/24/2022 3:57 PM
I did that annoying thing where you're just looking through all the different things in your apps and I found all of my deleted conversations on fb messenger from my high school 'friendships' and got curious and scrolled through. Conclusion: ew what the fuck was I doing with those people
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hope youre okay 🫂
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mumblingmiss 09/24/2022 4:00 PM
It's less of a sad, and more of a let me go murder these people how dare you be so horrible to little baby me that precious little child
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in that case lmk if you need a hand
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no one is allowed to hurt any version of cb in any way
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mumblingmiss 09/24/2022 4:01 PM
I'm very protective of baby CB, let's do it
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Oh god old friends is so weird
16:01
My childhood best friends are like a catholic a horse girl and a chaos baby
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mumblingmiss 09/24/2022 4:04 PM
The whole group convo I read through was baby CB apologising for making people uncomfortable when she gets anxious and then three people going you ruin the atmosphere, you should try harder because you're clearly not trying, we don't understand you at all
16:04
Like gang you gonna fuckin die now
16:05
Erin, prepare for crimes.
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Nope
16:09
Not okay
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mumblingmiss 09/24/2022 4:09 PM
LoLo, prepare for war!
16:41
im so sorry you had to deal with that
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mumblingmiss 09/24/2022 4:43 PM
Usually it would upset me but I'm very empowered rn
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Confessions BOT 09/24/2022 7:01 PM
Anonymous Confession (#701)
"i want to beat the shit out my sisters bf... he's such a cunt and it's so annoying. ignores the family pup and has made some... comments about me being queer that have made me feelin not great"
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hope youre okay OP 🫂
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Will (he/they) 09/24/2022 8:13 PM
it's fine, just annoying bc mom and her gf are on a trip 12+hrs away and don't really wanna bother them (sis's bf lives with us, long story)
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i texted them about the doggo thing but am leaving the queer comments until they get home
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The true vibe is crying on the train home because the club was dead and you miss being the centre of attention. Im a bitter queen, don't come fore me
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The true vibe is crying on the train home because the club was dead and you miss being the centre of attention. Im a bitter queen, don't come fore me
Will (he/they) 09/25/2022 2:03 AM
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Confessions BOT 09/25/2022 8:26 AM
Anonymous Confession (#702)
"ive had some really bad dreams recently, both targetting things im used to like mental health, gender, family, imposter syndrome, suicide, murder, etc., but also relatively new stuff that i havent experienced and find pretty overwhelming, things like nightmares about sexual assault and rape and its really starting to mess with my head a lot more. sorry to unload but does anyone have any advice on how to calm yourself down when you wake up from stuff like that, and remind yourself that its just a dream etc.?"
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mumblingmiss 09/25/2022 8:31 AM
Hey OP, I'm sorry to hear you're having to deal with this. I often find that I need to have something that can anchor me in reality, like getting up and moving around or deep breathing or a cold drink. Everyone has their own coping and calming mechanisms and I'm here to help you find yours but it might take some trial and error. Feel free to DM me at any time and I'm open to giving you my phone number so that you can call me if you need to hear someone's voice after waking up from something like that. I hope I can help and we're all here to support you.
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yeah that sounds horrible OP. hope you're ok but I'll echo everything CB just said
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vivid dreams suck and even more if they involve things like that
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mumblingmiss 09/25/2022 5:54 PM
Ngl kinda fuming, I found out I had a mild/moderate crab allergy years ago but eating prawns is fine so it wasn't an entire shellfish allergy kind of thing which is great because I love prawns every so often. But just had some tonight and I've got that very familiar tingly mouth, annoyed stomach combo and I'm gonna be pissed if I'm allergic to prawns now too.
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Idm crab allergy it's nasty anyways
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aw no hopefully its just a random interaction of things / one off:((
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ahh allergies suck but i hope it was just a mild thing bc crab can sometimes make its way into prawn foodstuffs
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Nothing like forgetting your headphones to the gym and being subject to listening to some guy make misogynistic comments to his pal. Thanks though mate, fuelled my last few reps
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im so sorry, thats awful. hope youre okay 🫂
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I’m good, like I said, fuelled my gains but I won’t be forgetting my headphones in future
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Gross
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trying v hard to get these important tasks done today but jfc i am struggling
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idk when my ADHD medications appointment is bc I'm on another waiting list and it will take months to see the nurse (edited)
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im sorry, hope you can make some progress 🫂 waiting lists suck
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I'm in a constant state of fatigue with a neverending headache lmao
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do you have any kind of pain relief for the headache at least?
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i really should have taken more than a day off for the flu but i can't afford that sooooo
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do you have any kind of pain relief for the headache at least?
uhh don't think so but ty 🫂
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lmk if you want any picked up, happy to deliver some 🫂 im sorry youre just being left to wait, hopefully they get in touch soon
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nah dw dw you're not walking all the way from bowthorpe to drop off ibuprofen lmao
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im not in bowthorpe anymore lmao
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I'm just venting bc i feel so exhausted and out of it
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i finally moved out of limbo
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honestly fair though
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sweet! where are you now?
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wilberforce road, basically next to the uni village
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aw cute stabby road
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stabby road?
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yeah apparently it's the road with the most stabbings in Norwich but i highly doubt that. Prince of Wales is way more likely
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well i have competition then
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fully believe you could defeat anyone in a knife fight
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back to venting: - why am i tired 24/7 - why am i sad 24/7 - why do the small moments of joy feel like they're never at the "i'm the happiest i could be" level
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oh well, i have responsibilities to uphold
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mumblingmiss 09/27/2022 2:17 PM
I'm here to talk if you ever want to. Pretty much feeling the same atm though I cant say much for how you're feeling
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Just take moments for yourself when you can
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i really appreciate it. i think i need therapy more than anything lol
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mumblingmiss 09/27/2022 2:18 PM
Feel that
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I can't provide therapy but I can provide chocolate cornflake clusters its my only alternative
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Just take moments for yourself when you can
the problem is that i can never be alone. i need to constantly be doing things with people to fill the void. if I'm alone with my thoughts, i just start sobbing. probably why i sleep so late bc i hate how much my mind throttles me
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I can't provide therapy but I can provide chocolate cornflake clusters its my only alternative
haha those are wonderful and we should definitely bake sometime
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mumblingmiss 09/27/2022 2:22 PM
That's where we're different and I'm not sure I can help much because I prefer to be alone. I hope you get the help you need and feel better soon
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throwing myself into my work. asking for as much overtime as my firm can manage so my head is filled with financial bullshit instead of any self-reflection
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can't be unhappy with the state of my life if I'm calculating other people's fortunes
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mumblingmiss 09/27/2022 2:23 PM
As I said, always here if you need me or if you find yourself alone and need something to cover the quiet you can always call me
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tysm CB, you really a gem. you guys are keeping me sane ngl
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mumblingmiss 09/27/2022 2:24 PM
Wouldn't be the same without you
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ik you like to be alone but same goes for you
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mumblingmiss 09/27/2022 2:24 PM
Thank you
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2/3 of the financial sector worker trifecta: crying at my desk and smoking a pack of cigarettes a day. only thing missing is doing cocaine on my breaks lol
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thankfully, I'm not quite rich enough for the 3rd one
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mumblingmiss 09/27/2022 2:26 PM
Yeah give that one a while
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idk how my father did this for 40 years. i suppose the "do it for the wife and kids" factor is really strong. I'm filling that with "do it so i can treat my friends"
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mumblingmiss 09/27/2022 2:30 PM
Your motivations are so sweet
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i actually had my v first deep conversation with him in my life yesterday evening. i called him up while he was overtiming at work and asked if it was normal to constantly want to walk out in front of a car. he told me "yes that's normal, I've had this feeling my entire adult life. it got worse after marrying your mother and having you. you get used to it" so umm yay
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he didn't even mean it maliciously lmao. it was just a "i can finally relate to smth you're going through" kind of vibe
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mumblingmiss 09/27/2022 2:32 PM
I hate to agree with him there bc it's a horrible thing but ive had that exact feeling for years and years and you actually kind of do get used to it
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lmao his whole advice for me was v much "make money, provide for your family, die knowing you tried"
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mumblingmiss 09/27/2022 2:34 PM
Papa Jory 🥺🥺
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i straight up asked him if he hates my mother and he went silent for a bit before dodging the question and reiterating the "no matter how you feel internally, you have to provide when you have people depending on you"
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thanks Father, hope i actually see you for more than half an hour a day next time i visit home
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mumblingmiss 09/27/2022 2:35 PM
I'm glad your dad has decent vibes though
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Father has terrible vibes and is definitely coping with lifelong, abysmal depression through alcoholism but hey, he's nice enough when i don't see him for months
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mumblingmiss 09/27/2022 2:37 PM
I mean decent vibes in comparison with your mother
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tbf the bar is in Hell when it comes to being nicer than my control freak of a mother
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mumblingmiss 09/27/2022 2:38 PM
Lmao
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when time travel is invented im offering a service to go back in time and adopt any of you
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mumblingmiss 09/27/2022 2:38 PM
I'm just working with what you've told me but also dont rely on me for vibe checks
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nah dw I'm just treating this channel as a free therapy soundboard lmao
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mumblingmiss 09/27/2022 2:39 PM
You're always welcome at my house if you need sanctuary
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We have nature, we have dog, and we have pizza
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actually thinking of going to church of all things. there's a wonderful cathedral 5 mins walk from me so i can sob amongst Catholic splendour while listening to the Bishop tell us Jesus loves us
14:42
ok intermittent sadness done, time to hyperfocus for the next hour until my shift is done
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mumblingmiss 09/27/2022 2:42 PM
Good luck
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For real lmk if you ever want to come over :))
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Bro your dad is a mood but also a highkey concern
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LoLo <3
Bro your dad is a mood but also a highkey concern
yeah that's the family spirit
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on the bright side, I'm back on track with my tasks bc i got 8 hours worth of work done in 1 hour
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mumblingmiss 09/27/2022 4:33 PM
Jealous of that skill
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it's not skill, it's unmedicated ADHD
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and profound amounts of anxiety
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mumblingmiss 09/27/2022 4:34 PM
I have the second one
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Not very useful without the first
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lmao anxiety is never really useful. I'm still shaking from my little mental sprint there
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but i understand how you feel 🫂
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mumblingmiss 09/27/2022 4:36 PM
Lmao holy shit that little anxiety rebound you get after you do something like you've held it off so here we go
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Proud of you though
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Confessions BOT 09/27/2022 7:09 PM
Anonymous Confession (#704)
"Crying in the mirror again body dysmorphia season really hit hard"
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Fuckboy Drag King 09/28/2022 8:38 PM
Just had a long ass argument with an old friend of mine, with him accusing me of being a shit friend and showing no respect and all the rest of it. Even though I tried to reach out to him and he constantly ignored me. Don't get me wrong, people drift apart but it just made me feel wretched that he's putting all the blame on me even though we are both equally to blame. Friendships are so difficult.
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mumblingmiss 09/28/2022 8:39 PM
Hope you're okay, that's so rough. Dealing with troubles like that in a friendship is horrible and upsetting, though its wrong for him to blame you for the entire thing. Here for you
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Just had a long ass argument with an old friend of mine, with him accusing me of being a shit friend and showing no respect and all the rest of it. Even though I tried to reach out to him and he constantly ignored me. Don't get me wrong, people drift apart but it just made me feel wretched that he's putting all the blame on me even though we are both equally to blame. Friendships are so difficult.
that's really horrible of him to do. friendships are a two-way street so he should have put the effort in as well. people drift apart but pinning it all on you is stupid
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especially since you tried to reach out as well
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Fuckboy Drag King 09/28/2022 8:47 PM
Ah bless you guys, it's fine. We're both to blame, we get what we deserve. Just needed to get it off my chest haha
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Sometimes people don’t want to let people in and it sucks but you made the effort you tried to be there for him and that’s important. I don’t know his situation and I’m sorry he took it out on you when you were trying to help. All relationships require everyone involved to actively be involved. That sucks when one person cares more than another and it can really hurt but it isn’t your fault that he chose to not confide in you. Yeah people drift apart but that doesn’t mean he needed to make it anyones fault yk?
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this place is cheaper than therapy i suppose lmao
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Fuckboy Drag King 09/28/2022 8:48 PM
This all happened after my session lmao or else I would've spoken to my therapist about it
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Just sucks we have a lot of mutual friends who don't want to make things awkward so they don't know what to do either
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It’s okay we’re here for you tho can’t promise to give the same quality of advice bc yk. We’re all fucked too?? (edited)
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mumblingmiss 09/28/2022 8:49 PM
True
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Need to remember to get my doc to sort out my cbt soon
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Just sucks we have a lot of mutual friends who don't want to make things awkward so they don't know what to do either
I've found that if you don't let things be awkward then they don't get awkward. people follow your lead when it comes to situations like this so act normally and you won't lose the mutual friends
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It’s okay we’re here for you tho can’t promise to give the same quality of advice bc yk. We’re all fucked too?? (edited)
wish i could make you all unfucked :( 🫂
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works 90% of the time. it takes some gritting your teeth but assure them that everything is fine on your end (if they ask) and it will eventually blow over
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Just sucks we have a lot of mutual friends who don't want to make things awkward so they don't know what to do either
Friends are friends for a reason. Just because there’s a rift between 2 people doesn’t mean the whole group falls apart. Just keep as close to where you’d normally be as you can make allowances if you need to if stuff does get weird but there shouldn’t need to be a problem
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wish i could make you all unfucked :( 🫂
Virginisation? I’m listening
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the strategy i used is denial
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the strategy i use is repression
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ive never had sex, anything contrary is slander
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the strategy i use is repression
Same
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mumblingmiss 09/28/2022 8:58 PM
Here to spend my time going off on people that post annoying shit on concrete confessions lmao they are my emotional punching bags
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my housemate ordered us food but I'm here smoking in my room instead. not quite a vibe lol
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Are you alright?
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Confessions BOT 09/29/2022 11:47 AM
Anonymous Confession (#707)
"Going about my day and hoping I get a brain aneurysm and die instantly"
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hope youre okay OP 🫂 here to talk or distract if you need it
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not to say mood but mood (sometimes)
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(often)
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Will (he/they) 09/29/2022 7:46 PM
so update on the whole sister thingy moms totally lost their shit last night (and it was kinda awesome tbh) and hopefully they got the memo
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aw good
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Will (he/they) 09/29/2022 7:49 PM
i mean our dogs and the snake don't even like the dude, let alone the rest of the family (edited)
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Confessions BOT 09/30/2022 11:20 PM
Anonymous Confession (#709)
"kinda felt ganged up my housemates today. Like I get I left my washing up there last night but I have genuinely had no time to sort it after I had my first actual home cooked meal in a week like I’m sorry my schedule has been so booked and I’m completely stressed out and this just hasn’t helped. But when I actually have 5 fucking minutes I’d sort it"
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mumblingmiss 10/01/2022 7:08 AM
I miss my cat so fucking much. The days are too quiet and lonely without him.
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dysphoria can fuck itself
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mumblingmiss 10/01/2022 3:20 PM
Fucked up my lip 🙄
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im ready to fight god
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as in fucking slay it
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Are you okay?
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long 24 hours
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very long 24 hours
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mumblingmiss 10/01/2022 4:13 PM
If it makes you feel any better I got hit in the face by the recycling bin lid and now my dad keeps making lip puns
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oh my god
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that fucking sucks
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im sorry
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are you okay?
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What kind of puns
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I’m really sorry that happened to you
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But also I wanna expand my pun vocabulary
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mumblingmiss 10/01/2022 4:14 PM
Yes I'm not leaving the house until its no longer visible
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He told me to 'stop giving him lip'
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And that the bin clipped me
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I believe he also said 'liperally' at one point
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Fuckin amazing lmao
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mumblingmiss 10/01/2022 4:19 PM
The funniest shit just had to happen the day after his birthday so I'm letting him get away with it
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Lmao birthday busted lip love that for you guys
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Confessions BOT 10/01/2022 6:38 PM
Anonymous Confession (#713)
"my boyfriend hit me last night"
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Anonymous Confession (#712)
"having a panic attack in the middle of the day is fun"
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Hey op I am really concerned about this, do you mind coming to talk to me in DMs so we can discuss this
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At no point should your boyfriend lay anyhands on you what so ever
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so annoyed that I strained my wrist and everything is like 10x more effort to let it rest but the part that annoys me most is dreading the reactions from all the condescending men at work
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Just fucking ignore them baby they’re not worth your time 🫂🫂
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Confessions BOT 10/02/2022 3:25 AM
Anonymous Confession (#714)
"i hate "gay culture". i hate meeting online and not in person, i hate hookup culture, i hate getting played. i just want to be happy"
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I mean, there's plenty of ways to meet people in person outside of "gay culture" as you put it. buy tickets to gigs, join a club, attend a society. Nothing is going to change in your life unless you take the steps to change it.
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I'm hoping the vent was spawned from the horrendous thoughts of a 3am breakdown but just in case it wasn't ^^^^^^^
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Confessions BOT 10/02/2022 3:53 PM
Anonymous Confession (#715)
"grateful for everyone I've met in my life but I'm not sure how much longer i can keep going"
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im sorry youre feeling like that op, please do reach out if you want to talk about it. things can feel hopeless, but you deserve better times, and if people can help bring them about then please let us try 🫂 if not, if you ever need a distraction, or someone to vent to, or anything at all, just say
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Confessions BOT 10/02/2022 5:36 PM
Anonymous Confession (#716)
"I think my boyfriend is abusive but I can’t leave because he’s all I have and I’m so attached to him"
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Hey op, please please please talk to me, I Promise you i will be confidential and I will be able to give you the ways of support
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You are in this server, you have us as well. Hang in there we are there for you ❤️
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17:39
Also my own vent: Fuck I miss liam so much
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I keep seeing things and just going, damn liam would've loved this and keep realising they are not there anymore
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Parts of me wants to reach out to them, but at the same time I am scared to
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im sorry, i dont know the full situation but from what i do know it seems really complicated
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Nothing you have to apologise for hun
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i cant say reaching out to them will work out perfectly, but with who you are and how you feel about them, id hope they would recognise the genuine intention and respond kindly
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They were my best friend
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i guess
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yknow
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its hard to let go of that
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of course if you are not comfortable pursuing that its completely valid, but i guess im optimistic that they would hopefully recognise your good intentions and respond pleasantly
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thats honestly fair
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Confessions BOT 10/02/2022 6:48 PM
Anonymous Confession (#717)
"dysphoria is just absolutely kicking my ass and alcohol, while it gives me a distraction, does not relieve it as much as i wouldve hoped"
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Twink Antony 10/02/2022 7:02 PM
To just reiterate what B said, here if you want someone to confide in/Support where I can x I can guarantee you though, if you look on this server there’s people here who care for you <3 (if you’re on here I do x)
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mumblingmiss 10/02/2022 7:07 PM
I feel so ugly right now
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Impossible
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Confessions BOT 10/02/2022 7:21 PM
Anonymous Confession (#718)
"just bought my first cigarette, feels shit im seeking chemical alleviation of dysphoria but it works a bit so 🤷‍♀️"
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Fuckboy Drag King 10/02/2022 7:24 PM
absolutely feel this lmfao, I can't say much without sounding hypocritical as everyone has their coping mechanisms, but please do take care of yourself. cigarettes are an expensive habit to kick
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We’re all here for you, we love you, we want you around. Please dm me if you want to talk or text me or anything I’m here for you I’m so sorry you’re struggling like this 🫂🫂
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Just bc you’re attached to someone doesn’t mean it’s healthy. We’re here for you if you need a support network please let us support you leaving people is hard but if you’re recognising patterns of abuse please let yourself get out before you get more hurt 🫂🫂🫂
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Also my own vent: Fuck I miss liam so much
I’d say message them, if you want to send them shit, do. They might not reply but making the attempt to bridge the gap has to be something one side does before the other. At least they’d know you’re thinking of them even if nothing comes from it. I’m so sorry Bran 🫂
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Is there anyone nearby you can talk to get distracted from it? Alcohol when you’re already not feeling great isn’t always the most helpful thing 🫂
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I feel so ugly right now
You are beautiful and wonderful and we love you very much 🫂🥺
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Confessions BOT 10/02/2022 7:49 PM
Anonymous Confession (#719)
"I'm completely ruining my lungs with cigarettes. i know this but the alternative is to go down even deeper into my depression spiral"
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here to talk if you want an OP 🫂
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Both of you w the cigarettes omg please be careful 🫂 spiralling is scary and do what you need to to cope but please message me if you need someone to talk to. I don’t know much about dysphoria or what you’re going through with anything right now but if you need support I’m here for you. Cigarettes are expensive and I hate to think so many of you are suffering 🫂🫂
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You are beautiful and wonderful and we love you very much 🫂🥺
mumblingmiss 10/02/2022 7:52 PM
Thank you but I just don't feel that way right now
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Its Stop-tober. Theres extra support around this month. Please seek out the resources available. Smoking is not a crutch you want to spend time leaning on
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Confessions BOT 10/02/2022 7:57 PM
Anonymous Confession (#720)
"not the same cigarette OP as the person with dysphoria but that's hitting me too again. i just hate my body so fucking much. born underdeveloped and stayed that way. idk everything just hurts when I'm not on some kind of substance"
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Anonymous Confession (#721)
"I'm going for a walk bc if i stay in my room I'm going to keep smoking or start doing lines. god my landlord is going to kill me"
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if either of you need a break or some company please let me know, im sorry youre having to deal with so much. i know it can feel awkward to reach out but if you do need anything please say, you dont deserve the feelings your brain are forcing upon you
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Confessions BOT 10/02/2022 8:00 PM
Anonymous Confession (#722)
"appreciate the support, i know its not a good habit but if it relieves my dyshphoria its a massive win compared to where else i feel id be heading"
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Op please talk to someone about that if you can that’s not comfy being on something all the time 🫂🫂
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That’s understandable but please be careful using addictive shit as a coping mechanism 🫂🫂
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you okay?
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disgustatorium 10/02/2022 11:33 PM
ye im fine dwdw
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Confessions BOT 10/03/2022 12:50 AM
Anonymous Confession (#723)
"TW suicide if I killed myself now no one would know for a few days lmao"
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skeletons of anxiety 10/03/2022 1:18 AM
yo op please dm me if you wanna talk, or try and find a professional or something, i'm not an expert but i've been through similar shit and i can guarantee you this just isn't the case. We're all here for you
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^ Op my messages are always open
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If you need to ring anyone please ring me anytime
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my computers discord notifications rumble my whole room down so I will always pick up
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To the people who are struggling with cigarette addictions: It’s okay, it’s really really hard and releasing the statement that you’re struggling with it is so massive and I’m so proud of you for that. Whenever you’re ready to let it go, there is support available and you can always chat to me about it who knows first hand what a cigarette addiction (and other substances) are like. I still struggle with it now tbh but it ebbs and flows, sometimes it’s so easy and other times it’s the hardest thing in the world to choose not to. You’ve declared your struggles here though, you know now that these lovely people as well as the professional services are there to help you without judgement. Whenever you’re ready, I’ll be here too. 💕
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You have a few days to yourself, talk to someone, anyone about it no one else will know if you’re on your own for a few days please let yourself have this. Normally when people feel like that, you don’t want to die you just want change you’re too afraid to seek yourself. At least take this first step op? Give someone an idea of where you’re at, let you get help
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mumblingmiss 10/03/2022 9:38 AM
Nah right this is the worst fucking day trying not to cry right now. Couldn't sleep, trainline would let me buy a ticket, fly went in my mouth, guy on the train took fucking ages to get to me so I could buy the ticket, missed my bus, then when I went to get on the next one the driver said to get on the one behind but then the one behind left and so did the first one so now I'm just fucking sat here gonna miss my lecture. May as well fuck off back home at this point I stg
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god that sounds horrible and it's fair that you want to cry. hopefully you can get notes from someone for the lecture but this early in the year, it's mostly just introductions. let us know if you're not too drained and want a pick me up in the form of coffee or smth. I'm not on campus rn but I'm sure other people are
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mumblingmiss 10/03/2022 9:45 AM
Thanks, lucky enough the wait gave me time to get a drink from AMT, I'm just ready to do my seminar and go home after all this
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just one good day, would be nice
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been a short while
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in fact id take an okay day
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or even a bad one
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just not one that just adds to everything else thats going on like a weight ready to snap my back
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Confessions BOT 10/03/2022 7:35 PM
Anonymous Confession (#726)
"alcohol not working the same it used to so now working on a mixture of brief relief until i can figure out how to get my shit together, open to suggestions"
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Invest in some bubbles that always makes me feel better
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you're building up a tolerance and most likely killing your liver, kiddo
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If you have anyone around or nearby that you could chill with for a couple hours, switching it out for something physically active or fun like a walk, game, tv etc could be good? Until around 10 ish and then you can convince yourself it’s too late to have a drink now anyway. I mean… that’s what I do mostly 😂
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Likewise, doing a small task or two that you need to do
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Confessions BOT 10/03/2022 7:57 PM
Anonymous Confession (#727)
"haha ty but my liver works had as is, im sure it can deal with the extra. still figuring out nicotine but seems to help a bit. not sure how much bubbles would help but ty for the suggestion lmao"
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Anonymous Confession (#728)
"i walk quite a lot as is, like a lot lot. still not 100% sure my doctors would be okay with me running just yet, they may hunt me down if i try"
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Anonymous Confession (#729)
"sorry i vent a lot rn, need to just deal with my shit rather than unload it on everyone else. tysm for being awesome people though ❤"
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Twink Antony 10/03/2022 8:27 PM
Googly eyes
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Put them on whatever causes you stress
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and instantly becomes a joke
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Lmao no that’s actually great
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Twink Antony 10/03/2022 8:32 PM
It works tbh
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proven effective
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skeletons of anxiety 10/03/2022 8:38 PM
Hell yea the Everything Everywhere All At Once strats
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Ooh I forgot! Get some rose tinted sunglasses, everything is better with those!
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Not even a problem op, hope you’re doing okay 🫂💕
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mumblingmiss 10/04/2022 6:38 AM
It's almost alarming how not subtle my brain is with my vivid dreams showing me exactly what I want in my life. Like I get it, I'm aware that's something I really want, you don't have to make me see it every night bc it's gonna take me a while to get there and living through it in my sleep just makes me feel sad that it's not real.
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Dreams like that suck I’m really sorry 🫂 make yourself a hot drink and get comfy idk shit that makes you feel good and try and ignore the parts of it that made you feel shit as much as you can. I’m here if you want to talk about shit, always 💗
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finally signed up for real therapy. let's see how this goes lol
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already feeling incredibly apprehensive and woozy about the idea of talking to a stranger but I'm out of any other ideas
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mumblingmiss
It's almost alarming how not subtle my brain is with my vivid dreams showing me exactly what I want in my life. Like I get it, I'm aware that's something I really want, you don't have to make me see it every night bc it's gonna take me a while to get there and living through it in my sleep just makes me feel sad that it's not real.
i completely understand that horrible feeling, it really does just sucker punch you right? maybe start listening to music or watching smth straight after waking up so you forget most of the details? it sort of works, tho the remnants of these are mostly the emotions which are harder to forget. if you need anything then I'm here 🫂
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would it be tacky of me to go through a couple cigarettes outside the therapist's office before i have to go in lol
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i completely understand that horrible feeling, it really does just sucker punch you right? maybe start listening to music or watching smth straight after waking up so you forget most of the details? it sort of works, tho the remnants of these are mostly the emotions which are harder to forget. if you need anything then I'm here 🫂
mumblingmiss 10/04/2022 11:06 AM
Thank you, it's just hard to have those fake memories in my head and realise I'm stuck without that reality. I'll try that though.
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mahariel
would it be tacky of me to go through a couple cigarettes outside the therapist's office before i have to go in lol
mumblingmiss 10/04/2022 11:08 AM
Also main character energy
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Thank you, it's just hard to have those fake memories in my head and realise I'm stuck without that reality. I'll try that though.
the happy ones tend to stick around for a while but after some time they'll start to lose their bite. if you remember the vivid fever dream i had a couple weeks ago that completely wrecked me? i still get a little sad when i remember it but it's no longer the stab to the heart it once was. the main thing is to keep yourself distracted so you don't have time to dwell on them
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mumblingmiss 10/04/2022 11:14 AM
Yeah I'm glad your dream doesnt hurt as much anymore. Just need to find a new coping mechanism for my vivid dreams bc I have them most nights. Thanks for being there for me
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Yeah I'm glad your dream doesnt hurt as much anymore. Just need to find a new coping mechanism for my vivid dreams bc I have them most nights. Thanks for being there for me
it sounds like bullshit but genuinely, a hot drink and immediate distraction with anything else
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I'm sure there are other ways but that's what works for me
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and always darling 🫂 you're always there when I'm having a bad day
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mahariel
finally signed up for real therapy. let's see how this goes lol
best of luck, i know it can be stressful but i hope it goes well 🫂
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best of luck, i know it can be stressful but i hope it goes well 🫂
thank you 🫂
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mahariel
finally signed up for real therapy. let's see how this goes lol
skeletons of anxiety 10/04/2022 12:41 PM
Ayo just gotta say Really hope this works out for you! Going to therapy is unironically the best choice I think I've ever made (and probably the only good one)
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Ayo just gotta say Really hope this works out for you! Going to therapy is unironically the best choice I think I've ever made (and probably the only good one)
aw tysm eddie 🫂 it definitely feels like an excellent choice. i have high hopes
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and you've made many great choices smh. don't sell yourself short
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skeletons of anxiety 10/04/2022 12:46 PM
nah, talking about my hyperfixations with my therapist is definitely the best one
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worth every penny
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hahaha sounds fun, looking forward to it
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tw: alcohol Managed to get through today so far without drinking. Admittedly not the same case with smoking, but we take small victories, and hope that said victory continues until i 'sleep'
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not a particularly negative vent but hey
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tw: alcohol Managed to get through today so far without drinking. Admittedly not the same case with smoking, but we take small victories, and hope that said victory continues until i 'sleep'
addictions are hell to beat but I'm so proud of you for getting through today without drinking. every hour that passes without alcohol is another step to recovering 🫂
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i may be optimistic but i live in hope it isnt exactly an addiction, instead just a flare up of less than healthy tendancies
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idk much about this stuff though so i may be making it sound less concerning that it is
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either way tysm 🫂
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tw: alcohol Managed to get through today so far without drinking. Admittedly not the same case with smoking, but we take small victories, and hope that said victory continues until i 'sleep'
Proud of you 💗
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I just had an inconsolable breakdown
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and im like
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processing everything
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Talking to someone who was involved somewhat in the reason for it, but knowing there back in my life again
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helped me alot
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its weird
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Confessions BOT 10/05/2022 3:52 AM
Anonymous Confession (#733)
"Fuck I am so in love with this person and I am literally dreaming of all the ways to show them"
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I just had an inconsolable breakdown
hope youre okay 🫂
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Will (he/they) 10/05/2022 7:50 AM
same op
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mumblingmiss 10/06/2022 6:53 AM
Really don't wanna leave the house today, gang. What an annoying feeling.
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you okay?
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mumblingmiss 10/06/2022 7:20 AM
Just my stupid anxiety getting to me, haven't been sleeping very well lately so probably just that. I'll be fine, I'll just report myself absent
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honestly fair, hope youre okay and take care of yourself 🫂
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When you open the last document for your reading and it's 32 pages long then you have to do the portfolio assignment
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Debatable if I'll be able to come to the bar later:(
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LoLo <3
When you open the last document for your reading and it's 32 pages long then you have to do the portfolio assignment
ahh that fucking sucks. get through as much as you can and remember to take breaks
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Waking up to a panic attack was not the start to my Saturday morning I wanted but ig it’s the start of my Saturday morning I got. Happy too fucking early everyone 💗
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im sorry, are you okay?
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mumblingmiss 10/08/2022 7:40 AM
That's horrible, please try to rest and relax today. Have some cups of tea and watch your favourite show/movie. I hope you're okay, please feel free to message me at any time I'd you need to talk. 🫂
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Confessions BOT 10/08/2022 6:41 PM
Anonymous Confession (#740)
"TW: Suicide I nearly killed myself last night. I haven't felt suicidal in a few months and it just washed over me about 3am last night. And what made it worse is that nobody would know for sometime that I had died."
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im sorry op, here if you do want to chat
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jesus op I'm so sorry
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and i think its worth remembering that even if people didnt know you died, people would probably still realise you are less active. if you are in this server, youre cherished, and even if im not personally close with you, doesnt mean i - or anyone here - never will be, and we're here for you if you ever need to vent, or need a distraction, or literally anything 🫂
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i don't know what you're going through but as someone who has dealt with such things before, it's hell to deal with, but you have to find the little things that keep you going. reiterating everything erin just said but feel free to reach out if you ever need anything
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mumblingmiss 10/08/2022 9:37 PM
Ah yes I love it when an ex you haven't spoken to in god knows how long has a couple drinks and messages you to argue about why you broke up with them. Honey, this is one of the reasons.
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your ex is a little shit who doesn't deserve you
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mumblingmiss 10/08/2022 9:54 PM
Yeah hope he gets that hint soon
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Confessions BOT 10/08/2022 11:54 PM
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"It's hard to not feel suicidal when you're alone? And when you don't have anything really to keep you going anymore. It used to be friends n that, but now I feel that I don't necessarily have any, and I was always the black sheep of my family. I sat in the middle of the road smoking and thought, hey, it wouldn't be so bad if something hit me. Even though it wouldn't kill me, it'd be enough to feel something again, you know?"
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Confessions BOT 10/09/2022 12:59 AM
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"Just want to die, just want to die just want to die just want to die"
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I don't know who you are but I will find you and I will hug you and I will make sure you feel loved ❤️
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Confessions BOT 10/09/2022 3:21 AM
Anonymous Confession (#746)
"lowering your standards for one night to avoid something uncomfortable. This bitch right here"
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OP if you do ever want a distraction, please do reach out. I understand that things can just feel overwhelming and that there may not be an opportunity to feel right or good again, and while I don't know your exact situation, sometimes that loop of shitty thoughts can be broken - or at least given a break - by the most random things
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I'm far from an expert on these things, but I have been in somewhat similar situations (I think), and if you do want to chat, or want to know of places to reach out to, or vent, or literally anything at all, please do say. There won't be any judgement or pushing you to do something uncomfortable, I don't think anyone here would ever do anything like that, but we are here for you in any capacity if you ever want it
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mumblingmiss 10/09/2022 10:04 AM
^^^ we're all here for you. Please feel free to talk to us at any time
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mumblingmiss 10/09/2022 5:55 PM
I really need to shower bc I have uni tomorrow but I'm deeply uncomfortable with myself right now. It's been a while since I've felt this way and I don't remember how I used to deal with it
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sorry you're going through this, low lights/candles maybe?
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you can shower but can't see much
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mumblingmiss 10/09/2022 5:58 PM
That might help a bit it's just a hard feeling to deal with
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ofc, i suggest slowly working yourself up to it while keeping yourself mildly distracted
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There’s no reason you have to have the lights on to shower, you can always play music as a distraction
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i literally cant shower without music, absolute life saver. something you like to tap your foot to or sing along to often helps me, so you can focus on the music and just do everything else semi-automatically
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hamilton used to be that for me lmao
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mumblingmiss 10/09/2022 6:03 PM
Thanks guys
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mumblingmiss 10/09/2022 6:35 PM
The no lights trick really helped me out, thank you again
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Glad you’re managing alright 🫂
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Confessions BOT 10/10/2022 12:28 AM
Anonymous Confession (#748)
"how do you calm yourself down from wanting to punch a wall"
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Anonymous Confession (#749)
"god i was doing so well and now my will to live has fallen off a cliff again"
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Just sit and breathe op I promise it’ll be okay I’m sorry you’re feeling like this but it too will pass. Ik the time stamp and sometimes after midnight like that if you feel that bad it’s normally a good cue to try and get some rest I’m sorry I was not awake to reply to this before now 🫂 I hope you’re okay you can always message me if you need anything
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so sudden burst of gender euphoria last night lasted only a very short while
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oh im still horny (edited)
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good to know
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how much EDM can i listen to on full volume before my eardrums explode
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mumblingmiss 10/10/2022 4:54 PM
Alright pretty pissed off now so just gonna pop this in here. Got off the train at cromer like I usually do and walking past one of the shelters at the station this teen girl points right at me and goes she was staring at me on the train this morning like why the fuck are you staring at me and you know what that fucked me off. I didn't stare at fucking anyone and anyone that's met me knows I glance around at my surrounding a lot it's my little anxiety habit I can't help it and when I'm on the train I try not to look out the window too much bc of my motion sickness. But there's not chance I'd stare at that little piece of shit teen who I remember sat with her feet up on the other seat phone basically merging with her face. Some of us don't stare at our phones for 45 minutes get over yourself you selfish little bitch
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Alright pretty pissed off now so just gonna pop this in here. Got off the train at cromer like I usually do and walking past one of the shelters at the station this teen girl points right at me and goes she was staring at me on the train this morning like why the fuck are you staring at me and you know what that fucked me off. I didn't stare at fucking anyone and anyone that's met me knows I glance around at my surrounding a lot it's my little anxiety habit I can't help it and when I'm on the train I try not to look out the window too much bc of my motion sickness. But there's not chance I'd stare at that little piece of shit teen who I remember sat with her feet up on the other seat phone basically merging with her face. Some of us don't stare at our phones for 45 minutes get over yourself you selfish little bitch
people are so weird, hope that didn't weigh on your mind too much. she should definitely get over herself
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Fuckboy Drag King 10/10/2022 10:50 PM
Small vent of: The ADD in me loves being busy, especially when it's stuff I love/enjoy doing, but jfc where did all my time go? I literally have people asking me "oh when can we hang out?" and I literally have to check a schedule and fit them in hourly. I almost miss year 2 me, that bastard had 95% more free time than me and I'm almost jealous of that.
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I feel that so fuckin hard I love being busy but I miss last year already like my next fully free day is the 28th like what?? Just gotta get into a routine ig but it is kinda sucky 🫂 glad you have that many people around you who want to spend time w you tho that’s always a fun
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Confessions BOT 10/11/2022 9:27 AM
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"The ear ringing is back, which sucks. Sealing with it how I deal with everything else, but just another thing to add onto the pressure"
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hope youre having fun, but do try to take care of yourselves. if needed, book in a slot with me where you lay down in a bookable room on campus or something while i bring you food and drink from the shop and cafes, youre amazing people who do a lot, but if you need a break, try to find a time to, you more than deserve it
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mumblingmiss 10/11/2022 5:47 PM
Didn't know where to put this. Does anyone else here have someone in their family where they truly have no idea how in the hell you're related? Like your traits are so completely different and opposite and it's not just from you but from the rest of your family as well.
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id say yes but im the one who i have no idea how im related to the rest of my family
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That counts
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I think
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mumblingmiss 10/11/2022 5:48 PM
Fair lmao
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Like one of my brothers, he's not mentally ill like the rest of us and he's loud and big-headed. E.g. I'm just sitting here in the corner of the living room watching stuff on my laptop earphones in room quiet and him and his gf are now watching TV in my parents bedroom which is weird I know they're sleeping there til Friday but they still have a working TV upstairs. Like I have my quiet atmosphere and he don't get that yk?? Just wondered if anyone else deals with something like that (edited)
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I'm trying to maintain my vibe
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Not angry just like eww imagine making noise
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The med centre never sent off my prescription for another epipen:(
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mumblingmiss 10/11/2022 6:03 PM
That fucked up
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Is there any way you can get it rushed
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(also just realised I was basically complaining about extroverts lmao)
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Nah sorry I’m not trying to piggyback your vent
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I’m just annoyed I gave them a week the person who I called just didn’t do anything:(
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mumblingmiss 10/11/2022 6:17 PM
No don't worry yours is way more important
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They need to get that sorted asap
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I need to call them again:(
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are you okay?
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Gonna have to do it tomorrow tho bc they close before I get out of Spanish:(
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Yeah it’s just annoying
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I don’t need them both if I have something w nuts in but it takes forever to get one and Blehhh
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that fucking sucks
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hope you can get the other one asap
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yeah thats fair, still it shouldnt be something so awkward to deal with
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^^ especially since it's literally life-saving
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joking about it bc otherwise i start having an existential crisis
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why don't images work in confessions
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i think mine just worked
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i just did /confess confession:(text) attachment:(attachment)
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huh ok next time then haha ty ty
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Confessions BOT 10/11/2022 7:53 PM
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"test"
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ty overlord bran
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joking about it bc otherwise i start having an existential crisis
obviously dont push stuff youre uncomfortable with, but if you do ever want to chat about this, just say 🫂
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obviously dont push stuff youre uncomfortable with, but if you do ever want to chat about this, just say 🫂
i really appreciate it, might take you up on it. i just have no idea what my head wants lol
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honestly fair, just try to remember you don't have to figure this out until you want to
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it's so weird. irl i hate the idea of anyone referring to me as a man bc of how feminine i appear. but here i am, calling myself everyone's dad and my brain just goes "serotonin!! serotonin!!!!"
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Amelia - iced coffee enthusiast 10/11/2022 8:10 PM
gender is weird
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ofc there's tonnes more to it that stretches back to my earliest childhood memories but that's the first funny thing i thought of
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Amelia - iced coffee enthusiast
gender is weird
100%
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if i could shapeshift and swing between masculine and feminine on a whim then i would the happiest person on earth
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what i used to do was note down if i felt more feminine, masculine or androgynous each day to figure out how i was questioning and what mightve made me feel as such each day
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far from a perfect system but after questioning my gender for years it helped break it a little bit. experimeninting a bit also helped figure stuff out
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mumblingmiss 10/11/2022 8:15 PM
I wish I was androgynous 😩
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and i suppose even if you dont know your gender but certain things make you feel better than others, you can always ask people youre comfortable with to try those things, even if its not to figure out your gender, if it makes you happy thats all that matters
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sorry not sure how helpful this stuff is
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gender? i hardly know her this shit can be hard to figure out
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this is so sweet and v v helpful
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tysm erin 🫂
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think I'll try the noting down method and see which way it leans
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gender is a fuck you just gotta try out some stuff see what you vibe with
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mumblingmiss 10/11/2022 8:18 PM
Fuck gender
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Amelia - iced coffee enthusiast 10/11/2022 8:18 PM
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mumblingmiss 10/11/2022 8:18 PM
But I get where you coming from tho
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Like I don't wanna be masc and I'm fine being fem but there is a lot of times where its like let me be neither
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if you wanna be neither you can just be neither if you decide that's what's for you then fuck anyone who says otherwise
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fuck gender, all my homies are Biblically accurate angels
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i mean i cant promise ill always be perfect with it straight away but if anyone wants me to try different names, titles or pronouns for them, just lmk
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maybe you only wanna be neither some of the time, that's cool too
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^^^
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skeletons of anxiety 10/11/2022 8:21 PM
my pronouns are nothing, do not perceive or address me, is the current mood
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no pronouns, do not refer
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also worth remembering that expression doesnt always have to match identity, there are times where i act more stereotypically 'masculine', and lots of times where i felt a lot more androgynous
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that's v true
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mumblingmiss 10/11/2022 8:22 PM
I'm kinda building up to pronoun change rn like get myself used to it before putting it out yk
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always happy to change to your preferred pronouns when you want to
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mumblingmiss 10/11/2022 8:22 PM
I'm the kind of person who forgets their own pronouns lmao
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Its so nice having a group of people to discuss this with
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here if you ever wanna chat 🫂
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yeah it's really nice knowing that i won't be judged for any of this here
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fuck gender, all my homies are Biblically accurate angels
Badgers at Dawn (he/him) 10/11/2022 8:25 PM
The best aesthetic
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i'm always down to talk about weird gender shit
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Badgers at Dawn (he/him)
The best aesthetic
LMAO "i have 2 million eyes all over my body and you're wondering about my gender?"
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mumblingmiss 10/11/2022 8:26 PM
Don't ask me about my gender, ask me about my cool af pins
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LMAO "i have 2 million eyes all over my body and you're wondering about my gender?"
Badgers at Dawn (he/him) 10/11/2022 8:27 PM
Don’t forget the 6 wings 😂
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Badgers at Dawn (he/him)
Don’t forget the 6 wings 😂
6 wings? wow KFC are really skimping nowadays
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cant wait to make some nephilims
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Amelia - iced coffee enthusiast 10/11/2022 8:28 PM
no gender. only lovecraft
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ah yes
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tentacles
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the great gender equaliser
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mmm, non-visible wavelengths of the electromagnetic spectrum and geometry on spheres, so spooky howard
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Amelia - iced coffee enthusiast 10/11/2022 8:29 PM
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Ripfangs
mmm, non-visible wavelengths of the electromagnetic spectrum and geometry on spheres, so spooky howard
non-euclidean geometry, my beloved
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Amelia - iced coffee enthusiast 10/11/2022 8:32 PM
transgender? no, you misunderstand... i am trans-dimensional
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the dream
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skeletons of anxiety 10/11/2022 8:35 PM
wait this is just zoe from monster prom
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transgender? no, you misunderstand... i am trans-dimensional
transcendent (edited)
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am I trans? yeah im trans. transhumanist. im trying 2 get a robot brain over here
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Amelia - iced coffee enthusiast 10/11/2022 8:38 PM
yes! robot limbs!
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hey apparently it’s Coming Out Day
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perfect timing
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my cyberpunk dreams are finally being realised
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Amelia - iced coffee enthusiast 10/11/2022 8:41 PM
dont need to shave my legs every day if it is made of metal
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would u replace ur left leg or ur right leg first
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(u cannot afford both at once because it is the dystopian future)
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Amelia - iced coffee enthusiast 10/11/2022 8:43 PM
uhhhh
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flip a coin?
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left leg bc then I'd be all right
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Amelia - iced coffee enthusiast 10/11/2022 8:44 PM
atleast fictional dystopias have the decency to look cool
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our real life dystopia doesnt have a cool aesthetic
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it just looks like shit
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its up to us to change that. by making the world cooler looking, not a better place ofc
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mumblingmiss 10/11/2022 8:45 PM
I'd replace one toe
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Amelia - iced coffee enthusiast 10/11/2022 8:46 PM
hell why do i have to replace anything? think outside the box and just give add to my exisitng limbs
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or get doc ock tentacles
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i am so very very drained suddenly
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i get why but the temptation to just keeping going rather then resting is a bit annoying, like my brain says basic self care but my body says fuck off you can still get some stuff done
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gonna get some sleep anyway because fuck my body its shit anyway it knows nothing
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always listen to your body
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hope you sleep well darling
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Amelia - iced coffee enthusiast 10/11/2022 8:56 PM
yes sleep well!
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my body is the one telling me to keep going lol
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oh then do not listen to your body haha
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Amelia - iced coffee enthusiast 10/11/2022 8:56 PM
think of it like the needs bars in the sims!
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you need to sleep
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Amelia - iced coffee enthusiast
think of it like the needs bars in the sims!
perfect
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i think of it as asserting dominance over a worthless lump of flesh that imprisons my conciousness and at times, for no reason, decides to fuck with me in inexplicable, often needlessly complicated ways, just to see what ill do
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or begging it to stop, depending on my mood, being a switch and all
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Darling get some sleep 🫂
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just realised microsoft teams is doing a client side deadname every time i open it, so thats annoying
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Can you not change the name you have on there?
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it is erin, its just because i had the app downloaded before my name changed. i just need to uninstall and reinstall, just was a bit of a jab
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I’m so sorry baby 🫂🫂
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im fine, its not that it fucks me over entirely, just irritates a bit
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mumblingmiss 10/12/2022 8:18 PM
People that go around the house leaving lights and shit on 😩😩😩 die
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Disrespectfully, perish.
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mumblingmiss 10/13/2022 11:47 AM
Curveballing one temptation by giving in to a completely different temptation that is significantly better 😅
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what's the temptation?
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mumblingmiss 10/13/2022 12:31 PM
I replaced getting a piercing with ordering fish and chips lmao
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Panic attacks at work aaaaaaa
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Confessions BOT 10/14/2022 4:08 PM
Anonymous Confession (#759)
"days like this, i wonder if happiness is a myth made up to make you feel better"
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therapy did nothing. i just paid to complain about things for an hour and then left miserable lol
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My therapist traumatised me more lmao
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turns out she can't diagnose me so i don't see the point of it
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whole hour was just "i want to die" "no"
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im sorry 🫂 i wish they couldve helped more, here if you do want to talk at any point (I don't charge, but I'm also shit at advice)
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lmao ty erin but you already do far too much for me
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mahariel
therapy did nothing. i just paid to complain about things for an hour and then left miserable lol
Oh darling I’m so sorry 🫂🫂 I’m here if you need anything?
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i basically do nothing, but the offer stands, youre an amazing person and if you need support people are here for you ❤
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i showed up to her office in my Spectrum outfit bc the turnaround to get to pres was so tight so i wonder wtf she thought of me lmao
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Youre about as fine, as a piece of ham left in the sun in the sahara desert for 3 weeks
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Amelia - iced coffee enthusiast 10/14/2022 4:38 PM
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me, dressed in a suit and harness (tried to look a bit more modest by buttoning up the blazer): so doc, i hate myself but i also think I'm a god. birth is a curse and existence is a prison her:
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mahariel
me, dressed in a suit and harness (tried to look a bit more modest by buttoning up the blazer): so doc, i hate myself but i also think I'm a god. birth is a curse and existence is a prison her:
I HATE
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THE FACT
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I FEEL CALLED OUT
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BY THIS
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Youre about as fine, as a piece of ham left in the sun in the sahara desert for 3 weeks
perhaps.
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LoLo <3
Oh darling I’m so sorry 🫂🫂 I’m here if you need anything?
it's alright, i just need to get my head down and deal with it
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thank you though, all of you
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mahariel
it's alright, i just need to get my head down and deal with it
I mean mood but I’m here if you’re going through it, this shit is easier with a bit of support 💗
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Also hear for all of you as always
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Amelia - iced coffee enthusiast 10/14/2022 4:42 PM
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Here in whatever capacity you need 💗 @ all of you
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love how i kept apologising to her for wasting her time and complaining too much and she replied that it was literally her job
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mumblingmiss 10/14/2022 4:44 PM
Can I punch her in the throat
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why??
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mumblingmiss 10/14/2022 4:44 PM
Why not
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she was lovely, just don't think it was the help i need
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mumblingmiss 10/14/2022 4:45 PM
Ah okay I retract sorry
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I hope you do get the right help soon though, you don't deserve to be stuck with the wrong help
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fixing my mental health by fully leaning into the delusions of grandeur
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mahariel
fixing my mental health by fully leaning into the delusions of grandeur
Ahhh mood
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but are they really delusions if you actually are amazing?
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but are they really delusions if you actually are amazing?
The twink has a point
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thanks kiddo, i appreciate it haha
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I'm just in a really shitty downturn today i suppose
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disappointed in myself and just wish my mind and the whole world would stop for a while
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mumblingmiss 10/14/2022 4:48 PM
Wish I was up there so I could treat you or smth
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🫂 appreciate that too. but I'll be fine
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need to tactically cry so the switch flips and I'm back to mania
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i just wish i didn't feel like such a doormat
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mumblingmiss 10/14/2022 5:21 PM
Sorry if my responses or messages are a bit off for a while, I'm dealing with unresolved trauma right now because of the time of year so I'm trying my best
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here if you need anything 🫂
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Sorry if my responses or messages are a bit off for a while, I'm dealing with unresolved trauma right now because of the time of year so I'm trying my best
I feel you darling I’m sorry you’re dealing with that 🫂 always here if you want to talk 💗
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sorry you're going through that 💛 we're all here for you
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yesterday was hell and now I'm stuck in a limbo of dissociation (edited)
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it's really weird, my paranoia is amping up. i have these deeply ingrained superstitions where if certain things happen before i do smth then I'm not meant to do it
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like if I'm planning to go somewhere and my shoelaces come undone, or i get my rings on the wrong fingers, my contacts hurt when i put them in, i forget my watch, and a multitude of other small things, then it's God giving me signs not to go
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all of that happened yesterday before Spectrum and i ignored them. any time i ignore these signs, things end up going wrong
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soooo yeah lol
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im sorry youre having to deal with that, is there anything we can do to help?
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hell, my bus sped away when i was just about to reach the stop
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not really, i just become a bit too religious when my emotional state is not great
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everything has to be perfect before i feel comfortable going somewhere but the time pressures of yesterday really fucked up my routines
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i was exhausted and having an internal meltdown on the way to pres lol
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my mind keeps repeating that I'm being punished for every act I've committed against God's wishes
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Your head’s in a fucky place. You talked to the person about some deep shit it’s understandably going to mess with your head somewhat. I understand the superstition, I really do but please forgive yourself for not being able to get everything right first time you’re going through a lot right now, and it’s okay. You were okay at spectrum nothing bad happened? Take it easy, you’re okay this will pass and you’ll feel better. Don’t put too much pressure on yourself for everything to be perfect, okay is plenty enough 🫂
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that's the thing though, i need everything to be perfect or the fear that something bad will happen absolutely paralyses me
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sounds like you could do with a chill self care day, at your own pace and hopefully just break gradually back into some sense of normality? any way you can find some time to do that over the next couple of days?
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it's why i was drinking so much yesterday. thought the alcohol would get the sheer paranoia out of my mind and give me a brief respite
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mahariel
it's why i was drinking so much yesterday. thought the alcohol would get the sheer paranoia out of my mind and give me a brief respite
I did the same, it doesn’t work and I’m sorry I should’ve noticed something was off I was too caught up in my own problems 🫂
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I'm far too busy to do that I'm afraid. i need my routines to keep myself in check
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LoLo <3
I did the same, it doesn’t work and I’m sorry I should’ve noticed something was off I was too caught up in my own problems 🫂
you had absolutely no responsibility to notice. please don't blame yourself for this, you've had a rough couple of days
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this is just how i am
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mahariel
I'm far too busy to do that I'm afraid. i need my routines to keep myself in check
That’s fair, maybe just little breaks in your work day that let you do what you need to do to unstress?
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diet autism or smth deeper idk lol
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mahariel
you had absolutely no responsibility to notice. please don't blame yourself for this, you've had a rough couple of days
No but I should have done I’m really sorry. We can’t always take turns to have bad days but that doesn’t mean I’m not there for you when we’re both struggling 🫂🫂
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LoLo <3
No but I should have done I’m really sorry. We can’t always take turns to have bad days but that doesn’t mean I’m not there for you when we’re both struggling 🫂🫂
hey, seriously it's fine. i was being stupid and getting caught up in my religious paranoia. nothing you could have changed
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I'm caught between wanting to listen to these signs bc otherwise i freak the fuck out and needing to do the various obligations i have
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Maybe not change but ease at least. I'm here for you Jory I care about you
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thank you, i care about you deeply too
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skeletons of anxiety 10/14/2022 6:23 PM
ay gang gang protect jory squad you're wonderful and deserve to feel safe fam
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it's really just one of those things that will be ever-present. my routines, my signs, my need for perfection from both
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trying to mitigate them but not listening to the signs really doesn't work out well and always leaves tornado sirens blaring in my mind
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haha thanks eddie, appreciate it
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skeletons of anxiety 10/14/2022 6:24 PM
ay it's fine, mental funk like that is always gonna be something to live with but it never has to define you
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mahariel
it's really just one of those things that will be ever-present. my routines, my signs, my need for perfection from both
They are but we can try and find ways to make them more bearable if you think that's something that's possible and might help? I know it's scary to push through and do things anyway when your brain is telling you not to, I'm proud of you for being able to fight back against your head when it gets like that
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ahhh the problem is that the signs are always right
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when i ignore the signs, smth bad always happens or smth goes wrong
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once again, entirely blame my mother lmao. she also has her own set of superstitions that she forced onto me. her reasoning was that if i don't stick to these superstitions, then she will die
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this sounds hilarious from an outside perspective but the number 3 terrifies me. she always made me do things 4 times bc 3 is a bad number which will make someone die
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honestly i get more out of yelling into the void of this vents channel than my therapy session yesterday lol. my brain is blaming that on the fact that i showed up to her office at 7:03
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Okay FUCK mummy Jory I have to do things in 3s bc it's just the good number
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Like I always have to eat 3 wotsits at a time or it's wrong lmao
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fair enough lol
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mahariel
honestly i get more out of yelling into the void of this vents channel than my therapy session yesterday lol. my brain is blaming that on the fact that i showed up to her office at 7:03
I'm glad we can help even if it's just by listening 🫂 I'm sorry yesterday didn't do anything for you
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ah dw about it, I'm just being dramatic
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my self esteem has dropped back down to being non-existent
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You're? Allowed to be dramatic?
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Oh darling I'm sorry
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I'm just kind of feeling humilated and drained. waiting for the switch flip so i can go back to being an uncaring narcissist
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Just saw an old photo of me and Liam on my computer saver screen I didn’t delete
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And now I’m crying
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Fuck
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fuck dude that's always horrible to be jumped with
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anything i can do?
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I'm so sorry both of you oh my god
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It has not been our week huh
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my week has been good overall. just last night and today fucking me up
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Can I like wrap you both up in a blanket for a few days?
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lmao save that for sandman tonight
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Fair lol
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bran we'll distract you and get your mind off what you saw
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Just have a chill night and not think about things (besides making fun of Jory wanting to fuck Corinthian)
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The only person I'll accept wearing sunglasses to that extent is Erin
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someone say sunglasses
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Omg we were planning earlier how hard do you think it'd be to get a glasses rack like they have in opticians for a wall?
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easy if we make it a pride social
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i doubt I'll go to another pride social
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We're NOT storming specsavers
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LoLo <3
We're NOT storming specsavers
Amelia - iced coffee enthusiast 10/14/2022 6:48 PM
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mumblingmiss 10/14/2022 6:56 PM
Why are we all so fucked up we don't deserve this god is a cunt
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mahariel
bran we'll distract you and get your mind off what you saw
Thanks
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I just
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Miss them
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A lot
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And it didn’t end well and yeah
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Confessions BOT 10/14/2022 6:57 PM
Anonymous Confession (#760)
"Is it odd that I have so many people who care about me but still feel lonely because one person doesn't?"
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Sometimes when all you want is that one person it can feel almost isolating with everything and everyone else. It's not odd, you just want their attention that's understandable. Is there any way you could maybe reach out to them and maybe organise to do something together actually know that you will have a segment of their time undivided with you?
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Fuckboy Drag King 10/14/2022 7:25 PM
Well, not to add to the already down energy but I got diagnosed with an eating disorder yesterday. Very fun. Can't help but feel like those scenes in scooby doo like "i would've gotten away with it if not for those fucking blood tests"
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I was donating blood last week and they obviously have to check it for diseases etc etc to make sure if its given to a donor it ain't going to kill them right? Well, my GP contacts me to let me know I have an appointment with a dietician, I'm surprised but agree. My blood sugar was dangerously low apparently, she then asks me questions and whacks out a massive booklet for me to work through to get over my fear of food. Which is like. Damn. I never thought it was that bad until people point it out, you know?
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Anyway vent done lmao, I was just cooking myself dinner which is already a rarity and realised how terrified of pasta I was. I haven't eaten pasta in a year? More than? Madness
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im so sorry, this kind of thing is difficult to deal with, but we're here for you if you ever need anything or want to talk 🫂
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Eating is an interesting one. I'm really sorry you're struggling with that as much as you are, I've been there and it's fucking horrible. If you need support at any point I'm here, I'll help if I can, whatever capacity that takes. It was bread for me not pasta but I can promise you recovery is possible and so so worth it
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Fuckboy Drag King 10/14/2022 7:33 PM
Hey it's all good, all part of the journey to recovery ig. I just hadn't realised how much it had manifested itself in my life. Like, I don't let myself drink anything except vodka/gin because it has no carbohydrates and less calories than anything else. Same with lower sugar energy drinks, coffee, then into skipping meals and all sorts.
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Absolutely part of the journey. Just never realised it was a problem until someone points at your blood stats and says, "that's not right" and it sort of stunned me.
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Because even now I hate my body (probably a nice bit of dysphoria in there but that's not the point), even though I'm the lightest I've ever been, it's still not enough. When I started uni I was hefty, about 84 kilos, I'm now down to 70 and all my head says is that 10 more then it'll be 60. Then I'll be thin enough, thin enough to be more masculine looking, thin enough to be good enough, you know?
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Lovely stuff just needed to get it off my chest lmfao
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hope it feels a bit better now that you have, dysphoria is awful and im sorry that it leaks into stuff like this too. you seem to have a good mindset about it being part of the journey, just remember people are here to help however we can, and its never an inconvinience
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also remember that you're 6ft tall and need food for energy with all the exercise you do
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Fuckboy Drag King 10/14/2022 7:39 PM
That's what the dietician said lmao and I was just like, yeah but it's not an excuse, I can manage on less and she just shook her head at me. Felt like I was being very carefully told off
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the booklet will probably help a lot more than any advice i can give but it's a difficult mindset to break out of. the thing about building muscles is that it's a lot harder without getting enough of all the food groups, including carbs. all of these things are necessary to build tissue. even if you don't jump into the deep end and go straight for pasta, you can explore carbs that are more appetising to you first
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rice works with basically anything that has some sauce to it
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This shit usually stems from self hate and wanting fundamental shit to change. When I was in the depths of mine it was allll about the numbers not even weight necessarily but like calories and shit? But passing out from exercise is fucking scary and even if you think you can handle less the way it affects your body? That's not something you want to fuck around with. I ended up doing a course on nutrition before I came to uni so I knew the basics if I needed to pull myself out of that kind of place and despite occasional relapses when I feel really bad yk it does help to have guidelines from someone qualified to help you. You're good enough just the way you are you don't need to hurt yourself thin doesn't equal good
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rice, fried spam, soy sauce, your beloved fried eggs, and some optional seaweed sheets is an example of a super simple meal that you can make in 10 minutes but has some of that stuff your blood needs
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And yeah rice is good and eggs is probably not a bad shout
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actually, what Lo said is more helpful
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dont want to talk about food too much in case its offputting but eggs were my lifeline when i struggled with eating, very easy to have in a variety of ways and easy to mix with something else
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your mind won't agree but here to shout about how your body is more than good enough just the way you are
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Fuckboy Drag King 10/14/2022 7:46 PM
Yeah hopefully. Just so terrified of gaining weight I guess. It's always what made sex so off putting too, like good god why would anyone want to see this body? It's incomplete? It's not where it should be so why would it be good enough?
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Thank you all though, I know eating issues are somewhat common and in an odd way I'm glad that you guys have some experience with this
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dont want to talk about food too much in case its offputting but eggs were my lifeline when i struggled with eating, very easy to have in a variety of ways and easy to mix with something else
Fuckboy Drag King 10/14/2022 7:47 PM
Tbh eggs are all I lived off for a long time lmao because it was the only food I didn't have any stigma towards
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muscles weigh more than fat and that seems to be what you're going for. it's not about what's on the scale, it's about your personal goals for how you want parts of your body to look. i really understand hating your body but just know that simply bc it's not at your ideal, it doesn't mean it's not already amazing
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Yeah hopefully. Just so terrified of gaining weight I guess. It's always what made sex so off putting too, like good god why would anyone want to see this body? It's incomplete? It's not where it should be so why would it be good enough?
this is a massive mood, i cant give much advice on this but when im having good moments i usually put off that kinda dysphoria by just thinking 'how my body is right now is temporary, as a being im more than how it is now, and i will be how im supposed to be eventually'
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doesnt always work but can just be helpful to remind yourself that your body is a small part of who you really are, and while thay small part can be stressful af, its also going to be better one day
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Fuckboy Drag King 10/14/2022 7:51 PM
Bodies are easily the weirdest thing about the human condition honestly
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not too get personal, but when we were together, i couldn't think of a reason to dislike the non-dysphoric parts of your body (no idea if that makes sense). i never thought you had too much fat or that you looked like anything but a man. to me, you looked lean, muscular, and frankly pretty damn amazing. ofc, that's not what your own mind tells you and idk if this is even helpful to hear but that's my take on you
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Fuckboy Drag King 10/14/2022 7:54 PM
Thank you, genuinely. Means an awful lot, we all know how hard it is to love your body and I just hate that I am also one of those people if that makes sense. I wish I could wake up and just think, yeah, that looks good, rather than like "does this make me look too X?" or whatever
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Even now after eating it's so ingrained in me after eating an actual meal to go and burn the calories that I'm trying to talk myself out of going for a run even though I'm exhausted.
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Oh my beloved therapist why did you say I was better and you'll talk to me in a month
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I'm sure if you need to contact them sooner you can?
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Put some fucking comfy clothes on and get into bed you stupid boy
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No running just nap
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can you distract yourself with some other kind of self care? listening to some music, reading a book, watching a show you like?
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Fuckboy Drag King 10/14/2022 7:57 PM
Nah I don't actually need her lmao I am doing a lot better generally, we just never really covered body stuff because I never thought it was an issue until recently
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Imagine self care we die like men in 5 degrees in running shorts
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DO YOU NOT OWN JOGGERS
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Fuckboy Drag King 10/14/2022 7:58 PM
NO FEELING THE AIR ON YOUR SKIN IS BETTER
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NOT IN 5 DEGREE WEATHER IT ISN'T
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id say id chase you and make you sit down but i dont walk that fast yet
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Fuckboy Drag King 10/14/2022 7:58 PM
might compromise and go for a small walk instead
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and i will wear clothes
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(some)
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Thank you for the clarification you're not gonna start streaking lmfao
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Fuckboy Drag King 10/14/2022 7:59 PM
Honestly one of these days it'll probably happen
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I mean that's one way to inspire confidence in your body I guess
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i need to invest in a net
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Fuckboy Drag King 10/14/2022 8:00 PM
Twice last night someone invited me into the toilets with them, I thought Oh? and it was literally just to hold their stuff whilst they pissed. Now that might not seem relevant, but I saw so much of one man I'm not sure I'm the same
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i need to invest in a net
What?
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no streaking
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i usually support crimes but thats such a boring one
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What're you gonna do try and catch him??
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Tbf if I was gonna get arrested that's probably what it'd be for lmao
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i feel like saying yes makes this sound more concerning
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Fuckboy Drag King 10/14/2022 8:01 PM
Honestly if she ever sees me sprinting down wilberforce road in absolutely nothing I absolutely advise for her to go inside her house and call the police
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why would i call the police
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i dont want stiches
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Fuckboy Drag King 10/14/2022 8:07 PM
be gay do crime except its some mentally unstable bi man running down wilberforce road in the nude
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mumblingmiss 10/14/2022 8:28 PM
Not very good with discussions of eds but I'm here if you ever need to chat or vent or just want some support. I'm always open to having a chat over the phone too if you just need to hear a voice. I really hope you get all the help you need, darling. Love yous. (edited)
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Confessions BOT 10/14/2022 9:27 PM
Anonymous Confession (#761)
"one of my housemates does not know who hitler was, what nazis are, or anything about that kind of thing. not really a vent just... I feel like I need to teach them, but I'm not sure if it's right to, and they do not want to anyway. Still just... it still kind surprises me"
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How tf
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huh?!?!?
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ho
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how
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Where are they from?
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mumblingmiss 10/15/2022 11:32 AM
That battle between needing to go to the dentist but preferring the occasional toothache if it means I don't have to spend that much money on extractions 😩
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ik it's a lot of money and it's bs that it's not covered under the NHS but teeth are smth you should take incredibly seriously
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the roots and nerves are connected to the rest of your head and a particularly bad infection can cause blindness, brain damage etc.
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this isn't to scare you but to just make sure you know to get stuff checked out if it looks bad
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mumblingmiss 10/15/2022 11:39 AM
Oh dw it's not an infection or anything I'm not that dumb
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It's just issues with crowding post-wisdom but other than that I look after my teeth and gums
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Girls got enough 💖health anxiety💖 to know when to do something lmao
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oh that should be ok unless you have trouble eatint
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they won't really take it up until it's a problem
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Confessions BOT 10/15/2022 2:12 PM
Anonymous Confession (#762)
"i got drunk and ordered sex toys last night pls someone dont let me have money anymore ty"
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ngl definitely more destructive ways to spend money
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still do be careful 🫂 here if you ever need someone to drink with but make sure youre safe
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OP now you have to tell us which sex toys lmao
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oh fuck yeah this ^
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praying it's a monstrous Bad Dragon anal plug
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odds on it being that remote controlled vibrator?
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hot
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vibrating anal beads that help you win chess championships
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only correct purchase ^
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mumblingmiss 10/15/2022 2:31 PM
Concerning
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vibrating anal beads that help you win chess championships
why is this so specific
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it happened
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Wait wtf
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someone used it to cheat a chess tournament
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WHAT
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How does that let you cheat wtf
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mumblingmiss 10/15/2022 2:32 PM
How can you focus on chess w something up your ass
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someone sent specific vibrations that communicated where they should move the pieces
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mahariel
why is this so specific
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mumblingmiss 10/15/2022 2:33 PM
Holy shit
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ok
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respect the grind
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I love being the one to introduce people to cursed things that actually happened
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mumblingmiss 10/15/2022 2:33 PM
That's not cursed it's perfect
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ACertainSaffron 10/15/2022 3:07 PM
the accusation is like the bead that vibrates is the piece and the number of vibrations is the tile
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it's such a funny bit
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that is genius though ngl
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idk how they thought of that but its so clever
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actually i can probably guess how they thought of that
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ACertainSaffron 10/15/2022 3:08 PM
it didn't actually happen, sorry for spoiling the magic
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someones definitely gonna try that now though
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ACertainSaffron 10/15/2022 3:09 PM
or, like, it probably didn't happen haha, the game was called off like 3 moves in
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hmmm
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Amelia - iced coffee enthusiast 10/15/2022 3:10 PM
imagine working really hard to win only for people to accuse you of cheating anally
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honestly imagine winninh and no one finds out though (edited)
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id prefer the credit for the cheating idea ngl
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biiiiit morbid but i just set my siblings as the beneficiaries for my pension fund and Death in Service clause. if anything happens to me, they'll get a 50% payouts each of 3x my salary (+ the pension fund). so technically, that would cover each of their uni tuitions lol
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mumblingmiss 10/15/2022 3:14 PM
Oh man
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not really a vent, more just an interesting little tidbit
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mumblingmiss 10/15/2022 3:14 PM
My siblings would be lucky to get a tenner off me
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that is a bit morbid, but genuinely thats such a kind thing to think about despite how dark of a thing it is
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Amelia - iced coffee enthusiast 10/15/2022 3:15 PM
i used to work in a factory and i had to fill out a form saying who would get the compensation money if i was killed by the machinery lmao
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ive got a will hanging around somewhere and its got a last fuck you to my father in ngl
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basically 'give the money you owe me to a lgbtqia+ charity you asshole'
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it's a difficult thing to think about but working in the finance industry has made me realise how important naming beneficiaries in your will is. bc if you don't pick specific people, the government will decide for you through their intestacy system. if you don't have a spouse or kids, your money goes to your parents. if you have no living relatives, they go to the Crown. so make sure to do this otherwise your estate might go to someone you despise or the government (edited)
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Amelia - iced coffee enthusiast 10/15/2022 3:18 PM
last time i thought about writing a will i wasnt old enough. guess i could write one now that i am 18 though
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the government is included in the someone i despise section
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no way am i giving my parents a single penny lol
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but yeah thats honestly really good advice
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mahariel
no way am i giving my parents a single penny lol
imagine having money to give
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Amelia - iced coffee enthusiast
i used to work in a factory and i had to fill out a form saying who would get the compensation money if i was killed by the machinery lmao
fucking ouch
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E r i n
basically 'give the money you owe me to a lgbtqia+ charity you asshole'
you can also leave as much money as you want to charity
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the government is included in the someone i despise section
mood
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mine basically just said 'if anyone wants any of my stuff for memories suck, sure, here who has priority the rest idc about, sell the rest and give it to my housemates to pay off any rent until they find a replacement housemate or void the contract, then any leftover goes to charity. the money my father owes me is (insert amount), make sure he donates it to a lgbtqia+ charity.'
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bit longer than that but basically just covering up loose ends
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I don’t think I have enough money that it’s make a difference tbh
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E r i n
mine basically just said 'if anyone wants any of my stuff for memories suck, sure, here who has priority the rest idc about, sell the rest and give it to my housemates to pay off any rent until they find a replacement housemate or void the contract, then any leftover goes to charity. the money my father owes me is (insert amount), make sure he donates it to a lgbtqia+ charity.'
you'll need to get it signed by 2 witnesses (who aren't named in your will) + a lawyer to make it legally valid I'm afraid
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ive got a will hanging around somewhere and its got a last fuck you to my father in ngl
Remember kids, if you want to spite someone who could otherwise reasonably stand to inherit stuff in your will, leave them like, 1 penny That way they can't contest it by claiming you probably just forgot to put them in
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ahh good to know
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Remember kids, if you want to spite someone who could otherwise reasonably stand to inherit stuff in your will, leave them like, 1 penny That way they can't contest it by claiming you probably just forgot to put them in
fuck thats genius
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good to know tysm
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Amelia - iced coffee enthusiast 10/15/2022 3:22 PM
give everything i have to the NPA
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my mother and father are getting a pittance, to be paid out in 10 installments of 1/10 of a pittance each
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you'll need to get it signed by 2 witnesses (who aren't named in your will) + a lawyer to make it legally valid I'm afraid
mine was a hasty thing and i didnt know much about the process, just presumed my next of kin would be given some sense of authority
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fuck thats genius
That way it's clear that you very deliberately did think of them and definitely didn't want them to have any more
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mahariel
my mother and father are getting a pittance, to be paid out in 10 installments of 1/10 of a pittance each
this is brilliant im stealing that ty
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Ripfangs
That way it's clear that you very deliberately did think of them and definitely didn't want them to have any more
can you just say 'give them whatever toilet paper i have left' instead?
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still includes them
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Perhaps I'm no legally qualified advisor for this sort of thing so always do your own research
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'give them the biggest toe nail on my left foot'
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gonna hire a lawyer specifically to figure out how to spite my father
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ty i stole it from Futurama
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E r i n
this is brilliant im stealing that ty
this i mean lol
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Amelia - iced coffee enthusiast 10/15/2022 3:25 PM
legal help is so fucking expensive tho
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b finish your degree i need your help
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ill buy you a twix or something
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Bran is my lawyer on retainer
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Amelia - iced coffee enthusiast 10/15/2022 3:25 PM
cost £250 for solicitors to do the deed poll
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you can do an unenrolled deedpoll for free
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his retainer is a shot of alcohol per week
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E r i n
you can do an unenrolled deedpoll for free
Amelia - iced coffee enthusiast 10/15/2022 3:26 PM
already done it
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most companies and organisations accept it
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ahh nice
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the UK Deed Poll service costs like £50
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and is fully legally valid
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mahariel
his retainer is a shot of alcohol per week
ngl thought you meant shot like a vaccine for a moment
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gonna hire a lawyer specifically to figure out how to spite my father
If you’ve fallen out with a friend or family member, you may be considering disinheriting them. Cutting someone out of your will is a serious step, and you’ll want to approach this with compassion and a level head.
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you can use that to change all of your documents including passport and driver's licence
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unenrolled still works for drivers liscence (and passport i think)
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Amelia - iced coffee enthusiast 10/15/2022 3:27 PM
you need like witnesses who arent in your family who have known you for 10 years and other annoying shit so its easier to get a solicitor to do it
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and i wanted enrolled
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ahh fair
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Amelia - iced coffee enthusiast 10/15/2022 3:27 PM
and thankfully my parents are supportive so they paid it
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im still waiting a year for the gender recognition certificate, then need to turn up at my old high school and grab a teacher
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granted gonna freak the fuck out of said teacher because i havent spoken to any of them in years and they dont know ive transitioned
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but hey
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Amelia - iced coffee enthusiast 10/15/2022 3:30 PM
my college was weird and didnt do an end of year party shit this year and instead are holding one in december when people have already left for uni..?
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I can't remember if my college did that sort of thing, definitely didn't when I left because plague
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Amelia - iced coffee enthusiast 10/15/2022 3:31 PM
i probably wont go to it but if i did it would be funny because i didnt come out to people there lmao
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im up for hire to go to peoples reunions and stuff
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i can pretend to be you
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Amelia - iced coffee enthusiast 10/15/2022 3:34 PM
yeah sure
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people probably wouldnt even notice
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will they question you talking about the persian invasions of greece a lot?
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Amelia - iced coffee enthusiast 10/15/2022 3:36 PM
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probably not but couldnt hurt to be prepared
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Amelia - iced coffee enthusiast
i used to work in a factory and i had to fill out a form saying who would get the compensation money if i was killed by the machinery lmao
I had a fill out a form like this for my job it was so morbid I put it off for like a week
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Amelia - iced coffee enthusiast 10/15/2022 3:40 PM
also it was a meat factory, which is ironic since im a vegetarian but i like having money so
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i refuse to die don’t make me think about what will happen when I die
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Amelia - iced coffee enthusiast 10/15/2022 3:40 PM
had to fill out form saying i wont take pictures or talk to like animal rights activist groups and shit
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they were going to make u into the pies
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today is a trying day :)
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Confessions BOT 10/15/2022 4:14 PM
Anonymous Confession (#763)
"one of them weird egg ones you put up in you and you have the remote to control it but like I could've picked smth cooler"
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oh those
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what weird egg ones
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how do you put an egg in you
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wouldn't that just get sucked up? like you wouldn't be able to get it back out?
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theyre egg shaped, you lube it and put it in. it has this plastic thready thing to pull out
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kinda like the end of anal beads
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huh ok lmaoo
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Amelia - iced coffee enthusiast 10/15/2022 4:19 PM
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ACertainSaffron 10/15/2022 4:21 PM
shut lmfao
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do not take the egg
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Amelia - iced coffee enthusiast 10/15/2022 4:24 PM
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mumblingmiss 10/15/2022 6:22 PM
Might be tmi but I get my period next week after my doctor suggested that I switch from 21 days pill, 7 day break to 63 days pill, 7 day break to see if it would make things easier. But now its been that 3 packs in a row and I have to have the break I can feel my whole body going oh fuck no please this can't be good
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not tmi dw, hope it doesn't fuck you up too badly
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mumblingmiss
Might be tmi but I get my period next week after my doctor suggested that I switch from 21 days pill, 7 day break to 63 days pill, 7 day break to see if it would make things easier. But now its been that 3 packs in a row and I have to have the break I can feel my whole body going oh fuck no please this can't be good
Hold up, your Dr suggested taking 3 packs of the pill and then break? 😳
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mumblingmiss 10/16/2022 1:00 PM
Yes
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But why?
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mumblingmiss 10/16/2022 1:01 PM
Bc my period every 21 days was making me v ill so life might be easier if I have it every 63
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Which pill do you have if you don’t mind my asking?
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mumblingmiss 10/16/2022 1:02 PM
Rigevidon
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Oh god I am so sorry
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That was my first one too it's horrible
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Oh okay, combined
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Erm, yeah I’m sorry
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mumblingmiss 10/16/2022 1:03 PM
I don't mind I'm mostly used to it now
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I stopped taking that 3 years ago because it was fucking me up (as it does, lots of people) and I was just surprised that a Dr would suggest taking it for that amount of time before a break
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mumblingmiss 10/16/2022 1:03 PM
It's very common
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Some people take it continuously and only take a 4 day break if they bleed
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Same tbf ~ I was on desogestrel and it's easier but also bc it's not combined it didn't totally fuck me up? But they let me have it w no breaks but wouldn't when I was on yours
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Mine lasted about a week on that but better than the 12 days I had naturally so eh
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12 days?
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Jeez I thought my 8 was bad
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My body isn't my biggest fan
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mumblingmiss 10/16/2022 1:05 PM
I used to bleed for 2 weeks but now I bleed for about 2-3 days
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Apparently mine are due to get worse
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2 weeks would wipe me out omg
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Fair, I mean if it’s helping you then that’s good
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I'm just bracing myself for this one then I can go back on the pill and hopefully be okay again
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mumblingmiss 10/16/2022 1:06 PM
I wasn't a human in highschool lmao
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If not just sleep w afab people ig
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LoLo <3
If not just sleep w afab people ig
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Oh syncing?
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mumblingmiss 10/16/2022 1:09 PM
I feel like I never to talk about my period with anyone lmao
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Roux
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I meant more in terms of not getting pregnant
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While I really want a baby I'm 20 and can't afford it lmao
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mumblingmiss 10/16/2022 1:11 PM
Wanting a baby and wanting a hysterectomy at the same time is my issue
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No bc actually same
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I wanna adopt
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Ugh spawn
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But at the same time
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Ahhhh I wanna be a mum
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Genuinely, after working in childcare. No. 😂
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mumblingmiss 10/16/2022 1:12 PM
Ngl Lo let's get married and adopt kids
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Can we
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mumblingmiss 10/16/2022 1:12 PM
Yes
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constant conflict between wanting to have a child but knowing its an awful idea
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mumblingmiss 10/16/2022 1:13 PM
Let's take turns getting a hysterectomy so when one of us is healed the other can get it (edited)
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I like spending my own money on myself, travelling wherever and whenever I want, working at a super awesome job without worry and rescuing animals that may not like children and we bond over that aspect
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honestly fair
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thats the kind of life style i want to, but then every now and then wanting to be a mother kicks me in the face
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If I were to have kids I think I'd probably want to foster Give some queer kids a good home
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Yeah I mean potentially foster and/or adopt kids, maybe, possibly, though it’s very unlikely. I just want a huge house with lots of unwanted maybe injured animals and I will love them and give them a great place to live out their days
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mumblingmiss 10/16/2022 1:16 PM
I just can't imagine not having a big family w lots of kids, I'm from such a huge family it seems weird
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I'm an only child but I want 2/3 kids
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Be them from me or adopted or fostered idm
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But I had a stupid dream I had like 5 kids
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And ahhhh I want a baby
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mumblingmiss 10/16/2022 1:17 PM
Let's go Lo
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I just can't imagine not having a big family w lots of kids, I'm from such a huge family it seems weird
Same, I think? I’m one of 4 🤷🏼
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And like millions of cousins
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Not quite 😂
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mumblingmiss 10/16/2022 1:19 PM
I'm one of 6 lmao
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I've only got 1 sibling Got a fair amount of cousins but they all live in Wales so I don't see them that often
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I mean I have childcare qualifications and nannying exp, I like looking after kids sometimes I just like to hand them back 😂
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I'm one of 6 lmao
Nice
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mumblingmiss 10/16/2022 1:20 PM
Most of coastal north norfolk is my family
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mumblingmiss 10/16/2022 1:21 PM
Go to be very wary of inbreeding over here
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my family is a major reason why i think i shouldnt have kids lmao
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If you want to make a tinder account in Norfolk you gotta include a link to your ancestry.com account
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Tehe, I have a whole Irish side of the family that I have never met and who probably don’t know me so I’ve always been wary of Irish folk named Delaney
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Oh shit sorry I’m doing that thing again
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My ex's family were kicked out of Ireland bc someone punched a priest lmao
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Tehe, I have a whole Irish side of the family that I have never met and who probably don’t know me so I’ve always been wary of Irish folk named Delaney
ACertainSaffron 10/16/2022 1:22 PM
cough
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my last name is Delaney bahahaha
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Moved to Yorkshire and then had a fight up there so now they're in Surrey
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my last name is Delaney bahahaha
Cuz?
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ACertainSaffron
my last name is Delaney bahahaha
That's Norfolk for you
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Cuz?
ACertainSaffron 10/16/2022 1:23 PM
omg
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mumblingmiss 10/16/2022 1:23 PM
Holy shit
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All I know is that in the early 1940’s?! Maybe. My great granny met this Irishman and she fell pregnant but they were out of wedlock so it was very taboo and her parents said she had to give him up. She was from Liverpool and he went to live in an orphanage there, she would send him photos and presents but we basically never knew my grandad’s dad apart from that his surname was Delaney and he had a wife and kids back in Ireland so took off when he found out great granny was preggers
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My grandad then moved to Derbyshire where he met my Nan and blah blah here I am wanting to fill in the gaps of the family history
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ACertainSaffron 10/16/2022 1:27 PM
my mum did a really elaborate family tree for her side many years ago
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managed to contact loads of people who we didn't even know about lol
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and my dad's side is unknown because my late grandmother was an orphan and my granddad doesn't really talk about it so 🤷‍♀️
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Amelia - iced coffee enthusiast 10/16/2022 1:28 PM
my uncle has done a really good job piecing together our family tree and managed to follow the tree back quite far
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i should message him and get a copy
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Interesting
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I’m always so fascinated by this stuff
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and my dad's side is unknown because my late grandmother was an orphan and my granddad doesn't really talk about it so 🤷‍♀️
Omg wait, what if we have the same great grandad?
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ACertainSaffron 10/16/2022 1:31 PM
I mean
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it's possible ig
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he was an irishman called delaney
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that's all I know, but I could probably find out more
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ACertainSaffron 10/16/2022 1:49 PM
went to the GP 2 days ago to ask for a referral to a gender identity clinic, jumped through hoops and invasive questions with the GP, who concluded (paraphrased) "let's put the gender dysphoria to one side, and focus on your depression, I'm going to refer you to a very good psychiatrist in the city, his waiting list is only a month and he has much more experience". I asked for a referral in the appointment and I've been tossed into the mental health system instead. Wonderful. Is this psychiatrist specialised in gender? Will he actually listen to me? Will I even get the fucking email that the GP said he'd send right away and it's been 2 days with no email or text? Apparently saying I've only known I was trans for a year makes me a special fucking case that doesn't get instantly referred, I'll go fuck myself I guess. I'm just tired of it all.
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Tempted to just make a second appointment with a different GP and be much more insistent on being put on the waiting list
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also such helpful advice as "have you tried exercise" or "make sure you sleep well" when I made it abundantly clear that my depression is caused by my gender dysphoria, like saying 'oh just cheer up' god it was patronising
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Amelia - iced coffee enthusiast 10/16/2022 1:53 PM
im sorry
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the system is so fucked
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ACertainSaffron 10/16/2022 1:54 PM
moreover there's part of me that's terrified it's been sent to a parent's email instead because where the hell is this email I've been promised?? I watched him write the damn thing
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realistically I dont see how it could, but it's just something in the back of my mind
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im sorry, its such a stupid process and can be fucked over by treatment like that so easily, its honestly a bit out of order how youve been treated. i would recommend making another appointment with a different gp, it does seem like they just refused to listen to you and not even explore what you outright said was the cause, and thats not how youre supposed to be treated at all
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Oh darling I'm really sorry 🫂 the healthcare system doesn't seem to get it when it comes to gender it's really shit. Do you know which psychiatrist you're being sent to? Maybe you could look into them beforehand so you know a bit more what to expect? I understand depression being a concern but if your needing a referral is contributing to that they need to take that into account too. It has only been 2 days and being a weekend I wouldn't stress it too much, GP surgeries are under a lot of stress and everything is slowed a little over the weekend. I'd chase up the email tomorrow if you haven't got a reply by say lunchtime? I doubt they'll have sent it to your parents, if you're over 16 they need explicit consent to do that I believe. It doesn't matter how long you've been out to yourself, you're seeking a referral, they should be able to put you on a waiting list. See what the email says first but if it's not fulfilling what you need I agree with Erin, try and see a different GP and push for what you need. Wish you all the best baby, we're here if you need any support 💗
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Oh darling I'm really sorry 🫂 the healthcare system doesn't seem to get it when it comes to gender it's really shit. Do you know which psychiatrist you're being sent to? Maybe you could look into them beforehand so you know a bit more what to expect? I understand depression being a concern but if your needing a referral is contributing to that they need to take that into account too. It has only been 2 days and being a weekend I wouldn't stress it too much, GP surgeries are under a lot of stress and everything is slowed a little over the weekend. I'd chase up the email tomorrow if you haven't got a reply by say lunchtime? I doubt they'll have sent it to your parents, if you're over 16 they need explicit consent to do that I believe. It doesn't matter how long you've been out to yourself, you're seeking a referral, they should be able to put you on a waiting list. See what the email says first but if it's not fulfilling what you need I agree with Erin, try and see a different GP and push for what you need. Wish you all the best baby, we're here if you need any support 💗
ACertainSaffron 10/16/2022 2:01 PM
Do you know which psychiatrist you're being sent to? Maybe you could look into them beforehand so you know a bit more what to expect?
haha nope, the GP has been totally non-contact
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no clue who I'm being thrown to
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I guess tho
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i have actually just been referred to a psychiatrist by my gp as well actually because of gender dysphoria? not sure its the same one though
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ACertainSaffron 10/16/2022 2:03 PM
no I do agree with you Lo, it's just a little exhausting. The implication was that I might not know for certain because I haven't known I was a girl since I was 3 months old or whatever
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and I had to tread around the conversation because that's just how healthcare professionals are with gender, so my wording was clunky and not wholly accurate
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and for some reason my sexuality was relevant
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that is ao dismissive wtf
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im so sorry you had to deal with that
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Wow heaven forbid you need to get to a place in your life where you have the capacity to explore gender like that and didn't have the luxury of knowing since you were young wtf kind of privileged perspective is that
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they dont seem to be dealing with it particularly well imo, im not an expert obviously but i would say its worth considering getting another gps opinion
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I'm so fucking sorry
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honestly i just had vague ideas of not being satisfied with my assigned gender when i was younger, and only started questioning it in my teen years, there isnt a timer on this, thats lesson number one
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and I had to tread around the conversation because that's just how healthcare professionals are with gender, so my wording was clunky and not wholly accurate
Amelia - iced coffee enthusiast 10/16/2022 2:08 PM
yeah sometimes it does feel like trying to explain the combustion engine to a dog
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Okay love that analogy wtf
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honestly i just had vague ideas of not being satisfied with my assigned gender when i was younger, and only started questioning it in my teen years, there isnt a timer on this, thats lesson number one
ACertainSaffron 10/16/2022 2:09 PM
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"Every boy wants to be a girl" teen -> "AAAAAAAAAA" young adult pipeline (edited)
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Lmao I had the opposite like ohhh life would be so much easier if I was a boy but at the same time wanting to present hyper feminine like what is gender anyway
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I'm probably closest to demigirl but I tell people I'm cis bc it's easier lmao
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ACertainSaffron 10/16/2022 2:12 PM
I've had this wonderful combination of 2 brothers, all boys school in a conservative area, no part time job, apathy for how I look, no interest in others, and living in a village
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the peak of my teenage experimentation was choosing a female character in skyrim 😭
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like exactly that except the all boys school
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Amelia - iced coffee enthusiast 10/16/2022 2:14 PM
how tf do gender segregated schools still exist in the 21st century
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but you are who you are, fuck that doctor, youre amazing and you know yourself 🫂 i hope you get a gp thatll actually listen if you do get another appointment, im sorry you didnt this time
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ACertainSaffron 10/16/2022 2:14 PM
mochim30Froglove
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thank you everyone, I just needed to get that off me
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if this person I'm being referred to is specialised in gender I'll go along with it
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otherwise fuck that
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how tf do gender segregated schools still exist in the 21st century
'I don't want you getting distracted by boys while you're doing important exams' ~ my parents LITTLE DID THEY KNOW
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uh oh
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Amelia - iced coffee enthusiast 10/16/2022 2:16 PM
hmm lets segregate schools by gender and dont teach sex education im sure this will not lead to consequences later on in peoples lives
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also sorry for the different topic but: TW: weight buying scales may have been a bad idea :) just checked and ive reached my lowest weight since i was a child, about 50.15kg. my doctor was worried enough when i was at 53kg, and referred me to an eating disorder clinic when i reached 51kg. Whats really frustrating is that i thought i was making progress, last time I checked i was back up to 52kg roughly, so this kinda sucks
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ACertainSaffron 10/16/2022 2:17 PM
wait 53kg is worthy of doctor concern
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I'm 53kg 💀
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with my height and exercise level they were concerned
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ACertainSaffron 10/16/2022 2:18 PM
I'm 6' and do no exercise?
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idk they thought it was something i needed to start focusing on, 51kg became a big worry for them
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ACertainSaffron 10/16/2022 2:18 PM
anyway I'm really sorry 🫂
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ahh im 5ft 11/10 but i do a lot of walking (edited)
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and was trying to get into running at the time
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Amelia - iced coffee enthusiast 10/16/2022 2:19 PM
i need to start doing exercise and lose weight
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Progress in this stuff is hard, I'm proud of you for putting the work in, gaining weight is hard
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i dont really care much about my weight until it becomes a concern tbh, numbers have never really bothered me
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just frustrating that im actually going backwards when i thought i was going forward, just another thing i need to be aware of and work on now, alongside everything else lmao
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whoever designed this body did not beta test it properly
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One thing that really helped me was setting alarms to remind myself to eat idk if that would work for you but while you're struggling it could be something that helps idk
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idk i ignore my alarms most of the time unless its something important
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i mean im still over 50kg so i can donate blood which is good
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just frustrating that im actually going backwards when i thought i was going forward, just another thing i need to be aware of and work on now, alongside everything else lmao
ACertainSaffron 10/16/2022 2:25 PM
as someone who habitually skips/half-asses meals I know it's really difficult, but if you feel you were going forward then there's something you're doing right in there! It can be a lot sometimes though mochim30Froglove
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Amelia - iced coffee enthusiast
i need to start doing exercise and lose weight
you do not need to lose weight, and you should only do exercise if it makes you feel happy, not as some chore to punish yourself with (edited)
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Amelia - iced coffee enthusiast 10/16/2022 2:29 PM
well i feel unhappy with my body so i just want to work to improve that
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Exercise should come from a point of loving your body, not hating it. Sure, it's good to work on yourself and get to a point within yourself that you're happy with, but not if it's to the detriment of your health. We care about you, please do this stuff carefully, okay?
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every time i think about quitting smoking, sadness hits and i realise I'm not doing that lol
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it's the best and quickest pick me up when smth gets me down :/
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"ahh stab in the heart", start smoking, "oh wait nvm my brain is swirling in circles"
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im sorry, its not nice to have to use stuff like that to feel okay, here to talk if you ever want or need a distraction 🫂 im very much not equipped to give advice on smoking in any way, but i do hope youre feeling okay (or as okay as possible) right now
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i should be fine haha. it is what it is
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thank you darling 🫂
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I mean do what you need to do to cope but if you want to stop we can find ways to help you do that maybe?
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Amelia - iced coffee enthusiast 10/16/2022 4:43 PM
i think the NHS has an app to help quit smoking where you can track how many days you havent smoked for and stuff
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im not really able to give advice on smoking either and would probably come across as condescending if i tried
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no it's alright, it's a stupid habit
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one i shouldn't be doing at all bc asthma and my chest feeling inflamed all the time but will kick it somehow
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mahariel
one i shouldn't be doing at all bc asthma and my chest feeling inflamed all the time but will kick it somehow
hows about we try quitting together
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mahariel
one i shouldn't be doing at all bc asthma and my chest feeling inflamed all the time but will kick it somehow
Amelia - iced coffee enthusiast 10/16/2022 4:50 PM
yeah thats bad
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HarryJack
hows about we try quitting together
you say as you bought two vapes right in front of me a couple hours back lmao
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16:51
but we could do tbh
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this is why i say we should try together, social pressure better than death pressure lol (edited)
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can't have you beating me at smth smh
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exactly hehe
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one thing i can count on is being overly competetive
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same here
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en garde 🤺
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couldnt beat me at monopoly cant beat me at this
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all my pods have broken so slowly weaning myself off with the singular mostly empty disposable i have
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HarryJack
couldnt beat me at monopoly cant beat me at this
bet
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mahariel
bet
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God gives his silliest battles to His most tragic of clowns
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mahariel
you may have the advantage here bc i respect making gifs of yourself
when youve got moves like that i feel obligated to share them with the world
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me: God pls give me a sign God:
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DEUS VULT
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mumblingmiss 10/16/2022 4:58 PM
I shouldn't have opened this there's a lot of jesus
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Fuckboy Drag King 10/16/2022 4:59 PM
Where would be better for religious conversations
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mahariel
me: God pls give me a sign God:
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mumblingmiss
I shouldn't have opened this there's a lot of jesus
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bah, abrahamism, back in my day you'd throw captured soldiers into a bog for a blessed harvest and it never did us any harm
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mumblingmiss 10/16/2022 5:00 PM
Jesus is my ex 😩
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Psalms 139:14 is better smh
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if you dont sin then jesus died for nothing
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Confessions BOT 10/16/2022 5:01 PM
Anonymous Confession (#767)
"Have my first date in a long time this week and I'm really nervous 😭"
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have fun OP!
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mumblingmiss 10/16/2022 5:02 PM
Jesus just has a pain kink and orgasmed to death
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its gonna go great whoever u are :)
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mumblingmiss 10/16/2022 5:02 PM
Have fun op
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Fuckboy Drag King 10/16/2022 5:02 PM
Bit of a tone shift but good luck!
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im sure youll be okay OP, just try to have fun and not put too much pressure on yourself
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easier said than done but hey
17:02
youve got this
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HarryJack
if you dont sin then jesus died for nothing
Amelia - iced coffee enthusiast 10/16/2022 5:02 PM
better to rule in hell than serve in heaven
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I want a date aaa
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mumblingmiss
Jesus just has a pain kink and orgasmed to death
didnt actually die on the cross just orgasmsed so hard he passed out and took him 3 days to wake up
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becoming ultra-Catholic to get through October
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HarryJack
didnt actually die on the cross just orgasmsed so hard he passed out and took him 3 days to wake up
mumblingmiss 10/16/2022 5:03 PM
I have that effect on people
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Fuckboy Drag King 10/16/2022 5:03 PM
Brandon where's our date you little skank
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mahariel
becoming ultra-Catholic to get through October
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Fuckboy Drag King
Brandon where's our date you little skank
mumblingmiss 10/16/2022 5:04 PM
Dw I'll date you
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Fuckboy Drag King
Brandon where's our date you little skank
we had different strategies
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mumblingmiss
Dw I'll date you
Fuckboy Drag King 10/16/2022 5:04 PM
A terrible decision really
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mahariel
becoming ultra-Catholic to get through October
mumblingmiss 10/16/2022 5:04 PM
Dont think I can get any more catholic
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mine was to make a move then run away, yours was more... direct
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mine was to make a move then run away, yours was more... direct
Fuckboy Drag King 10/16/2022 5:05 PM
dw Erin when you reach my age you just stop beating around the bush and just go for it
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Fuckboy Drag King
A terrible decision really
mumblingmiss 10/16/2022 5:05 PM
Not my first 😉
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Amelia - iced coffee enthusiast 10/16/2022 5:05 PM
yeah i get dates 😎 from the date palm
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Fuckboy Drag King 10/16/2022 5:05 PM
They'll turn me down because I'm comp sci 😔
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ah cool its an age thing
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Fuckboy Drag King 10/16/2022 5:05 PM
no it's not but it sounded cool to say
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just need to wait it out
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fuck
17:05
i have a better idea
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@ everyone who wants to date
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Fuckboy Drag King 10/16/2022 5:05 PM
it's fine you're a pretty girl you'll be asked out
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mumblingmiss 10/16/2022 5:06 PM
Grow old with me, I dare you
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simply believe you are an incorruptible beacon of beauty and you will gain enough confidence to ask anyone for anything
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mumblingmiss
Not my first 😉
Fuckboy Drag King 10/16/2022 5:06 PM
I'll be the next bad decision 😳 pick you up at 7
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Fuckboy Drag King
I'll be the next bad decision 😳 pick you up at 7
mumblingmiss 10/16/2022 5:06 PM
See you soon :)))
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yes but that requires confidence, something i currently lack
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I'll be your wingman next time we go out
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Amelia - iced coffee enthusiast
yeah i get dates 😎 from the date palm
where do you find the warm climate and calcium carbonate heavy sandy loam for date palms in this county, asking for a friend
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a couple of "have you met Erin?"s and you'll have to beat the people after you away with a bat
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you're gorgeous and a lovely person darling. what's not to like?
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mahariel
a couple of "have you met Erin?"s and you'll have to beat the people after you away with a bat
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mumblingmiss 10/16/2022 5:08 PM
I'm gonna date everyone here and it'll be a roulette for who I stay with
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lmao that would end badly probably
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Fuckboy Drag King 10/16/2022 5:08 PM
Am I misremembering or did you have a date Erin?
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rhetorical question, do not think badly of yourself
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mumblingmiss
I'm gonna date everyone here and it'll be a roulette for who I stay with
Fuckboy Drag King 10/16/2022 5:08 PM
better be russian roulette
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where do you find the warm climate and calcium carbonate heavy sandy loam for date palms in this county, asking for a friend
Amelia - iced coffee enthusiast 10/16/2022 5:08 PM
ok i dont even get those kind of dates 😭
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i did, but i dont think im into them romantically
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Fuckboy Drag King
better be russian roulette
mumblingmiss 10/16/2022 5:08 PM
Only if you're the bullet
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Only if you're the bullet
Fuckboy Drag King 10/16/2022 5:08 PM
I can be a bullet for you sweetheart 😉
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went amazingly last time as you can tell from the rundown i gave you lmao
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Amelia - iced coffee enthusiast
ok i dont even get those kind of dates 😭
the tesco near here sells boxes for 2 pound
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Fuckboy Drag King
I can be a bullet for you sweetheart 😉
mumblingmiss 10/16/2022 5:09 PM
Then I'm here to get shot 😘
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mahariel
went amazingly last time as you can tell from the rundown i gave you lmao
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people are flirting and its confusing
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im very tempted to treat myself to a box of dates one time
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people are flirting and its confusing
best way to solve that is to start flirting with everyone yourself
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i try
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Amelia - iced coffee enthusiast 10/16/2022 5:10 PM
how tf do you even flirt
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mumblingmiss 10/16/2022 5:10 PM
I can't help it @Fuckboy Drag King is hot
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Amelia - iced coffee enthusiast
how tf do you even flirt
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Amelia - iced coffee enthusiast
how tf do you even flirt
if you want the real advice, it's to go and compliment them and then guage from there
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mumblingmiss
I can't help it @Fuckboy Drag King is hot
Fuckboy Drag King 10/16/2022 5:11 PM
What can I say seeing you in your danganronpa cosplay got me acting different 👀
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mumblingmiss 10/16/2022 5:11 PM
If I let enough words come out of my mouth eventually I will say the right thing
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or whatever tory yoda said yes
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will straight up have 'practice' dates on people if they want 😳
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Fuckboy Drag King 10/16/2022 5:12 PM
hey CB should we take Erin on a date with us
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Fuckboy Drag King
What can I say seeing you in your danganronpa cosplay got me acting different 👀
mumblingmiss 10/16/2022 5:12 PM
That's all I've ever wanted to hear 😳
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Fuckboy Drag King
hey CB should we take Erin on a date with us
mumblingmiss 10/16/2022 5:12 PM
Absolutely
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arent i already enagaged to you cb?
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mumblingmiss 10/16/2022 5:12 PM
Yes, wifey
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Fuckboy Drag King 10/16/2022 5:12 PM
Should've known it was too good to be true 😔
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Are boys allowed in CB's harem or
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mumblingmiss 10/16/2022 5:13 PM
Only you :))))
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Fuckboy Drag King 10/16/2022 5:13 PM
😉
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mumblingmiss 10/16/2022 5:13 PM
Bc you best boy
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cb always says that, thats how they get you
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Fuckboy Drag King 10/16/2022 5:13 PM
me surrounded by pretty girls oh noo
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whatever will I do noo
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mumblingmiss 10/16/2022 5:13 PM
What a tragedy
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Fuckboy Drag King 10/16/2022 5:13 PM
You attract what you're most scared of
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And I am deathly afraid of attractive women
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mumblingmiss 10/16/2022 5:14 PM
hook line and sinker
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hi
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its a wip but hi
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Fuckboy Drag King 10/16/2022 5:15 PM
Oh no Erin you're so scary 😭
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please don't go on a date with me noo 😭
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Fuckboy Drag King 10/16/2022 5:15 PM
well played
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that was mean im sorry lmao
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flirting in the depression channel just describes this friend group perfectly
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thats how this works
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Fuckboy Drag King 10/16/2022 5:16 PM
that entire meme of "no you're too sexy to be depressed haha" is just this gc ngl
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mumblingmiss 10/16/2022 5:16 PM
If you feel bad, hit me up 😉
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ill fix you all
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well i say fix, i mean make worse, but it might be fun? hmu xoxo
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Fuckboy Drag King 10/16/2022 5:16 PM
At least she's honest
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i refuse to let you have a saviour complex
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trust me, you will want to throw yourself off the nearest cliff
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nah i have a god complex
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Amelia - iced coffee enthusiast 10/16/2022 5:17 PM
i can be your nightmare ex 😳
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even the bot hates me 😔
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mumblingmiss 10/16/2022 5:17 PM
Mmmm honey you sad? 😳 teehee I'll cheer you up 😜😘
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Amelia - iced coffee enthusiast
i can be your nightmare ex 😳
Fuckboy Drag King 10/16/2022 5:17 PM
How could I even refuse such an offer
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my iconic text just vanished
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i know im an idiot but i also think i can do literally anything just by being a stubborn bitch
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mahariel
my iconic text just vanished
Amelia - iced coffee enthusiast 10/16/2022 5:18 PM
literally 1984
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it got memory holed :(
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honestly? winning mindset
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i think i can do literally anything just by proclaiming myself a god in my own mind
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prescribing you all with delusions of grandeur
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take one 3 times a day for eternal happiness
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Confessions BOT 10/16/2022 5:20 PM
Anonymous Confession (#768)
"Are flowers too much for a first date?"
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Amelia - iced coffee enthusiast 10/16/2022 5:20 PM
if i received flowers i would melt
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ehh depends on how much you like them. i gave a date a rose on the 2nd date bc i really liked them but your mileage may vary
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i more just ram my head up against a wall until something (ideally good, but rarely) happens, because if there is a chance i can make something better then i have to take it
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if they're a friend you know well then go for it
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tinder date? maybe hold off
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mahariel
if they're a friend you know well then go for it
id second this if its first time properly seeing them then might come on a little strong
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Fuckboy Drag King 10/16/2022 5:21 PM
Probably also depends what you're doing on said date
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If you're going like 0g's trampolining maybe not?
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honestly the advice is always give is just be honest to yourself, you want them to know and like who you are, so dont push yourself to do something you think isnt natural to you
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Fuckboy Drag King 10/16/2022 5:21 PM
But if it's like coffee or dinner or something, could be cute
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flowers are a bit overrated, they'll probably throw them out after a while so 🤷 don't go overboard for a 1st date
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or theyll eat them
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are you dating a goat
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mahariel
flowers are a bit overrated, they'll probably throw them out after a while so 🤷 don't go overboard for a 1st date
if someone bought me flowers on a second date id fall in love with them there and then, no one ever gets guys flowers :((
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the goat ideally
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Amelia - iced coffee enthusiast 10/16/2022 5:24 PM
what if your date is a bee?
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HarryJack
if someone bought me flowers on a second date id fall in love with them there and then, no one ever gets guys flowers :((
lmao the person i got my flowers for was a guy. you just have to go on dates with the right person
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buy plastic flowers on dates that's my take
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or a pot plant
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something you can keep
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i feel awful throwing out flowers
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Fuckboy Drag King 10/16/2022 5:25 PM
Better yet take them to a fucking garden centre man
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Buy them a 30 pound ceramic pot
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Fuckboy Drag King
Better yet take them to a fucking garden centre man
go and look at all the fish together :)
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Fuckboy Drag King 10/16/2022 5:25 PM
Actually cute idea tbf
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buy them a cute mug
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Amelia - iced coffee enthusiast 10/16/2022 5:26 PM
or move to the woods with them and live a cottagecore life with a garden full of flowers
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call me a cynic but i just advise against investing too much in anyone until you're 100% sure
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generally i just buy them a drink instead
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then you can judge their taste too
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what would you consider bad drinks
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what are red flag drinks
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idk ngl
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what more could a person want than drinks and flowers
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flowers that last
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also make first dates smth you can bail out of if they're boring or weird
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but isnt their beauty in that they dont last
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mahariel
also make first dates smth you can bail out of if they're boring or weird
omg absolutely this
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but isnt their beauty in that they dont last
noooooo
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it makes me sad
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as a very paranoid person thats a requirement
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what are red flag drinks
Fuckboy Drag King 10/16/2022 5:28 PM
My mate took a girl on a date and all she bought was VKs at like 6pm and that seems incredibly odd to me
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mahariel
also make first dates smth you can bail out of if they're boring or weird
Amelia - iced coffee enthusiast 10/16/2022 5:29 PM
probably more likely that they would bail on me
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Fuckboy Drag King
My mate took a girl on a date and all she bought was VKs at like 6pm and that seems incredibly odd to me
hmm, ok you make a very good point
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i also recommend making a system with a close friend that if you send them a message (mine is just an !) they leave it a minute or two then call you feigning a reason for you to leave
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Amelia - iced coffee enthusiast
probably more likely that they would bail on me
have a little more faith in yourself. if you can get them talking animatedly with you then you're onto a good thing
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pretty basic but i think it works
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oh my god blahaj and a raccoon in the new pfp?
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i also recommend making a system with a close friend that if you send them a message (mine is just an !) they leave it a minute or two then call you feigning a reason for you to leave
also good
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yes 🥺
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i also recommend making a system with a close friend that if you send them a message (mine is just an !) they leave it a minute or two then call you feigning a reason for you to leave
damn i would never think of this
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also if you don't know them v well then let your friends know where you are and who you're with
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for safety
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Amelia - iced coffee enthusiast 10/16/2022 5:30 PM
dating is too scary
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mahariel
also if you don't know them v well then let your friends know where you are and who you're with
keknervous
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also dont fall for card tricks
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go in with the thought that people will be nice. it hasn't failed me
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damn i see why people just avoid this shit so much to remember
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dates are stressful as fuck, do your best to keep yourself relaxed
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first port of call is to get your head straight and keep your confidence up
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yeah i couldn't balance the "i have to have contingencies" with "i have to trust and assume this person is nice"
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it's one or the other or my brain would melt
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mumblingmiss 10/16/2022 5:33 PM
I remember on my first date we had a third wheel friend with us lmao
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they're not mutually exclusive really. take precautions if you don't know them well but 99% of the time, you'll be fine. you like them, they like you, you're on a date, think of them as a puzzle to figure out slowly
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mood 🫂 i just try to have faith in myself that if something is off, ill know, and have things in place to make sure im okay. makes me feel more comfortable turning that other part of me off for a bit
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once you both get past the initial awkwardness, it will go wonderfully
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small talk is rather tedious, start asking them about their niche interests
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Wtf have I opened this up to
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There’s like 180 messages
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Is everyone okay or are people just hoeing again
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people love the opportunity to talk about stuff they don't normally get the chance to and appreciate feeling listened to
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Fuckboy Drag King 10/16/2022 5:36 PM
Generally slaggery and date advice
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platonic dates are a good way to practice tbh, at least in my experience. do a 'date' activity with a friend
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Generally slaggery and date advice
General slaggery I can do
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LoLo <3
Is everyone okay or are people just hoeing again
I'm teaching the kids that dates aren't scary
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Date advice perhaps not
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Offer them tea lmao
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About all I got
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Tho tbf I did that to the dealer too so maybe not
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Fuckboy Drag King 10/16/2022 5:37 PM
By that standard
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take their sunglasses
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Fuckboy Drag King 10/16/2022 5:37 PM
you went on a date with a drug dealer
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i was about to say
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take their sunglasses
Fuckboy Drag King 10/16/2022 5:37 PM
😳 erin have we dated 😳
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Fuckboy Drag King
you went on a date with a drug dealer
I would 😳
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not that im aware of lmao
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take their sunglasses
I fuckin will try me baby
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not that im aware of lmao
Fuckboy Drag King 10/16/2022 5:37 PM
I still have your sunshades
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And I am concerned to report they did leave the country with me
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i got a replacement pair dw
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Fuckboy Drag King 10/16/2022 5:37 PM
Still in one piece though
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can't date my drug dealer, he's on the run from the cops. biggie baby i need my [redacted] 😩
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LoLo <3
I fuckin will try me baby
pls 😳
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mahariel
can't date my drug dealer, he's on the run from the cops. biggie baby i need my [redacted] 😩
drug dealers sell sunglasses?!
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uhh sure if you ask them i suppose
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mahariel
can't date my drug dealer, he's on the run from the cops. biggie baby i need my [redacted] 😩
I’ll be your redacted 😘
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"wagwan fam" opens fake designer fanny pack to reveal 200 glasses
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oh fuck
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Amelia - iced coffee enthusiast 10/16/2022 5:40 PM
when i was in paris there were just like 1000 street vendors in front of the eiffel tower selling sunglasses
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jory im in a room with my housemates please give warnings before talking like that
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LoLo <3
I’ll be your redacted 😘
sorry darling don't think you're going to put me in pure euphoria for 8 hours straight followed by 48 hours of wanting to [disconnect from server]
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jory im in a room with my housemates please give warnings before talking like that
😘 i will not
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mahariel
sorry darling don't think you're going to put me in pure euphoria for 8 hours straight followed by 48 hours of wanting to [disconnect from server]
Euphoria for 8 hours? Wanna bet?
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mahariel
sorry darling don't think you're going to put me in pure euphoria for 8 hours straight followed by 48 hours of wanting to [disconnect from server]
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mahariel
sorry darling don't think you're going to put me in pure euphoria for 8 hours straight followed by 48 hours of wanting to [disconnect from server]
Amelia - iced coffee enthusiast 10/16/2022 5:42 PM
wow what a euphemism
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who needs drugs when you have horny
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Amelia - iced coffee enthusiast 10/16/2022 5:43 PM
coomer erin
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coomer?
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Amelia - iced coffee enthusiast 10/16/2022 5:43 PM
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E r i n
coomer?
Amelia - iced coffee enthusiast 10/16/2022 5:44 PM
sorry im chronically online
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nah i just googled it
17:44
i am the exact opposite lmao
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LoLo <3
Euphoria for 8 hours? Wanna bet?
sorry! no hoes, only drugs for a good Christian like me
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why cant hoes be a drug 😔
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mahariel
sorry! no hoes, only drugs for a good Christian like me
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Amelia - iced coffee enthusiast 10/16/2022 5:45 PM
i dont need drugs, im high on these bitches 😎
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E r i n
why cant hoes be a drug 😔
this is what started all of my problems. resist and find the love of Christ Almighty
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impossible
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hey erin
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cool raccoon
17:47
wont convince me though
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this is what the DMT angels showed me
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Amelia - iced coffee enthusiast 10/16/2022 5:47 PM
ah the clockwork elves
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the clockwork elves made me shake hands with God before kicking me back down to this accursed battle they call living
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wont convince me though
how about
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very cute raccoon
17:49
still no
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the raccardinal wishes you to convert
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im already part of the cult of the raccoons
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Fuckboy Drag King 10/16/2022 5:50 PM
Erin our next date will be me taking you to the cathedral and watching as we both catch fire
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the universe is merely a trash can from which the Great Raccoon will one day collect those they deem as treasure
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Fuckboy Drag King 10/16/2022 5:50 PM
Simultaneously whilst I pray
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the universe is merely a trash can from which the Great Raccoon will one day collect those they deem as treasure
i like this lore. I'm adding it to my Better Catholicism world
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Amelia - iced coffee enthusiast 10/16/2022 5:51 PM
i am a follower of the great prophet zarquon
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with the amount of alcohol in my veins i would combust just standing close to a candle, i dont think i can even say that its from me being cursed anymore
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mahariel
how about
FEAR
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Amelia - iced coffee enthusiast
i am a follower of the great prophet zarquon
Fuckboy Drag King 10/16/2022 5:51 PM
oh my god you nerd
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Fuckboy Drag King
oh my god you nerd
Amelia - iced coffee enthusiast 10/16/2022 5:51 PM
if you understood the reference then you cannot call me a nerd!!
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Amelia - iced coffee enthusiast
if you understood the reference then you cannot call me a nerd!!
Fuckboy Drag King 10/16/2022 5:52 PM
perhaps!!
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am i using religion as a shield against the void? no, it's the cults who are wrong
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Fuckboy Drag King 10/16/2022 6:02 PM
Not to derail into depression settings again but I was tidying my apartment (massive W) but found a band t-shirt my ex gave me and you know how an item can just bring you back to a certain place in time? The way he apologised, saying he was saving up for the thing I really wanted, and I just ... wasn't good to that boy, despite it all. Too many unworked issues. People deserved better from me back then and I just wasn't where I am now.
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18:02
Like on one hand, yay for improvement, nay for not doing better.
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holy shit its so pink outside
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Not to derail into depression settings again but I was tidying my apartment (massive W) but found a band t-shirt my ex gave me and you know how an item can just bring you back to a certain place in time? The way he apologised, saying he was saving up for the thing I really wanted, and I just ... wasn't good to that boy, despite it all. Too many unworked issues. People deserved better from me back then and I just wasn't where I am now.
Bro just throw it out you don’t need reminders from that stuff if it makes you feel bad 🫂 (edited)
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Confessions BOT 10/16/2022 6:05 PM
Anonymous Confession (#769)
"there it is again. that feeling of never being good enough to be cared about that I've missed so much"
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Anonymous Confession (#770)
"so my ED is back, and anxiety in full swing"
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Oh darling I’m so sorry 🫂 you’re good enough just the way you are, whatever your head tells you
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LoLo <3
Bro just throw it out you don’t need reminders from that stuff if it makes you feel bad 🫂 (edited)
Fuckboy Drag King 10/16/2022 6:06 PM
Well that's kinda the thing I completely forgot about it, and it's a nice tshirt and the memories (generally) are really pleasant. I was just shocked it hit me, this sort of melancholic self reflection, it's good once in a while, for me at least.
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If you ever need to talk my DMs are always open 🫂💗 I’m so sorry you’re struggling again OP baby steps back into it if that’s what you need, just do what you can to take care of yourself 🫂💗
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Well that's kinda the thing I completely forgot about it, and it's a nice tshirt and the memories (generally) are really pleasant. I was just shocked it hit me, this sort of melancholic self reflection, it's good once in a while, for me at least.
Fair enough but please don’t beat yourself up on the past. Remember you’re a different person now and while that doesn’t change what happened it doesn’t inhibit your ability to grow from it 💗
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Confessions BOT 10/16/2022 6:14 PM
Anonymous Confession (#771)
"Maybe I ask too much of some people. I never had any expectations but here I am shaking my head and laughing to myself again."
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mood lol
18:21
i knew my consistent happiness had to come down at some point. didn't think i would get hit so hard though
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18:21
wow we're all going through it today huh
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You’re allowed to put yourself first OP I’m sorry people in your world are making you feel like this 🫂 my DMs are open if you need to talk 💗
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lowkey panicking that i broke my earbuds by crying on them
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fingers crossed that it's just low battery
18:25
i need to stop listening to songs that make me so utterly sad
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mumblingmiss 10/16/2022 6:25 PM
I miss y'all, I wanna squeeze you all tight until the bad feeling juice comes out
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it's alright CB, i just feel like a doormat
18:32
I'll be fine, everyone else needs help
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mumblingmiss 10/16/2022 6:32 PM
Let me squeeze you
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doesn't mean we can't be here to support you however we can too 🫂
18:33
you're a brilliant person that deserves just as much love and care as everyone else here
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helping people is the only thing that gives me purpose
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mumblingmiss 10/16/2022 6:34 PM
Let me s q u e e z e you
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whenever someone i care about seems to be feeling like shit, my first instinct is to reach out and comfort
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and that's exactly what makes you a great friend who deserves the same
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my fatal flaw, as a Greek tragedy would put it
18:34
i do worry that it'll end up killing me
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but hopefully not
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I don't think it will, or at least certainly hope it won't
18:35
you've gotta go out helping me castrate as many tories as we can
18:36
i will also accept stealing someones yacht and accidentally crashing it because you get distracted by cute animal pictures
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i just need to cry it out and go to sleep
18:37
so used to this that my brain has a whole routine for it
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mumblingmiss 10/16/2022 6:37 PM
What's your fav snack
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you've gotta go out helping me castrate as many tories as we can
Amelia - iced coffee enthusiast 10/16/2022 6:38 PM
slap on the wrist considering
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I'm really sorry you're having to deal with this, I do hope you feel better and get some good rest 🫂 here if you do want to talk
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ffs I'm not meant to be like this. i spent the last few weeks reinventing myself to not be so pathetic
18:39
sleep and I'll be back to it
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mumblingmiss 10/16/2022 6:40 PM
What your fav snack and drink
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sorry about this guys
18:47
I'm kicking myself over things i can't really control
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mumblingmiss
What your fav snack and drink
i actually have no idea
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You never need to apologize, better to vent it out than let it swamp you in your head too much
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It’s okay darling it’s not your fault
18:48
It’s okay it’s all going to be okay
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mumblingmiss 10/16/2022 6:48 PM
Well if you ever have a snack or something that you love when you need comfort lmk girl gonna get a care package
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i just wish i was who i see in my head but i suppose you all know what that's like. I'm not the right gender, i hate my body for its proportions. i wish i was the carefree, non-clingy person the dream version of me is. who has so many talents and isn't attached to anything or anyone
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18:50
addicted to living life to the fullest and not nicotine and getting depressed over things that genuinely do not matter
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Well if you ever have a snack or something that you love when you need comfort lmk girl gonna get a care package
it's alright but thank you haha. I'll do that for everyone else who's having a tough time though
18:51
no spouse or kids to spend my salary on so friends it is
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i need to fill my calendar up to the brink again. i cleared it this weekend and that wasn't good
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mumblingmiss 10/16/2022 6:54 PM
It's hard to know the right thing to say when you're saying I'm guessing exactly what a lot of us are also feeling. But I need you to know that you matter. We love you and care about you so so much. It's always hard to be stuck being a person you don't want to be and god knows if I had a solution to that I would spread it far and wide. I'm always here if you need to talk or if you ever want to hear a voice. I hope you can feel happier soon honey
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you're absolutely wonderful, all of you are. i always feel like an attention-seeker when i talk about this stuff but i genuinely appreciate all of your inputs
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mumblingmiss 10/16/2022 6:56 PM
You're not an attention seeker, you're allowed to let everything out. It's always way better than bottling it all up
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honestly it's just difficult to talk about this stuff and be vulnreble to people, I think the brain just tries to make reasons not to by making us worry that we're attention seeking
18:57
i mean, the only attention we're seeking is communication and comfort/help, which is something everyone deserves
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you're absolutely wonderful, all of you are. i always feel like an attention-seeker when i talk about this stuff but i genuinely appreciate all of your inputs
You’re fine darling you’re allowed to talk to people about how you feel it’s healthy
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Confessions BOT 10/16/2022 7:47 PM
Anonymous Confession (#772)
"I'm a little bit angry and want to say it to the people who are making me feel this way but I know it's a bad idea and I'll regret it"
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Instead of telling them you’re angry maybe write down the things you want to say to them and figure out a way to phrase it in a less angry way so you get your point across but from a perspective of fixing it instead of just ranting and moving on? Working through the problems together is always better than being sad about it and continuing a strained environment
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Confessions BOT 10/17/2022 9:38 AM
Anonymous Confession (#773)
"It feels like all the progress I've been making in basically everything didn't work. I struggled so much to get things healthier, more stable, and now I find out basically none of it worked. The only difference is that I don't hate who I am, I just hate my body, how I deal with things, and the way the world is right now. I've been stuck in a pit of shittiness for weeks now, I don't even remember when it first started, hoping that short term relief will just buy me time until I have a clear enough head to approach things from a healthy perspective. That's what I always do, and while it is awful until I get to that moment, it usually works. But it feels like as time goes on I'm just recieving more problems, more stress, and so much more pressure. It's been weeks and I have come up with one way that could help me feel better about one problem, even though it is far more likely to make it worse, and I know I'm going to feel awful leading up to it, awful during it, and chances are awful after it. I'm confident eventually I'll get in that state of mind where I can fix things, but short term relief was not supposed to go on this long, nor was I supposed to feel this stuck and drained, and I know I'm gonna regret so much of this in the future but I'm just holding out hope that I'll end up doing what I always do, find something new about myself that keeps me going a bit longer. It's just that this is the first time its not been about me hating myself fully, it's about stuff that is beyond my control, and the problems that keep stacking up are also beyond my control. I'm confident in myself but I know that it's going to take a long time to deal with all this stuff now, and it's honestly scaring me so much now."
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Figuring out what works for you is a journey and not an easy one. I’m glad you’re at a point where you no longer hate your body, that’s a hard point to reach and a brilliant milestone to be at in this stage of your life. Coping mechanisms whatever they might be are usually short term. If you’re struggling with them now though it might be time to look for new ones. Genuinely I found what works best for me is facemasks when I feel bad instead of what I used to do. The cold shocks you and it’s good for your skin etc. there’s a lot in life that we can’t control. It sucks but there’s some comfort in that it’s not your fault. Take some solace in doing what you can to make yourself feel good first. Everyone has a little bit of I want to make the world better in them, but it’s okay if the part of the world you make better is the environment directly surrounding you. Yk how on a plane you have to put your own oxygen mask on first? Make sure you’re in a good place before you take on others’ burdens. I don’t know what it is that’s outside your control you’re referring to so can’t say much on that but trust in knowing who you are and what you want. Circumstances might not change but give yourself a fighting chance to face what you have to face. I’m here for you OP if you need anything 🫂💗
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mumblingmiss 10/17/2022 2:28 PM
I feel like I can literally feel my period pulling up in the fuckin driveway and knocking on the door but I didn't invite it. Fuck biology my dudes
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I feel like I can literally feel my period pulling up in the fuckin driveway and knocking on the door but I didn't invite it. Fuck biology my dudes
Phantom cramps <<<<
15:54
Mine made me throw up yesterday it’s the worst feeling I’m so sorry
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mumblingmiss 10/17/2022 3:56 PM
I have endometriosis and cramps are my worst fucking enemy in life
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Sweating so much rn
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mumblingmiss 10/17/2022 5:48 PM
kill me
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mumblingmiss
I have endometriosis and cramps are my worst fucking enemy in life
ah that's horrible, do you have painkillers?
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mumblingmiss 10/17/2022 5:49 PM
They don't work lmao
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Hot water bottles?
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mumblingmiss 10/17/2022 5:50 PM
It's not even the cramps rn my head is exploding
17:52
Would keep talking but my eyes are dead so ilk come back soon
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hmm maybe no screens and a dark room?
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Just try and take a nap baby I hope you feel better soon 🫂🫂
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mumblingmiss 10/17/2022 7:12 PM
Thanks guys, have restored eyesight now with the mystical power of gel ice pack
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Glad you’re feeling better darling💗
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Confessions BOT 10/17/2022 10:13 PM
Anonymous Confession (#775)
"Dysphoria walking up like "hi you haven't seen me in a while time to make your day worse""
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^^ distracting yourself is really the way to do it
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don't let yourself dwell on it and know you're gorgeous no matter what your head says
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Or handsome if you prefer that 🫂 we love you and think you look wonderful just the way you are 💗
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that too, tho i use gorgeous for everyone
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Same lol
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either one works 🫂
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how the anonymous confession machine work?
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Amelia - iced coffee enthusiast 10/18/2022 12:24 AM
type /confess
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then in the box type your message
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well now i have to wait so its not obviously me 🕵️‍♀️
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skeletons of anxiety 10/18/2022 1:13 PM
stelf
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mumblingmiss 10/18/2022 2:05 PM
Hysterectomy please, I'm begging.
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Confessions BOT 10/18/2022 3:20 PM
Anonymous Confession (#776)
"made some mistakes and accidentally said some bad shit about wonderful people recently and I'm so angry at myself it's hard not to slip into the hate spiral. I'm my own worst enemy"
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If you message them and apologise I’m sure it’ll be okay. Everyone makes mistakes it’s how you react to them that shows who you are. It’s okay, you didn’t mean anything to hurt anyone and you can still fix it. I hope you’re okay op 🫂 here if you need to talk 💗
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^ try not to blame yourself for something you didnt intend, try and make up for it and if you cant its beyond your control. you sound empathetic and considerate, just that you had a rough time and said things you didnt mean to. that doesnt make you a bad person. hope youre okay 🫂
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^ always best to apologise asap and explain yourself without making excuses
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the universe does not want me to be sober
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not even 48 hours since i had my last drink and yet another thing comes up
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Unless the universe has thrown a bottle of vodka through your window it does
17:38
You okay?
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my brother just messaged me saying the anti terrorism police are visiting him tomorrow morning
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What?
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idk he just said he only has a vague idea of why and im just overthinking everything he said probably and its a bit stressful
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Oh darling I’m sorry
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I wouldn’t recommend going to see him, maybe message him in the afternoon see how it went won’t look weird
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But this isn’t anything you’ve done you’re fine
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yeah i know its just family stuff always gets messy
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i shouldnt react like this its not my problem and i shouldnt feel shit about something that isnt even mine to deal with, ive offered to help however he needs it its now beyond me, so i just need to push it from my mind
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Yeah, easier said than done I guess 🫂 I’ve got Spanish until 8:15 but I can come over after if you need me?
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thank you, i appreciate it, im sure ill be fine. just gonna try and do some cleaning and work, keep my mind off it
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mumblingmiss 10/18/2022 7:11 PM
It's fair to say I'll be switching back to my original combined pill routine after this until we figure out a better alternative
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im sorry, hope youre okay and/or feel better soon 🫂
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mumblingmiss 10/18/2022 7:28 PM
Thank you, wifey
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Im just never endingly tired rn. Ive got double duty tonight and tomorrow night which essentially means I'll be on the clock from ehen I started at 8.45am this morning til I finish at 4.45pm on thursday and this week has already completely killed what little energy I had. Of the last 9 days ive only had 1 off, I am dyiiiiing
22:02
The piss poor wages I do receive are not worth it
22:03
£70 a week if nowhere nesr enough for the hours they fucking expect of us
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Confessions BOT 10/18/2022 10:45 PM
Anonymous Confession (#777)
"I don't cry very often, and know I'm well overdue for a cry session that'll likely end up like the last one (full breakdown and panic attack that makes my housemates nearly break down my door to get in and check on me). Last couple of days I've just had brief moments where I'm fully ready to just break down, usually in public places which is unideal. Not 100% sure how to deal with this, if I should try to prevoke it when I'm alone or just wait and let it happen naturally and hope it's not too bad?"
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tactical cry is usually pretty good
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Amelia - iced coffee enthusiast 10/18/2022 10:47 PM
idk if you can force it
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I'd say try and surround yourself with people you feel safe around if you feel something like that is coming, that way if you feel like you need people there there will be people there. Even if you'd rather be alone for it I think having people you trust to know where you are if you need help is the best case scenario
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I'm sorry you're dealing with this OP it really is the season for menty b's but we're here if you need support okay? 💗
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Confessions BOT 10/19/2022 1:22 AM
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"how does one tactical cry"
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look through old texts
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nah i just think of things that make me sad or watch/read smth v depressing
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Will (he/they) 10/19/2022 2:44 AM
gonna cry :’)
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Will (he/they)
gonna cry :’)
hope youre okay 🤗
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Will (he/they) 10/19/2022 2:47 AM
nope :)
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❤️ itll be okay
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Will (he/they) 10/19/2022 3:16 AM
i'm not sure if it will be tho
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Do you want to talk about it?
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Confessions BOT 10/19/2022 7:01 PM
Anonymous Confession (#782)
"definitely a positive vent but I went on that date! and it went really well im seeing them again next wk!!"
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Ooo!!! Exciting have fun OP!!
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Fuckboy Drag King 10/19/2022 7:02 PM
Amazing! Glad it went well
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Confessions BOT 10/20/2022 1:17 AM
Anonymous Confession (#784)
"Can someone please tell me how one tiktok resurfaces my groomer trauma to the max and why im crying about it. I thought I was over this"
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mumblingmiss 10/20/2022 12:06 PM
I appreciate my advisor is always checking on me when he notices I've been absent from his classes this last week but making me feel guilty about it isn't going to help and will probably actually make me turn up less
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ACertainSaffron 10/20/2022 12:16 PM
I'm really sorry, I have a similar issue with absence and stress, but my advisor has actually never contacted me
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do you have a reading week on your course?
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mumblingmiss 10/20/2022 12:17 PM
Yeah next week
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Thats when I was planning to catch up
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ACertainSaffron 10/20/2022 12:18 PM
same, I want to try and use it to reset
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I'm sorry your advisor is making you feel at fault tho 🫂
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like Erin said to me earlier, you've got yourself to look out for above anything else
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mumblingmiss 10/20/2022 12:20 PM
Yeah he emails me even if I only miss one like he's nice and all but bugger off my dude, I'll do what I do and you leave me to it
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Hope you're okay too
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ACertainSaffron 10/20/2022 12:20 PM
mochim30Froglove
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we have the 2 extremes on the advisor spectrum, no contact and too much contact 😭
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mumblingmiss 10/20/2022 12:21 PM
Lmao
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They should have like an enforced email quota to hit but only talk to us one every couple months
12:22
Or just I'll talk to you if I need to but don't contact me lmao
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I’m in 3rd year and my advisor has only ever messaged me when I messaged her first:(
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That being said I’ve only missed 3 lectures since starting uni so ig she doesn’t care
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mumblingmiss 10/20/2022 12:23 PM
Let's swap advisors around
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ACertainSaffron 10/20/2022 12:24 PM
only missed 3 omg Lo how do you do it 😭
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I’m in a position where I have okay mental health most of the time and the first thing to go isn’t my lectures (it’s usually my wallet lmfao) so they don’t know or worry?
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i missed like 1 in 4 lectures in 1st year bc i would be so exhausted from partying the night before
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then never missed one during covid bc all i had to do was find my laptop and get back into bed lmao
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ACertainSaffron 10/20/2022 12:26 PM
I mean fair enough, I miss a lot but my grades don't slip so I don't think they care because of that
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sorry your advisor is so overbearing tho
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ACertainSaffron 10/20/2022 12:26 PM
but I've been making an effort this year to be better with them, final year and all I feel like I should take this one seriously yknow
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mumblingmiss 10/20/2022 12:27 PM
Ik he's probably just bugging me bc it's my repeat year but I passed my first semester with pretty decent grades, it was only the second one where I was too fucked up to function lmaooo
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Just cut up the only lingerie my ex ever bought me for a halloween costume lmao this better go well or I'm gonna cry so hard
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mumblingmiss 10/20/2022 2:17 PM
You okay hun??
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I will be if this looks good
14:17
But my body keeps letting me down lmao
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mumblingmiss 10/20/2022 2:17 PM
:(( well I'll keep my fingers crossed
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What halloween costume are you trying to do
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It's cool I'm out their league anyway. Just sentimental bc the last time I wore it was to sleep w them lol
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I'm going as harley quinn w @Unknown as Ivy plus a couple others
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@Unknown is gonna be kite man
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mumblingmiss 10/20/2022 2:18 PM
Yes bitchhh
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I kind of forgot about Halloween
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ACertainSaffron
went to the GP 2 days ago to ask for a referral to a gender identity clinic, jumped through hoops and invasive questions with the GP, who concluded (paraphrased) "let's put the gender dysphoria to one side, and focus on your depression, I'm going to refer you to a very good psychiatrist in the city, his waiting list is only a month and he has much more experience". I asked for a referral in the appointment and I've been tossed into the mental health system instead. Wonderful. Is this psychiatrist specialised in gender? Will he actually listen to me? Will I even get the fucking email that the GP said he'd send right away and it's been 2 days with no email or text? Apparently saying I've only known I was trans for a year makes me a special fucking case that doesn't get instantly referred, I'll go fuck myself I guess. I'm just tired of it all.
ACertainSaffron 10/21/2022 5:44 PM
so, update on this, I called the UEA med centre earlier today since still no email, and the lady said I had been referred to a gender identity clinic on my record?? So I'm not being referred to some therapist at all, my GP did a 180 and has done what I asked? I'm very confused but also very happy haha, just waiting on the clinic to email me now. I guess the doctor I saw spoke to his colleagues and they informed him that he kinda had to refer me if I requested it? Idk. Not complaining lol.
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confusing but fantastic news, glad to hear it though! hope its a decent step in the right direction and they start supporting you properly 🫂
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mumblingmiss 10/21/2022 5:48 PM
Bizarre but fantastic
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Best of luck to you :))
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Yooo best case scenario!! Glad everything worked out 🫂
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Confessions BOT 10/21/2022 6:09 PM
Anonymous Confession (#786)
"You ever meet someone really attractive, get on really well and then you learn their name and the magic diminishes somewhat. Like just one of those names that's like. 😐 you know??"
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erin is a good name i swear
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mumblingmiss 10/21/2022 6:10 PM
Ah fuck yall can't be post confessions about me like that
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Lmao me w this guy at work-
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Fuckboy Drag King 10/21/2022 6:13 PM
I do feel this lmao but I also wanna know what the name is so i can judge you for judging
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mumblingmiss 10/21/2022 6:14 PM
What's the name OP
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Do I need to get a name change OP
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Confessions BOT 10/21/2022 6:16 PM
Anonymous Confession (#787)
"Malcolm 😂"
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Fuckboy Drag King 10/21/2022 6:17 PM
yeah gg go next mate
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tucker
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mumblingmiss 10/21/2022 6:17 PM
AAAAA
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greg
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gary
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stanley
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i could go on
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mumblingmiss 10/21/2022 6:17 PM
I'd date a greg
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boris
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Fuckboy Drag King 10/21/2022 6:17 PM
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he's mine
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ACertainSaffron 10/21/2022 6:17 PM
What's wrong with Malcolm 💀 I was expecting a tv highschool bully name, like Biff
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mahariel
stanley
Hey that’s my friends dead cat don’t be mean
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E r i n
boris
that didn't stop you
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like i said, he's mine
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Fuckboy Drag King 10/21/2022 6:18 PM
What sort of fucking name is Biff??
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ACertainSaffron 10/21/2022 6:18 PM
exactly
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biff is an actual name i think
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ACertainSaffron 10/21/2022 6:18 PM
if it was Biff I would understand
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LoLo <3
Hey that’s my friends dead cat don’t be mean
flattened in heaven
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do you think cats go to Hell
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mahariel
flattened in heaven
STOP SHE GETS SO MAD IF WE MAKE FLAT STANLEY JOKES HE GOT HIT BY A CAR
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if dogs go to Heaven
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mumblingmiss 10/21/2022 6:18 PM
Omg
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LoLo <3
STOP SHE GETS SO MAD IF WE MAKE FLAT STANLEY JOKES HE GOT HIT BY A CAR
i have never wanted to be a car more
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*cat
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either works actually
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mumblingmiss 10/21/2022 6:19 PM
I hate you sm
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mahariel
i have never wanted to be a car more
NO
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fortunately raccoons cant die
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dont ruin this for me
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Fuckboy Drag King 10/21/2022 6:19 PM
ngl had a similar experience today with meeting someone
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I vibed really well with him and at the end he told me his name was Pascal and I would never judge but also it's a fucking triangle and I just
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Imagine being called a triangle
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I just couldn't
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mumblingmiss 10/21/2022 6:20 PM
LMAOOOO
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"Triangles are hot ngl" - Erin
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OH THE SCALENE TRIANGLE
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Fuckboy Drag King
I vibed really well with him and at the end he told me his name was Pascal and I would never judge but also it's a fucking triangle and I just
Tb to my ex hammered singing heathers w me then laughing ‘his names ram, that’s a compsci thing Lo incase you don’t know what it means’ like thanks baby let’s go to bed now smh
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Ew Compsci RUN
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FUCK ME SCALENE TRIANGLE
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is he actually named after RAM oh my god
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Highkey doubt
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Think it’s just American names weird
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would he have shot up the school if the bomber didn't get to it first
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Erin
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Oh my god
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what did she say
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I wanna be a dodecahedron
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Fuckboy Drag King 10/21/2022 6:22 PM
Can we please gofundme Erin some therapy
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WHAT DID SHE SAY
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lmaooo
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Fuckboy Drag King 10/21/2022 6:22 PM
erin go on
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tell them what you did
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we're catholic you can confess here
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im not though
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Fuckboy Drag King 10/21/2022 6:22 PM
don't care
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fuck it
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i said
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Fuckboy Drag King 10/21/2022 6:23 PM
ill slam you into a confession booth in a minute
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Fuckboy Drag King
ill slam you into a confession booth in a minute
😳
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LMAO
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whoever reacted to that at the same time as me i love you
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/snipe
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thank you discord gods
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i will strangle this bot with my bare hands
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i should capitalise on my winding
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Fuckboy Drag King 10/21/2022 6:24 PM
What a sentence
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going full Blade Runner on this thing
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onlyfans subscription and you get a screenshot of every message i delete
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Confessions BOT 10/21/2022 6:25 PM
Anonymous Confession (#788)
"fuck this bullshit. My worth is better"
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idk what this is about but agreed
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onlyfans subscription and you get a screenshot of every message i delete
Fuckboy Drag King 10/21/2022 6:25 PM
Ngl I just need to assume its something depraved and I know enough
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you okay OP? here if you want to talk
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Fuckboy Drag King 10/21/2022 6:26 PM
Assuming that is not related to Malcolm, but hope you're okay OP 🫂
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Here if you need anything OP 🫂🫂
18:27
glad you're aware of your worth kiddo
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mumblingmiss 10/21/2022 6:28 PM
We love self worth
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Confessions BOT 10/21/2022 6:49 PM
Anonymous Confession (#789)
"I'm into a few of you but it's basically just the people that will say "oh honey you don't want to date me" oh babes I defo do shut up"
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honey you want to date me~
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im an emotional mess
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I will cry on you all night
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Fuckboy Drag King 10/21/2022 6:56 PM
the B polycule lives on
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honestly there are like 2-4 people I would date here
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Fuckboy Drag King 10/21/2022 7:00 PM
😳
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am I your number 1 side bitxh 😳
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keyword on side 😌
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skeletons of anxiety 10/21/2022 7:01 PM
people think im being cute when i say you shouldn't date me, i don't have a dangerous edge or anything, i just have zero life skills and add nothing to a dynamic. amazing fashion sense and thick fuckin hips only go so far.
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mumblingmiss 10/21/2022 7:02 PM
B stop confessing your love for me smh
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All im saying is
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none of you have taken me out for a date and wooed me yet
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mumblingmiss 10/21/2022 7:03 PM
Do you like being insulted? If so, then I will
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Fuckboy Drag King 10/21/2022 7:03 PM
Nahh CB you talk a big game but I feel you'd be quite nice on dates
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klsdgiponsdfnpsfsnipodfs
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mumblingmiss 10/21/2022 7:04 PM
I wouldn't know haven't been on one since I was 14
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Fuckboy Drag King 10/21/2022 7:04 PM
👀
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I'll take you on my killer date 100% good fun
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might die but
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hot
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hot
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hot
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hot
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Fuckboy Drag King 10/21/2022 7:06 PM
👀
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mumblingmiss 10/21/2022 7:07 PM
I mean if you want to 👉👈
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mumblingmiss 10/21/2022 7:16 PM
My day was going so good until the takeaway I just had
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Fuckboy Drag King 10/21/2022 7:17 PM
Oh no
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What was it
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mumblingmiss 10/21/2022 7:17 PM
It was just a pepperoni pizza and chips but fuck me that was bad
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19:18
Another place I won't be getting food from again
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Confessions BOT 10/22/2022 1:29 AM
Anonymous Confession (#790)
"So my emotions have just shut off? Like I relived a whole bunch of trauma tonight and now theyre just gone. I dont feel anything, except wants and needs? No happiness no sadness just nothing?"
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I’m so sorry you’re going through that OP 🫂 try and get some rest if you can and eat something, stay hydrated and all that, I’m here if you need to talk 💗🫂🫂
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Numbness and lack of emotion is a very common trauma response. Its a self-defence mechanism to minimise any further pain and distress. Its a very difficult thing to be going through Ive been there myself. I want you to know youre not alone, youre not broken, and things can and will get better. Healing takes time, things won't improve immediately despite how hard it can be to feel like that. Patience is arguably just as difficult but so very mecessary. You will be able to feel again, to laugh, to cry. It might take a little while after a flashback or reliving events but you'll be okay. You're not where you were when it happened, youre not who it happened to anymore. Take time, show yourself kindness, let yourself recover - thats how healing begins ❤️ Whoever you are OP I'm here for you if you need me
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Confessions BOT 10/22/2022 10:51 AM
Anonymous Confession (#791)
"I don't work very often, so when I do I find it really important to commit myself to it and make sure I do a good job. What I try really hard not to do is wake up with a really intense feeling of dread, struggle to control my breathing and not cry, and have to cancel my shift because the prospect of having to deal with a bunch of strangers judging me and making assumptions on me is just too much to handle right now. Alas, better luck next time I guess."
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mumblingmiss 10/22/2022 10:55 AM
Hey OP, I'm sorry to hear you're struggling so much. Getting up and leaving the house to face a work day can get super difficult especially if you have to cope with all the anxiety that can come with it. If you genuinely can't handle going then you definitely made the best decision to stay at home. Your wellbeing will always be significantly more important than work. I'm here if you ever want to talk or hear a voice, have plenty of rest today darling. 💓 🫂
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Confessions BOT 10/22/2022 10:57 AM
Anonymous Confession (#792)
"woke up and emotions are barely still there. Maybe I felt a twinge of fear earlier but nothing else"
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NOT MY ASSAULTER APPEARING ON MY TINDER
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FUCKING AWFUL
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Fucking SAed me in first year
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Oh Bran I'm sorry 🫂
21:37
Report and block and move on
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Probably the best way to deal w it
21:38
Not to tell you what to do or anything but please don't dwell on it it won't help your mental state 🫂
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Coming down from a panic attack and @Will (he/they) is playing a song with Hatsune miku cryingsunglass Why is it helping
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Will (he/they) 10/23/2022 2:13 AM
ily
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<3
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I genuinely just despise hypocrisy
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Such people describe that their friendships have been broken yet actively try to damage the ones I have, by horrible words which break my heart.
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I am this close to purging these people from my life, and some from here too.
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But, im not allowed to be upset about it, or I get threats on peoples own lives if I show weakness once. - Threats about SH TW
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mumblingmiss 10/24/2022 8:04 AM
That's horrible to hear, people making threats like that is terrifying. You're absolutely allowed to be upset about it and it's very irresponsible for anyone to say stuff like that
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ACertainSaffron 10/24/2022 3:10 PM
Okay so the GP saga continues lol, I have been referred to a psychiatrist, but they're specialised in gender dysphoria supposedly. (Considering the letter is from 'Gender Dysphoria Centre Norwich' I would hope so).
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Oh that's good hopefully?
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Hope it goes well and this is a sign things are moving in the right direction 🫂
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ACertainSaffron 10/24/2022 3:53 PM
Im not appreciating being tossed around right now, so hopefully this guy knows what he's talking about and actually refers me
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Confessions BOT 10/24/2022 4:49 PM
Anonymous Confession (#793)
"peoples statuses about ED is making me really uncomfortable"
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Shit sorry op meant it as a joke I made earlier not intended to trigger anyone and have deleted it now, hope you’re okay 🫂
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Confessions BOT 10/24/2022 5:38 PM
Anonymous Confession (#794)
"Nightmares have been retriggered again, trauma from my past has prevented me from sleep for the past few days. Im exhausted and dont have anyone to help. The only person I can actually trust is away. Everyone else i cant put my faith in, at least in my "close" friend group"
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Confessions BOT 10/25/2022 8:11 PM
Anonymous Confession (#795)
"some people don't know when theyve crossed the line and they'll regret it"
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Literally OP
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Confessions BOT 10/25/2022 9:40 PM
Anonymous Confession (#796)
"Can’t believe the hypocrisy of some people. Would say Do better but starting to think that’s their best"
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mumblingmiss 10/25/2022 9:44 PM
Go off OP. Also how many of these are the same person bc it's very similar
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Confessions BOT 10/25/2022 9:45 PM
Anonymous Confession (#797)
"2/4 are mine - last op"
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mumblingmiss 10/25/2022 9:46 PM
Solid 50/50 babes (edited)
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Keep posting, get your score up
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Confessions BOT 10/30/2022 5:47 PM
Anonymous Confession (#798)
"God reading old texts from an ex really fucking hurts. Like really fucking hurts. The good bits, the bad bits, it's all just pain it shouldn't be allowed, messages should just vanish immediately."
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Confessions BOT 11/05/2022 8:21 AM
Anonymous Confession (#799)
"I am panicking a little bc I think I’m catching feelings for someone but I also feel like it’s too soon to know for sure. I also think that this always happens to me in which I meet someone, I feel@like I might like them and they might like me, but I do nothing about it and then just have to watch them be with someone else and smile and just cope with being their friend but I also think in this situation it’s just too soon to know and ahhhhhhsv"
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Will (he/they) 11/12/2022 1:23 AM
i’m not “clicking” with anyone like i used to… like i’ll have my moments and such, but it’s nothing super constant
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Confessions BOT 11/13/2022 5:24 PM
Anonymous Confession (#800)
"Can people be nice and not complete dicks about you behind your back for just once?"
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me rn
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Charlotte the aaodjsijdpajdwjads 11/24/2022 5:33 AM
Fr
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ran for my life just now
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holy shit that was scary
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men /neg
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Confessions BOT 11/25/2022 11:06 PM
Anonymous Confession (#804)
"so many assignments. so many fucking assignments. i am so bad at this. i want university so bad because it keeps me away from real life and my parents grating on me but. how on earth am i gonna pass my modules. i am so fucking frustrated."
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Deleted User 11/25/2022 11:35 PM
just wanted to go in the kitchen but now i hear foreign voices & loud music in the kitchen fml (edited)
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It’s nights like this I miss the closeness of having someone I can just fall asleep on, like don’t get me wrong Will was an asshole and I will never get back with my ex. But like I just miss being able to sleep so easily with someone there
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Thank you for attending Bs Pining ted talk
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I fucking can’t this has actually ruined my whole day. im 98% sure ive just run into someone I know from high school. And he was just…the worst person. he’s transphobic and homophobic as fuck, would consistently make a point to misgender me when he found I used they/them. We were friends before all this and he used literal manipulative ways of keeping me as a friend telling me he was gonna kill himself because of me or hurt himself or something of the variety
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im not even mad he’s here im more upset I’ve managed to bump into him. this university is fucking massive there is such a slim chance of me running into him
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im just
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ugh
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Will (he/they) 12/02/2022 8:14 PM
good god my sister and her bf are at it again
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So. For all of you who knows the shit between me and Zach, it costed me one of the people I care about the most. But now I’m worried about Zach, Zach is now close with my SAers Ex, the same person who dmed me abuse and claimed I lied about the situation despite me having a literal confession from the person. UEA did nothing about it ofc but now I’m extremely worried for the sake of Zach, I distrust him heavily. But idk what to do
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My first thought was to DM Liam to keep an eye out, maybe I was looking for an excuse to speak to liam again but I’m genuinely worried for the safety of this person
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Why is it so hard to just dislike someone and move on, instead of being scared for them so deeply it prevents me sleeping
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Zach did awful things to me, but he doesn’t deserve the same pain which was caused.
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Fuckkkk okay idk
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Nobody deserves suffering B, regardless of who they are and what the thing is. Ultimately, it’s up to you what you do but honestly, I would say to set some boundaries with yourself on this one. Step back from these people and move on. When situations, people or places cause you this much distress, reliving the trauma, it’s not worth it. It’s taken me too long to realise but you can just walk away from people and sometimes it’s much better to. Life is too short for our precious time to be filled with worry and upset over people who do us harm. I know it sucks now but if they don’t see your worth then fuck it, move on. There are plenty of people who do 💁🏼
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Confessions BOT 12/07/2022 9:22 AM
Anonymous Confession (#841)
"I need someone to force me to go to a therapist cause I never will, where do I start"
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Got screamed at by a Karen today, nearly cried to my manager but she was surprisingly chill?
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B
Got screamed at by a Karen today, nearly cried to my manager but she was surprisingly chill?
SHE SCREAMED AT U ??? PLS
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SHE SCREAMED AT U ??? PLS
"IVE worked in hospitality for YEARS I THINK WHAT YOU DID WAS EXTREMELY RUDE"
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BEstie if you worked in hospitality, you wouldnt be screaming at me right now
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Maybe she works for Costa HQ so she really cares about Costa's profits
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Maybe she works for Costa HQ so she really cares about Costa's profits
Its not like costa lost anything, I literally cannot process what benefits her from Complaining, but the look on her face when she asked my collegue for a manager and I spun around and said, i am the shift lead supervisor
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She was not amused
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I always get points for my sassy spins, with the bitch, I am the manager
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pls she was such a Karen. like she was s c r e a m i n g to her family from the queue
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pls she was such a Karen. like she was s c r e a m i n g to her family from the queue
god it was so funny when she was staring at me laughing with my collegue and my collegue even scares me
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Its not like costa lost anything, I literally cannot process what benefits her from Complaining, but the look on her face when she asked my collegue for a manager and I spun around and said, i am the shift lead supervisor
pls I love it when they ask for the manager and you can go “wELL AcTuAllY”
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pls I love it when they ask for the manager and you can go “wELL AcTuAllY”
you dont understand the power it makes me feel, I literally giggle
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god I sound power hungry
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I loved it when my seniors did it to my residents 😭
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it was so fricking funny honestly
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only reason im a supervisor lmfao
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love it when I’ve been sat here for 40 minutes thinking my clothes are being washed, and when the washing machine beeped and I checked my stuff was all still dry 🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰
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circuit Lansbury yay
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Laundry
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fuck circuit
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right
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took my money and didn’t wash my clothes love that for me
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Confessions BOT 12/11/2022 2:25 AM
Anonymous Confession (#853)
"My luck with guys is about as lucky as that of the guy who invested in blackberry instead of Apple before it took off. Every attempt of reaching out and forming a realtionship has just lead to heart break for one reason or another. Which I'm just straight up not equipped to deal with. Especially this most recent dumpster fire. Lowkey ready to just buy a bunch of cats and live alone xD"
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itsgoing to be OK op, people are here for you ❤️
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pls stop taking photos of me
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I didnt know where else to put this but uh I really dislike jokes about people lying to me. it severely triggers a lot of paranoia and I do take thing very bluntly so if a joke like that is made I will genuinely believe it? idk ik it was supposed to be funny but it uh kinda rubbed me the wrong way and I just wanted to say for future like give me a heads up?
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I’m okay I just uh. yeah just needed to get it out there
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idk maybe I’m being dumb and this is a silly thing to complain about but 🙃
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I should add this isn’t aimed or anything I’m not mad or upset at anyone in particular I just needed to say ig lmao
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Will (he/they) 12/20/2022 7:04 PM
i have to call out today because we don’t have a car rn since it’s in the shop and it hasn’t even been looked at, and i can’t exactly uber bc it’s cost prohibitive rn. it wouldn’t really be a problem but my manager has it out to get me or it sure feels like it 🫠
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So there’s a very real chance I have scarlet fever 🙃. My mum neglected to tell me that my brother had caught it, and since yesterday I’ve had an insanely high fever, been delirious been coughing like crazy and EVERYTHING hurts. Don’t actually know if those are symptoms of scarlet fever, but I’m hella mad at my mum right now. Oh and I was informed last night that we’re going on vacation tomorrow, fun times
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tw// threats? (edited)
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this has kinda been building up all holiday (aka literal 1 week I’ve been home) and it kinda feels like things might make a turn. I have problems with my family as it is but my mother basically threatened to hit me earlier today, then kinda cemented it by telling the rest of my extended family that she wanted to “slap me round the face”. I don’t feel physically unsafe because I severely doubt that she would ever actually hit me but at the same time, idk I can’t tell if I actually feel unsafe or if my brain is just doing a funky. my dad also kinda yelled at me for nothing (it was about getting the boys food an hour ago but no one listened to me so I was like eh okay it’s not my problem) . I just am really really ready to come back to campus but I have at least over a month of staying at home left which I don’t wanna do but I have to because of work and yeah. downer I’m sorry just kinda needed to vent a lil (edited)
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Emotions lowkey suck. I watch a single queer romance show, and now I'm out here sad I don't have that lmao.
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ok since when do grown ass adults not know how to clean a bathroom, evenmore flush a toilet
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Time to make a fun sign now I got my printer working
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Tio Ardu (Lilith) 01/18/2023 3:09 PM
"Remember, it goes 'shit, flush, shit'"
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That, or "Does one of yous not know how to flush the toilet after you've had a shit?"
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Tio Ardu (Lilith)
"Remember, it goes 'shit, flush, shit'"
im literally going to be making a taylor swift meme which says
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Taylor Says: Flush the toilet 👁👄👁
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when i have a 24hr exam and it’s our first day of trading in new premises 🗿
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and the exam opens AT MIDNIGHT
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Joseph
when i have a 24hr exam and it’s our first day of trading in new premises 🗿
WAIT
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YALL ARE OPENING TOMORROW?
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Your dads gonna love the chaps managers chat, everyone there hates my manager apparently
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oh my sister will probably join it instead 💀
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yes we legit had the signs put up tonight
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HAVE to be up to open
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Heyyy you’ll get the chaps discounts tho 👀👀
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You have lifts going straight to your place tho
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already on the system 😌
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Don’t tempt me to come in I HAVE COURSEWORK TO DO 💀💀
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PLEASE ME TOO
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IM GONNA BE WORKING AND CODING
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PLS TELL THEM FOR A DAY OFF
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PRAY
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SIR YOU HAVE AN EXAM
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NOOO i offered cause it’s gonna be bussy
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It’s a Thursday in chaps it’s not going to be the busiest Ngl
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Friday is a crunch day
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still they’ll deffo be people coming out of their way for us
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Maybe you’ll have Paulina come in 🤩
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i will personally call security
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Joseph
i will personally call security
PLS DONT INCUR HER WRATH
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SHELL TAKE IT OUT ON US
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oh she’s one of those people
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Joseph
💀💀
SHE LITERALLY SAT ME DOWN BC I ASKED RO BE SIGNED OFF AND SHE WAS LIKE, NO YOURE NOT GOOD. So I literally went into the mental health issues she caused me and she was like “we all have these problems” I was like Paulina this isn’t fuckin Pokémon cards you literally cause me to have panic attacks
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SHE LITERALLY SAT ME DOWN BC I ASKED RO BE SIGNED OFF AND SHE WAS LIKE, NO YOURE NOT GOOD. So I literally went into the mental health issues she caused me and she was like “we all have these problems” I was like Paulina this isn’t fuckin Pokémon cards you literally cause me to have panic attacks
THIS WOMAN IS NOT REAL 😭
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Will (he/they) 01/19/2023 5:57 PM
when is it my turn to be happy
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Will (he/they)
when is it my turn to be happy
you deserve nothing but happiness
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Joseph
THIS WOMAN IS NOT REAL 😭
UPDATE, SHES SIGNING OFF THE NEW GIRL IN THE NEXT TWO WEEKS AS SHE KEEPS FAVOURITES
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UPDATE, SHES SIGNING OFF THE NEW GIRL IN THE NEXT TWO WEEKS AS SHE KEEPS FAVOURITES
ofc she does 💀 GIRL WHEN ARE THEY STRIKING DOWN ON HER
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UPDATE, SHES SIGNING OFF THE NEW GIRL IN THE NEXT TWO WEEKS AS SHE KEEPS FAVOURITES
honestly start a Revolution atp
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very um stressed atm. both my parents got declined as guarantors for this house so I’m starting to freak out a little. I have uncles and aunts I can use but yknow. stressful stuff
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Ive decided I hate being an adult
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It's kinda dumb that as a student you need guarantors, but as non students they don't ask for one :/
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They already rail us with the rent prices lmao
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we kinda worked out whyand its apparently bc we have only lived in our house for 6 months which isnt long enough ?
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or something like that.
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I got my godfather to try so hopefulllllly it goes through okay.
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in_sane_out 02/03/2023 9:42 PM
Pooooooooo
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Oooooooooop
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ʕ•̫͡•ʔ 02/03/2023 9:55 PM
ty
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Thats what the vents are for
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Poopy smell needs to be out
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Lol am I currently having a breakdown outside Chantry yes. Am I gonna be late for these 5 minutes y
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:/ im sorry b. 🫂
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Had a serious flashback trigger at the rest
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It was pooo
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Lady there calmed me down
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Hate getting triggered
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:(
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Pooo
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Poo
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Guys. Pls help, my panic attacks are getting worse and worse what if i get one outside my bedroom or a room with a trained pep
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What would peps think of me
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in_sane_out
Guys. Pls help, my panic attacks are getting worse and worse what if i get one outside my bedroom or a room with a trained pep
I get it can be scary, but remember that people are there to support you and theyll be able to help you
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Like
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What happens
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If i get
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Triggered
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On campis
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That will
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Be embarrassing
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Be embarrassing
I get it, but there are places you can go on campus for some quiet spaces
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And it helps, the nap nook is one of my goto places
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Wheree
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Pls tell me wheree i can goo
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in_sane_out
Pls tell me wheree i can goo
napnook above the SU
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its a quiet space
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and also a greatplace for a nap
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What
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Theres a place
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Above the su
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Yeah upstairs in the hive
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If you turn right at scholars
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O
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Need sleep
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Need to study tmmr
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Oof
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I have work tomorrow
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Slightly behind
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and opening
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At 10
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Yayyy
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Yay
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Oof
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Having my first flashback in months at work
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Work is now triggering some bad trauma yayyy
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Is anyone awake right now
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Holy fucking god. I don’t think I would’ve woken up from those types of dreams again
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I’m still fucking shaking
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mhm yes panic attacks. mhm yes being trauma dumped on and having my two best friends force me into the middle of their argument and now saying things that are triggering me. mhm yes being scared to sleep bc I know what probably coming. mhm yes.
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falling back into my “therapist while my own life and trauma is falling apart” arc
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in_sane_out 02/07/2023 3:29 PM
O
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SO my cards were stolen
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And that means I cant use ANY money until I get another card (edited)
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i have no fuckin ID so I cant go out
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fuck dude
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can you not apply for a new id? because it was stolen?
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gremlin
can you not apply for a new id? because it was stolen?
I need to get it
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but it will take ages to arrive
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wtf when was it stolen ?
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gremlin
wtf when was it stolen ?
last night im guessing
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When I was getting home
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Omg are you okay?
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B
And that means I cant use ANY money until I get another card (edited)
Can't you use your phone to buy stuff or no?
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not until a new card is issued
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you can use apple pay i think as soon as you get your new card details ? i think as soon as a new card is issued you can see it in your bank app (or at least thats how it is with lloyds idk about other banks though)
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Luckily santander is providing me with a card
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and hopefully the fraud transactions will be removed
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Furthermore, theyve updated my apple pay so I can now use that
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now onto Halifax
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All in all, ive lost 70 quid from fraud which I can restore 20 pounds in my wallet gone I need to spend another 20, to get a drivers license back So I have a yknow ID
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But all and all, what a fucking day
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so 40 pounds total loss
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jesus fuck. i mean as long as your physically okay thats what really matters. but yeah thats so shit
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do you know where and what the money was spent on ?
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gremlin
do you know where and what the money was spent on ?
10 pounds to a Leon Wilson, 10 pounds to an arcade and 40 in a vape shop
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All about an hour ago
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damn
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gremlin
damn
im fuckin crying at it all though
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I feel so stupid
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B
I feel so stupid
it wasnt your fault ????
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idk I shoudlve been smarter or something
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no stop it.
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these things happen. its really fucking unfortunate and shitty but it is not your fault
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I just fucking hate myself rn
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B
I just fucking hate myself rn
There is literally nothing you could've about it it's literally not your fault
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^ exactly this. its not your fault and its a really shitty thing to have happened. but it can be sorted. your card and id can be replaced and you can get the money back. not all of it but most of it. and you're physically okay as well which is much more important (edited)
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its stilll really upsetting
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B
its stilll really upsetting
i get that. and 100% understandable as well. but you just gotta understand that it wasnt your fault
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I just realised they are so fucked
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gremlin
i get that. and 100% understandable as well. but you just gotta understand that it wasnt your fault
Theres a direct time stamp on where they used it and when
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As well as others, theyve inadvertantly created themselves a trail with CCTV
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Theyve fucked themselves with the police
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exactly
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and im hoping that wallet can be restored
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it was a custom engraved one from my parents
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fingers crossed.
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Still salty about the 20 quid and the license
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just cant go to loft or buy alcohol for the next week
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Where you planning to go to loft/but alcohol for the next week
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SenorGonc
Where you planning to go to loft/but alcohol for the next week
no
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But alcohol for tuesday and spectrum for pres
16:56
may be an issue
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Ill figure it out
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Also you could just get someone to buy the alcohol for you
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Actually saying that, I do have some gin
16:56
God alcoholism really sounds bad fon me rn
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And then payback one it alll sorted
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At least i have card payments again
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exactly
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Well Apple pay, online shopping may be an issue for a while
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Until I get my new card
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Lots of sites have Apple Pay on it now
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again you can always ask people to buy stuff and just transfer money
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its coming next week hopefully
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yeeee. itll be okay :)
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gremlin
yeeee. itll be okay :)
Also that Leon Wilson thing. looks like a personal card machine
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Thats also a link
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I dont know but either way
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Im sad and need food
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go get food
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Time to break through anxiety of housemates rn
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Just so I can eat and cry
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B
Just so I can eat and cry
valid
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in_sane_out 02/11/2023 6:55 PM
Finding a relationship is impossible, any mentions of anything valentine related directly to me without my consent will be ghosted for the next week as punishment doublegun 😭😭😭😭😭😭
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in_sane_out 02/11/2023 7:09 PM
Making fun of this directly will get you blocked from my account for 1 week or unless
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This is the end of my public announcements
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Don’t even Valentine’s Day bad
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in_sane_out 02/11/2023 7:09 PM
Thx god someone agrees
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I don’t wanna remember last years 😭
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in_sane_out 02/11/2023 7:09 PM
It doesnt exist
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Just like feb 30th doesnt
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lol
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clarejoemama 02/11/2023 7:14 PM
At the end of the day it's just another disappointing day
19:14
That's overhyped
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Sorry not sorry
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trueeeeeee
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First back transferred it back now waiting on the other but could take up to two weeks
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60 pounds to go outta the stolen amount
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in_sane_out 02/11/2023 9:10 PM
poopy people
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they deserve poop
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just finished that™️ episdoe of greys because I forgot it happened and I forgot to skip it and now it triggered me lol
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they handled the situation well it was just. mm. Not it
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not for my brain anyway. good episode but lotta triggering stuff I tend to avoid it when rewatching but I just simply forgot until it was too late
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in_sane_out 02/12/2023 7:04 PM
Planning on cutting my perants off
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I have all the documentation
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And stuff
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Just share codes will be tricky
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I will try and change the email for it
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But ye
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Very conflicted
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ʕ•̫͡•ʔ 02/12/2023 7:23 PM
how long has it been since you saw them? i find that the longer i’m away the more i think i am just being silly, then i go to dinner with them and all my work at therapy gets reset and i remember why i’ve gotta leave
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make sure ur thinking clearly, if there is a pressure to just “get over it” that’s a bad urge, it will just lead to u getting hurt more
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but u don’t have to do it today
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there is always tomorrow, take some time to be sure
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in_sane_out 02/12/2023 7:42 PM
Ive been planning it since december
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Sis been telling me to do it
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Every phone call triggers me
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I just cant
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I feel better then suddenly it all goes down the drain
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Like whats the point of keeping them around
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ʕ•̫͡•ʔ 02/12/2023 8:07 PM
i understand
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it’s difficult
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in_sane_out 02/12/2023 8:09 PM
I am planning on talking with the councillor
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But the thought of it all makes me want to vomit
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And suicidal
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I am so confused
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Everything makes me feel shit but when I want to get away from shit I feel shit
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Its
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Exhausting
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Oh no ugh i feel like i should unalive
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Imma lock myself in and put my campus card away so i cant exit
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Poop
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So Santander have now refunded my accounts
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Njce
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B
So Santander have now refunded my accounts
that’s good !
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gremlin
that’s good !
yeah, I guess so
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im still very drained
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and I think tomorrow i need a day off from Uni
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ill speak to my seminar leaders
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B
and I think tomorrow i need a day off from Uni
valid
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E-vision here u come
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it’s been a stressful few days and you’ve got the police phonecall tomorrow as well
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i may just go tbf
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I dont know
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Ill see how I feel
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B
i may just go tbf
don’t stress too much. you can always catch up later
22:12
Or literally do it from home. Where tis more comfortable
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Seminars arent online
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B
Seminars arent online
can’t you get the materials from it?
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gremlin
can’t you get the materials from it?
yuh but it doesnt beat the experience in person
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ye In know
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but like I’m saying for the sake of your mental health would it be worth just doing it online for this one seminar ig
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in the phone call now stare
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Callin be like
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I feel
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Incredibly numb today
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Ive been awake for 3 hours I can’t get up
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Im just. Numb.
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its. Idk I can’t feel ssnythign. I don’t feel sad I don’t feel tired I just don’t feel. Its
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hm
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I get it genuinely
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Got lost in city
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Didnt get mugged or anything stolen
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Found a bus stp
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Driver let me on for free
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I think
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God is real guys
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Its time for me to return to being a practicing catholic 😭
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I am at peace
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Someone out there is protecting me
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I dony care who im going to pray to it
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in_sane_out
I dony care who im going to pray to it
Mood
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Josh
Mood
Code Geas?
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10/10 pog anime
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clarejoemama 02/14/2023 11:28 PM
If you're on a 25 bus then I'm on it too hahahaha
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No i was on 21
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25 dont go in the middle of no where
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I was
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I the middle of no where
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Josh
Ofc
3rd anime i watched
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apparently I have good taste by some people
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in_sane_out
apparently I have good taste by some people
You do!!!
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1st Noragami 2nd death note 3rd Code geas
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in_sane_out
1st Noragami 2nd death note 3rd Code geas
also top tier
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No thats my watching order
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As in when i staryed
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Litterally what is everything else now a days
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@Josh we must fan girl over anime if we ever meet up
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Who ever u are
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in_sane_out
No thats my watching order
Oh I got that. I thought Noragami was a single message that I was replying too :3
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Ehe
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in_sane_out
@Josh we must fan girl over anime if we ever meet up
We do indeed!
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Maybe we should o.o
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What interests do u have
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?
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intiating positive vibes
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Boi probs left the chat its sleepy time anyways
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If u wanna we can dm and stuff ahaha
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Oh I was just pushing something to Github for work
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:3
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Man*
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Ugh gifs
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Wait
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I think man
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I dont know
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Poop
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🤔
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in_sane_out
What interests do u have
I like gaming (mainly fps, survival ones), programming, esports (I work in that as an analyst), anime, history (mega simp), stargate + star trek and probably a bunch more stuff Im forgetting xD
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Wbu ?
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in_sane_out
I think man
Yea I am :P Basic he/him
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Josh
I like gaming (mainly fps, survival ones), programming, esports (I work in that as an analyst), anime, history (mega simp), stargate + star trek and probably a bunch more stuff Im forgetting xD
Oh and drinking + coffee. Another basic gay personality trait
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I likey anime, genshin, harry potter, star wars, LEGO science shit, birds, walking in nature
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Gay
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in_sane_out
I likey anime, genshin, harry potter, star wars, LEGO science shit, birds, walking in nature
I love birds toooooooo
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Yeee
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Puffin simp
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If u wanna meet up we could go around campus bird spotting
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Omg puffins
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Its like
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A parrot and penguin
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Made babies
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So cute
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@Josh there is a eurasian jay in earlham park thats hard to spot
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Its single i just saw it yesterdat
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So it might be hanging around
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Oo thats cool, ngl outside of drinking there Ive not really wondered around earlham park xD
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Oh
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Btw what course are you on ?
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Dribking
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As in
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Alcohol
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O how kuch
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If u drink too much you should get help
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Btw im a pharmacy student
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in_sane_out
If u drink too much you should get help
xD
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What about u?
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i dont drink very often at all. When I do its a good chunk though.
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Oh my
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in_sane_out
What about u?
Comp Sci
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I cringe for your liver
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Thank god your young for now
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Valid, although its much better than most here
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@B
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Alcohol is not a cure from reality
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You can quote me on that
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What
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Ye why u pinging
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Do you not drink btw ?
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Who u refering to?
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B
Pinged
Cuz B drinks a bunch compared to little old me
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in_sane_out
Who u refering to?
You :P
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I know B drinks hahaha
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I dont understand too much why things are the way they are. I drink very rarely. Mostly beer, cider, wine, champagne and liquor (cant spell)
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Tbh I dont understand why people drink alcohol in excess
23:43
Its illogical
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in_sane_out
I dont understand too much why things are the way they are. I drink very rarely. Mostly beer, cider, wine, champagne and liquor (cant spell)
Same, I think I drink maybe once a month. Sometimes less. Sometimes more if Im out multiple nights.
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O
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Oki
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When I do drink however I drink a good amount. Not black out mind you. Just the right amount for the buzz :3
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Confused
23:44
But ok
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Confused
Oh okay xD
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Josh
Comp Sci
thepuppymuffin 02/14/2023 11:45 PM
compsci gang compsci gang
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I dont understand why
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thepuppymuffin
compsci gang compsci gang
Best Gang!
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thepuppymuffin 02/14/2023 11:45 PM
i hope you have your programming socks and programming cat ears ready for inspection day
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I forgot
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Tk write
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Manifesto
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I was hoping to borrow Brandons tbh. Kinda slacking :/
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Imma write it tmmr
23:45
Probs not gonna get voted in
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But bruh
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Oki gn
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Its past my bedtime
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Zzzz
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I feel relaxed after talking about birbs
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Josh
I was hoping to borrow Brandons tbh. Kinda slacking :/
Owo
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B
Owo
thepuppymuffin 02/14/2023 11:53 PM
have you got your programming socks for josh to borrow?
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Shh joshy you’re supposed to keep it a secret
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thepuppymuffin 02/14/2023 11:56 PM
programming socks shouldn't be a secret, they should be a requirement for being part of the pride soc (or the compsci soc)
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same with cat ears as i have said before
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thepuppymuffin
same with cat ears as i have said before
What about dog ears? Not that I own any
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Harru
What about dog ears? Not that I own any
thepuppymuffin 02/15/2023 9:35 AM
these are acceptable also
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I need my mind to not shut down after having many realisations last night. (edited)
10:46
well I forgot how to spoiler tag lul
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gremlin
well I forgot how to spoiler tag lul
I do it by putting || at the beginning and of my text
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yeh i knew that i just ✨ forgot ✨ in that moment how to do it
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in_sane_out 02/17/2023 6:41 PM
Im back home with parents, just to check if my memories wrent made up
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They deffo not fake
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Stress too much
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in_sane_out
Im back home with parents, just to check if my memories wrent made up
Aw hun I hope you’re okay
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Hang in there till you’re back
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in_sane_out 02/17/2023 6:55 PM
Back sunday
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I forgot clothes last time and black shoes
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Oh and shoes for hiking and stuff
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Not long, you’ll get back soon 🙂
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in_sane_out 02/17/2023 6:56 PM
Ye
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Everyone treating me so poop
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Then theyre like
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AAA I just realised my trains in 26 minutes and we’re not near the station
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in_sane_out 02/17/2023 6:56 PM
Oh why u not talking
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in_sane_out
Everyone treating me so poop
🫂
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B
AAA I just realised my trains in 26 minutes and we’re not near the station
in_sane_out 02/17/2023 6:56 PM
Omfg
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Run
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in_sane_out
Omfg
I need them to drive me lmfao
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B
AAA I just realised my trains in 26 minutes and we’re not near the station
yell at them
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The station is 3 miles away
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IM WAITING INA. CHIPPY FOR FOOD
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ooft
18:57
my advice remains the same
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in_sane_out
Im back home with parents, just to check if my memories wrent made up
also I hope ur okay. I 100% get this feeling not having the best relationship with my parents either. count Down the days and it’ll seem easier. just keep reminding yourself you’re only their temporarily
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in_sane_out 02/17/2023 7:01 PM
Ye
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Cause like ye
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But i left stuff behind
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And I need some of that stuff back
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But then afterwards
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Should I
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What if
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Im making it all up
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And making stuff up
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So confused
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But it feels happy sad when im with family
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But i feel happier alone
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But its stressful alone
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Bc I dont have people that can give me attention 24/7 when i need it to mentally support me
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And no one is really doing it
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Too much
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in_sane_out
Bc I dont have people that can give me attention 24/7 when i need it to mentally support me
I feel you, I have the same problem but ultimately it's impossible to receive constant attention and as time passes it does get easier to be alone, though if it's pretty bad it might be worth looking into professional support. Though if you need a chat my DM's are open :).
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in_sane_out 02/17/2023 7:20 PM
Tbh I feel so slightly sick of everything thing being online. Like its nice but like
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I csll samaritans
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Call gp
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Message charities
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Video call counsellor
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Video call wellbeing advisors
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Video call advisor
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Maybe
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Its not attention
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Just a lack
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Of human connection
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I feel dissociated because I dont feel human
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Just a bunch of floating concepts
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Harru
I feel you, I have the same problem but ultimately it's impossible to receive constant attention and as time passes it does get easier to be alone, though if it's pretty bad it might be worth looking into professional support. Though if you need a chat my DM's are open :).
in_sane_out 02/17/2023 7:21 PM
Ye will keep it in mind
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Just a bunch of floating concepts
in_sane_out 02/17/2023 7:22 PM
Just a number in exams
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Just grades
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Just some words on my medical history
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Like even now
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What am I
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I am deffo not having a mental breakdown
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The waiting list for pressional help
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Hella long
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Gp sending letter
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Currently its 13 mths
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Not even emergency mental health nurse helped me move up the line
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I just gotta wait
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Or die
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Tbh that wouldnt be a bad idea but I always chicken out
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But oh well gonna wait
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Cause thats what i decided a minth ago
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in_sane_out
Currently its 13 mths
I feel you I've been waiting ages for therapy for my grief but honestly the wait will be worth it in the end, obviously it's annoying that you have to wait 13 months but you have to think of all the positives that therapy is going to give you
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in_sane_out 02/17/2023 7:30 PM
No
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Thats not therapy
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Thats only an assessment
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Therapy theres another waiting list
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After that
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I don't think it should take that long to just get assessed?
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Either way the wait for therapy will be worth it in the end
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I don't think it should take that long to just get assessed?
in_sane_out 02/17/2023 7:34 PM
It does
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I’ve been told
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Even the gp
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Is confused
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Eh it doesnt matter
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I dont think imma live that long
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I stopped feeling suicidal for a week
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I just forgot why i wanted to do it in the first place
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Tbh euthanasia should be legalised fully in my opinion so I can use it
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Sorry vent over
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Resume ur other vents
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in_sane_out 02/17/2023 7:54 PM
Sorry if I clogged up the chat, I just feel like this everyday cant make friends to talk to at uea had a gang back in my old days
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I really messed up today. I haven’t eaten in ages, but I really can’t bring myself to go to the shop and get food because I’m in so much pain (due to starving) and also having no energy at all (no food + no sleep). I also can’t sleep to help with the energy issue because I’m in too much pain to fall asleep. I feel so stupid for making more problems for myself on top of what has already been a very tough time
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Slade
I really messed up today. I haven’t eaten in ages, but I really can’t bring myself to go to the shop and get food because I’m in so much pain (due to starving) and also having no energy at all (no food + no sleep). I also can’t sleep to help with the energy issue because I’m in too much pain to fall asleep. I feel so stupid for making more problems for myself on top of what has already been a very tough time
thepuppymuffin 02/19/2023 7:05 AM
hey, if you think it might help, i'd be happy to go the shop and get food for you :)
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Slade
I really messed up today. I haven’t eaten in ages, but I really can’t bring myself to go to the shop and get food because I’m in so much pain (due to starving) and also having no energy at all (no food + no sleep). I also can’t sleep to help with the energy issue because I’m in too much pain to fall asleep. I feel so stupid for making more problems for myself on top of what has already been a very tough time
in_sane_out 02/19/2023 9:37 AM
If you want to I can come over whereever u are and cook a meal for u :)
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Although I'll be back in the evening
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Slade
I really messed up today. I haven’t eaten in ages, but I really can’t bring myself to go to the shop and get food because I’m in so much pain (due to starving) and also having no energy at all (no food + no sleep). I also can’t sleep to help with the energy issue because I’m in too much pain to fall asleep. I feel so stupid for making more problems for myself on top of what has already been a very tough time
i would’ve taken you to tesco or smth if i had know :(
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It’s alright. Thank you though. I had some garlic bread since it was the only food in the house and then I managed to fall asleep
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Slade
It’s alright. Thank you though. I had some garlic bread since it was the only food in the house and then I managed to fall asleep
Garlic bread is not a meal
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Stop lying to yourself
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Give me a break man
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Start investing in your health
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Ye
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Its ol
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Its just I was doing the same last semester and sometimes continue doing it
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I am well aware that it’s not a meal
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I’ve been doing this for years. Yesterday it just got really out of hand for the first time that I can remember though
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Oh no :(
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It sucks
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Ik it might not be helpful to you, but I think to myself that proper meals is like
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I dunno
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Yes I know. I need to find myself a meal. It’s been like 30 hours since my last one
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If u wanna my offer of making a meal still stabds
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Or u can come to mines
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Spaghetti and bolonaise?
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I cant spell loo
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Lol
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It’s alright. I need to solve my own stupid problems
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No
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Ur wrong
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We humans
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We stick together
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I understand this isolationist mentality
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I do it myself
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I don’t isolate myself
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Good
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Sorry i lack some social interpreations of stuff
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So i misunderstand alot of basic phrases
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I’m just saying I don’t want you to help with a problem that I caused myself. I want to fix it myself
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Its just
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Theres no shame in accepting help
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But ofc
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Your an adult
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You have the right to choose what you want
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Bc of human rights
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in_sane_out
Theres no shame in accepting help
I know
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Dude pls help urself. You deserve to do that to yourself aswell
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Omg that sounded rude
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Im not sure how to phrase
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I hope your ok for the time being
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It’s not rude I get it
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Well I’m alive. Just extremely hungry
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Not quite as bad as last night at least
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Genuinely didn’t think I was gonna make it home last night
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Slade
Genuinely didn’t think I was gonna make it home last night
Ik u dont know me personally but if you ever want someone to meet up or cook with or shop with I can do. As I need some motivation sometimes fot myself to get food lol
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I have stuff. Just need to cook
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Cooking is cool
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Yeah. Just don’t always have the energy or motivation for it
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Like right now
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Its ok
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Ok I should really get food before the pain immobilises me again
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Ok I should really get food before the pain immobilises me again
in_sane_out 02/19/2023 2:42 PM
Good idea
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I has hads food. Now I feel sick
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Slade
I has hads food. Now I feel sick
in_sane_out 02/19/2023 4:12 PM
If you havent eaten in a while no wonder. Did you eat a small portion?
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Yeah I did. I’m not that stupid
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in_sane_out 02/19/2023 4:13 PM
Very gud
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Mhm. Still need to do a better job with eating though. This is getting way out of hand
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in_sane_out 02/19/2023 4:13 PM
Have you spoken to your gp?
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Or a medical professional
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Having a snack every 24 isn’t gonna end well
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in_sane_out 02/19/2023 4:14 PM
No
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Yeah I did. A while ago
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in_sane_out 02/19/2023 4:14 PM
What did they say?
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If you want to disclose
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Uts ok if not
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Prescribed a medication that made my appetite insane. I put on about 30 kg and it was awful
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in_sane_out 02/19/2023 4:14 PM
Oh my
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Not doing that again
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in_sane_out 02/19/2023 4:15 PM
Yeah I struggle with my weight currently after going to the gym I put on 5kg when I started to do more stuff and being active not sure if I put on more muscle mass or just started drinking water more aswell
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Not doing that again
in_sane_out 02/19/2023 4:15 PM
Makes sense
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Any other options
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Or just you being drugged
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Well I did therapy. I doubt they’ll have another option for me (edited)
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in_sane_out 02/19/2023 4:17 PM
I mean if you need to talk my DMs are open
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Or any help
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Im open to making friends aswell ahaha
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They might hospitalise me. Which to be honest wouldn’t be the worst idea. But I don’t like how that might go
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in_sane_out 02/19/2023 4:18 PM
Oh no.
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I mean it depends if you want to be alive or not
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I know people that refuse to eat in the wards get force fed and that sounds horrific
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in_sane_out 02/19/2023 4:18 PM
No
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in_sane_out
I mean it depends if you want to be alive or not
Not particularly
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in_sane_out 02/19/2023 4:19 PM
You get nutrients intravenously
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Im suicidal so I could relate
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I’ve heard both happen
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Either way I don’t like the idea of it
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in_sane_out 02/19/2023 4:19 PM
I understand
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Sometimes its painful that people might be forcing you to do stuff
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Forcing to keep you alive
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But
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If u wasnt alive
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Would you be talking to me?
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Sorry if it gotten this deep
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I would like to say Im not a clinician
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For legal reasons lol
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I would like to say Im not a clinician
I figured
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in_sane_out 02/19/2023 4:20 PM
I mean soon I will be if i finish my degree 😭
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Imagine that
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in_sane_out 02/19/2023 4:21 PM
Yes imagine 😭
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@Slade wanna meet up soon if you want some in person chats ?
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in_sane_out 02/19/2023 4:22 PM
Yey
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In other news. I need to fry some lamb and make some pasta soon to go with it
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For dinner
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And have 0 motivation
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But at the same time
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100%
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Sure
in_sane_out 02/19/2023 4:23 PM
Im available next weekend sunday morning if u wanna or something like that
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In other news. I need to fry some lamb and make some pasta soon to go with it
Sounds tasty
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in_sane_out
Im available next weekend sunday morning if u wanna or something like that
Can’t next weekend
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I’ll be in Birmingham
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I’ll be in Birmingham
in_sane_out 02/19/2023 4:25 PM
Wel then u gotta be well fed b4 then if not where dat energy be comin from
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Hell if I know
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in_sane_out 02/19/2023 4:25 PM
Satanism is not the answer
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Sure it is
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in_sane_out 02/19/2023 4:26 PM
O
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How else do you think I’m playing ice hockey and stuff on no food and no sleep
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My aunt just randomly asked out of the blue if I’m eating enough. This woman is now psychic apparently
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Sometimes targeted ads really get on my nerves. I do not need weight loss ads right now
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in_sane_out 02/19/2023 5:52 PM
Oof
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I hate sports they develop no skills in my opinoion
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I’m not doing it for skills. It’s fun
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Fun doesnt exist
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In sport
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Sport in my opinion is a form of some sort of crude animalistic instinct in which we channel it into orderly rules and games because we have created laws and regulations that stop us from persuing violent hedonistic pleasures
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Anyways
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I just remembered
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I once got told that i am the incarnation of Professor Trelawney from harry potter
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The more i think about it
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Jt makes sense
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Sport in my opinion is a form of some sort of crude animalistic instinct in which we channel it into orderly rules and games because we have created laws and regulations that stop us from persuing violent hedonistic pleasures
i dont know about that lol
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No you wouldnt as its my opinion
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My head is a nonsensical place
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Fjlled with a different worldview
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I see humans as hedonistic animals held back by the sense of logic we developed in a way
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This is probably why I am depressed
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I know it's your opinion but i'm just saying I don't think all sports are particularly replacements for violence
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Eh
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They wouldnt exist otherwise
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Or sports is a creation of preparing humans for war
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As they did
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Mostly with PE classes
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Thats why they exist
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Like, when I think of something like badminton or swimming they are not very aggressive
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Badminton not aggressive
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Bro
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Anyways
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compared to tennis it's less aggresive
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In my opinion sports shouldnt exist
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but why?
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It shouldnt be a job at the very least
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I can understand that viewpoint
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Why do we put so much value in sport
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As you are doing now
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It is utterly pointless
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Nothing good comes out of it
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I'm not putting any value into sports, if anything you are
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Hmmm
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I guess
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Thats is valid
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I just think they can be fun, i'm not a fan of many sports
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Its the same with video games they shouldnt exist
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Because they have the ubderlying emotions cobnected to sport
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In my opinion
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But you play video games
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Why are you suggesting it is immoral
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I simply suggesting that its existence shouldnt be nessaray for humans
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I simply need a form of escapism
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I don't disagree most things that exist in modern life aren't necessary for humans to live
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I think we should strive for knowledge for that is a higher form of pleasure
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But they exist to make life worth living/ make lives better in some way
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Now you should know what type of ethics i believe in
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If you know anything about ethics
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i don't lmao, I do Economics
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I normally stick with JS Mill utilitarianism
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But at heart im a negative utilitarianism
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i don't have a deep understanding of ethics
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but ik what utilitarianism is
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Google negative utilitarianism
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Its the belief that you should minimise suffering
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And then maximise hapiness
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so it's just regular utilatriansim but swapped around a bit
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Yeee
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but how would the removal of sports reduce suffering
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if anything it would increase suffering
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I suffered alot from sports
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I hate it with a passion
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Its existence should be wiped
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From.the face of the planet
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Different viewpoints
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I can ubderstand yours but I live in my own body and it craves to stay away but also to participate in such thibgs
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Very conflicting
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but you don't have to participate in sports
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I dont
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Indeed
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I dont
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Sports cultivate a form of herd mentally especially with team sports
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I think its dangerous
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so then why would its removal benefit you?
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Because of the people that put value in it
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This then just boils down to the main critique of negative utilitarianism
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Thats its just a genocidal
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Ethic
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Everything must go
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As everything causes suffering
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Yeah ik i just read that if someone who believed in negative utilitarianism could destroy the world they should
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I wouldnt mind everyone dying but my wellbeing advisor says its just I hate the trauma i recieved (edited)
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Its a critique
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There are.arguments against it
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As in any case philosophy there is
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Its up to the person to make a decision what they think
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I.e. if you destory humanity something worse might replace it
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.e.g. if you erase suffering there is no way you can then minimise it
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Stuff like that
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but by erasing it you have minimised it to 0
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There should be a debates channel
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@B why isnt there a debate channel on ur server
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Anyways
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Hmmmm
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but I removed it
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like
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7 months ago
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Oof
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Anyway we shall continue in vents
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Cause
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I hate sports
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And it should be erased
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I just want to have fun (edited)
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Oh i'm not trying to have a debate mainly because i dont fully understand all the intricasies of negative utilitarianism
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If there is need of a debate
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Threads exist :p
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Oh i'm not trying to have a debate mainly because i dont fully understand all the intricasies of negative utilitarianism
Its relatively new
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Oh yeah
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Had a nice vent
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Probably something to do with me coming back from perants
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Lol
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in_sane_out 02/20/2023 8:13 PM
Ugh
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So like I contacted tge president of badminton like two weeks ago cause i wanted ti try it out
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Made like 2 people friends yeah
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And I saw one of them with another person I met
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And I was like oh I think we forgot to exchange contacts
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Wanna be friends
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And he was like
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Your bad at badmintoj
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Lazy ass excuse
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Could have said no
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Dont need to go personally attack me because I tried being active again
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After i got out of my depressive shell
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Oh well
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Dickheads like @Slade told me yesterday
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Some people just are unfortunately (edited)
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Oh I’m also not going to Birmingham this weekend
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in_sane_out 02/20/2023 8:22 PM
Oooo
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U wanna meet up then?
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On sunday
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We can go to the cinema :0
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I feel like I’m in a dream. I usually don’t consider myself particularly sane, but this is really freaking me out. It’s like I’m still asleep somehow and none of this is real
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could you maybe see a doctor/ talk to the uni support team about it bc it sounds a little like dissociation ? <3
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I feel like I’m in a dream. I usually don’t consider myself particularly sane, but this is really freaking me out. It’s like I’m still asleep somehow and none of this is real
^^
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could you maybe see a doctor/ talk to the uni support team about it bc it sounds a little like dissociation ? <3
Possibly. But I can’t imagine they could offer anything
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Slade
Possibly. But I can’t imagine they could offer anything
i know, it’s very difficult to get help for anything like that BUT it might be worth giving it a go? if not i still have us to vent to and if your typing on this chat , i know i’m not dreaming so i can guarantee u aren’t :D
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i know, it’s very difficult to get help for anything like that BUT it might be worth giving it a go? if not i still have us to vent to and if your typing on this chat , i know i’m not dreaming so i can guarantee u aren’t :D
I take meds and I’ve done therapy I don’t know how many times now. I just don’t see them actually offering anything other than that
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I’ve had dreams where I’ve messaged people. So I don’t know
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I take meds and I’ve done therapy I don’t know how many times now. I just don’t see them actually offering anything other than that
i’m sorry bud, i know it’s hard and i’m not a therapist but it won’t be this bad forever and time really does help, is there anything u can do to take ur mind off it?
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Time doesn’t help anything. I’ve been somewhat obsessively knitting, which has been a good distraction. But I ran out of yarn unfortunately
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Ok I’m now officially insane. If I wasn’t before
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thepuppymuffin 02/22/2023 11:58 AM
is there anything we can do to help
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I sincerely doubt it. But I do appreciate all the support
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Might try and go back to the ward honestly
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Although last time I tried they literally just told me to go back home. So I don’t know
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Might try and go back to the ward honestly
Honestly if you don’t feel secure in yourself right now, that is the best thing to do
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And I would also suggest informing student life team as well
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As I said. I’m not really sure they’d actually let me in (edited)
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thepuppymuffin 02/22/2023 12:40 PM
why would they not let you in
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Well they didn’t last time
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And I would also suggest informing student life team as well
What does the student life team do?
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They’ll be able to support you
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Alright
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Is that different from the wellbeing team?
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Slade
Is that different from the wellbeing team?
Any team which can be there to help tbh
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They haven’t been particularly helpful in the past
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Plus I won’t lie, I’m pretty reluctant to explain to someone what’s happening. Last doctor I tried to tell just straight said I’m lying and refused to do anything
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Plus I won’t lie, I’m pretty reluctant to explain to someone what’s happening. Last doctor I tried to tell just straight said I’m lying and refused to do anything
If you feel like your losing grip on stuff then I would recommend 111.
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If it’s serious and you feel like a danger to yourself or others then 99
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999*
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Again, I’ve tried before. Police showed up, did nothing
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If you feel unsafe then I would suggest trying again because your safety is urgent here
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Honestly I don’t know if I’m unsafe or not
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And I really don’t want to deal with more police or doctors or whatever that just do nothing and make me feel worse about myself
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And I really don’t want to deal with more police or doctors or whatever that just do nothing and make me feel worse about myself
The things you’ve said it’s clear you need to at least see someone about it today
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At least try 111
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I forget, what’s 111?
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thepuppymuffin 02/22/2023 1:25 PM
like 999 but for less pressing emergencies
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say you've been mugged or smth for example
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999 is for when you've been mugged and they stabbed you in the process
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And what exactly am I going to say? I’m losing my mind please believe me
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Pretty sure it's more non-pressing health advice (edited)
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And what exactly am I going to say? I’m losing my mind please believe me
Explain to them, I’m losing grip with myself and I don’t feel stable
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I don’t have an easy time talking about stuff like that
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Time doesn’t help anything. I’ve been somewhat obsessively knitting, which has been a good distraction. But I ran out of yarn unfortunately
thepuppymuffin 02/22/2023 1:37 PM
if you'd like i could go buy you more yarn if you tell me where to get it from
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I already bought some. It’ll just take a couple days to arrive
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thepuppymuffin 02/22/2023 1:38 PM
would you like someone to be with you irl?
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I’m not particularly fun to be around right now
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thepuppymuffin
would you like someone to be with you irl?
Any chance I can take you up on that offer?
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Any chance I can take you up on that offer?
They left the server
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Xey left Pride Soc too (edited)
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I guess due to last nights incident
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Ok well, starting to feel a little more back on earth finally
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Ok well, starting to feel a little more back on earth finally
Good to hear (edited)
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Been a terrifying day honestly
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in_sane_out 02/22/2023 8:49 PM
Ugh
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Tiring day
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Cant wait for s5 of my life
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in_sane_out 02/22/2023 9:52 PM
Some cashier was complimenting me
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He wasnt up to my standards ofc and he seemed deffo older
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Slifhtly felt he eas hitting me up
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But theees my defence mechanism of sexual abuse when?
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Cant wait for s5 of my life
Same
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But theees my defence mechanism of sexual abuse when?
I do hope that this is a joke.
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I do hope that this is a joke.
in_sane_out 02/23/2023 9:52 PM
No, im scared af
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Why do u think its a joke?
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Because it’s difficult to decipher tone
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in_sane_out
No, im scared af
Why scared?
21:53
It was a cashier complimenting you no?
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in_sane_out 02/23/2023 9:54 PM
Ye they were
21:54
It was scary
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Okay. That’s not sexual abuse and just to note that using that for something as genuinely harmless as someone complimenting you in that scenario is worrying.
21:55
I understand if you were uncomfortable with it, totally
21:56
But that’s 100% different
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in_sane_out 02/23/2023 9:56 PM
I dont think you understood what I was saying
21:56
I dont make much sense if you dont know me (edited)
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Why is it worrying?
21:57
I am allowed to be afraid of what men can do to me.
21:57
I dont care what they doing, It was night time and I am already on edge cause thats when my ptsd triggers
21:57
This is a vent channel
21:58
I vented what i thought
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Ik its not true in reality
21:58
But thats not how mental disorders work
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I didn’t say that you weren’t allowed to feel scared, I actually said that’s totally valid however, the mention of sexual abuse in a context like that where such a thing did not occur and honestly, likely would not have, is worrying.
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in_sane_out
But thats not how mental disorders work
I’m aware
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in_sane_out 02/23/2023 9:59 PM
Im confused
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What is worrying?
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I don’t understand
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The mention of SA in this context
22:00
I guess maybe spoiler it next time with a CW of SA tag
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I said abuse tbh not assult but im not sure about the difference
22:00
Whats a cw
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It’s triggering for people who have actually suffered SA
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in_sane_out
Whats a cw
Content warning
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Ok I wont mention it again in this channel
22:01
Or just block me im a walking trigger centre tbh
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in_sane_out
Or just block me im a walking trigger centre tbh
Interesting, Ricky Gervais says the same thing. It’s not really the solution is it, we should reflect and adjust our behaviours to be mindful of others. It’s just human decency.
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Who?
22:04
Person I dont really understand you but thats ok
22:04
I just want a place where I can vent uncensored
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Yeah, its kinda appropriate to spoiler tag stuff
22:05
Vents, is a vents place sure. But always good to spoiler tag
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Could someone give me a list of everything i need to spoiler tag
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Bc i need to know
22:05
Put in in rules
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SA is a strong example, since it is a serious thing.
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Oki
22:07
Will do next time
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Spoiler’d things generally include sexual abuse/assault, self harm, suicide, extreme violence, terrorism. that’s all I can think of for now but generally just things that are genuinely serious topics, that people could have suffered from.
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Roux
Spoiler’d things generally include sexual abuse/assault, self harm, suicide, extreme violence, terrorism. that’s all I can think of for now but generally just things that are genuinely serious topics, that people could have suffered from.
Ok. I’ll just stop talking about it in these servers about personal stuff, I dont want to make someone feel unwell. But If i do feel like it I will use spoiler tags. Thanks for bringing it to my attention. I will stop from now on
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I’ve got like 10 more days before I start back on my new meds and honestly I don’t think I can make it that long. I’d really forgotten just how bad things are without them. I always thought they didn’t do much, but this has really made me realise how much they did do. I’m constantly hearing stuff, pretty much all day at this point. And a lot of it is just really unsettling. Like, I’d gotten used to the whole knocking and rattling stuff. And since moving out, it’s a lot easier to ignore my mum’s voice yelling at me, because I know it can’t possibly be real. But I had a breakdown and received a pep talk from my own disembodied voice. Who responded to what I’m saying and everything, like they were really there. I hear people telling me to do stuff at random parts of the day. I hear insults or suggestions. Strangely I haven’t been seeing anything, which is something that used to be a really big issue. But still. I used be able to just tell myself it’s not real and ignore it, but I can’t anymore. It’s like I’m actually being haunted by ghosts. I can play music or watch movies and I hear their voices loud and clear, actually drowning out whatever I’m listening to. Sometimes I can’t even hear people talking IRL. It’s like I’m just being consumed by it all
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in_sane_out 02/27/2023 4:46 PM
Games night was cancelled at the siz today😭
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Imma just be depressed in my room for the rest of the day nothing to do just listen to music. Cant be bothered to study
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in_sane_out
Imma just be depressed in my room for the rest of the day nothing to do just listen to music. Cant be bothered to study
Wanna go for that walk?
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Slade
Wanna go for that walk?
in_sane_out 02/27/2023 5:01 PM
At 17:20?
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Works for me. Same place we agreed before?
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in_sane_out 02/27/2023 5:04 PM
Yeee village entrance
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Cool. See you there
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