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@here I’ve Archived the old vents channel. Confessions won’t work here until I fix them tomorrow

How come?

02:37

Dammit I should s l e e p.

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The old vents channel was bad for my health as well as others

well i have the first one for this channel

03:52

things at uni being targeted and marketed for women but including non binary people giving the same energy as the womens+ shit that the uni pulled

Mei

things at uni being targeted and marketed for women but including non binary people giving the same energy as the womens+ shit that the uni pulled

seeing a lot of discourse around the they/them pussy meme

04:05

has a similar feel to it

04:05

like i find it funny

04:05

but it’s also sort of putting nb in a binary

literally

like with afab/amab

i dont mean to dog on them specifically but uea judo

04:06

'this girl can' for women and nb

mm

i just sent them a dm on instagram that tldr says it can be quite harmful to associate the two and in future please be more aware

also just being seen as a diet man because i’m nb but don’t look adrogynous

04:07

and still present “male”

im so sick of it because personally im either fem or andro presenting depending on the day and it gives me the ick because i fit that category that people think is the stereotype for nb people

i mean id love to present andro

04:08

but i like looking masc

04:09

but that also doesn’t mean i am masc

the closest i can get to andro is skater boy clothes and scruffy mullet

but its so gender comfy

the dream

04:09

honestly

04:09

wish gender was easy

honestly

or better yet

04:10

no gender

04:10

for everyone

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just look how you want with no consequences

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unless it’s offensive

04:10

but you know what i mean

gender removal services

04:10

ye

04:11

no gender. only rage.

mhm

Mei

things at uni being targeted and marketed for women but including non binary people giving the same energy as the womens+ shit that the uni pulled

please elaborate on this "womens+ shit" this is the first ive heard of it

ohh im currently strying to handle it

12:39

Basically Womens+ was originally supposed to be women + nonbinary people, and it got massive backlash

12:40

Instead someone in the SU is trying tos ay to me its supposed to be inclusionary of trans women

12:40

but

12:40

Trans women are women, there is no need to refer it as Womens+

I am just about ready to break at this point

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Trans women are women, there is no need to refer it as Womens+

yeah that. seems incredibly silly

13:36

i do kind of get the point since most things advertised as "women only" can seem trans exclusionary but if you want to be clear saying "trans women are welcome" seems a lot better than saying "womens+"

13:37

and if you want to do stuff for nonbinary people just. say that as well.

13:37

there is no need for an extra category like that.

Is it so hard to put 'women and nonbinary/gnc' rather than group it all in

15:29

veryangry

yea it's not that hard they just cba

or better yet

15:46

have them all separate

15:46

cos what about amab nb/gnc people

15:47

making it sound likes it’s

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men

15:47

and then the others

notliamhyde02

cos what about amab nb/gnc people

Literally

Fun.

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Mei

Is it so hard to put 'women and nonbinary/gnc' rather than group it all in

I personally still take issue with this take, as it continue to equate/group NB with femininity.

I'm talking bare minimum here, not a solution

Mei

I'm talking bare minimum here, not a solution

Ok, to explain further why I think that isn't even the bare minimum. If I (a person who presents very masc 98% of the time, more muscular than average, and generally a bit bitch-faced) went into that space, often set up to be a safe space for SA/DA survivors, despite the fact I am categorically NB, it would be an issue to some of those individuals.

I am also not here to argue over it

16:26

My point was about the womens+ used by the university, not the judo

16:27

Meaning that it would define it as man and non-man. That is all. Forgive me if my wording isnt exactly perfect when Id literally just woken up

Not trying to continue the discussion, but genuine curiosity - what do you mean by 'judo'

Uea judo, my original point

16:28

They used the This Girl Can charity branding and bunched nb people in with it

Oohhhh, sorry, missed that

My judo point being they shouldve just said 'trial day for women and gender non conforming' etcetc (edited)

16:31

No worries, easy mistake

Fanor10

Ok, to explain further why I think that isn't even the bare minimum. If I (a person who presents very masc 98% of the time, more muscular than average, and generally a bit bitch-faced) went into that space, often set up to be a safe space for SA/DA survivors, despite the fact I am categorically NB, it would be an issue to some of those individuals.

yeah i’d feel like i’d be in the same situation

17:41

pretty much masc presenting

17:41

facial hair

17:41

voice etc

17:42

it’s something that could be so easily fixed but no one in power seems to care enough to do anything

They need a serious kick up the ass

it's really frustrating watching their attempts

My life is turning into an installment of the Jeremy Kyle show and i would very much like it to stop.

froghug

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You can take the girl out of Ipswich, but you can't take Ipswich out of the girl

kazoo girl

You can take the girl out of Ipswich, but you can't take Ipswich out of the girl

Ok who did you stab /j

20:03

Hope you’re okay as well btw ❤️

I'm close to stabbing the world's best boyfriend bc I literally saw him out today and considered risking getting hit by a car to avoid him

20:04

I am tired of feeling unsafe because of a stupid angry boyman

20:04

Just let me walk to my burlesque shit jfc (edited)

Here for you always ❤️

Thank you babes

20:05

Maddi villain arc honestly As soon as I can justifiably seperate myself from these people, I'm gone.

20:06

What do you mean my actions have consequences??? What do you mean i can't just take other people's money without telling them and have them be okay with it??

20:06

How the fuck am I the smartest person in this situation

kazoo girl

You can take the girl out of Ipswich, but you can't take Ipswich out of the girl

As a half-Ipswich breed, I agree

mumblingmiss

As a half-Ipswich breed, I agree

Wdym half Ipshit

20:24

will.minchin25

Wdym half Ipshit

Oh did I not tell anyone? My mum's an Ipswich babe

I'm the classic shiny half-Norwich, half-Ipswich cross breed

Ah I see

If you think about it it explains a lot about me

I wouldn’t know lol

mumblingmiss

Oh did I not tell anyone? My mum's an Ipswich babe

I'm the classic shiny half-Norwich, half-Ipswich cross breed

if your mum's from suffolk and your dad's from norfolk does that make you just folk?

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Ripfangs

if your mum's from suffolk and your dad's from norfolk does that make you just folk?

Yes

20:27

Am folk

20:28

I am the colliding of a family with generations of Suffolk bitches and a family with generations of Norfolk bastards (edited)

20:29

(I'm the final boss)

by this same logic, my mum's from kent and my dad's from wales so that makes me kale

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off topic but will you ever change your name to CBeebies

Ripfangs

by this same logic, my mum's from kent and my dad's from wales so that makes me kale

delightfully vegan

mahariel

off topic but will you ever change your name to CBeebies

I've thought about it a lot

ofc i mean your real legal name

mahariel

delightfully vegan

i am vegetarian...

One day I will confuse everyone and just use my actual name on here

nobody will see it coming

It will be a big plot twist

shock and awe will spread through the server

it's a v v cool name tho

My parents definitely couldn't have provided a name that people spell and pronounce with ease

patpat

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mood and then when i picked a new name i did the exact same thing to myself

They liked to do normal names and then sprinkle in a bit of why the fuck not with others

Ripfangs

mood and then when i picked a new name i did the exact same thing to myself

I love that for you

yes

20:38

I'm agreeing

20:38

despite the fact that I've already thought of what i want to name my future kids (edited)

20:38

and they're all slightly strange lol

Glad it's not just me prenaming all my kids lol

mumblingmiss

Oh did I not tell anyone? My mum's an Ipswich babe

I'm the classic shiny half-Norwich, half-Ipswich cross breed

omg me too

disgustatorium

omg me too

We've cursed this server

heheh

me, in norwich: wow why are there so many people from Norfolk here

my dad grew up on the street I live on rn

I live 5 mins from where my dad grew up lol

mahariel

me, in norwich: wow why are there so many people from Norfolk here

a true mystery of the universe

Now I'm just thinking about me and my siblings names

i have 4542 miles from where my father grew up

Damn that a lot of miles

i have an appointment to hopefully diagnose pcos in a couple weeks, so i'm leaving all my symptoms (mostly to do with my skin) to run rampant but holy shit its frustrating me so much and i'm scared i'm just gonna be brushed aside again stitchSob

stitchSob

(edited)

02:28

also can't wait to be told once again that i might want kids in the future !!!

Ever wake up and just feel like you don’t want people to see you. Like ur skin feels shit, you’ve ran out of hair spray and ur hairdresser isn’t responding so you feel silly and sit in your car feeling to stupid to go to lecture?

Deleted User

Ever wake up and just feel like you don’t want people to see you. Like ur skin feels shit, you’ve ran out of hair spray and ur hairdresser isn’t responding so you feel silly and sit in your car feeling to stupid to go to lecture?

Really hope this is a late puberty thing and once it’s over I won’t feel sad for no good reason. I say this cos a person nocked on my car door to ask if I’m ok

Spent some money on new hair products and feel better now

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Deleted User

Spent some money on new hair products and feel better now

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aahhh the joys of retail therapy

I'm just a girl standing in front of a guy hoping that all the cunts of the world will shut the fuck up

mumblingmiss

I'm just a girl standing in front of a guy hoping that all the cunts of the world will shut the fuck up

love this version of notting hill

mahariel

love this version of notting hill

I love that movie and this is my version

Block button be your bestie rn

23:51

Just saying

My hallway stinks of ✨weed✨ and my landlords are coming over in a few days who are very anti drug

19:51

This is gonna be fun

Incense time babey

Funny enough

19:56

That’s banned as well

will.minchin25

This is gonna be fun

febreze the ever living shit out of the place

20:23

like a whole can

Hahaha

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so tired not sure if i should go to sleep /nap now and mess up my sleep schedule or soldier on in the hope i'll get a burst of energy to last me till 10/11pm

20:41

i wanted to do some uni work tonight and i'm just so tired i don't want to

Note to self: if everyone’s out and you dk who’s washing it is or where to put it when you need the washing machine, go with the dirty floor

23:19

Because the clean sofa wasn’t a good idea as it’s ever so slightly damp

Ngl realised that my talking about myself in the 3rd person is kinda cringe

01:12

Why do I do that I blame Lewis

I’ve realised something

02:25

After

02:25

A long think

02:25

And trying to not wake will up

02:25

I realised, I am literally above the people who try to drag me down. The people who supported or helped in my own abuse and look past the shit that has happened.

02:26

They aren’t entitled to me, I am worth more than that. I don’t deserve to be treated that way

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for the love of god can i please sleep at a decent time

notliamhyde02

for the love of god can i please sleep at a decent time

Mood

02:30

But head moving so fast

02:30

Zoom zoom

B

But head moving so fast

for once mines not

notliamhyde02

for once mines not

Zoom is

02:31

Actually me

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02:31

But still

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@Unknown ITS THAT EMOJI

B

They aren’t entitled to me, I am worth more than that. I don’t deserve to be treated that way

You deserve the word brandon, and yes you are above them as you said you’re so much better

Fucking CHRIST facial hair

09:13

I don’t mind it, but I left it grow too long and it needed two shaves to clear.

09:13

And I cut myself twice.

09:13

Wonderful

09:14

Truly wonderful.

Enigmatik

And I cut myself twice.

Hmu if it gets too long again, I can give you a hot towel and straight razor shave

Eeeeen

Hmu if it gets too long again, I can give you a hot towel and straight razor shave

Frantically growing my facial hair out as fast as possible

This offer is open to anyone with facial hair and will cost you one (1) pint at the SU bar

15:55

Also you have to promise not to sue me if I nick your face

I am minimally litigious

i sometime wish i could be bothered to shave with clean shaving (edited)

W... What do you shave with.

but idk how to so i just use an electric one

16:02

wax strips

16:02

no fuck it

16:02

duck tape

...

16:02

Duct tape.

you are not human

16:03

you are beyond human

Please tell me you haven't gotten through multiple decades of existence not knowing it's duct tape not duck tape.

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what is this anti-duck propaganda

Ok

16:04

Y'know what.

16:04

Nope

16:04

I'm wrong here.

Enigmatik

Please tell me you haven't gotten through multiple decades of existence not knowing it's duct tape not duck tape.

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16:04

quack

I swear to God I feel like I've just been fucked with because it has always been Duct Tape to me.

i mean that is what it is

16:04

but like most other things the brand name takes over

16:04

like velcro

It's actually the other way around.

Tbh I only heard of duck tape like a year ago

Duck tape is so named because it's made from cotton duck.

16:06

It was used in HVAC systems back in the way and thus became known as duct tape.

16:06

What the fuck.

16:06

Ok this threw me for a loop.

16:06

A. Apologies Liam, that was presumptuous of me.

16:07

B. My brain has just been fuckspanded.

absolute mindfuck of an etymology

Enigmatik

B. My brain has just been fuckspanded.

think you’re having a stroke over duck tape

16:08

can you smell burnt toast

notliamhyde02

think you’re having a stroke over duck tape

I haven't slept for like 28 hours.

please sleep soon

ah that’ll do it

E r i n

please sleep soon

I dislike that you have aikido'd my concern for you against me.

livinginpain

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16:09

But I appreciate the concern nonetheless.

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notliamhyde02

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Isn’t that one of the gen 9 starters?

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B

Isn’t that one of the gen 9 starters?

dont diss quaxly

notliamhyde02

dont diss quaxly

Oh no I’m gonna diss when he turns into Donald Duck

its just ducktales

17:35

final form is darkwing duck

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weed cat

17:35

i actually cant remember its official name

17:35

i just call it weed cat

same

17:35

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17:36

corporate needs you to find the difference between these two pictures

17:36

17:36

^^^ final form

STOP

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17:38

Weed cat must stay on four legs, or I will personally murder every last one that evolves

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B

Weed cat must stay on four legs, or I will personally murder every last one that evolves

i agree

17:38

but if its sexy

17:38

jk

I just wanna know what the fire croc will look like

will.minchin25

I just wanna know what the fire croc will look like

something chilli related

Maybe

considering its a chilli

17:39

it is actually adorable

notliamhyde02

but if its sexy

I swear to god (edited)

17:39

You furry

B

I swear to god (edited)

whos good?

17:39

also we still need to do smash or pass with pokemon

17:39

you have to have at least one

Okay I’m home in like 20 mins

17:39

We will VC and go through everyone

ok cool

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E r i n

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ok thats sick

oh my god this is adorable

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17:42

i will post the other images ive found

17:42

dont think i wont

Hosuemate 1- “can you sort your stuff out in the kitchen please cause you said you would” Me- “didn’t get chance today” Me again- “is housemate 2 gonna sort their shit out too?”

22:09

Fed up of that other housemates shit

Update she put the sofa back together after her tantrum lol

@Unknown

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did i just spend the last 5 minutes making a poster just to have trump kill it

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I mean

07:19

If the shoe fits

fixed

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07:21

okay i should really start doing work

07:22

I will find anyway I can to shut you down

i will dropkick that elf so fucking hard

the spirit of christmas can burn like the fossil fuel empire it encourages if it means hashbrowns die with it

i hate loft

disgustatorium

i hate loft

You good?

“Can you clean the whole kitchen down please whilst you sort your stuff out”. No, no I cannot

18:00

Now fuck off and leave me alone

Anonymous Confession

"ah dating apps you absolute bastard of a creation. Being left on read indefinitely the few times I do get matches proves there’s clearly something wrong with me and I just gotta accept that"

No it just shows that they’re twats. OP you’re amazing okay

Constantly having that battle in my head between the bit of me that wants to go out and have fun and the other bit that refuses to step out the front door

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the fact that if i owed them this money i wouldnt get away with not oaying the extra 67p but both of thme can irritates me, i know it only wokrs out to be like an extra £1.30 or something but still

i have not gotten out of bed all day

20:07

i aimed to be productive this weekend

20:08

but ive done nothing i set to do (edited)

Anonymous Confession

"had a terrible night's sleep, threw up all of breakfast this morning and haven't eaten since. full day of anxious waiting and I'm starting to go numb"

im so sorry op i hope youre okay

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23:27

“Everything has to be washed up and cleaned and tidied todya begire they come tomorrow”

23:27

DONT FUCKING MOAN AT ME IF YOURE GONNA MAKE MORE FUCKING MESS

Anonymous Confession

"I'm so fucking angry right now. I'm shaking and I can't sleep. There's only so much my constant stream of music can do to help when things are this out of my control"

Dating apps can both be really cool and just drain the fuck out of me

11:33

TW - fetish over trans people if I get one more person obsessing over the fact that I'm a girl with a penis after I have made it plenty clear I'm not comfortable with it, I may just start screaming.

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18:21

I hate my family sometimes

seems like the one time i’m tired and go to sleep at a normal time i only sleep for like an hour

01:58

so now i’m just awake

01:59

im really sorry about that

01:59

hopefully you can get more sleep

well

07:18

i’ve not slept all night

is it worth sleeping now if i’ve got to get up at 9?

I am depressed

Not really a vent, but just wanted to apologise for not really being all that great of a friend at times. People show me kindness and support and more often than not I find myself struggling to give it back when they need it. I don't mean it to be like that, I just don't really know how to help, so I either don't do anything or do something that has no impact on it. Really sorry, I do care about you, I'm just not great at repaying the kindness you show me. I'll try to do better, because making excuses isn't fair, and everyone here and I care about deserve better, I hope I'll be able to give better at some point ❤

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Can I please stop burning myself before I go to Games Soc, it’s happen every single time I’m planning on going

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Feeling extremely out of my own body today. Like I'm not quite here.

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tw drugs getting slightly worried about my substance abuse problem i literally rely on my weekly usage of it atp

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acknowledging it is the first step to getting help

20:51

idk much about this but you should definitely reach out to the uni or smth

Definitely agree with Jory here, the fact that you’ve realised it’s a creeping issue is 100% a step in the right direction

20:56

Proud of you for it x

Tinder really isn’t my best gauge for it but it truly feels like I try to come across as well as I can through there and it’s like chatting to the wind or a wall as I get no sign or validation for me trying to put myself out there, I’m fully aware it’s likely cause a lot of girls get absolutely swamped with matches so I shouldn’t take it personally but yeah self conscious hour abounds I suppose

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In all honestly tinder rally isn’t worth it, I can’t think if anyone I’ve met from tinder who has turned out to be creepy, a dick or just someone who’s like talking to a brick wall as you put it. You’re best bet in my opinion is it find out if any of your friends know anyone single who you might get along with and to introduce you. Ik it sounds cringey or like a set up but you don’t have to go into it with the intention of falling for them more just getting to know them

Tinder dick don't talk right

kazoo girl

Tinder dick don't talk right

What?

Tinder dicks don't communicate well

Anonymous Confession

"Do you ever feel like the outsider looking in? Like everyone is talking and having fun and you just sort of exist on the side as a fair-weather friend? That's my vibe right now"

Was not impressed when I had to take blue roll, sanitiser and a pair of gloves to sort out the toilets because someone had had an explosive shit that had gone all up the back end of the seat bowl edge and lid yet didn’t say anything and just left it to be discovered

05:13

Men are disgusting at times

05:14

Like you didn’t even have to admit it was yours, just say “oh yeah someone’s had what looks like an explosive shit in that end cubical”

05:14

But no

05:14

They left it (edited)

Big up the brain fog I'm coping with today

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why do i get a horrendous cold when it’s becoming nice out

16:53

and when i make plans to go on nights out

notliamhyde02

and when i make plans to go on nights out

Vodka shots with Lemsip

no

17:05

lemsip is gross

Ah yes the only problem with that equation

i have an assignment i want to work on

20:02

but i’m sat in bed

20:02

falling asleep

20:02

mouth breathing cos my nose is blocked

20:02

feeling like actual ass

20:02

i hate this so much

ok so this cold is kicking my ass rn

08:53

woke up in a sweat and feel like shit

08:54

although thank god my mood is better cos if i was depressed with this cold idk if i could cope

08:57

it’s not covid

08:57

but tbh i wish it was

08:57

cos then it’ll be like “oh you’ve got covid that’s why you feel like this”

08:57

but instead it’s just a cold

08:58

that’s decided to just destroy me from the inside

08:58

with no real reason as to why you have it

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On the one hand, I love how I hardly recognise when people call me by my deadname anymore, I almost forget it exists entirely On the other hand, it makes it so much more annoying when I realise someone deadnamed me, and my shock stops me from correcting them

im really struggling atm and i dont know what to do, all inwant is a hug but theres no one that i can ask or would say yes

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I am sending virtual hugs!

Anonymous Confession

"getting sick really does remind me of how lonely I feel deep down This brain sucks how dare it make me analyse my own person imma fight it"

it seems like whenever i’m sick it’s when i’m in a good mood, so it feels like i can be either mentally good or physically good

14:00

but not both

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which then makes me wish i was head empty all the time when this stuff happens

My dad likes to blame my headaches on me 'staring at screens all day'

I swear it’s just a parent tbing

H-how are you supposed to do work at uni?

IT IS 6 PEE EMM WHERE THE FUCK IS MY DISSERTATION GRADE

18:03

I JUST WOKE UP AFTER HAVING A PANIC ATTACK WHERE ALL MY BRAIN WOULD TELL ME WAS "MAGICARP" AND "IPSWICH IS AN EVOLUTION OF SUFFOLK" WHILE MY BODY CRAMPS UP LIKE IVE BEEN STABBED WITH BATMANS SUPER SPECIAL ADRENALINE PEG AND IM BEING STEPPED ON MY BODY STILL FEELS LIKE IM VIBRATING WHAT THE FUCM

I’m sorry maddi I hope you’re okay

I have no idea what happened I needed to lie down and the next thing my body is reacting like I've just been injured and I keep jittering because I have random thoughts that are now scaring me physically

18:05

Guess I'm going to k.r.s office tomorrow to ask why they gave me a deadline if nobody was going to meet it

18:07

I get it uea, you hate me.

18:07

Just give me my fucking degree and let me leave

18:08

All this university experience has done was give me actual physical trauma and the horrible realisation that nobody fucking cares.

18:09

I just want my fucky wucky number back

OK so I'm not getting my grades back today. Great. They don't know when they'll get them back. Great.

18:33

18:40

Like I feel bad for being pissed off becusse the marking on their end seems to have been absolute hell. I'm trying my best to be considerate but fucking hell from start to finish this diss process has been like pulling teeth.

18:41

Wow, I'm a cunt

You’re not a cunt maddi you’re going through a lot of stuff and when something goes wrong it makes you more likely to react negatively it’s a naturally human thing and the anticipation of wanting that grade back is fair enough as long as you aren’t lashing out at people they will understand the frustration it’s completely normal

um what???

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20:43

ffs

think I'm coming down with smth. suddenly feel extremely nauseous and i think i have a fever cwying

cwying

like a cold?

trying to focus on this essay and I'm struggling to comprehend words

20:35

yeah maybe idrk

got the same thing currently

mahariel

trying to focus on this essay and I'm struggling to comprehend words

also same

ughhh suffering together

meant to do some productive things today but just slept and did nothing

unfortunately i have a v important presentation tomorrow that i need to practice for

ah fuck

and i am struggling

20:36

my anxiety has suddenly spiked for no reason too

20:36

my brain is just whispering "hmm smth is wrong" over and over and i just ??? what ??

20:37

it's so weird bc I'm really happy that I'm finally understanding and enjoying my coursework while simultaneously feeling so anxious about smth terrible happening

mahariel

think I'm coming down with smth. suddenly feel extremely nauseous and i think i have a fever cwying

cwying

I think I have this too

21:02

I felt really sick this morning

21:02

Now my eyes are low-key burning

Oh nooooo I hope you guys are okay :(((

Knew you weren’t well

21:03

Literally said to holly I didn’t think you were well, make sure you rest up

How about I recover in 10th bites

21:04

Minutes

21:04

May go for a walk soon as well

21:04

Just Bleugh

You’re gonna feel miraculously better in 10 minutes

covid-22

uncontrollable_sobbing

Make sure you have lots of fluids and rest

Also don’t push your self Ik you’re injured rn

Watch me recover

21:07

I’m about 2 minutes away from entering God Complex B

Do it

mahariel

think I'm coming down with smth. suddenly feel extremely nauseous and i think i have a fever cwying

cwying

me knowing full well you're getting sick, days after when I was dying of flu

stabby

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I want to stop completely freaking the fuck out when I see my old housemate on campus why do I feel like I'm in immediate danger around him.

Anonymous Confession

"tfw you nearly come out to your family as trans

"

Anonymous Confession

"First appointment with my GP to discuss Trans issues in a few weeks

"

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Confessions

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Go you op! (edited)

aww proud of you OP

Hell yeah! ❤️

I swtg if I get ill

22:48

I am gonna hang myself

22:49

Someone at one of my jobs came up positive

22:49

The day after I’d been working with her

22:49

Then 4 kids have had and are currently off with covid (potentially more but as of yet is unconfirmed)

22:50

I had a child tell me there older sibling was sent home from school for being unwell to only have them turn around and cough directly into my face 4 FUCKING TIMES!

22:51

On top of that they also have a case of explosive diarrhoea going around and we had at least 3 chidkren j can think of from the top of my head that had it

jesus christ

The joys of working with children

22:56

I nearly threw up after I had to deal with the toilet stuff earlier

22:56

I just couldn’t cause ya know

22:56

Being watched by kids

what year were they in

They were toddlers in the 2-3 room

00:22

I think it’s 2-3’s anyway

i could never

00:22

eyfs is something i’m staying away from

00:22

not just cos of that

I wnat to go into teaching

but i don’t want to fuck their education up early and then mess them up for the rest of school

Tbis is just something to do on the side cause it’s kinda relevant

00:23

Or related

00:23

However@you look at it

do you get paid?

Yes

ah fair enough

It’s an actual job

i see

Not just a placement

00:23

But I’m bank staff

i’m going for my first placement after easter

00:23

bricking it ngl

00:24

like ive had experience but ive not had to actually teach

I’ve had placement experience where I’ve run and created activities for small groups

00:25

But never a whole class

00:25

I’ve got a morning in tinny babies and an afternoon in pre school tomorrow

00:25

Tbh preschools alright after lunch

hopefully i won’t have to do full class yet

You can sit and talk to the kids and have actual conversation

yeah i guess mornings are stressful

notliamhyde02

yeah i guess mornings are stressful

Lunch is stressful

00:26

Some kids don’t eat

00:26

Some go home

00:26

You get the odd one who needs a nap

00:26

And if it’s two sittings then bloody hell

00:27

But no we were talking who are favourite superheroes and villains were and why last week which was quite cool

00:28

Ofc we got the Spider-Man stans but one kid was like “my favourite is ant-man” and when I asked why I was told “because he can go really really small or super big and tall”

00:29

I wanted to make a non binary joke earlier cause I had a toddler sitting with me and I was like “are you a boy” and they said no, so I asked if they were a girl and again they said no and when I said what are you then they went “I’m insert child’s name”

00:30

Oh and everyone else was a girl even tho they were calling half of them he

00:30

So I don’t think the kid quite realises the different between a boy and girl yet lol

honestly embrace that

00:33

just refer to that kid by they’re name for the rest of time

Not gonna tell them what they are lol

don’t be the blue haired lib with pronounce

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It was funny I asked if their teddy was a boy or a girl and they said no it’s just “Roar” (that’s the teddy’s name) and then the kid kept referring to it as a he

gender is a social construct after all

00:50

they’ll get it

00:50

eventually

I’m getting

02:23

Really bad

02:23

Intrusive thoughts which won’t let me sleep

02:23

I haven’t had them in a while and it’s freaking me out

B

I haven’t had them in a while and it’s freaking me out

what’s up?

notliamhyde02

what’s up?

Dmed you

onthatass just charged me a tenner for no reason

13:11

cancelled the subscription and apparently it’s still gone out

13:12

and my mother’s day gift i sent home didn’t get delivered

13:12

it’s lego why did they not just leave it

Well that’s crap

luckily i could send the thing from dpd to my dad and he picked it up

22:13

and my mum loved it so that’s good

22:13

but still

Bloody work day from hell and there’s still 3 1/2 hours left

:( hope it goes fast so you can escape

Thank you. Glad I have next Saturday off so hopefully I avoid this shot show next week

this annoys the fuck out of me

15:55

it annoys me that i can’t just correct people

15:55

i hate it

Ow

B

Ow

ikr

notliamhyde02

this annoys the fuck out of me

wait ow to this or something else?

Tesco had no white monsters or any caramel lattes

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I actually hate that I thought I’d plugged my phone in but hadn’t

Send reinforcements I'm seeing isaac today

kazoo girl

Send reinforcements I'm seeing isaac today

I send you all my hope and patience

kazoo girl

Send reinforcements I'm seeing isaac today

You got this

Mini rant but got around to ordering some new boots because my other ones are awful. Turns out I ordered the wrong size and they don't take returns :)

What about exchanges?

Nope, nothing

14:00

On that topic if anyone wants a free pair of 39 sized white boots hmu

What’s that in terms like uk sizing

No idea, but I feel like I should find out for future reference too

Is there a sticker on the inside flap?

14:02

Or does it say on the bottom of the shoe?

Nope, just 39

14:03

It's a 6 apparently

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I think a 39 is an 8?

Okay according to Google it’s a 6.5

Wow many different results lmao

Wow I was so very far off with my order

14:04

This is why you don't do online shopping without sleeping kids :)

What do they look like?

I would take them, cause I’m desperate for a pair of boots. However they’d be too small for me

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Omg they're cute

Are you by any chance a size 6?

I actually am lmao but sometimes depending on the brand they can be too big

Well I'm happy to hold onto them and next time you're in Norwich you can try them out if you want?

That would be great :) do you want anything for them I don't mind paying

No need

14:09

Thanks though :)

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I was in the middle of playing and the game card popped out

I am going to find the lazy pos who hasn't even finished marking my dissertation yet and I am going to punch them

Give them a second one from me as well pls

why the fuck has my laptop just stopped connecting to wifi (edited)

23:15

like there not even an option for wifi

23:15

what the fuck

23:16

i need to do my work but i can’t if ive got no fucking internet

23:17

please some help me i may actually cry

That's weird, have you done the usual restart trick?

yep

23:19

like i’m not kidding wi-fi just doesn’t exist

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23:19

either have to use ethernet, hotspot or fucking dial up

Oh shit

fucking agony

23:25

literally working fine one second

23:25

and broke the next

ok it’s decided to work now

23:34

jfc

Omg so glad

23:35

Tech is so frustrating

Can someone pls take liams internet off of a boomerang it’s causing them distress

23:35

But in all seriousness I’m glad it started working again

Anonymous Confession

"don't take stimulants you shouldn't be taking kids"

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I am so tired. I was happy today. Now I'm just so tired.

4

mumblingmiss

I am so tired. I was happy today. Now I'm just so tired.

Get some rest it’s deserved. I think everyone here has had a tiring day albeit all of us for different reasons so remember be kind to yourself

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Dupendous Lew

Get some rest it’s deserved. I think everyone here has had a tiring day albeit all of us for different reasons so remember be kind to yourself

You too. Thank you

Am I a bad person Do I get caught up in people's circuses because I'm a bad person Is this my fault

No not at all

This is not your fault maddi you’re not a bad person at all. Someone else talking to you about something that you don’t wanna hear is never your fault

Like I understand his frustration but if someone doesn't want to have a dialogue with you then they won't!

23:50

It sucks but you need to accept that

It's super difficult to avoid being dragged into others problems unfortunately so it's not your fault

You see I know my brain fucks with me late at night and early in the morning so I don't trust it and thats okay

01:00

That being said my brain sometimes takes that as a challenge and just goes 'ha you fucking lonely loser' despite me literally texting and sometimes flirting with people at the same time

is there like a motivation shot i can take

Not one that doesn't destroy your liver, in my experience

seriously lacking in motivation for this assignment and it’s not helping in the slightest

01:02

i don’t understand why

01:02

i’m not depressed atm

01:02

moods pretty decent actually

Sometimes brains just suck and don't want to do stuff :(

and ive nearly recovered from my cold

01:03

and now im just sat here looking at books and not being able to do anything

01:03

it’s just ass

01:05

it’s my last written assignment of the year

01:05

i just need a pass

01:05

why can’t i just do it

this close to just giving up on this assignment

02:05

it’s literally one of the easier ones ive had

02:05

especially compared to the shit show that was my last one

02:05

but i just can’t bring myself to do it

02:07

just want it to be over

You can do it

i am fucking tired of being sick ( >：, c 」∠ ) (edited)

God same Being ill sucks I just want to be healthy again

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14:34

So I'm a failure fraud bitch who should just quit her degree now.

Absolutely not

14:35

You’re an amazing human and you’re gonna ace your degree

No I didn't get on a first on my diss it's over I'm done

14:36

I've actually been trash this entire time

14:36

I'm delusional

Get just because you didn’t get a first doesn’t mean your trash

14:37

At least you submitted and passed your dis which is more than what some people do

14:37

Be proud you got that far

Well it means I'm not getting let on any masters course for cw Ever

Are you able to redo it!

14:39

*?

14:39

If so maybe consider it

14:39

And a masters isn’t everything

14:39

You at least have a degree now

No. Can't get it remarked bc of how the module works without making a complaint.

That’s so weird surely you should be able to resist it

Nope. Considering this was my second time on the module (1st time actually submitting bc I was hospitalised twice the first time) I don't think it's worth it

i feel just defeated rn

need to do 2 1000 word paragraphs

16:30

and i just cannot find anything helpful for them to reference

16:31

and what i’m writing doesn’t feel like it’s going to be enough for what they’re asking

16:31

just doesn’t feel right

@kazoo girl have to say, the consensus among cw diss students seems to be that our marking was v rushed and the marks were all over the place bc the 1st markers were rather incompetent. i understand your frustration tho bc i didn't quite get the mark i thought i would either. but if you remember what Giles said, a good deal of his 2:1 diss students went on to get massive publishing deals so masters courses aren't the be all and end all of things

i lost it because my first marker complained that a story about generational trauma had too many generations in it.

16:42

there was a grandmother/mother/grandchild relationship

16:43

without the three characters there would be no story

16:44

so in my perspective my first marker missed the fucking point

16:46

this has actually fucked over my postgrad prospects.

who did you have as your first marker?

16:47

bc mine seems to have missed the point too lmao

Linden Hibbert

16:47

never fucking heard of her

wonder if these are just postgrad students they've enlisted bc there weren't enough professors to mark these

thought she was a man until mike googled her. shes a ldc/philisophy person bc at the very least i can understand a dude not understanding a story about mothers.

16:48

i cant get a remark :/

it sucks that our degree is so damn subjective

16:50

and a bit of a slap in the face getting praise heaped on by my supervisor and workshop group and then it all being halted by one person

like quite frankly linden didnt understand my piece she just didnt. and her feedback makes it SO CLEAR she didnt any other module i could get a remark for that

16:52

if it was any other module i could

16:55

anyway friendship ended with ldc

looked over my feedback lindon thought the "witch" referring to lorelei was a separate character got another characters name wrong pain

im gonna have to make a formal complaint arent i

Honestly seems likely from what I've read here :/

Honestly gonna kick off

17:31

How dare she blame me

17:31

And how dare the other one try to guilt me

17:33

The first one can’t keep putting it off and now blame me for not having money

17:33

She owes a minimum of £80

17:33

And now says I shoudlnt go out and enjoy myself on the rare occasion I do

17:33

Like actually go fuck yoursef

17:34

How I spend my money is irrelevant

17:34

She’s owed money since January and keeps putting it off

17:34

And is now trying to guilt me

17:36

And Lucy

17:36

Absolute fucking twat (edited)

17:36

How fucking dare she try and guilt me like that

17:36

Ik I have someone in here I live with

17:36

And if you see this

17:36

I’m sorry

17:36

But I’m fed up of her fucking shit

17:37

I’m fed up of being emotionally abused by her and she can’t tell me to not bring up the debt owed by someone else

17:37

And she can’t talk about how she stopped talking about being evicted because she didn’t

17:37

She saw how stressed we were

17:38

We told her

17:40

And she carried on all the time about how unfair it was and “did we not care she was being evicted” which never happened in the end

17:41

I am literally one incident away from ratting them out for EVERYTHING and ending the tenancy early

17:43

Sorry to everyone who reads this

17:45

Omfg the audacity

17:45

“I get paid a week on Saturday I’m sure you can manage 10 days x” (edited)

17:46

The audacity

17:46

I’ve been so patient because she’s pregnant and I wanted to give her the benefit of the doubt but I’m so fed up of it

Will I’m really sorry :/

It’s not your fault

17:53

Ellie’s taking the piss and you know what Lucy’s like

17:54

In fact she told me not to bring it up them about ellie but talk to you instead @B

will.minchin25

In fact she told me not to bring it up them about ellie but talk to you instead @B

Sorry who!

Lucy

And why bring it to me?

Cause “it stresses sav out”

I’m sorry, but do they not understand the stress you are out under

17:55

You are made to pay for the bills they refuse to pay

Yep

You work 4 days aweek and have people literally take the piss out of you for money

But that’s not there problem

17:55

So they don’t care

And blame you when you can’t go out

Ellie told me if I didn’t go out I might have some money

Sorry but you don’t go out for weeks?

Yep

17:56

I’ve been out Sunday and for a little bit Monday

17:57

And that wasn’t really going out

Literally

17:58

Omfg

I hate it there

18:01

Im gonna match the energy now

18:02

Im not gonna be polite

18:02

I’ll treat them how they treat me

As you should

18:02

They get back what they give

I’m ready to fight lucy honestly

18:03

I’m fully prepared to stand there and have a screaming match with her

why are flatmates/housemates so inconsiderate

Because they’re selfish

I'm sorry that you are stuck dealing with this bs

I’ve been dealing with it since July it’s just coming to a head now

Nobody deserves a bad roommate other than a bad roommate

Again

literally just asked some of mine for some help with this assignment and they kept dicking about while i was talking to them

mumblingmiss

Nobody deserves a bad roommate other than a bad roommate

I’ve got 2 so it’s fine

I hope you get away from them soon and they get what's coming to them

June I might

Bless you

good things happen in june

Hopefully

My dad says things he knows I'll argue with and always looks straight at me when he does because even as he's just said he looks straight at me bc he knows I will argue with him, but if i argue he's always like why do you always have to argue with me when I say something so I was just like because that's what you wait for me to do so maybe if you just stopped saying those things you know ill argue with then I won't have to argue and then he just talks to me like a kid like if you're gonna act like that you can go sit in your bedroom. He can't seem to grasp that I'm only like this because of him, I don't want to hold back a panic attack every time he talks just because he's allowed to say whatever he wants but seemingly I'm not otherwise I'm attacking him and it's just so exhausting. I'm fuckin 20 I have opinions I have a voice and I'm not some mindless woman without rights, this is my home and my family too and there are some comments I simply can't let slide and sometimes I'll say something simple and very uncontroversial and apparently that's me arguing???? Fucking hell (edited)

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19:17

Oop long boi sorry

mumblingmiss

My dad says things he knows I'll argue with and always looks straight at me when he does because even as he's just said he looks straight at me bc he knows I will argue with him, but if i argue he's always like why do you always have to argue with me when I say something so I was just like because that's what you wait for me to do so maybe if you just stopped saying those things you know ill argue with then I won't have to argue and then he just talks to me like a kid like if you're gonna act like that you can go sit in your bedroom. He can't seem to grasp that I'm only like this because of him, I don't want to hold back a panic attack every time he talks just because he's allowed to say whatever he wants but seemingly I'm not otherwise I'm attacking him and it's just so exhausting. I'm fuckin 20 I have opinions I have a voice and I'm not some mindless woman without rights, this is my home and my family too and there are some comments I simply can't let slide and sometimes I'll say something simple and very uncontroversial and apparently that's me arguing???? Fucking hell (edited)

I feel this one to my core my dad is pretty much exactly the same way I’m so sorry you have to deal with that. Freedom to speak your mind is for everyone but you still gotta expect to get your ideas challenged at the same time Bloody boomers

Dupendous Lew

I feel this one to my core my dad is pretty much exactly the same way I’m so sorry you have to deal with that. Freedom to speak your mind is for everyone but you still gotta expect to get your ideas challenged at the same time Bloody boomers

For real I just don't understand the audacity of it really especially if you know you're gonna make me say something. Goddamn boomers

pain of getting everything done for my masters application and then having to wait around for my dad to send me my a-level transcript uncontrollable_sobbing

uncontrollable_sobbing

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20:59

that little yellow uncompleted dot pains me

Oh god that's sickening

Hey at least youll actually be considered for a masters

21:23

My life's fucking ruined

hnnnnnggggg done.

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kazoo girl

Hey at least youll actually be considered for a masters

it's still definitely worth applying. grades are a v small part of applications and they're much more interested in your personal statement, portfolio, and work experience

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kazoo girl

Hey at least youll actually be considered for a masters

What Jory said, grades are not the be all end all of something like this I’ve known people go on to go masters with worse grades overall then you have gotten.

I'd be more at peace about this if my grade hadn't been messed with because the marker didn't read the fucking properly.

Oh for sure that’s valid reason to be annoyed

So that was perhaps the worst early awakening I’ve ever had. Woke up at 6 to what I can only describe as a very mild form of sleep paralysis which I’ve never experienced before. I was able to get out of it after only a little bit but still was rough as hell

Are you okay??? Sleep paralysis can be pretty scary especially if you haven't dealt with it before

I think I’ll be alright it’s been a few hours now and feel ok did just shake me up a little bit even if it was way shorter then when most people experience it

Well I hope it doesn't become a common thing for you, all good as long as you're okay now

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Same here, thanks for the concern tho really appreciate it

Anonymous Confession

"hate how paranoid I get. Whenever I'm supposed to get out and do something with someone new, or even people I know on occasion, I end up backing out or being really nervous the entire time. Ends up with me (TW: alcohol) drinking, often a bit too much by the end of the night, to tolerate it. Feeling like I need to drink every time I go out with new people or I'm nervous at this point, and I know that's really not healthy"

what the fuck

02:00

is going on

Touching grass is no longer enough, I need the grass to touch me (edited)

Having big self doubt/self esteem issue hours rn. Fun times

Pretty sure a wisdom tooth is starting to come through and the pain has woken me up

will.minchin25

Pretty sure a wisdom tooth is starting to come through and the pain has woken me up

Oh no are you okay?? Those things are torture

mumblingmiss

Oh no are you okay?? Those things are torture

I’ll be okay it just woke me up at like 6am and I wasn’t impressed lol

Just tired

13:37

And feeling a bit down today

I’m sorry to hear thst, if I can help you feel better at all let me know

If I ever find out who stuffed a glass down the loo I will literally slap the shit out of you xoxo

who the fuck are you living with jesus christ

will.minchin25

If I ever find out who stuffed a glass down the loo I will literally slap the shit out of you xoxo

i’m hoping that’s at work not at home

Sorry yes this was at work

15:08

I’d have gone ape shit if it was at home

Yet again 90% if the cutlery is gone

where do you work??!

Well I have one job in a nursery and another in a nightclub

23:32

In this context it’s a nightclub

ah the nightclub makes sense unless some 4 year old was playing "will it flush" with a stolen glass

fire alarm at 8 am when i couldn’t sleep until half 6

kazoo girl

ah the nightclub makes sense unless some 4 year old was playing "will it flush" with a stolen glass

Hahaha

Endless tiredness I stg

What’s up

I just have work to do but I keep having to push it back constantly bc god I hardly even have the energy to move myself around the house let alone write stuff. And I know it will pass eventually but these lows just leave me frustrated as hell. Like this is my body and mind and I can't even make it do what I want or need to do

10:03

It's the kind of thing I forget I have to deal with until it comes back around to make me tired again

I’m really sorry to hear that hopefully things improve for you

Thank you

I’m sure you will get through this CB sometimes your body and or mind can be your worst enemy but as you say it passes eventually and when it does you will feel loads better so keep that in mind

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10:32

But yeah take it at your own pace

Thanks Lewis

i have an irrational feeling that whenever a specific housemate is at home i simply do not want to be here

E r i n

i have an irrational feeling that whenever a specific housemate is at home i simply do not want to be here

Ha same

1

problem is i have drunk a bit and don't think i should be out wandering the streets of norwich, and I have nothing to do at the library lol

Ah

Ok I’m so embarrassed right now. I thought I’d got past all the voice braking and puberty but no,so I answer the door to the postman and as I start to say “hello” my throat makes a horrible squeaking sound and my voice breaks. Never been so embarrassed in my life, even the postman gave me a funny look as if to say “well that’s unfortunate”

1

Just milk it, try to make the most eldritch noises possible

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Ok I’m so embarrassed right now. I thought I’d got past all the voice braking and puberty but no,so I answer the door to the postman and as I start to say “hello” my throat makes a horrible squeaking sound and my voice breaks. Never been so embarrassed in my life, even the postman gave me a funny look as if to say “well that’s unfortunate”

Omg id feel so embarrassed

Yesterday I squeaked at one of the construction workers outside because they jogged their wheelbarrow and it made a noise that started me

11:42

Doesn't help that he looks suspiciously like the guy who tried to dox me (and that I got messages from this when next door started to yet building work done) but lol I'm being paranoid

That’s normal tho

15:51

Ngl i still get worried that I’ve found this creep who lives near B fairly often and he was being creepy and rude

15:51

Nothing anywhere near as bad as what that guy did to you

15:51

So it’s normal

15:52

Try not to stress it

Missed a train and cried. That's all.

I have accidentally black metal screeched at our postie before because the scream part of song kicked in as I opened the door to leave

Eeeeen

I have accidentally black metal screeched at our postie before because the scream part of song kicked in as I opened the door to leave

oh dear

20:06

poor postie

cw: distressing, use of force - https://twitter.com/nowthisnews/status/1510188538725384192?s=21&t=LGsG1W7nZ0DQiwQHO_A9HQ

NowThis (@nowthisnews)

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20:21

fucking vile

just saw the cutest tiktok of a couple and it’s made me feel so lonely

14:25

https://vm.tiktok.com/ZMLQVhbTL/

brian on TikTok

the heartstopper audio was a must

#gay #lgbt #fyp #heartstopper

14:26

i know i should be hopeful but i’m finding it very hard to not think i’ll be alone forever

feels like i’m going to be waiting forever

notliamhyde02

feels like i’m going to be waiting forever

I can assure you that won’t be the case, these things can a lot of the time jump out at you when you least expect you just gotta be ready to grab that opportunity. Very motivational pageant ass response I know but I do believe it. But fair enough being in your feelings about it I cannot criticise that I’m like that more then anyone lol

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Dupendous Lew

I can assure you that won’t be the case, these things can a lot of the time jump out at you when you least expect you just gotta be ready to grab that opportunity. Very motivational pageant ass response I know but I do believe it. But fair enough being in your feelings about it I cannot criticise that I’m like that more then anyone lol

thank you x

you know i really didn’t need to see this

16:37

ik it’s probably a joke but still :/

Ouch that’s not fun when your down I’m sorry

notliamhyde02

feels like i’m going to be waiting forever

Honestly same, but the wait will be worth it. Waiting for a good person is always a good thing

️ (sorry, just looking through messages to get an idea of the server and people and thought I should say something)

Bv_

Honestly same, but the wait will be worth it. Waiting for a good person is always a good thing

️ (sorry, just looking through messages to get an idea of the server and people and thought I should say something)

aw thanks

22:19

also dw i’m not always this sad

¯\_(ツ)_/¯

22:19

All feelings are valid

Good luck with figuring out everyone btw

yeah that’s a tough order

22:20

but good luck :)

i have

21:32

a fever

21:32

cwying

Nooo :((

head has that "filled with cotton" feeling and I'm freezing

21:36

hope this passes soon

21:36

i have so much work to do jfc

mahariel

hope this passes soon

Same here can’t be having fever season rn you gotta work to do and goblin antics to achieve I’m sure

hahaha v true

21:46

hope you get better soon

Oh sorry don’t think I worded that correctly I meant same I hope it passes soon, I ain’t sick myself aside from mentally I guess but that’s to be expected

1

Dupendous Lew

Oh sorry don’t think I worded that correctly I meant same I hope it passes soon, I ain’t sick myself aside from mentally I guess but that’s to be expected

Oh god I felt that one

slowly working through the stuff i have to write but keep passing out midway

5

22:58

words are v blurry and that's not helping

23:02

nausea bad

23:02

v bad

mahariel

v bad

Please rest

Anonymous Confession

"I’m so very lost, things are going my way but I still focus on the things that I don’t have? I know I need to concentrate on the now and the things that I’m doing but honestly these holidays at home just slow my brain down too much"

2

think my whole blocks lost wi-fi

2

00:23

which is fantastic

00:25

started young justice today and was really enjoying it until i was rudely interrupted

B

Please rest

trying to. just woke up again after passing out and feels like my heartbeats at 200mph lol

mahariel

trying to. just woke up again after passing out and feels like my heartbeats at 200mph lol

Maybe you wanna see how you are in the morning and if it’s worse phone the doctor?

yeah i will but its fine

01:16

deadlines fucking with me

Tired and motivationless at work ain’t the best combo tbh

1

hate this illness. i get brief moments of feeling alright before suddenly getting hit by nausea

16:31

whole body's shaking again and i can't keep anything down

I’m really sorry to hear that, maybe take a rest

1

I've been resting all day really

16:43

haven't felt this lethargic in so so long

Please ring a doctor

it's nothing major dw

16:47

just a shitty case of the flu i assume

16:47

besides docs are so overwhelmed rn that they'll just tell me to deal with it

Anonymous Confession

"Strange feeling finding out that half of my course dislikes me bc of my history with one person. Thought I made great impressions with all of them before the drama went down but guess gossip and that person's hatred of me travelled faster. Will only have to deal with them for another couple of months but it hurts being isolated"

no sleep for me

04:11

just as soon as i was getting my sleep schedule back on track

Oh no, I'm sorry

11:55

I hope you managed to get some sleep at least

Big time tired the one two punch of my Friday and Saturday shifts still tires me out

3

hope you'll be able to get some rest after this shift is done

TW: threats honestly dont expect to get rattled by the stupid threats that I get but sometimes they fuck with me more than I realise initially

are you alright Erin?

Hey are you okay erin? I’m here if you wanna talk about anything

what's up erin? who's threatening you?

It's just stupid people on dating apps, they don't mean anything other than them being petty but I let it effect me more than I should. Sorry, should've clarified

I'm not in actual danger

no that's still incredibly shitty of them and I'm sorry you've had these experiences

16:50

ik there's not much you can do beyond reporting them but pls still do

Will do, thanks

Anonymous Confession

"i really need to get over this person. i keep thinking about being with them when i know it’s not going to happen and that they are already happy. i know it’s not going to happen yet i cant see to get over it"

5

Honestly I've been there, it's really tough

it can take a long time to get over something like this unfortunately, but you do eventually. Hope you feel better soon OP ❤

Maybe talking to the person could help?

1

I've gone through the exact same thing recently and there were two things I did that stopped my feelings for him

22:43

One was to block him and everyone connected to him

22:43

The other was...well kinda bad so I'll not suggest that

22:44

Removing all contact with the person and any mutuals will be the only way to ensure you are removing them from your life

22:44

And by getting rid of them, finding a new path in life will make it easier

22:44

But it's not easy

22:44

It takes time

22:44

A lot of time

very lonely

Sameeee

23:07

Currently drowning in alcohol, which is not the best idea but too late

Mood

23:08

Well I'm not drowning yet, I've only had two glasses recently, three in total today

I'm a huge lightweight so two is enough (edited)

i have to wait until monday night when i’m with my friends to get drunk

23:09

unless i get more but ive already spent sm recently

notliamhyde02

very lonely

Honestly though, if wanna talk, I'm happy to chat about it, bcs like fully feeling the same

notliamhyde02

i have to wait until monday night when i’m with my friends to get drunk

Ooh have fun

Bv_

Honestly though, if wanna talk, I'm happy to chat about it, bcs like fully feeling the same

may take you up on that, thanks x (edited)

Np, I know what it's like to feel alone...like rn

Bv_

I'm a huge lightweight so two is enough (edited)

Depends on what I'm drinking tbh

Squad depression hour amiright, but nah you’re very much not alone here bud. Here for the support

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2

We love mutual aloneness

I should just book a lecture theatre on campus for a week

23:15

That way I can set up discord 24/7 and just wait for people to come in person or virtually and no one will be alone

23:16

And then I'm also close to the su shop for more alcohol

To quote Wilbur Soot

23:35

'I'm bored, pissed off and lonely ~~horny~~'

E r i n

'I'm bored, pissed off and lonely ~~horny~~'

yep feel that

Very very relatable

Anonymous Confession

"conflicted on whether i should say something to this person about my feelings. i don’t want anything bad to happen and im not too sure it will even help how i feel"

Op is there a reason why you can’t tell them

00:53

Like are they single or?

Anonymous Confession

"they’re taken. i’m sure nothing bad would happen but i don’t want to risk it, tho i may have to bite the bullet"

Valid, I hope it’s okay

Being single is the fucking worst/being in a toxic relationship is the fucking worst (hate that those have been my only experiences in relationships)…everyone deserves someone to love them and keep them warm and safe

5

2

My brain is misbehaving again

at this point I have no idea what's going on half the time

3

Anonymous Confession

"I need change in my life so badly. I'm miserable and self destructive and constantly living for other people. I need to change or else I think I might actually die soon. Not to be dramatic ofc, I just think if i don't change, my life won't get any better."

4

I doubt I could be much help OP but I felt somewhat similar a year ago, if you ever want to talk please be free to DM, or want to do something fun for yourself. Really hope things improve for you soon ❤

https://vm.tiktok.com/ZMLX5NDAU/ what in the fuckin toxic masculinity is this

oliveraull on TikTok

If you read this and don’t follow, you’ll lose your headphones :) // #couple #flirt #cute #tease #relationship #crush #love

Take a read of this

23:21

Tw; mentions of SA and victim blaming. As well as disgusting Cis het man

SPOILER

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Kid deserves a slap

will.minchin25

Kid deserves a slap

needs a kick in the balls

notliamhyde02

needs a kick in the balls

That’s being nice

will.minchin25

That’s being nice

fine, castration

23:42

garden sheers

Be more creative

fine ill just rip them off

once again uea are telling me to stop writing and that im shit (edited)

17:37

getting the fucking rejection email from someone i know personally just adds salt to the wound

17:38

and now im spiralling on a conspiracy theory that my old housemate was an editor (bc he would be) and veto'd my work on the spot

would really love to have a supportive group of writing friends but that was taken away from me and cw soc has my abusers in so fuck me i guess

feeling very conflicted rn

22:41

wanna do something but idk how or if i should

22:41

but it’s making me feel very lonely

22:42

was meant to see some friends today but had to wait until later cos it was gonna rain when we planned to meet

22:42

and now i’m at home stuck in the house with not much to do

notliamhyde02

wanna do something but idk how or if i should

What would you do?

notliamhyde02

but it’s making me feel very lonely

Understandable, it's a horribly complex emotion

i am Not counting the days but i Am going absolutely nuts

not so much a vent but

00:46

why do i only like my face when it’s not smiling

00:47

and my hair is slightly all over the place

There's a thing that suggests that certain emotions, like smiling, when you see yiur own face causes a sense of distrust and fear

i wouldn’t say it’s that necessarily

00:55

i just like how my face looks more when i’m not smiling

00:55

like i’ll just stare at myself in the mirror and “appreciate” my face

00:56

but i resist the urge to smile cos i feel like it would ruin it

00:56

idk it’s very odd

I don’t think it is

00:56

I don’t like myself when I smile

00:57

And I know a lot of other people who have felt the same

00:57

So from my personal experience, it seems to be a relatively normal feeling?

hmm

00:57

i guess so

notliamhyde02

why do i only like my face when it’s not smiling

i get what you mean but the opposite. i only like my face while smiling and hate how flat and shapeless my face looks without round cheeks

currently unable to sleep and I’m really bad pain

02:13

So I’m currently in my front room so I don’t disturb anyones sleep

Like physical pain?

Yes

Can you take some painkillers?

02:14

Most boring response, but still

02:16

Are you also hydrated? Try and drink some water if you aren’t

genuinely see a doctor

02:16

or at least go to the pharmacy

And then maybe do something to try and calm your mind to help sleep, like reading or something

mahariel

genuinely see a doctor

Also this

mahariel

genuinely see a doctor

The problem is

02:23

I have a problem most likely genetic

02:24

Which makes me susceptible to mouth ulcers (Yknow the non contagious untreatable stuff). It’s literally not curable bc it’s not caused by a virus or disease. Just stress triggers them. And leaves me in severe pin

02:24

Pain

02:24

To a point i couldn’t eat for like a solid week before whilst crying for most of it because it got so bad

ahh yikes that's really bad then

02:29

hm i still think a doctor's visit would be useful in getting smth prescribed to help with symptoms even if there's no cure

mahariel

hm i still think a doctor's visit would be useful in getting smth prescribed to help with symptoms even if there's no cure

Done it before

02:34

Literally nothing they can do

02:34

Except “wait it out”

02:35

I hate the fact like it’s not even like anything viral or anything it’s just I had it all my life

that sucks dude

02:38

hope it gets better quickly this time

A couple of things that work for me when I get them is to either swill my mouth with salt water, suck an ice cube or eat natural yogurt (helps in healing). Don’t know if you tried any of those, but could work, the first two anyway to numb the pain a little

Bv_

A couple of things that work for me when I get them is to either swill my mouth with salt water, suck an ice cube or eat natural yogurt (helps in healing). Don’t know if you tried any of those, but could work, the first two anyway to numb the pain a little

it doesnt help for too long tbh

03:11

thanks though everyone

03:12

I seriously should lay down but at the same time I dont wanna wake up will

03:12

So im honestly tempted to take the sofa

It’s getting fucking ridiculous now, it’s been almost 2 hours since we ordered food and it’s not arrived yet

15:56

It’s been out for delivery for at least 35 minutes if not longer and they don’t know where the driver is but apparently “it’s still on its way”

I have food but I cant eat it bc there's people next to me on this train so I understand this frustration

15:58

It's still ridiculous how long delivery can take

The food was meant to arrive between 2:30-2:50

Thats ridiculous

It’s now 4pm and we don’t even know where the driver is

Make sure you get a refund

The last update we had was 3:40

16:00

At this point I want to cancel it but I can’t

16:00

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16:00

This is all I’m getting

Wtf

It’s so annoying and there’s nothing I can do

Can you contact the place?

Yeah I can call the restaurant but it’s just eat that are the problem (edited)

Sometimes they'll just dump it outside your door tbh, which is awful in itself. Other times they do just go off the radar. Sorry you're having to deal with that

E r i n

Sometimes they'll just dump it outside your door tbh, which is awful in itself. Other times they do just go off the radar. Sorry you're having to deal with that

I’ve checked the door

16:01

Notbing

Well they better clean up their act

I can’t even make a complaint atm tho

16:02

Or even know if I can afterwards

JustEat are being little shits then :/ might be worth calling the restaurant and just checking that the order was picked up, so you at least have some idea of what's going on. Not really much that can be done though, yeah, sorry :(

It’s annoying me because I have no way of contacting just eat or the driver to find out what’s going on

Dumbest vent ever: I'm stressing so hard that my ex is still using my account on netflix bcs I never logged out the last time we used it and it's kinda stressing me out to a stupid level for no reason (it's my dad's account, just my profile thing)

Bv_

Dumbest vent ever: I'm stressing so hard that my ex is still using my account on netflix bcs I never logged out the last time we used it and it's kinda stressing me out to a stupid level for no reason (it's my dad's account, just my profile thing)

kick them off it lol

18:32

there should be an option to sign them out of it and change the password

I don’t know how considering I have no access to his computer anymore

your dad's?

My ex’s

18:49

I assume I’d need to log him out and then he has no more access

nah you can change the password from your dad's account page and then click the "sign out everywhere" button

18:49

he'll automatically be kicked off it

Oh shit, really?

18:50

Ok, I’ll do that

18:50

Thank youuu

you'll have to re-login to netflix on all your devices but he won't know the new password so he can't

18:50

no worries!

Feels like this has just been me today

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Oh no, I'm sorry you've felt like that

Bv_

Oh no, I'm sorry you've felt like that

I’d say it’s more apathy then sadness when I think more about it but I appreciate that thank you

1

Was drinking daily for about a week and a half, stopped yesterday because its expensive. Now I'm just bored and sober, why is the world like this, I'm going mad

Tired mf, this 6am shift never fails to feel draining lol

3

bogged down by bad thoughts and can’t do anything

Ik the feeling, I’m really sorry you feel that way. All I can suggest is maybe trying to do something simple you enjoy to cheer yourself up

What a surprise, I come back to find out the house stinks of mould, the bathroom is filthy and it looks like no one’s cleaning it in idk how long

16:10

I’m not being responsible for it anymore

16:10

I’m done

16:11

If they wanna complain it’s dirty that’s fine

16:11

They can sort it

16:11

I haven’t made the mess

16:11

So I’m not sorting it

16:13

Like there’s literally what I’m guessing is either loads and loads of folded up toilet paper or lady products just sitting in the toilet

Wtf

There’s long hairs everywhere and just all around dirt

mumblingmiss

Wtf

They don’t care but infuriates me when I hear “I’m so depressed living in a dirty hosue”

16:14

Like if you don’t like that bad clear up after yourself

16:14

It isn’t hard

16:14

I’m not clearing up after them tho

Damn right if you can't be bothered to clean up after yourself then you have no right to complain about it

If it was a bit untidy I wouldn’t have an issue

16:15

No one’s perfect

16:15

But it’s not just untidy it’s dirty

16:15

And I hate that

You shouldn't have to be responsible for filthy lazy little assholes

I mean I do get made responsible

16:15

And I hate it

16:16

Someone told me it sounds like they see me as a “parental type figure” and that’s why they assume im gonna deal with everything regarding the house

16:16

(Idk how tho cause they’re all older than me)

And you then have to live with their bs you aren't their parents ^ especially if they're older they should have the common sense and decency

I’m literally so fed up of their shit

I'm sorry you're stuck with this shit

16:18

By now I'd have left some very angry paper signs around the house

mumblingmiss

By now I'd have left some very angry paper signs around the house

Tried leaving messages and directly addressing it with them

16:19

Doesn’t work

Jesus christ

I’ve literally started counselling because of shitty I’ve been made to feel by these people

16:19

It’s that bad

That's horrible

16:21

Is there anyone else you can get to deal with them? I know its a massive pain in the ass and a mega drain but will a landlord or anyone help

bruh i feel you so hard my housemate is the same thankflly its just her like i love her but shes so hard to live with

mumblingmiss

Is there anyone else you can get to deal with them? I know its a massive pain in the ass and a mega drain but will a landlord or anyone help

The landlords gave up a long time ago, one of them has her mum clean the place most of the times she comes to visit, which whilst appreciate it, I also don’t think is fair

Thats completely unfair

16:40

My mum would stop talking to me if I asked her to do something like that

Yep

They need grow the fuck up

She comes in and sees it’s a mess and cleans it

16:41

I’m just glad that by the end of June I’ll be gone

Bless you

16:41

The sooner the better

Not allowed to go earlier but I recon I’ll get everything out the day before clean it all and one communal area, take pictures and drop my keys of the next day. That way if there’s any problems I can go “well this is how it looked when I left”

Good plan

16:43

Honestly if you ever need a hand lmk

Thank you

Shouldn't have to deal with it at all let alone by yourself

I mean B helps where he can, he’s great at that, but unfortunately that’s the way it is

TW: Pedophilia just matched with someone on a dating app that tried to get me involved with a 16 year old, themselves saying they were 18. I feel sick

2

That’s vile

Nightmare

fucking hate this, glad I asked how old the person was because they showed no inclination of saying otherwise. Why do I even bother with this shit anymore

They should really have an age check with ID or smth

The person who was claiming to hold the account was apparently 18, just trying to get me involved with what they were doing with a 16 year old. Based on the situation, it seemed more likely it was the 16 year old pretending to be an 18 year old on a dating app. Both are disgusting as fuck though

That's horrific

16:56

It's super disgusting but unfortunately there's little we can do with the legal age of consent being 16 so as long as they are both consenting. I hate it

thats awful i hope youre okay?

Update, they’ve got rid of whatever it was in the toilet

Good

will.minchin25

Update, they’ve got rid of whatever it was in the toilet

You kinda need water in a toilet

Twink Antony

You kinda need water in a toilet

Ik that

✨ Why do I bother talking to new people ✨

:(( you okay??

Just close to giving up on meeting people online at this point. Deleted dating apps yesterday, far too much shit happened with them at this point. Now one of the few people I'm talking to off those apps is just being really sketchy, asking the same question multiple times when I've already told them, they're just not satisfied with the answer

Sorry to hear you keep encountering so much bs

Dating apps can suck I’m sorry you had a bad experience

20:12

Also my hosuemates have literally left shit stains in the toilet upstairs

20:12

Like they say men are bad

20:12

But Jesus Christ

20:12

I think girls are worse

20:12

No offence to any girls who can actually clean up after themselves

Your housemate is giving us a bad rap

20:16

I'm disowning her

Go ahead

Anonymous Confession

"I'm just tired at this point. I don't feel comfortable in my home half the time, I don't feel anywhere near as comfortable online now either, and there is no where I can use as an escape long term. I feel like it's partially my fault, as if I actually acted on these issues early on then I probably wouldn't have to deal with them anymore. I'm eating less again, resisting the urge to drink more, and most days just watch random rubbish or listen to music until I go to bed, despite having work due. Just think I'm about ready to start screaming at people, but I know that'll do no good, just make others feel shit too"

I hope you’re okay op, my dms are always open if you need a chat

Why has my housemate dumped beans in the sink

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LoLo <3

Why has my housemate dumped beans in the sink

honestly it’s such a piss take when i rightfully complain about leaving food in the sink and then they all moan at me

18:03

like the amount of effort ive put into the kitchen and most don’t seem to care

Yeah it’s really annoying I want to make the place nice before the rest of us get home but I’m not cleaning that up

That was the same with my last kitchen, I’m a very clean person but they all just left food and stuff engrained into the surfaces and sink. So glad I’ve left

18:16

I started not using the kitchen and then when everyone left, I’d deep clean it bcs it was so gross

think what annoyed me more was that one of my flatmates literally called himself a clean freak

18:17

and yet didn’t care about some of the messes left behind

18:17

like?

That would wind me up so much, sorry you had to deal with that

18:18

I’m honestly sorry for anyone who has to deal with messy people

18:18

Bcs they gross and nasty

18:18

And from my experience, their personality will be too

i’m not saying i’m the cleanest person ever

18:22

but, especially with communal areas, i’m at least courteous

As anyone should be

'pleeeease take the beans out the sink i'll clean the sink after i just don't wanna handle your cold and soggy beanssss'

If they don't, get like a wooden skewer or something, add some bleach in the drain and stab at the beans, they'll break up easily

18:31

And then ofc run the tap

i'd just get rubber gloves fish them out its just more annoying than getting him to do it

18:32

not that he knows what a food bin is i came back after easter when hed stayed here the whole time to a kitchen full of flies and a big ball of white mould in the food bin

Disgusting

18:35

I'm so sorry

he's denying the beanage

18:37

i'm so invested now

18:37

like please

18:37

who else would be putting beans in the sink WERE THE ONLY 2 IN THE HOUSE

Delete him from the house (edited)

Jeez you know it's bad if you have to start blaming demons for your mess

This is just one example of them not being able to clear up themselves

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O

18:57

M

18:57

G

18:57

Move out

18:57

Why are people gross

Bv_

Move out

I can’t yet

18:58

Not until the end of June

18:58

But trust me

Ughhhh people do that in my house too

I spend as little time here as possible

mumblingmiss

Ughhhh people do that in my house too

Yeah that plug has been like that for at least the last month

Ewww

And I refuse to touch it

18:58

It’s not my hair

18:59

And the bin is full upstairs

18:59

Still

18:59

Someone else already kicked off about it

You are stronger than me, I'd be running around with bleach and rubber gloves

Trust me I want to

18:59

But I’m trying to prove a point

Yeah, that's understandable

I’m not gonna keep clearing up after everyone

19:00

I’m fed up of it now

And you shouldn't have to

im glad i dont share a bathroom cos i can’t do that id throw up

It’ll all be fine in September

19:05

I’ll have my en-suite and everything will be okay

Niceeee

yeah kinda wish i looked for somewhere with an en-suite

19:07

but it’ll be fine cos i’m moving in with someone who also has long hair

19:07

so we good

notliamhyde02

yeah kinda wish i looked for somewhere with an en-suite

Same, but didn't have much choice as got kicked out my original house

19:07

Next year though...yes

All I’m saying in here is this

19:09

If someone else ever weaponises my abuse trauma again

19:10

I am going to throw a fucking house

I'll murder them

who am i fighting (edited)

19:10

don’t worry team rockets got you

❤️

19:10

Thank you

19:10

I’m not going to say much

19:10

But all I’m saying is

19:10

THROW THE ROOF

Partners in crime babyyyyyyy

Just kill them, problem solved

its when you trust someone w stuff like that then they use it to win an argument like fuck you i told you that in confidence you cant use that because i called you out on leaving snot on the bathroom wall

19:12

i will fully fight them for you

19:12

i have all the physical strength of an overcooked noodle but still

Yeah it's really shit B, I will crime them for you if I could

B's hunger games coming through for you

Can’t cry at my parents house ✨

B

Can’t cry at my parents house ✨

the amount of hugs i need to give you before this was high

19:19

will literally be hugging you for days when i come down

Lmk if you want to hang out when you get back B, big love

I feel like I won’t ever be let go of

I'll take you to Primark and Greggs

team rocket date?

Thats a good bad idea

mumblingmiss

Thats a good bad idea

i was thinking the primark and greggs thing but we can make it more “fun”

notliamhyde02

i was thinking the primark and greggs thing but we can make it more “fun”

I am very concerned by this, I was just saying it's good for us but bad for the universe

Signing off for a few mins time to stab some people in blade and sorcery

Okay lmk how that goes

mumblingmiss

I am very concerned by this, I was just saying it's good for us but bad for the universe

by fun i mean mischief

B

Signing off for a few mins time to stab some people in blade and sorcery

have fun x

notliamhyde02

by fun i mean mischief

What kind

the mischievous kind

Meowth

19:24

I don't trust you

19:24

I, considerate evil mega bitch bimbo Jesse, do not trust you.

mumblingmiss

I, considerate evil mega bitch bimbo Jesse, do not trust you.

️

19:28

that’s not very girl queen pussy slay of you

I'm sorry I don't trust evil talking bitchy monster ass cat looking bitches

mumblingmiss

I'm sorry I don't trust evil talking bitchy monster ass cat looking bitches

now that hurts

notliamhyde02

now that hurts

That's how it is, Meowth

may have to resign from team rocket

But then you miss out on team rocket uno

19:32

I'll be nice

mumblingmiss

I'll be nice

you better be

notliamhyde02

you better be

tipsy

reapplying for student finance and apparently i’m gonna be getting £2300 less than last years maintenance loan yet nothings changed?

Tf

it’s pulled the financial info from my application last year and that hasn’t changed at all

20:34

if anything i should be getting a little more cos my dad got a small pay rise

20:34

but i definitely shouldn’t be getting less

20:35

and definitely not over 2k less

20:35

tf is going on

have they changed the boundaries for how much your parents earn to how much you get maybe?

i don’t know

They should have informed everyone if that was the case

yeah

20:39

hmm

20:43

has anyone else applied and seen a drop in there loan? (edited)

i havent applied yet i keep procrastinating it and its really bad

Not yet, I'm doing it later in the week, I'll let you know if there is a drop

yeah will also let you know if theres anything weird

ive asked my flatmates

20:49

one has said he got more

20:49

another said he got 600 quid less

20:49

which seems more normal than 2300 less

20:49

genuinely so odd

Have you definitely put that you're living away from your parents?

yeah ive been stupid

21:00

like tremendously stupid

What you do boo?

the 4525 that i thought would be what i was getting as my full maintenance loan was just the minimum

Ahhh

which didnt depend on household income

21:01

so now ive got to wait until my parents fill the rest of their bits in to receive the actual amount

21:01

which should be the same as last year

21:01

god im fucking dumb

Ah there we go, at least you don't have a such a big decrease

actual bimbo behaviour

21:01

well no just moron behaviour

I'm sorry it's infectious

jfc

21:03

hopefully im getting the 6825 i was getting this year cos im gonna need it

I'm actually gonna be able to afford to live and breathe next year with mine bc this year I had a big chunk deducted after a bit of loan from a previous drop out

that’s good

Hopefully yours ends up being alright

I can rest now.

1

You okay?

Yeah

Relax now, love uuuuu

Ly2

It's getting hormonal af and trying not to get angry or sad at things time

mumblingmiss

It's getting hormonal af and trying not to get angry or sad at things time

Here for you

B

Here for you

Thank youuuu

10:52

I gotta inhale exhale every time I glance at the pride server

mumblingmiss

I gotta inhale exhale every time I glance at the pride server

Don’t get me started

1

dare i ask whats going on w the pride server ?

The run down is people being v disrespectful

10:54

Basically

10:54

Without going into too much detail

ah just what youd want in a safe space

10:54

i'm sorry i hope youre all doing okay and staying safe ❤️

Yeah we'll get through it don't worry

Honeslty prides gonna go through alotta changes in July

10:55

This is my safe server (edited)

It's gonna have to

Always and forever ✨

I will go into stuff soon. I will put my venting here

10:56

Stuff I can say

We got you

i mean were here support system and all that (I should probably join pride just never got round to it and will probably wait until september now)

I feel like we'll be more equipped as a committee this time with so many roles being actually filled and doubling up on presidents

Feel sorry for @hazlilley when I give him my shitlist file

There's a shitlist file?

omg shitlist

11:01

im obsessed

22/23 committee is violent presidents time and we ain't having no bs

I say shitlist

11:05

It’s mainly a warning list

Next years committee looks awesome, that health and safety officer is very very cool

Which is passed from secretary to secretary

Has it grown a lot this year?

irltardis

Next years committee looks awesome, that health and safety officer is very very cool

Heard he’s a truly amazing person

irltardis

Has it grown a lot this year?

irltardis

Next years committee looks awesome, that health and safety officer is very very cool

That dude does seem pretty cool

ty ty

B

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both impressive and terrifying

Inhale exhale :)

Where all my money go

Mood

I want hang out and go primark and greggs but where my money go

14:00

All the ghosts must've spent it those assholes

mumblingmiss

Inhale exhale :)

inhale exhale

B

inhale exhale

inhale ExhALe

mumblingmiss

inhale ExhALe

INHALE EXHALE (edited)

B

INHALE EXHALE (edited)

mumblingmiss

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In Ex Ha Ha Le Le

mumblingmiss

All the ghosts must've spent it those assholes

The money winded itself

mumblingmiss

Where all my money go

Your two waifus on your thighs probably

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Dupendous Lew

Your two waifus on your thighs probably

Lmao what a phrase

E r i n

The money winded itself

I can't believe it did this to me

read that as 'I can't believe I did this to me' and if that isnt the mood of the century

LoLo <3

read that as 'I can't believe I did this to me' and if that isnt the mood of the century

I mean that's the truth really. I spended all my money on anime girls

no better use of money than thighfus

LoLo <3

read that as 'I can't believe I did this to me' and if that isnt the mood of the century

God I feel that

LoLo <3

no better use of money than thighfus

thighfus

✨ I hate my braiiiinnnn ✨

Not me crying over repotting the plant my ex bought me back when we just started dating

Aw

16:42

My rooms is covered in teddies from my ex

tfw the only thing your ex got you was a pair of cat ears you didnt want that didnt fit----

Woah wtf is up with your ex babes

cishet man

16:47

some cases youre better off staying fwb

My ex just got me trauma

Ah now I'm thinking about my ex

16:50

Those were the days

this one didn't give me trauma

16:50

so were still friends

16:50

but dear god if i could buy you all teddies rn i would

Do you wanna buy teddies for each other

16:51

Bc that's my only standard apparently

omg yess that'd be so cute!!

Yessss

16:52

People should just do that

It should be more socially acceptable to just approach people with a teddy

Definitely

16:53

Forget can I buy you a drink let's do can I buy you an assortment of teddies

May I introduce you to one of the best gifts I’ve ever got

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LoLo <3

May I introduce you to one of the best gifts I’ve ever got

vvv cute

its a bulbasaur but w a ROSE

Aaaa omg

Very good bulba

#1 in the dex #1 in the heart

Ugh these last few days

16:58

Have been a mess

Big hugs B

What's up? Do you also want an assortment of teddies?

I have loads atm lmao

16:59

But it’s just

16:59

I’m fed up tbh

I can't blame you

17:00

You can't seem to get a moment of peace

Just picturing bulbasaur wearing one of those #1 hats now

Dupendous Lew

Just picturing bulbasaur wearing one of those #1 hats now

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B

I’m fed up tbh

Snapchat editor does it again

Have some love from the queen Brandon

Dupendous Lew

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Please this is single-handedly the best gif ever sent to me

the mother

17:10

the mummy

Mummy

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My tattoo artist has really cute bulbasaur piece she wants to do

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DONT TEMPT ME LIKE THIS

17:11

no but ive already sent one email enquiry today

Omg

whats 2

17:12

tattoo enquiry not email enquiry i know how talking works

For mine I just insta message lmao

thats probably faster the person im getting to do my first doesnt answer dms tho

Ah

17:13

Fuck my two new ones are still healing but I'm constantly ready to go

17:14

But I need to go back up to my arms and get some more of those done

omg how many do you have thats so cool!!

I only have 2 on my left arm and then one on each thigh but I'm doing no colour on my arms and wanna fill them out

my grandparents gave me 100 quid for the next few weeks and was hoping to spend it on some nice things

17:17

but ended spending 50 of it on groceries

17:17

:(

I feel that

17:18

I just spent the rest of my money on groceries

i mean i still might

17:18

ive already had my loan tho so

17:18

and i’m gonna be spending a bit on fuel for my placement

17:18

cos my driver can’t claim it back

you've had your whole loan?

yeah had the last payment on the 1st

17:19

got an extra £70 compared to the other two

17:19

so it’s a bit more

my epipens expire at the end of the month and the med centre wont give me them without an appointment for some reason and they dont have any until 9th may so chuckles im in danger meme i guess

15:14

keep your nuts away lads ❤️

4

All I can think about is how I was worried I was gonna kill my colleague now

you what???

15:15

should i be concerned?

No

15:15

So basically

15:18

She didn’t tell me she had a nut allergy and that she couldn’t be bothered to go get epipens and I gave her some of my bakewells and then we realised the ingredients said something about almonds

15:18

Turns out it was a flavouring but still had me worried lol

pahahaha i sent myself to hospital for eating a naked bar w cashews

15:18

BAKEWELL FLAVOURED

Wow

15:18

always stay away from bakewells

15:18

lethal buggers

I bin the cherry and eat the rest lol

LoLo <3

keep your nuts away lads ❤️

I apologise, this is a vent but absolutely brilliant

hey if i go out choking on nuts ill take that as a w

15:22

anaphylaxis is shit but if you cant laugh about it what can you do

I am once again asking that my body sit the fuck down and shut the fuck up you spicy bitch

3

Anonymous Confession

"Vaping makes you skinny??!"

Confessions

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I guess through vaping you technically could? Not healthy though, I think vaping has the potential to take away the feeling of hunger

while nicotine is an appetite suppressant, it will also give you gum disease and a myriad of other health issues, it’s not worth it at all

take this with a pinch of salt

00:05

but why is tiktok now showing me bpd videos (edited)

00:06

i’m not gonna diagnose myself from tiktok dw

00:06

but last time this sort of thing happened it made me think and i do genuinely think i have adhd and want to get checked for it

00:06

tf going on

Lol I could have BPD tbh

00:09

I wouldn’t worry about TikTok tbh, sometimes fyp works on your friends likes too

yeah true

00:14

i do definitely wanna get tested for adhd tho

00:14

and maybe maybe autism

00:14

it’s hard tho cos the ones i wanna get tested for overlap in symptoms sm

00:15

like with bpd

00:16

i should sleep

00:16

shit

00:16

gonna be waking up at 6 for the next 6 weeks

prideheart2

4

5

00:16

kill me now

Tiktok shows me a lot of videos and I never know how to interrupt them

02:32

I had a lot of enby content for a while, not trans, specifically enby and I get videos come up semi-regularly about dyslexia, autism, adhd etc

02:32

Some of them feel like call outs

Anonymous Confession

"my brain is obsessing over the small things again and it's tearing down my good moods. I know it's unhealthy but literally only way for me to deal with that right now is to drink and it's starting to cost quite a bit"

1

taps mic Ahem FUCKK OFFFF

Omg was that a premeditated fuck off bc I would like to join you

2 years....2 FUCKING YEARS!! I went 2 years without catching COVID and now on the first 420 ive been able to celebrate at uni I have finally tested positive. Could the universe give me a bigger middle finger

7

That's awful, hope it doesn't hit you too bad and you get over it quickly :/ not the same but hopefully you'll be able to celebrate some point after

Im already feeling a bit better than a couple of days ago I just didnt manage to get a test til today

Glad you're feeling better at least, hope you recover well soon ❤

Sometimes I wish everything I might find upsetting could wait for me to not be menstruating

15:51

Like let me just get through this and then I'll deal with all of that

Anonymous Confession

"Idk, everything came crashing down at once. I was doing pretty good, I thought I had a group of friends and someone who was interested in me. Now all of the sudden that’s fallen apart and that person decided they don’t want to speak anymore. I try to come across as a really happy does everything on the spur of the moment, absolutely nothing bothers kind of person but the reality is I’m pretty lonely and often fall asleep with tears in my eyes. Just really sad cos since starting uni everything was on the up in my life and now I have nothing, should have seen it coming as good things never last but I didn’t. Idk what to say, I’m just really disappointed."

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I’m so sorry you feel this way op (edited)

Hey op, you will always have me, and I’m happy to listen to you in dms whenver

You always have us in here and my dms are open if you need to talk to anyway:)

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Happy to talk whenever, I'm awkward but will try to listen at the very least ❤ hope things get better OP, sounds really tough

Mental health go Brrrr

B

Mental health go Brrrr

You okay hun?

will.minchin25

You okay hun?

I think the past few days caught up to me

2

22:26

And hit me in one go

Shit I get that, you shouldn’t have to be dealing with it all. I get that you feel a responsibility for some things but it’s not fair on you. Remember to take time away for yourself and relax

I wish I could

Trust me you need you time

I do, but sometimes I feel like I can’t

I’m sorry you feel like that. It’s not fair on you

Confessions

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This was exactly the same situation that I'm actually still going through, so happy to talk if you wanna share experiences or just have someone to listen

Emotional as hell and it takes way too much energy

i’m only done two days of placement and i’m already over it

23:27

it’s too much

Anonymous Confession

"How tf can someone play the victim and the heart strings of so many people, when they genuinely caused all this anguish. Cry some more. Fucking mess"

mumblingmiss

Emotional as hell and it takes way too much energy

Try and remove all stimulation and just do something relaxing to try and get in a more calm and sound mind maybe

notliamhyde02

it’s too much

You can do this, I believe in you. You are doing something that is actually incredible and while you’ll have bumps, you can do it and things will go your way in the end

xxx

I speak only facts

Confessions

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Hope you’re okay op, my dms are always open if you need to chat

Anonymous Confession

"I feel like things have gotten really complicated in every area of my life, and my own shit sense of morals just doesn't fit in anywhere at this point"

I hate how insecure I'm feeling with some of my friendships right now. Just last year my closest friend kept asking and asking when am I gonna come up and see him and spend time with him like I promised and then I did and it was fun and afterwards we continued to talk about me visiting again. But just the other day I spoke to him about it saying I can come up again in the summer like last time and he didn't really seem to care all that much, rather than it being this exciting thing we could plan he was kind of just like yeah if you want. I know we haven't been talking as much because of uni taking up so much time but it feels like there's been a shift. Like our wavelengths are no longer synced. And I don't want that, he's really one of the people I trust the most and I'm not ready for our lives to pull apart from one another. Maybe I'm just overthinking things and being someone with bpd and anxiety I know I push people away unintentionally and that people will just tell me to talk to him about it. I just really needed to get it down and hope that it helps me arrange my thoughts

4

So uhh, forgiving the abuser? Nah. Found another of his victims

We forgive abusers?

Was gonna say the same thing

1

Apparently I had to or let go

21:14

Not anymore

Lovingly requesting that uea kiss my fuckin ass xoxo

Why

I'm allowed 5 days extension on work as a reasonable adjustment for my disabled students allowance as per my mental health but they won't let me use it because I already got an extension for having covid

21:44

Like I get what they're going for

21:45

But having a physical illness affect my work and my mental illness is different

21:45

And often one can follow the other

Surely it should be stacked up?

21:45

Like so you need an extra week because of your disability and then getting covid sets you back another week or so

mumblingmiss

And often one can follow the other

I’m sure it stacks speak to your hun

21:47

Bub*

21:47

Hub*

They're saying I can only claim it as extension from the original due date and not from the extended one from covid and I'll have to get more evidence of mental health impact for more days

Hmm

Don't think the system understands how I fuckin work babes

A more positive vent than I’m used to but I do love dreaming

️ Does anyone look at brands like Valentino and Alexander McQueen wondering what they would do if they could afford it. Some of there cloths are amazing at the moment, which is something considering a lot of fashion is bs at the moment is bs. However the mens section is bs as usual as I’m yet to see something I’d actually wear so I go to the woman’s section and dream of some really amazing outfits, plant them, what accessories would be perfect for them, wonder how I’d look in them. Ugh I wish I had that kind of money and the places to wear them to. Honestly if I could get my first job at the legal department of a big fashion house I’d freak out, wear something amazing one day, start hanging with the designers and then end up working on outfits and what should go together in catalogs. Oh the lives we dream of huh…

I kinda get what you mean

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A more positive vent than I’m used to but I do love dreaming

️ Does anyone look at brands like Valentino and Alexander McQueen wondering what they would do if they could afford it. Some of there cloths are amazing at the moment, which is something considering a lot of fashion is bs at the moment is bs. However the mens section is bs as usual as I’m yet to see something I’d actually wear so I go to the woman’s section and dream of some really amazing outfits, plant them, what accessories would be perfect for them, wonder how I’d look in them. Ugh I wish I had that kind of money and the places to wear them to. Honestly if I could get my first job at the legal department of a big fashion house I’d freak out, wear something amazing one day, start hanging with the designers and then end up working on outfits and what should go together in catalogs. Oh the lives we dream of huh…

me with Paolo Sebastian

I put this ring on and my fingers are too fat to get it off

Get your finger soapy it should come off if it's slippery

I got there in the end

It happens to everyone lmao

there's always the gollum method of ring removal

Ripfangs

there's always the gollum method of ring removal

Gonna pretend I’ve seen the hobbit/lord of the rings

(he bites the ring off Frodo's hand and the finger with it)

mahariel

me with Paolo Sebastian

Omg wow, I just looked on their website and the dresses are just, omg wow.

Deleted User

Omg wow, I just looked on their website and the dresses are just, omg wow.

ikr?? check out their Starlet collection

23:37

my dream wedding dresses

Just finished a crying sesh after literally NOT knowing what to do

B

Just finished a crying sesh after literally NOT knowing what to do

You okay hun?

Hoping my doctor approves and writes me my medical note. I can't tell though because the gp that knew me with my conditions retired a while ago and I've only just been reassigned a new gp and I haven't met him yet so I'm nervous that I might be asked to come in for an appointment

mahariel

my dream wedding dresses

Omfg, that dress is incredible. Honestly i didn’t think modern fashion could do it

fuck those dresses are so pretty

Opens old flat group chat filled with ex and bad people and sees one of them tried to re-friend me so I just left and now stressing again for no reason..life is far too complicated

Just ignore the request you don't owe them anything. Internalise the unwarranted confidence of a middle aged white guy and choose yourself

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2

babes, didnt you like manipulate me into bed when I couldnt consent due to like... alcohol and mental health. Dont think you should be calling me a sociopath. xoxo

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23:32

seems like my statuses are really calling people out

23:34

[Sorry about the random vent] Just had me cackling

Let me at them?

will.minchin25

Let me at them?

No

Why do you still have their discord if they've treated you that badly?

10:11

Not saying I'm not down to fight them but you can block people not have to deal with it anymore?

LoLo <3

Not saying I'm not down to fight them but you can block people not have to deal with it anymore?

I don’t even have them

10:40

They are on a mutual server and keep stalking what ever I put as my statuses

Wow that's really disturbing

Nothing I can really do though to be honest. If I were to call them out, they’d do something to themselves and I don’t want that

That's a horrible position to be in I'm so sorry this shouldn't be your burden to bear. If I can do anything to help tho let me know yeah?

Will do, thank you

B

No

Come on

No

Urgh fineee

Totally didn’t just knock my speaker to the (yet again) I flushed toilet

14:02

June can’t come quick enough tho lol

So I’ve now had to moan at thrm because I had no plates and still cutlery or glasses

19:23

I’ve received a singular plate, glass, knife and fork

19:23

That’s it

Anonymous Confession

"TW: Alcohol misuse probably first day in like two weeks of drinking that I've been properly sober (so far), or about 2 months if you ignore the occasional day or two I didn't. Finding it slightly concerning that I keep thinking about drinking still, think I may have overdone it a bit. Usually drinking about 5-12 units a day I think, although I can't really be sure. Think I probably need to give it a break"

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Perhaps if you think it’s a problem you could speak to someone about it, a supportive friend perhaps, or even a councillor at university. Drinking is meant to be enjoyable but if you feel it’s a burden you may want to consider stopping. You don’t need to stop 100%, like if you give yourself days you allow yourself to drink like Friday and Saturday nights you may find yourself happier with it. Hope your hanging in there cos university is stressful and perhaps your drinking to feel less stressed. Tho if you’re definitely serious about a break set yourself a target like a week and see what you think, could turn it into 2, 3 and then a month. Hope this helps, It’s what I’d say to a friend so not 100% on how it may be received but whoever you are I hope your doing well

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Why you so obsessed with us and boy I wanna know

Oh man first day back (all online today for me) and why am I so fucking tired and sad like let me just get on with my fuckin work stop crying please

Feeling this a bit, if you need anything, lemme know, even if its just to rant, it really sucks

Thanks :) it sucks you're feeling it a bit too. It's just so annoying like I feel ashamed when I keep extending deadlines and then have to keep pushing it back further and further like it's just a 2000 word essay or something most of the time but it's like my head won't let me get it done and that's a major part of the frustration. Especially if I did previous ones way faster. My bursts of energy need to be timed better so I can actually make use of them (edited)

You're allowed to extend your deadlines and I'm actually pretty proud of you for doing that. Its really frustrating though, sending you the best vibes

Thank you

FUCK FUCK FUCK my doctors won't give me a medical note for my mental health until they've done a routine phone consultation with me. When have they booked me in? In two weeks. They can't fucking call me until the 9th of May. I get it they're busy but jesus christ

Try to stay positive cause at least it’s better than nothing

Maybe send a thing to the uni they do single session therapy things if you book in for one of those you have to explain your situation at least then they’ll have record of it before you get a doctor thing?

The single session therapy team have been very understanding when it comes to extensions in my experience

13:45

Hope things improve for you soon ❤

How do I book one of those?

https://ueasurveys.eu.qualtrics.com/jfe/form/SV_eVaE6IDVKDkYfie?Q_DL=joKEAY71HcAcLYh_eVaE6IDVKDkYfie_MLRP_86yO0uGlUSFwsmi&Q_CHL=gl Go to the form link that is down the page

UEA Taking the Pulse

The survey gives you the opportunity to get your voice heard, tell us about your experience and put you at the heart of UEA’s decision making.

15:05

https://forms.office.com/Pages/ResponsePage.aspx?id=lYdfxj26UUOKBwhl5djwkBF3xU9926JFtmFpRqnZ4yhUQVdNMkJDUVZKTFNOQzdOSUNLRk44SVBWNiQlQCN0PWcu

15:05

Or just fill this out

thanks

Just made the mistake of looking at the comments of a JKR tweet

spoilers for pose s2 ep4, cw: death rewatching that episode was sad enough but i’m fucking balling my eyes out over it. i am so lucky that ive never had any experiences that are necessarily bad when it comes to my sexuality or gender identity, but i feel genuine guilt for those who have suffered, it is not fair that ive been lucky enough to have barely any threats to my identity while others are suffering much worse. and the fact they use candy as the character to die. her final talk with her parents will always make me crumble cos that closure is something i’m still yet to receive. and on top of that, i’m not one to cry at much but i am fucking terrified for the day a loved one dies and i will break down, whether it’s an early death or an expected one, im so scared of that day

21:10

that sense of community in pose is something ive not yet had really

21:10

and i don’t care if i’m getting all of this from a tv show i don’t fucking care

21:11

everyone’s identity is valid and i am so sorry for those who have suffered for it

Omg that episode made me cry SO HARD

21:47

I loved pose sm omg

I’m listening to a person invalidating people who have mobility scooters disabilities, im really tempted to walk over and talk them about hidden disabilities and that they have no idea how this person uses and needs a mobility scooter. I honestly really don’t like this person they’re so rude and I’ve been around them as they’ve mocked the way people look including LGBTQ+ people.

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Sorry to hear you're dealing with that, some people just need to learn when to shut up. Their words are hurtful, be it jokes or opinions or anything, there is no reason to seek causing harm to someone else's mental wellbeing

I am so fucking creeped and uncomfortable at what just happened. Some 60 y/o dude from my hunting camp just hit me up on grindr saying just saying hi, hope you are doing well. Like he just crossed a fucking line. Its one thing to see someones social and just say hey, but a sex app is not the place. It made me so uncomfortable i deleted the app and my account.

00:01

Like hes almost as old as my fucking grandfather (edited)

Bit weird nyl remember the block button is your bestie

Hope you’re somewhere safe, that really does sound like crossing the line.

i immediately blocked him

00:03

im in my dorm room, no way he can get in with out a RFID key card and a room key

Imagine your grandparents being 60 or younger

my grandpa it like 67

00:03

oh wait no

00:03

im mixing up ages

00:03

my grand father is 70

00:03

but still

00:04

60 is close enough

Imagine having grandparents under 70

(edited)

Idk why men of that age think it’s appropriate to hit on younger guys.

it is borderline pedophilia imo

i am a homosouarus

it is borderline pedophilia imo

True, he only thing that stops them going younger is the law.

Honestly kinda a red flag.

Ikr, what’s wrong with people their own age?

Honetsly

01:00

I mean I had people of all ages messaging me on that app and it turned out some of them were underage so it’s a good thing I didn’t send them anything let alone do anything with them lol

Do yall not have a Romeo and Juliet Law?

Don’t think so

01:27

Why

01:27

What does the law say?

The law says that "a person can legally have consensual sex with a minor provided that he or she is not more than a given number of years" These years are typically 1-3 years and thats from the age of consent which is normally 16. For Example, someone who is 16 coild legally be in a sexual relationship with a 18 or 19 year old. However, the law is different in each state and has stipulations.

I don’t think so

01:32

Pretty sure an adult isn’t allowed to sleep with anyone under the age of 18

01:33

I might be wrong tho

whats the age of consent there

@B does law so they’re the best person to ask

i am a homosouarus

whats the age of consent there

16

01:33

18 to be an adult there

yeah out adult age is weird

01:34

its technically 18 but not really

01:36

like at 18, you can have bank accounts, make medical choices, get married, make all the decisions for yourself, etc.

01:37

no alcohol or tobacco though

You can drink certain alcoholic drinks at 16 here haha

01:38

Things like cider, wkd or Smirnoff Ice

01:38

As long as it’s with a meal

18 to send nudes 16 to duck

The marriage age is going up to 18 tho.

It is? (edited)

20:10

Ik it’s 18 without parental consent

20:10

16 with

It's 18 regardless now I think

Oh I didn’t know that

Just saw the worst fuckin ad on tv and it was for piers morgans new show and I rolled my eyes so far into the back of my head I entered an alternate timeline where there's a prophecy in the department of mysteries that says for one of us to live the other must die

20:29

I get they do ads like that because people like me the so called 'snowflakes' will complain about it as I am right now but that doesn't mean they should do it. It brushes off all this progress we've made in making the world a safe place for all types of people with different struggles and identities and old assholes like him who can't handle that get a huge network to spread bs on.

20:34

They can't cope with the fact that their opinions will no longer shape our future and new generations. Their influence is limited to horrible old bastards and people that will be shamed for their oppressive and phobic views or will learn to become better. So they try their very hardest to talk about how oh so sensitive we young people are, as if being sensitive towards other people and caring so much and having the confidence to stand up for our peers is a problem. We will continue to complain, not because we're a weak generation, but because we've fuckin had enough of all of this.

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20:35

So between me and piers morgan, one of us is gonna have to die and honey it ain't gonna be me

shookpeach

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Just saw the worst fuckin ad on tv and it was for piers morgans new show and I rolled my eyes so far into the back of my head I entered an alternate timeline where there's a prophecy in the department of mysteries that says for one of us to live the other must die

Seen it as well, was cringing the entire time. Honestly it was so invalidating and the knowledge that people will watch the show and agree with its thinking is upsetting. Just seems like the show is giving phobic and hateful people a space to legitimise those views. It’s just so bizarre it’s being aloud cos it’s a platform for hate which is only going to be damaging to vulnerable people and communities.

20:49

Also if calling people out on their hate makes you a snowflake I’m glad to be one.

For real!!

The only thing I enjoyed from the advert i saw was the double standard of “cancelling cancel culture”

The thing about people who complain about snowflakes is that they’re the biggest snowflakes of them all like they say all this bigoted shit but that’s because their precious world has changed slightly and they can’t cope with it being slightly more accommodating to people who aren’t exactly like them like what are you actually talking for?

07:50

Or as my mum put it ‘people like that are the kind of men who beg for nudes then have a dying grandad when you charge for them’

LoLo <3

Or as my mum put it ‘people like that are the kind of men who beg for nudes then have a dying grandad when you charge for them’

Your mother is very wise

LoLo <3

Or as my mum put it ‘people like that are the kind of men who beg for nudes then have a dying grandad when you charge for them’

I’ll never see Piers in the same way again

What a surprise the hosue is a shit hole as usual, there’s not even a bin just a pile of 2 bin bags sitting where it should be

19:39

I refuse to deal with it though

will.minchin25

I refuse to deal with it though

Take pictures of the messes they’re leaving as evidence for your landlord, tho you should at least make yourself look perfect doing the chores and keeping evidence that your the one doing the chores.

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Take pictures of the messes they’re leaving as evidence for your landlord, tho you should at least make yourself look perfect doing the chores and keeping evidence that your the one doing the chores.

I will do thank you

So my new deputy manager is really rude and I’m not a fan

21:28

It’s not what he says, it’s how he says it

21:29

But he’s just asking like he owns the place

21:29

And like last night he just stood watching me for half an hour before talking to me

creep

Basically

21:41

Praying he stays out of the upstairs potwash

god was he staring at you for an hour and a half at pot wash

21:45

jesus

Nah just 30 minutes

still

Not comfy

mm

Seeing my abuser at A list and fucking girl issuing the feelings

01:30

I feel okay

01:30

Progress challenge

Hun you got this I believe in you <3

Not a bad vent. I think I might be out to my family cos I’m the car yesterday my mum said “does this mean you’re out of the closet then”. I had no idea what brought it up but it ended in a fist bump and my assuring her it doesn’t mean she won’t get grandchildren. Weirdest conversation of my life…

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Not a bad vent. I think I might be out to my family cos I’m the car yesterday my mum said “does this mean you’re out of the closet then”. I had no idea what brought it up but it ended in a fist bump and my assuring her it doesn’t mean she won’t get grandchildren. Weirdest conversation of my life…

that’s very out of the blue

11:12

but congrats:)

Congrats

fuck man my back is in agony

12:39

lower back

That's shit, hope you feel better soon :/

idk if it’s cos the shitty chairs im sitting in at placement or my posture

12:40

or what

12:40

don’t have any painkillers either

Can you not ask someone to go get you some painkillers? (edited)

Could you get some on your lunch break?

Ngl a school always has painkillers

It's bank Holiday

True

Schools aren't open

Also trye

12:43

*true

Oh right

Be good for tomorrow though

12:45

But seriously ask someone to get you some painkillers

i need to go shopping anyways

12:45

i’ll try and remember this time

Be careful then

12:45

Don't put strain on your back

i wont

12:45

thank you :)

So despite every other bank holiday shift ending at 6pm they chose today to just stay open till closing when no one is gonna come in at all and the duty manager has kidney problems so can barely do anything, make it make sense

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14:34

Can’t even see profits being the motivation on this one cause no one’s coming in as other bank holidays have shown so genuinely can’t see a point

£11.50 for a taxi Jesus christ

Update I only got a goodbye from 4 people that I work with because I saw them in the staff kicthen

20:23

And no none of them were managment

20:24

I will be GLAD to see the back of that place

wait which place is this?

The nursery

Honestly sounds toxic af

oh damn

20:24

thought this was the club

The manager is just awkward for the sake of being awkward I swear

yeah that’s fucked (edited)

They literally went “oh if you didn’t know it’s managers last staff meeting today”

20:25

But no goodbye will thank you for your help over the past year

20:25

Not like I worked full time for 6 months when I started

“(Deputy Manager of nursery) added you to the chat ‘(SENCO’s Birthday)”

20:31

Actually fuck off I’m leaving in less than a week I’m not gonna put in for anyones birthday especially after I don’t even get a goodbye

Good vent. It’s taken 2 retests but I can finally wear my glasses, I love them and they add to my low key gay aesthetic. I love it all

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Good vent. It’s taken 2 retests but I can finally wear my glasses, I love them and they add to my low key gay aesthetic. I love it all

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lovely stuff :)

Hung out w my ex and his best friend and good I love them both sm like I’m not inlove w my ex anymore (any of them) and I’m so glad my ex bf is in my life but I’ve missed him sm I’m glad hes around again I’ve missed knowing him and like all his friends like yeah no it’s just fun I’ve missed getting drunk w people I fully know and trust you get me?

Anonymous Confession

"Starting to get a little tired of people only talking to me with the intention of getting into my pants. Was getting on really well with a guy recently which escalated to “adult twister” but afterwards he’s lost interest in me and doesn’t talk to me anymore. Idk, what’s up with people

"

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sorry you had to deal with that :(

14:44

thats pretty shitty of the people who do that

^^

People suck I’m sorry you have to deal with that OP

I’m too socially awkward to go back to the bar and tell them they got my drink order wrong by putting in a completely different spirit

23:40

I have now abandoned the drink

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Told one of my closest friends that I had a crush on them last night and he very maturely turned me down but still,, in my feels

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I also did this and yeah It's fine but also ouch my emotions

irltardis

Told one of my closest friends that I had a crush on them last night and he very maturely turned me down but still,, in my feels

probably the best of the worst outcomes

I didn't even drink alcohol last night and I'm so fucking sick

hope you feel better soon

Why is it that the moment I have a nice ring or piece of jewellery fully stop everyone assumes that it was bought for me or if it’s a ring that B proposed to me. It’s getting annoying like am I not allowed to just wear jewellery

“Don’t get humpity with me” “you literally just snapped” fuck right off, you can already see I’m in a foul mood don’t go moaning at me and snapping at me because I’m trying to do my job and you aren’t ready for me

Do people like get when to stop harassing people?

Ha no

Genuinely ready to throw hands

19:26

I’m so fed up of the shit in that house

19:27

They take my shit and don’t return it

19:27

They leave dirty shit everywhere

19:27

They don’t clean up anything

19:27

They make me feel guilty for being upset about it

19:28

They also break or loose shit, don’t tell me and just expect me to be okay with it

19:28

I’ve had enough

19:28

And I’m so tempted to just quit my job and move out of that house now

sounds like a plan

19:40

if it’s feasible

It’s not sadly

19:41

I’d still have to pay rent till the end of June

still feeling kinda not the greatest i know its only been like a day but god i wish i could just be over this and feel normal again already

just had a moment of intense panic from a scam contact tracing text

07:37

im still far too tired to process stuff like this right now

my teacher from placement messaged me earlier saying she’s got covid

22:10

so now i have to teach ALL WEEK

Shit, you got this

this is gonna be fun

You will smash this, you will be great! I have all faith in you

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notliamhyde02

so now i have to teach ALL WEEK

You’ll smash it

notliamhyde02

so now i have to teach ALL WEEK

I believe in you!

22:22

Try to see it as a learning experience rather than a burden lol

it’s stressful

Ik trust me

22:23

I haven’t had to teach a whole class myself but just a large group was stressful

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22:24

idk if you can view that but that’s what ive got to do

Was about to say I can’t sorry

wait

22:24

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22:25

that blacked out part is my ppa time

A lot then by the looks of it

yeah

22:26

the cold write on thursday and the hook on friday are some of the things is was going to be teaching anyways

22:26

and then 2 maths lessons

22:26

the rest she said she’ll have all the planning done

That’s good then

and if i really need it they can get a supply

Argh it’s not fair

16:52

Why do I have wait almost a year for the next heartstopper book

16:52

I’ve finished volumes 1-4 and now I need volume 5 but it’s not out until February 2023

16:52

In the meantime I’m thinking of ordering the solitaire series which has Nick and Charlie in it

there is a book called Nick and Charlie too i think

There is

i just finished volumes 4 and 5 last night, waiting to collect solitaire and Nick and Charlie

E r i n

i just finished volumes 4 and 5 last night, waiting to collect solitaire and Nick and Charlie

Yeah but how can you read volume 5 if it isn’t out yet

E r i n

there is a book called Nick and Charlie too i think

Yeah that’s part of the solitaire series

wait

17:21

volume 3 and 4

17:21

im clever

lmao

17:21

honestly though they are very good, fucking destroying me, but very good

i know im a shit friend, but i do try, and im finding it very difficult to keep trying with this one person who isnt

23:54

if it really means this little i dont know why i try at all at this point

Does anyone else get the gay or general LGBTQ panic when in public. Just left a lecture knowing I look pretty gay with my outfit today and was worrying about what people think or what they may say and had to remind myself that I’m pretty proud of my outfit today, I look great and nobody actually cares.

nearly got hit by a car!

hope youre okay

Remind me next time I’m sad and want a cigarette that what I actually want is to sit outside and have a cup of tea until I don’t feel like crying anymore

Anonymous Confession

"Lately every other thought running through my mind has been a variation of "at least suicide is an option". struggling to think of a time I have been more depressed than now"

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I'm really sorry you've been having a tough time. I know it's anonymous, but if you want to talk, DMs are always open. Keep safe and look after yourself

Gay panic. There’s talk of a trip abroad in may family recently and each time a place is mentioned I’m immediately looking up (is (location) LGBTQ+ friendly?). Does anyone else do this or am I over thinking things?

Cant say I do, but I think it's a valid thing to check out!

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Gay panic. There’s talk of a trip abroad in may family recently and each time a place is mentioned I’m immediately looking up (is (location) LGBTQ+ friendly?). Does anyone else do this or am I over thinking things?

I have done it before I can’t lie, my friend was suggesting all these nice holiday places I could go dirt cheap and I had to look it up so I understand what you mean

I have a positive vent to share bcs I can apparently x) Really sorry it's so long, and it doesn't make much sense This my sound dumb but my switch means so much to me. I'll explain. So when I first got a switch (which became the family switch), we were given breath of the wild. I had never played a Zelda game before and when I did play BOTW, it was actually incredible. As a musician, the music became a big focus and I bought the OST and started learning the music etc. This led to hyperfixation but we move. I then got a few more games, until I bought Hollow Knight. That game changed my life...literally. I continued doing music and started doing fan music for the game bcs why not, no harm. I then got invited to a server filled with content creators and I've made a couple friends which mean a lot to me who help me with music and I help them too. It's actually incredible that I've gotten to meet these people just by buying a game. I now just keep buying games and either just enjoying it or getting obsessed and becoming fixated on the music

Basically, tiny decisions I made on a game by deciding to buy it has introduced some incredible people in my life and given me lots of happy moments. I've discovered new music and lots of nice things and stuff. I've found that tiny decisions give the best rewards

19:41

Sorry it's huge

19:41

Just felt positivity for once

Hollow Knight!? S tier game

YESSSS

You like Hollow Knight and Doctor Who... we're friends now sorry

This is acceptable

20:40

:D

I loved that game. I spent so many hours playing when I first got it. And the music is what I listen to when working xD

SAMEEEE

20:41

Like, so much

I've added a 1000 views to that playlist at least (edited)

I fully have over 150 hours in the game

That's alot!

Josh

I've added a 1000 views to that playlist at least (edited)

Very very impressive

Josh

That's alot!

It is literally my favourite game

Good choice tbh

I've 112% at least 3 times

Haha xD

I'm actually so happy to find another HK lover though x)

Same.

20:43

I spend way to much time on the reddit looking at art for HK

20:44

Use to have my discord all HK themed while I wasn't working lol

I respect that

20:44

Massively

20:44

The art tbf in the community is insanely good

Yea I love it.

20:47

Did you take part in r/place ?

I didn't, but my friend kept me updated with it

In there thr community made a few HK things. Which I loved taking part in

20:47

The community is so good

Yes yes yes

20:48

It's just so wholesome

20:48

Do you mind if I DM you something?

Yea go ahead :P

Pls teach me what hollow knight is

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THE BEST GAME EVER IF YOU DON'T PLAY IT I'LL SLAP YOU /J

21:11

https://store.steampowered.com/app/367520/Hollow_Knight/ Best metroidvania to exist imo, incredible music/bosses/world design/lore/community/everything

Hollow Knight Expands with Free ContentGodmaster - Take your place amongst the Gods. New Characters and Quest. New Boss Fights. Available Now!Lifeblood - A Kingdom Upgraded! New Boss. Upgraded Bosses. Tweaks and Refinements across the whole game.The Grimm Troupe - Light the Nightmare Lantern. Summon the Troupe. New Major Quest. New Boss Fights. ...

Price

$14.99

Recommendations

197545

Metacritic

87

Spicy

Pls play it

21:17

Like

21:17

It's so good

Hollow knight is an easy top tier game and that’s a great choice to obsess over the music for

I feel like I should play it

You should

21:21

I think it might even be on sale atm

21:21

Even more reason

Dupendous Lew

Hollow knight is an easy top tier game and that’s a great choice to obsess over the music for

Speaking facts

it’s hard but heard good things

Yeah, it will kick your ass many times

21:22

But so good

me, God's shittest student, slowly piecing together what the fuck i have to do for my 5000 word final essay without having read half of core readings

17:55

did i mention i have a week to do this in and i have written exactly 2 words

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Welp as expected the hosue is basically the same as when I left it

Also I swear my shfits are getting shorter and shorter by the week

20:48

I now start at 10 next and finish at 3

1

20:48

I also got asked if I could work this Sunday last week and haven’t heard anything since

Feeling unlovable and lost and confused hours who up

I can be around for 10 minutes or so if you need to chat?

im not really good at advice or feedback but im happy to listen if wanted (edited)

I was saying the who up as more of the meme format itself but I appreciate you guys for being willing to chat and whatnot, not much to elaborate on just one of those nights where I’m just feeling like I’m not someone people wanna hang out with and that I’m just terrible at adulting in general I dunno

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nighttimes suck for mental health, cant remember what the exact post was but it was something like how we shouldnt trust our brains past a certain time at night

Past 9pm

youre a really caring and supportive friend, times get tough but people do love you, no matter what our brains insist on telling us at times

mumblingmiss

Past 9pm

ahh cool, ty

23:15

ive been meaning to put it on a post it note but i keep forgetting

Love you Lewis

hope you're okay despite the sad times hour

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mumblingmiss

Love you Lewis

hope you're okay despite the sad times hour

Thank you babe I appreciate it, I’m sure I will be just one of them nights I suppose

Dupendous Lew

Thank you babe I appreciate it, I’m sure I will be just one of them nights I suppose

Always here for you, these nights are always a struggle

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1

Hope everyone is okay ❤️

23:17

Sending my love and support

Nervous when I get home tomorrow

01:38

There’s gonna be a new housemate

It's going to be ok

02:08

I'm sure they'll be a nice person

Panic attacks over back to your regular scheduling I can hopefully sleep now

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It’ll be okay don’t stress hun

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mahariel

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ahehehehej

and another new hobby called "10 AM" where basically you wake up from a dream and you get so, so sad

i suck at interacting with people

You’re not alone, don’t worry

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Someone just randomly removing me off everything and leaving a server I’m in? I’m so confused

Id be confused to lol

I’ll live just Yknow

23:38

Bleugh

How bizarre

23:56

Wouldn't give it much thought, clearly a nutter :)

I wanted to sleep early tonight, but it's just turned in to me over thinking and replaying past mistakes

(edited)

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2

Maybe do something to distract, bcs you won't be able to sleep with those thoughts, so may as well do something you enjoy

Maybe, I'm feeling a tad sad to say the least so I don't think I can bring myself to actually do anything. Hoping exhaustion will take me soon though.

Maybe just watch some tiktoks or something in bed, and take care of yourself as much as you can

01:17

And I hope the sadness doesn't last long :)

Bv_

Maybe just watch some tiktoks or something in bed, and take care of yourself as much as you can

A yes feeding my crippling tiktok addiction. You know me too well Zach xD

Well, it isn't too difficult to figure out :P

01:18

But what can you do

01:18

Gotta do something easy to distract yourself from evil thought times

I wouldn't call them evil, more accountability I suppose. Taking responsibility for my actions is a big thing for me. But the situation I'm thinking back to doesn't really have anyway for me to. Or atleast not that I can think off.

01:22

Oh well tiktok time it is.

Enjoy tiktok

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This has got to be a fucking joke right??? IDA-HOBIT?? I dont think ive seen virtue signalling this obvious in years. Surely we should be against these things 365 days a year?!?

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I mean if they're as half assed about pride/lgbt as they are the treatment of their neurodiverse students it's hardly a surprise

I wish for summatives to end I wanna get drunk and steal shit

Anonymous Confession (#3)

"if you reach a simple conclusion that answers what needs to be answered, is it worth looking for alternatives? especially ones take so long and you have no idea how they could help. might as well just go for the answer youve already figured out makes the most sense, right?"

Depends on the question + current answer tbh.

22:33

If whoever op is would like to chat about it then feel free to dm me. Cant promise I can help but I can lend a sympathetic ear at least.

Welp Its my birthday on the 26th and originally I was suppose to be going bowling and then grabbing some food with my friends. But one of them has to work that day now so its been pushed back to the 27th. Which isn't that big of a deal since I don't normally celebrate my birthday tbh, but it does mean this will be the first year I don't see anyone on my birthday full stop since I'm seeing my mum earlier in the week. I'm not too sure how I feel about it. Since I don't celebrate my birthday normally if anything I just enjoy the social element that a birthday brings which I guess ill have but on another arbitrary day.

That sucks, I'm sorry, but at least you still get to see your friends :)

Yea thats my thought process atm, I just hope I dont end up the big sadge on the day because maybe I do care more than I think.

23:35

I like celebrating other peoples and going out of my way for them. But thats mainly because other people care alot about the day. I think I dont care that much. But idk ill find out lmao xD

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3

Ngl kinda sad, bcs tomorrow, half of my friends are leaving for the summer, and the last thing we are doing tonight, only a few are coming and it's just kinda bittersweet

18:30

¯\_(ツ)_/¯

18:31

Just not a big fan of goodbyes ig

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Hope you have fun at least with the few who are coming over tonight <3

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Anonymous Confession (#6)

"TW: suicide Last night I almost killed myself and the only thing that held me back was this song I keep looping even now. I know I need serious psychiatric help but it's too late in my degree to talk to the uni and everything else is too expensive. I keep re-reading the personalised letters I was going to leave for my loved ones and wondering if a couple of them even think about me anymore."

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Confessions

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I can assure you your loved ones do even if they don’t show it outwardly if failing that I care because even if I don’t know you very well or much at all I’ve seen people in the position you’re in and I would never ever want that for anyone ever so I care about you and I hope that you can get the help you need because no one deserves to feel like that. All of my love to you

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sorry i cant help more but worth mentioning that the Crisis Support team with the NHS is a free service, avaliable over the phone almost always i believe and do in person consultations, check ups, and try to help anyway they can. im currently with them and they do try to make themselves avaliable as much as possible, and if they think you need to go to see them in person they'll pay for a taxi as well

22:02

ill try to get the contact info here in case you or anyone else could find it helpful, but im really sorry youre having to deal with this

22:05

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How to get rid of Body Dysmorphia

If you find an answer, lemme know

Drugs?

Yum

B

Drugs?

no

What about the good ones that are medication for Dysmorphia

23:00

If they exist

23:00

Do they?

23:00

I don't think they do

23:00

Do they?

B

How to get rid of Body Dysmorphia

Following others if you find an answer feel free to slip in my dms xD

Bv_

What about the good ones that are medication for Dysmorphia

if not they should

Correct

23:04

Bcs then I'd be able to take pictures with me in it

23:04

@B SSRIs apparently are medication that work on moderate symptoms

Bv_

@B SSRIs apparently are medication that work on moderate symptoms

All SSRIs prevented was me cumming

oop

6 fucking hours

yeah i’d rather be depressed than not finish (edited)

I fucked for 6 hours

23:05

NOTHING

SHIT

23:05

That is not good

notliamhyde02

yeah i’d rather be depressed than not finish (edited)

Speaking facts (edited)

Was a good 6 hours tho

Mood

23:05

But still

23:05

Not ideal

I could start talking about my levels of finishing

23:06

But I feel like that’s a lot

I mean

23:06

Not really to mr

23:06

Me

23:06

But like

23:06

Others

For vents it’s a lot

Ok yeah, I didn't realise what channel it was

B

For vents it’s a lot

id talk about last night but it’s a lot for vents too

23:10

pun intended

xD

BESTIE WHAT HAPPENED LAST NIGHT X)

Bv_

BESTIE WHAT HAPPENED LAST NIGHT X)

nothing major

23:10

well

LIAM

23:11

YOU DO NOT

23:11

LEAVE ME ON A CLIFF HANGER LIKE THAT

^^

OK TO CLARIFY I DIDNT HAVE A GUY ROUND

23:12

but fun stuff still happened

1

23:12

;)

I WKSIDJEJEIDSI

You realise that just makes more questions :p

I wanna throw myself from a window. Im doing some work which requires me to watch back some VoDs to gather some data that I cant get from anywhere else. But one of my players being stupid has temporarily closed his youtube account or something. Essentially removing like 3 weeks of VoDs I need to review.

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01:37

Players are annoying asf.

Okay no longer annoyed at this player, turns out he got a virus (?) which changed all his passwords, then apparently uploaded videos or something that got his channel banned. Weird to think that in 2022 people do genuinely get viruses still. PSA: Get a password manager (1password is pretty good, you can get a student discount for your first year. Paying like £20 or something. Or you can pay monthly for more) (edited)

My meds have me so tired holy hell when did I last speak to friends where am I what day is it

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mumblingmiss

My meds have me so tired holy hell when did I last speak to friends where am I what day is it

It’s ok CB it’s an adjustment period you’re still going through it’ll get better for sure and your friends will be there whenever you can talk to them

Anonymous Confession (#8)

"After talking about body dysmorphia yesterday, I took to google to take a look at what it actually is. And Im pretty sure I have it. Worse part is thinking back it only started this year after I met a guy who by all social norms is really attractive. The thoughts of me wanting to look better and realising how 'bad' I look only really started flooding in then. Also on this journey of self discovery I suppose, I think I might have also developed a slight ED the last few months. But that's a future me issue. I only deal with one internal crises a week. Maybe 2 if its a bank holiday."

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I’ve been there before it’s fucking horrible if you need a friend or shoulder to cry on, anything I’m here

Trying to deal with the council is like pulling teeth xD

15:18

Just take my god damn tax exception form and fuck off

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Watch me enter with the dumbest vent in the world

15:26

Not spoken to anyone in over 24 hours

15:26

Therefore not used my vocal chords

15:26

Trying to sing Six bcs it's daily routine at this point

15:26

And I sound even more so like a cat being strangled

3

Bv_

Trying to sing Six bcs it's daily routine at this point

We Stan for this

19:48

I wanna take B one day but he’s so busy atm lol

not really a vent but i had stones thrown at me by some gits when i was walking back from the bus

20:08

id be more pissed if they could actually hit me

Oh shut are you okay?

yeah

On my way! To murder them

one stone like tapped my arm

20:08

the rest were just flying over me

20:08

idiots

20:08

anyways im fine

glad youre okay but thats fucking awful, im so sorry you had to deal with that

there were also throwing stones at a house before they moved on to me

20:34

dont think it was specifically me that was the thing

20:35

think they wouldve done it to anyone

sounds like some true assholes

just being general pricks

20:35

yeah

will.minchin25

We Stan for this

:) It is a very important thing to do

notliamhyde02

not really a vent but i had stones thrown at me by some gits when i was walking back from the bus

Ew, slap them

very small vent but im starting to notice a pattern with myself: i feel lonely i am shit at communicating so i rarely meet new people or actually talk to people i want to be friends with i feel lonely again

12:19

example: i was supposed to go on a date this afternoon, would be the first date ive been on in a year and since i came out as trans yet i cancel it because of a combination of paranoia and being awful at interacting with people

12:19

i should really work on this

It’s gonna take time but at least you’re aware that this is an issue for you and are willing to work on it

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micro vent I need a bitch who will shoot me in my sleep

12:53

I need a hoe to cut the brakes in my car

that doesnt sound overly healthy

Are you ok?

Me: lives my life

02:53

Compsci:

02:54

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You can’t help it if they all come to you with their problems with comp sci students lol

My family were casually talking about monkey pox today and someone said it’s spreading among the gays cos you know what they’re like (thinking it’s like aids), I honestly had to hold back the tears cos I’ve never been made to feel like this in my house and I know the attention was somewhat on me, does this count as homophobia? I really hate when these people are guests in my house cos they always say something offensive. Also am I just being sensitive cos I don’t think I’ve ever had homophobia directed specifically towards me before?

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My family were casually talking about monkey pox today and someone said it’s spreading among the gays cos you know what they’re like (thinking it’s like aids), I honestly had to hold back the tears cos I’ve never been made to feel like this in my house and I know the attention was somewhat on me, does this count as homophobia? I really hate when these people are guests in my house cos they always say something offensive. Also am I just being sensitive cos I don’t think I’ve ever had homophobia directed specifically towards me before?

youre completely valid to feel that way

12:15

and yeah, there is an increased homophobic rhetoric going around recently, because many people are just ill informed of how the disease is being spread

12:15

Monkeypox is not an STI (edited)

12:15

Its spread through skin to skin contact, which is literally the same as other illnesses.

12:15

Im sorry you have encountered that though

12:15

B

Its spread through skin to skin contact, which is literally the same as other illnesses.

Thanks for making this clear, I was just in total shock. Especially when the people are older and probably didn’t like the gays when aids was a big issue.

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Thanks for making this clear, I was just in total shock. Especially when the people are older and probably didn’t like the gays when aids was a big issue.

Even then, Aids is so misunderstood in that time.

12:17

Yes it was spread between predominantly gay men

12:17

But that is because of the stigma of Homophobia, as well as NSFW warning

12:18

Anal sex, is the higest way of reciveing HIV, especially bottoming

Yeah this is completely true, I was looking at something in 3rd world countries where moscitoes are rife and men, women and children were locked up like animals cos people thought they were gay and stuff but didn’t understand HIV.

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Yeah this is completely true, I was looking at something in 3rd world countries where moscitoes are rife and men, women and children were locked up like animals cos people thought they were gay and stuff but didn’t understand HIV.

Yeah especially in third world countries

12:25

Where HIV transmission is more common

12:26

HiV is definitely something that is going to change in the next 30 years (edited)

B

HiV is definitely something that is going to change in the next 30 years (edited)

What you mean?

Deleted User

What you mean?

with treatments and well

12:26

hopefully a cure

Ahh yeah, hopefully.

12:28

I wish more was done to commemorate the people who died in the 80s and 90s of aids cos they were shunned by society and completely ignored by the system. Like why isn’t this taught in our history about predjudis and stuff.

B

But that is because of the stigma of Homophobia, as well as NSFW warning

expanding on this it also spread due to the lack of education around gay sex, and the unavailability of protection in some areas

It has been recommended to me a couple times and it is on my watch list, so eveb though I haven't seen it, it actually looks great

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pose is fucking brilliant

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Finished it 3 days ago

honestly one of my favourites

Was beautiful and hot!!!

20:51

And Olly, omg!!!

also 3 seasons are on iplayer

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spoilers for pose candy’s funeral kills me every single fucking time

The show just shows how bad homophobia was then, I know I wouldn’t have coped.

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I willll, it's the next thing on my list

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The show just shows how bad homophobia was then, I know I wouldn’t have coped.

particularly transphobia

20:53

queen

20:53

also my god angel is perfect

1

20:53

so hot

Ohh, I was thinking of “it’s a sin”

Was walking to work and walked past a group of girls and one looked dead at me went “smash” as I walked past

20:54

Dk how I feel about that

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Ohh, I was thinking of “it’s a sin”

Is that any good?

Bv_

Is that any good?

Yes!!!

Where...can I watch

Deleted User

Ohh, I was thinking of “it’s a sin”

i’ve been meaning to watch it

20:54

netflix

It’s about aids and how it was handled

or all 4

Wait

20:55

Russel T Davis

20:55

He did it

20:55

Omg

yeah

AND KEELEY HAWES IS IN IT (edited)

20:55

So many things to watchhhh

I cannot rest in this house

What’s up

You know who

B

You know who

voldemort?

notliamhyde02

voldemort?

Leave

Mood

B

Leave

never ❤️

notliamhyde02

never ❤️

Don’t make me banish you

B

Don’t make me banish you

you’ve threatened before and never followed through

Followed through...

23:15

I'm so immature

THIS FUCKING MAN

23:24

PISSES ALL OVER THE TOILET

23:25

THERE IS MORE PISS OVER ANYTHING

23:25

I HATE LIVING HERE

That's honestly grim, I'm sorry

23:29

The fact there's no embarrassment concerns me

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23:29

You can see I’m about 1 moment away from snapping mentally

This...is bad. Like ew

23:31

I'm sorry you gotta deal with these levels of immaturity

Idk if it was a petty move or just negligent

23:32

I’m not

23:32

Ugh

23:32

That’s it I’m gaying the house

23:32

Where’s my flags

B

Idk if it was a petty move or just negligent

Both are actually vile

B

Where’s my flags

Don't start a war in your house

Bv_

Don't start a war in your house

The person in question is also responsible for breaking one of my expensive cocktail glasses j have at Brandon’s

There was a customer tonight who came up a few times to the bar ordering the same thing which normally wouldn’t be an issue except this time not only did they want 6 lots of drinks each time but also 10 baby Guinness. 10!!

06:07

(For anyone who doesn’t know a baby Guinness is a shot made up of coffee liqueur and baileys which is made to look like a pint of Guinness)

06:08

It’s not even like a jäger bomb where you just fill the middle with jäger and put red bull on the outside part it all has to be done in one of those tiny shot glasses

06:08

The 25ml ones

06:10

For those who don’t know this is what a Guinness looks like

06:10

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06:10

And this is a baby Guinness

06:10

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06:12

And to get it to look good like that you have to pour the baileys at an angle up against the side of the glass

06:12

So it’s awkward enough doing 1 let alone 10

OMG I RELATE SO HARD

14:57

The amount of times people do this

14:57

Makes me actually wanna die

will.minchin25

The person in question is also responsible for breaking one of my expensive cocktail glasses j have at Brandon’s

Ew, how dare they

Literally so annoying

Get shit thrown at me on the way to work for no reason ✌️

Omg ew, I’m sorry, that’s awful

‍♂️

very small thing but tomorrow will be the first exam ive done since my first year of sixth form, and the first one that matters since gcses back in like 2016 or something

E r i n

very small thing but tomorrow will be the first exam ive done since my first year of sixth form, and the first one that matters since gcses back in like 2016 or something

Same, im kinda nervous

youll do fine ❤ guess being nervous is to be expected for any exam, but especially after the last few years

yeah this is also my fist ever

14:07

2 and a half hour exam

B

2 and a half hour exam

Awe bless you

best of luck!

On a scale of 1-10 how hard is it to flush a toilet and NOT PISS ALL OVER IT

16:17

AGAIN

Even then wipe it down after yourself, you should always leave a bathroom cleaner that you found it!!!

FACTS

will.minchin25

And to get it to look good like that you have to pour the baileys at an angle up against the side of the glass

Pour the 10 kalua/tia maria then use the back of tea spoon to go along do the baileys on top. Shouldnt take more than 5 mins

Eeeeen

Pour the 10 kalua/tia maria then use the back of tea spoon to go along do the baileys on top. Shouldnt take more than 5 mins

I work in a nightclub lol you think we have that time

Its the quickest method to do it is all in saying. A lot quicker than pouring ine giving it over then pouring the next. You just line up the ten coffee shots and cream them all in a row

It’s officially exam day

01:10

AAAA

DON'T STRESS

You'll be ok

01:10

Try and get some rest

01:10

If you can

good luck!! you'll do great

ur gonna smash it

had brief panic as to why i couldnt find the exam paper only to realize its released at 9:30, not 9, because im smart

Going out today and am having to wear my straight cloths, wish I was wearing one of my new outfits but what am I supposed to do, just don’t feel anything when I look in the mirror.

I'm sorry, that must be really awful

So I'm almost home...and this man on the train has decided to stare at me the whole time and it has been an uncomfortable train ride lmao

I’m sorry to hear that I hope you’re okay

Is all good

16:27

Was just super uncomfortable

Tbh Ik the feeling I had some guy staring me down last night simply because he had made out with my friend

Yeah, it's a gross feeling

honestly can’t wait to leave uni now

17:22

getting sick of my flatmates

Honestly I relate, I'm sorry they are sucky

17:57

Happy to slap some if needed x)

It’s cool now, I quickly changed into a nicer outfit before I left and had a nice time

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Ayyy, glad you had a good time :)

just realized ive been answering the exam question wrong this entire timd

18:25

literally wasted the last 10 hours

I can’t do this anymore. For honestly the first time in my life I’m confused as to what to do. I don’t know if I should withdraw my uni application, I don’t know if I should stay at my job, I don’t know what to do

Will (he/they)

I can’t do this anymore. For honestly the first time in my life I’m confused as to what to do. I don’t know if I should withdraw my uni application, I don’t know if I should stay at my job, I don’t know what to do

Why would you want to withdraw your application outta curiosity

We’re moving (more than likely), and the uni is super far away from the new place and also… i dunno if I wanna go anymore

Will (he/they)

We’re moving (more than likely), and the uni is super far away from the new place and also… i dunno if I wanna go anymore

That’s valid, is there any unis closer you like the look of maybe?

i haven't rly looked, mostly because i've been busy with work and also trying to find a house

08:43

for me and my sister

Hmm

08:44

Maybe if you need time, think about delaying for a year maybe?

got a new phone....fucking whatsapp didn't backup properly....have no access to any of my old messages

Bv_

got a new phone....fucking whatsapp didn't backup properly....have no access to any of my old messages

Yikes

17:24

Can you use your old phone to try and rebackup

I'm trying it againnnn

Gotta wait 7 hours

18:35

Before it can re-verify my phone

18:35

But hopefully

18:35

It'll work

Fingers crossed

If it doesn't, I'm gonna be sad

I would be too

whenever i talk about sorting stuff out for the new house in september one of my housemates huffs and leaves

14:33

small thing but bare in mind i tried to get stuff sorted out early last year, they told me to shut up about it because it annoyed them, then got annoyed by stuff being not sorted right before we move in

14:33

i know im paranoid and over cautious but there is no harm in at least talking about the bills we're going to pay

Having a 30 minute break from my exam where I decided to read an article on the LGBTQ community, unfortunately I decided to read the comments which led from be being stressed to strait up mournful

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I'm tired of feeling sick and being too scared to eat

17:02

Like is it nausea or am I hungry

kazoo girl

Like is it nausea or am I hungry

think soup is your best friend here

Actually, I recommend eating something dry, ginger biscuits are pretty good for nausea

I despise being caught in the middle of relationship issues, and I’m currently stuck in a house where my brother and his girlfriend are going through some big issues and my niece is just kinda also here mostly oblivious excited that she has some lemonade, dunno how to deal with this kinda situation at all

Not used to being stood up but tonight seems to be one of those nights.

Fuck me fuck you fuck off I have covid again

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Not used to being stood up but tonight seems to be one of those nights.

Omg ew, that's disgusting, I'm sorry

Bv_

Omg ew, that's disgusting, I'm sorry

Should have seen it coming tbh, he was always funny even in college.

mumblingmiss

Fuck me fuck you fuck off I have covid again

No I hope you’re okay

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Should have seen it coming tbh, he was always funny even in college.

Well, not your fault. He missed out... massively

(edited)

I actually feel really sick and idk what to do

14:48

I’m stuck on a train too

Have you got water

14:49

Drink water

Not atm

14:49

I’ve had some earlier so it’s not dehydration

14:49

I’ve drank plenty today

Turn off phone and all devices, travel sickness, even if you don't have it can appear

14:49

Stare out the window

14:49

Take as many layers off as you can

14:49

So you aren't too warm

Can’t unfortunately I’ve only got one layer

14:50

It was the only clean thing I had

Oh oof

Staring at the window hasn’t helped cause I tried that and if anything I’ve felt worse

If you're worried that you will be unwell see if you can speak to a member of staff and you'll be let off at the next station to be looked after. I was very unwell on a train once and the staff were amazing

I can’t get off until my stop or I won’t be able to get back

14:51

I have an advanced single so it’s only valid on this train

14:52

I’m considering running to the nearest loo but it’s kinda far

14:52

Like 2-3 carriages back I think

14:52

The closest one is out of order so

I’ve got this coworker who’s been with the company the same amount of time as me and doesn’t know how to do literally anything. I’ve explained it to him several times and several different ways

Can’t stop crying

18:12

Can’t stop crying

18:12

Can’t stop crying

18:12

Manic mode aaa

hey you're going to be ok

I got to work early tomorrow

18:13

And I feel like I’m pissing the people off at my work by it

18:13

And it’s just

18:13

Ducking stupid

I'm sure you aren't

18:13

the people at your work like you

I feel like I was shit to them today

they'll understand that you're going through a lot

Yeah I guess

When random people send me

pics online can you at least say hello first, also I can tell ur obviously in ur 60s and it’s not happening

Ew, kill them

Bv_

Ew, kill them

I made a nasty comment and then blocked them, it’s close enough.

YESS

16:34

Actually bets move

16:34

best*

I’m curious where they got my details tho

Creepy old men have their ways

They really do

At work, gets asked about my degree and my career path etc

19:59

As soon as I mention psychology

19:59

The talk turns to sexuality and gender labels and how there are too many

19:59

Concerning that psychology is related to LGBT in the modern day

19:59

A little flustered ngl

I would be too

Oh and now I've heard the f* slur 17 times

Bv_

Oh and now I've heard the f* slur 17 times

slap them

20:59

whoever it is

They've gone now

Bv_

Oh and now I've heard the f* slur 17 times

Omg public casual homophobia is the worst, just have to grin and bare it cos if you says something you could be putting urself in danger or be seen as the unreasonable one

Yeah, I'm used to it at work ngl

Anyone else no longer find a joke funny if you have to break it down and explain it someone or is it just me?

Honestly

12:29

I only get jokes half the time

12:29

So normally I need them explaining

Like I’ll make a joke about something going on and then I have to explain every little detail

12:29

Giving a quick explanation is fine

12:30

But it’s when I have to break down every small detail

Yeah that's fair

Hollow Cadbury caramel?! Not on

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stare

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Bv_

Hollow Cadbury caramel?! Not on

I would actually have to throw hands with someone wtf

Literally two bits

19:48

Was so upset

I'd probably cry

was disappointing to say the least

I'm praying that your next bar is blessed with caramel

Thank youuuu

I’m actually so fucking fed up of my brother constant going on about my driving

22:19

There is nothing wrong with it

22:19

He’s never been in a car with me

22:19

And it pisses me off

What car do you drive?

I struggle to get any extra practice as it is

Eeeeen

What car do you drive?

I’ve not passed my test yet

Fairs, me neither

But it doesn’t help when he sits there talking about how I’m gonna crash and I can’t be trusted and how unsafe I am and saying things like “the exception to national speed limit is when you’re on the road”

22:21

Like fuck off

Actually ew

Just cause I can’t get a car yet or afford some fancy course ti get my license in a week like you

I don't drive national speed limit, just below for safety

22:21

So like

22:21

That's so dumb

And the fact my dad refuses to take me out 99% of the time is great

22:22

He always goes “you can get practice on your lessons”

22:22

And then I feel judged by the pair of them everytime I cancel a lesson for whatever reason

22:23

But it’s all he does everytime I mention driving and I’ve had enough

22:23

No one else in my family drives

22:23

And any friends I have that drive haven’t been driving for 3 or more years and aren’t 21 so they can’t take me out

22:24

So I never get any practice as it is

22:24

I’m staying at home for this long to try and feel better about life not be put down by the people around me

22:25

And not to he made to feel even more shir

22:25

*shit

Eeeeen

Fairs, me neither

wait so how do you ride your bike?

23:05

just a cbt?

Im on L plates baby, CBT squad

ah i see

Eeeeen

Im on L plates baby, CBT squad

CBT or CBT?

cock and ball torture?

Compulsory Basic Training. Which is what HR will make you do when I send screenshots to your job

Eeeeen

Compulsory Basic Training. Which is what HR will make you do when I send screenshots to your job

please theyd sack me on the spot

My only post today then im doing my exam work. I could not be happier with the questions and content today, I lost so much sleep last night panicking and now im like "Well, this is a nice surprise"

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praise

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Gl with the exam! (edited)

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My only post today then im doing my exam work. I could not be happier with the questions and content today, I lost so much sleep last night panicking and now im like "Well, this is a nice surprise"

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You are going to do great! Good luck

Man, fuck GameStop. Manager wrote me up over stuff that either was ridiculously small or I flat out didn’t do. It’s my second write up which means I’d be fired. I put my two weeks in on Sunday anyways but after that notice I’m turning my keys in tomorrow and telling them to fucking suck it

I had something similar at one point but in my current job

I don’t owe them shit

12:46

And it’s not like I worked many hours anyways

one of my friends told me that all 3 of her dogs just died

11:28

after she told me her nan died a few days ago

11:28

not sm a vent

11:28

but i just feel awful

Oh shit

11:29

Just send her plenty of love and support

11:29

11:29

That's really horrible

mini rant - don’t understand how for a whole year at uni my face has been fairly spot free (aside from like the same four that always seem to pop up, but they were fine)

00:35

and as soon as i get home my face starts flaring up again with way more

00:35

and my hairs getting greasier quicker

00:35

must be the water

00:35

but still annoying :(

00:36

I get it though

00:36

It's the worst

00:37

And all those who have seen me irl know I really don't have the clearest skin so like, I really get it

00:37

well

09:54

i’ve gained weight again

1

Nothing wrong with that

12:29

I know its hard but the numbers on the scale really are arbitrary

12:30

Its much more important to feel at home in your body and diet and excercise based off how your body feels to you rather than what numbers gravity is putting on you

i’m suddenly regretting coming home !!!

notliamhyde02

i’m suddenly regretting coming home !!!

Why? Are you ok?

Bv_

Why? Are you ok?

yeah but i’m in one of those moods where little things really annoy me

Ah ok

and it’s just not helpful

It never is

just counting down until september now

It'll be ok

still i’m excited to go to brighton and norwich soon :)

18:23

gonna spend all the money i said i’ll probably save so i’m not broke in the new semester

Mood ngl

Currently removing my exes stuff from my room and it’s heartbreaking

7

Life really said Imma gonna drop ill health, boiling weather and bereavement on you right before your last exam

6

Needed an excuse to be angry at something bc of hormones so I went and read back a bunch of the angry conversations I had with my ex during our relationship. Fucking fired up rn

mumblingmiss

Needed an excuse to be angry at something bc of hormones so I went and read back a bunch of the angry conversations I had with my ex during our relationship. Fucking fired up rn

use that energy to kick them in the shins

not me getting a bad migraine the day of my last exam

It's really warm today make sure you stay hydrated that normally helps ~ I hope you get through it okay!

Thanks, I'm just having some caffeine now to get me through the next few hours and I'm going to properly hydrate in a bit

3

12:27

If anyone sees me on campus rn, have pity on me

there are these cooling pad things you can put on your head thats supposed to help with migraines? might also help with the weather, but not sure if anywhere near campus has them. hope you feel better soon though and good luck

Put a water bottle in the freezer then once its frozen wrap it in kitchen roll/teatowel and its like a hot water bottle but like cold which can be good for stuff like that

Yeah my exams in person so unfortunately can't do many of my usual tips and tricks but I just gotta get through the next few hours and then I can pass tf out

irltardis

Yeah my exams in person so unfortunately can't do many of my usual tips and tricks but I just gotta get through the next few hours and then I can pass tf out

hang in there

13:01

nearly there!"

thanks b

irltardis

Yeah my exams in person so unfortunately can't do many of my usual tips and tricks but I just gotta get through the next few hours and then I can pass tf out

you got this!

1

so booooooorrred

B

Click to see attachment 🖼️

very glad i can just exist as an emotionless husk from time to time

(just popping in to say I survived my exam)

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Proud of you, hope you feel better!!

irltardis

(just popping in to say I survived my exam)

Ayyy

doing an exam while looking after another person is proving difficult. not their fault obviously, but just proving difficult

1

how bad would it be to drink during an exam?

17:51

i mean i know its probably not a great idea but if its only a bit it might make it easier to write at the very least, if i get the research done first

My gut reaction is omg no

18:00

But like one shot would probably be okay right? Like you wouldn’t be shitfaced and might make it more bearable?

thats how i did my interview and that turned out well apparantly

It’s not something I’d do so ig I’d advise against it but also as an experiment could be interesting to see how you do

i'll give it a go if im stuck on the first question in three hours, i can always use energy drinks to sober me i guess lol

i have not slept in so long and i still have an entire essay question to do in 9 hours

00:33

if my housemate doesnt have another nosebleed that is

00:33

i feel like this is a good time to start using energy drinks but i only have two ive now realized

Been in A&E for nearly 4 hours now waiting for xray results. Starting to feel a little forgotten

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hang in there

Eeeeen

Been in A&E for nearly 4 hours now waiting for xray results. Starting to feel a little forgotten

I hope someone attends to you soon! :(

Thank you guys. Just playing the waiting game :(

A&E is horrible to deal with so hope you get seen soon and heal up

I agree, it's definitely not a fun environment to be in

My circus career is gonna be on the back burner for a couple months

I'm sure you can find a way to get a wheelchair on that slackline

2

Have been seen, got a cast and they took some more xrays. Waiting for an orthopaedic consultation

Bruh u still in hospital kannaOof

kannaOof

02:12

Hope the consultation is quick for ya

Yeah, im still here :/ theyre busy people y'know. Thank you

Oh you’ve gotta be pulling my damn leg My screen on my MBA is starting to flicker Ugh I haven’t even dropped it

Think they had to stay in hospital over night

Okay gang, been sent home but theyre calling me back in because my ankle requires a surgical procedure. I am going back to my parents in the mean time. It is with great sadness I must admit I will not be making it to any Liam based events. Sorry folks :(

:(((

potatosnuggling

Eeeeen

Okay gang, been sent home but theyre calling me back in because my ankle requires a surgical procedure. I am going back to my parents in the mean time. It is with great sadness I must admit I will not be making it to any Liam based events. Sorry folks :(

god is cruel

08:57

rest up and take care

❤️

Thank you all

08:59

I am very sad because this has fucked all my plans for the next 3 months

Eeeeen

I am very sad because this has fucked all my plans for the next 3 months

oh shit even your trip?

Yeah, I cant say goodbye to my girlfriend this weekend, I cant go out for my housemates last hoorah, I cant go to the festival ive got tickets for, Im holding out all hope that if we move out flights back a couple weeks I can still go to the states but its not looking great rn

fuck man

Yeah, it fucking blows

@Eeeeen if you need anything let me know

09:22

Even if I need to carry you around somewhere I will

Thank you

god vomiting up only fluids is the worst. my entire body paralysed with tension from the sheer effort of it

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Have some plain toast if you can, that's meant to help settle your stomach I hope you feel better soon:(

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ST spolier: can Vecna pls come kill me, honestly, I'm living the scary fear bit, just need the bone snapping bit

really hating my brain right now

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Hospital told me not to eat after Sunday midnight and theyd call me around 9am today to update me on when my surgery is happening. Still not had a phone call

We called them at 11am to ask whats going on and just got told the receptionists dont know but I should continue to wait. Im so damn hungry

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That is absolutely ridiculous, I’d be calling on the hour every hour and asking for an update and tell them that you will continue to do so until you get a call back

12:11

Annoy the shit out of people and they will deal with you

As someone who's done a lot of fasting in their day, avoid chewing gum too much ~ it's a good appetite suppressant but too much erodes your stomach lining and that's really painful, if you can, have tea with milk bc that's actually got stuff in and will stop you feeling as hungry but also juice is good bc it replenishes electrolytes and is also higher in sugar and will make you feel less dead while you're empty. I really hope they hurry up and sort you something out tho

Im all good, I've done an amount of fasting before myself. Thank you though

Roux

Annoy the shit out of people and they will deal with you

As much as I want to I know that the hospital is not the place to pull this because it'll just slow down the actual process. If I dont hear anything by this evening I will abso-fucking-lutely kick off

Valid

I swear in the event I possibly move on campus in September it had better be like a lgbtq coming of age drama or no1 bestselling book otherwise I want my mom back - I just started love Victor if you can tell

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praise

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hey im also gonna be on campus in sep, where u gonna be at?

23:28

also is love victor any good?

Me too I’ll be in Ziggs

kannaOof

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23:29

rip

im gonna be in nelson court with one of my current housemates

23:30

it has a small ass kitchen which im sad about, but i get a big bed room though

Idk where I’ll be, probably most affordable tho. My only conditions are that i need my own bathroom and I need a proper oven for when I bake

i hope you get an oven

23:40

i will miss my oven

23:40

PokiCry

23:41

i remember not having one in village and just fried everything

23:41

and borrowed other peoples ovens

ForestBae🎄

i remember not having one in village and just fried everything

Wait, village doesn’t have ovens? That where I was considering

normal village doesnt have ovens but village plus does (edited)

23:46

if ur lucky you could get one in normal village however doubt

Bennyboy

Wait, village doesn’t have ovens? That where I was considering

NO IT DOESN'T AND IT HAS KILLED ME FOR A WHOLE YEAR MEANING I COULDN'T BAKE OR COOK PROPERLY

Roux

Me too I’ll be in Ziggs

Ah you’ll love it x

i only bake on special occasions such as my friends birthday

23:50

dont really get the urge to bake

Though village plus does have ovens

now, my urges to cook during the ungodly hours of the night

Which was a godsend when I moved flats

always

Bv_

Which was a godsend when I moved flats

lucky

23:51

which i could have moved, my flat was dead and i only got along with 2 people ish

23:51

one im living with next year and the other one i lost contact with and just see during lectures and such

Bv_

NO IT DOESN'T AND IT HAS KILLED ME FOR A WHOLE YEAR MEANING I COULDN'T BAKE OR COOK PROPERLY

Ooh, I think village plus might have ovens.

they do, i can confirm

ForestBae🎄

which i could have moved, my flat was dead and i only got along with 2 people ish

I mean, my flat that I moved into, they were all very cold towards me but it was better than being frightened of being in my own flat

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potatosnuggling

Bennyboy

Ooh, I think village plus might have ovens.

It does, I fully recommend village plus

Tbh I think village pulse is best value for what I want out of accommodation, like I don’t want the ritz or Savoy (tho the Gucci room there loos amazing) I just want privacy and a place to bake.

Bennyboy

Tbh I think village pulse is best value for what I want out of accommodation, like I don’t want the ritz or Savoy (tho the Gucci room there loos amazing) I just want privacy and a place to bake.

Village plus baby here

00:04

It’s amazing

I moved in first year bc of my flatmates it’s not that hard tbh if that’s what you need Britten house doesn’t have an oven (my ex was there)

Honestly village plus is great

B

It’s amazing

I’ll pass the idea by my dad, he’s probably be happy I’m picking something that isn’t the most expensive for once

Most of normal on campus doesn’t

Bv_

NO IT DOESN'T AND IT HAS KILLED ME FOR A WHOLE YEAR MEANING I COULDN'T BAKE OR COOK PROPERLY

fr ive literally had so many things go so bad ohmagod

ohmagod

Ew. All the shit on her story was super fake and scammy so I reported it all but still ew. I hope it's a hacker and not actually her

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Yikes

'not at all girl' sounds like mlm chat to me

It's worrying

13:09

If I'd spoken to her more than once before I'm sure I could tell but I haven't lol

13:11

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Why did I read Mlm as in Men who love men smh

gay

yea theres a lot of that sort of hacking atm, if anyone asks u for a favour / to send a code, dont lol

My cousin got hacked and I knew bc I got a dm going 'hello how are you' and immediately knew that's not him bc he doesn't care how I am we communicate solely through zelda and mario memes

Thinking of deleting TikTok and instagram, I like looking through the fashion and stuff but I keep seeing really pretty people and afterwards I hate seeing myself in the mirror and just hate my body. Does anyone else think this is an issue?

It can definitely be a big issue, seeing “really pretty” people all the time on these sites but I try to remind myself that the majority of them are edited lots, the poses that people do are very specific to make their bodies look “better”. It is hard seeing those things and thinking negative things about yourself, remind yourself that you are beautiful, handsome, sexy (not an exhaustive list of complimentary words but choose whichever ones work for you). Also remind yourself that you are smart, kind and have great fashion sense.

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got a slightly dysphoria inducing appointment tomorrow and as it gets closing getting more and more uneasy about it

7

19:43

necessery but annoying

Have you got something like affirming you can wear for the appointment that might make you feel more comfortable?

feel like that might make it a bit worse, imposter syndrome and all. im going to just try to focus on other stuff, then drink in the evening lol thanks for the advice though ❤

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i wish my mother would stop calling me when I'm high. trying to have a nice evening and then it’s just a lot of yelling while my mind is goop

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that is an F

That sucks, I’m sorry you have to deal with that. Could you maybe, not answer the call? I have a rule of 3 calls in rapid succession is an emergency, otherwise I don’t have to answer. I understand that might not work for everyone though

Gang im fucking dying. My ankle hurts more following surgery that it did when I broke it. This shit SUCKS

potatosnuggling

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Eeeeen

Gang im fucking dying. My ankle hurts more following surgery that it did when I broke it. This shit SUCKS

just shovel in those painkillers

Yea, I have a rota for them. Im also doing my own injections daily because no one wants a blood clot so theyve put me on blood thinners

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Eeeeen

Yea, I have a rota for them. Im also doing my own injections daily because no one wants a blood clot so theyve put me on blood thinners

oof ruff

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Idk why but no matter when I go to bed I always wake up at 5/6 in the morning and reslly struggle to go back to sleep. I drank a bunch last night... and still wake up at 5. I just want to sleep

(It's only started this past week) (edited)

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Are you under a lot of stress/ pressure atm? I always find myself sleeping in a similar pattern when I’m under a lot of stress

If anything this is the most unstressed I've been in a while. Which makes it all the more confusing xD

Intriguing, hm well if that seems to be your natural body alarm atm I would suggest going with it. Try going to bed earlier for a few nights in a row and just tracking it. It’s not necessarily a bad thing if you don’t need as much sleep because it might be that the sleep that you’re having is ‘deeper’ more REM etc

Josh

If anything this is the most unstressed I've been in a while. Which makes it all the more confusing xD

It’s probably the lighting maybe

09:35

I get weeks like that

09:36

Have a glass of water and maybe lay back down

Roux

Intriguing, hm well if that seems to be your natural body alarm atm I would suggest going with it. Try going to bed earlier for a few nights in a row and just tracking it. It’s not necessarily a bad thing if you don’t need as much sleep because it might be that the sleep that you’re having is ‘deeper’ more REM etc

I'll try sleeping earlier and see how that goes.

i have the same issues but i think my terrible curtains and early sunrises are partially responsible. also recommend sleeping earlier and maybe drinking herbal non-caffinated tea

10:23

anything that makes you sleepy tbh. blue light filter on your screens and try not to look at them for about 30 mins before you want to sleep

praise

1

its one of those days

Yes blue lights on screens are the devil

very very much one of those days

that interview was fucking nerve-wracking as hell

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16:14

I've never been grilled on so much so incessantly before

16:14

i think it went well? but also I'm just exhausted

hope it went well and you can rest now

come back home and now i’m stuck at home doing nothing

17:10

fomo kicking me in the bollocks rn

17:11

tried making plans to meet up with a friend but i’d have to work around my dog and it just wouldn’t be worth it

17:11

:((

If you ever wanna go to the beach or something for a day, I'll happily drive up, it's really not that far

i live near a beach

17:42

uwu

I do...ish

i say near it be like a 10 min drive from my house i think

17:59

but i dont drive fo it be about a 30 min bus journey for moi

ForestBae🎄

i say near it be like a 10 min drive from my house i think

yeah same it’s like 10-15 mins from me

It's like an hour for me

755345661775577130

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Ding dong wills a cunt

23:11

?ban @Unknown yayeet

dynoSuccess

savaynay#9902 was banned

Sorry for the vent besties

23:36

Don't apologise

23:36

You are as valid as everyone else

^^^

Sorry for clarification that person was wills housemate

23:42

And like

23:42

Wills being a cunt saying the worst shit about me

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Some people just thrive on toxicity and are just poisonous

B

used /config

Successfully added #vents to the list of confessions channels

Vents now has confessions again

B pinned a message to this channel. 06/23/2022 11:59 PM

Guess who’s Covid positive?

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potatosnuggling

Anonymous Confession (#131)

"do you ever just wanna make friends with people but don't want to bother them as you don't know enough about them to start a conversation

"

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unfortunately yes, it can be really tough at times :/ I just try to remind myself that they're still a human, and even if its a bit awkward trying to start a conversation they shouldn't hold it against you in any way

17:58

doesnt always make it easier but can sometimes help, i hope

A single bus broke down on the mouth of the round about in Norwich... and has just stopped like every bus from Norwich lmao

18:02

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18:02

I just want to get home :(

Confessions

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all the time

Josh

I just want to get home :(

beryl its easier than buses ngl (edited)

Tempted. Plus all the taxis are more or less booked atm lol

More expensive though

Josh

Tempted. Plus all the taxis are more or less booked atm lol

better than a taxi

Eeeeen started a thread. 06/24/2022 6:09 PM

B

better than a taxi

Welp got my friend to pick me up. Cuz hes a true chad.

Confessions

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I totally get that. Personally I just shoot a message saying Hi, or if theres something in particular thats made me want to be friends with someone for example them mentioning a similar hobby to me in the server I open with that xD Worse that can happen is the convocation dies early. But the best outcome is you make a new friend :D

i don’t want to be at home anymore

20:33

just so dull

Same

20:36

House party at mine

Plusnet supposedly the best for customer service, set up a new mobile sim only tariff with them today and they’ve charged me twice. I call them back and say “hey, I’ve been charged twice” the response being “ah, I can see that there has been a duplicate order processed, you will have to wait until both sims arrive and then call us back to cancel one”…

12:08

WTAF?! You can take my money just like that, YOUR fuck up but I have to call back in a few days to reclaim it??

12:09

Jesus Christ, not only that but they didn’t have Mx as an option and the guy was kinda rude being like “did you mean Miss or Ms” NO YOU FUCKING STUPID PRICK OR I WOULD HAVE SAID THAT WOULDN’T I?!

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12:09

And then to top this off they set my birth year as 1966

12:09

Like fuck me

12:09

Kick in the teeth why don’t ya

12:09

Jebus

12:10

I just want that sweet 30gb deal and non of this bs pls

12:11

Sorry everyone, rant over. I’m on a high energy ranting rn given the current situation with our fellow humans in the states and not being able to do much about that from the U.K. so I’m just kinda angry at everything

honestly valid, having the extra stress on top of that worry is a lot

Anonymous Confession (#144)

"feels like im having to learn a bunch of rules that keep changing for me to take care of myself, and its really difficult to keep track some times"

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No bcs work is so fucking shit, I wanna cry

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3

Sorry babes

1

Literally so close to dying and crying and everything

but getting paid is worth right?

Yeah that's true

Think of the money, remember they need you more than you need them. Hold your head up high and carry on bitch, you got this

did not want to come home to be bossed around when i’m literally 20

3

Ugh I know that feeling, except it’s the expectation that I will do things because I’m presumed woman. We’re all ill, everyone’s ill here so we have to look after each other but noooooo

that’s rough

11:36

it just gets exhausting

11:37

hoping next year im just gonna stay at my uni house and not have to come home

11:37

it’s also just so limiting as well

Yeah for sure, it’s like they just expect you to fit back into a child’s role. It’s a power play whether or not they realise it

12:14

It really sucks but not too long and then you are free again

I'm sorry but why are a bunch of old men talking about how to best shave their balls

15:38

Like no thanks

15:38

I don't wanna hear that

Now I'm gonna punch a wall bcs the pub has completely cleared out

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16:12

So I'm stood behind the bar

16:12

For another hour

16:12

Hope yous all don't mind my work vents

16:13

Let me know if they are a problem or just annoying

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Bv_

I'm sorry but why are a bunch of old men talking about how to best shave their balls

Gotta stay tidy y'know, its an important conversation. Did you remind them to check for testicular cancer?

No bcs I was frightened they were gonna start whipping them out

lol tmw you barely have enough money to make it the 3+ weeks you're out of a job and you can't get one rn because you're in the middle of a move AND you had to buy shampoo and conditioner yesterday because you were out and that was $40

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22:50

:))

Why was shampoo and conditioner so expensive?

they're separate bottles and salon grade. they're basically a necessity, my hair gets all wiry with other brands

Ah that's fair

22:51

I'm sorry

22:51

22:52

I hope everything gets sorted and you manage

22:52

I know I can't do much, but if you need anything, lemme know

Will (he/they)

lol tmw you barely have enough money to make it the 3+ weeks you're out of a job and you can't get one rn because you're in the middle of a move AND you had to buy shampoo and conditioner yesterday because you were out and that was $40

I'm in the same position so i understand and it's infuriating how much it costs to literally just be alive

3

honestly im so thankful for my hair. As long as I condition it every couple days it tends to stay pretty silky

3

Someone: I'm glad I'm not there then Me: You had better be bcs if you were... I'd punch you in the face

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1

Got 83% on the last project of the year ✌️ it was group work, ended up doing most of it, got about 15 marks more than my team so we take the W friends

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Fuckboy Drag King

Got 83% on the last project of the year ✌️ it was group work, ended up doing most of it, got about 15 marks more than my team so we take the W friends

congrats! honestly deserve more than that from all the stories about your groups lmao

1

That's awesome! Sorry you had to do all the work but holy shit that's amazing especially considering that!!

1

Fuckboy Drag King

Got 83% on the last project of the year ✌️ it was group work, ended up doing most of it, got about 15 marks more than my team so we take the W friends

Ayyy, need to find out how the rest of my team did tbf

Bless you both! Group work can suck, especially when they're literally playing chess in the labs rather than doing the CSS of a website, BUT we move

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Twink Antony

Ayyy, need to find out how the rest of my team did tbf

how did you end up doing James? You had it even worse than me

But big congrats Caz, you nailed it x

chess? not even anarchy chess? fucking nerds

But it's OVER and you did AMAZING so fuck them (edited)

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Fuckboy Drag King

how did you end up doing James? You had it even worse than me

My grade was so very specific, 67 followed by 5 numbers after decimal point

group projects aka how to overwork yourself to death in 4 weeks or less

Twink Antony

My grade was so very specific, 67 followed by 5 numbers after decimal point

.....?

15:37

Swear down if your team was like "yeah he did 3.888694937/5 of the work"

Fuckboy Drag King

Swear down if your team was like "yeah he did 3.888694937/5 of the work"

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15:38

Like what

What

15:38

I'm gonna have to ask your team how they did

Interesting lol

i have never seen more than one number after the decimal

Group work moment

surely just round up to a 67

It honestly confuses me so much

No we need the exact fucking grade

15:38

the EXACT fucking grade

The fuckers undercut me what

Wait really

15:39

What did they get?

15:39

Do I need to set a Russian man on fire again I'll do it

Igor got 72%

molotov cocktail time

In fairness he did do quite a bit iirc?

Actually tbf, he did do like most of the documentation

But the other two

Need to find out what the others got yeah

my teams marks were fucking scattered like

15:40

someone got 68, I got 83, like there's entire ballparks of difference, and we didn't even throw each other under the bus that much

15:41

Just after my presentation Nik was like "so it's really clear you're the only one who knew what you were talking about" and I just took that W

Weird as hell

Also depends on marker

Fuckboy Drag King

Just after my presentation Nik was like "so it's really clear you're the only one who knew what you were talking about" and I just took that W

Oh fairs

you had Aaron right?

Yeah

Bostrom my beloved

15:41

You still did well though gj

Tbf its not a bad grade

congrats on your hyperspecific grade james shookpeach

shookpeach

mahariel

congrats on your hyperspecific grade james shookpeach

shookpeach

Thank you, I’ll hold my grade with honour

Twink Antony

Tbf its not a bad grade

Absolutely! Esp considering literally one of your team mates dropped out of uni lmao

good luck for your year in industry , you'll do great I'm sure

mahariel

good luck for your year in industry , you'll do great I'm sure

Need to find a house

Fuckboy Drag King

Absolutely! Esp considering literally one of your team mates dropped out of uni lmao

how bad was this project lmfao

mahariel

how bad was this project lmfao

It wasn't even that bad LMAO but it was like

15:42

the straw that broke the camels back for like

15:42

4 people I know

15:43

They're either retaking or just dropped out entirely

15:43

Comp sci moment

love that for them

Tbf, If I continued on with next year, I know I’d come out with a 2:2 or something

compsci

physics 20% dropout rate

Cause I really don’t care all too much

mahariel

compsci

physics 20% dropout rate

It's because it's such a fun degree

Twink Antony

Cause I really don’t care all too much

Same, this year was a bit of a shit show

Come back with new energy

Twink Antony

Need to find a house

in this economy? you're welcome to crash in my cardboard box under a bridge

I say that as I’m sat in a&e with like 6 hours ahead of me

honestly

what happened lol

mahariel

in this economy? you're welcome to crash in my cardboard box under a bridge

Oh boy, maybe I’ll get some room

like man you're a great friend but I died when I saw you fucked your finger up

mahariel

what happened lol

Oh I fell on my finger when I was rock pooling in Tenerife

I was quietly sobbing at your incredible ability to injure yourself

coding is that strenuous huh?

"you rock the pool it rocks back"

15:45

dead

Fuckboy Drag King

like man you're a great friend but I died when I saw you fucked your finger up

Know I can rely on you to care <33

Twink Antony

Oh I fell on my finger when I was rock pooling in Tenerife

NOO that's one of the injuries that makes me cringe the most. anything to do with my fingers or eyes

Fuckboy Drag King

"you rock the pool it rocks back"

Wordsmith innit

How was your flight back James

did you not go to a&e in tenerife??

mahariel

did you not go to a&e in tenerife??

Imagine if James was smart enough to do that

15:46

He did the man thing of "its not that bad ill sort it later"

you do literally the same thing so you can't talk

all men are masochists

mahariel

all men are masochists

keeps it interesting wdym

obligatory "why women live longer"

15:48

i say as i leave bronchitis untreated for 2 weeks

does class a drugs everytime they go out

15:48

pop off queen as you should

hey listen it's not every time i go out

Fuckboy Drag King

How was your flight back James

Oh brilliant, I love having no space at all for my lanky legs

My friend's brother skiied into a tree and got air lifted back to the uk to go to hospital

mahariel

did you not go to a&e in tenerife??

I didn’t trust it

You could've gone in a helicopter but no had to be a guy about it

rare 6'5 L

15:49

rare tall person L

15:49

relishing in this

The nearest clinic was one that was called “Doctor” with a PNG of a kid doctor as it’s logo

It's the leg space + hitting your head off the baggage storage that's the sender

Twink Antony

The nearest clinic was one that was called “Doctor” with a PNG of a kid doctor as it’s logo

Should've gone

Twink Antony

The nearest clinic was one that was called “Doctor” with a PNG of a kid doctor as it’s logo

i would trust that kid with a wordart M.D. certificate with my life

Just for the photo op if nothing else

Fuckboy Drag King

It's the leg space + hitting your head off the baggage storage that's the sender

Oh it really hits the spot

15:51

It’s all good, I just chill in a&e reading my book

Fuckboy Drag King

It's the leg space + hitting your head off the baggage storage that's the sender

i sometimes can't reach the baggage area

15:51

furiously tapping someone's shoulder to ask them to get my stuff down while they're booking it to arrivals

mahariel

i sometimes can't reach the baggage area

That's alright, adults should be the ones storing the luggage anyway

compsci moment

Twink Antony

It’s all good, I just chill in a&e reading my book

What are we reading?? The Java bible I hope??

the uwu manifesto

James does indeed have massive uwu energy

Fuckboy Drag King

What are we reading?? The Java bible I hope??

“The Subtle art of not giving a fuck”

Fuckboy Drag King

James does indeed have massive uwu energy

I’m going to end you

Twink Antony

“The Subtle art of not giving a fuck”

Yooo Mark Manson right?

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Twink Antony

I’m going to end you

But bro our celebratory drinks

mahariel

i sometimes can't reach the baggage area

What the fuck, are you even allowed on the plane? I’m sure you’re meant to go in the cabin at that size

mahariel

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Looks like welsh ngl

mahariel

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my bible

Twink Antony

What the fuck, are you even allowed on the plane? I’m sure you’re meant to go in the cabin at that size

Do they do booster seats on flights? Feel that they must

wise wowds to wive by

Fuckboy Drag King

Yooo Mark Manson right?

Bingo, brilliant read

somewhere in Brussels, Ross Gower just bolted upright with rage

Fuckboy Drag King

But bro our celebratory drinks

I can do body shots at your funeral dw

like on his corpse?

15:54

in the coffin?

Twink Antony

Bingo, brilliant read

Ironically read his other book "Everything is Fucked" whilst waiting for an MRI

mahariel

in the coffin?

Killer shots yknow

come on my funeral will be a massive party as long as my parents aren't invited

Fuckboy Drag King

Ironically read his other book "Everything is Fucked" whilst waiting for an MRI

WHY ARE YOU IN AN MRI

Fuckboy Drag King

Do they do booster seats on flights? Feel that they must

i will smash your kneecaps

Twink Antony

WHY ARE YOU IN AN MRI

✌️

wtf did you do to your head

Fuckboy Drag King

✌️

That’s just rubbing it in, you know I can’t do that

1

doctor thought I was dying lmao

Twink Antony

That’s just rubbing it in, you know I can’t do that

LMAO

???

15:56

are you going to explain??

This was a while ago don't worry this did not just happen

Fuckboy Drag King

LMAO

Can’t even flip people off smh

Was like 7 months ago? Maybe 8, doctor thought I might have a brain tumour or that I might've had a mild stroke was very cool

just gesture vaguely

assuming it was neither?

Fuckboy Drag King

This was a while ago don't worry this did not just happen

Go to hospital in the UK

Wait until you’re abroad ✅

Twink Antony

Go to hospital in the UK

Wait until you’re abroad ✅

Absolutely, free healthcare? Fuck off

rich boy settings

Fuckboy Drag King

Absolutely, free healthcare? Fuck off

Why on earth would you want that, go to America instead, $500 for a few pills and a bandage

mahariel

assuming it was neither?

Yeah turns out I had such an acute fucking hemiplegic migraine for about 4/5 days that completely paralysed the left side of my body, was extremely sexy of me

Bro??!

Hey it wasn't a tumour??

15:58

MASSIVE W's out here

alright what the fuck

That's a W but still a concern

Fuckboy Drag King

Yeah turns out I had such an acute fucking hemiplegic migraine for about 4/5 days that completely paralysed the left side of my body, was extremely sexy of me

Two Face Daddy

Caz Stanley Ws - "i do not have brain cancer"

15:59

does have severe brainrot tho

3

It was great, the doctor who examined me was like "are you on drugs, be honest, it'd explain everything" , me sadly shaking my head "no doctor I'm just fucking unhealthy"

mahariel

Caz Stanley Ws - "i do not have brain cancer"

It is a massive W

what eating only fried eggs for every meal every day does to a mf

Twink Antony

Two Face Daddy

why settle for one daddy when you can have two

Fuckboy Drag King

why settle for one daddy when you can have two

Looking for one

Twink Antony

Looking for one

Fuckboy Drag King

Who broke @Xoxo Go piss Girl

16:03

Smh

Fuckboy Drag King

It was great, the doctor who examined me was like "are you on drugs, be honest, it'd explain everything" , me sadly shaking my head "no doctor I'm just fucking unhealthy"

"Alas doctor, I do compsci. The cool kids won't share their drugs with me"

1

well he's definitely not getting any more of my mdma

1

B

Who broke @Xoxo Go piss Girl

maybe she's taking a bathroom break

mahariel

well he's definitely not getting any more of my mdma

druggie

since when

It's fine the cool kids nowadays sustain themselves on caffeine and nicotine

Nah the cool kids do weed and write gay smut

mahariel

since when

since you do mdma on a semi-frequent basis, its a druggie moment

Ripfangs

Nah the cool kids do weed and write gay smut

I do this too, am I cool yet

16:05

please say yes

Fuckboy Drag King

since you do mdma on a semi-frequent basis, its a druggie moment

i haven't touched mdma in weeks pls, leave me alone

Fuckboy Drag King

please say yes

no.

mahariel

maybe she's taking a bathroom break

She gotta go piss girl

Fuckboy Drag King

I do this too, am I cool yet

Perhaps

Ripfangs

Perhaps

don't encourage him

Data inconclusive, more research requited

freyja as your father I'm urging you to take that back

jory might be your father freyja but I'm your daddy

mahariel

freyja as your father I'm urging you to take that back

Did you get custody of me in the divorce?

Ripfangs

Data inconclusive, more research requited

REQUITED spoken like someone who really do write gay smut

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LoLo <3

REQUITED spoken like someone who really do write gay smut

No I just can't spell meant to put required

Ripfangs

Did you get custody of me in the divorce?

i got custody of everyone including my ex-wife

mahariel

i got custody of everyone including my ex-wife

Who's the ex-wife remind me (edited)

who gets the baby gor

16:07

someone please love me

Fuckboy Drag King

Who's the ex-wife remind me (edited)

either Bran or Lo i can't remember. too many hoes you know?

LoLo <3

who gets the baby gor

me

mahariel

either Bran or Lo i can't remember. too many hoes you know?

Ah yes, same here, same here. Lots of loveable people in rehab w me

grippy socks gang

16:09

the UEA medical office keeps phoning me up bc the ADHD therapist sent a concerning letter to them a week ago and i refuse to pick up

mahariel

the UEA medical office keeps phoning me up bc the ADHD therapist sent a concerning letter to them a week ago and i refuse to pick up

Any reason why?

Answering phones is simply a lot of effort

Fuckboy Drag King

Any reason why?

lmao I'll tell you in dms later

1

Ripfangs

Answering phones is simply a lot of effort

We do the GenZ thing of ignoring the caller, googling the number, realising it was someone you should've answered, wait for them to call again

^

i have to fucking answer every call now in case it's job related

16:11

but as soon as i hear "hi it's the uea medical centre here, we're just checking up on yo-" i smash that hang up button like youtubers taught me

Not today, medical professionals

therapist: here is a long list of numbers you should dial me: noted

16:14

i don't need helplines, i have harry styles and drugs

1

16:14

(I'm kidding, pls don't go med centre on me)

mahariel

the UEA medical office keeps phoning me up bc the ADHD therapist sent a concerning letter to them a week ago and i refuse to pick up

Are you okay?

LoLo <3

Are you okay?

just hot girl problems dw dw

Valid sexy and respectable

that therapist appointment was the worst fucking thing istg. she had a trainee shadowing her so i had to recount my childhood and the last couple months of problems to two whole people

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16:18

for 3 hours straight and then had to run across the city bc i was 30 mins late for a coffee meetup while severely spiralling

16:21

all in all, kind of a bad day so i sat in my garden smoking a pack until it turned into night and it got too cold for me to stare at a hedge and listen to Dreamland

Anonymous Confession (#160)

"Y'all need to post more selfies. I can't keep searching the server to find out what someone looks like and then get to the end and see theyve not posted face or hole. Like c'mon!!! We might already know eachother, why r u hiding those gorgeous mugs??!?!"

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I DON'T POST ANY BCS I'M UGLY AS ALL FUCK

20:48

Soooo

20:48

Sorry

20:48

And dysmorphia

20:48

That too

Bv_

I DON'T POST ANY BCS I'M UGLY AS ALL FUCK

BRUHHHH I'll be stabbing you in a second

20:50

Stabbing you with positivity and the truth more like

You've seen me once

20:51

And you probably don't remember

20:51

So shush

Fuckboy Drag King

BRUHHHH I'll be stabbing you in a second

Also pls do, living is effort

Don't shush them, theyre right

20:51

Youre far from ugly thats for fucking sure (edited)

Disagree

Bv_

You've seen me once

Hey you've also seen me once, that's whack lmao sorry off topic

Bv_

Disagree

And youre wrong

I get body dysmorphia is a cunt (it is)

Fuckboy Drag King

Hey you've also seen me once, that's whack lmao sorry off topic

And you are STUNNING

But genuinely I have every faith with the right encouragement, partners and friends you'll be able to see how attractive you actually are Bv

Eeeeen

And youre wrong

Incorrect

Bv_

And you are STUNNING

BRUHHH SEE YOU REMEMBER THAT IM STUNNING BUT I CANT REMEMBER THE SAME ABOUT YOU?? SHEEESH

20:53

Flawed logic my guy I'm sorry

20:53

You're a total cutie, certified even and I don't have bad taste so hold that L

I will slap you

20:53

Yous are all wrong

Majority rules bitch, youre cute and you lose

Everyone here is cute

20:54

Anyone who says they aren’t gets

20:54

Sticker

Murdered?

20:54

KILL PLS

Do i need to post the axe selfies again?

Behead me like K Howard

20:56

Let me become K Howard

20:56

Pls

Eeeeen

Do i need to post the axe selfies again?

PLEASE

20:56

Chop me in half

See, you mean it horny

20:56

I mean it...I wanna die bcs I hate life

Axe selfies?

Hold on I'll find them and drop them in selfies

You know you have some right cunts

11:38

When someone reports me to the supervisor for being too “gay” which apparently means I’m sassy

11:38

AND USES THE excuse I’m gay

11:38

LIKE FUCK OFF YOU CUNT

what the actual fuck

11:39

so sorry you have to deal with thats ludicrous

TOO GAY?? They’re obviously TOO MUCH OF A CUNT

HE SAID BECAUSE HES GAY HE CAN SAY THAT

11:45

But like Jesus fucking Christ

11:45

My managers are trying to calm me down rn but I’m not having it

11:46

I’m literally not staying later if they ask me, when I go I’m gone

11:48

Trying to not have a panic attack right now

11:48

Holding it in so fucking much

thats really shit

Hopefully I have a break soon

That's actually disgusting, I'm so sorry you've had to deal with that

B

HE SAID BECAUSE HES GAY HE CAN SAY THAT

No no you can’t say that regardless of your own sexuality ffs

bruh wtf thats so icky :(

John Lewis for you

say the word and arson shall commence

I'll join in

14:08

Arson is fun

alliteration means its true and arson is awesome

sucks you had to go through that bran

IfritArson

14:12

i shall comit arson

If I ever see him on the streets I’ll roast him so hard

got another medical appointment im dreading tomorrow with a long walk there and back

3

22:34

but bus routes are really stressful and expensive

2

Long walk might be good to clear your head before and after?

If I was there, I'd fucking drive you

, but agreed, put some music in, use the walk to keep calm before the appointment

22:35

You got this

appreciated, thanks :)

22:35

tbh its only 2 hours, i used to do that for work so if its a nice morning idc that much

Yeah, not always brilliant but if you enjoy walking that’s not so bad, blast music on the way there, probably won’t be as bad on the way back bc the stress of the actual appointment will be over but if you want some company message me I’m happy to come with you/meet you halfway on the way back ~ I’ll need to be in town for 4 so I can make sure I’ve got plenty of time before my tattoo but even if you just want to call and take your mind off it I’m not doing anything better

2

To second that if you need to chat or support on the way there/whilst you're there/after, lots of people myself included are here for you queen

1

1

thats really appreciated, thanks

im sure ill be fine, i listen to music 24/7 anyway so i have lots of backup earphones

Get out of myy house

22:58

I dont know who you people are

22:58

I cant cook properly

22:58

when I feel anxious

22:58

You dont live here

22:58

I dont know who you are

22:58

why are you living in my house

They're still there?

Yuh

22:58

Well

22:58

Two new men, idk where the girl is

Wtf ew

Jesus

Can I kill them

Beat you to the server orgy

OMG

Can you blast baby shark or something?

22:59

Weird them out

These goddamn vets are sending me on a wild goose chase holy shittttt. Glaven Vets posted they had recieved a ginger male cat. I messaged them to see if it was mine, they say that they gave the cat to Westover out of hours Vets and to contact them. I messaged Westover to see if it was mine, and they're like we don't have a ginger cat GiRL whAT. Where. Is. The. Ginger. Cat. I just want them to fuckin identify it against a photo of my cat.

11:05

11:07

Westover is like did your cat go missing and I'm like yeah and they just go

Image attachment

ffs knew this would happen

11:14

i woke up and thought oh new ms marvel ep

11:14

forgot about it

11:14

remember an hour later

11:15

as soon as i’m about to press play my mum wants me to get up

11:15

like she’s said nothing until now

11:15

ffs

11:15

i want to live alone again

If you're not doing anything all day why would you need to get up tf

mumblingmiss

Westover is like did your cat go missing and I'm like yeah and they just go

Tf? DO YOU HAVE MA CAT BITCH?!

Roux

Tf? DO YOU HAVE MA CAT BITCH?!

Sir, do you have my cat? I gave a cat to that guy over there Sir, do you have my cat? I have never seen a cat in my life :))

Could you give a description of the escaped cat? Four legs, ginger fur, pointy ears, long tail. Well its a cat isnt it Thank you sir

I'm v concerned about this supposed cat they received that seems to have disappeared into the fuckin void lmao

11:32

Sounds like something my cat would do

it fell into the backrooms

Have you spoken to the first people again and gone wtf happened if the people you sent me to haven't got a cat can you check the records or something?

Yeah I messaged the first vets again saying that the other guys said they dont have that cat. They icon says they've read it but no response yet.

...encouraging

Don't come out to the north nrofolk coast with your pets, I think there's a wormhole

11:35

Pet Bermuda triangle shit happening

Maybe they are checking tho? Idk I really hope they find something soon tho

Yeah they best do

PLeeeeaaaasEEE OMfG my leg is so ITCHYYYYYYYY. Fuck this CAST!!! I should only have it for another week but bitch if im not 5050 on cutting it off RIGHT THIS SECOND

8

Fuckk it’s nights like tonight which are so hard

02:04

I just want someone here holding me shitttt

6

B

I just want someone here holding me shitttt

im on my way

I finally sent this to the house gc

Image attachment

5

When you have to cook food for your family tea but you are having a hate food and will throw up day

15:15

Great time

15:19

Literally crying over making chocolate covered strawberries

Packing up my room and there’s so much shit from my ex I forgot I had I bought her a fucking ring and I just found the box it came in with the wrench that came with their wifi they gave me when I was crying about to go home after staying for a week?

8

CW:Death of Technoblade So the youtuber Technoblade past away recently. He was a minecraft youtuber who was some what popular back in the day but over lockdown grew a crazy amount. He had stage 4 cancer and made a few videos about it but there wasnt too much of an update about it till yesterday when a good bye video was posted on his behalf by his dad. He was only 23, so basically the same age as me and a majority of my friends. I dont think I've ever cried this much after the death of a person who I didnt know personally but his passing has me crying whenever I think about it. I think its because of how he died combined with how similar in age we are. Really makes you think about how fragile life is. I have so much more in this life I want to do and that I need to achieve its scary to think it could be stopped by something so out of your scope of control. His content helped me alot last year when I was at a low point, it was a nice escape from things. He played a small but important part as to why I am who I am today which Im thankful for. I cant imagine what it was like for him and his family, and I hope I never will. I hope for a day when nobody does.

PokiCry

3

4

Josh

CW:Death of Technoblade So the youtuber Technoblade past away recently. He was a minecraft youtuber who was some what popular back in the day but over lockdown grew a crazy amount. He had stage 4 cancer and made a few videos about it but there wasnt too much of an update about it till yesterday when a good bye video was posted on his behalf by his dad. He was only 23, so basically the same age as me and a majority of my friends. I dont think I've ever cried this much after the death of a person who I didnt know personally but his passing has me crying whenever I think about it. I think its because of how he died combined with how similar in age we are. Really makes you think about how fragile life is. I have so much more in this life I want to do and that I need to achieve its scary to think it could be stopped by something so out of your scope of control. His content helped me alot last year when I was at a low point, it was a nice escape from things. He played a small but important part as to why I am who I am today which Im thankful for. I cant imagine what it was like for him and his family, and I hope I never will. I hope for a day when nobody does.

I hope you’re okay, I honestly saw that and felt quite similar to you.

15:05

Yea, I'm fine. It's just triggered a mini questioning of life and what I'm even doing in it.

GES_Hugging

its honestly pretty tough, ive felt off all day about it to be honest, despite not knowing them personally the whole it kind of leaves in your life speaks about how much of a positive impact their content had

id never even watched any of his content and it made me tear up a bit

18:06

seeing all the people on twitter sending their condolences was bittersweet too

1

Anonymous Confession (#171)

"I expect absolutely nothing and am still let down. Not sure why that hurts"

4

I'm sorry to hear you feel that way

19:40

If you ever wanna chat, I'm always free

19:43

I completely relate as well so please if you ever just wanna chat, lemme know

To go back to the technoblade stuff and trigger warning here about cancer:

00:58

The fucking audacity of grown adults on fucking social media making this battle a meme. Despite everything techno did for his family is descpicable. I did not know much of technoblade but like I respected him before and after he passed and I watched the message left for people and cried at how much he did for his family for his siblings to go to college. To see the jokes people make. It really angers me and makes me cry. I have lost people to the Big C. And I have my cousin who is battling it currently. I DONTGET WHY PEOPLE MAKE THESE JOKES

5

B

To go back to the technoblade stuff and trigger warning here about cancer:

The one joke / reference I think is okay is ' Technoblade never dies' which he referenced during his past cancer related videos. Outside of that I've not seen any memes about his passing. Ive only seen love for him, so im not gonna bother looking for the negative stuff (edited)

Josh

The one joke / reference I think is okay is ' Technoblade never dies' which he referenced during his past cancer related videos. Outside of that I've not seen any memes about his passing. Ive only seen love for him, so im not gonna bother looking for the negative stuff (edited)

yeah I’ve seen the never dies thing. The ones I’ve seen have been primarily on TikTok tbh

07:19

Obviously wouldn’t recommend looking for them

Yea, I'll take your word for it. But continue to live in bliss of those dickheads

Josh

Yea, I'll take your word for it. But continue to live in bliss of those dickheads

Always do, you know me rise above the negativity

Good vent. A gay couple came into the store today and I literally went “awe”, explained I was thinking of something else lol. I also snuck some extra cookies in their bag. Gays stick together

️

shookpeach

7

That's actually adorable

Anonymous Confession (#174)

"Not me writing poetry about my ex and then having a sexual dream about them after

Why brain whyyy"

7

rip but you'll get over them, eventually

Did I just start crying at Heart of Stone at WEL for no reason?

19:36

Yes

5

Anonymous Confession (#182)

"tw: death, grief, suicide I know its really bad because its not about me, but sometimes when I see how bad people feel after someone they care about dies I feel really shit about myself. I've made a couple of suicide attempts in the past and always worried a lot about the negative impact I'd have if I killed myself, but thought the impact would be better than me continuing to be alive and the negative impact that would have. I don't feel that last bit as much anymore. But seeing the grief that me killing myself might have caused, even if it is a fraction of what I see in other peoples grief, makes me feel awful for what I almost inflicted upon people. And its awful to look at such tragedy and grief and think about yourself rather than the people actually suffering."

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There’s no right or wrong way to grieve or process emotion like that. I think reflecting on what could have happened and being grateful you didn’t when you had wanted to shows how far you’ve come. It’s not awful to think of yourself, it’s a natural thought progression of oh shit that could’ve been me. It’s okay to consider this stuff, it shows how far you’ve come.

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Anonymous Confession (#186)

"I have a friend whose stopped messaging me for some reason, won’t even open my messages on 2 social medias. Idk what I’ve done to deserve this as we were getting on really well. We hung out a lot and messaged a lot recently until a week ago. I’ve had sex with this guy and opened myself in ways to him that I have never with anyone else. Idk what I’m supposed to think."

8

Op I’m sorry you’ve experienced this I’ve had similar and it’s not fair I’m sorry

^^ I'm so sorry you've experienced that, some people are seriously cunts and I will run them over with my car if you need me too

Anonymous Confession (#191)

"I hate being at home, my parents and sister are so rude and judgemental and control everything I do and when I voice concern or worry or literally anything, they accuse me of being controlling and nasty, but if my sister is rude or nasty to me, I’m the one in the wrong. I hate being at home"

6

20:18

Anonymous Confession (#192)

"I’m an adult with opinions, if you don’t want me around that’s fine, I know you have little to no opinion of me anyway. As soon as I can move out I will and just ugh, I’m almost 20 I don’t need this drama that is apparently always my fault. Just want a hug and to have people around me that respect me"

5

sorry you're having to put up with that OP, living with family can be challenging at times, hope it improves :/

I don’t know if these are two separate ones but I’ll answer the same thing to both if they are, you are an adult, it’s shitty that your family are treating you this way. They clearly don’t respect you as an adult, that’s something I can sympathise with all too well. Toxic people or groups of people have a way of messing with us, stay strong, keep busy, out of the house as much as you can and how much it’s safe to do so. These weeks will fly by and before you know it, you’ll be back with your friends again, with people who truly love and respect you ❤️

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Anonymous Confession (#196)

"I think I’m starting to struggle with food again. All I’ve had today is toast and I feel fat. I was peckish just now and was going to have a cookie where I had second thoughts and put them all in the bin. Just feel bloated and uncomfortable all the time. Kinda upset cos I thought I’d made some progress in this area. Idk what to do now tbh."

7

Oh I'm so sorry, food and eating can honestly be the worst and I hope that in time, you remember that it's ok to eat nice things and if you ever need to talk about it, I'm happy to

2

It's easy to relapse when you get home, you fall back into old habits from the routine and it can be hard to break out of it even after some time away. Try and remember food isn't the enemy even if that can be hard to think when you're in the moment, maybe try and keep some safe foods available if they're all you can bring yourself to have, it's better than nothing. My DMs are always open if you need support, I appreciate how hard this stuff can be sometimes. Take care of yourself op, you are so loved ❤️

2

so i need a job for money before i move in to my house in september

18:31

and i know this

18:32

and yet when my parents constantly nag at me to find one i lose all motivation to find one

Just tell them to leave you alone and that you are searching

18:32

In the end, what actually got me my job was not the fact they kepy nagging me, as soon as they left me alone, I found a job and got in

but they’ll ask and i wont have anything to show

I'm so sorry, the only thing I can suggest is just keep trying

also a bit bummed i didn’t get the last one cos it would’ve been perfect

3

18:34

£10/hr (edited)

18:34

16hrs per week

18:34

near where my mum works so she can just drop me off

18:34

but no ofc i didn’t get it

18:35

not even a response from my application

job hunting is excruciating but you'll get call backs I'm sure. if you need help with your CV, cover letters and the like them lmk and I'll be happy to help

18:40

i didn't get good responses until i seriously overhauled mine

Anonymous Confession (#198)

"I really hate my brain sometimes. I just wish I could go meet my friends one-on-one without the feeling like they don't actually want me there and they are just being nice. I'm going to see two people in different occassion and I already feel imposter syndrome. I just want to know that people actually like me and want to be around me"

2

Op I know your brain is telling you they don’t want you there

18:52

But I’m sure they really want you there

mahariel

job hunting is excruciating but you'll get call backs I'm sure. if you need help with your CV, cover letters and the like them lmk and I'll be happy to help

if this applies to anyone i might take u up on this sometime

disgustatorium

if this applies to anyone i might take u up on this sometime

yeah ofc go for it

Confessions

Click to see attachment 🖼️

trust your friends when they say they want to see you. no one's hiking about this badly designed city for politeness, they like being around you

mahariel

yeah ofc go for it

might just write a little starter on what to do here rn

cv crash course: - first, make a Master CV which will go over 2 pages (usually) bc you should write down all of your job experiences, volunteering, qualifications etc. + a generic Personal Profile paragraph - next, cut down and tailor that to fit whatever you're applying to. if you're applying to Google, take out your summer job at Tesco and expand the details section of your work experience for a tech company. take out your "good customer service skills" etc. from your Personal Profile and insert stuff like "3+ years experience with [coding language #1, #2], intermediate knowledge of [idk some other UX tool?]" instead. do the reverse for a job at Co-Op - best practice is to look at the skills listed in the job listing and literally copy-paste what they want in there to bypass any shitty bots that auto-screen CVs - list all of your technical skills (programming languages, Adobe etc.) + general job skills (marketing strategy, SEO optimisation etc.) in a sidebar where the interviewer can clearly see it immediately - keep your education section short and succint. don't list your 12 GCSEs like i did at first bc that wastes valuable space. instead just say "12 GCSEs A*-B including [specific subjects related to the job]", you can list your A-Levels and degree in full tho - did smth cool at uni? awarded smth? put that in the Achievements section to show that you're a well-rounded person who cares about more than work and school. have a short Hobbies section to show that you're an interesting person with a range of talents too

19:23

and general shit like keeping a consistent readable font, no eye-hurting colours, professional

that is such a good idea omg, making a master copy

19:24

ive been trying to haphazardly re-edit it everytime

here's the tailored one i sent off to the company i just got an offer from in case you want inspiration on layout. feel free to copy-paste anything you like lmao idm

Jordan_Aramitz_CV_mm.pdf

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Ooh that’s pretty, thank u

disgustatorium

ive been trying to haphazardly re-edit it everytime

yeah saves a whole lot of time and you don't lose any valuable info you put in last time

disgustatorium

Ooh that’s pretty, thank u

no worries! any questions lmk. I'm mostly reiterating what my careers adviser told me

damn ur grades

LMAO "this bitch stupid"

19:26

it's called having Asian parents

girl u the furthest thing from stupid

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19:27

omg I gotta show u my mechanical keyboard collection

also when looking for jobs, look for companies in the area first and then look at their vacancies bc your degree will have a tonne of transferable skills into other fields you haven't thought of. all the good Publishing companies are in London so my job search in my English Literature field was sooo crappy at first. looked at the job descriptions of vacancies in marketing, finance, etc. (bc of my internship as a Banker) and found so many good jobs that still fit me despite me not doing an Economics or Accounting degree

disgustatorium

omg I gotta show u my mechanical keyboard collection

omg pls. prefer tactile switches or linear? i like the super clicky ones

mahariel

also when looking for jobs, look for companies in the area first and then look at their vacancies bc your degree will have a tonne of transferable skills into other fields you haven't thought of. all the good Publishing companies are in London so my job search in my English Literature field was sooo crappy at first. looked at the job descriptions of vacancies in marketing, finance, etc. (bc of my internship as a Banker) and found so many good jobs that still fit me despite me not doing an Economics or Accounting degree

ill keep this in mind for when i actually look for a proper job, currently only want a Tesco job or smthn

mahariel

omg pls. prefer tactile switches or linear? i like the super clicky ones

i always get mixed up but linear are the non clicky right? because those, i love as thocky and quiet as possible

19:32

i used to be obsessed with blue switches

19:32

clicky hell

disgustatorium

ill keep this in mind for when i actually look for a proper job, currently only want a Tesco job or smthn

yeah that's fair! in that case, emphasise your people skills and customer service but still keep your compsci stuff in minimally to show you're a problem solver (edited)

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disgustatorium

i always get mixed up but linear are the non clicky right? because those, i love as thocky and quiet as possible

yep and that's fair. the really buttery thocky ones are so nice too

currently tho I only really collect prebuilts

19:34

i haven’t done much modding or building myself

19:34

akkos are my love

lmao mood. the audacity of it being significantly more expensive to build one from scratch

fr but it sounds so much nicer tho

all i do is buy keycap sets

show show show

19:35

i bought some miku caps the other day

19:35

i way prefer 60%s, but I’ve had to buy 100%s more since i need the entire layout for coding :(

all my tech stuff is in a storage unit rn but I'm heading into town to collect bits tomorrow so will send

19:37

omg how are the miku ones?

they’re super cute!! p sure they’re bootleg since there was an official release I found and I got em on aliexpress but they’re super nice anyway

19:38

plus I don’t use that keeb much anymore

60%s are so pretty that i simply put up with having to add 20 fucking layers to do basic functions lmfao

literally

19:38

it was mainly the lack of arrow keys that made me go insane

19:38

it was fine before uni Isg2

19:38

fuck

19:38

*s2g

disgustatorium

they’re super cute!! p sure they’re bootleg since there was an official release I found and I got em on aliexpress but they’re super nice anyway

honestly, keycaps are so expensive sometimes that bootlegs are the way to go. also bc the mfs set up a groupbuy and it sells out in 10 minutes. would rather wait 3 weeks for some aliexpress ones than 7 months for the official ones to be made and shipped

groupbuys make me suicidal

1

disgustatorium

it was mainly the lack of arrow keys that made me go insane

ohh i re-programmed my right shift, alt, ctrl and fn keys into arrow keys bc that bothered me sm

shit that’s a good idea

19:40

but honestly yeah aliexpress and Amazon rn are the best even if they are less quality

i rarely use those and i eventually got used to not having right shift

19:41

as long as they're PBT caps, they should hold up

small pissed off vent moment: comp sci (haha) wanted to go to the cinema today, i said i couldnt make it, one of them @d me asking if could, i was asleep so couldn't react, he buys me a ticket anyway, i can't go, now he's asking me to pay him back for something i said i couldn't do it like

4

20:14

fuck off arun lmao

can't he just refund it?

20:15

wouldn't this just be you paying him? lmao

1

yeah he literally

20:26

out of nowhere

20:26

dms me his bank details

20:26

and im just like

20:26

??

20:26

mate

20:26

I said

20:26

I couldn't make it

20:26

you buying me the ticket is your own fucking issue

starting to feel depressed again

4

20:32

which feels worse cos i’ve been feeling my best for ages now

Fuckboy Drag King

fuck off arun lmao

Fucking tory

20:32

Want me to handle it? :3

Anonymous Confession (#199)

"Ever finish talking to someone and think 'this is a lost cause no matter how hard I try'?"

3

B

Fucking tory

honestly the fucking gall of this man

20:34

I'll just egg his house

B

Want me to handle it? :3

threatening

Confessions

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yes all the time but if they matter to you then i, personally, would keep trying unless it's at the expense of your own health

I would just dm him

20:35

Caz don’t owe you anything bye

Will 2.0

Confessions

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Me everytime I talk to anyone

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notliamhyde02

which feels worse cos i’ve been feeling my best for ages now

Ahhh

mahariel

yes all the time but if they matter to you then i, personally, would keep trying unless it's at the expense of your own health

side note, not completely endorsing this bc you know, could end badly

B

Caz don’t owe you anything bye

I love you so much

PLEASE LET ME

I'll just ignore him what's he going to do

20:39

Actually talk to me?

20:39

I'm far too scary to do that

PLEASE if you yell at him in the wrong way he will snap backwards

20:39

Not like he has a spine

I've seen that man at clubs

Stop

Nothing is more depressing than that

PLEASE ILL cry

YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN

I DO

send the video (edited)

20:39

of him dancing

HAHA

ahh shit do i still have it

20:40

let me check

20:40

fuck i don't

20:40

ill find it

can't remember where you sent it to me lol

Me neither

20:42

But

20:42

the energy is there

20:42

Saw him out in a club once and that man could not be more static

my friend does the same thing but in his defence he's 6'4 and can't move properly without people's heads slamming into his drinks

20:43

(I'm people)

That's a decent reason

20:43

Arun is what

20:43

5'10? No idea I never cared

20:44

Literally two points of his personality: codes in Python and is a Tory

20:44

Like I could not tell you anything more about him

20:44

Not because I don't know him, just because there is nothing else

Fuckboy Drag King

Literally two points of his personality: codes in Python and is a Tory

two points of yours too

mahariel

two points of yours too

Not a Tory and I don't recreationally make Python bots for Discord servers because I like the outdoors

20:46

Anyway I'll hire Bran to kill him if he gets annoying

brandon's knife kink coming in handy

Got it

wow

20:52

literally my level of dancing

arun moment

bunnyhopping is not that hard

20:54

makes everyone else around you do it too and it's great

20:55

just bob your knees and do CoD reload animations with your hands if you really are struggling

2

just got angry cos my dog picked up some shit and wouldn’t drop it, had to go inside and just scream cos i got so mad, haven’t gotten like that in a while, that’s how i know my mental health is going

2

20:57

to clarify i didn’t do anything to my dog, just made me irrationally angry

20:57

ive had a good few months of feeling great

one of those overwhelming days huh? I'm the same today. reining myself in from being pissed off at the smallest things bc i know I'll regret it later if i let my emotions get the best of me

why now do i have to feel like shit

maybe being back at home? whatever it is, bad mental health days can hit you and you have to persevere through them

mahariel

one of those overwhelming days huh? I'm the same today. reining myself in from being pissed off at the smallest things bc i know I'll regret it later if i let my emotions get the best of me

my hair band was falling out so i just took it out and snapped it

notliamhyde02

my hair band was falling out so i just took it out and snapped it

hey sometimes small things like this can release a lot of that pent up anger without hurting yourself or anyone else

20:59

I've been biting my vape to pieces lmfao

this sounds bad but last thing i want to do when i’m depressed is take care of a dog (edited)

21:00

i don’t have the motivation nor the energy

nah i get you. could anyone else take care of them while you wind down?

my parents are out so no

21:01

he just needed a walk

a walk could help you clear your head too maybe?

21:02

being cooped up in a house definitely isn't great for the mind

^^

might take my own advice and go for a walk too. everything matters so much when you're staring at your ceiling but whatever’s bothering you, people, events, stress, doesn't seem so frustrating when you're in a field or bridge (edited)

A walk while listening to a comfort album helps me sometimes

i just don’t want to live at home anymore

3

21:05

like at all

walks take you out of the house for a little while at least. i completely get you tho, I've done the utmost i can to stay up here since graduating

21:06

terrible home lives really take a toll

21:07

catch me yelling at a tree about all my problems in like 30 mins lmfao

it’s not terrible tho that’s the thing

21:07

it’s just so limiting

21:07

it could be way worse

21:07

i’m just fed up

could be worse but you're allowed to feel down when you do

3

21:10

and we're here if you ever need to vent about it too. or provide some support

mahariel

catch me yelling at a tree about all my problems in like 30 mins lmfao

highly recommend this lmfao. nothing odd about it when you're alone in a field somewhere

my throat would be completely messed up by the time i’m done

when you feel like you can't rely on anyone else, random tree is there to help and not judge

notliamhyde02

my throat would be completely messed up by the time i’m done

take some water and lozenges and get at it. your throat will hurt but your mind will feel better for letting it out

21:13

your dog can go run around for a bit too

21:16

my own personal vent here is that i really need to articulate when i need someone's help or comfort instead of hoping they pick it up from me dropping hints that I'm sad while talking to them. it's a terrible habit of mine bc I'm really good at gauging how someone is feeling and can instantly tell their mood from how they're acting but that really only seems to be a me thing that few other people have

3

21:17

i'M aN EmPaTH

mahariel

my own personal vent here is that i really need to articulate when i need someone's help or comfort instead of hoping they pick it up from me dropping hints that I'm sad while talking to them. it's a terrible habit of mine bc I'm really good at gauging how someone is feeling and can instantly tell their mood from how they're acting but that really only seems to be a me thing that few other people have

my issue is taking the next step of actually asking for help

Feel free to dm me ‘AAAAAAA’ if you ever need to vent about crap I’m happy to ask if you need and just let you rant

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3

the most ill do is just vent like i have done

21:17

and then not do anything about it

notliamhyde02

my issue is taking the next step of actually asking for help

oh god me lmao. them: do you need help? me: AHAHAHA NOO WHAT MAKES YOU SAY THAT

21:18

as with 90% of my issues, i proudly blame my mother

21:19

but that's an issue I'll bring up with my therapist when i next see her

21:20

always need to refuse help unless they specifically tell me it's ok to do so and that I'm not distracting them from whatever they're doing. otherwise the guilt is all-consuming

Same honestly

21:21

Help, don't need it

21:21

I'll suffer

and now my parents are asking why i’m getting angry and swearing and asking if i hit my dog

5

21:22

good end to the day

that's horrible and I'm sorry you're going through that

just let me fucking leave this house im sick of it now

Bv_

Help, don't need it

i'm the one helping everyone else so when it comes to needing my own i freeze up

No I completely get it

21:23

It's very valud

21:23

Valid*

notliamhyde02

just let me fucking leave this house im sick of it now

and she’s home tomorrow so i’m probably gonna be feeling like shit

2

21:24

and something will happen

Can you maybe just go out to the beach or something tomorrow?

not out of the blue

me: i want to die them: expresses any bit of concern me, taking the largest hit of nicotine i can muster while wobbling down a road: oh shit oh fuck oh no I'm mentally stable I swear

3

A mood

21:24

A dangerous one

21:24

But a mood

mahariel

me: i want to die them: expresses any bit of concern me, taking the largest hit of nicotine i can muster while wobbling down a road: oh shit oh fuck oh no I'm mentally stable I swear

me using the usual “im just tired”

4

notliamhyde02

not out of the blue

hm could you tell your parents now so they have a bit or warning that you're taking a trip?

well i’m not sure how i’d even get to the beach so

21:26

no

21:26

cos i don’t drive

train maybe?

21:27

or bus if that's too expensive?

Or even just go for a long-ish hike through fields

Though the outside is wonderful (it is), maybe just a shower or a bath? Or even just taking a bit of time out for yourself, I don't want to assume but it sounds like you need a bit of a breather from the world, and with slightly more involved families, showers (etc) are the only real time you can get it.

actually yeah that's a lot more practical at 9pm

i do need one

21:30

i’ll see if i can muster the motivation for a shower

21:30

it’ll probably be tomorrow tho

Don't force yourself, but it might clear your head a bit

3

i used to find just laying in bed, under the covers (not ideal with the weather tbh) watching a comfort film or tv show helped me escape from stuff a bit

21:32

its pretty simple but gives a bit of freedom

i’ll probably just fall asleep

21:42

thank you for the suggestions people

21:42

really appreciate it x

Sleep is extremely good, highly recommend

21:43

We're here if you need us Liam, but you'll get through this

3

mahariel

me: i want to die them: expresses any bit of concern me, taking the largest hit of nicotine i can muster while wobbling down a road: oh shit oh fuck oh no I'm mentally stable I swear

me with weed (edited)

Anyone else exhausted? Just so fucking drained? Completely wiped out? (edited)

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Eeeeen

Anyone else exhausted? Just so fucking drained? Completely wiped out? (edited)

You alright? Or is it just sort of burnout/fatigue?

I cant sleep properly at night at the minute (various reasons - see complaints about my broken ankle) and im just fed up with not having any energy

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Eeeeen

I cant sleep properly at night at the minute (various reasons - see complaints about my broken ankle) and im just fed up with not having any energy

Bless you friend, I hope your ankle stops being so fucking unpleasant soon. I know you're quite an active person, and the whiplash to being sedate must be really shit :(

2

23:39

If you want to just like scream your thoughts out there about how shit broken bones are I am so down to hear it, they suck

2

Thank you, I appreciate it. Ive got my way of dealing with this kinda thing though. There's no use complaining once its broke, that energy is better used on fixing it Its the sleepy bitch disease (lethargy) thats getting me down at the minute

6

It’s understandable that in your situation going from exercising and going out to limited to what you can do with your foot in the state it is has got to be a pretty big contrast and that’d have anyone fed up. Also being stuck inside all the time does fuck with your sleep and energy levels because you’re not as exposed to the sun and effectively your routine goes out the window which really isn’t going to help. I think being able to work out like you did this morning is probably going to help but sleepy bitch disease is a bastard and I hope you feel better soon

3

note to self: DO NOT TAKE MEDS IN THE DARK. i just swallowed 4 period delaying pills

(edited)

4

mahariel

note to self: DO NOT TAKE MEDS IN THE DARK. i just swallowed 4 period delaying pills

(edited)

Are you okay?

Roux

Are you okay?

yeah I'm fine! should just be uh interesting few days

3

sad cos i thought my mum was at home today so bv couldnt visit me

10:40

but she’s at work and i have to wait one more day

10:41

and i’m also stressing cos i thought i knew when she worked but now i’m not sure and i need to check if she actually is at work tomorrow

10:41

but if i just ask she’ll wonder why and i honestly can’t deal with it rn

5

Just say hey when are you working? I want to make plans but need to make sure I can work around when you're available Or something like that?

10:44

Either way it's a shitty situation and I'm sorry:(

It'll be ok, we will sort something out

minor thing but went to get my cleaning stuff only to find a large ant infestation taking up the corner of the conservatory

Grosssss

dont know when the conservatory was last cleaned, we split up room responsibilities, but thats going to be a fun group (at least i hope group) activity later

If it's not your room and no one wants to do it as a group just leave it for the person who's responsibility it is

11:27

Not your problem

thats what ive done for the last at least two months

11:28

just gonna have to bite the bullet and start myself and hope someone else helps

Oh god that's Not a fun situation to be in I'm sorry

11:29

I'd offer to come and help but Bowthorpe is like an hour from me at uni and I'm 2 hours from Norwich right now:(

thanks itll be fine though, will only take a day max and i can still listen to music and drink while doing it

update on ants: managed to mostly contain them within a rough perimeter of chili powder, and cleaned as much of the conservatory as we could otherwise

18:44

downside is ive now noticed they have wings and can climb the wall to bypass the perimeter, there is one confident little shit that crosses the powder while the others are scared to, and it looks like our fridge is haunted and we are scared of it

1

18:44

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1

18:45

also lost a lot of chili powder :(

1

My dad kills ants with boiling water but idk how doable that is in a house

idk either, we've reported it to the agents because it seems they got in through the walls

Oh fuck yeah that’s not great

and with how shit this conservatory is that checks out, we have a hole in the ceiling too

18:47

additional downside is that the tomatos i was going to raccoon are in that fridge and will be lost

Image attachment

18:47

:(( I’m sorry

oo ill keep that in mind

18:48

hopefully itll be sorted tomorrow or something but idk, as long as the ants dont take flight and ascend the stairs into my room idc too much

1

18:48

we also have floor tv now and the quality is so much better when looking down on it

18:48

i think my tv is a sub

18:53

my housemate just said they put chili powder in their food to mark yhe occassion i asked how it was, talking about the taste they just said there is no ants in it

You’d think they’d just get some more chilli powder

Do you not have any ant powder Erin?

Anonymous Confession (#201)

"anyone else have this ritual before leaving the house where they look out for signs on whether it will go well or badly? i have two rings that look the same but only fit on certain fingers, if i don't get them in the right places first time, i know whatever I'm heading off to do will go badly. similarly with my shoelaces coming undone, my contacts taking a long time to put on. it's like the universe is trying to stop me and i should listen. every time this has happened, my fears have been realised"

3

Twink Antony

Do you not have any ant powder Erin?

nah i dont really know how to do that stuff, so dont want to mess it up and make them in pain or anything

Confessions

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honestly sometimes yeah, i pay attention a lot to magpies tbh. i dont necesserily think something will go awfully if there is only one alone, just feel uneasy and on edge at times

Magpies are so fucking cute

19:10

Lil shiny goblin birds

honestly

19:11

love how many there are in norwich

I LOVE the birds in Norwich

19:11

The ones on the street are SO FUCKING FRIDNDLY

Nope...terrifying

19:13

I literally run away from all birds

19:13

@Unknown can attest

Not a bird person?

19:13

That’s fair enough they are mini dinos

Literal phobia

I think they’re gorgeous but I can understand the anxiety ig it’s the same as some people think about bugs

LoLo <3

Not a bird person?

he’s a human silly

Shame

notliamhyde02

he’s a human silly

bold of you to assume I am not a plant

Plant > human

so true

As a biologist, can confirm

Was looking at the customisable pride converse they're doing atm and was very interested until I was customising and there was not any asexual representation available in the options and was likely not the only one not available. I know these silly big company things shouldn't get to me but it's made me feel very small and like my own identity that I share with so many people still isn't seen as as important or as valid as the others within our community.

5

i doubt its much consolation, but you and all aesexuals are completely valid and valued ❤ im sorry people and companies make you feel like that, theyre idiots and dont speak for the actual community, who im sure will always support you however they can, despite the assholes

i literally just broke down in bed

06:01

unprompted

06:01

i'm... not ok

5

08:11

I'm so sorry

08:11

If you need anything, let me known

Anonymous Confession (#223)

"Another night of me smoking whilst staring at my ceiling. The loneliness do hit sometimes

"

4

Sighs

Image attachment

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09:49

I’m not saying, they’re bad

09:49

Butttt

09:49

Referring to yourself as pure blood

is boris becoming the second trump

09:51

i always thought there was a thin line but please dont say its been crossed entirely yet

Confessions

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also if your in norwich and want to do something at any point op, lmk, excluding tomorrow im free until sunday, then when i get back im basically in norwich all summer

hope things improve for you soon though ❤

Confessions

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me but my vape ran out so I'm just staring at my ceiling

Anonymous Confession (#225)

"if i could not dream about them for one night that would be great"

4

My dad is pissed off today because...I like my eggs differently to how he likes his eggs??

that is somewhat confusing

Fuck COVID

7

Agreed

Anonymous Confession (#229)

"not a vent but just wanted to say i love all of you, youre so supportive and deserve great things

"

7

My sister has a concert tomorrow but she also has COVID. I’m sad for her because she was looking forward to it so much and put so much time practicing for it

4

Aww bless her

21:15

thats awful, im so sorry, i hope you both recover well

Fuck this fuck everything I wanna be home

8

23:15

I wanna be in bed

I hope it gets better

23:57

I'm sorry you are feeling like that

covid is kicking my ass, I feel terrible physically and mentally ://

3

nerves are kicking in for this interview

09:49

and i realised this morning i dont know where to go

09:49

i mean it’s probably one of two places but still

irltardis

covid is kicking my ass, I feel terrible physically and mentally ://

covid fucking sucks, hope it passes quickly <3

1

ok so it went well

10:12

and i should know in a few days hopefully

10:13

but when i said to my mum i said i can start on monday

10:13

she got all pissy at me saying why i can’t start immediately

Donna really knows gaslight guilt trip and manipulate god

and then a bit later said to start looking for other jobs just in case

10:13

like tf

I’m so glad I’m going home

have a bit of hope

notliamhyde02

and i should know in a few days hopefully

I'm gonna stay positive and say: yayyy I'm so happy for you and I'm sure you'll get it!!

B

I’m so glad I’m going home

i can’t wait to say “i’m going home” in reference to lincoln

Bv_

I'm gonna stay positive and say: yayyy I'm so happy for you and I'm sure you'll get it!!

thank you x

I literally hate being there

You have not got much longer ( I assume), you can get through this and then go back home

Bv_

You have not got much longer ( I assume), you can get through this and then go back home

Ohh I’m on the train right now

10:25

Ya Yeeet suffolk

B

Ya Yeeet suffolk

in the bin

B

Ohh I’m on the train right now

Oh excellent, back to freedom

irltardis

covid is kicking my ass, I feel terrible physically and mentally ://

Covid is really shit for some and a breeze for others, listen to your body, relax, DO NOT overdo it! I cannot stress that enough, take lots of vitamins and stay hella hydrated even if it means you’ll be weeing lots, do it anyway because you need it

For the first time in my recovery I felt legitimately lonely today. Both my parents work and my little brother has school so im on my own 4/5 days a week. To start with I was too busy being in pain and distracting myself with youtube/tv/netflix. But today I just felt porperly on my own, I guess its a good thing? That ive reached a point where my ankle is no longer bothering me but like....still sucks y'know

8

Let us know if there's anything we can do

️

Bv_

Let us know if there's anything we can do

️

Thank you handsome, I might bother you for some company tomorrow

Np, around all day

❤️

(Good vent) Just discovered the best glute exercise ever, I honestly feel the burn pretty quickly and can easily do it every day in a short time!!!

4

Eyyy that's fantastic!!

15:43

So pleased for you

Dad walks into the house Looks at me First thing he says to me: "do you ever do anything that isn't sit on that sofa and play on your phone?" And walks away

1

16:37

Like hi dad, thanks for your opinion

16:37

I've been out all day and also will be at work all night

My Dad used to say shit like that all the time, drove me mental. Sorry youre putting up with that

3

Not in the fucking mood for straight men and just working with people

17:33

Might cry

17:33

Might have a breakdown

what is it with parents and them asking you to do stuff when youve probably been doing things all day

17:35

and just cos they’ve not seen it it means you’re a lazy piece of shit wasting away at home

Exactly

17:35

Then again, unless I'm doing everything for everyone in my family, I'm not doing enough

well that’s bullshit

Yet my sister is free to do whatever she wants bcs she is "still at school"

17:37

I still had to fucking do so much when I was at school

17:37

The double standards

17:37

And they don't recognise it when I call them out

You both alright? Obviously going through it a bit, but do let it out if you can

I'm just in a pissy mood

Dw I'm always in a pissy mood

17:38

Did something happen in particular?

Bv_

Dad walks into the house Looks at me First thing he says to me: "do you ever do anything that isn't sit on that sofa and play on your phone?" And walks away

This

17:39

And now I have a really busy shift and everyone who was supposed to be working is "ill" (edited)

4

Odd question but does your dad do what he was accusing you of doing? My mother did that a lot when I lived with her

17:39

E.g does he just "waste time"

Bv_

And now I have a really busy shift and everyone who was supposed to be working is "ill" (edited)

That does fucking suck I'm sorry

Is it a bad shift?

Really bad

Fuckboy Drag King

E.g does he just "waste time"

Not really

I'm sorry man, I doubt you can get a cover for your shift then?

17:40

Bit of a shit day definitely

Fuckboy Drag King

I'm sorry man, I doubt you can get a cover for your shift then?

Nah, it's not like that here

17:41

And everyone else will get the day off

17:41

BCS it is nice

17:41

Actually angry

you can let the anger out here

17:42

sounds like an extremely frustrating day in frustrating environments

1

Fuckboy Drag King

You both alright? Obviously going through it a bit, but do let it out if you can

just the usual dw

Bv_

❤️

17:46

tho i do have to say im a bit annoyed that i’ve lost so much motivation to play any games

17:47

like playstation recently released the updated ps plus and i upgraded to the next tier

17:47

which gives me a whole bunch of free games

17:47

and while ive finished some of the games i got

17:48

most of the ones ive got left i just don’t want to play for some reason

17:48

i do usually have a mindset where i have to get to a point where im invested enough to continue playing it

17:48

but considering some of these games ive wanted to play for ages now and ive literally got them all for free pretty much

17:49

just annoyed that i don’t want to play

17:49

and yet the one game i do want to play i haven’t got yet

17:49

cos my luck is actual ass

i have the same issue. no idea how to fix it but i hope you get the joy back soon

thanks

Honestly sometimes it takes ages to get joy like that back

17:52

But once it does, I'm gonna be so happy for both of you

shookpeach

1

i thought it was my crappy old laptop not being able to run much and the new one seems to have partially fixed that but gd it was not the euphoric "wow I'm having so much fun" i expected right away

AND WHEN THE ONLY OTHER PEOPLE WORKING ARE ON THR GAMBLING MACHINES

17:57

Gonna kms

17:57

Or someone else

17:58

And now it's relive trauma time

17:58

Today is not the day

3

Why is Will in norwich… again

Wtf ew

Give me his coordinates

23:29

Just wanna say hi as im in town :)

make sure to say hi with a knife

23:32

blobcat_knife

giggle

He’s on clathorpe road o

I watch car cleaning guy on YouTube when I'm ill bc I can watching without sound and it's satisfying which can be super comforting when I'm not doing well. But then this post came up on my feed and it bugged me. I wasn't the only one that commented on how unnecessary the vomiting emoji was here and how often he overreacts to feminine products in his content but it appears that now those other comments have been deleted and he thought it appropriate to reply to me like this. This is disgusting and disappointing behaviour and frankly I feel sorry for any women who have to deal with him in person because I never expected someone whose content made me feel better to be so fucking toxic.

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Good morning me

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sorry youre having to deal with that, thats so stupid

09:31

best of luck ❤

I just want my money

09:33

Lmao

people who withhold money that was given specifically from someone being kind are something else

09:35

someone was kind enough to lend you money so you didnt have to struggle or be uncomfortable, and then you are either negligent or purposefully withholding from it when they want it back

09:35

i cannot understand what goes through someones mind to act with ill intent when someone was kind to you in this situation

I'm here if anyone wants to band together and be angry at people today lmao

4

Also

09:40

WHEN I SAY EVERYONE

09:40

i will email his employers

09:40

Because fuck yes

Yes

09:40

Immense power

how can someone gaslight someone about money

10:20

you literally have bank records ffs lmao

Proud of you for standing your ground

1

10:37

Would LOVE to know how he tried to gaslight you tho what

Need to find you someone who's not a complete wanker wtf

that really sucks im sorry :/

Sorry to see this bs babes

11:20

We should place curses on them with ritual sacrifices

They deserve each other

dw, if he comes for his stuff I’m gonna be waiting for the door bell

11:47

If I didn't have work, I'd be driving straight to you rn

Excellent

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you’re NOW in your arson era?

I'm sorry you are stuck in an uncomfortable atmosphere, I know what it is like and it sucks

13:39

Always happy to chat if you wanna just talk to someone

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Makes pasta and has flashbacks to how I taught certain people how to make better food, how to chop garlic etc and how they used me

4

14:52

Whoop

Ah I'm sorry bv, if you need anything, including a chat, I'm around

Thank you, I appreciate it

You deserved better and sending all the hugs your way

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Anonymous Confession (#233)

"I hate people I hate myself I want to die"

8

idk if you want to talk about it op but be free to dm me if you want, im not good at advice but happy to listen ❤

^^ same offer here

There are people who love you op or you wouldn’t be in the server I don’t know what happened to cause you to post this but I’m really sorry you’re going through this

Some people really fucking suck but if they’re that shitty it might be worth doing what you can to limit your contact with those people where possible. As for hating yourself there’s more flexibility. There’s no one on this server I’ve come across so far that I dislike therefore that’s gotta include you too, op. You don’t need to change anything about yourself for other people to like you but if you want to work on yourself to find yourself more likeable that’s valid too! Sometimes it’s not about wanting to die but about changing how you look at yourself and the world. When I feel like that it’s normally bc I’m tired/sleepy so if you can, maybe have a snack and take a nap. We love you op, I really hope you feel better soon. My DMs are open if anyone wants to talk

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17:33

Yet to find reason to but go off

17:36

Your struggling doesn’t make us love you any less

17:37

You’re going through a lot right now and the world isn’t being very kind to you

17:37

But that doesn’t mean we aren’t here for you

17:37

You categorically Do Not deserve to be hated

17:37

You deserve softness, you deserve love, it’s going to be okay

Imagine watching a show where someone has a concealed pregnancy but your brain doesn’t work properly so you have horrible anxiety about it for a fucking day and even tho you know you can’t be pregnant you have to take a test to make sure you’re not? Couldn’t be me. Anyway I’m not pregnant guys

1

the brain sucks sometimes, sorry you had to deal with that

Anonymous Confession (#235)

"I relapsed last night due to anger at my housemate and everything going on I just lost control. Idk I feel okay now?"

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11:12

Anonymous Confession (#236)

"should clarify it wasn’t solely their fault but it was the tip of the iceberg for a lot of it"

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That can happen OP, try and remember to keep reaching out to people. I know there are many in this server who would gladly listen and support. It can be hard to express ourselves and talk difficult things through, even with those who care deeply for us. People here love and support you, allow us to take a little piece each of that heavy load you’re carrying and we’ll all get there together

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Anonymous Confession (#237)

"I’m not ok I’m not ok"

6

You will be, I promise OP

12:31

We are all here to support you

12:31

We all love you

12:31

If you need anything

12:32

All you got to do is ask

My dm’s are open OP, I will be travelling today so may not reply immediately but feel free to use my dm’s as a talk at space and I will reply when I can ❤️

Anonymous Confession (#238)

"TW: SH at work at the moment and idk why the urge to SH is so much higher here"

4

Tell someone

14:40

Or ask to take a break

14:40

Your safety is of highest priority

14:42

You are going to be ok

14:42

Just stay strong, I know how hard it is

14:42

Have something really cold to drink if you can, maybe with some ice in it, I find chewing ice helps with wanting to do that sometimes as it’s a shock with the cold and something to do with a different part of your body to your hands and just feel the cold going through your body and just breathe. I really hope you’re okay, feeling like that but having to be around people especially work people is never easy

probably bad rn

17:56

but im completely numb to every emotion lmao

17:57

is this the emotional dysregulation or have I developed Sociopathy who knows

I can promise you you haven't developed sociopathy

17:59

Sometimes, the brain can shut off the emotional portions of the brain as a way of dealing with trauma

17:59

Which is most likely what you are experiencing

18:00

When you get through this, which I know you can bcs you are incredible, you'll get back to normal

Either that or im gonna end up screaming in tears in 10 minutes

18:01

Who knows

18:01

its like big brother house

18:01

but with mental state3

I'm so sorry

18:02

You will be ok, I promise

18:02

It's difficult, I know it is

im honestly ready to start a fight

Fight me, let's go

to the next person who crosses me

18:02

No

18:03

not yuou

18:03

I may be numb but still care about you ;p

You know I'd be there if I wasn't working/going on holiday next week

Bv_

You know I'd be there if I wasn't working/going on holiday next week

No youre goodddd

But I will be there

18:04

Two weeks on Monday

18:04

BUt today#

18:04

Me: Crying in potwash bc annoyed at people

Don't bottle it up either, if you need to scream and cry, do it

My Supervisor:

18:04

Brandon get out of potwash jaines going in there

Want me to stab?

iTs fine its Karen

18:05

Ill probably ring shauna tomorrow

18:05

bc she knows i had a breakdown in potwash yesterday bc jodies most likely ld her

Yeah if you can avoid going to work, that's probably a good idea

18:05

Have a self care day

18:05

Play a game, read a book, cry and watch a film

or

18:06

I burn shit

Also valid

18:06

Just do it safely and don't hurt yourself

18:06

Get marshmallows

There goes my plan of setting myself o nfire

Pls no

18:13

There are better things to set on fire

18:13

Pls don't set yourself on fire (edited)

18:14

It'll hurt

if you need to fight someone i volunteer as tribute

18:15

but seriously hope things improve

Set me on fire

18:20

Set me on fire

No one is being set on fire as long as I'm alive

18:25

Istg

But

18:27

I want it

mumblingmiss

I want it

Should we do it as a presidents intro

B

Should we do it as a presidents intro

Yes.

18:28

Wait

18:28

Omg

18:28

Idea

18:28

Pokemon battle presidents intro but gay af

mumblingmiss

I want it

Not setting anyone on fire https://c.tenor.com/He8YNSuLTEcAAAAM/bothered-buvvered.gif

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IM ON THE SU WEBSITE

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Ayyyyy! V cool

AAA

Looking incredible!!!!

B

IM ON THE SU WEBSITE

Ew whos this queer?

IM LITERALLY THE BIGGEST PHOTO THERE

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18:31

is this my god ccomplex coming out

18:31

thats not good

Hell yes

Just means you are the most important

I’m so out of my mind bored today that I actually scrolled through Facebook

4

Literally me rn

19:51

At work

19:51

Please can someone come down

Ngl

21:03

Last night I was close to deleting this server

21:03

in a state of i dont know how to explain it

21:03

Im glad i didnt but still

21:03

Yikes

21:03

Thank you for not deleting it

21:03

I'm proud of you

Anonymous Confession (#239)

"trying to hard to not relapse again. But I’m out of nails to paint instea"

Little bit of a dumb vent but ok here we go: So I am going on holiday with my friends from school next week and I'm already regretting it because I they are all very weird (like me but way worse), and it made me remember the last time I went on holiday with them. I hated it, was left alone and was just miserable. This was also when I first started talking to my ex before I moved to university. So now my very stressed brain is associating miserable holiday with ex trauma and making me want to cry a little bit

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00:01

Really dumb, like seriously nothing

00:01

But annoying nonetheless

Here for you

1

Hey BV, that's really not dumb and its allowed to upset you. I'm sorry it's really rubbish, I'm a message away if you need it

1

Anonymous Confession (#241)

"They're not worth any of the effort you're putting in"

3

Not sure I quite understand this

02:09

But I can promise that everyone here is worth all the effort in the world

Y’all ever have that moment where your head it just screaming

02:13

Like, no words

Yes

02:13

All the time

Just full of shouting

02:13

Not fun

Take some deep breaths

02:13

Try and focus on one thought

It's honestly the worst

And slowly blot out the rest

02:14

I get it

02:14

I genuinely do

I find closing my eyes help

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going to visit my parents for like a week so i can dogsit one evening

10:16

despite things improving with them recently dont know why i feel so on edge lol

Anonymous Confession (#244)

"really fucking angry at people today"

1

Anonymous Confession (#246)

"me recovering from the past few days body dysmorphia: SUP FUCKER YOU LOOK TERRIBLE NO ONE WILL LOVE YOU LOOK AT YOUR STOMACH NO WONDER WHY YOUR Ex got with your other ex"

6

OP I can guarantee you are beautiful

17:56

Dysmorphia sucks so fucking hard and I know it's difficult to ignore

17:57

But I can promise you that you are gorgeous and attractive

17:57

And if your ex got with your other ex... basically means they are gonna have a really shit time bcs they are both gonna be toxic af and hopefully they kill each other

^ all of this. body dysmorphia is a bitch and none of this means you're any less of a person

And you will find love again, I can promise you that

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Your ex getting with your other ex says faaaar more about them than it does about you OP, you are hot, gorgeous, fiiiire

F A C T S

bit of a rant but why the fuck are people so critical of films now

19:54

like when did it become a thing to bash a film that’s come out even tho the general review is positive

19:55

trying to review bomb something that is objectively good

19:55

like just let people like what they want ffs

19:56

and on top of that why are all of the shitty films from before suddenly “underrated classics”

19:56

99% of people did not like any of the star wars prequels

19:56

now they’re suddenly amazing

19:57

same with the amazing spider-man

19:57

most didn’t like them

19:57

and then when no way home came out they were good all of a sudden

19:58

i understand people can change their opinion on something but when it’s suddenly gone from like a 3/10 to an 8/10 somethings up

19:59

but then ofc this is the thing people here

19:59

and all the filmbros get the attention on their opinions and then when someone else tries to justify their opinion it’s met with just bullshit

just gets me riled up cos it’s just pathetic reasoning and barely gives the film a chance

20:09

think the one thing that pisses me off the most is that i bet most of the people that complain

20:09

and this can be about a lot of things

20:09

they will continue to watch/read/play whatever

20:09

like you obv don’t like it

20:10

so don’t watch it

Completely valid

20:22

People just have an opinion based on something that someone said and it spirals bcs conformity

I think its one thing to have an actual criticism (e.g. I dont like the way Marvel movies are written and directed so I dont watch them because I find them too formulaic) but its something else entirely to expect other people to not watch them because you hate them. Allow people to enjoy themselves even if its something you dislike. If its not harming others directly then there's nothing wrong with it (This is not taking into account disneys ethical malpractice in terms of labour and shady shit. I am only using Marvel films as an example)

People should just be allowed to do what they want without being judged by people

Eeeeen

I think its one thing to have an actual criticism (e.g. I dont like the way Marvel movies are written and directed so I dont watch them because I find them too formulaic) but its something else entirely to expect other people to not watch them because you hate them. Allow people to enjoy themselves even if its something you dislike. If its not harming others directly then there's nothing wrong with it (This is not taking into account disneys ethical malpractice in terms of labour and shady shit. I am only using Marvel films as an example)

you provide an actual answer for why you don’t like/watch marvel movies

20:48

most don’t

20:49

and but because what they say is controversial enough i guess

20:49

it just gets carried

20:50

and to extend what i was talking about

20:50

promise this is the last thing i just forget everything

20:51

people not liking things cos it’s either new/different, changes things or is progressive in anyway (edited)

20:53

like i heard someone say that in umbrella academy s3 (spoilers?)viktors transition “took over the plot” when it actually just spanned like 2 eps at most, after that it was only brought up to mention he changed his name and stuff and that was it

TUA S3 discussion Bruh he didnt even really transition. Dude got a hair cut in a 15 second scene and then said, actually call me this

and even if it was bigger than that it’s a side story, what makes it different than klaus’ story or alison’s

20:54

like??

20:56

and then with ms marvel, it’s style is more of a kids show, but not only is she a child herself it’s also a nice change in pace

TUA S3 Yeah, Klaus spent longer dying than Viktor spent transitioning (edited)

not everything has to be dark and grim

20:56

and edgy

20:56

which in itself gets bashed anyways

20:57

although i’m glad to say i haven’t heard much backlash from all the muslim rep in ms marvel

20:58

aside from the usual christian idiots but that’s inevitable anyways

Tries to pack for my holiday bcs my parents are forcing me to do it bow

21:16

Now*

21:16

Gets overwhelmed

21:16

Wants to cry

21:16

Sitting in in a very hot and very messy room

hey bud it's alright (edited)

How tf am I supposed to do anything when I'm really angry

21:25

Gonna punch a wall

21:25

Brb

bv kyle arc

21:26

punch a pillow instead of a wall, it might help

Nah the wall works

21:28

And who's Kyle

oh kyle is just a meme about an imaginary guy who drinks monster energy drinks and punches walls

21:31

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Okay but I didnt realise dry wall existed when I was younger so when I heard about punching walls I literally started punching brick walls in my house and thats why my knuckles are fucked lol

Oof

Eeeeen

Okay but I didnt realise dry wall existed when I was younger so when I heard about punching walls I literally started punching brick walls in my house and thats why my knuckles are fucked lol

ewan you silly billy

mahariel

oh kyle is just a meme about an imaginary guy who drinks monster energy drinks and punches walls

‘Imaginary’ may I introduce you to teenage white boy

I have ended up under my bed...this has escalated

LoLo <3

‘Imaginary’ may I introduce you to teenage white boy

LMAO

Entering my villain arc rn

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mahariel

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Compsci christening

Bv_

Entering my villain arc rn

Do it

Already have

I’m still in my test me and I’ll set fire to your bedsheets mood

I will stab someone rn

B

I’m still in my test me and I’ll set fire to your bedsheets mood

ah i’ll be warm and cosy then

️

Yes

And also dead

yeah warm and cosy

21:48

in hell

Hot

Me: gonna have a scroll through insta cos that seems like a fine idea Insta: here’s a really attractive, skinny, feminine guy who dresses amazingly in things you could never pull of Me: well, guess I hate myself again and wish that I had a completely different bone structure

3

Fucking guess who forgot to do their injection tonight!!! Now im going to have to fuck with dosage times because I did it so late

3

Ahh nooo

I'll have to work it back to the proper timing over the next few days, its annoying as fuck that Ive done this

3

I'm sorry

Eeeeen

I'll have to work it back to the proper timing over the next few days, its annoying as fuck that Ive done this

have you set alarms?

notliamhyde02

have you set alarms?

Usually I just remember because I know I need to stab myself or I might die. But ive set alarms now

ah ok fair enough

Anonymous Confession (#249)

"really struggling with my psychosis right now, I can't make it go away"

6

22:32

Anonymous Confession (#248)

"just got my head against the wall many times"

7

i hate spiders

00:12

so fucking much

Give them to Ewan

00:17

Problem solved

Anonymous Confession (#250)

"This close to downloading a dating app, I'm feeling so fucking lonely. I miss my ex so much and though I know all the bad things that made us not work, I can't stop remembering the good."

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dating apps are a mixed experience and i got a lot of creeps when i briefly tried it months ago but your mileage may vary. just make sure you're in the right mindset, happier with yourself and your mental health so you can shrug off anything it throws at you

If you want to try a dating app, go for it, but they are often more harmful than good.

01:23

And I'm sorry you feel lonely, I get it, it's such a horrible feeling

01:23

But surround yourself with all your friends

01:23

Do things that bring you joy

01:23

And you'll find someone who you want more with

01:23

It just takes time

Anonymous Confession (#253)

"wake up from a dream about my ex. immediately grab the happy nicotine stick."

6

Anonymous Confession (#254)

"I feel horrible when I go so long without a shower or a bath or something but even if I really want to do it the motivation is ridiculously hard to find. Makes me feel disgusting."

4

Sometimes the best thing to do is to literally drag yourself to the shower

14:36

It sucks

14:36

But as soon as you've showerwd

14:36

You'll feel better

it's like every time i get good news about the super stressful things holding my future to ransom, i get socked in the face by another issue the day afterwards. i can't even celebrate progress anymore bc it keeps getting ripped away soon after. I'm so goddamn tired

5

Are you okay? What's come up can we help?

it's more of the visa bullshit i think i told you about. they can't seem to verify my right to rent the house i just got accepted for

15:40

my family and i did everything right, we submitted our visa extensions in october 2021 the day the government asked for the applications and they still haven't gotten back to us even tho it's been 8 months. it's seriously fucking me over rn bc without those fucking documents, it's a lot harder to prove i can legally work and rent in the UK bc half their stupid software doesn't work

They're still fucking you over with that??! I thought you'd at least be able to get the place when you have the money for it thats bs

it's a legal requirement bc i'm not a british citizen so i can't blame the landlords. last 4 times we've extended our visa, it's taken max 3 months to get everything sorted out and our new documents sent to us. covid backlogged thousands of cases so it's dragged onto month 8 with no sign of our visas

15:45

I'm having a breakdown bc i worked my mental health to the ground getting this amazing job and then finding a place to stay and it's all being ripped away by forces i can't control

that is unbelievably shit im so sorry

what's even the point of trying anymore if every time i do everything I'm meant to, it's all going to collapse right before the finish line?

Is there any way we can call the people and get them to send it off faster?

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15:47

Or even explain to the landlords like this isn't because of anything you've done this is a government issue

15:47

Again

sorry no, my lawyer has kept contacting them frequently for months with no change. he's trying the best he can to find workarounds for all this but i start the job on monday so if their right to work check also fails i really dk what I'm going to do

LoLo <3

Or even explain to the landlords like this isn't because of anything you've done this is a government issue

they're not going to budge on a legal issue I'm afraid

i really hope it gets sorted, i know there probably isnt anything we can do but if there is please say, you dont deserve to have this stuff piled up on top of you

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1

thank you

15:50

to you both

It’s really shitty that you’re having to deal with that Jory, I hope they can get it through quickly for you

2

I'm holding out hope that the letting agent just entered the details wrong. my brother's right to work check was approved a month ago when his employer did it so i can't imagine why mine wouldn't. it's just such a massive headache and i feel so sick

That’s a possibility

this breakdown isn't on the level of some of my others from the last couple weeks but I'm so drained. trying to keep the usual extreme thoughts out of my head

7

Do you have any distractions that would help this week while you’re waiting?

16:12

If not, I’ll happy scour the internet for weird videos

i have a lot of free time between now and monday so I'm trying to fill it with distractions yeah. i appreciate all your help though

1

mahariel

i have a lot of free time between now and monday so I'm trying to fill it with distractions yeah. i appreciate all your help though

I’m nearly home I can distract you for a bit if you want (edited)

B

I’m nearly home I can distract you for a bit if you want (edited)

thank you

I’m a 20 year old who when he makes a mistake will try covering it up rather than tell anyone and be in the verge of crying and shaking when people see through me. I really hate that I’m still like this.

5

I told you, any time you need to talk about mistakes, talk to me

Here for you whenever

i don’t have a job yet

22:31

which sucks cos i wont have money for when i move in

5

22:31

but also i probably won’t be able to do any plans i had

Are there places local to you you can apply to? Even if it's not brilliantly paying it's better than nothing?

LoLo <3

Are there places local to you you can apply to? Even if it's not brilliantly paying it's better than nothing?

been doing that

22:43

might look and see if there’s anything online i can do

McD are always hiring right?

woah i cannot handle my alcohol anymore

23:34

that was a nasty overwhelming feeling of beinf sick

You doing alright?

mahariel

that was a nasty overwhelming feeling of beinf sick

eat bread

Fuckboy Drag King

You doing alright?

uhh idk

notliamhyde02

eat bread

can't keep anything down lol. will drink lots of water

23:41

just lying down rn

good call

23:41

try and get some food if you can

23:41

something to soak up the alc

Do you have anyone with you?

food bad, got me into the sudden sickness

Fuckboy Drag King

Do you have anyone with you?

in my room rn, orhwrs in lounge

23:43

others

Okay, you're going to be alright, focus on water rn, I'll make sure the others check in on you

why cant you :<

23:46

I'll be fine just haven't had proper alcohol in months

LMAO I don't think either of us want me walking 30 minutes just to see you asleep in your bed

when he won't pull an edward cullen

1

23:51

i have thrown up so i feel a lot better

23:51

toxins toxins

23:51

what 3 months of nights out only on molly + water will do to a mf

mahariel

i have thrown up so i feel a lot better

hope you're alright!! take small sips at some water and rest ✨

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PhantomBeef

hope you're alright!! take small sips at some water and rest ✨

I'm ok! sipping water and hugging myself mostly

4

23:58

ik it's like 29 degrees rn but my anemic self has gotten to the stage of post-drunk where I'm super cold and shivering

23:58

might crack open my hot water bottle

anything that u need, dewittt

hahahaa i need to learn my limits again bc they are NOT what they used to be

Anonymous Confession (#265)

"im a fucking terrible person and i let everyone down"

8

Hey op I am sure you haven’t done anything, here for you

6

You are wonderful

17:38

I can promise you

17:38

We all love you

17:38

And like talking to you

its so tempting to reply to various confessions with 'mood' but i dont cuz am guessin it would be taken the wrong way

GOOD MORNING VIETNAM

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ask what's on his harddrive (edited)

Fuckboy Drag King

ask what's on his harddrive (edited)

AHAHAHAHAHAHA

B

GOOD MORNING VIETNAM

oh god what does he want

SHOULD I STAB HIM?

Pls

21:00

He’s saying stop saying I cheated when i didn’t

21:00

Liek bestie we were exclusive

21:01

I get we weren’t together but we were exclusive and about to be the day he cheated lmao

Give me his contact, gonna kill him

21:01

How dare he have the cheek

Ouch my uterus :(

05:03

Also lmk if murders need to be done

i put wrapping it off for so long that it's now too late to do before i leave for tenerife and now i can't mail her birthday present until i get back

Gets called racist, homophobic and sexist by my friends

16:39

Actually hate this so much

Wtf?

Yeah

16:39

Lovely people

They're. Not your friends bro

16:39

I'm really sorry

No they aren't

16:39

But I felt bad bcs I hadn't seen them in a year

16:40

And decided to invite them on holiday with me

16:40

Knowing full well I'll hate it in the end

You don't owe anyone anything I know your self esteem is low but you don't have any obligation to spend time with people who bring you down

1

So now I'm sat on the steps of the caravan and trying to not cry

Is there any way you can uninvite them? Or is it already too late

Nah we still got two more days

LoLo <3

You don't owe anyone anything I know your self esteem is low but you don't have any obligation to spend time with people who bring you down

I tried to get away from them today but they just called me and made me feel worse

I'm sorry to hear that, you do not deserve to be surrounded by such disgusting behaviour. You deserve to be in the company of those who accept and love you. I am always here if you need anything. Please keep occupied and don't let what they say bring you down. You're amazing and we're here for ya

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1

Gotta go cook for them all in 15 mins

Do you know anyone where you're staying you can make an excuse to spend time with instead?

I can just go stay with my family

16:42

Np

16:42

But

16:42

I paid a lot of money to have the caravan room

16:42

So like

16:42

Wanna make the most of it

16:42

Despite how miserable I am currently

Are your family w you at the caravan place?

16:44

Can you not explain to them what happened and get away from it for a bit?

No I drove up myself

16:45

Like I could go stay with a grandparent or aunt or someone

I think it would be best for you to be away from that toxic energy, I don't want it to keep you down. I understand it's hard because you paid and made the efforts to go, but your happiness and health must take precedence always

1

Yeah I'm just keeping away from them

16:46

Bcs it's a lot

16:48

Thank you both ❤️

always :) please take care !

kill me pls

No

23:02

But I can offer hugs

23:02

In a bit

notliamhyde02

kill me pls

No. Commit arson instead

just angry and sad

Babes what's going on

just let myself get angry and now im sad about it

23:05

You are allowed to be angry

23:05

It's acceptable

23:06

Sending many hugs ❤️

I JUST HAD TO TAKE MATCHES AWAY FROM A 19 YEAR OLD BCS THEY ARE PLAYING WITH THEM IN THE CARAVAN

Bv_

I JUST HAD TO TAKE MATCHES AWAY FROM A 19 YEAR OLD BCS THEY ARE PLAYING WITH THEM IN THE CARAVAN

Bro??

Yeah

23:34

If I am not dead by Friday (edited)

23:34

It'll be a miracle

23:37

And we all want to go to bed and they are refusing to

23:37

And I'm trying to not explode

23:37

Bcs I already have about the drugs

23:37

But like

23:37

Why are they behaving so petty

23:38

Sorry Liam, I'm not invalidating your vent, lemme know if you want me to delete all this

I'm really sorry you have to deal with this, you deserve a nice rest and holiday. Not an unpaid babysitting gig

Yeahhhh

23:47

So much more I'd rather be doing

Yeah, it's completely not fair to you

Anonymous Confession (#271)

"body dysmorphia hits hard I wanna lose weight and I keep trying but it won’t work"

6

Body dysmorphia is a BITCH I’m really sorry you’re going through it op

It really sucks but if you ever want to do exercise or plan food, I'm happy to do it with you bcs I'm in the same situation atm

why can’t i get a fucking job

18:53

if i can’t get one i’m gonna have to stay at home longer than i wanted to

18:54

i wont have money for rent

18:55

my parents said they’ll help and my grandparents probably will too but i’d feel guilty

18:55

and all my plans for september will go out the window

18:55

i’ve applied for loads around me

18:55

and i’ve heard nothing back

Our September plan won't change regardless if you have a job

literally what else can i do

I know hard you've tried

18:56

And I'm so proud of you

18:56

Maybe something to do is start looking for some jobs in Lincoln?

Summer work is never a bad idea

18:57

Still shitty if you can’t get anything near uni

18:57

I’m sorry

Also very sorry

18:57

You'll get one eventually

18:57

It's just really difficult atm

18:57

You are great so everyone who ignores you is missing out

2

Bv_

Maybe something to do is start looking for some jobs in Lincoln?

there’ll be more stuff there yea but that won’t be until september

18:58

or even possibly october

Just keep looking

19:08

You can do it

19:08

I believe in uou

Have you looked at summer internships? There could be something localish you could do that you hadn’t thought of?

Oooh good idea

sh ;w; the scars on my arm are raised so you can feel them and I don’t like it, i wish they’d be flat and smooth like the ones on my thigh so they don’t remind me of sh as much

5

Runs away bcs gets extremely triggered and I'll just get made fun of

Crying on a beach...great way to end my holiday

4

Bv_

Crying on a beach...great way to end my holiday

right i’m heading your way

22:08

prepare for hugs

1

I'm sorry you gotta deal with that Bv, we're all here if you need anything at all. It's not fair that this happened

1

notliamhyde02

right i’m heading your way

Pls do

Ngl tempted to just go drown myself or at the very least get swept out to sea

23:02

Image attachment

23:02

Sea

A very good song once said the sea is a good place to think of the future Just gaze off for a bit and vibe, I'm sorry your 'friends' are crap, you deserve so much better, you really do

One of them won't leave me alone

23:03

Taunting me

Sorry for all that

5

Hey you don't have to apologise for being upset

Nah all my trauma, course choice and personal growth has just been invalidated

currently in the hospital because i feel like ass. time to go into debt :)

Oh shit, I'm sorry

09:04

Hope it isn't anything too serious

It’s worse when you realise he’s 80. Like bro I don’t need to know you think about me stripping

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Jfc

Tbf, its pole you do. Not burlesque right? Or are you in Burlesque as well? (edited)

I did burlesque in first year tbf

12:51

But didn’t have time this year

Anonymous Confession (#273)

"How can a person be so perfect. How can you be born pretty, be born into a wealthy family, be immediately talented, not have any medical issues, put minimal effort into everything, have a successful life and never have an issue. I just don’t understand why some people get this all easily and I’d just like on of these…?"

CAN MY FUCKING ICLOUD STOP TELLING ME IM RUNNING OUT OF SPACE I FUCKING KNOW THAT ITS BEEN LIKE THAT FOR THE PAST FEW MONTHS SENDING ME 20 NOTIFICATIONS A MINUTE TO TELL ME

17:40

I JUST WANT TO WATCH MY TIKTOKS IN PEACE JFC

it’s like 79p a month to upgrade but i don’t want to

17:42

just fucking annoying

Anonymous Confession (#277)

"It’s really embarrassing asking people if they want to meet up or do something together and then being ignored."

Literally ask me, I'm always down to do something, provided I can get I've my anxiety

18:37

And if they ignore you, definitely not worth your time

Any online socials im absolutely up for, I cant really do in person at the minute sorry

Same here

My DMs are always open for conversation though

Also

18:42

to vent

18:42

I think I have broken my laptop even more than before

5

18:42

Its now not booting even though I replaced the ssd

B

Its now not booting even though I replaced the ssd

did you have the OS on that SSD?

yeah

18:46

but it would at least say

18:46

theres no bootable thing

18:46

Its literally just black

huh have you tried putting the old SSD back in?

I think I may have fucked up

18:52

Idk

18:52

If i have broke it

18:52

BUt that doesnt work either

18:52

Lemme try them in my pc

Anonymous Confession (#279)

"Just tell me that you won't be able to make it instead of saying you'll let me know later and not following up or ignoring it entirely. My anxiety keeps wondering what I'm doing wrong."

I can promise you it isn't you

19:34

I'm sorry this person keeps messing you about

19:34

Sorry to diminish op

19:34

But I couldn’t fix my PC and spent so much on repairs and I’m so angry

3

19:35

Gonna see if I can return some of the stuff

Also sorry you haven't been able to fix your pc

B

Gonna see if I can return some of the stuff

Best bet

im probably going to be booking lecture theatres quite a bit over the next week, so happy to stream whatever i end up watching/doing if people want something to do (edited)

19:37

although fair warning the first one will be watching hamilton with my housemate, with a bit of awful singing on my part

E r i n

although fair warning the first one will be watching hamilton with my housemate, with a bit of awful singing on my part

Stream it? I wanna join innnn

1

my dad has found a pub that looking for people to work there

2

OMG

but ofc you have to call them to ask

YES

20:07

Ew

and i get anxious af with phone calls

20:08

i said ill do it tomorrow morning

20:08

but my parents are making me do it now

You've got this, it'll be ok

i said i’ll do it in my own time

20:08

but i think they don’t believe me when i say i’ll call in the morning

20:09

saying “it’s been up for 20hrs it’ll probably be gone by then”

20:09

like anyone would’ve heard about it

20:09

i just hate when they constantly badger on and on about jobs and stuff

20:09

it makes me want to not look for jobs

it’s already stressful enough

20:10

can they just leave me to it

If I could drive to you and support you through the phone call I would, I'm sorry your parents are making this so difficult for you

Good luck Liam!!!!

Oh wait, also this ^^

easy enough for my mum to say to “psych myself up” when she keeps badgering on about it

20:13

and shit i already know

I'm so sorry, I really get it

20:14

The best I can offer is a video call or something to support you during the phone call

20:14

But I can promise you the call will be relatively easy, you'll be asked a couple questions (edited)

Yeah it’s shitty the amount of pressure they’re putting on you:( I’m sorry

20:20

I’m glad you’re finding a way to get away tho that’s massive

right im gonna do it

You got this

20:23

We believe in you

well they said they’ll call me back after 9

20:24

cos they’re still in service atm

Ah fair

all that for nothing

20:24

well

20:25

not completely nothing anyways

20:25

i completely stumbled my words tho

They are going to call you back, that's good news

sounded like an idiot

You will not have sounded as bad as you think

no i properly stumbled

20:26

like had to restart my sentence stumbled

It's ok

20:27

I'm sorry I can't be there to support you

so now i’m just gonna be sat here for 30 mins just waiting

20:29

see if this was tomorrow morning they would be available

Anything you can do to clear your mind? Play that game with Ewan?

i hate job seeking

20:29

can suck my dick

20:29

fucking hate it

Bv_

Anything you can do to clear your mind? Play that game with Ewan?

could do

20:30

At least you can distract yourself for a bit

What I imagine @Unknown to be like when they threaten me to sleep

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4

Yes

21:00

Look out your window.... I'm there

can these guys fucking call me back

Have they still not?

21:42

Ew

nope

Oh I'm sorry

i’ll just ring in the morning if they don’t

Good plan

i doubt they’ll ring past 10pm (edited)

Probably not

21:43

I'm sorry they are messing you around

1

GUESS WHO JUST REMEMBERED HE HAS THE DENTIST ON THE HOTTEST DAY OF THE YEAR

Oop, good luck with that!

Gonna ring them and try and get it moved

23:11

Bcs fuck if I'm driving in that heat

23:11

I will die

No air-con?

I mean I do

23:12

Have that

23:12

But I will still have to get in the car after being in the dentist

23:13

And it will be burning hot

need to call the pub again

11:32

really wish i didn’t last night cos i feel really awkward now

They’re not gonna think anything of it just that you’re following up and dedicated

in fact, calling them back up shows that you're interested

going in on tuesday

12:04

to see them

12:04

im guessing for a trial shift? idk

Nice!! Good luck!!!

1

thank you

12:06

can relax a bit now

2

Omg that is so exciting!!!!

notliamhyde02

going in on tuesday

Keep safe, the heat is going to be evil

I’m in the mood again for telling strangers (who mostly live quite close to me so may bump into at some point) about my mental health issues and staggeringly bad decisions so here goes wheeeee so uh I had a nasty breakup with someone (completely my fault, I basically cheated without realising it (long story)) and i also didn’t understand that she never wanted me to talk to her ever again so I sent her a birthday card but at the same time I was having bad thoughts about hurting people so i vented in a discord server which she also happens to be in and now she thinks her mentally ill ex who cheated on her is thinking about stalking and/or killing her, as do all of her friends I really am not very good at communication lol Yes I’m in therapy btw do hopefully I’ll get better over time (edited)

4

Time will heal this, best thing sometimes

Bv_

Time will heal this, best thing sometimes

I hope so ;w; Three months ago we were literally in love and now she’s scared for her own safety because of me it’s all happened gone down hill so fast i just hope one day they can see me getting better but i know that’ll be many many years from now (not because im not getting better but because I don’t wanna scare them by violating their boundaries) (edited)

Okay have you tried sitting down with someone when you get into that kind of situation just voicing your expectations/view of what’s going on and ask them to do the same and see where things lie and what happens from there? As for the other stuff I think that’s up to you like venting can be helpful but I get how it’s been taken might have been less great, maybe it’s worth saying something similar to what you did here in that chat, maybe anonymously if you think that would be better, or say something to one of their friends so they understand it was just a misunderstanding and you’re not intending to be threatening if that’s how you feel you came across. I hope everything works out, my DMs are open if you want to talk

Gets screamed at for making cakes

20:21

Loving life

tf

20:21

no banana bread for them

Just wanna move out

20:23

Like I am actually done with living here

20:26

Honestly if I didn't have work

20:26

I'd go live in a tent

20:26

Somewhere

20:28

In a field

can live in my house

No don't be silly

20:29

(though I fully would)

20:36

We love when the brain spirals and now I wanna die

Hey its okay, can you take some deep breaths and ground yourself?

20:39

I'm really sorry this is happening, it's such bullshit

I am

20:39

Just so angry

20:39

Like my parents and I have a really good relationship

20:39

But like

20:39

This just doesn't work anymore

20:40

Where's the beach when I need it

20:40

It actually calmed me down so much the other day

Beaches are absolutely lovely and calming

20:41

You're allowed to be angry and you're allowed to struggle being back with your parents

Sad that my favourite hoodie and my favourite jacket are lost forever

4

21:00

Bc of Will

Istg I will kill that man

B

Sad that my favourite hoodie and my favourite jacket are lost forever

Wait has he just fully stolen them?

That money and clothes lmao

Disgusting

What a cunt

22:15

I’m literally just lost for words for you cause how does he think that that is a normal thing to do

hazlilley

I’m literally just lost for words for you cause how does he think that that is a normal thing to do

I mean you heard what else he did right

Oh god

22:19

No

22:19

What did he do?

Had the audacity to continue existing

hazlilley

What did he do?

Yknow

22:20

The sleepijg with max

22:20

The guy who cheated on me

22:20

To either hurt me or whatever

Oh yeah you told me that

Wills knew who he was

WAIT

That’s just so scummy

JO

22:20

No

22:20

Wtf

Yknow what Idc I just want my money and my clothes back

How do you know

Bv_

How do you know

Mutual friends

22:21

Also he literally was bragging about it to people

Fucking fuming

Making them uncomfortable too

If I hadn't blocked him

22:22

He would be getting hell rn

Fuck his dad

I’ve not blocked him and I’m tempted

Or his best mate

LoLo <3

Fuck his dad

This is the best course of action

hazlilley

I’ve not blocked him and I’m tempted

Give him hell, then do it

His dad isn’t my type

You have a type?

22:24

What is it

Yea?

Aorry

22:24

Rude q

Compsci

MOOD

22:24

Omg

Bv_

Give him hell, then do it

You’ll literally remove what’s left of his hairline if you did

LoLo <3

Compsci

No lies were told here

B

You’ll literally remove what’s left of his hairline if you did

JABJDRJDK

B

You’ll literally remove what’s left of his hairline if you did

Please can I then? He deserved baldness

Do it

Yay

If y’all tell him and he has to cope, that’s not on me

Yeah it’s just us sticking up for our friend who’s been treated like shit

22:25

So we’re dropping some truth bombs

@hazlilley obviously feed back to the class

Oh I shall

@Unknown if you want I have his number

22:26

WAIT

22:26

I HAVE MY EX'S NUMBER TOO, TWO BIRDS WITH ONE STONE LETIGOOOOO

LOL

I was actually tempted to call him the other day

22:27

Dunno what I was gonna say

Nah don’t ring your ex

I was just bired

Don’t let him live rent free

Bestie I don't

22:28

I was just so bored I wanted to start a villain arc

This isn’t villain arc stuff

22:29

This is hero arc

Lemme be emo though

22:31

still waiting for the number....

why call your ex when you can just call a friend instead. it'll be a much nicer conversation

What if you are really angry and want to shout at someone

call your MP

Mood

Ripfangs

call your MP

Our mp is labour. So thin ice

22:37

Can I phone Priti Patel and tell her to fuck off

Yes

And liz truss

22:37

Who is somehow POPULAR (edited)

...I really don't follow politics, I don't know any of these names

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3

22:39

It is done B

B

And liz truss

Can we get a spoiler on that please /j

hazlilley

Click to see attachment 🖼️

YOU ARE ICONIC

The SCREAM I just made

hazlilley

Click to see attachment 🖼️

SCRWAM

22:40

IM HOWLING SO MUCH RN

22:40

I’m LITERALLY CHOKING

B

Can I phone Priti Patel and tell her to fuck off

i'm pretty sure norwich north has a tory mp, so you can always call that one

Bet

22:40

IM ACTUALLY WHEEZING

22:40

@Pure-Homo THIS ISNWHAT I MEANT

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2

22:40

L response

I mean

22:41

L moment

22:41

What’s remaining of his weave got snatched

OMG

I’ve blocked him now

22:42

Don’t need him clogging up my insta Dom’s

I’m actually crying

2

*DM’s

Insta doms?

No

Hot

Dm’a

With laughter

hazlilley

I’ve blocked him now

Image attachment

Ffs

B

Insta doms?

me

1

PhantomBeef

me

Your a dom?

PhantomBeef

me

Yeah HAHA

Didn't peg you for a dom

VALID THOUGH

No one

I look like a little sub bitch

In this server

22:42

Is?

22:42

Right

22:42

Right??

...

22:42

Rude

Bv_

Didn't peg you for a dom

I told you @PhantomBeef no one thinks you’re a Dom

Forgetting Ewan

Harry asked me to have a scrap with him

22:43

and I decked him

With him or will?

22:43

I mean Harry is

NOOO HARRY

Smol?

Idk who Will is

The one who Harry just sent back to the dark ages

B

I mean Harry is

Harry is what?

B

@Pure-Homo THIS ISNWHAT I MEANT

?

Pure-Homo

?

I told you about people dming my ex

hazlilley

I told you @PhantomBeef no one thinks you’re a Dom

I'm full of surprises what can I say

Honestly I feel like there are more doms here than realised

B

I told you about people dming my ex

Ah

Everyone has the capacity to be a Dom, like chef gusteau says

22:44

Anyone can cook

I have tried to be a sub before but I got so uncomfortable last time

Not @Unknown

22:45

They are sub permanently

I feel like I am both, but I'm also like... I'd rather top and be dom

I felt that way for a long time also tbh, like I could be submissive, but eventually I'm skewed and now would only be a top + dom

True chaotic Vers here

B

They are sub permanently

do i need to remind you

Y’all think you can dom me

22:46

Then I got you in a choke hold

Choke me and I'll kick you in the balls

️

Bv_

Choke me and I'll kick you in the balls

️

Not if your legs are tied

I can still move my kegs

22:48

Legs

22:48

Just one swift movement upwarda

Not if they’re bound to a bed

22:49

For example

Good luck tying me to a bed

Bv_

Good luck tying me to a bed

I can literally carry you

it’s cute when brandon pretends to be dom

But I'm wriggly

funny even

And I'm happy falling distances

MAX IS TYPING

oh god

Image attachment

Ew

Well this is going to be interesting

Here for you if needed

I want pet rats but if I got some my greyhound would eat them

“God Brandon stop harassing that man, I’m giving you one chance before I let people know who the real Brandon is”

22:53

Sorry I didn’t realise my name was Harry

Harry?

COUGH I'M SO FUCKING ANGRY WHY THESE PEOPLE TREATING YOU LIKE THIS ISTG SOMEONE WILL GET SKINNED

It’s fine. I got my ways to handle max

Still wanna skin someone

Max craves attention

22:54

I don’t open his messages

Omg yes

22:54

Love it

I only half swipe on his snaps

LoLo <3

Harry?

That’s me

Ohhhh bc you messaged will

Yee

I'm a bit slow

So it’s not B harassing people technically

Damn my expose video got dropped

Image attachment

HAHAHA

22:58

that’s amazing

Lmao

How tf do I slepe for under an hour to an hour

03:21

And wake up with a nightmare

03:21

A really vivid one too

I hope you’re alright :((

03:28

Nightmares suck

03:29

Meanwhile I’m in bed getting paranoid over every sound the house makes + from outside lmfao (Which can get really bad as a result of past trauma so fun

✌

) (edited)

1

have had strep for three days, gone to er twice. first time was for a penicillin shot, second time was because fever didn’t go down in 24hrs… second time i was given a tylenol and told to wait two more days

1

05:04

but hey insurance covered it because it was an emergency

PhantomBeef

I hope you’re alright :((

I’m ok

11:15

I sometimes get them

3

11:16

Thanks to the past

B

I’m ok

I’m glad you’re alright, nightmares can be intense and leave you quite shaken. make sure to keep hydrated and try do something calming if you struggle to get back to sleep (edited)

11:27

Taking a few deep breaths straight after a nightmare can really help to calm your body + brain down also :))

PhantomBeef

I’m glad you’re alright, nightmares can be intense and leave you quite shaken. make sure to keep hydrated and try do something calming if you struggle to get back to sleep (edited)

Can’t sleep it’s the work train today

2

11:34

But Thabknyou oh

11:34

I really appreciate the caring

I hope it's a slow one so you don't have to use too much brain when you're this drained

treat yourself to something if you can afford it, anything to make you feel a bit better, then take a nap when you get home. Flashbacky nightmares are gross I'm really sorry you're struggling with all of this

2

Definitely take a nap later if you’re feeling exhausted and drained, you deserve a good rest. You’ve got this !

LoLo <3

I hope it's a slow one so you don't have to use too much brain when you're this drained

treat yourself to something if you can afford it, anything to make you feel a bit better, then take a nap when you get home. Flashbacky nightmares are gross I'm really sorry you're struggling with all of this

Brought a maccies for me and my workmate

Proud (+ a bit jealous of) you

12:11

In a non patronising way

PhantomBeef

Definitely take a nap later if you’re feeling exhausted and drained, you deserve a good rest. You’ve got this !

It’s fine I’m gonna just go for drinks with my work after

14:45

I don’t need sleep I promise

1

Pls sleep

sounds chill but stay safe, this heat sucks with speep deprivation

hope you enjoy!

14:47

not the 40 mins the alcohol

I mean

14:47

J got about 3-4 hours

14:47

Which is kinda average for me anyway

14:47

Someone hold me when I sleep pls

3

That’s very bad

14:47

Istg

14:48

I will give you sleeping medication if you need more sleep, like go to the shop and buy some so you can have it if you need it

I would if I was there (platonically)

I will be there in a week for two nights

14:48

:)

Bv_

I will give you sleeping medication if you need more sleep, like go to the shop and buy some so you can have it if you need it

Sees

14:51

It’s hard enough waking me up. When I sleep I sleep deep

Kerryns normally up early can you not get him to bang on your door when he’s about t leave?

LoLo <3

Kerryns normally up early can you not get him to bang on your door when he’s about t leave?

Surprisingly would sleep through that

B

Sees

If you want it, I’ll get it for you

Dw

Anonymous Confession (#295)

"tw: suicide mention. i know it's the drugs but god i want to fucking kill myself right now. have to carry on pretending to be normal because too many people rely on me"

5

14:58

I'm really sorry to hear that OP

14:58

If you ever want to talk, my DM is open

5

14:58

You can be how you want to be and how you feel around me, no judgement

14:59

I know it's difficult, but you can do it

People rely on you bc you’re a trustworthy and reliable person but their issues don’t take away from yours. Everyone is allowed to struggle, or you’d have turned them away when they come to you for help. I’m not going to pretend I know how drugs can affect this stuff but if it’s making your mental state worse maybe it’s worth having less or stopping for a bit. I don’t know your circumstances but you’re allowed to tell people you don’t have the mental capacity right now to have that kind of conversation and you need to take care of yourself. I know when you’re the ‘mum friend’ that can be hard to do but it’s important to prioritise your own headspace and mental situation. I’m not in Norwich right now or I’d give you the biggest hug but if you need to talk I’m more than happy to help out if I can. You are so loved, I hope you know that

2

Oh boy sometimes Facebook memories really do just punch you in the face huh

2

STOP TALKING TO ME PLEASE LIKE YOU ARE NOT A GOOD PERSON AND I AM SO CROSS AT YOU BUT RN I CAN'T PROCESS MY OWN BRAIN, DON'T NEED YOUR MANIPULATIVE THOUGHTS TWISTING ME TOO

4

15:58

Sorry

no need to apologise, sorry youre dealing with that, that kind of thing can be tough :/

16:03

hope you can get space from whoever is doing that and feel better

STOP PLAYING THE VICTIM

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16:08

You are not the victim

16:08

I will show you everything you've done

16:08

If you really want me to

16:09

...sorry again

It's okay that's what the channel is for

I hope you're okay and get the space you need to clear your head before you have to talk to them

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GETS UPSET SO GOES AND WRITES MUSIC

Anonymous Confession (#296)

"I wish I didn't fall in love so hard and for so long. if i could remove all my emotions and replace them with a blank slate of not giving a shit that would be great"

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RELATING SO HARD TO YOU OP

18:11

If you ever wanna talk, my DM is always open

18:11

BCS it sucks

18:11

It really does

18:12

But emotions and feelings are healthy and if we can get you to a more positive mindset, then that can be done

18:12

Happy to support you if you need it ❤️

If one more person...replies to me using the word "K", I'm actually going to lose it

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reaching the manic afterglow stage of MDMA comedowns, kids. pray for me while i live my best life for the next couple hours

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ah fuck, i have lockjaw and can't open my mouth wide enough to eat properly. if i open my jaw beyond a certain point it's excruciating

Can you drink? Maybe make a smoothie or something to get some food in you

yeah just sipping orange juice rn. should have started doing this since i got in last night but i spent 3 hours sitting on the bathroom floor instead

Lock jaw? Do we need to ring anyone??

don't do drugs during volatile emotional periods, kids!

Aaaa

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I’m gonna hug you

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I hope it gets sorted

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if you need anything let us know

be it soup, drink or anything. hope things improve!

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B

Lock jaw? Do we need to ring anyone??

LMAO nah nah all good. it's from excessively chewing gum and grinding my teeth. side effect of MDMA. should clear up in a few days i hope

Breakdown moment

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23:37

Yayyyyy

Anonymous Confession (#298)

"is it selfish to feel betrayal. Genuinely don’t know anymoren"

Nope

23:50

Betrayal is acceptable

23:52

And if you feel betrayed, tell the person

23:52

And it is not selfish either

23:52

You can get rid of them

23:52

Just block them

23:52

You don't need betrayers in your life

Idk the context but feeling betrayed is valid ~ you don't ever have to feel like your emotions are selfish, you feel the way you feel it's how you act that can be put into words

NO BCS I WAS TALKING WITH MY FRIENDS ABOUT SEXUAL STUFF AND I SAID I WAS A TOP AND THE PERSON WHO MADE ME ALMOST WALK INTO THE SEA SAID "K"

00:20

I think

00:20

I'm going

00:20

To

00:20

Explode

Bestie this person is not your friend

But if I leave the server

00:21

I lose contact with a bunch of others

Can you add them individually first?

I mean I already have but they donytalk much in DMs

Or talk to the admin get the person restricted from you maybe

00:22

Idk how discord works

It's a friend only server

00:22

So like

00:22

Just ahh

If you block them and are in the same server what happens?

Very much

00:22

Hate

00:22

Me

00:22

Rn

LoLo <3

If you block them and are in the same server what happens?

I don't see their messages

Invite some of the friends here if you wanted

No they are weird

00:23

And I went on holiday with most of them

So is the rest of the server

And we know how that turned iut

Is that going to help? If you don't see their messages at least you'll be shielded from it

Valid

Gonna block them

00:24

Bcs I keep getting fucking invalidated and I don't deserve it

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You deserve better than that and I'm glad you're taking the steps to take care of yourself

Ffs actually wanna die

00:28

Like

00:28

Why does this person get to me so kuch

00:28

I feel so pointless

00:28

I let down everyone I know

00:29

I'm genuinely a terrible person

You base your validation from those around you not yourself. You let things people say affect you and take them to heart when in reality if you wanted advice you wouldn't go to them, you don't actually care for their opinion you just internalise their criticism because you don't want to trust your own judgement that you're worth more. You haven't let me down and you know me so by logic that can't be true, I can't comment that you're 'genuinely a terrible person' but you lift up others when they're down and always give people the option to talk to you when they have problems, you're a kind and talented person and you deserve better than you let yourself believe

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TW: SH. Will responding to the actions he done. Claiming he doesn’t have any responsibility for what he did

SPOILER

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why am i not only awake at this time but why can’t i fall asleep

absolutely bricking myself bc the only bus that goes to my work is not appearing on the map

I'm sure the bus will appear

a whole slew of them got cancelled today so ahhhhh

08:44

i love norwich public transport

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mahariel

a whole slew of them got cancelled today so ahhhhh

Ew gross, that's not helpful

ok hopefully it will appear but i have a taxi booked just in case

Sounds like a good plan

going to be such a kick in the monetary nuts if this becomes a frequent thing

Oh boyyy I got so many delayed assessments/reassessments to do gonna fuckin lay here and cry what the fuck. This shit got pushed bc of my mental health but now I have a month to do 5 assessments so that's not exactly helping me really. It's like they told me they can help me and then punched me in the face

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08:55

I know I only need to pass them but this is still a piss take

08:57

The UEA owes me a pair of barbie heelys

mahariel

going to be such a kick in the monetary nuts if this becomes a frequent thing

hopefully its just because of the heat? hope you get there all right

mumblingmiss

Oh boyyy I got so many delayed assessments/reassessments to do gonna fuckin lay here and cry what the fuck. This shit got pushed bc of my mental health but now I have a month to do 5 assessments so that's not exactly helping me really. It's like they told me they can help me and then punched me in the face

best of luck

E r i n

hopefully its just because of the heat? hope you get there all right

yeah crisis averted, it arrived on time and i cancelled the taxi

09:15

now just listening to metal to hype myself up to work in an office lmfao

To avoid getting too stressed I will be hiding inside and I will start my reassessments when it's not fuckin 30 degrees I think that's perfectly acceptable. Girl gotta be her own doctor lmao

mahariel

yeah crisis averted, it arrived on time and i cancelled the taxi

glad to hear it, hope work goes well!!

mumblingmiss

To avoid getting too stressed I will be hiding inside and I will start my reassessments when it's not fuckin 30 degrees I think that's perfectly acceptable. Girl gotta be her own doctor lmao

honestly fair, if there is anything that can be done to support you please say

E r i n

honestly fair, if there is anything that can be done to support you please say

Thank you :)))

Missing people a lot, really need to get back to uni bcs home rn is quite toxic

10:31

Parents keep saying things that are quite horrid

10:31

They keep saying this isn't a hotel, you are just staying for a bit, you are free to leave at any time

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That's really crap of them to say honestly, they have no right to say that stuff to you. I hope you can come down to norwich soon

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Anonymous Confession (#301)

"i play it fairly loose with money but ive always been cautious to ensure i can buy the stuff my housemates often forget they need to buy (laundry pods, kitchen roll, toilet roll, bin bags etc.). its partially my fault but a few of them have got really dependent, with one of them not buying any of that stuff to my knowledge this entire year. now im struggling a bit more with money, at least until the end of this month where i can figure out where i am. but there are no laundry pods and im in the middle of doing my washing. ive put in the house group chat asking if anyone is willing to split the cost with me cause i cant afford it, and practically the only other person who sometimes remembers this stuff has offered to buy them for me. but theyre also struggling financially right now, and the only other person in the house is the one who - as far as i know - has never spent any money on stuff, and rarely cleans or anything. theyre not staying with us next year but i really feel they should be contributing, even if its my fault theyve never really felt the need to before, rsther than the other person who also buys this stuff sometimes sorry, its a bit of a rant, and i know there are better ways to deal with this. i set a precedent though that was stupid to begin with, and now my housemate who actually helps out at times is now literally paying when the one who doesnt should be. they always feel bad whenever i bring up talking directly to the housemate who doesnt do much, so i feel like i cant do anything rn"

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Love being yelled at by my dad because the wind blew a door closed

RELATES

16:13

Sorry you got shouted at

Walking in 37C heat

17:06

Loving life

Anonymous Confession (#303)

"I think I may want to get into a relationship now, I think I might be ready. Shame that the situation is too complicated so forces feelings away to avoid getting hurt"

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Hey Op

18:26

Have a conversation with the person you want to be in a relationship

18:26

Who knows the situation could be sorted

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no better time than summer holidays tbh. if it goes well, v cute but if it doesn't, don't have to see them for like a month

Anonymous Confession (#304)

"no just going to stay single thanks, don't want to hurt anyone anymore nor hurt myself"

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hey that's alright. you do what you're comfortable with but I'm a v much "seize the moment" person with my feelings bc otherwise they stew away in my brain. do you know if they have feelings for you too?

Either way you're clearly thinking about it if it's got to the point of talking to us about it. As someone who ignores crushes until they go away I feel you. If it's meant to be it'll be, but if you feel that strongly about them it might be worth mentioning relationships in a casual way and see how they respond before pursuing it further. Completely up to you, of course, I wish you luck whatever you decide to do!

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Anonymous Confession (#305)

"yes they do have feelings for me but it's a bit more complicated"

in a sense, that makes it easier bc you know they like you BUT if it's complicated beyond that you're going to have to take the leap and talk it out I'm afraid. headpat

headpat

you'll be alright kiddo, whatever you do

id say just go for it and see what happens but i completely understand if you don’t

19:28

been in the same situation myself

It fully sucks honestly

Anonymous Confession (#306)

"ngl I'm in a similar situation atm OP and I get it, it's scary. Just do what I do, feel the emotions but not act on them until it's too late and everyone moves away from you and you are alone"

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no! bad.

20:15

talk to them, both of you dumbasses. nothing hurts like bottling up feelings

Watch them be talking about each other

LMAO i hope it is bc that would be a modern day rom com

WAIT

20:22

THE MUSICAL STORY

20:22

Discord gay romance

us rn

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Anonymous Confession (#308)

"I can promise you I'm not talking about the same person"

Bv_

THE MUSICAL STORY

YES WE GOT THE PLOT

20:35

No that’s perfect actually with us making it we can do ACTUAL representation

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

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THAT IS ACTUALLY SO PERFECT OMG

LoLo <3

No that’s perfect actually with us making it we can do ACTUAL representation

No but we do need to start actually writing this nowwwww

I’m trying to lose belly fat so I can work on my abs but I found something saying to stop eating carbs but another place says you need carbs to help build muscle. I just want to get fit but I can’t get any straight answers and when I look at where I want to get I just get frustrated.

Ok from my experience

22:20

Your diet has nothing to do with changing your appearance

22:21

As long as you eat a healthy balanced diet (and yes, you can eat chocolate and cheese etc) and do your exercise, you will see an effect

22:21

You need a balanced diet to actually be healthy

22:21

So loading on one thing or ignoring something else is just dangerous

22:22

Pretty much every diet plan doesn't work, or is based on eating tiny portions or avoiding foods seen as bad

Bennyboy

I’m trying to lose belly fat so I can work on my abs but I found something saying to stop eating carbs but another place says you need carbs to help build muscle. I just want to get fit but I can’t get any straight answers and when I look at where I want to get I just get frustrated.

Carbs are good, just in moderation

Literally

Cutting out carbs completely is more harmful

22:22

Protein is good though

Mhm, protein is the one food group in which, when trying to build muscle, is ok to eat more of

22:23

As long as you are doing the exercise

22:24

But diet has no effect on weight gain or lose, no compared to cardio and other exercises (I know it's difficult for you but all in moderation and you'll get there)

I've done a couple courses in nutrition over lockdown, carbs are really important for energy, but if you're trying to build muscle it might be worth looking at the contents of the carbs; even vegetables are technically carbohydrate, I had porridge and raspberries for breakfast for a while bc oats are high in protein and raspberries as one of my 5 a day kind of thing. As for 'losing belly fat' you can't spot burn fat, but focusing on ab exercises will help

Just got maintain a healthy balanced diet, focusing on proteins for building muscle

Prioritise but don't eliminate. Food is good and you won't build muscle at a calorie deficit; it's important to have enough. And please be careful exercising in this heat and stop if you get light headed, passing out in the gym is not fun

AND DRINK PLENTY OF WATER

22:37

Like

22:37

Water is excellent

Water is a given,, please stay hydrated everyone!!!

Good tips, thanks guys.

ik you’re not exactly going for a body builders physique but eating carbs can be good cos you’ll build up bulk and store a lot of energy, which you then burn of during exercise

22:52

so eating a lot of carbs and then slowly reducing them probably isn’t a bad idea (edited)

(not completely though, but they are literally the way your body gets energy :P)

oh yeah ofc

Anonymous Confession (#309)

"Kinda coming to terms with the face I don’t have any proper close friends. I just feel lonely all the time and there’s nothing I can do about it at the moment. I know I speak to people in this server but we’ve never actually met and I don’t actually have a close relationship with anyone. Idk what the point of this vent is, just needed to think someone would read this."

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Heyyy op I’m here for you ❤️

23:47

If you wanna talk I’m here

23:47

I think I have met everyone on the server ehre as well?

I haven't met everyone here irl but from those I have you're lovely

exhausted, v much need to sleep but i don't want to bc i want some free time to myself and not skip to getting up for work tomorrow lol

Ugh heat bad. Feel sticky :(

Tips for heat. Keep a jug of icy water near by with a fruit flavouring if you so desire. A fan is a good way to create an artificial cool breeze. A cool shower in the morning is a great way to refresh yourself in the morning. Keep all your upstairs windows open but the blinds 2/3 shut to keep the sun out. Keep to the side of the house that the sun sun shining on. As much as I hate to say it comfort outweighs fashion in this heat. At night a fan is your best friend. Personally I sleep with the covers of with the fan rotating around me, PJ’s are optional in this heat. This is my short guide for when you are in heat.

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good tips ty

More of a funny joke for me to practice my literacy skills but you’re welcome all the same.

Anonymous Confession (#310)

"I forgot you were raped okay well I wish I could maybe you shouldn't be joking about it anyway to someone you're sleeping with I fucking trusted you I thought you were a safe person I could let my guard down with who accepted that I have trauma and was helping me work through it but I can't even express that to you because you have to be the one to start the conversation or I look like I'm clutching at straws"

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I am always down to meet new people and make new friends BCS until like March, I was in the same position for my whole life so feel free to reach out

Anyone else feel really sick the past few days? Idk if it's the weather or if there's something wrong with me

Oh no, I'm sorry you've been feeling like that

12:58

Is it maybe the heat?

I don't know it's just annoying, gets worse when I drink anything which makes hydration interesting lol

That's really sucky, I'm sorry

13:01

Just take care fo yourself as best you can

LoLo <3

Anyone else feel really sick the past few days? Idk if it's the weather or if there's something wrong with me

You sound dehydrated. You need to have a drink every hour or two hours if you can.

God I feel awful, the heat, dysphoria, I've had to lend my mum £50 even though I've got less than £200 to last me until student finance. I've also upset my friend accidentally and I'm anxious and so much trauma stuff is making a reappearance and just bleh, I am not doing great rn hom(o/ie - delete as appropriate)s

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Slightly dumb, but I actually hate my skin so much. Since I was like 11, I've never had clear skin and it really had a big effect on my self-esteem. I'm going to be 20 soon and I still don't have the skin I hoped I would have. It has calmed down a lot, and I take care of my skin really well, but it still pisses me off that literally everyone has perfect skin and then there's me. Just upsets me ig

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i know its probably not much consolation, but i dont think most people have perfect skin. still, i hope you feel better and your skin gets to the point you want

Oh my god im so fucking unmedicated, i need to be given something, this cannot be what life is. I havent had a drink or a smoke in over a month. Ive got no painkillers and ive got no caffiene in my system. This isbwhy humanity ate random shit back in the early days, this is how shrooms were discovered

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I'm sorry you are going through that, that sounds truly awful

god that’s so dry

17:39

fuck man hang in there

Not even got tea in the house? Diy iced tea?

I could have caffiene but im home alone and I am not pouring boiling hot water when im standing on one leg. I trust my balance but I dont trust it that much

Anonymous Confession (#311)

"This is defo more of a positive-vibes type post but thanks to the hot weather I've basically been wearing only underwear around the house (no housemates about dw) and it was the first time I noticed my abs/v muscles coming in! I normally don't really look at my body, but if there is any upside to the heatwave, is that it made me see my body and not hate it for the first time in ages."

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OMG THAT'S FANTASTIC

17:55

I'm so pleased for you

congrats OP, that's awesome news. get those gains bc you're going to look absolutely great

Eeeeen

I could have caffiene but im home alone and I am not pouring boiling hot water when im standing on one leg. I trust my balance but I dont trust it that much

I'm sorry I can't do anything to help

Bv_

I'm sorry I can't do anything to help

Didnt expect you too but thanks ❤ Vents is for vents y'kno

You know I would if I could, I'd drive to you and pour you a cup of coffee if it wasn't 400 degrees

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Anonymous Confession (#312)

"can't stand the thought of them so why am I still so invested in their wellbeing and whether they're thinking of me too?"

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Sometimes making long term attachments, it becomes difficult to detach from the original person

19:10

Over time, you'll unattach from them and you'll have peace of mind again

every time i see how round my face looks or how my legs look on camera i die inside lol

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20:55

ik my mother will make comments on how much weight I've gained when my family come over for my graduation next week. v excited to use up a whole day of my annual leave being unimaginably stressed and insulted/shouted at constantly. if my photos don't look good enough for them, it'll be a fun night i guess

20:57

also no alcohol or nicotine the entire time I'm with them so uhhh i hope the withdrawals don't hit too hard

Have you got anyone you know graduating the same day? Maybe you can stick with them a bit so you don't have to spend too much time one on one with your family

20:59

It sounds horrible though, I'm really sorry:( I'd come along and support you if I could

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ah unfortunately they will throw a fit if i don't spend the whole time with them. they don't approve of any of my friends who are the graduating at the same time either

LoLo <3

It sounds horrible though, I'm really sorry:( I'd come along and support you if I could

i really appreciate it

I'll most likely block them out of my hearing for a lot of it

21:02

selective hearing is the only skill i gained from listening to my parents constantly scream at each other while I'm at home lol

That doesn't sound entirely healthy but I'm glad you have a way through it

21:03

At least with the documents going through and you being able to work and all you won't have to go back and stay with them anymore

21:03

Hope you manage to get away and have a sneaky vape atleast a couple times

selective hearing, social anxiety, people pleasing, general distrust that people are being authentic with me. it's an interesting cocktail of mummy and daddy issues

Parental trauma cocktail...that's gotta be one of your concoctions right? Something that gets you absolutely fucked

LoLo <3

At least with the documents going through and you being able to work and all you won't have to go back and stay with them anymore

haha you're right. i should really focus on the net positives that have been happening recently. my emotional state has just been a whirlwind of fucked up for the past couple of days. i don't think that molly comedown happened right so my sense of feeling kind of feels,,, broken? idk it's v weird. I'm in the same state of numbness as i was on sunday and it's a little scary

LoLo <3

Parental trauma cocktail...that's gotta be one of your concoctions right? Something that gets you absolutely fucked

LMAO sounds like i need to mix the recipes for A Short Trip to Hell and The Vasectomy into some super-awful cocktail

mahariel

haha you're right. i should really focus on the net positives that have been happening recently. my emotional state has just been a whirlwind of fucked up for the past couple of days. i don't think that molly comedown happened right so my sense of feeling kind of feels,,, broken? idk it's v weird. I'm in the same state of numbness as i was on sunday and it's a little scary

I couldn't comment on the molly but with everything going on in your world recently numbness wouldn't be beyond the realms of your brain trying to protect you from the whirlwind that has been. Be kind to yourself, you've dealt with a lot and got through it, now you get to have the good bit, graduated uni and have a job with people you seem to get on well with. That's amazing!! Just do what you can when you can and don't stress too much, I'm sure the feels will come back soon, it's too hot to care about too much right now anyway

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mahariel

LMAO sounds like i need to mix the recipes for A Short Trip to Hell and The Vasectomy into some super-awful cocktail

Add absinthe and set it on fire

LoLo <3

I couldn't comment on the molly but with everything going on in your world recently numbness wouldn't be beyond the realms of your brain trying to protect you from the whirlwind that has been. Be kind to yourself, you've dealt with a lot and got through it, now you get to have the good bit, graduated uni and have a job with people you seem to get on well with. That's amazing!! Just do what you can when you can and don't stress too much, I'm sure the feels will come back soon, it's too hot to care about too much right now anyway

you're so fucking good at giving advice and helping people holy shit. this is v reassuring and you're right, i just need to focus on work and getting through the rest of this

LoLo <3

Add absinthe and set it on fire

absinthe, my detested

21:14

ok searched it up and people (reddit hehe) report feeling numb for a couple weeks-months after having a v v bad molly trip. hope mine doesn't last v long but the advice seems to be to uhhh not do any more molly for a year

I'm not trying to give advice ik this is vent I'm just trying to make sure people feel seen and like not alone which sometimes just sounds like a you-should-do-this but I am by no means telling you what to do, just trying to give you a hug through the screen <33

yeah i understand, it's v sweet

mahariel

ok searched it up and people (reddit hehe) report feeling numb for a couple weeks-months after having a v v bad molly trip. hope mine doesn't last v long but the advice seems to be to uhhh not do any more molly for a year

Is there a way to take smaller doses? I get that with addiction stop isn't always possible but take care of you!!!

i do feel seen and it's nice. not screaming into the void so much you know?

LoLo <3

Is there a way to take smaller doses? I get that with addiction stop isn't always possible but take care of you!!!

oh no, molly isn't chemically addictive so I'm not worried about that. it's just that I'm usually quite emotionally volatile but now I'm neither particularly happy about things happening to me nor annoyed/angry. it's like emotional exhaustion

21:19

emotional exhaustion + only anxiety as my main feelings about literally anything. no heart skipping with joy or super-depression which is how my mood used to swing before. did this shit comedown?? work as an anti-depressant and wipe my personality?? lmfao

21:21

but i swear I'm fine, dw about me. It’s quite confusing though

Turn off your alarms on Saturday morning and let your body sleep as long as it needs, then drink as much water as you can when you wake up. That should reset your sleeping patterns after all this heat and make sure you're hydrated properly. You're emotionally and probably physically exhausted, take your advice with drinking the juice and hope for the best? I don't know, I hope you're alright tho, maybe it wouldn't be the worst thing if it lasts until graduation so you don't care what your family are saying but if it affects your headspace around graduation itself maybe not like you'd at least want to remember it right? Idk

LoLo <3

Turn off your alarms on Saturday morning and let your body sleep as long as it needs, then drink as much water as you can when you wake up. That should reset your sleeping patterns after all this heat and make sure you're hydrated properly. You're emotionally and probably physically exhausted, take your advice with drinking the juice and hope for the best? I don't know, I hope you're alright tho, maybe it wouldn't be the worst thing if it lasts until graduation so you don't care what your family are saying but if it affects your headspace around graduation itself maybe not like you'd at least want to remember it right? Idk

thanks darling, you're right with all of this and i feel like I'll definitely be out like a light for most of the weekend. should be good to finally rest for a bit

im sorry youre having to deal with so much, but i hope graduation is somewhat enjoyable at the very least, you deserve to be congratulated and celebrate

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thank you sm, that's so sweet of you

If the warmth isn’t keeping me awake, the racing in the streets will

headpat

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Once again

Me: gets bit by ant in three places

01:57

Me: opens drawer to find my germalene

01:57

Me: FINDS THIS AND STARTS CRYING

01:58

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Oop time for Arson. Burn that shit baby (edited)

Eh just wanted to ask do u wanna burn it?

02:01

Cause I need some kindling for a bonfires at some point this week

burn it

IfritArson

I do I guess

02:02

It just

02:02

Hits a wave of hurt

potatosnuggling

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feel it but don't let it consume you or ruin your night

I have a 9am tomorrow and I have not rested as all

RIP, I hope you manage to atleast get some rest

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I'm sorry but that is so gross handwriting, like ewwww

icl i did struggle to read it

Anonymous Confession (#314)

"am I gonna get friendzoned by my crush, again for like the 3 time this academic year? Been different people each crush. Ideally no, realistically yeah."

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it can hurt, but id say its always worth trying just in case

10:13

i think most people are mature enough to respect someone having a crush on them and try to make things as comfortable as people, regardless of whatever they respond with

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This is very true, and if they’re not mature about it, that gives you an indication as to what they’re like anyway

yeah being an adult means you should just talk openly about your feelings

sometimes i feel like im really not doing enough, no matter what excuses i make just feels like i should be doing more

You're allowed to not be productive all the time, especially right now. It's summer, everyone's too hot to be doing shit allow your body and mind some time to just exist, you're allowed, it's arguably just as productive as doing Things anyway, especially right nwo

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Still to hot to fucking do anything I actually like here Fucking bored and frustrated as hell

Mild medical tw, mentions of surgery and healing, just an ankle update really Ankle is feeling stronger which is good! But its making me more and more impatient to walk again. I'm still on no weight bearing so doctors would be very grumpy if I tried anything. The reason this is in vents is the skin irritation. I havent been able to wash my leg for over a month, in this heat, my skin is suffering, I can feel spots and irritation. The surgery scar tissue is starting to dry which is an important step for healing but.....its INSANELY itchy. I have been scratching the odd itch using a chopstick but I cant go near the surgery wound because its got a dressing on it. Oh and the adhesive of the dressing has been pulling on leg hair since day 1 which SUCKS. Im just getting fed up with it at this point. Im 2 weeks off from getting it removed and hopefully getting a walking boot. But it'll be my surgeons call when he looks at it in clinic. Ive got an extra screw in the leg the bones which will need to be removed so ive got to have another procedure for that which means MORE recovery. I just dont have the energy to be thinking about that rn though. Im excited for my placement, good things are coming. But they really are taking their fucking time :( (edited)

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01:17

and you fucking bet I'll be posting badass scar pictures. Im telling idiots it was a fucking lion attack or some shit lmao

That really does suck Ewan, I’m sorry that you’re dealing with that atm. Sending all of my positive energy and thoughts your way for a speedy recovery

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hope you feel better soon ❤

Eeeeen

and you fucking bet I'll be posting badass scar pictures. Im telling idiots it was a fucking lion attack or some shit lmao

honestly wouldnt be surprised if people beleived it, sounds like the kinda chaotic thing youd find yourself doing

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To be fair yeah

11:55

But god I'm so sorry I hadn't even thought about that but in this heat having a goth leg you can't take off can't be pleasant even I've reverted to pastel goth in this:(

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Anonymous Confession (#316)

"did I see my ex on someone's Instagram story just now and I'm already in a very fragile state and now all the guilt has come.back.and I don't want to have any friends nor my current feelings towards people, I also don't want to exist rn. Why is he still affecting me so much"

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I'm so sorry you're having to deal with that OP, I know you said you don't want friends but we're here to support you if you want ❤️ regardless of what you say, you deserve to be supported and cared for

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Eeeeen

Mild medical tw, mentions of surgery and healing, just an ankle update really Ankle is feeling stronger which is good! But its making me more and more impatient to walk again. I'm still on no weight bearing so doctors would be very grumpy if I tried anything. The reason this is in vents is the skin irritation. I havent been able to wash my leg for over a month, in this heat, my skin is suffering, I can feel spots and irritation. The surgery scar tissue is starting to dry which is an important step for healing but.....its INSANELY itchy. I have been scratching the odd itch using a chopstick but I cant go near the surgery wound because its got a dressing on it. Oh and the adhesive of the dressing has been pulling on leg hair since day 1 which SUCKS. Im just getting fed up with it at this point. Im 2 weeks off from getting it removed and hopefully getting a walking boot. But it'll be my surgeons call when he looks at it in clinic. Ive got an extra screw in the leg the bones which will need to be removed so ive got to have another procedure for that which means MORE recovery. I just dont have the energy to be thinking about that rn though. Im excited for my placement, good things are coming. But they really are taking their fucking time :( (edited)

Ive manage to avoid pressure sores as far as I can tell so thats positive but like....ew leg

Sometimes this stuff can come back at the worst moments and really mess with you. I’m sorry you’re feeling like this, let us know if we can do anything to help ❤️ maybe shut off social media for a bit so you can focus on yourself, maybe restrict that friend’s Instagram story in case that happens again if you think that might help. Have a glass of water and breathe, you’re going to be okay ❤️

Anonymous Confession (#317)

"I don't even know why I am still friends with her, all she does in my social media is be a reminder that my ex exists. Also doesn't help that I just remembered how I was invalidated so much the past week so gonna be a really shit day"

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Op if it feels better to remove her than do it

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13:51

It’s worth it trust me

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I don’t know the context of your past week but

I’m sorry you’re going through it op Please know that if you’re on this server it’s bc you are wanted here, your feelings are valid, your pain is understandable. You’re loved, you’re worthy, we’re here for you. My DMs are open if you want to talk but I’d completely understand if you just want to turn off your phone for today. I hope you feel better soon ❤️

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Does anyone want to come over for cuddles? I've got cramps from hell and feel like shit and just wanna be held

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im sorry :( hope you feel better soon

I wish i was close enough to come hug you, hope you feel better soon

you're getting a whole lot of hugs when you get back to norwich

16:52

me: cuts my lunch break in half so i can leave work half an hour early bus: is late for 30 minutes

Anonymous Confession (#318)

"I keep seeing these people and they aren't there and it's very very scary"

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Anonymous Confession (#319)

"love not feeling safe because my brain has created a new terrifying scenario for me, like if I die, I will not be surprised"

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Hey it will be okay op

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19:53

That’s terrifying I’m so sorry op

are you eating/drinking/sleeping enough? @ both of you idk if you’re the same person

Anonymous Confession (#320)

"I'm eating and everything is ok, my brain just really hates me and gives me this terrifying hallucinations"

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i sometimes get these too under extreme stress so i hope things aren't too much in your life rn. i would see a doctor or mental health professional about this though. hallucinations are a big deal

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Anonymous Confession (#321)

"I refuse to see a doctor about this, I'm fine"

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Anonymous Confession (#322)

"I had a great day yesterday, and then got really really triggered this morning and now it feels like someone is cutting my skin off in little chunks and then the things that were following me are now hiding on my walk back from where I currently am and I will get attacked. I'm so scared and in so much pain"

kind of worried about you OP bc, respectfully, this does not sound fine

Can you call someone on your way home so you feel safer?

Anonymous Confession (#323)

"I promise I am, I'm just very scared and in a lot of pain. It'll pass though"

20:57

Anonymous Confession (#324)

"I could call people, but a) imposter syndrome, b) don't wanna bother anyone since I know it's irrational and c) I just don't wanna exist lmao"

My number is here

20:57

07483839303

20:57

Ring me

20:57

Whenever you need

07799188324

21:07

^ that goes for anyone who is too scared to walk home alone, I’m here if you need me. (Or even if you’d rather text than talk over discord DM I completely get it and I’ll get back to you when I can) I can’t promise to always be by the phone but if I’m free I’ll pick up and talk as long as you need. I hope you get to somewhere you feel safe op, please take care of yourself

nerves are kicking in for my shift tomorrow

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22:32

really hope it goes well

Just go with the flow and be your lovely self. It's a trial so they won't expect you to know everything straight off

Hospital sent me a letter about my appointment and its not for another month which means I will be in CUMBRIA on placement before i see this fucking doctor. So uuuhhh gonna be calling these fuckers tomorrow to get that shit rearranged

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23:24

So in a biy of a shit mood tonight gang

23:24

Send memes and good vibes if you would be so kind

This for the getting the goth leg off and the boot on?? I thought that was in a week or so? Fuck Ewan I'm so sorry that doesn't make any sense

Yeah, i went to a clinic on July 6th and was told "thursday in 4 weeks time" which makes it August 4th. The letter is saying my appointment is August 18th. I cannot be in casts for 2 months. (Hyperbolic rage abour doctor) I will cut the cunt off and take a screwdriver to my leg to get the screw out myself before I let that happen. Or maybe I'll go for the SAW approach and just remove by ankle entirely, that'll fix it fucking quicker but yeah im just pissed about this shit because the hospital have fucked me once already by giving me the wrong appointment after I first had surgery and now theyre trying to fuck me again and I will not let it happen

Yeah I remember them asking you to fast then giving you the surgery the day after but 2 extra weeks is just excessive

23:29

Also telling you one thing then doing another what if you had made plans around it

23:29

I mean tbf you kinda have

Yeah so I'll be calling them tomorroe to bitch about this shit

im so sorry, hope they sort it tomorrow, theyre just adding stress onto something that really doesnt need anymore :/

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notliamhyde02

nerves are kicking in for my shift tomorrow

I promise you it'll be ok, just keep calm, be as friendly as you can and you'll be fine ❤️

best of luck

Anonymous Confession (#325)

"ok OP from the whole thing earlier, I completely blacked out for the past two hours I think, not entirely sure and can't remember most of it, but I'm all good now"

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Glad you're feeling better op ❤️

i had the most disturbing dreams last night. and i keep waking up randomly with really bad cramps in my neck or legs (edited)

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i HATE being alive

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The 26a is literally the worst bus, do not miss it. Sorry you have to deal with that, public transport is so bad right now

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mahariel

i had the most disturbing dreams last night. and i keep waking up randomly with really bad cramps in my neck or legs (edited)

i hope youre okay and feel better soon, sorry youve had to deal with that

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Love having my self esteem eroded by an insecure man who can’t deal with my healthy coping mechanism being wearing clothes I like and doing makeup properly bc spending time with me when I look like that makes him uncomfortable Thanks a lot dad now I feel worse with guilt on top

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Sorry you’re dealing with that Lo, you do not deserve that but remember that his feelings is not your problem to reconcile. Those are his issues. You look fabulous honey and you should know that and own it because god damn it life is too short to spend it appeasing other people and comforting their reactions to ourselves. Screw that! You are FIERCE!!

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Anonymous Confession (#329)

"tw: self harm I hurt myself yesterday after my SA try to message me and im so angry and disappointed. im getting better so I wish that asshole would go away so my brain would stop trying to make me lose so much progress"

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Roux

Sorry you’re dealing with that Lo, you do not deserve that but remember that his feelings is not your problem to reconcile. Those are his issues. You look fabulous honey and you should know that and own it because god damn it life is too short to spend it appeasing other people and comforting their reactions to ourselves. Screw that! You are FIERCE!!

Thank you, I needed that

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I’m so sorry op

if you don’t have any reason to need to stay in contact with this person maybe consider reducing your contact with them or even blocking them if you feel confident to do that. I’m proud of you for taking care of yourself, progress isn’t linear and sometimes relapses happen but the important thing is that you recognise how they make you feel and protect yourself accordingly. I hope you’re feeling better ❤️

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I’m sorry OP, as Lo said, progress isn’t linear and remember that you’re amazing and that asshole is the lowlife. Delete delete delete! Rise up my love ❤️

got a nervous tummy :(

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17:03

i hate it

17:05

haven’t got to be there until 6 but fucking brickin it rn

Best thing to do, go to the toilet, drink some water

17:08

And then just try and breathe

so i’ve been told to come back tomorrow cos they’re really busy and really short staffed

17:58

at this point im debating whether it’s gonna be worth it now

Ah that sucks

i mean it’s not entirely their fault (edited)

17:59

cos obv can’t help with being ill (edited)

18:00

but i rang them on saturday

18:00

got told to come in on tuesday

18:00

came in today

18:00

and now have to go back tomorrow

Well hopefully midweek it'll be quiet and you'll get the chance for your trial shift

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I'm sorry they are messing you around, but don't take it as they don't want you

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18:27

Sometimes shit happens

18:28

We all still love you and support you and supporting this journey

now that i don't have work to distract me, I'm getting kind of overwhelmed by my thoughts. don't like this v much

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don’t you hate it when you’re sat in bed and suddenly your stomach goes “you know what? you haven’t shat yourself in a while…” (edited)

20:36

luckily i made it to the toilet in time but what the fuck

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Anonymous Confession (#330)

"most mentally unstable person you know: I'm going to do a powerful hallucinogenic drug this weekend!"

OP pls stay safe

Anonymous Confession (#331)

"welp, my crush isnt mutual. so time to destroy and burry any romatic feelings for a while again"

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Mood op

21:58

hope youre okay ❤️

21:58

here if you need to talk

^^

21:59

I'm sorry, you'll be ok

Feel you OP, hope you're okay darlin

Always sucks to go through, hope you're doing alright OP

At least now you know. I hope you’re okay op

here for you if you need

im really concerned about how i percieve and process emotions sometimes

Anonymous Confession (#333)

"My shitty superpower is caring far too much about people who don't give a shit about me."

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I'm sorry OP, that really sucks

He doesn't deserve happiness nor opportunity. How dare he do all this and pretend like I'm the evil one...wait, am I?

I don't know the context but knowing you I'm gonna have to go with no

He pisses of me off so much, he twisted everyone into thinking I'm evil, he got the house, he got the friends, he got the opportunity,.all I got was just more mental health problems

You do have somewhere to live, right? I'd invite you to live with us but we have our 5th housemate but if you're struggling and need somewhere to stay until you find a place in Norwich you can come and stay at mine??

Oh no, I do have somewhere to live, a friend of a friend had a spare room so I'm moving in there

10:49

Thank you though, that's really kind

I promise not every relationship ends like that, I appreciate yours wasn't exactly healthy but coming from someone who's friends with almost all their exes it isn't always like that

10:54

I'm glad you've got a place to stay though, I can imagine that's stressful as fuck on top of a breakup and strained mutual friendships

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Thank you

Dad just shouted at me bcs I don't want him to help me move my stuff into my new house, I can fit the bare essentials into my car for the first week and I just want freedom and he's taking it as offence that I don't want his help and now he's just shouting at me, I hate it here, I just want freedom. It's great he wants to help but it is also like...too much, I need space and to do my own thing bcs I just yeah I'm not making much sense and sorry I keep typing in this channel, it's very superficial, sorry

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I get it genuinely

Fucking sucks

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"I wish I'd stop getting comments about my eating, I already have disordered eating issues and now I just don't want to eat"

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hope youre okay OP :(

Anonymous Confession (#347)

"Saw an old friend the other day and he told me I'm in a position in my life that a lot of people envy. I know he's right so why am I still miserable? It seems like no matter what I do, I still end up dissociating alone somewhere. Yesterday I walked down to a spot where I go to think and then my sense of reality... melted? I've walked those paths a million times before but I kept getting lost and running into dead ends. Ended up sobbing in a field near midnight before attempting to get home. Kept going in circles because my brain couldn't figure out any sense of direction. Started walking towards my old house before backtracking again and eventually finding the road to my new place. The entire time at the end, I wanted to sit down right in the middle of the motorway."

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I'm so sorry OP, you don't deserve to feel like that and have to deal with that

15:48

If you need to talk, I'm always available

15:50

And dissociation is really scary, I understand how it can affect you, and the best thing is to call someone or talk to a friend if you get like that because you may lose control or do things you don't intend to do

Anonymous Confession (#348)

"I just want to be happy again. And in control of my mind and emotions. It's not in my nature to hurt anyone else so I'm not worried about that. It's more that I have almost everything I could ever want at this stage and none of it seems to be making a dent in my overwhelming sadness. I have tried every remedy and substance and care tactic I, or anyone else, could think of and it's not working. I'm going through the motions of being a functional person and everyone who looks at me probably sees success in areas they're still working on. I'm a deeply private person and the only people who I could talk to about any of this without sugarcoating are too far away or don't want to speak to me anymore. My other friends try and I appreciate them deeply but I can't reveal much of what's been eating at me. It’s not their fault, it's just how I am. I suppose I just want someone else to care for me like how I stretch myself to my bare bones to care for them."

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OP I’m so sorry you’ve been dealing with the emotions by yourself

16:13

Maybe it’s worth talking one of your friends and explaining how you feel, bcs you deserve the same amount of care you give out (edited)

16:14

It also may be worth talking to a doctor regarding your sadness, if you haven’t already

16:14

But I’m happy to talk as well, if you ever want to vent or just go and do something to try and cheer yourself up

snake friend had to go to urgent care because of injury (attached and spoilered) and i’m not happy. i’m nervous waiting on the phone call from the vet because i’m scared they’ll say something about how i’m taking care of him

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right going back to the pub in an hour

16:56

and if anything goes wrong just gonna leave it

Good luck!!!

i’m hoping that itll be quiet and ill actually be able to stay for a trial

It's highly unlikely they'll send you away again

ik ik

16:58

i’m also hoping that if i do get it they won’t want me tomorrow cos i’m going to a friends house for her bday

16:58

i mean i won’t miss out on all of it if i have to stay but still (edited)

Just explain you have plans for Sunday if they do, they'll understand

yeah ok

16:59

also not free this monday either but i don’t think they’re open mondays anyways

It's understandable, they'll get it

just got a nervous tummy again

You'll be ok

17:00

Go to the toilet, drink some water if you can

17:00

Take some deep breaths

17:01

Just smile, be friendly and just ask if you need help

every time i talk to my mother i want to smash my phone against a wall. tw: sh I've taken to tearing at my arms with my nails instead so i don't break my phone but ow (edited)

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im here for you

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17:44

if you need anything

it's just a constant cycle of: talk to mother -> get extremely hurt and angrier than i ever get with anyone -> hurt myself to release some of them and stay calm on the line -> bunch of blood that i have to clean up

Oh I'm so sorry

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can't pin all the blame on my mother for my nicotine addiction but it's either start smoking while talking to her multiple times a day or, well, hurt myself

17:54

she calls me multiple times a day and throughout the night bc of the most unnecessary shit and gets angry if i don't answer straight away. won't accept that i can't take calls at work or that I'm asleep. then she starts guilt-tripping me about how i must hate her, how she's going to die soon bc of my actions, how she's going to not come to my graduation or any other event or ever speak to me again. all over the most arbitrary reasons or shift in tone that she perceives as malicious. it's a v fun mix of growing up with my father telling me he'll kill me and my mother telling me she'll kill herself if i don't make them happy

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17:55

idk sorry for dumping all this v heavy shit here. can't seem to talk to anyone else

Bro it’s a vent channel this is what it’s for

17:56

I’m so sorry this is happening to you

17:57

I think if it comes to it smoking is a healthier coping mechanism and if that’s what you have to do to get through it that’s what you have to do to get through it

17:57

I’m here for you, I’m so fucking sorry

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i hate hate hate that my upbringing has made me so bad with interacting with people i love. i can see that I'm emulating my mother by being overly clingy and thinking someone hates me if they don't respond to me or keep me at a distance. god I'm such a people pleaser and go out of my way to make sure they aren't mad at me. if someone is angry with me or if i feel like I've ruined their fun, i pretty much fold into a massive pit of self-hatred until they tell me the opposite. it seems to make relationships and the like almost impossible

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18:03

I'm so scared of ever starting a family bc what if i end up acting like either of my parents? i have most of their issues already and i try to keep them at bay but idk if I'll manage to not become them

Your very feeling that way is what will stop you from behaving like that

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Ok I can promise you that you will learn from your parents and this pain will make you a much better parent (literally proven in psychology of attachment so trust me)

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I'm really sorry you have to deal with all of this, you don't deserve it. You are your own person, a kind, supportive and brilliant person, and you should never have to worry about not being one. But as Lo said, the fact you feel this way and worry about this stuff shows that you would never let it end up like that, and you will always try to be the best person you can be at any given time, even if awful things effect that. We're here for you if you ever want a chat, distraction or anything. I really hope you feel better soon

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^^ if you need anything, just let us know, always around for people

I’m so sorry that you have to deal with that Jory, that’s so unfair on you. You are not responsible for other people’s insecurities, you are loved, you are enough. My dm’s are open if you need, I don’t get notifications other than text messages as it stops me being too obsessed with my phone but I do check regularly enough.

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My supposed best mate Brodie saying "you don't need to come out or tell anyone like others do, you're only asexual so nobody has to know" boy if u don't shut tf up

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Anonymous Confession (#349)

"I really get what the other OP was saying. I don't want to blame my parents entirely for the way that I am but it's made me so avoidant and terrified of love that anytime someone shows love to me I'm worried that they'll abuse me, or worse, i'll abuse them. Really makes relationships hard when someone says they love you and all you want to do is never see them again in case you hurt them or they hurt you."

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Not be to all psychology student, but parents give you an idea of what relationships and friendships should be, and if you haven't got a positive idea, the best thing to do is surround yourself with positive people and friends and eventually, you'll recondition to knowing what love really is

19:44

And I know this is true because I am currently going through this myself, learning what real friends and relationships are

Also if you have a bad relationship with your parents the natural thing to want to do is to be as different from that as you can when you realise it’s unhealthy. Sure that’s easier said than done but if you know what you don’t want it’s easier to work for what you do

If either of you want to talk, my DM is always open

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LoLo <3

Also if you have a bad relationship with your parents the natural thing to want to do is to be as different from that as you can when you realise it’s unhealthy. Sure that’s easier said than done but if you know what you don’t want it’s easier to work for what you do

This is also very true

Bv_

If either of you want to talk, my DM is always open

Same here ❤️

thank you, all of you. talking to you guys (+ bran's hugs) has really helped. I've been an absolute state today and last night and it's quite taxing

20:00

I'll keep what you've said in mind and i think my insecurities just got the better of me

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Anytime, always here for you

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Good vent. I can’t stop eating pickled onion monster claws. I just did a workout and am now starving, kinda missing the point of working out.

Bennyboy

Good vent. I can’t stop eating pickled onion monster claws. I just did a workout and am now starving, kinda missing the point of working out.

you need energy

Mhm it's a valid thing to eat

I’m on my 7th packet tho

That...might be too many bestie

But they’re so good tho!

Honestly if you are hungry, there's no harm

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Usually if you’re craving something there’s a reason, no harm in listening to your body!

Now on my 9th packet

Mood

munch munch munch

yeanyaeatingpeanuts

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ForestBae🎄

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I love this!

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Why do feelings be complicated and annoying

00:34

And so hard to kill off

00:37

Also spiders in my bed

ForestBae🎄

Also spiders in my bed

They are friends, they want you to stop feeling lonely

They unfortunately cannot give me the hugs I’m craving

00:40

Also love that I now associate hugs and cuddles with my crush

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00:40

Need to kill that thought process off

I am experiencing symptoms ✌ Apparently that is the kind of night I'll be having tonight

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Are you okay?

Yes and no. Its the usual insomnia but I experiencing some spicy physical feelings which I have not experienced before. I dont want to call it hallucinating but it might be audiotry and sensory hallucinating so hmmm

00:51

Babe wake up, my paranoia and insomnia are tag teaming my sleep deprived ass. New symptoms just dropped

Have you ever tried the military falling asleep tactic?

Ive tried almost every trick in the book and unfortunately none of them work on a regular basis

Okay the seeing out the back of your head thing sounds kinda cool if you took it out of context but yeah I can imagine that's quite bizarre. As for a rustling idk where you are but presuming it's not been that way until now tho it probably won't suddenly be windyish outside loudly enough for you to hear it in your room. My friend has pretty bad insomnia and listens to music to sleep idk if that would help you or if anyone but he could sleep to acdc but it's a tactic I know works for him>

LoLo <3

Okay the seeing out the back of your head thing sounds kinda cool if you took it out of context but yeah I can imagine that's quite bizarre. As for a rustling idk where you are but presuming it's not been that way until now tho it probably won't suddenly be windyish outside loudly enough for you to hear it in your room. My friend has pretty bad insomnia and listens to music to sleep idk if that would help you or if anyone but he could sleep to acdc but it's a tactic I know works for him>

Thank you, I often use asmr but fancied some quiet tonight. That hasnt worked out great

Eeeeen

Ive tried almost every trick in the book and unfortunately none of them work on a regular basis

Valid, the military one is kind of like a system reboot and forces your body and mind to relax. I mean it does with mine

00:57

It’s like whispering to myself “fall asleep Roux”

00:58

Also, if you’re struggling to sleep. Sometimes getting up and doing a thing can be good instead of continuing to lie there, listening to the sounds etc

00:58

Often when I really can’t sleep, I get up and like fold some laundry or clean something, organise something

00:59

Idk, maybe none of those suggestions will work for you but I hope you manage to get to sleep soon

Thank yoouu

ITS NOT DELUSIONAL PARANOIA!!!

01:16

There was a 2 inch house spider crawling around in the bag of rubbish I had near my bed and it was causing super gentle rustling that I kept hearing!!!

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PICS

01:16

OMG BABEY

I yeeted her across the room sorry :(

Spider hisss

01:16

As you should

That's valid given the circumstances

B

Spider hisss

Spider cute

Shes was big and she was frightened and I am unable to manouvre myself to the window to put her outside so she got yeeted somewhere her noise wont bother me

Cannot believe a spider actually cause me to think I had slipped further into insanity. Good lord my psyche is so fragile this night that an eight legged wonder nearly brought me to the brink of despair

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01:26

I know 90% of us are going to hell but if you have any deities you like im begging y'all to pray for me

(edited)

I am in a way very glad that there was indeed a spider causing those noises, hope you managed to get some sleep after that

Eeeeen

Cannot believe a spider actually cause me to think I had slipped further into insanity. Good lord my psyche is so fragile this night that an eight legged wonder nearly brought me to the brink of despair

I TOLD YOU SPIDERS ARE FUCKING BASTARDS

Anonymous Confession (#352)

"I'm feeling v numb today but it's an almost calming sort of numb. i think i like it compared to the mood swings"

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If you need anything OP, my DMs are open

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How tf do i make friends I’ve got as far as joining discord servers but after that am stuck cuz not currently in norwich ;w;

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we should really have an online games night on this server at some point

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owo

Fun fact

21:32

I got pushed against a wall and screamed at today by grown adults

At work?

Nope, on the walk back

Holy shit are you okay?!

21:33

These strangers?

Yup strangers

21:34

And I wasn't

21:34

I just tried to forget it

21:34

And now I am

jfc that's horrible

21:34

hope you aren't hurt

I mean, they pushed me into nettles and brambles that were against the wall, but no, I wasn't actually hurt to a degree that is bad

4

Any idea as to why??! Sounds fucking weird from strangers

21:35

I’m so sorry that happened to you

Nope, they just came up to me

21:36

Pushed me

21:36

Shouted at me (which is really upsetting bcs trauma)

21:36

And then

21:36

Walked away

shitty people

21:37

sorry that happened to you

Nah it's cool

21:37

Just thought it was a fun story

Oh baby I’m so sorry

you’re taking care of yourself now yeah?

Lo, we need to go smash some kneecaps

I mean, I don't take care of myself anyway

21:39

I promise I'm just repressing it

21:39

I just thought it was interesting

Dude I will swaddle you up in blankets like a burrito and give you hot chocolate, I am so worried about you respectfully

3

Bv_

I promise I'm just repressing it

That’s not ideal either

mahariel

Lo, we need to go smash some kneecaps

We do.

Yous, don't worry, it's ok

Disrespectfully, I am going to take care of you. I want to wrap you in a blanket and sit you in front of a movie and bring you comfort food

21:40

I can’t do that right now but when we get to Norwich we’re doing a starkid marathon w anyone who wants to join us

21:41

I fucking care about you bro I want to make sure you’re okay

2

It's ok, honestly

People are allowed to be worried about you and show they care bc you're fantastic and deserve the world

3

I'm just shit at accepting kindness so I just reject it bcs it makes me uncomfy

Okay then we’ll make it mutual kindness. You watch shit w me next time I’m sad then we can bake something together blast musicals and sing

Oh I'm always down to give kindness

21:45

Particularly when yous are all living so close

You’re like a street away from me too

21:46

Good luck getting away

Ahhhh so if I'm hypothetically in need of company when watching Doctor who, I can con you into watching comfort show with me :3 mwhahahaha

If yous want me for anything, all you have to do it ask and I'll be there

1

I will use this to trick you into self caring

irltardis

Dude I will swaddle you up in blankets like a burrito and give you hot chocolate, I am so worried about you respectfully

I’m gonna do this

Bv_

If yous want me for anything, all you have to do it ask and I'll be there

What’s the first thing you want when you’re being sad?

The next few days is gonna be protect BV at all costs arc

LoLo <3

What’s the first thing you want when you’re being sad?

To die

The unthank gang form a protect bv at all costs club for next year

2

Ahhhhhhh

irltardis

The unthank gang form a protect bv at all costs club for next year

I'd be down

B

The next few days is gonna be protect BV at all costs arc

No bcs if you burrito blanket me I will never move and never leave bcs burrito blanket is comfy

Bv_

No bcs if you burrito blanket me I will never move and never leave bcs burrito blanket is comfy

Good

ohh noo

You’ll be safe that way

guess youll have to stay there

1

21:50

permanently

Even when you move house

21:51

I'll still be there

not if i carry you

NO BCS YOU CAN

21:51

Cries

!dalle Carrying a huge burrito bridal style

LoLo <3

You’ll be safe that way

Safety? Don't relate

B

!dalle Carrying a huge burrito bridal style

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4

uhh

21:52

Basically that?

But...you know we need to actually do this tomorrow now right

Sure

Bcs I'm gonna be tired

21:57

Two hour drive + two hour walk

21:57

Yum

Hey if it’s easier for you

21:58

You don’t have to come before my appointment

Nah it's ok

Idk why I can only get 2 weeks worth of medication at a time. Last time I only had a days worth left when I got some as the surgeries online system mucked up. It just makes no sense. My biggest concern is running out which is so easy when you only get 2 weeks worth at a time. Idk why I can’t get at least a couple of mother worth so I can get a decent stock to make running out virtually impossible. I’m really upset/angry cos if I run out I’ll go into withdrawal and possibly trigger a seizure. It’s total bs.

14:11

I'm sorry, that fucking sucks and is actually ridiculous

Anonymous Confession (#355)

"Anyone want my boobs, i very much dislike them on my chest today."

5

Confessions

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Yes please anon

The Revolution for trans folk is being able to remove someone’s boos onto another

i hate walking in unexpected rain

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6

Looking a bit wet

22:14

Sorry you got stuck in the rain x

notliamhyde02

i hate walking in unexpected rain

Not to be horny in vents but damn

Anonymous Confession (#360)

"Something my friend told me but i think everyone should hear since there are a lot of empathetic people in here: it's ok to prioritise yourself. You care so deeply about others, some who deserve it and some who don't, and it's admirable but don't stretch yourself thin. stop worrying about them, how they're doing and if they're ok. Because in the kindest way, they don't think about you at all. Keep your friends close and by friends i mean those who check up on you when you're having terrible days because they are harder and harder to come by. You're a wonderful person who deserves everything you put out in the world"

6

that’s something i’ve slowly learnt over the last few years and it’s totally acceptable to just step back from things and take care of yourself first

thanks OP ~~this feels aimed~~

10:31

good morning kids i just woke up from the weirdest dream I've had in a while. like subconsciously i should be hurt bc it's a really sad dream but I'm more just ??? since it was so bizarre lol

1

Valid

my usual hairstylist isn't in so wish me luck

Oh god I'm praying for you

these guys are v much "trust the process" hairstylists so I'm hoping i won't look like a youth pastor after i go home and have a shower

mahariel

these guys are v much "trust the process" hairstylists so I'm hoping i won't look like a youth pastor after i go home and have a shower

Expecting a selfies post asking if ive heard about a real cool dude named Jesus

14:00

"He swagged for our cringe and his father is totally based"

‘If I don’t sleep for a week the hand man hides behind my bedroom door’ - Liam (not from this gc) + his artistic interpretation

SPOILER

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Anonymous Confession (#362)

"I think my eating disorder might be coming back. I'm calorie counting again and obsessed with how my body looks and feel sick when eating."

4

Hey OP, it's ok

16:47

Just eat little bits occasionally

16:48

And if you need help, I'm here

Eeeeen

"He swagged for our cringe and his father is totally based"

jesus christ is AMONG us. and the devil is sus

1

I’m glad I’m gay. I don’t understand most strait men: we have near nothing in common and the macho chavy thing makes me uncomfortable. Anyone else feel like that?

For me it depends on environment, if its somewhere I expect those people to be (i.e. a sports bar) then I can get along quite well with them. If they show up in a space where I am visibly queer (certain nights at WF) then I am incredibly uncomfortable around them and would rather they didnt exist

I just don't get along with people, every "group" of people confuses me

19:44

So I pick and choose my friends carefully

19:44

So yeah, I do feel like that @Unknown

dinner with the parents, an exercise in gritting my teeth hard enough to hurt for hours afterwards

7

mahariel

dinner with the parents, an exercise in gritting my teeth hard enough to hurt for hours afterwards

Lemme know when your back

21:22

And I’ll give you a hug

B

Lemme know when your back

ty unfortunately won't be for some time tho

It’s ok just lemme know

1

Stuck with a dilemma but I have a feeling I know what way I'll sway. Saturday is obviously Norwich Pride, which would be my first official pride, but now my trains have all been cancelled and I would only be able to get there with being on a bus for probably over an hour with motion sickness. But Saturday is also my eldest sister's 32nd birthday and it will be the first birthday I celebrate with her in 10 years since she just moved back. Kinda stuck but knowing me I'll end up going for the easier option of staying home, but my head just keeps wavering between them.

4

Trains rn are an absolute disaster but I’m sorry yours was cancelled:( I guess this kind of depends on how sick you think you’d be once you got there if you think it would be worth getting to Norwich like that or if it’s better to wait for next year. While I’m sure everyone would love to see you they’re also reasonable people who would completely understand your reasons for staying home

2

so i was told after my trial shift that i would get a text/call on sunday or monday telling me when i’m working

10:40

and ive not received anything

10:40

ffs

10:42

now i have to call them to ask if i’m meant to be working this week but it should be up to them to let me know right?

10:42

why is this so complicated

2

I'm so sorry they are fucking you about

10:44

my mum is wanting me to call them so we can sort out lifts

10:49

but should be telling me when im in, i shouldn’t have to ask

10:49

they have my number so they have no excuse

notliamhyde02

they have my number so they have no excuse

I get that tbh, i would suggest ringing them even though it’s unfair on you.

10:50

So you get those shifts

ik

10:51

just wish it was simple now

10:52

thought the hard part was getting the job

10:52

not this

Yee, hopefully this is the only time you have to ask

now they’re not picking up

11:17

wtf is going on

11:18

nvm

11:18

said they’ll let me know when they get in

That’s something

yeah something

So I now have to do my works training week in my fucking cast and then leave 2 days early in order to attend surgery clinic all because my CUNT surgeon is on FUCKING HOLIDAY for the next 2 weeks. Why do you need a holiday when you work 3 days a fucking week bro?!?!?

5

12:15

I need to hold a frog. I need the little frog in my hands. If I stare into their little eyes I will feel better. Please, I need this, I need a frog

I can offer you little toad man and some frog emojis

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5

12:20

I’m so sorry Ewan

Eeeeen

I need to hold a frog. I need the little frog in my hands. If I stare into their little eyes I will feel better. Please, I need this, I need a frog

i can’t physically give you one but you can have this

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5

Thank yous ❤

i offer this

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wtf why is that so perfect

Anonymous Confession (#363)

"I actually miss them so much, I am genuinely falling for them"

5

Wow op are you me Fr tho it’s been like a month we’ll be back in Norwich again before we know it and then you can see them again

(edited)

Same op

Sameee, literally missing so many people

notliamhyde02

said they’ll let me know when they get in

they’ve said nothing yet…

notliamhyde02

they’ve said nothing yet…

Same still waiting on my train tickets for tomororw

why tf can they not just tell me when im in

16:25

ive said i’m available everyday until i go back to uni

16:25

just give me hours and i’ll do them jfc

so you're all °▪︎☆yearning☆▪︎°

everyone is yearning for something

17:15

feel like a poem could be written based on this servers yearning

That's your next mission Erin

E r i n

feel like a poem could be written based on this servers yearning

i can and have written poems for past yearnings

i just incorporate their characteristics into the characters in my stories so they're well-rounded and deeply flawed lmfao (edited)

1

honestly both of those are valid af

LoLo <3

That's your next mission Erin

im awful at poetry and my strategy is to just crush my own yearning

oh same i can't write poetry for shit. novellas tho?

valid, im just bad at writing lmao novellas are cool though

mahariel

i just incorporate their characteristics into the characters in my stories so they're well-rounded and deeply flawed lmfao (edited)

Every character I write is either an extension or aspiration of me

i am in awe of anyone and everyone with artistic talent, ngl, you're all awesome

LoLo <3

Every character I write is either an extension or aspiration of me

fair fair. I've always found that using real characteristics make the people seem all that more real

17:29

tho some of you in here would make an editor say "this is unrealistic" lmfao

Lmao we're just too spicy for the uncultured mind

mahariel

oh same i can't write poetry for shit. novellas tho?

i very rarely write poetry but when i do its basically all super gay yearning shit done at midnight

3

you are so incredibly valid

17:46

i v rarely write but when i do it's on the floor hiding from the person i slept with after v disappointing sex lmfao

1

Ripfangs

i very rarely write poetry but when i do its basically all super gay yearning shit done at midnight

sometimes you've just got an excess of gay emotions, y'know?

I DO know

what's a girl to do if not write gay poetry about it?

4

17:50

"i'm having a real time of it. might as well get some art out of this"

Lmao me writing a song about my ex

17:51

Best song I ever wrote too:(

awww

17:53

that's so sweet

17:56

tragic but sweet

notliamhyde02

just give me hours and i’ll do them jfc

I'm really sorry they are doing this

changed it out of shame

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Ow, I just punched my wall

3

chances of them tell me when my shifts are?

4

21:33

no clue

Why tf did you do that?!

Bv_

Ow, I just punched my wall

shit you ok?

Istg I'm gonna drive to the pub like rn and get them to tell you

21:34

Fucking ridiculous

21:34

No I'm not ok, but it's fine, I'm pissed off at this pub istg

2

21:36

Me, anger problems? Maybe

Please take care of yourself

I will

21:37

Sorry

It’s okay!! We care about you we want to make sure you’re okay

Bv_

No I'm not ok, but it's fine, I'm pissed off at this pub istg

what are up with pubs

LoLo <3

It’s okay!! We care about you we want to make sure you’re okay

Haha thanks, sorry again

notliamhyde02

what are up with pubs

They are ridiculous, that's what

Bv_

Haha thanks, sorry again

You’re all good

1

They are messing you around and it's pissing me off so much

I just wanna hug you all rn

5

5

god im going to bed before 11pm

22:14

who am i, my dad?

If you are tired, you are tired

There’s no harm in going to sleep earlier than normal

22:15

Besides you’ve had an emotionally draining day

1

Anonymous Confession (#371)

"need to get out of my head, I need to get over them, they were good I know, but they didn't deserve me and that wasn't a relationship. Need to move on and put energy into this new exciting thing"

3

22:50

Anonymous Confession (#373)

"also I think I am falling for them as they fall out of love with me

story of my life"

3

22:50

Anonymous Confession (#374)

"so now I'm crying because I miss them so much"

3

it's ok kiddo, crying helps a lot sometimes. idk what you went through but everyone ik here deserves the world

2

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This shit comes with time, beating yourself up about it won't change anything, ik it's hard but you need to be kind to yourself, it's the easiest way to heal in these situations. I'm sorry you're struggling op but 'this new exciting thing' could be exactly what you need ~ getting over someone is rough but if you have a positive distraction that can be what takes you out of the headspace and gets you enthusiastic about other things again. Rooting for you!!

2

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You can't be certain they're falling out of love with you but either way, just take it as it comes, see how the land lies and go with what feels right. You can't know anything for certain unless you start the conversation. You got this ❤️

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Sending you ALL THE VIRTUAL HUGS

crying can be really helpful in getting your emotions out but please try to stay hydrated if you're crying a lot, emotions can be rough with that stuff, I hope you're okay. Please know my DMs are open if you need anything

key thing: communication. talk to them

2

That last bit goes for everyone ofc ~ please stay hydrated and my DMs are open if anyone ever wants to talk. I love you all ❤️

2

same

23:21

love you guys

1

No

23:21

Mum says it's MY TURN w the saviour complex

but seriously, have a honest talk with them OP. at least sort out where both of you stand and it'll make it a lot easier for whatever you want going forward

1

23:22

LMAO

LoLo <3

Mum says it's MY TURN w the saviour complex

BYE

MUMMY NO

Wakes up in such a bad mood that I just wanna not exist lmao

5

I can’t wait to move in campus, won’t have to deal with the bullshit of living at home. I’m an adult and I deserve the respect of a fucking adult.

3

Oh I'm so sorry, it's not long now

I’m spending the day in my room because I know very well that I can have a better day by myself. I seriously miss having a car cos I feel so trapped at home.

3

If you ever wanna do something virtually, have a chat or watch something, just let me know

Going back to live at home after being at uni is rough, I'm sorry your family are making it difficult for you:( won't be too long now and we'll all be back and we'll have to take you out make it worthwhile hanging in there. If you want to rant or whatever we're here for you, my DMs are open if you wanna complain at any point

Mhm we are gonna do so much stuff together

13:23

Going to be great

LoLo <3

Going back to live at home after being at uni is rough, I'm sorry your family are making it difficult for you:( won't be too long now and we'll all be back and we'll have to take you out make it worthwhile hanging in there. If you want to rant or whatever we're here for you, my DMs are open if you wanna complain at any point

I won’t burden you with my rants when I’m in a bad mood,I do appreciate the offer tho. Look forward to hanging tho! Same for BV.

1

I can promise you neither of us would be bothered by your rants

^^

It's kinda of what I want to do for a living, listen to vents

13:27

So like

13:27

Always here for you x

Same here

Bv_

It's kinda of what I want to do for a living, listen to vents

Yeah but if I start telling you what goes on in my mind you might get me sectioned

I highly doubt it

13:29

We all have hidden issues

13:29

I'm here for anything

13:29

No judgement

13:29

Only support

If we seriosuly think you need help we'll recommend it but regardless as to your decisions we're here for you

13:32

We'll listen if you want us to, we just want to support you

Or if you just want company, we can provide that too

I honestly do like my family. However, I also find them seriously mentally draining. (edited)

That's understandable

13:34

Being around any people for that long is bound to have its tolls in one way or asnother

Bennyboy

I honestly do like my family. However, I also find them seriously mentally draining. (edited)

Relates

well i’m depressed again

17:23

done fuck all all day

17:23

had nothing back from this fucking pub

17:23

barely eaten, not showered

17:24

and just as i thought things were getting better

3

it's absolutely shit that they're running you around like this

17:24

job hunting put me in the lowest place I'd ever been

Healing isn't linear. The pub isn't being helpful, I'm really sorry. Have you called them up or gone in to ask? It's okay to have bad days, try and eat something if you can, and go outside for a few minutes to get the sun on your skin, sometimes that can be helpful if you've been inside all day. I hope you hear back from them soon

1

LoLo <3

Healing isn't linear. The pub isn't being helpful, I'm really sorry. Have you called them up or gone in to ask? It's okay to have bad days, try and eat something if you can, and go outside for a few minutes to get the sun on your skin, sometimes that can be helpful if you've been inside all day. I hope you hear back from them soon

well they said after my shift on saturday they’ll let me know on sunday/monday

17:27

i heard nothing

17:27

so i rang yesterday, got told i’ll hear from them later

17:27

i heard nothing

17:27

and now ive pretty got just over a month left until i go back

17:27

im not gonna get a job anywhere else

17:28

it’s either this place just fucking tells me when i’m in or i’m not getting a job

17:28

luckily it’s not a case of needing this job to pay rent

17:29

but im also not gonna have a lot when i pay that off

17:29

such a pisstake

the sheer fucking panic of my sister messaging me about her pregnancy test and my data not being able to load snapchat

17:32

it came back negative THANK FUCK

YIKES

Fuck what terrible timing

i was straight up about to vomit

I’m hope she’s alright

she's fine, just a dumbass

Lmao

going to mildly reprimand her when i get home and can call

17:34

i HATE snapchat with a passion lmfao

Same deleted the app the other day

"oooh you have one of the most important texts of your life coming? sowwy here's a spinning circle of death even tho every other app loads just fine :3"

Mine wouldn't tell me I'd have a message until like hours or days later

fair fair. I'm v close to my sister so I'm glad she immediately came to me when she had concerns

17:36

idiot teenager with the first "love of her life uwu" tho

It's nice you have that close of a relationship

also ew lmao

1

i know I'm throwing stones in a glass house but her boyfriend's name is Quinten lmfao

Lmaoooo wtf

17:38

Is he an old god

17:38

Or like a shitty poet

LMAO he's a lanky nerd

QUINTEN

17:38

THAT'S WORSE THAN PIERRE

that's all i know

IS SHE MY OLD HOUSEMATE

HAHAHAHA

SHE WENT FOR AN OSCAR, A BRIAN AND A FERGUS THAT'S ALL I'M SAYING

17:39

GET YOUR GIRL O U T

mahariel

LMAO he's a lanky nerd

Ew I dated one of those called Byron

bernard cribbins has died

17:39

https://twitter.com/i/events/1552583605867757568?s=21&t=ao_JJmEuGGCxej9lRFEHWA

Doctor Who and Carry On actor Bernard Cribbins dies aged 93

The actor was known for his roles on television and film.

Read more: https://t.co/HOhl9eeDws

HE DID THE VOICE FOR THE WINNIE THE POOH TAPES WE HAVE IN THE CAR MY MUM WAS SO UPSET

aww no :<

LoLo <3

SHE WENT FOR AN OSCAR, A BRIAN AND A FERGUS THAT'S ALL I'M SAYING

BRIAN. FERGUS HAHAHAH

mahariel

BRIAN. FERGUS HAHAHAH

Brian was 27. We were 19.

17:43

They met on tiktok

17:43

No I am not over this

ahhhhhh yikes

17:43

what

17:43

LMAO

17:44

i have never met a baby called Gary, Ian, or Fergus. fully believe they just spawn as middle aged men

Lmao Fergus was 20

17:48

Apparently he's a cokehead tho (definitely doesn't work on unthank)

that's not evidence that he was ever a baby

17:48

can't judge cokeheads anymore with how many drugs i used to do

LoLo <3

Apparently he's a cokehead tho (definitely doesn't work on unthank)

I swear if this is the Fergus I know I might just cry

Having a rough sad evening rn and wish I had someone here to hug me

4

Hope you're alright CB. We're all here if you need to vent or talk

Fuckboy Drag King

I swear if this is the Fergus I know I might just cry

Wait so we know the same fergus

WHAT

I think me and caz mean the same one

20:35

Idk abiut you though

B

I think me and caz mean the same one

YEAH I THINK SO

21:06

Can't really describe fergus

21:06

comp sci

He wasn’t a student

Ah not him then

21:06

Though tbf he never went to classes so

21:06

Basically wasn't a student either

Nah ik of a Fergus a year or so above who lived halfway between me and uni

21:08

I got drunk at a party at his house and did the washing up

21:08

Never met him but he lived w a couple girls from pole

Nah not our Fergus he wouldn't shut up if he lived with people from pole lmfaoo

Fuckboy Drag King

Nah not our Fergus he wouldn't shut up if he lived with people from pole lmfaoo

WBEJDHEBEJD

21:12

Ngl fergus is someone I couldn’t tell was a red flag

21:12

Or Yknow

I like to consider him both

21:13

Definitely a red flag individual, could let emma explain that better but he's just a bit... off really

Fuckboy Drag King

Definitely a red flag individual, could let emma explain that better but he's just a bit... off really

probably not best here

I want to smoke but I know I shouldnt smoke and I dont have anything here to smoke but like, fuck I want a smoke

Eeeeen

I want to smoke but I know I shouldnt smoke and I dont have anything here to smoke but like, fuck I want a smoke

wait until you can smoke again and then just throw a massive smoke sesh

I wont be smoking again for at least 6 months. Both tabacco and weed can have serious affects on the rate at which bones and scar tissue heal and once I have my ankle back I would like to keep it

well in 6 months you can hold the biggest session ever

Hotbox the entire fucking lake district

do it

Valid honestly

most interesting thing to happen there

notliamhyde02

most interesting thing to happen there

Incorrect, there are some incredible highline spots in the lakes

this is true

Eeeeen

Incorrect, there are some incredible highline spots in the lakes

highline perhaps?

If you blaze before a highline its referred to as a safety meeting. Highlines always require safety meetings

Been underpaid

02:04

Now my heads not letting me sleep

02:04

Because I’m worried I’m gonna be sacked or something

3

Uwu what’s this, me messaging my supervisor and her being angry too

02:38

Is this a work rebellion

02:38

Yes it is

The universe really throwing hands w me lately. Fully ready to fight some gods rn

5

I don't wanna be pathetic, but when you have a cold, it fucking makes you miserable

12:59

Just want a hug lmao

3

Bv_

Just want a hug lmao

Hi

Hi

hope you feel better soon

2

Anonymous Confession (#375)

"Tw selfharm every day I want to cut and it's fucking me up. My life is objectively good, there is nothing wrong but every thing that goes slightly not to plan or I can't do something properly and I just want to hurt myself I don't know what the fuck to do anymore. I've been clean for 3 years and 4 months but it's getting harder to stay like that"

6

im sorry to hear that OP, hope youre okay and here to talk if you ever want to ❤

Just reported an account on TikTok that is obviously a child groomer. They also deleted their comments but I reported them before they did. I honestly feel pretty sick right now. His pfp is him in his underwear and is obviously an elderly man. Idk I just feel helpless that I can’t do more.

18:03

Can people please find this account and report it!!!!

SPOILER

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Thank you for drawing it to our attention

18:27

And you are doing the best you can

18:27

Reporting is the best thing

^^^ reporting is the best thing to do

Some people are right dickheads at the airport. Like 15 seats in the waiting area are being taken up by people's hand luggage. So me and like 8 other people are just sat on the floor xD (edited)

oh boy reminiscing memories from covid lockdown concerning my old housemates and fully feeling this

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Guess who thought pride was tomorrow

7

All moved out of my room, i am so sad. Never though I could form an emotional connection with the worlds thinnest walls

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Anonymous Confession (#387)

"trying to get some sleep and all the family shit and mental health stuff starts resurfacing in my mind. this time last year was leading up to one of my worst breakdowns so feels like everything is just buzzing under the surface waiting to rear its head at every moment rn, eager to ruin what little respite i can get from all the other horrible, triggering stuff im currently dealing with. every time the pressure eases its only a matter of time until its back, fucking with my head and making it difficult to be coherent or make any clear or decent decision, but now its new and old stuff, fun :)"

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I'm sorry OP

22:50

If you ever need to talk, my DMs are open

Confessions

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I know I’ve said it a lot of times on here, but healing isn’t linear. You’re allowed to feel your emotions, I’m sorry your family put you in such a difficult situation. A lot can change in a year; you aren’t the same person you were back then, your circumstances are different, and you have a community around you here who care about you and want to support you. Look at your schedule and see what breaks you have that you can take to prioritise your mental health and do what necessary steps you need to protect yourself. I don’t know what your coping mechanisms are, but do what you can to make sure they’re readily available to you when you need them. If you can’t get a clear head I’m sure you could message your situation in advice or something and anyone who’s online could help out from an outsider perspective. I’m sorry you’re struggling op, I’m here if you need me <£

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Gonna pretend I spelt ❤️ right

Anonymous Confession (#395)

"after staying with people in your bed it’s so hard to sleep on your own"

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Agreed

Get another pillow and position it sideways. pull the duvet so it rolls in towards you then pull your legs up. It's not the same as being spooned but it works as a diy when you won't get to see them for a few weeks

Mhm, that works really well, gotta agree

It the only way I've got through this summer

10:53

Do keep rolling over and giving the pillow a kiss on the 'forehead' tho which is quite embarrassing when I'm properly awake

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that's fucking adorable

Hermes or evri or whatever can actually suck ass at this point holy shit

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mumblingmiss

Hermes or evri or whatever can actually suck ass at this point holy shit

theyre shit honestly

You know its bad when yodel is better than you

think they rebranded to try and distance themselves from the (deserved) hate but they’re still shit

mumblingmiss

You know its bad when yodel is better than you

oh god yeah that’s rough

Anonymous Confession (#397)

"So I look up and there was a terrifying tall monster poking it's head around the corner of my room, it grinned and laughed at me and then disappeared"

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When was the last time you: ate, drank, slept? When you start seeing things like that it's generally a good idea to make sure you're hydrated, not hungry and well rested

13:53

I hope you're okay op

idk if this is the same hallucinations OP from a couple weeks back but do everything Lo said, maybe see a professional, and i hope you're ok

I could've gotten to the seller in Cambridge and back in under a day so hermes/evri needs to buck the fuck up. girl wants her ugly cute playsuit for cromer carnival season

16:41

(Also if anyone wants to come down for some cromer carnival shit or go to cromer beach lmk)

My brothers girlfriend just got a hermes parcel delivered just now when I answered the door WHERE THE FUCK IS MINE WHERE IS MY PARCEL WHAT THE FUCK MY DUDE

Ooooff

Absolutely just gritted my teeth collecting that from the guy in his brought blue evri shirt

17:11

parcel for shauna WHERES THE PARCEL FOR CHEYENNE WHERE IS IT

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17:11

mumblingmiss

parcel for shauna WHERES THE PARCEL FOR CHEYENNE WHERE IS IT

If they don't call it a C Barcel you gotta slam the door in their face

LoLo <3

If they don't call it a C Barcel you gotta slam the door in their face

I fuckin will

Im so fucking DONE with this ankle. I want my life back. I'm fed up of standing like a goddamn flamingo just to make myself food. I want to piss standing up again. I want to walk barefoot in the grass and feel it between my toes. I want to wear a PAIR of shoes again instead of just one foot. I get that its important to take time and recover but like im fucking BORED

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Oh I'm so sorry

22:50

I can't imagine how difficult it is for you

22:50

If you need anything

22:50

Just message me

Can we make you one of those person carrying things like a stretcher but fancy so we can parade you around? Feels like a great solution to me /j (edited)

My cousin started calling me tripod because of how I stand with my crutches which is cheering me up a little

A joke could be made

It has been

Aw that's kinda sweet

It is honestly

Hermes need to hurry up fr bc I'm an anxiety baby who checks the tracking constantly and it's gonna destroy me

Cw period shit and mental health rant I've been bleeding for 2 weeks now called the med centre and ofc it's the one week they can't prescribe anything bc they're changing systems so I'm stuck with constant pain, throwing up, passing out and feeling sick every time I eat anything for another fucking week and I swear it's taking all my self restraint to not get a kitchen knife and remove this fucking implant myself it's been nothing but shit and now I need to go on more birth control to stop the bleeding when last time that happened my mental health hit fucking rock bottom I can't do this again I'm just not strong enough

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Oh I'm so sorry

12:20

That's really awfuk

12:20

12:20

If you need anything, let me know

That's horrible I hope you get everything sorted ASAP. Feel free to message me if you ever want or need to darling

Okay fine now hermes says they'll deliver today but idk if I bloody believe them

Yay CBackage!!

CBackage

LoLo <3

Cw period shit and mental health rant I've been bleeding for 2 weeks now called the med centre and ofc it's the one week they can't prescribe anything bc they're changing systems so I'm stuck with constant pain, throwing up, passing out and feeling sick every time I eat anything for another fucking week and I swear it's taking all my self restraint to not get a kitchen knife and remove this fucking implant myself it's been nothing but shit and now I need to go on more birth control to stop the bleeding when last time that happened my mental health hit fucking rock bottom I can't do this again I'm just not strong enough

that's horrible and I'm sorry you're having to go through that. I'm hesitant about sharing meds (with your allergies) but if you were here, i would have offered my own meds that i have for a similar reason. in the mean time, could you get a hot water bottle and put it on your abdomen? that helps me a lot

I’m drinking my body weight in tea trying to keep warm ~ another excuse to break out my favourite cardigan ig

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Really regretting how I lived first year

15:39

I made hardly any notes

15:39

I didn't try hard enough

15:39

I was kinda dumb

15:40

So now, I'm making notes on every single lecture and seminar I have had since the start of first year

15:40

Gonna go cry rq

Don’t put too much pressure on yourself it’ll all be on blackboard until you graduate, this is a really good way to get ahead but you have like over a month before uni starts so there’s no rush yeah?

Yeah this is true, but I've put it off for so long, so I just need to get it done now

15:42

And my parents will give me hell if they realise how little I've actually done this year

I'm failing at adulting so hard, everything with this new house is so stressful that I'm just currently sitting at the top of the stairs having a bit of a panic because I can't get the keys to work properly and the state of the property stuff is really stressful and just hnnnng

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Bv_

So now, I'm making notes on every single lecture and seminar I have had since the start of first year

i’m gonna start doing this for second year

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16:13

i passed first year fine but sometimes it really got to me and i just couldn’t cope

16:13

so hopefully i’ll sort my life out and do this

My anxiety has gotten to me, and like, I passed first year no problem, but it's still freaking me out, so I'm hoping if I get my year one notes sorted, I can be in a better position to be more productive in year 2

might have to splash a bit on fancy notes apps

16:15

ive got an ipad and apple pencil

16:15

i should probably use them for that

Not me just using OneNote

notliamhyde02

might have to splash a bit on fancy notes apps

Honestly about halfway through first year I was tempted to just buy a good tablet and pencil and do all my notes like that

Bv_

Honestly about halfway through first year I was tempted to just buy a good tablet and pencil and do all my notes like that

i kept getting tiktoks saying people’s life got better when they bought an ipad

Lmao mood

irltardis

I'm failing at adulting so hard, everything with this new house is so stressful that I'm just currently sitting at the top of the stairs having a bit of a panic because I can't get the keys to work properly and the state of the property stuff is really stressful and just hnnnng

Are any of your housemates home maybe you can work something out together as a backup for getting in if you're struggling with the keys? Mine were an issue for me this year too and didn't work for me twice but there was always someone home when I had issues so it wasn't a problem

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and then i bought an apple pencil cos why not

16:39

intended to start drawing with it but never did

notliamhyde02

intended to start drawing with it but never did

You draw?

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LoLo <3

Are any of your housemates home maybe you can work something out together as a backup for getting in if you're struggling with the keys? Mine were an issue for me this year too and didn't work for me twice but there was always someone home when I had issues so it wasn't a problem

Unfortunately I'm the only one in Norwich for another week :/, I managed to get into the house but I can't lock the front door or unlock the back door now

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Is there someone you can get to stay with you for a couple days maybe until you get more used to it? Or at least stay in the house while you get used to unlocking the door so they can let you in if it doesn't work? Idk if your parents have been able to do that for you already or if you came up by yourslef

16:43

If not you might be able to sort something out with the backdoor so it doesn't close on its own but looks shut so you don't have to worry as much with leaving the house

16:43

I know it isn't ideal but might be a short term solution?

Bv_

You draw?

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i want to

16:47

wanted to get procreate and do it properly

16:47

but just never did

That is honestly really awesome

16:47

Get it and do it

Thanks for the advice, I'm going to see what I can do, it's just a whole mess and there's been more stuff earlier on in the week that's been stressing me out

So I managed to get the front door working and able to lock/unlock but I did get locked out and have to climb in through the window

19:33

But all in all, a little dent to my dignity aside, this is a success story

Shit are you okay?

19:33

Ayyyy

Yeah I'm all good! I got a free funny story out of it!!

Oh yes add this one to your story telling bank

A classic uni moment added to the scrapbook of life

Freyja, you've heard most of my stand up set of mishaps, this is just another one

It's a great set of your antics

19:43

Truly you get into some comedic situations

If my med course fails, at least I'll have stand up to have a go at

I'd go to your comedy shows

Aww thanks CB

irltardis

If my med course fails, at least I'll have stand up to have a go at

Honestly you're fucking hilarious you could do it

Gross medical stuff just complaining to the void so my cast leaves my toes exposed and I cant clean them properly because I cant get the cast wet and like theyve just been hanging out for 6 weeks, exposed to the heat and air and whatever else theyve seen while ive been hopping around on crutches. The skin on my toes is peeling off. In chunks. Its horrendous. I dont know how far back on my foot it goes in the cast but the exposed skin is just peeling. Its fucking horrible. It feels disgusting. "BRO, if im being real with you for a sec, im straight up not having a good time rn"

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I'm sorry

my body temp cannot cool down whatsoever, months of struggling to sleep because it’s so warm

Being too warm to sleep is really not nice, some good ways to get your core temperature down are to have your feet in cold ish water (not ice cold), have a cold/ Luke warm shower before bed (just a rinse will do), freeze a wet flannel and put it in a bag in the bed

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Roux

Being too warm to sleep is really not nice, some good ways to get your core temperature down are to have your feet in cold ish water (not ice cold), have a cold/ Luke warm shower before bed (just a rinse will do), freeze a wet flannel and put it in a bag in the bed

I’m gonna try the feet in cold-ish water technique, I’ve heard of that before but never remembered to try it myself. Thank you for the advice

minor vent

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but my parents aren’t at work all day cos the car needs to go to the garage

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so they’re coming back at midday

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so i wont have the full day to myself

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PhantomBeef

I’m gonna try the feet in cold-ish water technique, I’ve heard of that before but never remembered to try it myself. Thank you for the advice

I’ve done it, genuinely works. Brings your core temperature right down, I’ve been working from home during the heatwave and those hottest few days I was just sat with my feet in cold water and a cold flannel round my neck

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Playing the fun spiralling game of is my memory shit or is that a new patchy bit of skin and what the fuck cream did I used to use

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Time for huge psychotic episode just before I start driving? Yayyyy

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Not really a vent but I nearly killed this lil guy in my shower and now he’s all soggy and google won’t tell me how to revive soggy moth :(((((

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just leave him on the paper for a bit maybe?

Yeah, let it dry iut

I just wanted to put something in here because time is going so fast atm and if it keeps going that way then I want to keep aware of some personal things. Over the next few months there may be points, whether they are days or weeks, where I don't talk as much or I'm a bit off and I genuinely don't want anyone here to be too worried about it. So I just wanted to let you know that from September into December I struggle a lot with grief and things get very difficult as a result of lots of loss over the past few years around the same time of year and some of it is a lot deeper or a lot fresher in my mind still. I do have a support system around me and I will make it through just fine even if this time is harder than the last times. I hope you all understand and I love you all but truthfully if you notice something different about me at points please do not worry too much, I'm much stronger than people think.

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mumblingmiss

I just wanted to put something in here because time is going so fast atm and if it keeps going that way then I want to keep aware of some personal things. Over the next few months there may be points, whether they are days or weeks, where I don't talk as much or I'm a bit off and I genuinely don't want anyone here to be too worried about it. So I just wanted to let you know that from September into December I struggle a lot with grief and things get very difficult as a result of lots of loss over the past few years around the same time of year and some of it is a lot deeper or a lot fresher in my mind still. I do have a support system around me and I will make it through just fine even if this time is harder than the last times. I hope you all understand and I love you all but truthfully if you notice something different about me at points please do not worry too much, I'm much stronger than people think.

Here for you

SAD is a bitch, I'm proud of you for recognising your experiences with all that ~ we're here if you ever wanna do anything (I find company always helps when I'm feeling bad but I get that differs on person) all the love

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LoLo <3

Here for you

SAD is a bitch, I'm proud of you for recognising your experiences with all that ~ we're here if you ever wanna do anything (I find company always helps when I'm feeling bad but I get that differs on person) all the love

Thank you so much

We’re here for you always CB. Keep being strong and being great and we will always be there as a support group for you

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it's so weird that I'll be elated for a couple days, feel like I'm on top of the world, and then everything crashes again at a completely unexpected pointn :/

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idk if it's external factors but it's like my brain going "you've been happy for too long. time to get a lot of anxiety about this insignificant thing now"

00:18

maybe not a great idea to stave off the inevitable anxiety attack and subsequent depression with nicotine but

tempted to take a mental health day off work but i haven't been working here for 3 months so i wouldn't get sick pay. and i have a bunch of projects due

00:50

fuck I'm struggling sm rn

00:50

but I'll be ok I'm all good

00:51

literally can't afford this lmao

Okay put the yucky nic stick down and open a window, sit and watch the sky for a bit, it's calming even if you can't see the stars. Regulate your breathing, the world's a bit nicer when your breathing is stable. Anxiety can affect the way you think and even if there isn't a 'reason' (as if you need a 'reason') you can just anxious out of nowhere, it happens. Take a mental health day if you need it, one day won't affect things too much, and you'll be in a better place to tackle the projects when your mind is rested. It's also pretty close to the weekend, you should be able to take some time off then too and sleep in if you need it. Everything's more expensive right now but the sky is free and beautiful (as is looking in the mirror which is also a pretty decent therapy). I'm here if you need me, always

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i really appreciate this Lo. i need to get up for an 9am meeting so need to sleep ASAP so will skip the sky for now but thank you

mahariel

i really appreciate this Lo. i need to get up for an 9am meeting so need to sleep ASAP so will skip the sky for now but thank you

Then omg bestie go to sleep????

everyone's asleep in the house so ig I'm just rambling myself out of a depression cycle bc i don't really have anyone else to talk to

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hahaha I'm trying

00:56

it's just the "i can't be alone with my thoughts" thing paired with my insomnia. so I'm just listening to music and distracting myself

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hopefully it'll tire me out to the point that i just crash

Apparently a milky tea with cinnamon is meant to help w sleepy idk I don't normally take more than half an hour to fall asleep so I'm not too familiar w insomnia

00:56

Do you knit? That always calms my mind gives me something to do with my hands and brain go quiet

don't have any of that or knitting tools but I'll be alright

00:57

i always am

ik you're the therapist of the friend group but i need to be up and stable so i can help people too

I don't think I'm really the therapist I'm not even doing a psych degree

well close enough

00:58

your advice is v v appreciated by everyone you reply to

You're so sweet

i promise I'll try not to spiral tonight

01:00

like i said, can't afford it and work should distract me from the utter worthlessness i feel

If you do need to talk or whatever, I'm not doing anything more important, I'm happy to call until we fall asleep, however long it takes if you need it, I'm here for you

01:01

We don't have to talk about anything deep if you don

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t want to but I am here

might be too late to call but mind if i text you?

Go for it! On here or over text normally?

don't think i have your number so I'll text you on here

Okay:)

Going to fucking kms

14:57

So fucking cross

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Trying to buy a car parking permit

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And it's fucking annoying

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I can't do anything

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I'm useless

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Oh man I'm broke af and I'm probably gonna have to ask my parents to borrow some money from them. They've said loads of times before that I can always ask for help with money but I just hate the feeling so much it feels icky. Girls gotta put her pride down for a moment and get it over with

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mumblingmiss

Oh man I'm broke af and I'm probably gonna have to ask my parents to borrow some money from them. They've said loads of times before that I can always ask for help with money but I just hate the feeling so much it feels icky. Girls gotta put her pride down for a moment and get it over with

i understand that feeling of ickiness

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doesn’t make it better when growing up my parents would always seem overly cautious about money

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which now makes me wonder if i can or not

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Gets to work, it looks dead

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I then look at the diary

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And there's like a million tables

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+ the cunty people are make fun of how I speak and are the rudest people to exist ever

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I'm gonna cry

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Pls if anyone can come down...do it

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Also the fact that I now know who the racists, homophobes and everything under the sun people are is really upsetting

16:59

I should not work in a public job

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Unblocks ex

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Someone stop me

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Actually don't

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I wanna send him a message

Don't you fucking dare

What if I just say Hi

No

17:03

That's illegal

Damn it

I'm calling the police

Can't be breaking the law

I will come see you soon at some point and I will hug you so goddamn hard

And I'll buy a mcdonalds or smth

The TEMPTATION to just friend him again is unreal

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I don't want to get back together

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I have new interests

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But I just am curious and want to see how he's doing

Please don't

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I understand the curiosity I feel it all the time too

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But it can bring back the sad times

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And that's not very cash money

I know

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Still tempted though

Breathe through it

DOES SOMEONE ELSE WANNA FRIEND HIM?

Zach please don't, i know it sucks but you deserve better ok?

I know, I promise it's mostly just curiosity bcs I hope he's ok after what I did

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I mostly wanna apologise

You don't need to do anything, you don't need that kind of stress

¯\(ツ)\/¯

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If someone does, it's there

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CBanned

Bv_

Unblocks ex

block him again

17:16

i will take your phone and block him again

Block him harder

do it

notliamhyde02

i will take your phone and block him again

Do it then

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Dont you dare

Bv_

Do it then

i will

You escaped that and dont let him anywhere near you again

WELL YOU WON'T BCS NOW YOU AREN'T ABLE TO COME

B

You escaped that and dont let him anywhere near you again

I can though

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And I'm bored

Bv_

WELL YOU WON'T BCS NOW YOU AREN'T ABLE TO COME

IK IM SORRY

YOU SHOULD BE X

Bv_

And I'm bored

not worth it

Eh it kinda is

17:19

Closure and all that

What closure is it actually going to give you tho

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Realistically

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You’ll go over what happened

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You’ll apologise

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He’ll either apologise and make you feel worse or not apologise and make you feel worse

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Then he has a doorway back into your life

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You don’t need the added stress

I just want the pain again, I don't deserve happiness

You do deserve happiness hun always

There are better ways to get pain. Get someone and hug them until it hurts

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Sing until your throat aches

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Scream if you want that’s always therapeutic

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But online shit? That’s gonna only give you head pain it isn’t satisfying it’s an anxiety pain and that’s so much worse

Watch a movie a sad movie. and let your heart out

LoLo <3

There are better ways to get pain. Get someone and hug them until it hurts

That was the plan, but now they can't come

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I can't I'm at work

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I'm just gonna do it

bv i will come to you i swear

I don’t know when I’d be able to come up I’m really sorry

B

bv i will come to you i swear

Pls do, like actually donit

Wish I could come to you rn darling

Well it won't let me friend him

17:23

And now I'm angry

Please don’t add him what is it realistically going to do

I literally can't

17:24

It won't let me

good

Not really

17:26

I wanted to retraumatise myself

Put your phone away, focus on work for now and try to distract yourself. Have a big sing in the car on the way home and let everything out. Then maybe call someone if you feel that would help, I’m free if you need anything I’m not doing anything tomorrow I’m here for you as long as you need

We love seeing old man grooming my 16 year old female colleague

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Fucking disgusting

18:53

Asking her if she thinks they are attractive

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No you fucking aren't

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Fuck off

18:53

Cunts

Wtf Ew what is wrong with some people

Bv_

Asking her if she thinks they are attractive

hope she said they’re not

She did

19:37

Bcs they aren't

good

Anonymous Confession (#417)

"Kerryn is my little kitty kat uwu :33"

ugh stop being so cute you little shits

mahariel

ugh stop being so cute you little shits

@B approve my confession you whore

22:38

brandon i will fuck your dad if you don't behave

Sees

yes you'll see me as your new mother

mahariel

yes you'll see me as your new mother

I encourage you to try to fuck my father

22:45

WHO simps for my mum

is that a challenge?

Who is an Incel conservative

22:45

i can fix him

B

Who is an Incel conservative

arun

AHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAH

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22:48

@B so is your father single

No

mahariel

i can fix him

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22:50

Badgers at Dawn (he/him)

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rip that dog's balls

22:50

LMAO

Badgers at Dawn (he/him)

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livestream of me with brandon after all the shit he said tonight

Anonymous Confession (#433)

"woke up from the saddest dreams that will affect my whole day now"

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Have a breakfast you really like try and distract your mind on better things, I hope you're okay

yeah the sunshine is helping a lot but it's just the annoyance of trying to get some rest and waking up bc my brain is playing scenarios that make me want to cry lol

10:42

just let me sleep? i don't need a recounting of my memories

Okay oof

10:43

Commit like facemask and cold drink that always makes me feel better when my head's being loud

hmm got the cold drink, now I'm writing about investment efficiency so brain full

There are amazing sheet masks on amazon I discovered over lockdown I used to do them every monday religiously ~ guess this is my reminder to start doing that again

great thing about WFH is that i can just play a random youtube deep dive in the background so if my mind wanders even a little from Capital Gains Tax, it's filled with streamer drama from like 2017

WHY DOES AMAZON IN THE SEARCH BAR IMMEDIATELY TAKE ME TO A DUREX PAGE I HAVE NEVER BOUGHT CONDOMS IN MY LIFE

Lmao

LoLo <3

There are amazing sheet masks on amazon I discovered over lockdown I used to do them every monday religiously ~ guess this is my reminder to start doing that again

ooooh might ask you for a link

LoLo <3

WHY DOES AMAZON IN THE SEARCH BAR IMMEDIATELY TAKE ME TO A DUREX PAGE I HAVE NEVER BOUGHT CONDOMS IN MY LIFE

amazon predicting the future maybe?

10:46

i have had a bunch of condoms in my bag for a couple months now and i thankfully have never touched them

Use them as water balloons to make yourself happier

They have pomegranate, green tea, aloe vera and honey ~ it's an 8 pack for £8 Tho I might get a subscription you know as a treat for myself

most action they've seen is when my housemate sheepishly knocked on my door to ask for one

mahariel

i have had a bunch of condoms in my bag for a couple months now and i thankfully have never touched them

I've got packs if I needed them but generally I've used whoever's I've been with

10:48

I did put a pack in a kitchen drawer at the start of the year communally so anyone could use them same w pregnancy tests but they were untouched when I left

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"can i get a,,," "a what" "you know,,," "dan pls use words" "well you know, like, my girlfriend's over, so you know, like the, i know you have some, i forgot and i don't want a, uh, can i" "ohhhh"

mahariel

"can i get a,,," "a what" "you know,,," "dan pls use words" "well you know, like, my girlfriend's over, so you know, like the, i know you have some, i forgot and i don't want a, uh, can i" "ohhhh"

Are they okay??

LMAO they're fine

What's wrong w 'yo you got any condoms

it was just hilarious to me bc he was bright red

LoLo <3

What's wrong w 'yo you got any condoms

physics student who did multiple compsci modules

10:49

that should explain it

Wow you described my ex bf wtf

LMAO

'It was a compsci module or a chemistry' WHY ARE YOU DOING A FOUNDATION YEAR FOR A PHYSICS DEGREE GO TO THERAPY

lovely guy, just a massive prude when it comes to women

10:51

he's liked this girl since 1st year and he only asked her out the week before she left for a semester abroad in 3rd year

Oh bless

but I'm proud of him. watched my little man grow up

That's actually kinda sweet

it was the funniest shit bc she's liked him this whole time too and just ??? they were both too scared to say anything for 3 years ???

MOOD

meanwhile here's to me asking people out a week after meeting them

Lmao when I met my first gf it took 3 months to ask her out

10:54

I was gonna do it at London pride but was too scared I was reading into things too much so waited until we got back to hers

awww that's absolutely adorable

10:54

at least you got there in the end

She's one of the most wonderful people I've ever met and one of my closest friends now

v happy and proud of you

10:56

idk how i psych myself up to it but i know asking someone out is a major, anxiety-inducing thing

10:56

i suppose if i like someone that much that it overrides my anxiety

10:57

tho i usually do it by sandwiching it between two unrelated topics

10:58

"that party was really great. do you want to go out for coffee sometime? can't believe Lo threw up on my shoes" etc etc

I just went ‘I was too nervous to ask you earlier but do you wanna be my gf’ and she was like yeah

Got a headache again and it's not like it's painful but it's just there and it's frustrating. I burn through 4head sticks like it's my day job

2

ok so we’ve got people looking at our electrics next week

13:19

and my mum is insisting on cleaning the entire house

13:19

sure things need dusting and stuff

13:19

but that’s pretty much it

13:19

she’s wanting us to clean everything like the fucking queen is coming round (edited)

and now ive just been lectured at about how i might want kids in the future when i know i don’t

14:05

literally a half hour lecture

This house will be the actual fucking death of me, I'm so done with this

15:15

Its the house I've moved into

15:16

The WiFi isn't working, the boiler and oven wasn't working the other day, I just had to pry the gas meter box open and just aaaaaa

15:17

Like all these are small things but they require me to call up and I've been calling up a lot or going and talking to them but every time one thing gets sorted, there's another thing

15:18

Thank you Bv

15:21

Thanks, I really appreciate it

15:22

Its just really frustrating because i have no clue what I'm doing, I've had no support with this from my parents and it's just so so annoying

15:22

Makes me feel so fucking useless

15:26

Dude I am not gonna ask you to drive to Norwich because I can't fix my WiFi and its giving me a meltdown

You're fantastic bv, I think I'm just going to go to my friends that I've been staying with for a bit to calm down probably

15:40

thanks

Anonymous Confession (#435)

"tw: self harm I fucking hurt myself again fuck fuck fuck. I don't know why this is happening I never actually did anything like this even at my lowest points but now that I'm happy and feeling good it's like I can hardly stop myself until it's too late and I've cut again and I feel so ashamed of it. It's gonna be really hard to tell my doctor"

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Sometimes there isn't a reason. You can be in a good place but your head needs some time to catch up. It sucks and I'm really sorry you're dealing with that op. Your doctor will understand that healing isn't necessarily linear and even when you are happier when things aren't as good for a period you can turn to coping mechanisms that aren't always the most healthy. That's okay, you're doing what you need to to cope. Sit with your feelings, acknowledge them. Get to know where your head's at in those moments, you're allowed to cry, you're allowed to feel. There are a lot of alternatives online that're meant to help, only one I found useful was drawing on myself, but different things work for different people. I'm here if you want to talk

hope you're feeling okay

3

I'm so sorry you're going through something that makes you do that. you're wonderful OP, and i would suggest reaching out to someone. you're here bc we all care about you so pls don't suffer alone

2

From some of the reading I've done self harm is mostly a response to potent, strong emotions that the brain is unable to regulate easily. Which is why its prevalent in those with depression and in poor conditions. However, if you're brain struggles to process positive things as well then it'll reach for its go to coping mechanism - harm. You cannot blame yourself for responding the way you're used to. The only real way to combat it is to try and find other coping mechanisms and make the conscious effort to hot wire your brain into relying on those instead.

4

17:20

Regardless OP, progress isn't linear, do your best to be kind to yourself. You are worthy of love and forgiveness, take your time and do what you can. We're all here for you

Anonymous Confession (#438)

"feeling just off at this point. tomorrow is going to be a day of painful self reflection at best or a day of really shitty memories and emotions at worst"

3

Just found a comment section on TikTok of people defending someone who was bullied out of school when they said they watched child hentai stuff. I’m honestly sick.

Bennyboy

Just found a comment section on TikTok of people defending someone who was bullied out of school when they said they watched child hentai stuff. I’m honestly sick.

Honestly, this shit really pisses me off

21:50

We should not be defending ANYTHING to do with child pornography. I dont care if its animated its fucking wrong

B

We should not be defending ANYTHING to do with child pornography. I dont care if its animated its fucking wrong

Someone is literally defending it saying it’s just anime, are you going to arrest all anime people. Idk how that justifies anything.

'It's just a drawing' yes but it normalises child porn if you go into it knowing they're intended to be underage it's still a big fucking problem

if it's just a drawing then why don't they jack off to gay hentai even tho they're straight lol. if they say they're not attracted to men then that's admission that they're attracted to children

Just deleted TikTok. I’m sick of that shit.

I had tiktok for about 2 weeks. Despised how algorithmic the content was and uninstalled it

Anonymous Confession (#456)

"im the person from yesterday about feeling off and dreading today, its actually gone really well. still a slight off feeling but overall feeling better and not letting it define my mood where i dont need to :)"

5

I hate having body hair I can't wait for this bleeding to stop and I can finally fucking shave again. I know it's a thing for some people but I can't bear having any hair below the eyebrows I just want to look like me again

4

Currently watching the mens diving with family. They’re all really attractive and I’m dying inside cos I’m sure I must be blushing. Idk I’m just trying to keep a straight face.

This is why I'm on my laptop instead of watching it w my mum bc I'm sure she's the exact same and I do NOT need that

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Taste

19:10

I’m planning to buy some when I’ve worked out enough.

19:11

I want to be able to eat and not have a food baby.

I bloat like hell too doesn't make us any less hot

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shut the fuck up have you seen me

Bodies are meant to have a layer of fat darling otherwise we'd rip when we stand up

you literally are tho

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ik

Chubby bodies are beautiful but you don't need to be attracted to them for them to be valid and good

LoLo <3

Chubby bodies are beautiful but you don't need to be attracted to them for them to be valid and good

preach

The same goes for you Zach

im happy to be chubby

You're beautiful

1

19:15

Regardless as to the way you see yourself

ah fuck kept pressing the wrong one

1

shookpeach

1

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going to slap you

19:16

in a non kinky way

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I haven't seen most of your body, I love you platonically. You have a very lovely face and really pretty hair. But your personality is beautiful. I find with most people, their physical appearances are the most boring things about them. If you're nothing but your body, you're gonna be boring. Anyone who is going to be seeing those parts of you, is going to be someone you're close to in that way, and they will love your body for how and what it is, because they will be with you for who you are, not how you look. You might be chubbier than you like, I have no scope of what your body looks like, but nobody taking off your clothes is going to be thinking you could be making improvements on your body but yourself. Give yourself a break, you're doing good

You get home okay?

21:28

Or are you still in the pub?

21:30

Glad you got back safe

Anything you want to talk about?

Norwich is missing you too, it won't be long now and when you get here we can do all sorts of fun things

I'm really sad you're gonna be there and go before I get there

21:32

But it really isn't long now

I'm going to annoy you so much you'll be missing the peace and quiet Bv

21:34

!!!!

21:35

No pressure but I'm sure I speak for a lot of people here when I say that would be awesome!

1

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fuck your ex

21:38

i’ll get a hitman on him

We can go halves to save money?

Your ex is an asshole. That being said, understanding what your feelings are and sitting with them isn't a bad thing, and there's no harm in crying. I'm just sorry you're being so sad.

21:42

We're here for you Bv

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You got this and you're not doing it alone alright?

If you want to call literally whenever, please do

^

Or join a vc on here so anyone can join

I'd be so down for that

Okay, don't panic, sometimes that stuff blocks itself out of your head. Are you able to clean it up patch yourself up?

22:10

I'm sorry Zach I'd give you the biggest hug if I could

22:10

Sending you virtual hugs

I mean it'll get the adrenaline out

??

22:39

Oh fun

22:39

Can you delete the shared doc from your thing?

22:40

Okay mood but also oof

22:41

I assumed it was for laundry

22:41

Imagine sharing meals w your housemates I could never

22:41

We didn't even have Christmas actually

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OMG BIG GAY CHRISTMAS PARTY???

gay christmas when?

We could do it in the kitchen on campus @Unknown was talking about

22:43

That way we could all do it

Then all go sit somewhere and blast christmas music

22:44

Omg no but I'm getting excited for Christmas IN AUGUST

LoLo <3

Omg no but I'm getting excited for Christmas IN AUGUST

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ap9GqyLoWyY&ab_channel=tomcardy

Not Quite Almost Christmas Time - (Official Video)

I don't really do getting excited

22:45

They got out the videocamera and have film of me saying 'no thank you' to 'do you want to go to Disneyworld'

22:45

Uni has me a changed woman

be gay do excitement hail satan

LoLo <3

We could do it in the kitchen on campus @Unknown was talking about

its called the green room i think, in the union house

1

22:56

should be able to just book it on booker i think, doesnt say it needs to be for a society or anything

If it did we could always just open it up to the whole of pride soc

22:56

The more the merrier as far as I'm concerned, tho idk how big the room is

Anonymous Confession (#466)

"your abandonment issues and painful memories of your ex always appear when your walking alone at night. Fuck. Sake."

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Anonymous Confession (#467)

"All these cute people here falling in love and having crushes... I want someone to love too goddamn guys, save some for me

"

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Hi OP, I'm your girlfriend now. That's just how it is.

Yay another person to add to the tangled web of lore

Also, you'll have someone to love in your own time and when they come around in your life they will be so lucky to have you. Sometimes love really is worth waiting for

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very tiny rant but i just want to be at uni now

19:25

want to start second year and move in to my house

19:25

i found a notes app for my ipad that i wanna use in lectures

19:25

actually get some use out of the apple pencil i bought

19:25

if i’m not gonna draw

Anonymous Confession (#477)

"ugh i fucked up"

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Fucked up how op?

notliamhyde02

very tiny rant but i just want to be at uni now

I feel this, I’ve been doing as much pre-reading as possible and planning ahead for my routine etc

19:40

Just want to be back with my friends now

mm

19:41

ive not yet pre read anything but i do kind of miss uni life

19:41

well some of it but still

my short term memory has gone to hell right now and its starting to drive me mad

3

E r i n

my short term memory has gone to hell right now and its starting to drive me mad

Context?

Anonymous Confession (#478)

"im ok, not to worry"

3

LoLo <3

Context?

lots of small things, forgetting something id say id do, forgetting what i was supposed to be doing, where i left stuff, just adds up over time

Oh fair

20:25

I use notes app then transfer it to post it notes on my wall

20:25

(I get overwhelmed when I use to do lists most of the time)

Playing a dangerous game there I see

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living life on the edge

Stitch?

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jealous

Aw looks like one of the ones you can get at disneyland

21:18

So cute

21:19

Oh fr

21:20

Wait here

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that’s actually so adorable omfg

21:21

i just want a djungelskog and/or a blahaj

:)

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21:23

I just remembered getting my old friend the same stitch you have lmao

21:24

Oh shit lmao

1

21:26

So giving people stitch and angel teddies is kinda cursed then huh

notliamhyde02

i just want a djungelskog and/or a blahaj

I’m literally right here

21:30

Tall andcuddly (edited)

21:30

LIKE COME ON

B

LIKE COME ON

WELL COME HERE THEN

No

21:31

Majority of this server is in Norwich

istg i will name my djungelskog brandon and my blahaj zach

~~just get married already~~

mumblingmiss

~~just get married already~~

don’t

21:34

tempt

21:34

me

B

I’m literally right here

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I'll literally hold the ceremony for you I stg

mahariel

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I'm gonna have nightmares

HAHAUEIEJEUEJE

ONFG

mahariel

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you flip those words RIGHT NOW

LMFAO

crisisbitch

crisisbitch

crisisbitch

Anonymous Confession (#481)

"Why do I feel sad at the end of a day? I just feel like every good thing I’m planning is just fantasy and pretty soon I will be back to reality."

5

it feels like that a lot but you'll be able to do the things you're thinking of

Anonymous Confession (#522)

"loneliness has been hitting quite hard lately. post-graduate life is not the one… very lost, much a mess"

4

I’m sure if you’re anywhere near Norwich you can come hang out w people when there are plans going? I’ll be back permanently in September and wanna do stuff w loads of people and if I’m talking about plans in meet-ups here the genera vibe is everyone’s invited

Stop fucking hitting on me oh my god you had me absolutely demolished 6 months ago and I pulled myself up tooth and nail to get back on my feet without ruining myself entirely. I have a life I live for myself now, not worrying about doing a degree your mother would approve of or how I was going to afford paying for your therapy while you didn't want to work. I want to be your friend goddamnit but there is a line with friendly flirting go hit on your new partner who's so out your league it isn't even funny and has no idea you're calling your ex gf hot or telling her how lovely it would be to spend the night together again. They deserve better than you, I deserved better than you. I went back 3 fucking times for you and kept getting hurt but I've grown and learnt enough that I can move the fuck on. How can you come out with this shit now I tell you how happy I am with someone else? Communicate with your fucking partner if you're not happy but don't try and cheat with me it won't work

5

10:25

Sorry about that everyone I had to get that out of my system. Guess who's meeting up with their ex this weekend?

I'm sorry you're going through this, she should respect your boundaries and that you've moved on and it's not right that she's doing this. you're not an accessory that she gets to fall back on whenever she feels lonely. you're wonderful so keep your resolve steady and make sure you're comfortable before meeting her again

I'm sorry to see how upset this has made you, your ex needs to back off and you don't deserve this kind of treatment from anyone. I hope you're doing okay and don't feel like you need to do anything that makes you uncomfortable, you set your own boundaries and nobody gets to cross them like that. Here for you ❤️

They're my best friend of 5 years I'm not willing to break our friendship group over this but clearly I need to communicate better boundaries bc she's not getting how much of a thing this is like yeah I was fine w it when I was in love w them but I can't go through that again, I've moved on and she needs to too. Thanks for the support guys

3

Really wanna hang out with people but it's too warm and I'm broke af right now

6

mood

pain

16:44

registering on evision right now and my personal details have recorded me with Miss as a title and Female gender, which is great, but I now have to say these details are incorrect because thats not the legal case and not the details student finance have :)

3

16:44

love having to misgender myself, its fun

Don't you just love dealing with bureaucracy

adore it

16:47

first time doing this with my changed name, I love how accepting the uni has been and that theyve clearly recorded this stuff when they asked about it before, hate how I know have to correct them for legal reasons

Legal documents are such a fucking hassle

new issue in having to try and get hold of my medical records to find out whether or not I've been noted down with mental health stuff before, because they never told me, just prescribed me stuff :)

17:02

i hate any form of registration or paperwork, it is so frustrating

If they prescribed you stuff for mental health they probably have made notes

17:02

Can we register now then? When I tried before it wouldn’t let me

It's up on Evision now I think

Nice I’ll have to try and remember to do that, Ty

and yeah I just need to check if it was an actual diagnosis or if it was just a treatment, I don't want to say I do or don't if it's wrong

I feel so conspired against… I made all these plans for travel and house/apartment viewings today and one of the viewings got cancelled last minute after I already walked there, another one got delayed by like 30 mins so I had to stand in the sun only to turn out to be a waste of time anyway, and then the connecting train I was going to take back got cancelled (managed to figure out another way to make the connection luckily)

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17:37

Why did the universe want to mess with my plans so much today….

sounds really stressful, hope youre okay and can rest soon

Just putting this here bc I think you guys will find it funny and also v disgusting. I'm pretty annoyed rn after finding out my ex (who I was with almost 6 years) is now just started dating a girl with the same forename as me, and sure if my name was super common that would be fine but I haven't encountered many people going by Cheyenne in my life and somehow he's attracted to someone that just happens to share my name. He probably heard the name and automatically clinged on to the poor girl. I might be overreacting but kinda feels icky and like somebody's got issues that I really don't wanna be confronting.

1

17:59

Yeah pretty much one of the big reasons I split up with him

18:00

Thanks

18:01

And yeah I really noticed it when I was at my worst and dropped out of my first uni and moved back home and he kept silently following me around the accommodation building when I was packing

18:01

Some people are real dodgy

18:03

Yeah take me as a lesson that you can know someone for a long time and not actually know them

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bin them

Good

19:23

Yes, that, exactly

musical and baking as expressions of happiness are perfect

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Blasting heathers?

hope youre doing well though

19:26

do the reprise

19:26

send confusing signals

19:26

oh right

19:26

perhaps not

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biscuits?

Anonymous Confession (#533)

"FEEL LIKE SUCH AN ARSEHOLE RIGHT NOW FUCK"

5

Hey OP, what's up?? I'm sure you aren't babes

19:31

The Bvambulance is on its way

BRANSON YOU WHORE

IT WORKS SO WELL

You've now been given a classic CB nickname

I SHOULD HAVE NEVER TOLD YOU ABOUT THIS ADMIN POWER

mahariel

BRANSON YOU WHORE

Branson? Like the pickle?

no like the virgin media founder bc he's a fuckin virgin

mahariel

no like the virgin media founder bc he's a fuckin virgin

What happened this time?

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ANY TIME

LoLo <3

What happened this time?

posh boobs

LoLo <3

What happened this time?

look at my name

Lmao

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Funniest shit I've ever seen

evil

mahariel

look at my name

I thought you did that on purpose

Couldve at least called them by their proper name: titties

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@Unknown there now we match

awww cute

19:36

love boobs

mahariel

love boobs

Boobs

mahariel

love boobs

Boobs are great this is true

19:37

Love having them

LoLo <3

Boobs

Wow really embracing my inner chrissy chlapeka here

"Ok, hear me out. So it's about this guy named Bran. He's a scientist that turns himself into a pickle. Funniest thing I've seen. In the episode Bran's granddaughter Freyja flips over a talking pickle... And its Bran! It's the funniest thing."

This escalated quick

LoLo <3

Wow really embracing my inner chrissy chlapeka here

oh me oh my

This server right now

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~~wait is B Freyja's grandparent or parent?~~

yes

Both

19:39

Yes

i have no idea how to make this work but i will make it work

E r i n

~~wait is B Freyja's grandparent or parent?~~

Parent according to the lore so let’s make it grandparent so it’s more complicated

on it

tho tbf we're due a new matching nickname update

1

This is true this is true

19:40

If I ever get into a relationship tho I wanna do matching profile names

okay which one of you is B's child

awwww

19:40

freyja is my child from a previous marriage

@Unknown

ohh so its adoption

B leave my boobs alone

@B scary boobs

Yesss boob gang

19:41

SCARY BOOBS

mahariel

freyja is my child from a previous marriage

Yeah you got me in the divorce

god's favourite boobs

Ripfangs

Yeah you got me in the divorce

won custody bc your father is a goddamn deadbeat

uh

19:42

no

19:42

unfortunately not B

E r i n

uh

YES

Wasn't I your child too

It’s all coming together

i think so?

@Unknown OnlyBoobs?

it's a wip okay

What

HAHAHA

wtf i was about to change my name to the server boobs and it’s already changed

reading through a 60 page document because i was only emailed about a surprised appointment tomorrow last night and only saw it this morning :)

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E r i n

reading through a 60 page document because i was only emailed about a surprised appointment tomorrow last night and only saw it this morning :)

Change it back Erin

i miss having lots of alcohol

B o o b s GODDAMNIT

E r i n

reading through a 60 page document because i was only emailed about a surprised appointment tomorrow last night and only saw it this morning :)

Oh oof I am so sorry

E r i n

i miss having lots of alcohol

Drinks when I come back week after next?

sure

19:47

i have no mixers but sure lol

This place is so fucking fancy

well i have a bit of carbonated vimto left but that's going to be used up by tonight

Nah I'll need to stock up when I move in

i have no alcohol

19:48

have had a stone cold sober month

ah maybe i should not be talking about alcohol

Uncle Steff is coming over taking us out for drinks so I'm getting wasted xo

If you yall want some gordon's original gin lmk

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And that would be so sad

this booklet can fuck itself with how much its calling me out

20:36

id set it on fire but its on drive so its a bit hard to

20:36

ill print it off tomorrow at the uni then do it

Anonymous Confession (#537)

"why can’t i just have good things for one second without fucking it up? feel like i’m just in a cycle of having good things and then bad things fucking everything up and now im back at the start, just sad and miserable"

3

I'm sorry OP, I hope you're okay

I really hope things improve for you again soon, you deserve good things and hopefully you'll get them properly soon ❤️

i want to cut all my hair off

23:05

just showered and spent like half an hour trying to brush it out but it all managed to tangle up and i hate it

23:06

now i’m pissed off

23:06

keep finding hairs on myself

Lean your head to the side and go from the bottom up with brushing like little bits at a time that's the easiest way to tease out tangles

Anonymous Confession (#541)

"well there goes my trust again"

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Do you wanna talk about it op?

Anonymous Confession (#542)

"do I confess to my crush or to I just. Not. Fucking hate this"

Go for it op!!!

Confessions

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here to talk if you need it?

Anonymous Confession (#545)

"Just want to meet new people going into my next year of uni! Friends, possibly more, even if not I'm feeling positive about the year ahead ❤️"

potatosnuggling

1

You got this op! We're here for you ~ I don't know who you are but if I haven't met you already and you're on here then I wanna meet you!!

Anonymous Confession (#547)

"frightened that I'm now not welcome here and that I've lost one of my closest friends"

potatosnuggling

3

Idk the context but if you're close surely you can talk about it? Communication is so important

Anonymous Confession (#548)

"had a good day but overloomed with another stress"

5

All the campus accommodation for students with disabilities have all been reserved so I am really pissed. It’s not my fault I was only recently diagnosed and didn’t know I could apply in January. This is a shit system and I am really angry. At the accommodation only having 50 spaces and at myself for getting excited about moving on campus.

17:42

I’m now looking at if campus accommodation close to uni but as it’s so late I bet most are taken up and only shit ones are left.

17:43

They said I’m on a waiting list but that doesn’t mean anything. There’s probably a heap of people ahead of me.

17:45

Thanks for the offer. I just need to be a maximum walk of 5-10 mins from campus and I’m sure they’ll have actual ovens of campus.

17:47

I@ not getting my hopes up.

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Naaah, it’s really not something you should need to help with.

If it's any reassurance I know a few disabled people who got in through clearing and they got rooms so it's not an impossibility that you'll be accepted

17:49

Obviously there's no guarantee so it might be good to get some backup options

17:49

But there's no certain either way you might get lucky depending on exam results this year

LoLo <3

If it's any reassurance I know a few disabled people who got in through clearing and they got rooms so it's not an impossibility that you'll be accepted

Thanks, that’s actually great to hear. Im just waiting for access to the of campus residence finder.

That makes sense, good luck! I'm sorry this has been so stressful for you

Anonymous Confession (#549)

"If I wasn't going to visit a friend tomorrow, I honestly not entirely sure I could stay sane right now"

18:54

Anonymous Confession (#550)

"Music is such a good therapy, it always helps"

So true

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Facts, been listen to the Lightning Thief musical basically on loop last month and probs gonna do it this month

i just feel shit

19:12

idk if it’s something i’ve eaten but i don’t feel good

4

hope you feel better soon :/

also just stressed about things that really shouldn’t be stressing me out

19:14

but whatever

19:15

probably only affecting me cos i feel shit

Are you okay liam? I’m here if you need to talk

19:17

If you’re bloaty there’s a really good method I learnt on tumblr where if you put 4 fingers above your belly button and push in a little on the 2 furthest away and rub in like gentle circular motion (not hard bc ow ~ it’s not meant to hurt, your tummy will make weird noises tho) it makes the bloat go away and will help make you feel a bit better

not so much bloated

19:17

just a rumbly tummy

19:17

had one all day

19:18

can’t think why tho

19:18

but thank you

Anonymous Confession (#552)

"I fucking hate everything at the moment. I'm fed up of being trans and being misgendered and not looking like me. I'm sick of being depressed and I'm so done with being traumatised. I've tried to look for therapy and it's just not accessible to me because of money and wait lists. I just want one day where I don't want to kill myself or have a flashback. I know its my fault and I don't deserve it but i want a break"

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I'm so sorry OP, here to talk if you want

I don't know your exact situation, but I do get how daunting waiting lists can be, and how it can feel so isolating and disconnecting to not be able to reach the help you need when you need it. But if you do ever need support from friends, I'm here for you, even if it's not the same as professional help it might help just to know your heard, and have people who can help distract you from stuff - even for a bit - if you want. Hope things improve

You can get a one off therapy session through uni, I had one at the start of the year and it really helped me, might be helpful for you too. I don’t know what it’s like being trans for obvious reasons and I’m not going to pretend otherwise but I know it isn’t easy. We’re all on your side, if you ever need support we’re here for you. Gender is never anyone’s ‘fault’ it’s just a thing that exists and fucks people over sometimes. I don’t know who you are but if you need a place to crash and not be misgendered once we’re all back in Norwich you’re welcome to crash with me for a bit and not think about shit and I’ll do everything in my power to support you. I hope you’re managing okay, my DMs are open if you want to talk

2

I hate how often I seem to be posting in here but hey. It's been a long time since I've spoken to any of my long distance friends and I haven't really had the confidence to join any of the voice channels and start communication again but today I've really been building myself up to it and have wanted to talk to them all again but I go to our group and look at who is in the voice channel and now there's no chance I'll join bc my fucking ex is in there so he's a twat and his mate who verbally abused me all the time after the breakup is in there too. I hate cutting people off and I love my lads so much but just when you want to be a part of it again you realise who else they're friends with. And I've had enough of being the person who always initiatives conversations too, I'm always the hey how are you person but they never provide me that same simple courtesy. They're all I have left of me from before college and those are hard relations to let go of when there's nothing left. Sorry to go on and on again. (edited)

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mumblingmiss

I hate how often I seem to be posting in here but hey. It's been a long time since I've spoken to any of my long distance friends and I haven't really had the confidence to join any of the voice channels and start communication again but today I've really been building myself up to it and have wanted to talk to them all again but I go to our group and look at who is in the voice channel and now there's no chance I'll join bc my fucking ex is in there so he's a twat and his mate who verbally abused me all the time after the breakup is in there too. I hate cutting people off and I love my lads so much but just when you want to be a part of it again you realise who else they're friends with. And I've had enough of being the person who always initiatives conversations too, I'm always the hey how are you person but they never provide me that same simple courtesy. They're all I have left of me from before college and those are hard relations to let go of when there's nothing left. Sorry to go on and on again. (edited)

You’re allowed to be messed up by that anyone would be!! I’m sorry your ex got in the way of you reaching out that really sucks

is there a chance you could message a few separately so you don’t have to acknowledge your ex as part of that group and just keep in touch with the ones you want to? We’re always here if you want to chat ik we’re not the same as pre-uni people but we’ve got your back

Can people not glare at my family just cause we are different looking

4

20:57

Just cause we are a different race doesn’t mean we can’t be at a holiday park as well

thats awful im so sorry

20:58

hope youre all okay

I’d say blow them a kiss and carry on with your day or stare back but idk if that’s really bad advice

21:00

But ignore them probably works pretty good too

ForestBae🎄

Can people not glare at my family just cause we are different looking

that's awful wtf. hope you aren't too shaken up by it

LoLo <3

You’re allowed to be messed up by that anyone would be!! I’m sorry your ex got in the way of you reaching out that really sucks

is there a chance you could message a few separately so you don’t have to acknowledge your ex as part of that group and just keep in touch with the ones you want to? We’re always here if you want to chat ik we’re not the same as pre-uni people but we’ve got your back

Thank you

Anonymous Confession (#554)

"I'm honestly terrified. I know it's my brain being irrational, but there are things all over my house, hiding and they will kill me if I don't kill myself first. Help, the dark is not my friend"

Anonymous Confession (#555)

"now I’m home I am thinking about the last night more and more and anxiety building up"

3

hate myself

12:04

:)

12:04

need to punch something

4

Original message was deleted or could not be loaded.

nothing serious im just being stupid

12:54

letting myself get angry and making myself upset (edited)

Anonymous Confession (#556)

"i struggle so much to concentrate right now and with everything that needs to be done with cleaning, sorting out utilities for the place we're moving into (something i havent done before so learning it for the first time), having to sort out contents insurance and just generally keeping my mental health in check it just feels like every time i get a slight respite its a matter of time until pressure builds up and i have a bunch of new things to deal with, and i just feel so useless as i can do fuck all right now"

2

15:03

Anonymous Confession (#557)

"so I guess that My friendship means nothing to someone now. Heart been broke so many times"

4

Anonymous Confession (#558)

"me: opens up about my growth and learning to like someone again. Them: ok what if I make it hurt"

4

im sorry OP, hope youre okay

Anonymous Confession (#559)

"feel so selfish feeling bad about myself but knowing my friends gonna end up really hurt aswell"

1

I don't know the details of your situation, but try not to hold yourself accountable for everything. It doesn't sound like you intentionally want to hurt anyone, and if you've tried your hardest to try and prevent that, there isn't much you else you can do. That's not your fault though

Anonymous Confession (#560)

"I haven’t hurt anyone. It’s just something I know is gonna hurt both of us and I feel guilty feeling bad about myself knowing they’re gonna be in pain too"

You're allowed to feel bad about yourself, there is never a situation where you're not allowed to feel things in my opinion. It's not something you should feel guilty about, it's not even something you could really control if you wanted to

15:23

I do hope you feel better soon though

Honestly I feel an urge to delete this server sometimes

16:28

Because genuinely something hurts me so much to a point that I can’t help crying

16:28

And it’s not fair to do that to the majority of people here and I guess it’s my own fault

16:28

But damn

16:28

(Sorry I won’t delete the server I just needed to get this off my chest) (edited)

5

I'm sorry you feel like that, hope you're okay, here if you do want to talk

Hope you're okay B, always here if you ever need to talk or vent or anything

you don't deserve to hurt

hey bran, ik how you're hurting rn and it's such a shitty situation but I'm here for you

(edited)

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mahariel

hey bran, ik how you're hurting rn and it's such a shitty situation but I'm here for you

(edited)

Thanks it just seems like history really repeats itself huh

Yeah it sucks that somehow the same shit can keep happening

I know it’s hard rn but it’s gonna be okay B just do what you need to cope

If you ever want to meet up and chill or get a coffee or smth lmk, always here to listen xx

ffs im getting a headache

me rn - please tell me someone played this

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hungry hungry hippos?

mahariel

hungry hungry hippos?

its buckaroo, when you pile stuff onto the back

17:38

and it snaps when it has too much

17:38

loser is who makees it snap

ohhh

@Unknown we can probably find it in a charity shop or we can play it in blue bar at some point

OOOH YES PLS

bettttt

wait hold on i have an idea

mahariel

wait hold on i have an idea

I know what you're thinking and don't you even dare...

B

I know what you're thinking and don't you even dare...

what am i thinking?

mahariel

what am i thinking?

YOU KNOW WHAT YOURE THINKING

17:41

JORY I KNOW YOU

hmm?

17:41

tell me wifey

Youve made it havent you.

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4

17:42

cazcathehe

im dead

17:42

eonfiseoifnsoefinsofinsioefnseoifnsiefon YOU WAIT TILL TONIGHT

cazcathehe

Im stealing your nicotine

cazcathehe

17:44

uhh i think you should talk it out first

Anonymous Confession (#561)

"so life got worse, I don't feel safe here anymore, I'm going to leave"

I long to be free of my family

3

My bad luck streak today jeez

20:18

Luckily i fixed the laptop

20:18

(Some cheap one i brought from CEX)

Anonymous Confession (#563)

"so heartbroken, what the fuck happened"

know the feeling op

Thank you to @Unknown @Unknown @Unknown for such a great night and the reassurance i needed I really appreciated it and i genuinely appreciate how magical it was. Cant wait for the next one

7

02:23

ALSO special mention to my lovely @Unknown and @Eeeeen for being there for me over messages today ❤️ youve been amazing genuinely.

B

Thank you to @Unknown @Unknown @Unknown for such a great night and the reassurance i needed I really appreciated it and i genuinely appreciate how magical it was. Cant wait for the next one

Love you B, and the next one is coming soon!

B

Thank you to @Unknown @Unknown @Unknown for such a great night and the reassurance i needed I really appreciated it and i genuinely appreciate how magical it was. Cant wait for the next one

It was a lovely evening definitely going to happen again

️

Parents told me I can’t have 2 showers in one day, so I just washed myself with a flannel in the sink. Because that is something we do in the 21st century.

Bennyboy

Parents told me I can’t have 2 showers in one day, so I just washed myself with a flannel in the sink. Because that is something we do in the 21st century.

Also caked myself in deodorant and now for some reason smell like a packet of crisps.

I've been neighbours w these people for 4 years now and found out YESTERDAY that their daughter, who I've been calling Paris all this time IS CALLED CHARIS

LMFAO

LoLo <3

I've been neighbours w these people for 4 years now and found out YESTERDAY that their daughter, who I've been calling Paris all this time IS CALLED CHARIS

That's just Chris with extra excitement

Or incorrect chairs

13:47

Either way paris is better, no offence

Do you think they meant to call her Chris but sneezed when they said it?

"I'm sorry, but your daughter's name is, well, it's cringe. I'm taking matters into my own hands."

"always wanted to be friends with an entire city"

You guys get it

I wish my name was Cayenne instead of Cheyenne so that I could be spicy by nature, spicy by name

be the change you want to see in the world

I just need to discover a new pepper

Change your name, shake things up Sure bureaucracy is a massive hassle but it'll be fun

^^

Okay lol boutta go piss off my parents byeeee

13:53

Our chaotic influence

My gfs can really make me do anything

Hell yeah

That's hot girls for ya

once i set something in my head properly as a rule it really annoys me when i have to break it

yep

im not supposed to be spending any money at all right now but just remembered i have to go grab a gift for a friend, its just going to be something small but my brain hates me for going back on what i decided

Anonymous Confession (#566)

"Ever have feelings for someone and then realise that they irritate you more than you actually like them"

Confessions

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Yes been there OP, its kinda funny how feeling work.

decided to fuck my brain and picked up a bottle of lemonade as a treat this evening too, can drink gin and lemonade

What did you end up getting for your friend?

18:28

I need birthdays inspo haha

not much unfortunately

18:28

just a bottle of schleur, some snickers, and a bag of weathers originals

18:29

going to bake them a cake when theyre back in norwich with candles too so hopefully itll be somewhat decent at least, just trying to get them treat foods they like

Aw that's so cute!! Lil assortment of shit they like

E r i n

decided to fuck my brain and picked up a bottle of lemonade as a treat this evening too, can drink gin and lemonade

Omg one of my fav drinks good choice

~~white grape goes great with vodka~~

18:44

my priorities never change

So uhh

19:07

After all that stuff yesterday

19:07

it made me somewhat regret breaking up with my ex, even though the awful shit they did to me

19:07

I could expect it, instead of expecting only goodness out of a close friendship and getting the worst stuff

19:08

Reopening freshly healed wounds challenge 10/10 not click bait

Okay wanted to let you finish before I started typing anything so you got out everything you wanted. It has been a rough few days for you and you've gone through a lot worrying about how it could affect everything. That doesn't take away from what your ex did to you, and the things you've gone through surrounding that. You don't deserve that. Take some time to heal, I can't begin to imagine what you're going through right now but please remember that you have people here who care about you a lot and are here to support you if they can. (I'll be up soon and give you the BIGGEST hugs)

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LoLo <3

Okay wanted to let you finish before I started typing anything so you got out everything you wanted. It has been a rough few days for you and you've gone through a lot worrying about how it could affect everything. That doesn't take away from what your ex did to you, and the things you've gone through surrounding that. You don't deserve that. Take some time to heal, I can't begin to imagine what you're going through right now but please remember that you have people here who care about you a lot and are here to support you if they can. (I'll be up soon and give you the BIGGEST hugs)

Thank you Lo, youve helped alot over the past days and I genuinely love you so much for it.

19:19

Pink Gang

Love you too B!! Hope you're holding up okay. Pink Gang!!

❤️ always Lo. I dont let things i didnt do hold me down

1

1

I hate that bad shit keeps happening to you, B, you've been mistreated so often by people you trust and you never deserved any of it. I hope you find some peace soon so that you can heal a bit from everything

Isn’t it weird that, whenever you get bored, the instant thought is to just die

19:23

Not actually gonna do it all and that, just a thought I had

It's not something I like to admit but yeah I get that too

yeah tbf

mumblingmiss

I hate that bad shit keeps happening to you, B, you've been mistreated so often by people you trust and you never deserved any of it. I hope you find some peace soon so that you can heal a bit from everything

Pink Wig Thicc ass give them whiplash at the end of the day

B

Pink Wig Thicc ass give them whiplash at the end of the day

YES BITCH

Confessions

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Yep, guy I knew in college. Used to make me feel like shit but I was obsessed with him. Recently blocked him and now I’m actually happier for it.

3

Bennyboy

Yep, guy I knew in college. Used to make me feel like shit but I was obsessed with him. Recently blocked him and now I’m actually happier for it.

Valid Progress we like to see

B

Valid Progress we like to see

Other people I knew in college have messaged me asking what’s going on. It was the first time they’ve shown interest in me for just over a year. Left them all on read and feel like I’m finally living for me.

️

Bennyboy

Other people I knew in college have messaged me asking what’s going on. It was the first time they’ve shown interest in me for just over a year. Left them all on read and feel like I’m finally living for me.

️

VALID

B

VALID

Honestly, he wasn’t even that attractive now I think of it. Think I just wanted his approval. You know, daddy issues and all.

I get that

For me it’s someone who wants me first

20:05

Then I seek their approval they know they have me and lose interest

FINALLY SOMEONE FUCKING ADMITS THAT WHAT THE PERSON DID WAS WRONG

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20:07

Thank you

B

FINALLY SOMEONE FUCKING ADMITS THAT WHAT THE PERSON DID WAS WRONG

Glad ur getting a bit of closure B, you deserve that.

Bennyboy

Glad ur getting a bit of closure B, you deserve that.

It’s not really closure when you lost two friends but after the manipulative game one of them pulled last night

20:09

It’s for the best

B

It’s for the best

Well, either way I’m glad ur trying to put yourself in a good place.

Bennyboy

Well, either way I’m glad ur trying to put yourself in a good place.

Yeah, back to regular B coffee house antics

20:10

God I hope I don’t have to do a statement again

Statement?

LoLo <3

Statement?

When I remove people from here sometimes people ask why

dynoInfo

Please use specific subcommands such as purge user [user] [count], the old syntax you are trying to use is no longer supported to prevent accidental purges.

Completely understand, glad you’re keeping yourself safe B

when you said statement my brain went mental health statemented kinda thing and I got confused lmao

B

FINALLY SOMEONE FUCKING ADMITS THAT WHAT THE PERSON DID WAS WRONG

dead at the fucking face lmfao

1

Fuckboy Drag King

dead at the fucking face lmfao

PFFT HAHAHAHA

Fr though hope you're okay B, look at some gorgeous stars & planets and the amazing perseids and take it easy, you defo deserve it

3

Thank youuu ❤️

Anonymous Confession (#570)

"i don’t want to fucking exist anymore, im so conflicted and it’s killing me, but i’m too fucking pathetic to do anything about it"

3

Confessions

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OP, my DMs are open if you need some to talk to. (edited)

Same here

Mental ickiness

12:46

Feeling very betrayed over the past few days from multiple people. But have had some amazing experiences for people who have been there for me

3

Anonymous Confession (#573)

"you’ve picked a side. I just wish you had the guts to tell me."

3

happy vent :) just realised how happy i am. i thought having a job would kill my spirit bc of how much freedom i had while doing a degree but it's the opposite. I'm so much more stable now bc having a set schedule (that my employer adapts to fit with my insomnia and neurodivergency) means I'm doing smth every single day. getting a steady income each month without the worries my student loan gave me. my friends are all in the same walkable city or will be in the next month (v v excited to see everyone). whereas i had to drag myself out of my house to force myself to see people before, i gladly do it now bc i want to do whatever event is happening. my manager encourages me to drop everything at clock out and have a work-life balance. I'm getting praise for picking up software and an entire new industry so quickly that i work all that harder to complete things way before deadline. my degree used to kick my ass with how freeform it was and how little support i got before being handed a "you thought you did great but here's a shit grade". i'm way ahead of schedule and don't do assignments 6 hours before the deadline bc i had no motivation or any clue what i was doing. if anything, this steadiness has given me much more freedom and has mitigated my ADHD to managable levels :D

6

13:42

that's a wall of text that's rambling and incohesive oops

13:42

but you know, I'm so so grateful i get to spend such a formative and blissful time of my life with everyone i love (aka you guys)

7

good for you

13:43

genuinely

13:43

great to hear you can work around your own needs too

1

thats really awesome to hear, congrats, its deserved

1

haha thanks guys. it's been a massive turning point in my life and i know i wouldn't have gotten here without everyone's help

13:45

you all mean so so much to me and i can't even describe how much

2

I'm so proud of you Jory, you deserve the world babes. Congrats on all your achievements so far, and all those you're working toward.

1

thank you!! we'll need to cause chaos when you get back. stealing the CB bus stop sign for a start

1

It would be rude of us not to steal it

1

So, SO proud of you Jory

1

tysm, we're also getting up to chaos when you're back

1

Don't think norwich is going to survive this chaos tbh

chaotic bitches

Yes chaotic bitches

so much chaos

Genuinely hate being harsh to people especially to the ones I care about. But I can’t just forget the pain they’ve put me through

2

Fuck me :( was once again prepared to join my friends voice channel and et voila my ex and his verbally abusive friend. I'm fine.

4

not even really a vent but just listening to spotify and they play my spiralling song and i have never shouted alexa to stop with such urgency before

1

22:09

back to normal pining songs tyvm

Had to clear my photos on my computer Lock Screen todsy

01:01

Held so many memories which I would rather remember fondly instead of ones I just see with pain now

4

im sorry, hopefully you can make some new memories thatll lessen the pain eventually

E r i n

im sorry, hopefully you can make some new memories thatll lessen the pain eventually

You’re forgetting the great community I have here!

2

Went out with family this morning and it was like I didn’t exist. I tried to join in conversations but was immediately talked over. When we got home I got the cold water jug out of fridge and when I open the cupboard to get a cup out a mug fell out chucking the water every. Immediate response I get is “what the hell do you do”. So when I sit outside to have lunch alone all I get is “you in your grump still?”. Idk, it’s odd feeling lonely in a house full of people. Just had to hold back the tears cos just so lonely at the moment and am constantly be berated for the smallest things.

3

That's terrible, I hate that you're stuck feeling that way around a group of people that by their very definition should care for you and be nice to you. Hope you're doing okay and you get to be in a better environment soon. Always here if you need to talk

mumblingmiss

That's terrible, I hate that you're stuck feeling that way around a group of people that by their very definition should care for you and be nice to you. Hope you're doing okay and you get to be in a better environment soon. Always here if you need to talk

Well that’s just it. They do act nice so I feel bad being angry, but then they act like that as well. I just want to move on campus for a bit as I think it will improve my mental health.

Bennyboy

Well that’s just it. They do act nice so I feel bad being angry, but then they act like that as well. I just want to move on campus for a bit as I think it will improve my mental health.

That definitely sounds for the best, sometimes it's better to see family every so often rather than constantly

mumblingmiss

That definitely sounds for the best, sometimes it's better to see family every so often rather than constantly

Yeah, I agree. The thing is you don’t have a choice to be around family, you do choose to be around friends tho.

Bennyboy

Went out with family this morning and it was like I didn’t exist. I tried to join in conversations but was immediately talked over. When we got home I got the cold water jug out of fridge and when I open the cupboard to get a cup out a mug fell out chucking the water every. Immediate response I get is “what the hell do you do”. So when I sit outside to have lunch alone all I get is “you in your grump still?”. Idk, it’s odd feeling lonely in a house full of people. Just had to hold back the tears cos just so lonely at the moment and am constantly be berated for the smallest things.

Here for you Ben, just hang in there you’ll be in Norwich with us very soon

B

Here for you Ben, just hang in there you’ll be in Norwich with us very soon

Looking forward to some gay time.

️

Yeah we'll have to hang out when you get here and you can unleash your full gay potential

Yes

mumblingmiss

Yeah we'll have to hang out when you get here and you can unleash your full gay potential

I have so much clothes I want to wear.

️

13:27

Can’t wait for the first spectrum thing

️

Hell yeah

It’s gonna be great

13:28

Y’all are at the cool kids table

B

Y’all are at the cool kids table

It had to happen eventually

13:29

Tbh, straight people don’t realise how important it is for lgbtq people to be around lgbtq people. The ability to be yourself is so good for the soul.

Yes

For real tho

13:30

We just don't talk about sexuality in my house

I just get called the fslur lmao

Like, I feel amazing after meeting people at a party. Best medicine.

B

I just get called the fslur lmao

Well, I apologised for that but you did deserve it.

Bennyboy

Well, I apologised for that but you did deserve it.

I mean my parents

13:31

You call me an fslur you’re gonna get something else

B

You call me an fslur you’re gonna get something else

?

I was gonna say CBANNED

13:32

but I admire your confidence

If my dad uses a slur I just tell him that he can't use that word and he'll call me a snowflake or whatever most of the time but he generally stops saying it

13:32

CBANNED

13:32

cbanned

cbanned

cbanned

cbanned

B

but I admire your confidence

Tbh

gives me lots of confidence.

mumblingmiss

If my dad uses a slur I just tell him that he can't use that word and he'll call me a snowflake or whatever most of the time but he generally stops saying it

It’s not difficult to realise how offensive that is. Unless you have a degradation kink.

Bennyboy

Tbh

gives me lots of confidence.

B

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I’m gay and have spent 20 years of my life pretty much celibate. I need to make up for it.

I love being celibate

mumblingmiss

I love being celibate

Like, how?

Bennyboy

Like, how?

Bc so many people have told me to go fuck myself and theyre right bc it's way better lmao

mumblingmiss

Bc so many people have told me to go fuck myself and theyre right bc it's way better lmao

That’s very true.

13:38

Tbh, 2 of my experiences would have been way better if it was me on my own.

(edited)

Exactly

13:38

Being ace is like a miracle for me

~~why are vegtables so confidence inducing?~~

Bennyboy

I’m gay and have spent 20 years of my life pretty much celibate. I need to make up for it.

Hey I’m not judging

13:39

I’m currently deciding whether I should try and heal through and find a new relationship

13:39

OR

13:39

Hoe era

B

Hoe era

I’d go with hoe era. But picky hoe era, with friends and stuff.

Bennyboy

I’d go with hoe era. But picky hoe era, with friends and stuff.

So you’re suggesting this server just becomes my to fuck list

Well

B

So you’re suggesting this server just becomes my to fuck list

Well, that’s what I’m doing.

Pfffft

Hoe Era into Relationship

Yeah I'm just becoming everyone's girlfriend

Twink Antony

Hoe Era into Relationship

Stop bc that happened to me

and just like that erin left the server

mumblingmiss

Yeah I'm just becoming everyone's girlfriend

One day you wake up and CB has decided she's your girlfriend and that's that

Ripfangs

One day you wake up and CB has decided she's your girlfriend and that's that

It happens a lot

CB picks you up in a CBUS with her other partners

this is getting much more sinister

E r i n

this is getting much more sinister

You have a choice to get on

13:45

But you don’t want to be CBANISHED to the nether realm

Welcome to the ~~cult~~ CB relationship web

alternative: ill change my name, move to a new university and create a whole new backstory

E r i n

alternative: ill change my name, move to a new university and create a whole new backstory

Erin don’t deny the fact you wouldn’t

hmm?

You can't fool us

why would i want to fool you?

E r i n

why would i want to fool you?

Jenovas witness

2

im just a humble economics student who grew up in Liverpool with five cats and a guinea pig

revolution

i

13:48

i respect authority

Boris Johnson

revolution

nope cant do it

i thought your new name was the country from Princess Diaries

13:49

Genovia

Ah shit I love Princess diaries

idk jenova just came to mind

13:49

new persona

13:49

ill add it to the shelf of the dozens of others

Princess Diaries is unironically one of the best films ever made

mumblingmiss

Ah shit I love Princess diaries

Can you cban yourself?

I'll CBan you

13:50

cbanned

cbanned

cbanned

cbanned

mumblingmiss

I'll CBan you

I’d like to see you try, we twinks are crafty patatos

Bennyboy

I’d like to see you try, we twinks are crafty patatos

Don't make me break up with you

I’m also being twinkified

13:53

Like

13:53

My body is basically twink at this point

13:53

Just bit more build with some muscle

13:54

I need my chest hair to grow a bit more before I’m an otter

mumblingmiss

Don't make me break up with you

Please, I broke up with you and you didn’t even know it.

What the fuck we just got together!

mumblingmiss

What the fuck we just got together!

What can I say, I’m a player.

Fuck this I'm going on love island

mumblingmiss

Fuck this I'm going on love island

I hate that show. Just a bunch of narcissistic uneducated people acting like teenagers.

So do I but I play the game unironically

mumblingmiss

So do I but I play the game unironically

Lol

mumblingmiss

Fuck this I'm going on love island

CBOVE ISLAND YES

CBOVE ISLANDDDDD

14:01

Could you imagine omg

Yes it’ll be amazing

They'd never let me in the official one bc I have body fat and acne and I like myself but we can start CBove Island

Christ some things just time themselves perfectly, just went on Facebook, got “memories on Facebook” pop up from when I went to visit my mates memorial. Then Changes by Charles Bradley comes on. Not a fun attack on emotions

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14:14

A song exactly about losing someone v close to you

14:15

Bit weird that it’s also the Big Mouth intro, but the whole song is fairly powerful

sorry for your loss, facebook memories are so mistimed

mahariel

sorry for your loss, facebook memories are so mistimed

Honestly, it sucks

Love my MacBook dying on me while revising (edited)

16:56

For my exam tomorrow

16:56

SLdeadstare

Can you restart it and call it a revision break?

It’s just out of charge, charging it with a cable that works cause I thought the one I was using was working but apparently not.

17:02

So yeah revision break time

youve got this

hope you have a nice break and best of luck tomorrow ❤

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^^

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Thank you

Anonymous Confession (#575)

"POV: your best friend ignores you for days then defends someone who hurts you. Shit sucks"

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Hope you're okay OP

We're trying to sell the dryer and freezer we bought from the old tenants to the next tenants, and we paid £85 for each of them. The dryer is utterly awful though, takes at least 2-3 goes to dry things. One of my housemates thinks its reasonable to ask £85 for each of them again

22:12

Originally it was being expected that I'd deal with selling both of them, but I explained I didn't feel comfortable asking for that much. I'd say its a stretch to ask £50 for the dryer, because it's so unpredictable. I've agreed to clean it all up and stuff though, but now that housemate is pushing it on the next one who offered to try and sell it, and I feel shit because it feels like I've brushed the responsibility onto them to deal with that now

If it isn’t great then yeah cheaper makes sense but you’ve gotta be prepared for the possibility that they might not want them and you’ll need to get rid of them somehow

22:16

If the other person offered to try and sell it that’s their business and not your problem bc they’re trying to help now you can take a step back if you want to or try and help them sell it idk

Honestly wouldn't surprise me if we couldn't sell it. I'll try to clean it into top condition, but if I'm the one showing it to the potential buyer I'm going to say it can be unpredictable. We weren't told about how unpredictable it could be when we were sold it, I don't want to do that to someone else. I just feel like it shouldn't be expected that we sell it to the next tenant for the price we got it, even if it wasn't like this. It's been through a year of use, that's going to take the value down a bit at the very least. And now I feel like I've just dropped it on the only other housemate who is willing to help, letting them be steamrolled over and told what to do by the other one

22:20

idk i feel like im an idiot with a lot of this stuff, maybe im looking more into it than i should and just seeing problems where there arent

Nah I get not wanting to lie about it like just be real w them If you’re worried about your housemate then try sell it together if you can but if they feel they’re being steamrolled by the other flatmate they’ll probably say something

Anonymous Confession (#576)

"Please god can you let these tears flow as easily as the thoughts in my mind drown me in a tempest of emotion"

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I hope you're okay OP

Anonymous Confession (#578)

"I am so worried of being alone and being left behind by people who used to love me."

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i doubt you will be but you should reach out to them anyway

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been throwing up all night and now today. not a vibe while I'm trying to work

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hope youre okay and feel better soon

Oh god, you okay? Throwing up is horrible it completely interrupts everything

yeah I'm ok just not recovering v well from drinking a lot last night

12:40

i don't get hangovers, i get extremely nauseous for the next 24 hours lmfao

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you've probably done all the sensible things so won't do the usual lecture, but I hope it passes soon

Fuckboy Drag King

you've probably done all the sensible things so won't do the usual lecture, but I hope it passes soon

haha yeah I'm trying to ty

Ok does anyone else get like this when they’re stressed? This morning I felt sick, I was shaking, I could hardly think straight, when I was thinking it was pure panic and distortion. Now I have no energy and want to sleep. Does anyone else get like this? It wasn’t even that bigger thing.

It doesn't have to be a big thing when you're stressed to send you over the edge For me it's normally tummyache or headache but I've been completely destroying my fingernails which is sad bc I really love having them long but I can't seem to stop biting them when I'm stressing out. Then after it passes you're so drained you just need to stop and take a break. It's okay to do that when you feel like that, it can be annoying but listen to your body and do what it needs yk?

Well people experience things differently but I only get like that for long minor panic attacks, but I can't in good conscience say that is exactly what youre dealing with. As I said, everyone gets different physical symptoms when it comes to stress

14:43

I hope you feel okay soon and if youre worried please don't be afraid to reach out for help

Having a low day, been a few days since I had a decent nights sleep bc of the damn heat and my lacking ability to cope with what should be a lovely temperature. Need it to cool down smh

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When your angry album has the song that makes you cry on it

20:04

Not the vibe I needed

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Ouch

20:06

Hope you're okay hun

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LoLo <3

Not the vibe I needed

i get that, really sucks, hope you feel better soon

I'm really kind of having a crisis today. I feel like I should want to have a companionship with someone and I want to be able to pursue love but everytime my mind realises that I might be on my way to finding it I freak out. I love romance and finding the right person but something in my gut is telling me that it's not right for me. That I'm just not someone who is destined for that kind of life and that if I enjoy being alone with myself or starting a family on my own then it's okay to do that. But I'm also scared of hurting people who think they have a real chance with me. My mind is telling me to follow everyone's lead and find love but my heart is telling me not to. I don't know if any of this makes sense at all.

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I think its important to not set yourself expectations or a deadline on something that, at the end of the day, is personal and unique to you. You don't have to make a decision that if you don't want to find love, you'll never find it. It can be really confusing, complicated and stressful, but at the end of the day its your life, and if you do or don't want to do something that's up to you. Nothing else is your responsibility, you don't owe stuff like this to anyone

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How do you get people your related to to pay you back the money they owe you?

honestly its awkward as hell, sorry youre having to deal with it

It’s only £65 as well. They keep treating it like a joke but that’s a lot of money to me.

I'm sorry if I've been too much or complained a lot lately, I'm often doing very well and terribly at the same time and I know a lot of you understand that. I love you all and you're the best. I can only hope I can help you as much as you've helped me.

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Love u CB!

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love it when writing inspiration comes but i hate that it's at 2am on a weekday. i want to overhaul my murder mystery story but work in the morning yay

01:32

also weird finding out I'm a friend of convinience. my housemates since 1st year that I've been singing praises for non-stop and have loved dearly for all these years fucked off to an italian villa without me. even though some of them are back in town now, they're just stopping by my place to pick up their appliances they dumped on me before going to their new house where they're living together (edited)

01:35

all good, all fun. a few weeks ago i might have started spiralling bc of all this so I'm slightly weirded out that all I'm feeling is a quiet "oh well" followed by a muted thing in my chest

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mahariel

also weird finding out I'm a friend of convinience. my housemates since 1st year that I've been singing praises for non-stop and have loved dearly for all these years fucked off to an italian villa without me. even though some of them are back in town now, they're just stopping by my place to pick up their appliances they dumped on me before going to their new house where they're living together (edited)

I’m so sorry <3. I’m here for you always

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01:37

If it means anything You’re not a friend of convenience to me, you’re one of my best solid friends who I love so dearly and cherish

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01:37

And Every memory we have together is golden

i really appreciate it bran. it's not hitting me as hard as i suppose it should really

I know it’s hurtful

i think I'm just easily manipulated. i'm shown an ounce of kindness and it's an instant "i will do anything for you" thing. i expect too much of people i love because i end up giving them everything

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Anonymous Confession (#602)

"tired of conflict let me be happy already, people don't realise what I have to deal with when I get upset"

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mahariel

also weird finding out I'm a friend of convinience. my housemates since 1st year that I've been singing praises for non-stop and have loved dearly for all these years fucked off to an italian villa without me. even though some of them are back in town now, they're just stopping by my place to pick up their appliances they dumped on me before going to their new house where they're living together (edited)

Sometimes it's hard to gauge how close you are to someone when they've done something that makes you want to be close to them. You clearly really care about these people moreso then they do you. I can't really help you because I'm the exact same and would love to know if someone cares as much as they say from the start bc that would make priorities easier but I think all we can really do is take everyone at face value and if that puts you in a position like this then reevalue where you stand. I'm sorry Jory I know how much it sucks. I can't afford to go on holiday but I

09:47

d take you all to a villa if I could

pls i all of us in a villa would be so chaotic omg

Would be fun as hell tho

Yes (edited)

09:50

we can star in CBOVE Island

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Didn't mean to do a duck but you know what

AHAHAH

Yes CBove Island I'm on it guys

09:53

But instead of couples it's like most iconic duos

omg yes

09:54

Wht if my do is the whole server

Babes then it's not a duo

Yes it is

You me and Jory most iconic duo

09:55

Bc yk, we're the same person at this point

Were literally the three in one

Fuck I'm gonna need to sit down and set some ground rules for CBove Island

Yeah pretty much

Like?

Just nobody try and get me to program anything lmao I can spellcheck code and that's it

Maximum groups of three bc it's not fun if everyone wins

LoLo <3

Sometimes it's hard to gauge how close you are to someone when they've done something that makes you want to be close to them. You clearly really care about these people moreso then they do you. I can't really help you because I'm the exact same and would love to know if someone cares as much as they say from the start bc that would make priorities easier but I think all we can really do is take everyone at face value and if that puts you in a position like this then reevalue where you stand. I'm sorry Jory I know how much it sucks. I can't afford to go on holiday but I

yeah dw dw I'm really not that upset about it haha. you're right with all of that though, as usual. we'll all go on holiday together at some point

Think I'm just gonna step away from discord today, kinda fucked off this morning I'll be back when I'm not

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Hope you're okay

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mahariel

yeah dw dw I'm really not that upset about it haha. you're right with all of that though, as usual. we'll all go on holiday together at some point

We better

mumblingmiss

Think I'm just gonna step away from discord today, kinda fucked off this morning I'll be back when I'm not

Here for you CB ❤️

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B

Here for you CB ❤️

Thanks, just had a rough start

Love walking to the wrong building

Just got screamed at cos I was annoyed that my mum wouldn’t take me to return my package that she said she would take me to do. Even tho I just cleared a field of horse shit and mucked out a stable for her. I’m sick of being treated like a child, I’m sick of not being able to drive and I’m sick of being at someone else’s mercy. How am I supposed to feel, I’m remembering what it’s like to be at someone’s else’s mercy again who waves it in my face every 5 mins.

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15:10

Also, apparently my attitude stinks. I wonder why, it’s not like I’m berated every day for something that isn’t my fault, wishing someone would acknowledge my existence or tired of not being respected as an adult. I’m well aware ur my mother, but I’m also your son and an adult. So treat me like that. Not someone who is bellow you.

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15:13

I honestly want to move on campus now cos I’m really worried that my mental health is going to take a dip.

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Hoenstly I’m so pissed off at my CEO

12:33

opening the restaurant when there’s a bat flying around Jl

WHAT

Meaning me and my coworker had to deep clean everything

12:33

Making us feel stressed and I’ll

LoLo <3

WHAT

He went against his own health and safety team too

Why does he think that's a good idea

12:34

It's a restaurant and there's an animal w access to it????

Bc he literally said he was worried about profit

Worry about sanitation first tf

We know everything is clean me and Jodie literally scrubbed everything

12:34

Santised everything

12:34

But he pushed us to a deadline

12:35

we closed down then reopened then deep cleaned

12:35

And I feel so sick and tired

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12:35

I’m on break still got 15 mins

12:35

But I’m so tired

B

opening the restaurant when there’s a bat flying around Jl

1) rabies 2) covid-22

Jesus that's a bit much

12:40

I'm sorry B I hope your break at least lets you relax somewhat

It’s not

12:41

I’m running to the shop

yeah this is ridiculous

For painkillers for both me and my coworker

why?

Because she has a severe headache

12:43

And the syress has triggered my stomach cramps

12:52

sorry you're going through this bran

How am I less stressed at work than I am at home?

Also, I’m slowly sneaking my femboi cloths to work so I can start chucking it out, too stressful keeping it hidden in my room.

so i went for a run, then remembered afterwards that im not supposed to, so that sucks

17:07

when i say run i more mean awkward slightly accelerated trot but yeah

Means you can just vibe on the sofa for the rest of the day tho right?

You okay?

oh yeah i feel fine, i like exercising even if im bad at it, just feel guilty about not following medical advice

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17:10

ive got all my cleaning and stuff done already though so its just stardew valley and chill all evening now

Good good

17:10

Medical stuff is annoying

17:12

So exhausted rn

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hope you have a chance to relax soon ❤️

Been a rough day, got stung by a bee and I'm allergic so that was fun

Oh shit are you okay?

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Yeah just got home had to go hospital for a bit bc I don't carry anything around for it. I'll be fine

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That must be fucking scary I'm sorry

It's all good I'm lucky my local one was still open so

17:19

Bees are usually pretty easy to avoid

Learning to walk again is so fucking weird?!? Like I know I can do this, i have the ability. But after 2 months of not walking? Im wobbling around the place like the worlds largest toddler

Oh god good luck to you, I remember having to do that when I hurt my foot in high school and I looked ridiculous

Eeeeen

Learning to walk again is so fucking weird?!? Like I know I can do this, i have the ability. But after 2 months of not walking? Im wobbling around the place like the worlds largest toddler

Can we change your name to mr daddler (like dad toddler) until your boot comes off bc it’s funny and cute

My legs are different sizes

My good leg has been constantly worked for 2 months so is BUFF AF and now my other leg is pathetically weak and small. Its like the fucking doge meme

Ig do a bunch of leg raises and pray? Alternatively keep just working out the other leg and confuse people

Ask them to put a cast on your other leg until you balance it out lmao

08:51

Or go full flamingo and only use one leg

Brb, gonna post this everwhere (edited)

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Omg

mumblingmiss

Or go full flamingo and only use one leg

The last 2 months babe

Bro the noise I made

Eeeeen

The last 2 months babe

Now you can be hot flamingo on purpose

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Ive got a fucking gnarly scar though tbh

Finally another human being that uses the word gnarly (edited)

Decided I could do better than Daddler

Eeeeen

Decided I could do better than Daddler

SCREAMING

Aw take a picture it's daddies first steps

08:54

Sounds like someone named their child Daddy

"I named him after my Grandpa" "Oh yeah? What did you call him" "......Grandpa....."

Lmao

Don’t that sounds like something drunk me would do to a snail or something

08:55

I always name my snails

I'm gonna call my first child Cute Baby

I might call my first child snail now

Eeeeen

Brb, gonna post this everwhere (edited)

I gotta go post this in as many places as possible lmao

So my 18 year old cousin just got back with her ex who she broke up with very publicly because he cheated on her multiple times with minors??? Girl what the fuck please why you letting this pedo back into you and your son's life my duuuude. Ctrl alt delete my family

16:36

I'm fuminggggg

fucking yikes

18:45

anyone else get really depressed on friday evenings? no idea why but it's like clockwork for me

Stereotypical people out on Friday nights then you not being the same gives you a weird sense of rejection for no reason?

You okay?

not sure, think it's the lack of distractions

hope youre all okay

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Yeah I suppose if you've been distracted by plenty of other stuff all week then when that's not there it can mean a lot of tired and sad feelings catch up to you

19:44

I felt a lot of that last year when I was working all summer and if I knew I wouldn't have a shift for a bit or my day ended early I just had no energy

19:44

I hope you feel better soon, always here for you x

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thanks guys I'll be fine

20:33

just my mind being annoying

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Anonymous Confession (#616)

"Hello fellow dysphoria enjoyers, do you have specific parts (despite perhaps the obvious) of yourself that just completely set off your dysphoria? Like just small things about yourself that you look at and think "If I didn't have this i'd definitely pass" or similar?"

I've been told by people it's not that noticeable, but my throat bothers me. That and arm hair sometimes

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Okay if it helps the arm hair thing is just a having dark hair thing ~ I use hair removal cream on mine when I can afford it but it's certainly not gender specific just depends on if you choose to remove it or not

it's hard to determine sometimes to be honest, you can pass to some people almost immediately, other people it might take a while, its hard to know completely but im sure youll get there eventually

dysphoria does suck though, hope things improve for you soon OP ❤

LoLo <3

Okay if it helps the arm hair thing is just a having dark hair thing ~ I use hair removal cream on mine when I can afford it but it's certainly not gender specific just depends on if you choose to remove it or not

i've got some hair removal cream to try actually, im a bit hesitant about it but I'm gonna give it a try when i have a few quiet days, in case it irritates my skin

If you do, patch test it first to test for allergic reactions ~ same w hair dye it can irritate skin but if you do a small amount for the recommended time then wait 48h and there's no reaction you're golden (don't leave it for longer tho that's how I have permanent discolouration on my top lip)

ahh good to know, thank you ❤ im very hesitant about that kind of stuff tbh

but definitely worth a try

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i don't like having hair on my knuckles or feet

22:21

i don't think about it in terms of affecting passing or not but i just don't like it

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Not my leg being shrunken to half the size of my other leg and me having dysmorphia about it because "thats not my leg, my legs dont look like that"

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They’ll get there soon, just gonna take some more time, I hope you’re okay ❤️

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23:36

A small vent from me, but kinda ignore mine and just read above. But finally realised my friendship with one of my best friends is over now. And I can’t help but be so heartbroken

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Eeeeen

Not my leg being shrunken to half the size of my other leg and me having dysmorphia about it because "thats not my leg, my legs dont look like that"

Your leg has been through a lot. I can’t imagine having had to wear a cast in all that heat let alone not being able to exercise it it’s going to have changed a bit but you’ll be to train it up again soon and you’ll bounce back pretty quickly w the amount you do

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Feel like shit this morning, my emotions have gone haywire the last couple of weeks and I'm struggling with urges and what the fuck am I gonna do if I don't pass my reassessments or my reasonable adjustment extension doesn't get approved so I fail anyway? My doctors appointment on Monday needs to come around quickly and I need to get out.

09:00

I had a panic attack last night and the only person I could see was online anywhere was my ex and I almost messaged him and I don't want that for myself

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Proud of you for not messaging him, I was so tired yesterday I went to sleep at about 10 I’m sorry. Assessments are stressful but trust in yourself that you’ve done the work and know what you have to do. You’ve done this before you know more what to expect now which puts you in a better place going into them, you got this. (Also even if you fail it’s not the end of the world there’s more to life than academic success and we’ll support you whatever you want to do, uni or otherwise). Panic attacks are horrible and I’m sorry you’re struggling so much but you’re having the appointment on Monday hopefully that will help and you’re coming back to Norwich soon right? There’ll be people to distract you from it soon. I hope you’re okay

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Ah I feel this. Mine is my mouth and my legs. Despite myself I have quite an itty bitty pouty mouth that is very naturally dark pink, and it always makes me feel like shit because I know no man's mouth looks like that

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09:30

But that's why we have face masks ✌️

Fuckboy Drag King

Ah I feel this. Mine is my mouth and my legs. Despite myself I have quite an itty bitty pouty mouth that is very naturally dark pink, and it always makes me feel like shit because I know no man's mouth looks like that

what about young Mick Jagger

v known for his red, pouty lips (edited)

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mahariel

what about young Mick Jagger

v known for his red, pouty lips (edited)

Haha bless you, maybe so. Though maybe being a music 'legend' helped him a tad

Fuckboy Drag King

Haha bless you, maybe so. Though maybe being a music 'legend' helped him a tad

nah there's a bit of a difference between a musical legend and a sex symbol. not many frontmen had girls after him like he did. his mouth looks almost exactly like yours and he was the height of masculinity

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11:52

but I'm not trying to take away from your dysphoria bc ik it's a v personal thing based on your own internal perceptions

11:53

just hope this helps in showing that certain things aren't gender-specific and can be v attractive on the "opposite" gender

I appreciate it a whole lot, tbh I've never really seen a man with a mouth like that, so it's oddly, hm, affirming? Comforting? So thank you.

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Fuckboy Drag King

I appreciate it a whole lot, tbh I've never really seen a man with a mouth like that, so it's oddly, hm, affirming? Comforting? So thank you.

nw

it's quite interesting bc many male models have similar mouths. it's a big draw in the fashion industry

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Caz modelling arc when

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manny jacinto (my beloved), liam samuels, satoshi toda from off the top of my head

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12:01

i used to practice my Adobe suite skills by making high fashion editorials so I'm uhhh v knowledgeable in this really weird niche lmfao

12:01

but I'll stop spamming vents with male models

Always appreciated, thank you though <3

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Okay but the middle one LOOK AT THAT HAIR OH MY GOD

HAHAHA

12:04

i was searching this guy up while thinking "Lo's going to love this"

mahariel

i was searching this guy up while thinking "Lo's going to love this"

FUCK OFF

LoLo <3

FUCK OFF

I AM RIGHT THOUGH

12:10

you have a type

12:11

enough bullying me, it's time to bully Lo

Haven't I been through enough

12:12

I just like curly hair it's pretty

Curly hair is a pain in the ass

I've never tried putting it in my ass so I couldn't say

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Tbf so much of my curly hair falls everywhere I can probably say it actually is

I like how my hair is kinda wavy but also not super curly, nice middle ground

your hair reminds me of my old housemate's. she has the same spectacular brown curls

12:15

i think Lo knows her from pole fitness

Brush mine and it just goes straight :/

Having long hair is great because it's basically just a free fiddle toy to keep my hands busy when I'm sitting around

awwww

12:17

freyja blushing and curling a lock of her hair with her finger while looking at world of warcraft combos (edited)

I mean I don't generally do it when playing world of warcraft because I have all my buttons to press

12:18

But I do it loads when I'm watching shit

Have a feeling that I have a tendency to over react. Like the over day I was really upset with my parents where the reality is, they do everything for me.

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Ah. Comp sci. That's it that's the vent.

Everything ok bro?

Just heard some housemates (all comp sci) of my friend have all rather unaffectionately been calling me "the tranny" in my absence.

Bro wtf

What the fuck

Yeah we're all good man, just I didn't even know those guys, met them literally once, and this was before I was even out LMAO

That’s not your friend Caz if they’re not shutting them down you need to walk away

18:30

Holy shit I’m so sorry

im literally ready to scream at them all

Not to worry, he is, absolutely ripped them to shreds and blocked them as he was moving out today. Apparently it was a big argument, that I was "the tranny" and my best friend was "token old man who nobody liked", so

18:31

Can't say I even know their names that's how forgettable they were but hey

18:31

Comp sci moment

Holy shit

18:31

I’m so sorry your course are Like That

still, thats awful, im sorry you had to deal with that

hope youre okay

~~Do you want me to casually flirt with them then tell them to stuff it? I can’t fight but I can destroy men’s self esteem~~

~~arson, offers on the table~~

Hey the one who said it is an ex-weed addict who is quite small and quite ugly

18:34

What makes it funnier still, as I am learning, is that he thought I was trans-femme, as in, I was assigned male at birth and I was "pretending to be a woman"

18:34

Which is almost into accidental ally territory. Almost.

What-

18:34

Can I hold him by the throat and throw him off the zigs

Please tell me the ones I’ve met aren’t like this they seemed lovely

Nah not really. It was Rex's housemates though, he's giving them an earful for me

ngl lo, quite alot of them are like that

18:35

Rex is lovely though

It doesn’t matter what they thought it’s still fucking disgusting

Thanks for listening to me though, all of you, sorry it's a bit of a dampener

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no need to apologise this is vents channel

Rex is lovely he’s one of the few I’ve met (ik Rex Charlie Freddie Jordan and Lauren that’s it aside from caz lol)

18:36

Caz you’re allowed to vent we’re all here for you

Just honestly caught me off guard this man asked me in first year to smoke weed with him, I said no, suddenly, I'm the "tranny"

I wouldnt say Charlie is-

18:36

unless hes changed ofc

Really? Shit okay

But ive heard enough what charlie said about me ngl

I’ve only spoken to him I think 3 times?

Eh Charlie's alright. Dreadfully insecure to his core type person

I mean

18:37

someof the shit hes said about me, i kinda feel like apology when pls

Rex is a real one though, love that man to death, he's one of few I'm still in contact with

B

someof the shit hes said about me, i kinda feel like apology when pls

Honestly can get that

Fuckboy Drag King

Honestly can get that

can get as in ask him to

18:37

or?

18:37

Just get wht i mean

Rex always comes and says hi when I see him, had impromptu chips w him one night in campus kitchen before pole I’m glad he’s nice to you too

im sure charlie is nice, dont get me wrong, but he does have a nasty streak

Get what you mean, though I can probably ask too, he'll probably tell me to fuck off, that man never apologises for anything, as you well know

yeah by all means, you can mention it but im not holding out anyform of hope for one

Honestly, it naturally makes me a tad sad, but Rex defending me always makes it lighter, you know?

18:40

Apparently me and Arvy are subhuman which is hilarious, pick your poison of minority hatecrime

just shows rex is a real one

18:40

Rex and Arvy are always welcome here

18:40

if you wanted them here that is

Who’s Arvy?

Arvy's my best mate lmao, does Business systems

Arvys lovely

18:41

its genuinely a shame I didnt talk with him much

He and I go everywhere together, thus we get clumped as "subhuman" for no reason. Campest bisexual man you'll probably ever meet

Trans people

bisexuals Force to be reckoned with

Now trans bisexuals, thats just a god/divine being/godess (edited)

5

Anyway that's all resolved now, also don't like how he (the housemate) was using my friendship with Rex as like some sort of weapon, that Rex was "sad" for hanging out with "subhuman old people and trannies" like

18:43

Fuck off that's my mate you little League player go back to your basement

giving me proper incel vibes ngl

Heaven forbid Rex makes friends w someone who doesn’t fit the CompSci™️ requirements of being cishet incellular grime

ah yes, being friends with actual humans rather than people who will take any opportunity to degrade and insult others, what a terrible fate

Fuckboy Drag King

Just heard some housemates (all comp sci) of my friend have all rather unaffectionately been calling me "the tranny" in my absence.

that's fucking horrible, sorry you had to go through that. idk wtf is wrong with them but their insecurity is leaking out in the nastiest ways

1

Fuckboy Drag King

What makes it funnier still, as I am learning, is that he thought I was trans-femme, as in, I was assigned male at birth and I was "pretending to be a woman"

ah the "we can always tell" crowd once again never being able to fucking tell lmfao

1

mahariel

ah the "we can always tell" crowd once again never being able to fucking tell lmfao

It's the fact that the guy in question was like "yeah well she can't hide her masculine qualities from me, I know what she is" and I'm just like

19:30

My guy you are so close, fundamentally, but yet, so far

The accidental ally

19:38

Ish

Fuckboy Drag King

Just heard some housemates (all comp sci) of my friend have all rather unaffectionately been calling me "the tranny" in my absence.

I'm sorry but what the actual FUCK

20:31

Thats fucking disgusting

20:32

Actual knock the shit out of them behaviour

Twink Antony

I'm sorry but what the actual FUCK

Dunno if you ever met James and Patrick? Hopefully you didn't, they're the incelly playing bad games in the basement types.

3

Fuckboy Drag King

Dunno if you ever met James and Patrick? Hopefully you didn't, they're the incelly playing bad games in the basement types.

Oh no, what James

20:34

Is it the Brunette and Light brown hair duo

Um, Medicine is his usertag

Tall and small

Twink Antony

Is it the Brunette and Light brown hair duo

THATS THEM YEAH

20:34

LMAO

Fuck, and I actually liked him

20:34

Dickhead

Was the short fat one who called me tranny

20:34

Patrick isn't so bad, just fundamentally very boring and spineless

@Twink Antony wanna get them together

20:35

Fuckboy Drag King

Patrick isn't so bad, just fundamentally very boring and spineless

Will be after I rip it out

20:35

Scum of the earth fuckers

Literally

20:36

I’m ready to give both of them a Glasgow kiss

B

I’m ready to give both of them a Glasgow kiss

Oi that's my job, Glasgow is in my blood

B

I’m ready to give both of them a Glasgow kiss

What’s a Glasgow kiss?

Bennyboy

What’s a Glasgow kiss?

A head butt

20:43

I think

nah it's when you cut someone's mouth from ear to ear

ForestBae🎄

A head butt

Ohh, tbh that sounds a lot like the Scottish part of my family

tho that might be a glasgow smile

mahariel

tho that might be a glasgow smile

That’s a smile

Second only to the Columbian necktie ofc, another specialty reserved for incel compsci

and that is?

Fuckboy Drag King

Second only to the Columbian necktie ofc, another specialty reserved for incel compsci

So do you have to be compsci to understand this stuff?

Bennyboy

So do you have to be compsci to understand this stuff?

Nah my friend just terminally online

mahariel

and that is?

It's a bit explicit lmao it's where you cut someones throat and pull their tongue out through the laceration you made, so their tongue is ripped and sitting somewhere on their neck

Fuckboy Drag King

It's a bit explicit lmao it's where you cut someones throat and pull their tongue out through the laceration you made, so their tongue is ripped and sitting somewhere on their neck

That’s a bit to kinky tbh.

Oh Ben

20:52

You make my soul so happy

Fuckboy Drag King

It's a bit explicit lmao it's where you cut someones throat and pull their tongue out through the laceration you made, so their tongue is ripped and sitting somewhere on their neck

lovely. cartel fun times

Fuckboy Drag King

You make my soul so happy

Awe, I like how I seem to be a bit of medicine to the soul. The only cost, your soul!!! Mwahahaha.

me: violent torture method

20:56

ben: kinky, but not for me :)

ben would probably be into it if they ate the tongue

mahariel

ben would probably be into it if they ate the tongue

Nah, you’d be surprised. I’m not as kinky as you’d think.

Fuckboy Drag King

me: violent torture method

Tbh I’d find that a bit to messy for torture…

Bennyboy

Tbh I’d find that a bit to messy for torture…

Tbf It's normally done post mortem as a statement, not whilst the victim is alive, too much blood otherwise, too messy

Fuckboy Drag King

Tbf It's normally done post mortem as a statement, not whilst the victim is alive, too much blood otherwise, too messy

Exactly, imagine the blood pressure, it would be squirting out everywhere. Also, I find blood to be a bit smelly. I know this from high school biology btw.

Why are we killing just got back to here

discussing apt torture methods for incels on my course

Hot

LoLo <3

Hot

We discussed that it was a bit to kinky…

Fuckboy Drag King

discussing apt torture methods for incels on my course

A valid use of time Fuck those guys

3

Another fight w my dad love that for me

22:33

I’m so tired

4

hope youre feeling okay, can be tough, here if you want to talk

hope you're not doing too bad

it's horrible having a fight with a parent but we're here for you

bit annoyed because i let myself get my hopes up with my father, despite him doing the same thing since i was 14, and low and behold im fucked over again. i know on some level i expected it to happen again because id half prepared in case he hadnt, but i was hopeful, and now he has gone straight back to his usual bullshit responses and im left scrambling to work things out with what little i have

3

17:26

small thing all things considered just frustrated that for the last couple of years id learned to just not trust what he said and prepare anyway, and then im stupid again

I don't know what he promised you but I'm sorry he let you down again that shit sucks and you deserve better

17:32

Is it something we can help you with you said you'd half prepared but if it's like living arrangements or something I'm sure w enough of us in town we can work something out?

no no its fine, thank you though. its just money stuff, i still have wages due at the end of the month which will keep me going until student finance, just felt like my shitty financial relationship with him might finally come to an end

Ah yeah the su pay out on the 28th right? It's been so long since I had a shift I don't totally remember haha ~ if it gets really tight I think you can apply to the uni for extenuating circumstances or something and they can give you something to tide you over

yeah they should, im sure it will be fine, im not overly concerned about the finances because i know i will get it sorted, im just annoyed at myself a bit, even if its pointless to be like such

Okay your picrew is Adorable

17:52

Also like I get it but he's the one you should be disappointed in not you, you haven't done anything wrong and you prepared yourself in case this would happen like you're in a decent position regardless all things considered it just sucks bc he let you down

2

I need to accept that my academic career doesn't have to be everything. If I don't succeed that's okay and maybe it just isn't for me or its not the right time for it. Obviously I don't know yet but I often forget that the losses won't be as big as I make them out to be. I've dropped out of uni before and it took a while for my parents to convince me that that was okay and now I need to convince myself. We'll see how it goes.

18:05

Being rushed to get things done from GCSEs to A-Levels without much choice as a teen really fucks you up

4

it honestly does, it can be super stressful. hope youre okay though, youre an awesome person regardless of academic achievement

Thanks, there's just a lot of realisations to go through

Academia is only one measure of intelligence it doesn’t say anything about you aside from how you are in one aspect of your life. You are loved because of who you are, nothing to do with your achievements in school or uni, you’re a kind, funny and lovely person and the focus on school and uni we’re forced through is bullshit, you’re just as worthy as anyone else regardless of where you go aside from the school shit you didn’t get a choice in. We’re here for you whatever your decision

2

Thank you, that really means a lot

18:12

I have to figure out what I want now, its hard to get used to not being a kid. I remember at the end of highschool I didn't want to go to college but I had to do something until I was 18. And then the uni application pressure at college was almost completely unavoidable. So now I need to know what I want.

18:13

But I'll always be CB over here fucking about in this server and growing my harem

Contrary opinion but you absolutely do not have to know what you want. I also sleepwalked into uni don't know what I want to do after this year but I do well w structure so I'll either do a masters or something sociology-y but the most healing thing for me at uni has been realising that nobody has their shit figured out. When I was with H I had a 5 year plan, I was going to get a masters and work 3 jobs so I could afford to get her out their parents' house and afford her therapy while being a housespouse bc they don't want to work. That's cool and all but when it ended it made me realise everything can be temporary and the only person who's decisions affect me permanently are my own and I needed to like focus on me? Maybe I have more responsibilities than a kid but at the end of the day I'm just a big kid enjoying the freedom uni gave me and the opportunities to do the things mum didn't let me like spending my pay from work on bubbles and play doh and eating chocolate whenever I want lmao This is more a yay let's be a kid thing for me than it was initially meant to be but what I was trying to say was don't stress too much about what you think you have to do, it's fine to not know where you want to be, do something you enjoy until you figure it out or just follow the shit you enjoy and you'll probably find yourself either pursuing education or work in that area anyway. Just don't put too much pressure on yourself ~ you'd probably be surprised how many of us are in a similar place

Thanks

18:24

I'm also like almost 2 years out of a 6 year relationship so my brain is like confused about not being a kid and not basing my choices and future on what someone else is planning too

18:26

I'm not saying I want to know exactly everything I want but I just wanna know kinda what my brain is interested in if you know what I mean

Damn I didn't know it was 6 years that's a lott

Yeah it was a long one

Sorry that's probably not the right thing to say

Lol no don't worry

18:29

I don't mind comments about it

But nah I get that like basing a lot around another person then having to reevalute shit ain't easy

Yeah makes me wish I grew up outside of a couple but I'll just have to do all that now

Idk relationships can teach you a lot about yourself too ~ I didn't date really until I was 17 and learnt distance does NOT work for me even tho it was only 2 hours drive (it was lockdown tbf but even so) then don't stay w a guy who tells you to get a boob job, and poly relationships aren't my thing I get jealous too easily and am not at the stage where I could process that healthily, think the hardest thing for me tho is not changing my entire personality when I like someone just so they won't leave me then them leaving anyway bc they liked me not the me I made up to be compatible w them if that makes sense? I've done a lot of growing since January and while coming to terms w stuff can be rough I like to think it's taught me shit I would be pretty naive about otherwisde

I started dating when I was 13, we met in highschool and then he immediately moved like 4 hours away. I didn't know myself, I was very mentally ill and had no coping mechanisms and didn't understand my own sexuality. The relationship ruined all my good friendships because my two closest friends told him they wanted to be with him. We had our first kiss the same year I broke up with him. We went on a break at the end of highschool bc he was struggling and needed space and then a few months later I found out he was cheating on me dating another girl and then I helped him deal with the aftermath and agreed to stay with him (big regrets). I get where you're coming from and everyone benefits from different things but I think I would have benefited greatly from either not having that relationship or cutting it off halfway. Thank you for sharing with me btw :))

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18:44

Hope I'm not oversharing

18:46

I've learnt more from the friendships I've had in here and they make me happy and that's all I can hope for

Wow that’s shitty I’m so sorry You’re not overshadowing you’re fine but please don’t feel like you have to tell me stuff you’re not comfortable to

1

1

Big problem with myself is that, when I want to cry, I just can’t, like I can feel it right behind the eyes and my body I just tired, but I can’t

5

It’s okay to feel like that sometimes, sometimes it’s like you wanna let it all out and it’ll be easier ❤️ those moments are the hardest. Just keep rocking yourself and you’ll be ok. We’re all here for you

Sometimes your body just doesn’t want to it’s okay to cry but it’s also okay to not cry

I cry a LOT I do get how weird it can be when you can’t but it’ll be okay, the feeling will pass, it’s gonna be okay. Like B said, we’re here if you need anything

Twink Antony

Big problem with myself is that, when I want to cry, I just can’t, like I can feel it right behind the eyes and my body I just tired, but I can’t

reiterating what everyone else just said really. it's ok not to be able to cry but hope you're ok and the feeling passes

Anonymous Confession (#625)

"hands shaking while i smoke away the sudden onslaught of sadness"

3

hope you're okay op, here if you want to talk or just have a distraction

A train to Scotland got cancelled so my train to northern England got moved half an hour later so that those passengers could take this one instead - now I’m going to miss my connecting train and I’m not going to be able to make the appointment I booked and the estate agent is saying they can’t reschedule

10:05

This is literally like a 6 hour journey that costs £70 and it might all be completely wasted if they can’t figure out a way to reschedule because of this one random train to Edinburgh being cancelled - why would ppl going to Scotland want to take a different train that doesn’t even leave England anyway??

that's fucking stupid. I'm so sorry this happened, could you get a virtual tour with the estate agent or smth? ik it's not the same but maybe it could do smth?

Unfortunately they insisted that I had to sign the final documents in person - I wanted to also go to the house so I could measure the rooms to plan for furniture but idk what I’m going to be able to do now - literally my only hope is that the estate agent can find availability an hour later

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10:12

Still have a few hours of train journey left to find out

i really hope they can reschedule it

10:48

bc this is smth completely out of your control

Been talking to the agents for like an hour but they figured out a way to reschedule so fingers crossed the rest of the journey goes okay and I can make it in time

11:10

Very grateful for the estate agents finding a way to make this work so that the whole trip isn’t ruined

11:10

And I should still be able to make it back to Norwich tonight

that's great! hope it works out

Nice! I’m glad it all worked out

glad to hear it got sorted, hope it all goes well

Anonymous Confession (#628)

"TW: Alcohol I do not even drink that much at this point, yet I always feel like I am avoiding the temptation to just have a bit to drink, just to make things easier. It makes me stress a lot less, calms me down, helps me make annoying or frustrating things fun and simpler. Even when I am at my worst with mental health, it just makes me feel numb. It does not make me more depressed, just makes me feel more empty, and that feels a lot easier sometimes. But my mental health is not even that bad, but I still feel like the pressure that always builds up every now and then will be so much easier to manage and then overcome, rather than struggle through and avoid."

3

Proud of you for making progress drinking less than you were, leaving behind coping mechanisms is never easy. Especially w something like alcohol that’s so normalised in uni culture it can be hard to step away from, but there’s never any pressure to drink if you don’t want to with us, the most important thing is that everyone feels safe and comfortable

glad you’re taking care of yourself op, I don’t have much experience with this stuff but I’m here if you want to talk regardless

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butter

Been talking to the agents for like an hour but they figured out a way to reschedule so fingers crossed the rest of the journey goes okay and I can make it in time

Made it on time and did what I needed to do, heading to catch the train back now

Yay!!

14:35

Glad everything worked out!!!

I’m really glad things went okay in the end because I don’t know what the fuck I would have done otherwise

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14:42

Now hopefully the only thinking about it I’ll have to do is being excited about planning furniture until I move in on the 1st

Ooo exciting!!!

butter

Made it on time and did what I needed to do, heading to catch the train back now

I'm so happy and excited for you! glad it all worked out in the end. sucks that you had to face all that stress but take some time to wind down now that that's over

1

ahh love the loop of my father being shit, me hating my father, my father being a manipulative piece of shit until i start trusting him a bit more again, then betraying said trust, then being worse, then recycle

2

17:28

i am absolutely done, except surprise, no im not, because the exact same thing will happen again because im an idiot

do you want me to beat him up

17:34

and/or hit on him

kind offer but im fine thanks

17:36

just slightly pissed off

17:36

again

17:36

but thats why alcohol exists

I don't know if you remember you told me bits about what your father had done in the past at Spectrum, and I was fuckin livid lmao

17:37

Abusive parents should just be strangled, whether to death or not remains to be seen but still

2

17:37

You're doing ever so well putting up with him.

2

E r i n

but thats why alcohol exists

you shouldn't need to resort to substances to feel better after things like this. I'm sorry he's being such a piece of shit and I'll join in on strangling him

17:42

i hope you'll be out of this cycle and his reach soon. as someone with severely abusive parents, ik all too well what you're describing with the abuse-forgiveness thing. it takes time and distance but i promise, it'll get better and we'll help you every step of the way (edited)

thanks, its appreciated

17:50

im sure ill be fine just annoyed now and need a break from everything

My brain for real needs to shut the fuck up bc I don't wanna listen to it no more

2

Another classic from mother dearest this evening, "well, things might be bad but at least you're not trans like some of those poor athletes." Me asking what she meant by that, her reply of "well, you already have quite a lot wrong with you, and I have nothing wrong with trans people! I just know that you're not one." Oh mother beloved, please shut the fuck up.

4

If you tell my brain to shut the fuck up I'll tell your mother to shut the fuck up bc oh boy she needs to before she digs herself a deeper hole

3

mumblingmiss

If you tell my brain to shut the fuck up I'll tell your mother to shut the fuck up bc oh boy she needs to before she digs herself a deeper hole

Sounds like a deal babe, how can I best communicate to your brain

Fuckboy Drag King

Another classic from mother dearest this evening, "well, things might be bad but at least you're not trans like some of those poor athletes." Me asking what she meant by that, her reply of "well, you already have quite a lot wrong with you, and I have nothing wrong with trans people! I just know that you're not one." Oh mother beloved, please shut the fuck up.

im sorry, that really sucks, i hope youre okay

here to talk if you want

1

Does anyone here have parents who aren’t pieces of shit? Swear down I’ll become all of your adoptive big sisters if I can

2

Fuckboy Drag King

Another classic from mother dearest this evening, "well, things might be bad but at least you're not trans like some of those poor athletes." Me asking what she meant by that, her reply of "well, you already have quite a lot wrong with you, and I have nothing wrong with trans people! I just know that you're not one." Oh mother beloved, please shut the fuck up.

respectfully, i fucking hate your mother with a burning passion reserved for her and her alone

1

Fuckboy Drag King

Sounds like a deal babe, how can I best communicate to your brain

Was thinking maybe a lobotomy

mumblingmiss

If you tell my brain to shut the fuck up I'll tell your mother to shut the fuck up bc oh boy she needs to before she digs herself a deeper hole

your brain needs to shut the fuck up and stop bothering you, youre awesome and so cool, and dont deserve to be harrassed - letter know by your brain

LoLo <3

Does anyone here have parents who aren’t pieces of shit? Swear down I’ll become all of your adoptive big sisters if I can

My dad is pretty nice. Mother is a bit of a dick sometimes

mumblingmiss

Was thinking maybe a lobotomy

Is that legal

i hope you're ok and ik you're used to letting her words slide off you but ik it can be really hard sometimes. you're wonderful and she's a close-minded bitch

1

Fuckboy Drag King

Is that legal

If we pretend it never happened

1

mumblingmiss

If we pretend it never happened

our secret bestie i'm omw

Fuckboy Drag King

our secret bestie i'm omw

Perfect, lmk where your mother is

Caz can I fight your mum

mahariel

i hope you're ok and ik you're used to letting her words slide off you but ik it can be really hard sometimes. you're wonderful and she's a close-minded bitch

I know you're right haha, it just makes it terribly hard to ever consider coming out to them, you know? It was jarring coming back to my parents as it is

1

LoLo <3

Caz can I fight your mum

Please do

cant wait for parent dome, shove all the shitty parents in an arena and let them fight it out

3

honestly, i would pay to watch my mother and his mother duke it out

20:22

feel like mine would hide a shank somewhere

sadly I think my mother would win, drink dependant

20:22

though I wish for nothing more than for your mother to shank mine

my fathers back would break immediately

I don't want to be that person but as often as I am angry at my father I like my parents bc theyre always blunt with me which I need

4

but that his bones can be used as clubs

But my parents could murder all of yours

Fuckboy Drag King

I know you're right haha, it just makes it terribly hard to ever consider coming out to them, you know? It was jarring coming back to my parents as it is

yeah i get you (in a different way to how you do ofc). it must be shit facing all of that at home but i trust that your sister and most likely your father will support you. it's your journey though and even though it looks bleak, we're here for you no matter what happens. idk if this means much but yeah

1

mumblingmiss

But my parents could murder all of yours

Honestly do think my mother would have a pretty good chance, I've been on the receiving end of that and sadly got the scars for it

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mahariel

yeah i get you (in a different way to how you do ofc). it must be shit facing all of that at home but i trust that your sister and most likely your father will support you. it's your journey though and even though it looks bleak, we're here for you no matter what happens. idk if this means much but yeah

Yeah I hope so

mumblingmiss

I don't want to be that person but as often as I am angry at my father I like my parents bc theyre always blunt with me which I need

Mine are the same dad and I have our fights but

honestly have no idea what my dad would do in a fight. he would probably break his back immediately too lmfao

My mum is a care nurse who pushed a guy in Lake to defend my brother once and my dad is an absolute unit security guard and we all have anger issues lmao

20:25

We do murders in this household

mumblingmiss

We do murders in this household

I'll invite my mother round to yours, unprompted

Fuckboy Drag King

I'll invite my mother round to yours, unprompted

Let's go shell never make it out

i love that this ParentBowl would end up with a bunch of old men crying in pain while two narcissists stab at each other. Caz's mother gets +5 poison damage and mine gets +5 religious damage

paladin vs druid

yes

mahariel

i love that this ParentBowl would end up with a bunch of old men crying in pain while two narcissists stab at each other. Caz's mother gets +5 poison damage and mine gets +5 religious damage

Then they'd both gaslight each other and the following morning pretend they didn't fight at all

Fuckboy Drag King

Then they'd both gaslight each other and the following morning pretend they didn't fight at all

yes, my mother telling yours all the ways she's going to burn in Hell

there wouldnt be a following morning until only one remains

Cant wait for my lobotomy

3

standard racism vs exotic racism, the ultimate standoff

mahariel

standard racism vs exotic racism, the ultimate standoff

tbh I am very glad our mothers will never meet, they'd be so incredibly fake and passive aggressive for the entire duration they were around each other

20:29

and then inevitably blame us, respectively, for something or other

mahariel

standard racism vs exotic racism, the ultimate standoff

this reminds me of something

Fuckboy Drag King

tbh I am very glad our mothers will never meet, they'd be so incredibly fake and passive aggressive for the entire duration they were around each other

LMAO honestly this is exactly how it would go down my mother in public: ahaha you're so nice, i love the decor ahahaha my mother in private: that bitch has no morals and God will smite her for her sins. no, you don't get to point out i do the exact same things

My mum has rheumatoid arthritis and my dad once kicked someone’s teeth out doing karate but he’s now 50 w a bad back

B

this reminds me of something

i will strangle you if you mention that

LoLo <3

My mum has rheumatoid arthritis and my dad once kicked someone’s teeth out doing karate but he’s now 50 w a bad back

sexy

mahariel

i will strangle you if you mention that

YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN

B

YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN

DIE.

mahariel

DIE.

HAHAHAHAHAHHAAHAH

20:32

My mum isnt the scary one in the family

telling you things is always a mistake

my aunt is, hurt me, she will literally murder you

your aunt has multiple warrants out for her arrest

sexy

20:34

is she a milf

Caz

hi

Back off ❤️

mahariel

your aunt has multiple warrants out for her arrest

oh no she just has multiple charges for GBH

20:34

thats all

20:34

thats pretty tiny compared to others in my family ngl

I nearly got my mate's cousins number a few months back, it can be done

B

oh no she just has multiple charges for GBH

or maybe not

You can fuck as many of my family members as you like but good luck

Fuckboy Drag King

or maybe not

me : explaining some of the thigns my family done to @T_JUS665 @Unknown @Unknown and @Unknown looking in horror like

20:39

B

me : explaining some of the thigns my family done to @T_JUS665 @Unknown @Unknown and @Unknown looking in horror like

Yay family stories

B

me : explaining some of the thigns my family done to @T_JUS665 @Unknown @Unknown and @Unknown looking in horror like

Your family is like watching a particularly spicy soap

20:43

Also thanks for the new role

Got to my new house and everything’s fine except threes mould on the windows there’s no wifi the hot water doesn’t work and when finn tried to cook a fuse went and now the powers out I feel so isolated and scared I wish I hadn’t come back up

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thats really shit, im sorry

22:00

sounds overwhelming, hope youre feeling okay and im here yo talk. hope things get sorted

I can’t use my phone there’s no power to charge it

i dont have any powerbanks or id offer some, im sorry

LoLo <3

Got to my new house and everything’s fine except threes mould on the windows there’s no wifi the hot water doesn’t work and when finn tried to cook a fuse went and now the powers out I feel so isolated and scared I wish I hadn’t come back up

that's so shit, i could run over and supply a powerbank if you want?

We’ve got the power on now, still no wifi or hot water tho:(

22:37

Thank you tho

22:37

On an up note this is my room

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22:38

(Ignore the mess I haven’t had a chance to unpack)

your room is massive

Yeah

hope u can get the utilities sorted asap!

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LoLo <3

On an up note this is my room

cool room!

22:53

it is easily 3x as big as mine haha

LoLo <3

We’ve got the power on now, still no wifi or hot water tho:(

Has the fuse tripped for the boiler? x

22:57

Or is the boiler producing any error code?

22:57

Wifi should come back slowly with the power x

There never was any wifi:(

mahariel

it is easily 3x as big as mine haha

Same w my room at home

huh when's the wifi getting installed?

Is this a boiler?

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i think thats the controls for it?

Just had/still maybe having a bit of a meltdown Stupid shitty fucking sinks make the water splash up if you turn the tap on too fast because it was apparently designed by an idiot and it goes all over my pajama top and now it needs to dry or I won't fucking be able to sleep in it

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23:46

Oh and the soap is terrible it's some fancy shit that smells way too fucking strong on my hands for way too long and that's really just not helping this awful sensory experience

2

Fastest way to get it to fry is to wear it but I get how gross it can be

is there something you’ve worn as a day top you’d not be wearing again that doesn’t matter if you use it overnight? Maybe as a one off it’d be okay?

23:49

Ik textures can be different but that might work in a pinch

23:49

Hope you can get some rest

All my day t shirts are short sleeve but I absolutely need long sleeve for pjs

23:54

And now my nose is all stuffy and clogged up

23:54

It just one fucking thing after the other (edited)

I'm just having a whole fucking time of it tonight apparently

1

Ripfangs

I'm just having a whole fucking time of it tonight apparently

feeling any better today?

Eh Still in a weird mood

3

hope it eases throughout the day kiddo

Love getting frustrated and overwhelmed because I can't find something in the fridge because it's in a different fridge There's too many fridges here I don't have the object permanence to handle this

3

actually begging my co-ordinator to give me more tasks to do lmao. i am bored out of my mind bc they set weeks to complete projects that i get done in a couple days max. hate feeling unproductive like this

13:52

ik it's a stupid vent but ugh

Do you want to come over and do some diy I’m doing everything I can to not do something stupid but I’m breaking down

i really work the best when I'm juggling 4-5 projects and flitting between them so my ADHD doesn't have long periods of time to lose focus

LoLo <3

Do you want to come over and do some diy I’m doing everything I can to not do something stupid but I’m breaking down

I'm so sorry you're going through this, can you wait until 4:30? I'll talk to you through all of this but my shift doesn't end until then

It’s okay you don’t have to come over and do diy I just have to use command strips to put shit up which is fine when they’re strong enough but I nearly just broke my mirror

LoLo <3

It’s okay you don’t have to come over and do diy I just have to use command strips to put shit up which is fine when they’re strong enough but I nearly just broke my mirror

ahh ok I'm pretty good with putting stuff up so sit tight and I'll be there in 3 hours ok?

LoLo <3

Is this a boiler?

My thing at home is just like that! Left side when you click extra hour it will heat water for another hour if it’s run out for showers and isn’t already on. Haven’t really used the other buttons at home because we tend to keep the settings the same but hopefully you can at least have hot showers whilst you figure it out

I asked my mum this is what she said

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You (and your mum) are absolute queens thankyou

we have unlimited bills included so we’ve just put it on all the time for now but if we can set it that’ll save a lot of power thankyou

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Haha np love that I’ve never learnt our heating system even though I lived there 12 years

I’ve lived in the same house for 16 years I wouldn’t have a clue either

LoLo <3

You (and your mum) are absolute queens thankyou

we have unlimited bills included so we’ve just put it on all the time for now but if we can set it that’ll save a lot of power thankyou

I’m sure you’re aware of this already but please be careful of “all inclusive bills”

19:41

Request the billing invoice every month, a lot of these companies, especially with increasing prices, tend to do all inclusive bills up to £x but won’t say

Not my parents rather me be homeless than me stay at the house for a couple of nights.

20:26

Luckily Jory is letting me stay

20:26

But they literally were like no, to me asking to stay at their house for two nights

2

Wtf?

I’m not gonna ring them for a while

Fuck I’m so sorry

20:27

That’s so shitty

thats so shit, im sorry

It’s okay, I will always have backup plans

20:27

But that just really set me back

hope youre okay

here if you need anything

Thank you

Same here

Just reasons I don’t want to talk to my parents again

I don’t have wifi but I have a pretty big room and hot water that works now if you did ever need to crash my door is always open

20:28

But I absolutely don’t blame you I wouldn’t want to talk to mine if they did that either

Thank you, I really appreciate it

20:29

And I literally woukd have backup plans

20:29

But just shocked about parents

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20:29

It’s not like I ever ask them for anything

20:29

Liek; I’m completely independent financially etc

Why do people always come to fix or replace things when I'm the only one home and why thhe fuck does nobody warn me? I mean the workers are always nice but I can never confirm if theyre at the right place or not bc nobody has told me anything so I'm super awkward and unprepared to deal with anyone or help them do their job.

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Your landlord or letting agent should let you know at minimum 24h in advance ik it’s weird w the moving in period but they should at least text to let you know

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I live at home w my parents so they get told all of it but then they all go to work and don't tell me whether it's because they remembered or not I would just like to know what to expect

Love finding out the wifi was sent back to virgin so I still won’t be able to book my train ticket home

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10:41

It’s gonna be so much more now

Do you need a hand with that?

@Unknown we got free wifi at work if you need to use it

12:43

Also coffe

If it’s still open when I can leave the house I’ll take you up on that (still waiting for a microwave to be delivered and the guys to come fit the new oven)

LoLo <3

If it’s still open when I can leave the house I’ll take you up on that (still waiting for a microwave to be delivered and the guys to come fit the new oven)

Yeah we are

13:25

@Unknown open till 3:30

Praying the guys have come by then

If you need a hand booking it if you can't get there in time lmk I can always help book it for you

@Unknown possibly 4:30 if it doesn’t get busier

There’s still no sign of the guys w our oven or the Amazon truck w the microwave so doesn’t look hopeful

LoLo <3

There’s still no sign of the guys w our oven or the Amazon truck w the microwave so doesn’t look hopeful

Doesn’t that tell you your delivery time? And is there no one else in the house :/

can you only book train tickets on your computer?

Only me and finn rn and he’s at the doctors:( and mum ordered the microwave and it says at some point today

mahariel

can you only book train tickets on your computer?

The page won’t load on my phone 4g

huh that's weird

14:44

trainline app?

I could try getting the app ig just thought it’d be a quick fix on the wifi lol

yeah this really sucks

I’ll probably drag myself to town see B when no one’s coming to the house to do stuff get it done there I really miss you guys and thought I’d have been able to see you by now:(

hey no worries we're doing stuff tomorrow evening

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14:46

don't think we have anything planned for tonight

I’ll try have you over at some point give you the grand tour

14:46

But might not be this week idk

LoLo <3

I’ll try have you over at some point give you the grand tour

When Finns back you care welcome to come here

14:47

And I’m happy if you need me to to come over after work and hotspot y’all

You’re so lovely thankyou

LoLo <3

You’re so lovely thankyou

Free coffee for both of you too ❤️

14:48

If you somehow get here

14:49

But please please please don’t ask for coffee after 16:15

if you do, Bran has corporate permission to bodyslam you

15:00

ask me how i know

mahariel

ask me how i know

Nearly threw you down the stairs

if you're a cute, curly-haired boy, he'll slam you into the wall instead

Haha duly noted

15:06

Finn kind of fits that criteria but don’t be too full on he has a bf

No the taken people get the same treatment

15:07

Throwing down the stairs smh

15:07

If I have to be single. So does everyone else! Those the rules

Bro he’s 6’4 does kayak and triathlon he’s not someone to be throwing down stairs lmao

LoLo <3

Bro he’s 6’4 does kayak and triathlon he’s not someone to be throwing down stairs lmao

Sneak attacks ofc

15:08

I have 20 years of built up rage from trauma

levelled up in stealth kills

Lmfao ~ pole knocked him out maybe you can do something w that knowledge

I don't drink coffee but I'd order one for the experience of seeing you try

LoLo <3

Lmfao ~ pole knocked him out maybe you can do something w that knowledge

I grab a pole and spin

15:13

Spin kick

He came to bring a boy to pole and knocked on my door the next morning 'HOW DO YOU NOT WAKE UP AND CRY' like bitch I need context for that sometimes I do lmao

15:14

Apparently it's different muscle sets to what you use for kayaking rip

B

I grab a pole and spin

No bc I'm gonna buy a shorter pole attachment and have it in my room here

I use my whole body for baristaing

15:14

I have very thick leg muscles tjo

Imagine exercising

My mental health takes a massive dive when I don't now

15:16

Huh actually that's probably why I've been feeling so bad since coming up here I haven't got on a pole in like 2 weeks

15:16

Thanks for the heads up!

Get back on that pole

15:20

Looking forward to the part of my day where I can be in my dark little cube of a room I hate the light

feeling a little bit sad that i didn't get to spend my graduation with my friends bc my parents micromanaged the whole day into endless family drama

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mahariel

feeling a little bit sad that i didn't get to spend my graduation with my friends bc my parents micromanaged the whole day into endless family drama

Shit I was meant to go make friends w your mum drag her away I totally forgot

Saw this on Instagram and while it’s old it’s still pretty useful if anyones going through The Sad atm

always here if anyone needs it tho I might not be online as much due to my wifi situation but knowing how to take care of yourself after a big cry can be helpful

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i really needed to read that right now thank you

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Here if you need anything

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That's great advice, obviously everyone has their own methods of coping or hitting reset, but it's really good as a guideline for everyone

Mood lightener / let's all laugh at Lo if anyone needs it ~ I made pasta for dinner tonight and was eating it going huh this has a weird texture today I FORGOT TO COOK ANY PASTA I was just eating tinned tomatoes with peppers, seasoning, and a bit of cheese I MADE PASTALESS PASTA

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LoLo <3

Mood lightener / let's all laugh at Lo if anyone needs it ~ I made pasta for dinner tonight and was eating it going huh this has a weird texture today I FORGOT TO COOK ANY PASTA I was just eating tinned tomatoes with peppers, seasoning, and a bit of cheese I MADE PASTALESS PASTA

@Unknown I really need that braincell back

LoLo <3

@Unknown I really need that braincell back

sorry i lost it

MY BRAINCELL

19:29

NOOO

would love some pastaless pasta tho

mahariel

sorry i lost it

I stole it

I was sitting there going huh what did I forget? The seasoning? Then immediately remembered getting garlic granules all over the worktop like nope can't be that

LoLo <3

Mood lightener / let's all laugh at Lo if anyone needs it ~ I made pasta for dinner tonight and was eating it going huh this has a weird texture today I FORGOT TO COOK ANY PASTA I was just eating tinned tomatoes with peppers, seasoning, and a bit of cheese I MADE PASTALESS PASTA

"And for you?" "I'll have tomato pasta, hold the pasta."

IT WASN'T INTENTIONAL

19:30

I swear I'm losing the plot

19:31

Also omg Jory can I have your role too

19:31

As the resident bike--

easily accessible hole?

19:31

LMAO

19:31

sorry my role and i are only easily accessible by certain people

And yet you're the one riding me

19:32

#makeitmakesense

hey it's just what gal pals do

'and they were good friends'

19:33

WHO TF IS STARRING ME IN MY WEAKEST MOMENTS

4

what's a little rough riding between good friends

STOP THIS

3

If you dont ride your friends, are you really friends?

3

museum of Lo's failures

mahariel

museum of Lo's failures

Booty shorts when

I'm sorry Lo but I have to

Bullying

You 3 are damn lucky you're cute smh

Teehee

LoLo <3

Mood lightener / let's all laugh at Lo if anyone needs it ~ I made pasta for dinner tonight and was eating it going huh this has a weird texture today I FORGOT TO COOK ANY PASTA I was just eating tinned tomatoes with peppers, seasoning, and a bit of cheese I MADE PASTALESS PASTA

Oh Lo

19:43

This made my day

19:43

Thanks for sharing

LoLo <3

You 3 are damn lucky you're cute smh

Sounds kinda gay to me

Ripfangs

Sounds kinda gay to me

Just gals being pals

Ripfangs

Sounds kinda gay to me

How dare you call my gf gay

LoLo <3

Just gals being pals

Just gals hanging out being pals aggressively flirting with eachother

LoLo <3

Just gals being pals

Just straights being mates

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Ripfangs

Just gals hanging out being pals aggressively flirting with eachother

Choke me and tell me my hair looks cute

mumblingmiss

Choke me and tell me my hair looks cute

I don't know how to do the first part safely but your hair is super cute

Ripfangs

I don't know how to do the first part safely but your hair is super cute

If I die, I die. It's all part of the plan

mumblingmiss

If I die, I die. It's all part of the plan

No you must live

Ripfangs

I don't know how to do the first part safely but your hair is super cute

Squeeze the sides around the windpipe don't just go all in or you can do serious damage ~ if someone's into it and seriously asking you and you're unsure, get them to show you like position your hand bc they're more likely to have experience (ik this is a joke but it could be important)

~~WILL SOMEONE JUST CHOKE ME~~

LoLo <3

Squeeze the sides around the windpipe don't just go all in or you can do serious damage ~ if someone's into it and seriously asking you and you're unsure, get them to show you like position your hand bc they're more likely to have experience (ik this is a joke but it could be important)

Don't worry I'll definitely ask for clear instructions and demonstration and explanation I need that anyway for the simplest tasks I've not done before

19:50

Anyway twitter's been putting a bunch of hot butches on my timeline lately and like damn, when will a hot butch flirt with me?

Omg I thought you said butcher

"madam i've seen what you can do with chicken thighs and id like you to do the same for mine"

butter

"madam i've seen what you can do with chicken thighs and id like you to do the same for mine"

"I heard you're an expert in thighs, care to inspect mine?"

Pickup lines that shouldn't work for me but would

LoLo <3

Pickup lines that shouldn't work for me but would

Hey Lo-

Ripfangs

Hey Lo-

Hi

Tbf a pick up line that would make me laugh like that would work on me too lmao

Ripfangs

You're already my gf remember? CB harem

Anyway if any of you meet a hot butch tell them I say hi

I will let you know how she responds:)

<3

If you see me tell me I said hi

mumblingmiss

If you see me tell me I said hi

Shall do:)

If you me tell see that say them

Yes

I promise I will

20:05

man door hand hook car door

Praise be

Ripfangs

Anyway twitter's been putting a bunch of hot butches on my timeline lately and like damn, when will a hot butch flirt with me?

Holding out for a hero except its me yearning for a hot butch to come hold me

Holding out for a hug except my housemate is in his room gaming

Anonymous Confession (#633)

"making myself terrified with horror films then making myself incredibly sad. if I'm sad enough, i don't care about the scary things that might jump out at me in the night"

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Confessions

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Don't make yourself sad make yourself food

20:45

It's nearly 9 oclock you can't trust yourself after 9 remember? Have some water and get a snack, watch something that doesn't freak you out and get some goddamn sleep op

God I'm starting to hate this bed Fucking mattress is too hard, the covers are too warm and the pillows are too thick Impossible to get comfortable on it

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Might be tmi but anyone else's anxiety make them need to pee like constantly when you're about to do something and it's like girl no you fuckin don't you're only leaving the house you're fine

YES oh my god

10:18

Getting my mum to stop the car every 10 minutes on the way up to uni the first time bc I couldn't deal w the stress of living 2 hours away from her-

Omg thank god its not just me it's been 20 years and I still don't understand!! Like I've peed 50 times already there is nothing leftttt

I don't know if it's directly the anxiety that makes it happen but I do end up drinking a load of water to procrastinate things I'm nervous about and then end up needing the toilet a bunch (edited)

I don't drink anything the morning I wake up if I know I have to go in a car for more than half an hour

10:21

I'd rather pass out than piss myself

I just hate that my body is telling me I need to pee but I can guarantee there's nothing there like let me do stuff

10:27

Oh and how's the house sorting going, Lo?

Still no wifi or oven and waiting for the guy to take the last people's rubbish and the gardener to take the budlia out by the kitchen window so we can see out (which I'm a little sad about bc it's pretty) but I'm just gonna live my life and hope for the best at this point, not much I can do so

Just a 1am, brain thoughts. You know when you lose a bestfriend you kinda just feel empty. Losing someone that close to you because of someone elses malicious actions fucking sucks. I have a few best friends but there was a special part of me with this one, they understood my thoughts and feelings and we bonded over the same shared pain. Seeing them in my dreams which always turn into nightmares, seeing them deep in my mind, seeing something i think theyd enjoy and about to press send and realising they dont care anymore. Whats even worse is there was potentially romantic feelings for this person which I daren't process as it wasnt fair on them as it isnt fair on me. Honestly, just a message just knowing theyre okay would mean the world to me, Loving someone fucking sucks but at the same time, I know that seeing them smile would always make me smile. When I first met them in person I was so excited, not being able to sleep the night before and when finally meeting them hugging them so tight and having one of the most wonderful days together. Just always thinking of the words I can say to them which could make them understand, I genuinely would be happy to at least speak to them one more time, but unfortunately toxic people having hooks into them is just one of those things i need to accept. I just hope they know my door (metaphorically and quite literally) would always be open to them

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Anonymous Confession (#638)

"Kinda sick of how everytime I'm dealing with a company, or landlord, or agency, or anything, that they seem dismissive or short or uncaring, I always have a little paranoid thought that it's because they know I'm trans and am being awful about it. It's completely unfair on them, and it's probably just seeing something where there is nothing."

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Not to advocate for the landlord community

but a lot of students are moving in right now and their best case scenario is one where they don’t have to do anything so anyone coming to them with questions or problems will get pretty snappy answers. I don’t know your specific situation but at least for me, my agency is dealing w a lot of student lettings rn and we’ve had a lot of issues and the landlord has already complained to me about how my housemate’s mum complains too much but they’re trying to minimise problems because they’re busy so likely that’s why they’re being dismissive not because of you being trans

I don’t know if that helps at all but if you feel unsafe handling concerns w your house talk to the people you’re living with see if they can help you with talking to the people necessary about the issue ~ you can’t sort out all the problems on your own you’re part of a house, part of a team

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also sometimes landlords just don't seem to know what to do in certain situations. small thing but my landlord asks to take a photo of our passports for ID, but because mine is in my deadname i offered to bring alternative id and/or my deedpoll. just complicates their job a tiny bit sometimes, and while its definitely unpleasant to seem brushed off or pushed to the side with stuff like this, im sure its not personal

18:10

~~and if it is then arson~~

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I don’t go by my birth name either (Ik I’m cis so it’s somewhat different) but if you go in like hey on my passport it says that but I go by this so please can you call me that and they’ll make a note of it for later like they’ve been pretty good w it. It’s more admin for them sure but in my experience anyway they do their best w what they can and are okay w being corrected if they do slip up (and if they’re aggressive about it, arson)

thats a good point too, at the end of the day theyre human too - vaguely - and if theyre good humans theyll make an effort

Plus some people are terrible at names!! My landlords called dean and I must have called him Dave at least 4 times

18:16

I got the d right-

if not im only half kidding about arson i want to explore new hobbies and transphobic people are a good starting point

Nah he’s like 45

18:17

Not my thing

18:17

Gotta be at least 60 for me

haha fair fair, maybe you should send me their phone number though haha for a friend, reference for landlord, you know? lol haha haha

‘Happily married’ I’m afraid

18:19

His son would be cute if it wasn’t for the facial hair tho

LoLo <3

I got the d right-

That's what she said?

1

I could put your @ on his van he parks outside our garage every night

I feel like I've done something wrong but I don't know what or why or if it's just classic paranoia

1

Compensate with arson

18:51

It does sound like anxiety just straight up like it just happens sometimes doesn’t mean you’ve done anything wrong

I’m sorry you’re feeling bad, we love you

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hope youre okay cb

Thanks guess it's just that little nagging feeling in the back of my head, I'll just go set something on fire

18:53

I love you guys

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18:55

Gonna blame that single sip of gin

smh shame on gin

I really need a hug rn

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the absolute pain of trying to order a custom gift basket for my friend's birthday but my card keeps getting blocked bc it's delivering to another country and then my bank asking me to confirm all 3 times i clicked "place order" at once so now it's taken £200 out of my account oh my god

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mahariel

the absolute pain of trying to order a custom gift basket for my friend's birthday but my card keeps getting blocked bc it's delivering to another country and then my bank asking me to confirm all 3 times i clicked "place order" at once so now it's taken £200 out of my account oh my god

Woah wtf??? That's insane I hope that gets sorted asap

1

Imagine having to email your last years landlord bc your housemate got his deposit back at the start of the month and you’re still waiting I really need that money Jonathan

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LoLo <3

Imagine having to email your last years landlord bc your housemate got his deposit back at the start of the month and you’re still waiting I really need that money Jonathan

11:05

Hope you get your money soon

This is a vent bc it’s a fucking crisis but I think I might have to take back my aversion to blonds A very gorgeous guy just walked past me on the train without giving a second glance my way who was the polar opposite of my type w blond almost buzzed hair that looked so soft in jeans and a suit jacket and uh hi Genuinely slightly upset by this revelation and might have some apologies to make

You're falling for their tricks babes they've casted a spell on you

~~Honestly when I thought I couldn’t get any more like Jory~~

Lmaooo

14:16

Tbf they are hot tho

14:16

Just dangerous

LoLo <3

~~Honestly when I thought I couldn’t get any more like Jory~~

happy to say I'm no longer into blonds tyvm

Oh no you swapped

14:21

I hope its not a contagious disease

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Curse of the blond

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Lo I love you but I stg if you spread it to me

Hope it’s just train guy and Kim Petras I don’t think I could deal if it was people I’m gonna see in my general life

14:23

@ blond community of the coffee house if I fall for you, please end me. The Lo you knew is gone

oooh i have a song for this situation

14:23

here https://open.spotify.com/track/12k0MroOt3VGEoE7EzkB56?si=2wW29ruKTY2jipk4Q9zVZA&utm_source=copy-link

I'm itchy just thinking about blonde people

Like I said before, I used to be blonde, but I got better

LoLo <3

@ blond community of the coffee house if I fall for you, please end me. The Lo you knew is gone

hi

B

hi

You’re pinkette now it’s acceptable to crush on you

Having another one of those big think evenings and I think I've come to the decision that if it comes to it I want to redo my foundation year. I feel like with everything I struggled with last time I owe it to myself to give it another try with uni, third times the charm. I do want my degree whether I do that now or later on in my life. I really want to try again, especially now that I'm in the best state I've been in years. I'm ready to sit down and actually try my best.

It's comfort movies and important emails hour

Anonymous Confession (#642)

"I don't feel like anyone in my life is happy for my achievements. People always vocalise some form of jealousy (if i lose weight, if i make money, if I have friends whatever) and it makes me feel like I can't win? No matter what. I just want people to be happy for me, if I'm worthy of it ofc"

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Confessions

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you deserve to be proud of your achievements, im sorry if peoples remarks are undercutting that :/ Hope you're okay OP

Other people’s views take nothing away from the validity of your achievements. We’re very proud of you op

Anonymous Confession (#643)

"if I've done something wrong to you I want you to straight up tell me bc I can tell you've been speaking to me less and I don't know if it's my fault"

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I feel you op

any way you can straight up ask them that? Doesn’t always go great but it can at least start the conversation

Just went to the hygienist for the first time in like 3/4 years and ow my teeth hurt:(

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Well well well would you look at that it's my emotional support Resident Evil game

just found out that all the cleaning ive been doing - so, so much cleaning - was unnecessary

15:36

the agency apparantly has a standard practice of sending in a cleaning specialist after we move out and charging us £20 each (roughly) from our deposit anyway

15:36

so ive been destroying my body for a week for no reason :)

You can probably tell them not to? But if they don't think you did it to the right standard they'll do it anyway

honestly i dont care that much, at least i dont have to go back this evening and clean anymore really

An earlier nap is something ig

yeah its a nicer conclusion

15:38

ive been holding myself to unnecessary standards with the cleaning to be honest

15:38

so its nice to no i have to do practically nothing else, even if im losing £20 for it

15:43

okay ngl though this may be shitty but im getting a bit of serotonin from two of my housemates - whove done none of the cleaning - complaining about losing £20 from their deposits

15:44

its mean but i feel a bit of karmic joy from it

having the best day, kids. got up extra early so i can get off earlier at work but the bus stop is having roadwork done so i had to walk all the way into town for another bus that comes in 40 minutes

08:45

got some overpriced coffee, lost my vape along the way somehow, nearly lost my wallet with a bunch of money missing from it

08:46

can't find my building access key that gets me into work

08:46

the bus I'm waiting for just did a weird turn away from the direction of my stop

08:49

forgot to call my mother last night in the process of helping bran move into my house, got a v v angry and slur-ridden text this morning

08:49

should be fun to sort that out during my break

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Good lord that is an awful lot of things to happen at once. Are you okay? Is there something I (or anyone) can do to help? Get you a taxi to work? Idk sorry I just woke up but that's terrible Jordan

08:51

And your mother is a cunt, I know that doesn't help but I just like saying it because she is

Fuckboy Drag King

Good lord that is an awful lot of things to happen at once. Are you okay? Is there something I (or anyone) can do to help? Get you a taxi to work? Idk sorry I just woke up but that's terrible Jordan

no it's fine, i ran to the next stop and am waiting in line for the bus now. this happened when i was coming home from work a few times lmao. no idea why bc no roadwork here or there but bus drivers seem to just entirely skip some stops on a coin flip

08:56

hopefully the nicotine withdrawals don't hit at work bc i can't afford to be crabby with anyone. doubt i would be anyway but grinding my teeth and shaking isn't really smth i can pass off as normal

08:58

feel shit tho bc i really wanted to get out early so i could go for coffee with bran and his housemates but by the time i get home idk if that's going to be strained timing-wjse

08:59

thought i had lost my earbuds case but it turned up under my laptop. if i had i would have gone and laid down in front of this bus lmfao

Fuckboy Drag King

And your mother is a cunt, I know that doesn't help but I just like saying it because she is

she's been furious with me all week bc of smth else I'm not going to mention here but dear god it's smth else waking up every day to texts and calls about how I've ruined everything and should have never been born lol

mahariel

no it's fine, i ran to the next stop and am waiting in line for the bus now. this happened when i was coming home from work a few times lmao. no idea why bc no roadwork here or there but bus drivers seem to just entirely skip some stops on a coin flip

Ah man. that's fair ig, hope you get to work eventually in one piece. Bran will defo get it if you need a breather after such a tiring day. Shoot a message here or to me or anyone if we can do something though.

mahariel

she's been furious with me all week bc of smth else I'm not going to mention here but dear god it's smth else waking up every day to texts and calls about how I've ruined everything and should have never been born lol

And yeah gonna reiterate your mother is a cunt (hadn't said it in a few minutes), if you need to talk more privately about her shoot me a text or something, otherwise I hope your day gets better

oh my god guess what

09:25

i go to sit at my normal desk and the IT person says "don't sit there, the last person who used it has COVID"

NO

09:26

Your day is so fucking cursed??? Here if you need me honestly I'd be screaming if I were you

yeah expect it to get worse and worse

09:30

have to use someone else's, which can't connect to my laptop

09:30

so i have to redownload adobe and our virtual desktop and set up every single one of my settings

09:31

and also fucking pray that the virtual desktop synced all my work last night and I'm not without my files

Maybe while they’re downloading get something for lunch? Idk if there’s a shop nearby you can get a vape at but

I don't mean to interrupt bc your vent is way bigger than mine. But why the fuck is the UEA so goddamn dumb? After some discussions and decisions I decided that if I can get the repeat year request through then I'll do it but otherwise it'll be a study break. But no matter how obvious I make it that my evidence email is for that repeat year request they keep responding about a different EC from ages ago and its like ye I know that went through but that's not the one I'm talking about. Feels like they're not even reading and it's so dumb, I hope someone that is actually paying attention when they do their job.

We did this yesterday too not just this morning

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mumblingmiss

I don't mean to interrupt bc your vent is way bigger than mine. But why the fuck is the UEA so goddamn dumb? After some discussions and decisions I decided that if I can get the repeat year request through then I'll do it but otherwise it'll be a study break. But no matter how obvious I make it that my evidence email is for that repeat year request they keep responding about a different EC from ages ago and its like ye I know that went through but that's not the one I'm talking about. Feels like they're not even reading and it's so dumb, I hope someone that is actually paying attention when they do their job.

nah dw, this really sucks too. sorry UEA bureaucracy is so shit

not quite a vent but i have a habit of answering rhetorical questions and it's so goddamn embarrassing sometimes lmao

14:24

ahhhhh just having a day of back to back minor inconveniences and embarrassments

Have you eaten anything yet today?

uhhh a coke

Normally when I’m having a day like that it’s bc I forgot food

and like half a sandwich

14:25

don't have much of an appetite tbh

Try and finish something if you can just to keep your energy up ~ if you don’t eat enough your brain won’t work properly and you’ll get sleepy which won’t help much on an already shitty day

nah it's just withdrawals lol

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sounds like youve had quite a stressful day to say the least, hope things improve for you soon

ty tho, appreciate the advice everyone

Just please look after yourself

guess what

Oh no

my favourite coworker just resigned and is starting a new job in 2 weeks

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16:51

what is actually going on today

16:51

is it friday the 13th in some culture idk about

16:53

quite comedic at this point. whatever i do, i think "wonder how this will go wrong"

i really hope things pick up for you soon, you deserve a break

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thanks kiddo

it's been a v weird day for sure

You're in a soap opera

pretty much lol

16:56

used my lunch break early and didn't call my mother during it so she's probably screaming

Good for her

16:56

Bitch

I'm oddly serene rn

You’ve been through a lot today just take it easy where you can

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fully expecting this bus to get T-boned at some point but i am C A L M

Too much to stress about so your brains going nah

I hope you have a super duper lucky day tomorrow

Lol balance each other out

Exactly

16:58

Get a lottery ticket tomorrow Jory

now is the time for a suspicious lottery ticket to appear on your doorsytep

16:58

beat me to it fuck

Gahahahahahaha

maybe i will actually lol

There's gotta be some sort of karmic reward

my pfp has been my expression for the last 18 hours or so

hopefully this will be you tomorrow

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:D

mahariel

my pfp has been my expression for the last 18 hours or so

Hopefully tomorrow you'll have the expression of my pfp

mumblingmiss

Hopefully tomorrow you'll have the expression of my pfp

That's all anyone wants

If you want a hat and moustache lmk I've got a source

thought to myself "I'm going to open the app and see my bus has been cancelled, aren't i" and

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17:19

ugly laughing rn

Please get a cab Jory

17:20

I will pay for you to get a cab home

17:20

Please

nah it's a 20 min walk it's fine

17:21

if my bus from work into town had been cancelled now that would have fucked me

I assumed it was the one from work

17:21

That's not as bad but like. It's still bad

not bad, just annoying

It's just one thing after another for you today

17:22

I'm so sorry

17:23

At least get yourself a vape on the way home?

hey dw about me, I'm all good and have bran and co waiting for me at home

17:24

minor annoyances but it's not the end of the world

17:24

I've been pretty happy over the past couple days so i can brush all this off after the initial hellish morning

Okay,, here for you if you need anything, always

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hope you have a really nice and chill evening, as Lo said here if you need anything

sitting here in my new house crying on the floor air mattress bc moving was so stressful and I am terrified that I am just setting myself up for years of misery with all of the money I’m investing into the decisions I’m making

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22:50

moving to a new area where I don’t know anyone or where anything is for a job that I might end up hating and I feel like I made so many mistakes going through everything to get here already

butter

sitting here in my new house crying on the floor air mattress bc moving was so stressful and I am terrified that I am just setting myself up for years of misery with all of the money I’m investing into the decisions I’m making

Oh darling I’m so sorry

moving away is a big change but change can be such a positive and wonderful thing! You’re going to have an amazing time with all these new people doing something that you enjoy. It’s daunting now bc it’s new and unknown but once you’ve been there a month you’ll wonder why you were ever so nervous. You’re a lovely person and you’ll make friends so easily it’s all going to be okay

and we’re always here if you need support

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i promise you will make friends v soon. it's a massive change but you fit so quickly into our outings bc you're really fun to be around. echoing everything Lo says basically

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thanks, both of you, I know part of it is bc I am just super tired and overwhelmed with everything, going to try to sleep now

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butter

thanks, both of you, I know part of it is bc I am just super tired and overwhelmed with everything, going to try to sleep now

Get some good rest, I hope you feel better in the morning

yeah completely understand the late night misery and being overwhelmed but sleep will definitely help a little

23:25

one day at a time, Erika. you're going to thrive in Durham once the initial anxiety passes

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Trying to find a good show or a movie to watch that won't completely overwhelm me and all of my senses is like weirdly difficult to do and it's honestly getting frustrating

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Do you think I made it obvious enough what I'm saying to them? I stg if they talk about the wrong thing again

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im sorry youre having to deal with that, it was obvious enough before

Yeah thanks, if it happens again I'm thinking bright coloured large font

next step after that is fire writing

Yeah gonna burn it into some grass

12:20

If I do enough damage they might just give me a repeat year to stop me

It might have just been lost in the system they're dealing w a lot of requests rn but spelling it out like this will have them confirm in their files what they're looking at so should resolve any issues you would have had so you should be okay

Yeah I know it's just annoying that they kept replying talking about a different ec request from ages ago like they weren't reading my emails at all. And the miscommunication isn't gonna help them get through their requests.

Absolutely love being the runt of my family. You know those wildlife shows when there's like one cub or something that struggles making it into adulthood for assorted reasons, sort of relating to that rn

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Fuckboy Drag King

Absolutely love being the runt of my family. You know those wildlife shows when there's like one cub or something that struggles making it into adulthood for assorted reasons, sort of relating to that rn

I mean you’re in Scotland right? Chances of you being hunted by a wild bear or something are pretty small so there’s probably no need for worry lol ~ besides you’re older than me right? So you might not consider yourself a grown up but you made it to adulthood technically, even if you struggled to do it you still did it? I don’t know what your family’s like or why you’d consider yourself a runt in relation but there’s nothing wrong in following a different path to them or something; you’re your own person it’d be weird if you fit every single expectation (and pretty isolating too I can imagine). You’re doing fine, you’re exactly where you need to be. I know nothing I can say will change the way you feel and that’s fine but believe me when I tell you that we don’t see you like that

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LoLo <3

I mean you’re in Scotland right? Chances of you being hunted by a wild bear or something are pretty small so there’s probably no need for worry lol ~ besides you’re older than me right? So you might not consider yourself a grown up but you made it to adulthood technically, even if you struggled to do it you still did it? I don’t know what your family’s like or why you’d consider yourself a runt in relation but there’s nothing wrong in following a different path to them or something; you’re your own person it’d be weird if you fit every single expectation (and pretty isolating too I can imagine). You’re doing fine, you’re exactly where you need to be. I know nothing I can say will change the way you feel and that’s fine but believe me when I tell you that we don’t see you like that

Thanks Lo

Don't worry, just a low moment, family's can be tough sometimes. Appreciate your support ❤️

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Fuckboy Drag King

Thanks Lo

Don't worry, just a low moment, family's can be tough sometimes. Appreciate your support ❤️

Here if you need anything

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It is Not My Day today

13:52

Only just getting up and managed to drop 2 eggs on the floor

13:52

And now the sinks overflowed

13:52

Fun fun

You okay??

13:53

Here to talk if you need anything x

I'm good I'm just having a clumsy one lol

13:55

I managed to perfectly separate a yolk I couldn't do that if I TRIED

13:55

But thankyou

I'm good just annoyed

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LoLo <3

I'm good I'm just having a clumsy one lol

ahh one of those days. good job on the yolk tho lmao

Fuckboy Drag King

Absolutely love being the runt of my family. You know those wildlife shows when there's like one cub or something that struggles making it into adulthood for assorted reasons, sort of relating to that rn

i really don't think you're anything like the runt of the family. if anything, you're miles better than all of them. it's easy to feel like that when they put you under so much pressure (obligatory: your mother can go fuck herself), but i promise you aren't. less than a week before you're out of that house. you're more than strong enough to get through it but it's ok to feel hurt or down. you've grown so much since you started this year, they can't take that away from you no matter how hard they try

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Thank you ❤️ Hey, in this particular instance, it means I get to vastly improve my cooking skills, so always a silver lining

Hello its little nervous hour welcome

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Fuckboy Drag King

Thank you ❤️ Hey, in this particular instance, it means I get to vastly improve my cooking skills, so always a silver lining

i have no idea what this means but proud of you

mahariel

i have no idea what this means but proud of you

Thank you lmao, nah it's my parents wedding anniversary this weekend. In my mothers infinite wisdom, she, my father and my sister went for a day in the city, cinema etc,(I was not invited because my mother thought i'd be too busy packing even though I leave in 4 days time, and I'm fast at getting shit together). But, because of this, I was left to do all the chores in the house and the land, along with making them a 'special' three course meal for their 30th wedding anniversary.

18:57

Was a bit of work, but seemed to come altogether in the end.

that is,,, such a bitch thing to do

18:57

would you have wanted to go?

Kinda why I said I felt like a runt, I normally get left behind in my mothers plans, and if were were animals rather than humans, I'm fairly certain she would've left me to die somewhere

mahariel

would you have wanted to go?

Yes and no? I leave soon, and it would've been nice to see Edinburgh with my sister and dad and do the things they do together as a family

18:58

But it's not the first time she has actively excluded me from things. Definitely not the last, and besides, got to improve my cooking skills so it all worked out in the end

Fuckboy Drag King

Kinda why I said I felt like a runt, I normally get left behind in my mothers plans, and if were were animals rather than humans, I'm fairly certain she would've left me to die somewhere

or thrown off a mountain in sparta lmao

18:58

though I'm fairly sure that's a myth

I'm sure it if were legal my mother would've done it, not even in a boo-hoo please pity me way, more in a, she has actively spoken of my death as a child, so it wouldn't've surprised me

Fuckboy Drag King

But it's not the first time she has actively excluded me from things. Definitely not the last, and besides, got to improve my cooking skills so it all worked out in the end

hm still an exceptionally horrible thing to do to your child. the neglect and making you do the chores of all things is so infuriating

Fuckboy Drag King

I'm sure it if were legal my mother would've done it, not even in a boo-hoo please pity me way, more in a, she has actively spoken of my death as a child, so it wouldn't've surprised me

ahh i can relate. it's quite fun to listen to that sort of tantrum once you've become completely apathetic to it. still hurts the subconscious like hell though

19:01

how are you feeling now?

Fuckboy Drag King

Thank you lmao, nah it's my parents wedding anniversary this weekend. In my mothers infinite wisdom, she, my father and my sister went for a day in the city, cinema etc,(I was not invited because my mother thought i'd be too busy packing even though I leave in 4 days time, and I'm fast at getting shit together). But, because of this, I was left to do all the chores in the house and the land, along with making them a 'special' three course meal for their 30th wedding anniversary.

That’s actually really fucking sad

if people are still up for doing platonic dates we could do something as a big gay family in Norwich maybe? Ik it’s not the same but we’ll adopt you if need be

Eh, pretty decent! The dinner looks good, and it was nice to cook in peace and blast my bang bang music out loud

LoLo <3

That’s actually really fucking sad

if people are still up for doing platonic dates we could do something as a big gay family in Norwich maybe? Ik it’s not the same but we’ll adopt you if need be

Nah bless you Lo, I'm good, really! My mother is just a bit tricky sometimes

19:02

I'm sure we'll do lots of fun things when we're all back together

Fuckboy Drag King

Eh, pretty decent! The dinner looks good, and it was nice to cook in peace and blast my bang bang music out loud

what did you make?

Oh Caz :( Sorry to hear about all this shit that’s been flung at you. Big hugs for you soon xx

mahariel

what did you make?

I love when people ask me this, I can either go down the overly simplification route of like "vegetables" or I can do the posh noncey thing of listing every ingredient like I'm literally a chef

I think she meant the actual dish lmao

how on earth is that noncey

19:04

you utter computer science melt

LoLo <3

I think she meant the actual dish lmao

No no I know but you can turn, for example, macaroni and cheese into either -> pasta with cheese sauce v/s wholegrain macaronie with a bechamel sauce, served with roasted vegetables, seasoned with balsamic and truffle

19:05

I did not make this, for the record, I'm just listing it as an example

lmao just say "steak and vegetables" or smth

exactly that's the fun of it lmao

Fuckboy Drag King

No no I know but you can turn, for example, macaroni and cheese into either -> pasta with cheese sauce v/s wholegrain macaronie with a bechamel sauce, served with roasted vegetables, seasoned with balsamic and truffle

Okay now I see how it can be noncey lmao

mahariel

lmao just say "steak and vegetables" or smth

Or just do what my brother does and gives the most dead pan answers, “oh smells nice, what is it?” “food.”

starting to think you're avoiding the question so you don't have to say "boxed spaghetti with canned tomato sauce"

My mum asked her dad what flavour jam they were having and he replied ‘jam jam’

LoLo <3

Okay now I see how it can be noncey lmao

I'm so confused where the nonceiness is

Think every family has someone clever like that

nah but fr it was a selection of warm and cold salads for starter, roasted meats and vegetables with some bread I made earlier for main, and a swiss roll with a chocolate mousse piped inside with raspberries from the garden

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look at you go

19:07

not a single fried egg to be seen

not too noncey

LoLo <3

My mum asked her dad what flavour jam they were having and he replied ‘jam jam’

Same level of comedy as Pie Flavour ASDF funny moments

Twink Antony

Same level of comedy as Pie Flavour ASDF funny moments

Stop omg

Twink Antony

Or just do what my brother does and gives the most dead pan answers, “oh smells nice, what is it?” “food.”

i much prefer saying this though

19:07

what did you make / sustenance

Fuckboy Drag King

i much prefer saying this though

I will actually slap you

Fuckboy Drag King

what did you make / sustenance

With ingredience?

LoLo <3

With ingredience?

Maybe

Twink Antony

I will actually slap you

Knock me out until wednesday please

Fuckboy Drag King

Knock me out until wednesday please

I can try

ah i love the smell of fresh energy waiting to be consumed

19:20

hope youre okay though

families can suck, but theyre not a reflection of you as a person, because you're much cooler

Aw bless you Erin. Same to you. Ik your family can suck as well, and you're way too cool to be held down by them

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My dad told me he got me more soya milk (which I appreciate obviously) and he put it on top of the cupboard which is odd bc we never put it up there and it's meant to be refrigerated so I'm hoping it will be okay now I've moved it. Also we don't put my stuff on top of the cupboards bc I'm I'm shortest person in the house and I can't reach? Literally so confused by his actions here.

I did everything fucking right so why am I bleeding AGAIN I swear I'm this close to taking the damn thing out myself I'm so done with everything

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Hey, you okay? These things are very frustrating to deal with especially when they should work and don't. I'm here if you ever want to talk about it.

LoLo <3

I did everything fucking right so why am I bleeding AGAIN I swear I'm this close to taking the damn thing out myself I'm so done with everything

that's awful, hope you can get it out soon

Update tried to get an appointment but they're like £500 that I don't have Trying to do an icash thing for next week ish and the person at reception goes 'are you sure you're 20' BRO I SOUND 6 BC I'M NERVOUS LEAVE ME ALONEEEEE

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wtf why would you not be sure youre 20

the state of medical health here is ridiculous

11:54

and yeah, surely they have your medical file up??

11:54

I'm sorry you're going through this

Nah I'm not registered there lol just did that

sorry youre having to deal with that thats awful

Tbh it's more funny than anything elser

11:55

I promise I'm not lying about my age for medical stuff I'm pretty sure if I was doing that I'd say I was younger than I really am not older lmao

My anxiety's so bad I have no nails again:(

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LoLo <3

My anxiety's so bad I have no nails again:(

try biting on a lollipop stick or a pen instead. that's partially how i kicked my nail-biting habit

13:48

sorry your anxiety is flaring up like this

LoLo <3

My anxiety's so bad I have no nails again:(

I'm sorry to hear that babes, I hope you feel better soon

Not a rant but fuck being ill. Have 0 energy :(

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Is it the big C

Being sick is crap I’m sorry

hope you feel better soon

hope you feel better soon bud

Fuckboy Drag King

Is it the big C

Cant stop addicted to the shindig? Unfortunately yes :(

Twink Antony

Cant stop addicted to the shindig? Unfortunately yes :(

We've all been there :/

did you have to pay for a test

mahariel

did you have to pay for a test

Nah, we’ve got a bunch left over

21:23

Cause my brother was still in school and they were giving out craploads

ahh my housemate was a germaphobe and racked up a whole mountain of them

21:27

idk what i have atm but I've been regularly throwing up every day and got my first asthma attack in 10 years yesterday (edited)

Do you have any coke or Pepsi or something

but fuck it, we ball

That’s good for fucked up tummy (edited)

nope I've been chugging water

21:29

I'm sure it'll pass soon, i just wish ik what it was

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21:29

but i can move around and somewhat keep my head on my shoulders so we're all good. office day tomorrow so

Are you stressed at all?

21:30

On a sad relatable note I'm on new meds and I literally just threw up what a nice coincidence

Can we stop throwing up please? I think there’s something going round or something

mahariel

but i can move around and somewhat keep my head on my shoulders so we're all good. office day tomorrow so

Take it easy, try not to push yourself too much where you don’t need to

My new meds are absolutely scuffed, completely eliminate my appetite and make me throw up after I eat, wake up babes new weight loss plan just dropped

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mine's partially this illness, part psychological

I just cried too hard and puked lmao

just now??

We love health anxiety

are you alright?

mahariel

just now??

Nah a couple times earlier

LoLo <3

Nah a couple times earlier

Oh babes

wtf is going on here

I’m good just stress bc of the meds and the bleeding

Fuckboy Drag King

Are you stressed at all?

always am lol

But I had a huge panic attack and ended up being sick

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I've never been someone who throws up, even when I drink too much I normally just pass out. So being actually physically sick is v fucking odd, almost forgot how it felt

LoLo <3

But I had a huge panic attack and ended up being sick

You doing a bit better now?

I’m never sick but I’m also never ill so it’s weird when I am haha ~ I’m a bit anxietyy but I need to call up tomorrow and get an appointment and hopefully in a couple weeks I’ll be all good:)

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if you need anything, I'm here

call me at any point if you need to

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There may also a bug going around atm looking at this chat

Fuckboy Drag King

I've never been someone who throws up, even when I drink too much I normally just pass out. So being actually physically sick is v fucking odd, almost forgot how it felt

Try and have some water (again, coke/Pepsi is good for settling your stomach) I hope you get adjusted to your new meds soon

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in my case I'm starting to wonder if it's bc i don't eat and just fill the void with smoke

mahariel

if you need anything, I'm here

call me at any point if you need to

Thank you that’s really sweet

I’m good had a big cry on my mum haha but I know where my heads at again now so

mahariel

in my case I'm starting to wonder if it's bc i don't eat and just fill the void with smoke

I mean that probably won’t help

mahariel

in my case I'm starting to wonder if it's bc i don't eat and just fill the void with smoke

That might do it tbf, does smoking make you feel nauseous?

It’s an appetite suppressant it won’t help if you’re not eating enough anyway

LoLo <3

Thank you that’s really sweet

I’m good had a big cry on my mum haha but I know where my heads at again now so

your mother is, again, wonderful and I'm glad she was there to help. when you get back, remember that I'm only 10 mins away and have no qualms about running to people's places at odd hours lmao. if i can chase aurorae with brandon at 2am then i can be there for you

mahariel

your mother is, again, wonderful and I'm glad she was there to help. when you get back, remember that I'm only 10 mins away and have no qualms about running to people's places at odd hours lmao. if i can chase aurorae with brandon at 2am then i can be there for you

Okay but please know the same goes for you and you can take me up on it whenever

Fuckboy Drag King

That might do it tbf, does smoking make you feel nauseous?

it's the cycle of stress -> smoke -> no appetite -> nausea -> no appetite -> stress -> repeat

Lo can I like, adopt your mum

Fuckboy Drag King

Lo can I like, adopt your mum

She can adopt you if you want she’s already kind of adopted Bran haha

has she adopted me yet lmao

She loves you she thinks you’re wonderful

right back at her

She’s a bit disappointed jory isn’t short for marjory but

dw i can change my name again for her lmao

inb4 lo's mum hates me

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my mother: you changed your name AGAIN?? me: Lo's mum made me do it

mahariel

my mother: you changed your name AGAIN?? me: Lo's mum made me do it

She won’t make you do anything but wants you to know this is hilarious

ever since i changed Holly and Kerryn's snapchat names to Mum and Dad respectively, i have become so much calmer

@Fuckboy Drag King my dad likes you bc your name is also Cas and he wants you to be Caz Cas

LoLo <3

@Fuckboy Drag King my dad likes you bc your name is also Cas and he wants you to be Caz Cas

Guess I'm marrying your dad I don't make the rules

LoLo <3

She won’t make you do anything but wants you to know this is hilarious

HI LO'S MUM, I HAVEN'T MET YOU YET BUT YOU'RE AMAZING

mahariel

ever since i changed Holly and Kerryn's snapchat names to Mum and Dad respectively, i have become so much calmer

Mood omg

Fuckboy Drag King

Guess I'm marrying your dad I don't make the rules

He’s in a committed relationship I’m afraid (plus he’s straight) but he’ll adopt you lmao

LoLo <3

He’s in a committed relationship I’m afraid (plus he’s straight) but he’ll adopt you lmao

Hey close enough

21:41

Hi I'm in your family now

mahariel

HI LO'S MUM, I HAVEN'T MET YOU YET BUT YOU'RE AMAZING

She thinks you’re pretty damn cool too

getting much needed parental approval by living vicariously through Lo's parents

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mahariel

getting much needed parental approval by living vicariously through Lo's parents

You can tell them all of your achievements and shit and they’ll tell you how proud they are - genuinely they’re like that lmao

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21:43

My housemate’s mum didn’t answer once so we called mine and put her on speakerphone and just vibed like they’re fine w that shit dad thinks it’s a bit weird but mum’s cool

upgraded from absent father and narcissistic mother to 2 sets of loving parents in the space of a month

21:44

absolutely living the best life rn

LoLo <3

You can tell them all of your achievements and shit and they’ll tell you how proud they are - genuinely they’re like that lmao

are they proud of me for getting a good job

mahariel

are they proud of me for getting a good job

Absolutely!!! They think it’s fantastic that you’ve managed to stay up there and support yourself while still doing the things you like w people you like they want me to be like that haha

LoLo <3

Absolutely!!! They think it’s fantastic that you’ve managed to stay up there and support yourself while still doing the things you like w people you like they want me to be like that haha

actually reeling, i have never heard any of these words from my parents before lmao. tell them I'm genuinely v grateful

21:48

financially independent yay

21:49

doesn't mean i make good financial decisions but it's getting there

Nah you’re still fun despite saving that shits important

this server is leaking into my conversations with my sister

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Lmaooo

21:55

Bully her

21:55

She deserves it

she says she might drop it bc there aren't any girls in the class

LoLo <3

Bully her

can't bully her too much, first time i relayed a message to her from Caz, she viciously insulted him in German lmao

21:58

she's not above doing the same to me

mahariel

she says she might drop it bc there aren't any girls in the class

Gross

mahariel

she says she might drop it bc there aren't any girls in the class

She can ask to move to a class that has other girls in it

21:59

It’s what someone in my class did

mahariel

can't bully her too much, first time i relayed a message to her from Caz, she viciously insulted him in German lmao

LMFAO HE DESERVES IT

mahariel

can't bully her too much, first time i relayed a message to her from Caz, she viciously insulted him in German lmao

That was absolutely amazing from her, has to be said

I’d insult caz in German if I knew German

Why :(

Bc it’d be funny

Fuckboy Drag King

That was absolutely amazing from her, has to be said

do you remember everything she said?

Twink Antony

She can ask to move to a class that has other girls in it

ok good point, I'll tell her

mahariel

do you remember everything she said?

Not verbatim no, but some of the keen insults and energy definitely lingers

1

Just got played by fucking google

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Fuckboy Drag King

Why :(

Mir kommt es vor als würden wir uns schon seit Ewigkeiten kennen

Fuckboy Drag King

Not verbatim no, but some of the keen insults and energy definitely lingers

she made good on that promise but i won't pass on what she said to you otherwise you might pass out

1

I wanna know

22:01

Nope I love German now

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LoLo <3

Nope I love German now

Come hure

Twink Antony

Mir kommt es vor als würden wir uns schon seit Ewigkeiten kennen

Oh mein Herzliebster! Ich zähle die sekunden, bis du zu mir zuruckkerhst

LoLo <3

Nope I love German now

fick dich auch hurensohn

Fuckboy Drag King

fick dich auch hurensohn

Thank you. You too

mahariel

she made good on that promise but i won't pass on what she said to you otherwise you might pass out

Aww man I wish I remembered it word for word, it was wonderful

22:03

In my defence I was a bit distracted at the time

i honestly don't remember what we were doing that day

22:04

just that you were laughing your ass off at her creativity

Du hast wunderschöne Augen und lächeln @Fuckboy Drag King (edited)

1

Well I hope she does do comp sci after all

22:06

Not for any memes or anything, we need a lot more women in compsci, especially one as bright as your sister

Ew Compsci RUN

fuck off

fighting a bot, how compsci of you

Ew Compsci RUN

Fuckboy Drag King

Not for any memes or anything, we need a lot more women in compsci, especially one as bright as your sister

i suspect she'll do far greater things than i will. she has immense ambition and drive

22:08

also

22:08

translate pls

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1

LMFAO

22:09

damn

mahariel

i suspect she'll do far greater things than i will. she has immense ambition and drive

She says like she hasn’t also done great things

Well

22:09

It's not about size but how you use it

Fuckboy Drag King

It's not about size but how you use it

https://tenor.com/bOHGY.gif

B

https://tenor.com/bOHGY.gif

Come on her sister called my dick small allow me

we need more women who know whatever the fuck a pull request is

translate it verbatim lmao

verbatim?

yes

OH MY GOD

like what did she actually say

"small cock, can't wash his ass properly"

LADJDJMSKDMDKD

22:10

NIKITA

22:10

WTF

OIFNSeioFnSEOFInSEOFiN literal straight man wouldve sufficed

PAHAHAHAA WOE

you see how I marvel at her creativity

22:11

what a woman

Why do I detect a tinge of incel

Oh that's because I am one

22:11

Did I not mention

https://tenor.com/bcvAU.gif

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22:12

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even my friends family members insult me

22:13

I think I need new friends

Caz Rn: Was zum Teufel hast du grade über mich gesagt, du kleine Schlampe? Du solltest wissen, dass ich meine Ausbildung beim GSG9 als Jahrgangsbester abgeschlossen habe, in mehrere Kommandounternehmen gegen Al-Kaida involviert war und über 300 bestätigte Tötungen habe. Ich bin in Gorillakriegsführung ausgebildet und der beste Scharfschütze im deutschen Bundesheer. Du bist für mich nichts als ein weiteres Ziel. Ich werde dich mit einer nie zuvor gesehenen Präzision vom Antliz dieser Welt tilgen, merk dir meine verdammten Worte. Du denkst du könntest hier im Internet so eine Scheiße über mich erzählen und damit durchkommen? Denk lieber nochmal darüber nach, du Wichser. Während wir uns hier unterhalten, habe ich schon mein geheimes Netzwerk aus Spionen kontaktiert und deine IP-Adresse wird grade rückverfolgt, also mach dich besser auf den Sturm gefasst, du Made. Der Sturm, der das erbärmliche kleine Ding, das du als dein "Leben" bezeichnest, auslöschen wird. Du bist verdammt nochmal tot, Junge. Ich könnte jederzeit überall sein, und dich auf über siebenhundert verschiedene Arten töten, nur mit meinen bloßen Händen. Aber ich bin nicht nur im unbewaffneten Kampf ausgebildet, ich habe auch Zugriff auf das Waffenarsenal der Bundeswehr und ich werde es aufs Vollste ausschöpfen, um deinen elendigen Arsch von diesem Kontinent zu blasen, du kleiner Scheißkerl. Wenn du nur gewusst hättest, was für eine apokalyptische Rache dein kleiner "witziger" Kommentar provoziert hat, hättest du vermutlich dein verdammtes Maul gehalten. Aber nein, das hast du nicht hinbekommen, das wolltest du nicht, und jetzt wirst du dafür bezahlen, du verdammter Idiot. Du wirst in meinem Hass ertrinken. Du bist tot, Junge.

FUCK SAKE

What

do you know the "what the fuck did you just say to me you little bitch" copypasta

B

Caz Rn: Was zum Teufel hast du grade über mich gesagt, du kleine Schlampe? Du solltest wissen, dass ich meine Ausbildung beim GSG9 als Jahrgangsbester abgeschlossen habe, in mehrere Kommandounternehmen gegen Al-Kaida involviert war und über 300 bestätigte Tötungen habe. Ich bin in Gorillakriegsführung ausgebildet und der beste Scharfschütze im deutschen Bundesheer. Du bist für mich nichts als ein weiteres Ziel. Ich werde dich mit einer nie zuvor gesehenen Präzision vom Antliz dieser Welt tilgen, merk dir meine verdammten Worte. Du denkst du könntest hier im Internet so eine Scheiße über mich erzählen und damit durchkommen? Denk lieber nochmal darüber nach, du Wichser. Während wir uns hier unterhalten, habe ich schon mein geheimes Netzwerk aus Spionen kontaktiert und deine IP-Adresse wird grade rückverfolgt, also mach dich besser auf den Sturm gefasst, du Made. Der Sturm, der das erbärmliche kleine Ding, das du als dein "Leben" bezeichnest, auslöschen wird. Du bist verdammt nochmal tot, Junge. Ich könnte jederzeit überall sein, und dich auf über siebenhundert verschiedene Arten töten, nur mit meinen bloßen Händen. Aber ich bin nicht nur im unbewaffneten Kampf ausgebildet, ich habe auch Zugriff auf das Waffenarsenal der Bundeswehr und ich werde es aufs Vollste ausschöpfen, um deinen elendigen Arsch von diesem Kontinent zu blasen, du kleiner Scheißkerl. Wenn du nur gewusst hättest, was für eine apokalyptische Rache dein kleiner "witziger" Kommentar provoziert hat, hättest du vermutlich dein verdammtes Maul gehalten. Aber nein, das hast du nicht hinbekommen, das wolltest du nicht, und jetzt wirst du dafür bezahlen, du verdammter Idiot. Du wirst in meinem Hass ertrinken. Du bist tot, Junge.

give me credit for this smh

its that in german

i had to search for that translation

Fuckboy Drag King

do you know the "what the fuck did you just say to me you little bitch" copypasta

remember when i had you say it? lmao

mahariel

remember when i had you say it? lmao

people when they hear I speak german: oh! that's cool how do you say X

I had my friend sing the SpongeBob theme in German that’s about all I’ve got

jory: please read the entire copypasta in german

hey it was hilarious

Nah I’d have done the exact same

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Why I got will to do the SpongeBob lmao

mahariel

hey it was hilarious

for you maybe!

i saw you giggling, don't lie

I was just fucking shitting myself like "jesus christ how on earth do i try and be cool and do this"

Fuckboy Drag King

I was just fucking shitting myself like "jesus christ how on earth do i try and be cool and do this"

It’s okay to accept you’re not cool. Surely you know by now

jory hates me singing in german smh

Fuckboy Drag King

I was just fucking shitting myself like "jesus christ how on earth do i try and be cool and do this"

how on earth you got the impression that you needed to be cool when i was getting you to read a copypasta is beyond me

LoLo <3

It’s okay to accept you’re not cool. Surely you know by now

Just because I know, doesn't mean the girl I was trying to impress at the time needs to know how uncool I am

B

jory hates me singing in german smh

i fucking DETEST that stupid english is my favourite subject song with the burning passion of a million exploding suns (edited)

mahariel

i fucking DETEST that stupid english is my favourite subject song with the burning passion of a million exploding suns (edited)

WAS IST DEIN LIEBLINGSFACH IS AN AMAZING SONG

Fuckboy Drag King

Just because I know, doesn't mean the girl I was trying to impress at the time needs to know how uncool I am

i was v aware of how uncool you are tyvm

mahariel

i was v aware of how uncool you are tyvm

I don't think you were

22:18

I never showed you my warhammer collectibles

22:18

(that is a joke)

Show me

22:19

I won two games of magic the gathering today

I don’t think anyones ever seen you and gone ohh there’s caz he’s so cool so you’re fine lmao

does that make me hot?

hnnng

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B

Show me

Come over

Fuckboy Drag King

Come over

omw

Fuckboy Drag King

I never showed you my warhammer collectibles

little difference between that and your 5 erwin figurines

Painting warhammer minis is fun!! I spent a whole day doing that w H and it’s pretty much all Rex and I have ever texted about lmfao

mahariel

hnnng

Screaming

mahariel

little difference between that and your 5 erwin figurines

What

LoLo <3

I don’t think anyones ever seen you and gone ohh there’s caz he’s so cool so you’re fine lmao

Alas

22:20

It's not FIVE

Fuckboy Drag King

Alas

Exhibit A

erwin tho

Does playing MTG make me more compsci

Ew Compsci RUN

should I get tested?

B

Does playing MTG make me more compsci

Yes

LoLo <3

Exhibit A

I'll have you know I have been described as cool behind my back on multiple occassions, and don't get me wrong it floors me everytime because it's very incorrect

bless you Lo but i beg of you, don't call me uncool again

mahariel

bless you Lo but i beg of you, don't call me uncool again

Don’t think I ever called you uncool?

mahariel

bless you Lo but i beg of you, don't call me uncool again

my brother in christ, what on earth

butter

erwin tho

Erwin is an amazing character

Fuckboy Drag King

I'll have you know I have been described as cool behind my back on multiple occassions, and don't get me wrong it floors me everytime because it's very incorrect

Cringe

LoLo <3

Cringe

How I'm still nice to you I have absolutely no idea

This server is be nice or be pegged

LoLo <3

Don’t think I ever called you uncool?

imitating someone

theres never any inbetween

Fuckboy Drag King

How I'm still nice to you I have absolutely no idea

Never asked you to be I have the bully me daddy role smh

mahariel

imitating someone

I got it thanks babe

mahariel

imitating someone

Don’t remember but fair enough lmao (edited)

LoLo <3

Never asked you to be I have the bully me daddy role smh

Funnily I'm actually quite nice to my friends, shocking

Not sure how lmao became kms but

im nice to everyone

we're only a couple lmaos away from kms

B

im nice to everyone

...

mahariel

we're only a couple lmaos away from kms

this is so deep……….

B

my brother in christ, what on earth

christ abandoned you long ago

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butter

this is so deep……….

fuck it we ball

I FUCKING HATE THE INTERNET

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22:25

WHOS AN ESFP HERE

Me, I think

ITS CALLING ME OUT :((

@Twink Antony as well

mahariel

@Twink Antony as well

Heheh

22:30

Keep me busy

@B got any ENFJ callouts?

Lemme see

Or ESFJ

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22:33

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Aw I have no personality:(

wdym I'm not your favourite person, i NEED to be or i will wither away

Sesh sesh sesh

B

Click to see attachment 🖼️

holly being "mom"

Adds up

mahariel

holly being "mom"

@Unknown always

also a crybaby?? rude???

I remember i was one of the little yellow cunts, pretty sure I was the one in the bottom right. Idk

yeah that's ESFP lol

22:36

I'm the little green cunt with the sword

im the green cunt which is too hyperactive

I'm the dude w the cake and umbrella

LoLo <3

I'm the dude w the cake and umbrella

Dude with the cake, where

On the right, just above Ewan

22:38

Or are you asking for cake?

22:38

I can make you some cake if you want

oh my GOD

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I'm not very good but

certified druggie

LoLo <3

I can make you some cake if you want

Oh my god yes

mahariel

certified druggie

Can agree, Kim Ks sex tape had terrible lighting

mahariel

certified druggie

I'm naming colours apparently

22:39

Very on brand

that whole tape had 2 whole pixels in it. they should have been on acid for it

Like you’d think for a celeb they’d have a better studio behind them, or at least some decent camera equipment, boom Mike standard

This is pink, that's pink lite, this is Pink, that's piNk

Twink Antony

Like you’d think for a celeb they’d have a better studio behind them, or at least some decent camera equipment, boom Mike standard

ikr? where was the pizzazz? the money shot? the drama?

mahariel

ikr? where was the pizzazz? the money shot? the drama?

All she got was 7 mins of some Cbat music n that’s it

if someone fucked me to Cbat music i would marry them

Took me ages

22:44

but here

22:44

?role @Unknown pro

22:44

WRONG ROLE

HAHAHAHAA

22:45

NO PRONOUNS DO NOT REFER

Lmaooo

22:45

She's a pro

mahariel

if someone fucked me to Cbat music i would marry them

The way it’s the first thing

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Twink Antony

The way it’s the first thing

babies being made to this

mahariel

babies being made to this

I actually think all the sperm dies due to the frequency

Twink Antony

I actually think all the sperm dies due to the frequency

only one way to find out

mahariel

only one way to find out

For science, of course

22:47

As we’re both respectable experimentalists

ofc ofc, scientific method and all that

And you know you have to have a fair test, so 3 times for each condition

with a stopwatch and someone in the corner taking notes on a clipboard

Oh you wanna record this? Sure xox Can review it

then you can rate it as per your celebrity sex tape critic job

Sometimes when I play certain games I bob my head a little bit for no reason at all which is hilarious bc what are you doing you silly little bean but also bad for my motion sickness. I am my own worst enemy.

When I play games with aerial mobility I find myself leaning and jumping and craning my neck to get the character to move where I want. The one I always notice is Junkrat from Overwatch

Yeah I do that with Mario Kart and sometimes GTA. It's just that I've noticed that I've started bobbing my head playing fucking solitaire lmao

Alright habibis, having a tiny bit of a shit morning, any tips to pick up the mood?

5

10:44

Just been a bit of a time lately, stressed and too much shit to do to actually enjoy myself

Sad to hear that :(((

10:44

Play your fav music

10:44

Treat yourself to snacks you really like

10:45

Do you want a hug

music, games, anything to distract you really

10:46

if you want to talk, I'm here

Fuckboy Drag King

Just been a bit of a time lately, stressed and too much shit to do to actually enjoy myself

Have you had that coffee yet?

Hugs are always welcome

10:46

I have not

Put on something that makes you feel powerful put headphones in and walk to the beat and go get that coffee

Got some pretty shit legal drama that just smacked me in the face this morning

4

10:46

I will babe, ty

oh shit everything ok?

10:47

well clearly not, but are you coping?

Yeah it will be. Two pronged assault of some people wanting to copyright something me and my team were working on at my old job, and the US government just being absolute shits as always

4

10:48

Watch me not pay this tax and be a wanted criminal

I don’t understand much of that but I’m really sorry it does sound shitty

ahh copyright laws are so stupid

Also you’re not American ? What?

i will always support tax evasion

1

1

They are, and what makes it worse is that my team and I were objectively in the wrong here, but I didn't know this was happening at all until my team mate messaged me like "yeah so remember that thing we did? i stole it and they found out" and I just felt my soul leave my body

What the fuck

what the fuck

Okay so you had no prior knowledge of that right?

yeah ofc they're going to find out??

10:49

hopefully you can be cleared since you didn't do the crime

I mean depending how willing you are to throw your team under the bus you could get in the clear if you still have the text. It’s shitty but what they did was also shitty

None at all, don't get me wrong I kinda suspected it but I had no fucking proof and ngl, didn't think that he would actually go as far to steal works from multiple people

10:50

I thought maybe he got a mate to give him a hand or something, as he produced a lot of work in a short period of time

seems like it's one guy. were you supervising?

In a way? I was the leader of the team and I was breathing down his neck a lot to get the work done

10:51

He snapped one evening like, don't worry! I'll just get it done in time! and a few days later, he had (edited)

10:51

I just didn't realise he literally broke the fucking law to do it

That doesn’t make you a supervisor,, or to blame

^^

10:51

what are the charges? are you getting pulled into it?

Hopefully we can resolve it rather peacefully

10:52

The (surprisingly many) people he stole from got in contact with him

10:52

And told him off, and also told me off by extension as all our names were on the project

Keep a copy of the text saying he stole shit in case it doesn’t go peacefully and he tries to rope you into it and you need to explain your place in all this

But all I can really do is apologise, remove any references and citations to the work, and just sort of pretend it never existed

3

This isn’t your fault Caz

Which idm doing, it wasn't great work anyway but still what a fucking ballache

3

most copyright stuff goes away once you've removed the stolen work

10:53

so in theory you should be ok

It’s crappy your teammate did this and you’re now involved in this bullshit but you haven’t done anything wrong

and definitely keep the text as evidence

10:53

even if you suspected, you didn't know outright

It should be okay, the people in question were angry, very angry, occasionally ramping up to death threat level but tbh that doesn't bother me as much as the thing of, I should've fucking seen it, you know?

1

death threat??

Like I shouldn't have forced him to work as hard, should've done it myself, etc etc

10:54

easy with hindsight

ok now they'll be in hot water if this ever goes to court tho that's unlikely

Well, "people who steal other peoples work without proper credit are the scum of the earth and should die" which we love to see

2

Fuckboy Drag King

It should be okay, the people in question were angry, very angry, occasionally ramping up to death threat level but tbh that doesn't bother me as much as the thing of, I should've fucking seen it, you know?

Fucking hell bro I’m so sorry Maybe keep copy of that too if you can in case it comes to that but Jesus I hope this gets sorted out you really don’t need that stress

you shouldn't beat yourself up over this, teamwork requires faith in the other members. this idiot just broke that, not on you

1

Like you said, it won't escalate to that level, what makes the anxiety a little worse is that my old teammate quite possibly has the worst sleep schedule known to man and won't wake up until 6pm so I can't even talk it through with him

2

Fuckboy Drag King

Like I shouldn't have forced him to work as hard, should've done it myself, etc etc

Team requires everyone to take part, you had your role he needed to do his. This isn’t your fault

10:56

Bless you both

Fuckboy Drag King

Like you said, it won't escalate to that level, what makes the anxiety a little worse is that my old teammate quite possibly has the worst sleep schedule known to man and won't wake up until 6pm so I can't even talk it through with him

Bang pots and pans outside his door

And then naturally to top it of the US treasury has found me

WAKE UP BITCH YOURE GOING TO COURT

Fuckboy Drag King

And then naturally to top it of the US treasury has found me

?

"Hi :) you became an adult in our country :) your father didn't pay the correct amount of taxes for you as you were no longer a child :)"

it's all on him. you're not in any way to blame bc you're not in control of his actions

LoLo <3

Bang pots and pans outside his door

1

Fuckboy Drag King

"Hi :) you became an adult in our country :) your father didn't pay the correct amount of taxes for you as you were no longer a child :)"

ahh the IRS is relentless

"Every moment you don't pay the fine it'll get worse :)"

10:57

yeah the IRS sucks, and my father already had his conflicts with them

10:57

As he lived in one state and worked in others

10:57

So had to pay living tax in one, work taxes in others, was fucking stupid

10:57

America, home of the tax

has the tax burden been passed onto you then?

10:58

i vaguely know the headache that is their tax system

But because I went 16 whilst I was there (gotta love that makes me an adult even though I wouldn't be allowed to drink until 21) it means this shit has come up

10:58

Kind of. It falls either to me or my father and my father doesn't have the spare money atm to actually pay it

10:59

So there's me being poor again how sexy of me

1

I'm guessing you don't either?

10:59

hm can i ask how much they're asking for?

Eh I just have enough

10:59

Just slightly less than £2k

10:59

I lived there for a few years it makes sense but still my brothers in christ i'm not there anymore

ouch, the stupid amounts they'll hound you for

11:00

will they keep raising it?

Nah, thank goodness, paid it this morning so it shouldn't get any steeper

Fuckboy Drag King

"Hi :) you became an adult in our country :) your father didn't pay the correct amount of taxes for you as you were no longer a child :)"

Forward it to your dad? His problem not yours

Tbh my dad is aware of it, as the letter went to their home address and was officially addressed to him

11:01

Can america just like, go away

Bloody hell tho 2k is a lot for their fuckup on not checking your dad paid his taxes tf

Fuckboy Drag King

Nah, thank goodness, paid it this morning so it shouldn't get any steeper

at least you're out of their crosshairs now. even though that's a horrible thing to go through at this time especially

2

1

There's no more relentless force in the universe than the bloody taxman

Fr, and my dad paid his taxes consistently why we were there

11:02

Alas

Delete America

Just woke up and the universe goes "bestie, have I got news for you"

11:02

"you will wish you didn't wake up this morning"

The IRS, we know exactly how much you owe but we're not gonna tell you. You figure it out and if you get it wrong? You best believe that's a fine

1

you've had a v shitty day but be aware that none of it is your fault

1

2

Ripfangs

The IRS, we know exactly how much you owe but we're not gonna tell you. You figure it out and if you get it wrong? You best believe that's a fine

LITERALLY THAT

Ripfangs

The IRS, we know exactly how much you owe but we're not gonna tell you. You figure it out and if you get it wrong? You best believe that's a fine

this isn't even an exaggeration

And that's the thing that actually sent me like

11:03

"You can appeal this tax, but be aware the longer you don't pay it the worse it gets"

11:03

so basically

Can I offer you this image of Snoopy's original appearance in these trying times?

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1

role the fucking dice do you want to have a 2% chance of paying nothing or a 98% chance you'll pay 5k instead as you have to send a letter via AIRMAIL to D.C

2

Ripfangs

Can I offer you this image of Snoopy's original appearance in these trying times?

I want a dog

If you ever wanna hang out and chill lmk you sound like you need to ignore the universe

11:05

Bless you queen, it's alright, I got a lot of stuff to do today anyway it'll keep me busy

Good good, well the offer will always be there

But you better come visit us again soon!

11:06

Feel like I've met you literally twice?

Probably lmao

Keep us posted on the next travels of CB

Hopefully I'll be up next week

11:06

My mum just booked a week off work so I'll be free as a bird

Gorgeous stuff

Caz go get that coffee omg you need it

it’s been a shitty morning but there’s a rest of the day to make up for it. We’re here if you need anything

I'll give you a hug when I'm back if your want

Oh yeah do you need a hand with anything coming back Freyja??

Ripfangs

I'll give you a hug when I'm back if your want

Same here

(applies to all of you and you don’t get a choice but)

mumblingmiss

Oh yeah do you need a hand with anything coming back Freyja??

Also this ~ all my stuffs moved in already so after Monday I’m around to help out if anyone needs:)

mumblingmiss

Oh yeah do you need a hand with anything coming back Freyja??

Should be all good but thanks for asking

Well lmk if otherwise ❤️

thats so much shit, sorry you're having to deal with all of that in one go

hope everything sorts itself out though, here if you need anything

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1

If the uea doesn't tell me what I'm doing I'm taking my student finance loans and running bc I'm scheduled to get my first bit in 10 days and lord knows the uea can't do anything in 10 days. Kinda positive kinda venting

16:16

I remember when I dropped out of my first uni but I'd already been given my maintenance loan and student finance didn't contact me about it until the summer

2

not quite sure where to post this but bran was giving me funny looks lol. my brain has gotten,,, weird. i keep spacing out, often forget where i am or pass by where i need to be completely, and keep stumbling over sentences. sometimes I'll be writing and forget how words work and often jumble up the order of them. it's gotten worse in the past few months and idk what's going on lol

20:31

the inability to recall common words thing is especially worrying bc i did English Lit?? and i was good at it?? why can't i write or speak properly sometimes

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20:33

my stutter has gotten worse too bc i just can't remember what i was saying

20:33

I'm excellent at spelling but that's deteriorating too

that kind of thing can be really frustrating and confusin :/ it might be worth seeing a doctor, or just looking over your diet and see if anything major has changed (more or less exercise, eating less of a certain type of food, much more or less caffiene, etc.) hope you're okay though, this kind of confusing stuff is really internally frustrating at times, here if you ever want to chat or need a distraction

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a lot has changed in the last half year so i can't point at anything in particular lol. just major change after major change

20:35

bran suggested seeing a doctor too but idk if I'm overreacting

20:36

my memory has never been good but it's nearly impossible for me to remember things now without reminders. if i don't set an alarm or calendar notification, i simply won't remember smth i was told 5 minutes ago

20:37

it's just weird and unsettling. i get so self conscious speaking now bc my stutter is so bad

with health id say its never worth overreacting if it means seeing a doctor, its best to be safe. but in this situation, your life has been affected, and thats enough cause to look into it imo

20:37

plus brains are little shit and will always make us worry about stuff like overreacting even if its really important

hmm I'll see if i can get an appointment. not sure if I'm even registered at a surgery anymore since i graduated

if not there is a walk in centre in norwich i think, not sure how good they are though

thank you, I'll call UEA up on monday

hope it goes well, we're here if you do ever need anything

google says i have a brain tumour lmfao. I'm sure I'm fine but if it gets worse I'll see someone

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google is intense af

mahariel

google says i have a brain tumour lmfao. I'm sure I'm fine but if it gets worse I'll see someone

Memory loss and not doing good w words doesn’t mean brain tumour my Nan has the same symptoms for her Parkinson’s and they told her categorically there’s a lot of overlap w stuff like that for a lot of things so try not to stress tooo much. Get an appointment if you can I think you can stay registered if you leave I don’t see why they’d take you off but like Erin said there should be walkins in Norwich so you should be okay

LoLo <3

Memory loss and not doing good w words doesn’t mean brain tumour my Nan has the same symptoms for her Parkinson’s and they told her categorically there’s a lot of overlap w stuff like that for a lot of things so try not to stress tooo much. Get an appointment if you can I think you can stay registered if you leave I don’t see why they’d take you off but like Erin said there should be walkins in Norwich so you should be okay

oh yeah i definitely don't think it's a brain tumour, no matter what dr google says. i don't think it's even anything serious but it is super frustrating and ruins my self-esteem a little when i can't articulate things as well as i could a year ago

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20:47

wanted some opinions on the whole thing since Bran was worried

Bear in mind too you haven’t had your brain switched on or writing stuff as much bc you graduated and didn’t have to assignment so much, also your work description is different so you’re bound to be less practiced at wording as you were yk?

I've learnt that it's always worth the hassle to see a doctor when you're worried about something or you're struggling. It can really put your mind at ease and lessen the stress afterwards even if you're like me and going to doctors makes you stressed. Here for you ❤

1

thanks everyone, this has made me feel better

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LoLo <3

Bear in mind too you haven’t had your brain switched on or writing stuff as much bc you graduated and didn’t have to assignment so much, also your work description is different so you’re bound to be less practiced at wording as you were yk?

i was in a similar state while writing my masters application and the last few bits of coursework. it's been going on for a while now i think

21:01

though lack of practice is probably a factor

mahariel

i was in a similar state while writing my masters application and the last few bits of coursework. it's been going on for a while now i think

I thought you didn’t do a masters?

LoLo <3

I thought you didn’t do a masters?

i got rejected lol

Oh I’m sorry

no it's alright, I'm not as upset about it anymore

21:04

i definitely couldn't afford it if i had gotten in

21:04

ah this is what i mean ^ i meant to say "wouldn't have been able to" instead of couldn't

21:04

i keep mixing up grammar and tenses and spelling even tho all that was perfect before

Couldn’t still makes sense

hmm i think so? looks odd

21:06

super self conscious about being a hypochondriac

Hypochondriac? Like being scared of being sick?

uhh no i meant people who think they're sick when they aren't

21:07

is that not the word

21:07

yeah it seems to be right

Yeah like scared they’re sick when they’re probably not kinda thing

21:07

Gotta love health anxiety

yayy haha

21:08

don't mind me, I'm just anxious

Me panicking every time something goes in my mouth that it’s gonna kill me even if it’s smth I’ve eaten so many times

1

understandable with allergies like yours

But nah I think you’re being reasonable like bran told you he was concerned so you’re making sure everything’s okay there’s nothing wrong w that

thank you

i appreciate all the help and advice

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We're all here for you. It's perfectly okay to be anxious about your own health

1

2

you guys are v v sweet

The twink has a point ~ we got you if you need anything

1

I'll take twink

21:12

Just don't do it again, it makes me sound not thicc

Twicc

I love it

Anonymous Confession (#666)

"No longer hurt. The anger that I should have felt months ago has finally taken hold. Love that the secrets I know could change a lot of things."

3

1

hope youre okay OP, sounds like a lot to unravel

Confessions

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Sounds.. interesting, also hope you’re okay but glad you’re healing from what happened to you, anger can be delayed but it’s a sign of progress from where you were, just please be careful with it, anger can be dangerous and I don’t want you to get hurt

got some food in my room now but now i'm crying again

4

what's up? want to talk about it? hope you feel better soon

its probably just stress and tired from moving and being on my own again after being back home all summer

1

ahh when do your housemates move in?

one might be tomorrow maybe? not certain

Oh Freyja I’m sorry

get some rest if you can, things are usually brighter in the morning and moving in is tiring and stressful. You’ll have people tomorrow and can distract you from yourself it’s going to be okay

I have dinner soon but I’m more than happy to call you after if you need some company

sleep does wonders

maybe, i dunno. i'm just gonna eat some food and watch fellowship of the ring extended edition to minimize the chance of thoughts occuring. also i asked one of my friends to send me pictures of their dog

1

listen to good music too kiddo

20:28

sounds like a plan!

Dinner eaten, retreated to bed

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Enjoy your movie

<3

Anonymous Confession (#667)

"TW: self harm I think. I don't know what to do. The pain became so much that I started hitting myself. My face is swollen now. I've never gone that far before"

3

Here for you op ❤️

I’m sorry op

get a cold flannel that should be good for any swelling or pain sorry I’m so late on the replies I’ve only been awake for 10 minutes or so. My DMs are open if you need anything at all, I hope you managed to get some rest and things feel brighter in the morning

1

Anonymous Confession (#668)

"doing drugs in my room and wondering when it'll be my turn to find some happiness"

4

19:54

Anonymous Confession (#669)

"kicked a hole through my wall. there goes my deposit"

4

Take a shower and order some food then go to sleep, things are always brighter in the morning. Please be careful on the drugs, you’ll be able to look at the damage on the wall later on it’ll still be there tomorrow too. Please message me if you need anything at all, I’m here for you

3

Headaches shouldn't fucking exist what the fuck my dude. I've had them very frequently for a very long time and still do not understand. Gonna go whack my head with an ice pack

6

Always insecure after a day out :/

3

minor thing but-

10:03

i hate being threatened with fines

10:03

even if its something small and something i know i wont be in risk of

10:04

i absolutely despise being threatened with fines, its unnecessary the majority of the times and just screams one person wanting to assert authority over another needlessly

3

10:06

im not going to vandalise your property, im going to follow covid guidance, im not going to fuck with the tv liscence services - godforbid - so why reiterate these threats so many times to everyone, sending out letters, emails or just telling people in person at every opportunity

you're 100% right. it's an incredibly stupid system

What I hate is that we aren't allowed to threaten them back

10:26

That'd be so much more fun

Okay now I’m intrigued how tf would you threaten them back

threaten to throw a TV through the City Council's window

Depends on how creepy comp sci you want to be

10:30

alternatively vandalism is fun

holding up a blank piece of paper in front of buckingham palace gets you arrested these days

10:31

apparently that's threatening enough

omw

on another note: go to bed at 10pm - wake up tired go to bed at 3am - wake up tired why can't i win

1

do you want an actual answer or a meme answer

give me both

But don't say which is which

LMAO

10:36

mfw I didn't have a meme answer planned

10:36

but fr it's probably a combo of sleep debt, not having a set sleeping schedule and reduced sleep quality

10:37

meme answer uhhh you're tired because uhh

I'm tired bc i was up all night with your dad (edited)

10:37

that's the meme answer for you

You're tired bc you still girlboss when you're asleep

Thanks guys

also what's sleep debt

When the sleep taxman keep knocking at your door

Kinda what the name infers tbf, it's basically when you don't sleep for enough hours multiple nights in a row. Say, hypothetically, you get like 3 hours sleep, then 4, then 5, then 3 again

10:41

Most adult humans need 8 hours, some can survive on 6, some need more

10:42

But your body basically starts craving sleep like an mf, it's like "brother please let me sleep, you haven't sleep enough in days"

10:42

so when you do to bed at a reasonable time, say 10pm

10:42

and wake up after 8 hours

10:42

it's still staying

10:42

tired

sleep tax evasion

because it's saying: cool that's 8 hours for last night but what about the hours from the other nights

10:42

pretty much yeah

if this is how you're going do your lectures then you're going to be a great professor lmfao

:D bless you

10:44

I hope so, can't wait to see 18 year olds scared shitless of me

lmfao like anyone would be scared of a giant chainsmoking golden retriever

Separate from this great sleep tax evasion convo. Ever since I've been on my meds I've cried significantly less but now part of me needs to cry after not for ages but the other part is like girl I can't and it's annoying.

4

ngl id be down to threaten the tv liscence organisation

you need to tactically cry so you don't have a blowout breakdown

mumblingmiss

Separate from this great sleep tax evasion convo. Ever since I've been on my meds I've cried significantly less but now part of me needs to cry after not for ages but the other part is like girl I can't and it's annoying.

i get that, i find that just cycling through stuff ive done that makes me feel good about myself eases it a little bit, bit of self care and positivity

mahariel

you need to tactically cry so you don't have a blowout breakdown

mood still waiting for my next one of those

mumblingmiss

Separate from this great sleep tax evasion convo. Ever since I've been on my meds I've cried significantly less but now part of me needs to cry after not for ages but the other part is like girl I can't and it's annoying.

New meds can suck

Are these anti-depressants? Sadly a lot of the time these meds are given out to purposefully stop "sad thoughts" and the things that enable us to cry

Yeah I've been on sertraline since the start of summer. I remember having this exact same issue when I started the combined pill 4 years ago where I just couldn't cry. I welcome these good feelings but I'm a frequent crier so my brain gets confused if I don't for ages.

4

Get Jory to send you pictures of dogs that made me cry

Lo you almost cried bc i said you couldn't hug the creepy monster in a horror film

HE WASNT CREEPY HES MISNDERSTOOF#D

What monster

i can fix the horror monster

we were watching this series on youtube called Backrooms lol

1

Ah

and instead of being scared shitless like Brandon was, this girl sat there and tried to make a plan where we get the monster some friends

esfj moment

shit i still need to watch the backrooms

He was using English speaking a human language he was asking for help

10:54

HE WAS ASKING FOR HELP JORY

E r i n

shit i still need to watch the backrooms

It's good!

If you were that scared you’d run towards any person too

HE KILLED SOMEONE AND STOLE THEIR VOICE TO LURE THE MC

Ik it’s not their fault for running away he’s scary looking but so what at least hear him out

Lo babes watch Come Play, its a horror about a misunderstood monster called Larry who just wants a friend

mahariel

HE KILLED SOMEONE AND STOLE THEIR VOICE TO LURE THE MC

HE HEARD PEOPLE SCREAMING FOR HELP AND LEARNT THEIR LANGUAGE SO HE TOO COULD ESCAPE

10:55

No bc I’m actually about to cry

That might just send them over the edge

listen my Hero and Saviour Complexes go pretty deep but not to this extent

It’s not about saviour complex it’s about not judging someone based on how they look

Lo watches Gemini Home Entertainment and just wants to understand

So what it’s overly tall loud and skinny so is my ex boyfriend and we’re great friends!! This things the same!!

Fuckboy Drag King

Lo watches Gemini Home Entertainment and just wants to understand

Idk what that is

LoLo <3

Idk what that is

Another analogue horror series lmao

Lo invites the Intruder from the Mandela Catalogue for tea and a late night talk about feelings

mahariel

Lo invites the Intruder from the Mandela Catalogue for tea and a late night talk about feelings

And they’d fuckin enjoy it

mahariel

Lo invites the Intruder from the Mandela Catalogue for tea and a late night talk about feelings

I mean I would he actually does look lonely

LoLo <3

So what it’s overly tall loud and skinny so is my ex boyfriend and we’re great friends!! This things the same!!

Shiro my beloved

Fuckboy Drag King

I mean I would he actually does look lonely

Idk what that is either lmao

Omg Lo would not survive in the Mandela catalogue universe

No no I think she would

mumblingmiss

Omg Lo would not survive in the Mandela catalogue universe

It’s a miracle I’m surviving in this universe

everyone else: THEY'RE COMING YOU HAVE TO RUN

this implies that Lo would survive in any horror scenario

lo: setting out a tea set

Way ahead of you baby

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LoLo <3

Way ahead of you baby

of course it's pink

10:58

very cute tho

LoLo <3

It’s a miracle I’m surviving in this universe

remind me to never take you to a national park, you would try to hug the bears

Hears creepy laughter outside bedroom door Lo: ah shit that sounds funny show me

LMAO

mahariel

remind me to never take you to a national park, you would try to hug the bears

if bears so dangerous why so cute?

mahariel

remind me to never take you to a national park, you would try to hug the bears

THERE ARE BEARS?!!!

excellent point

LoLo <3

THERE ARE BEARS?!!!

On the planet? yes

LoLo <3

THERE ARE BEARS?!!!

Brandon is trying

LoLo <3

THERE ARE BEARS?!!!

i'm fairly certain the only bears in this country are in zoos

Fuckboy Drag King

of course it's pink

Lmfao throwback to not understanding what ‘is it pink’ meant and replying ‘god I hope so’

Ripfangs

if bears so dangerous why so cute?

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mumblingmiss

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CBear!!!!

LoLo <3

Lmfao throwback to not understanding what ‘is it pink’ meant and replying ‘god I hope so’

LMFAO

CB stands for Cuddly Bear

Cbat

CBolognese

mahariel

Cbat

oh god

not to bring things back on topic but I'm wondering if the mental deterioration i was worried about a few days ago is from the lack of sleep lmao

mahariel

not to bring things back on topic but I'm wondering if the mental deterioration i was worried about a few days ago is from the lack of sleep lmao

It is very possible lmao

insomnia bad, starting an underground fighting ring to fix my issues

When I had a few nights of very little sleep I was teetering fully into lowkey psychosis, literally walking on the street during the day and saw shit that wasn't there. Not even like scary shit, just like "Oh fuck there's a lorry I can't cross the road" and the road is literally empty lmao

mahariel

insomnia bad, starting an underground fighting ring to fix my issues

imagining brad pitt in gay little outfits

mahariel

insomnia bad, starting an underground fighting ring to fix my issues

no jory! don't start having homoerotic tension with imaginary brad pitt

i would 100% fuck my alter ego. you can't stop me

you know what? valid

narcissism example a everybody

I'm too hot to not be a narcissist tyvm

i can respect that

Fuckboy Drag King

When I had a few nights of very little sleep I was teetering fully into lowkey psychosis, literally walking on the street during the day and saw shit that wasn't there. Not even like scary shit, just like "Oh fuck there's a lorry I can't cross the road" and the road is literally empty lmao

ohh I've had these hallucinations before. it's fun mixed with my complete lack of spatial awareness bc i stop for imaginary cars and then walk out in front of real ones

it's probably lack of sleep lmfao

mahariel

i would 100% fuck my alter ego. you can't stop me

Fuck yourself you coward

11:06

Not a proper narcissist until you hit on a mirror lmfao

are you telling me to go fuck myself when i just said i would, in fact, fuck myself

LoLo <3

Not a proper narcissist until you hit on a mirror lmfao

LMAO no that was fucking hilarious

11:07

you were at the heights of self-confidence last night and it was a vibe

LoLo <3

Not a proper narcissist until you hit on a mirror lmfao

that scene from you

mahariel

you were at the heights of self-confidence last night and it was a vibe

I’m hot and I should say it

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true

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Anonymous Confession (#676)

"ngl I have a crush on someone here and I'm just gonna let it sit there and fester in my soul"

Who is it op

21:36

I’m hPpy to listen

Anonymous Confession (#677)

"mood op"

21:46

Anonymous Confession (#678)

"its Lo may as well be honest lol"

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Oh darling I’m so sorry. DM me? I can guarantee I’m a disaster and you do not wanna be with me but I can like counsel you through it or something? Idk I’ve never been in this situation before and idk how to deal with it but please let me be here for you? Sending all the hugs

Anonymous Confession (#679)

"it's fine I can get over it, wouldnt have the guts to do anything anyways"

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I’m really sorry I don’t know how to respond to this stuff it doesn’t happen to me but like drunk me answered last night lol please know I’m here for you. I can’t really say much more bc I don’t know who you are

Can testify that she was very flattered when she saw the message though

Anonymous Confession (#680)

"I also have a crush on someone here but idk if he's single

"

In these instances I often always think it's better to share those feelings of lowkey adoration rather than squirrelling them away and pretending they don't exist.

Dont be shy op, say who it is and we can find out

Well that message was not intended for that confession but also works(?)

so three seperate crushes here wow

Just send a confession w their name and they can answer

cant wait to confess my crush for myself

Love is in the air

Anonymous Confession (#681)

"erin, youre gorgeous, you deserve the world and should definitely start a revolution"

Aww @Unknown

yeah that was me

12:31

why did i have two notifications here

So our land lord wants to take 300 out of our deposit

17:33

Because they "recently" redecorated the front room

17:33

Anyone whos ben in my front room is bull shit

17:33

I get the gardening even if thats a stupid amount

Why are any of you surprised about the crushes?! This server runs on sexual tension, its the only thing that keeps thisnplace active

because they didnt find the loophole

19:12

make confessions confessing a crush on yourself so when no one else does you look cool

what if when someone else posts a confession, u claim it was u who wrote it

19:14

not sure what the benefit would be but it would increase the chaos for sure

Then you fight to the death over the person the crush confession is about

maybe its the best way to get ppl to confess non-anonymously

19:15

when u claim their message they will appear to fight

Lol I have crushes

19:16

Will I admit them

19:16

Never

and then the twist at the end of the story is that the two rivals end up in love

Or you have a threesome, that works too

i have occassional pining strikes

You have a occassional pining, I have occassional pinning. Everybody is different

I usually am occasional liking

19:18

Pining*

19:18

But sometimes. Damn I feel

i never think abt that stuff until someone like, actively pursues me and then i start feeling it lol

I keep mine anonymous ;)))

if nobody ever asked me out i would just cruise along in neutral forever tbh... (at least at this stage in my life)

I'll openly flirt with people but I won't tell them I'm actually into them

if u jokingly flirt with everybody then the real flirting is disguised nod

nod

Exactly

butter

if u jokingly flirt with everybody then the real flirting is disguised nod

nod

or dont know how to flirt

19:23

also im a coward so if i was to have a theoritical crush i have no idea if id ever act on it unprompted

19:26

~~very subtle nudge if anyone-~~

Hi

i try to never let fear/anxiety hold me back from anything so i like to think i wouldnt be afraid of confessing

19:27

but ofc easier to say in theory than actually do when it comes to it

normalise low stress date/hangout prompting to experiment and see how things feel

What if I confess to everyone just to see the response of the person I'm into but if they reject me its like hey I said this to everyone lol

genius

honestly debated offering myself as date practice

Fun fact is if people don’t have crushes on me I won’t say I have crushes on them

I have a friend crush on you

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19:34

I have a crush on you in a way where I'd want you to be my 'mate' of honour at my wedding

Love that this is in vents

queue donna noble 'you just want to mate?'

Finally some good fucking positivity, delicious

19:35

Eeeeen

Love that this is in vents

It's because I'm furiously upset about how much I love these people

Eeeeen

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Lies

B

Because they "recently" redecorated the front room

Yeah when they bring that to DPS it’ll get rejected for sure

19:49

It’s not something that you caused within the house and needed to be “fixed”. If they decided to do that, it’s up to them

Twink Antony

Yeah when they bring that to DPS it’ll get rejected for sure

no basically

19:56

when we went into our house

19:57

there was tears all over the wallpaper

19:57

and they tried to blame us for that

Anonymous Confession (#682)

"Sorry if this makes anyone uncomfortable dw about it at all! People I have had mild crushes on before that I've mostly passed over: Jory, Lo, Caz, B, Ewan, Finch (from memory)"

uhhh hi

B

there was tears all over the wallpaper

Ah i see

Twink Antony

Ah i see

we are contesting it though

Confessions

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Hello???

LoLo <3

Hello???

Pulling everyone left right n Center

20:04

And rightly so

B

we are contesting it though

Good good :) wish you luck x

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I love the crush energy

20:15

Anybody that ever has a crush on me gets a bar of chocolate

20:15

I'm like the final boss

mumblingmiss

Anybody that ever has a crush on me gets a bar of chocolate

I have a crush on you

20:23

Where’s my chocolate

You can have a bar of choc if you want

20:24

What kind

:3

Anonymous Confession (#683)

"I also have a crush on Caz

"

1

22:20

Anonymous Confession (#684)

"I can see why people would love Lo so much she seems so nice!"

1

1

Confessions

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I can see how Lo was struggling to respond to hers when she got a similar confession now lmao. Hi?

All im saying

22:27

if anyone touches or hurts lo, I will murder them

1

22:27

With sheer precision the likes which have never seen

Confessions

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You’re all so lovely

can’t wait until everyone’s back I’m gonna give you all the biggest hugs

I completely agree, you guys haven't seen her in action, she's a weapon

22:28

you think Lizzy just vanished because she was old, nono i was there

Fucking knew it

Fuckboy Drag King

I completely agree, you guys haven't seen her in action, she's a weapon

I can guarantee I have no like fighty ability whatsoever wtf does this mean

(edited)

B

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One of these days I am going to bait you into unleashing all your thoughts about supernatural

LoLo <3

I can guarantee I have no like fighty ability whatsoever wtf does this mean

(edited)

Wdym I saw what you did to that worm

Fuckboy Drag King

Wdym I saw what you did to that worm

IT WAS MADE OF PLAY DOH

LoLo <3

IT WAS MADE OF PLAY DOH

PAST TENSE

Fuckboy Drag King

PAST TENSE

I hope he still is

Fuckboy Drag King

One of these days I am going to bait you into unleashing all your thoughts about supernatural

i listened to my friend have a bit of a rant about supernatural once, it was fun

According to google weapon is scottish slang for an idiot lmao sounds about right-

LoLo <3

According to google weapon is scottish slang for an idiot lmao sounds about right-

Shoosh no no it was a compliment honest

Fuckboy Drag King

One of these days I am going to bait you into unleashing all your thoughts about supernatural

you really

22:34

shouldnt

22:35

all I am saying is there will be uncontrollable sobbing and rage

Fuckboy Drag King

Shoosh no no it was a compliment honest

Nah I like idiot better lmao

Anonymous Confession (#685)

"ngl wasn't expecting to start a whole thing by confessing my crush here but I love it sm we're all suffering here lets start a polycule and cry"

5

~~This is why we need the sleepover~~

Can we have a sleepover

Yes we absolutely can

Yes

the choice of how to respond to so many people having crushes on each other: repress or sleepover

Repression isn’t a healthy option surely it’s better to talk this stuff out at least that way it’s out in the open and you can make sure no one’s feelings get hurt I’d hate to think anyone’s suffering because of me

11:55

So we’ll organise a sleepover once more people are here one weekend, if people want to come or not is their discretion but anyone’s welcome. We’ll get snacks and do puzzles and board games and sit on the floor and tell stories and fall asleep in a pile

yesssss

the watching movies with parents in childhood just reminded me that [tw: disturbing gore] when i was about 8-12, my mother used to show me videos of executions and people dying

Your mother did WHAT

now that i say that for the first time ever, i realise it's even more fucked up than i originally thought

that doesnt sound like a fun thing to remember

12:14

you okay?

LoLo <3

Your mother did WHAT

executions, violent deaths, people being attacked by mobs etc. i have no goddamn idea why. she thought children's films would lower my intelligence while this kind of thing would toughen me up for the "real world" (edited)

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E r i n

you okay?

haha I'm alright. she's ultra-religious so another angle for her was "this is what God will make happen to you if you sin"

12:19

i realise this is a v heavy revelation but i had a "huh, that was not exactly normal, was it?" moment while talking about childhood movies

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mahariel

executions, violent deaths, people being attacked by mobs etc. i have no goddamn idea why. she thought children's films would lower my intelligence while this kind of thing would toughen me up for the "real world" (edited)

If that’s what she expects you to face in the real world maybe making home a safe and nurturing environment where you don’t need to see things like that is a more logical step

LoLo <3

If that’s what she expects you to face in the real world maybe making home a safe and nurturing environment where you don’t need to see things like that is a more logical step

you would think so lmao. but that's good parenting so i think you expect too much of her

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mahariel

i realise this is a v heavy revelation but i had a "huh, that was not exactly normal, was it?" moment while talking about childhood movies

I couldn’t handle that now but as a child? Jesus

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12:20

If you weren’t older than me I swear to god I’d adopt you in a heartbeat

LMAO i think I'm ok

12:21

now I'm a single father devoted to my uhhh (idk how many of you there are here that i call "kiddo" but that number) kids

glad youre okay but sorry you had to go through that, thats pretty fucked up and you deserve a much better childhood than you got

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12:23

and the fact that despite stuff like that youre such an awesome person now really shows how determined and adaptable you are, just hope that the path forward is brighter than what youve had to go through so far, here if you ever want to talk

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E r i n

and the fact that despite stuff like that youre such an awesome person now really shows how determined and adaptable you are, just hope that the path forward is brighter than what youve had to go through so far, here if you ever want to talk

Erin you are absolutely wonderful. thank you for the kind words. I'm trying to be the complete opposite of my parents in every way. i like to think I'm succeeding

i dont know youre parents well but from what ive heard - and just what youve just said - youre excelling

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1

mentally unstable but in a cool, empathetic way

I don’t know much about your parents but I’ve never been anything but happy to have a notification or phone call from you pop up on my phone which I’d say in itself is success

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LoLo <3

I don’t know much about your parents but I’ve never been anything but happy to have a notification or phone call from you pop up on my phone which I’d say in itself is success

same to you. me running out of the office in my break to show you ducks lmfao

I lost my glasses so I'm not entirely sure what I just read but I love you Jory you legend you beauty you genius I hope autocorrect didn't just fuck me over

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mumblingmiss

I lost my glasses so I'm not entirely sure what I just read but I love you Jory you legend you beauty you genius I hope autocorrect didn't just fuck me over

hahaha you're all good. adore you too CB, my fellow agent of chaos

I FOUND THEM

shookpeach

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mahariel

hahaha you're all good. adore you too CB, my fellow agent of chaos

Big love, comrade

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I forgot about my tea

15:29

It went cold

15:29

I just downed half a cup of very cold tea:((

noo you could microwave it?

Maybe but sadly now it's in my tummy so uhh no

15:34

I don't think I'd fit

only one way to find out tbf

So I'm not getting my maintenance loan today and I don't know when I will. Apparently the uni hasn't confirmed I'm registered yet. And then when they do it takes up to 48 hours to update and then another 3-5 working days for me to get it. I haven't bought my own groceries in almost 2 months. I'm tired of thinking it's all working out and then being pushed back again, I just want to eat and pay my parents rent and leave the house and replace my broken storage. I cant stand borrowing money off my parents and I need that loan asap

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I'm sorry this has all been so complicated it's really not your fault the uni kept taking the wrong email but now they've recognised you're going to be studying here they'll confirm w the student finance people and it'll come through, it might take a big longer but if anyone's going to understand it'll be your parents who've seen you doing the process and will know the circumstances around it and know you'll pay them back when you have the money

16:32

Ik it doesn't make things better right now but it'll happen, just gonna be a bit more time

mumblingmiss

So I'm not getting my maintenance loan today and I don't know when I will. Apparently the uni hasn't confirmed I'm registered yet. And then when they do it takes up to 48 hours to update and then another 3-5 working days for me to get it. I haven't bought my own groceries in almost 2 months. I'm tired of thinking it's all working out and then being pushed back again, I just want to eat and pay my parents rent and leave the house and replace my broken storage. I cant stand borrowing money off my parents and I need that loan asap

everything Lo said but I'm so sorry you're being put through this. if you need any help covering groceries then just lmk

16:33

dw about paying it back, i would be happy to help

That thing I said about not being able to cry, here it is.

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sometimes crying flushes the frustration and stress out of the system. afterwards, drink plenty of water and maybe some tea as well

16:34

listen to music or watch things that make you happier and have a nap

16:35

you're going to be ok

You don't have to cry, if your body doesn't want to let you it won't,, that doesn't make the emotion any less real. I'm sorry I can't offer more to help. Have a big scream maybe, that's also a good release if crying isn't on the table

Thanks for your support guys

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If you need anything we’re here for you

Anonymous Confession (#686)

"I used to be so social with my love life. doing things like going on several dates a week because i wanted to get to know everyone who interested me. I'm going on my first proper one since my last relationship ended tomorrow and the boy seems great. i just hate how terrified i am about it. i can't imagine someone liking me beyond casual sex anymore and i don't want to be hurt again"

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18:07

Anonymous Confession (#687)

"I need to hear this but I think some of you do too: harden your heart and stop doing this to yourself. Future you 10 years from now is going to laugh at the energy you put in and never received back. You're young so it seems like the worst and most continuous pain you'll ever feel. But it won't matter at all when you're happy and have forgotten their existence. Keep your head up and let it go"

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Good luck op!! I’m sure he’s lovely and you’ll have a wonderful time, let us know how it goes? Just be your lovely self, I’m sure everything will be fine. You’re a person, not just a thing to have sex with, and if he wants to go on a date with you then clearly he sees you as a person. Good luck!!!

Confessions

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I hate ‘match their energy’ bc sometimes people can’t return the same but I do really agree you’ve got to take care of yourself first and let the person you’re with be your next priority to that, don’t rearrange your world for something that isn’t sure wants to be a part of it

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im glad youre excited, that fear is probably largely from your excitement. try to have fun and best of luck ❤

Lmao not me going ooo there a pink contacts pot I’m gonna give that to my favourite friend then realising I don’t have a favourite friend and now I’m crying because I love my friends I hate it here why do I have to have emotions

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Anonymous Confession (#689)

"Girl invited me over to watch a movie with just her and idk what to do?? I'm nervous?? Help??"

In my very very limited experience, if you are interested - even a bit - its worth expressing that and exploring it

21:44

easier said than done but its a good way to test the waters, see how you both feel, and take a wild chance. you could really enjoy it, after all

21:45

best of luck with whatever you decide OP

but id say if youre interested its best to tell them that at the very least - especially when they prompt you

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AWWW

21:47

GO AND WATCH THE MOVIE WITH HER!!!

21:47

Idk if this is meant as a flirty thing but either way it’s a movie

free movie is free movie

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21:48

maybe theyll have snacks to yoink

at worst u hang out with a friend at best u make out and start a relationship

Needed good waterproof, thick, warm walking trousers for work and theyre the most expensive trousers Ive bought - £45

19:06

Theyre fleece lined and its like sticking your legs into their own sleeping bags made of clouds

Okay but they sound amazing tho

Yeah, theyd better last because I could got 3 pairs of jeans for that money

no they sound like a dream

Anonymous Confession (#690)

"I want to buy my friends so many gifts this year it's unreal. It's my friends birthday soon-ish and I want to get her all the things but don't want to seem too excessive

"

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i get that, i know its very unhelpful advice but honestly id just do what youre comfortable with. you know your friend, and you sound like a really good friend yourself, so i doubt that you could make her uncomfortable with excessivity (~~is that a word?~~)

Imagine doing someone else’s washing up contaminating your glass with nut residue without knowing it and having an allergic reaction drinking water:(

19:25

Really tired of sitting in a&e now

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oh shit im sorry

19:26

are you okay?

Omg

19:32

Lo I'm here if you need me, allergic reactions are a pain in the ass and miserable but it's even worse that someone else caused it

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It’s not someone else causing it it’s an accident I just need to not wash up other peoples stuff lmao

19:33

But thank you

im more annoyed than anything else

I get it

19:34

Hope you get better soon lovely

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do you have company in a&e?

My friend just got called in and the other one got to go home

19:35

But I have a very supportive Jory and my mum on my phone taking care of me

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19:36

I’m okay I’m just complaining

If you ever want to call me for a chat dm me and I'll send my number okay?

honestly fair, glad youre not alone at least, hope it all gets sorted soon

mumblingmiss

If you ever want to call me for a chat dm me and I'll send my number okay?

(offer is open to everyone btw)

LoLo <3

I’m okay I’m just complaining

you can complain as much as you need to dw

19:46

everyone learn how to use an epipen bc you never know when you'll need it

19:46

i eventually figured out how after jumping around like a headless chicken for a solid minute

That's reminded me I need to go to the doctors and get some more

19:47

I always forget to carry mine around

mumblingmiss

That's reminded me I need to go to the doctors and get some more

get some ASAP. no joke, probably saved Lo's life today

Bro seriously fucking carry them omg

Ik ik last time I didn't and I got stung by a bee and panic

It’s annoying and you need clunky bags but like rather look weird but still be alive

her vigilance of keeping track of her allergic reactions made this whole mess better than it could have been

19:48

they're literal lifesavers so get some more please

The summer is danger hour for CB

Lmao the guy in the ambulance being like you don’t have to stress that much some people coke in every week like sure but I can’t afford £9 for a new epipen every week

also the mental and physical toll it must take to be in that often

Oh man that's too many reactions

19:51

Also snaps for me I only had one reaction this year new record

19:52

But I hope you feel better soon fr

Someone’s loudly throwing up in the next room

19:52

Love that for them

Oh now that's a nightmare

Jesus Christ Lo, are you okay?

damn that sounds pretty shit, hope you're alright

LoLo rescue mission is en route

Late night melancholy: I miss my cat so fucking much I'm gonna punch god in the face

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i hate this country

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16:07

fucking 'watching tv illegally' is such a shit sentence

hate TV licensing and i refuse to ever pay it in my life

Lmao there's nothing on anyway

its just how they phrase everything with pressure

16:09

hate how there is always a little bit of me that goes 'oh it would be easier to just pay it and not risk it' and thats exactly what they fucking want

they can't do shit

Ours is apparently through the bills package we got

ignore them

Idk how true that is but i'm choosing to believe it

it's worked for me

most bills packages cover tv liscences fine so you should be clear

16:11

but yeah i just hate the system and everything about it

16:12

if they visit im going to have to really fight not to be a horrible person to them

I don't think they ever do

E r i n

if they visit im going to have to really fight not to be a horrible person to them

Just don’t let them in as well

I've never been visited and at home i've been in the same place for 16 years

what if i just put fuck you by lily allen on loud so they dont think i can hear them

They legally cannot enter your property without permission. They have no legal rights, they are not the police and they can suck a fucking fat one. The "detection technology" is a bare faced lie theyve been telling since the 70s. Just tell 'em you dont have a tele and that they need to fuck off. Job done

orrr i seduce them

E r i n

orrr i seduce them

And that accomplishes?

idk but itd be funny

16:22

and practice

Valid

Eeeeen

They legally cannot enter your property without permission. They have no legal rights, they are not the police and they can suck a fucking fat one. The "detection technology" is a bare faced lie theyve been telling since the 70s. Just tell 'em you dont have a tele and that they need to fuck off. Job done

yeah just don't let them in. there's fuck all they can do

Imagine rearranging half the lounge then remembering you’re not meant to do ‘strenuous exercise’ for at least a week

16:41

Let’s hope using my whole body weight to shift 4 sofas doesn’t count as exercise

You better be taking care of yourself or I stg I'll come over there and make you (edited)

~~Is that a threat or a promise~~

I will literally strap you to a wheelchair

i will come there and hug you so you're unable to do strenuous exercise

Anonymous Confession (#693)

"sabotaging my own happiness by being incapable of letting go of the past. love that for me"

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dear GOD this fever dream was horrific. not in the nightmare kind of horrific but in the "I've never been so happy in a damn long time" kind of horror. v simple, in little restaurant talking to someone over milkshakes and then suddenly i realised eveything was a little too bright and a little too polished. my heart sunk to my stomach and i straight up asked them "hey this isn't real is it?"

10:59

time for the cigarette and shot of vodka breakfast

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That's a horrible feeling to experience, I hope you're doing okay. Always here to talk if you need to, got a lot of experience with vivid dreams

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i don't think I've had one this vivid before. was wondering why i couldn't type properly and just realised there are tears on my screen lmao

Oh darling I understand

11:07

I hope you don't have to deal with one like that again

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i can deal with brutal horror and gory nightmares, I'll take waking up in a sheer blind panic. but this hit me in a way that's kind of broken me

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The happy ones are the worst in an unkind kind of way

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Lol me and @Unknown having The most insane trippy fever dreams rn

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Anonymous Confession (#695)

"dysphoria has been flairing up a bit over the last few days"

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Anonymous Confession (#696)

"Classes literally haven't started yet and I'm already feeling like I'm fucking crashing and burning. I barely survived first and second year, and now I've got fucking third year coming up and I'm just... I'm fucking stressed and tired and I literally haven't done any work."

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Anonymous Confession (#697)

"can my brain not push the exact buttons to convince me to off myself for a single week please"

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im sorry op, please be free to dm me if you want to chat or have a distraction. the brain can suck, youre a brilliant person and worth better than the shitty thoughts that you are sometimes forced to deal with

tw: mentions of death tomorrow is the 3rd year anniversary of my Nan's passing and grief is such an insane thing to experience. It's like feelings I've had before but it just sits there constantly. I miss her more than words can explain

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I'm so sorry for your loss. grief is one of the hardest things to deal with. lmk if you need anything

Anonymous Confession (#698)

"okay now dysphoria is just beginning to kick my ass"

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Anonymous Confession (#699)

"feeling very rough and dysphoric but hope itll pass in a few days as i get back into better habits. sorry for vent confessing so much"

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It’s okay darling my DMs are open if you need me, I can’t relate but I can support

I’m here for you I’m sorry you’re struggling so much I think you’re wonderful

Okay so sometimes my vivid dreams really destroy my day, usually it's fine I can move past it but I had a full on long ass dream when I fell back to sleep for 10 minutes this morning that has genuinely left me upset. I'm glad it wasn't real but still

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sorry you're going through that

fever dreams are the absolute worst

Anonymous Confession (#700)

"as soon as my passport gets here I'm fucking off to the Tibetan mountains to eat tree bark and drink ayahuasca for a month"

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Mood

I did that annoying thing where you're just looking through all the different things in your apps and I found all of my deleted conversations on fb messenger from my high school 'friendships' and got curious and scrolled through. Conclusion: ew what the fuck was I doing with those people

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hope youre okay

It's less of a sad, and more of a let me go murder these people how dare you be so horrible to little baby me that precious little child

in that case lmk if you need a hand

16:00

no one is allowed to hurt any version of cb in any way

I'm very protective of baby CB, let's do it

Oh god old friends is so weird

16:01

My childhood best friends are like a catholic a horse girl and a chaos baby

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The whole group convo I read through was baby CB apologising for making people uncomfortable when she gets anxious and then three people going you ruin the atmosphere, you should try harder because you're clearly not trying, we don't understand you at all

16:04

Like gang you gonna fuckin die now

16:05

Erin, prepare for crimes.

Omg

16:09

Nope

16:09

Not okay

LoLo, prepare for war!

wtf

16:41

im so sorry you had to deal with that

Usually it would upset me but I'm very empowered rn

Anonymous Confession (#701)

"i want to beat the shit out my sisters bf... he's such a cunt and it's so annoying. ignores the family pup and has made some... comments about me being queer that have made me feelin not great"

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hope youre okay OP

it's fine, just annoying bc mom and her gf are on a trip 12+hrs away and don't really wanna bother them (sis's bf lives with us, long story)

20:14

i texted them about the doggo thing but am leaving the queer comments until they get home

The true vibe is crying on the train home because the club was dead and you miss being the centre of attention. Im a bitter queen, don't come fore me

Eeeeen

The true vibe is crying on the train home because the club was dead and you miss being the centre of attention. Im a bitter queen, don't come fore me

Anonymous Confession (#702)

"ive had some really bad dreams recently, both targetting things im used to like mental health, gender, family, imposter syndrome, suicide, murder, etc., but also relatively new stuff that i havent experienced and find pretty overwhelming, things like nightmares about sexual assault and rape and its really starting to mess with my head a lot more. sorry to unload but does anyone have any advice on how to calm yourself down when you wake up from stuff like that, and remind yourself that its just a dream etc.?"

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Hey OP, I'm sorry to hear you're having to deal with this. I often find that I need to have something that can anchor me in reality, like getting up and moving around or deep breathing or a cold drink. Everyone has their own coping and calming mechanisms and I'm here to help you find yours but it might take some trial and error. Feel free to DM me at any time and I'm open to giving you my phone number so that you can call me if you need to hear someone's voice after waking up from something like that. I hope I can help and we're all here to support you.

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yeah that sounds horrible OP. hope you're ok but I'll echo everything CB just said

11:13

vivid dreams suck and even more if they involve things like that

Ngl kinda fuming, I found out I had a mild/moderate crab allergy years ago but eating prawns is fine so it wasn't an entire shellfish allergy kind of thing which is great because I love prawns every so often. But just had some tonight and I've got that very familiar tingly mouth, annoyed stomach combo and I'm gonna be pissed if I'm allergic to prawns now too.

17:55

Idm crab allergy it's nasty anyways

aw no hopefully its just a random interaction of things / one off:((

ahh allergies suck but i hope it was just a mild thing bc crab can sometimes make its way into prawn foodstuffs

Nothing like forgetting your headphones to the gym and being subject to listening to some guy make misogynistic comments to his pal. Thanks though mate, fuelled my last few reps

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im so sorry, thats awful. hope youre okay

I’m good, like I said, fuelled my gains but I won’t be forgetting my headphones in future

Gross

trying v hard to get these important tasks done today but jfc i am struggling

14:06

idk when my ADHD medications appointment is bc I'm on another waiting list and it will take months to see the nurse (edited)

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im sorry, hope you can make some progress

waiting lists suck

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I'm in a constant state of fatigue with a neverending headache lmao

do you have any kind of pain relief for the headache at least?

i really should have taken more than a day off for the flu but i can't afford that sooooo

E r i n

do you have any kind of pain relief for the headache at least?

uhh don't think so but ty

lmk if you want any picked up, happy to deliver some

im sorry youre just being left to wait, hopefully they get in touch soon

nah dw dw you're not walking all the way from bowthorpe to drop off ibuprofen lmao

im not in bowthorpe anymore lmao

I'm just venting bc i feel so exhausted and out of it

i finally moved out of limbo

14:10

honestly fair though

sweet! where are you now?

wilberforce road, basically next to the uni village

aw cute stabby road

stabby road?

yeah apparently it's the road with the most stabbings in Norwich but i highly doubt that. Prince of Wales is way more likely

well i have competition then

fully believe you could defeat anyone in a knife fight

14:15

back to venting: - why am i tired 24/7 - why am i sad 24/7 - why do the small moments of joy feel like they're never at the "i'm the happiest i could be" level

14:17

oh well, i have responsibilities to uphold

I'm here to talk if you ever want to. Pretty much feeling the same atm though I cant say much for how you're feeling

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14:18

Just take moments for yourself when you can

i really appreciate it. i think i need therapy more than anything lol

Feel that

14:19

I can't provide therapy but I can provide chocolate cornflake clusters its my only alternative

mumblingmiss

Just take moments for yourself when you can

the problem is that i can never be alone. i need to constantly be doing things with people to fill the void. if I'm alone with my thoughts, i just start sobbing. probably why i sleep so late bc i hate how much my mind throttles me

mumblingmiss

I can't provide therapy but I can provide chocolate cornflake clusters its my only alternative

haha those are wonderful and we should definitely bake sometime

That's where we're different and I'm not sure I can help much because I prefer to be alone. I hope you get the help you need and feel better soon

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throwing myself into my work. asking for as much overtime as my firm can manage so my head is filled with financial bullshit instead of any self-reflection

14:23

can't be unhappy with the state of my life if I'm calculating other people's fortunes

As I said, always here if you need me or if you find yourself alone and need something to cover the quiet you can always call me

tysm CB, you really a gem. you guys are keeping me sane ngl

Wouldn't be the same without you

ik you like to be alone but same goes for you

Thank you

2/3 of the financial sector worker trifecta: crying at my desk and smoking a pack of cigarettes a day. only thing missing is doing cocaine on my breaks lol

14:25

thankfully, I'm not quite rich enough for the 3rd one

Yeah give that one a while

idk how my father did this for 40 years. i suppose the "do it for the wife and kids" factor is really strong. I'm filling that with "do it so i can treat my friends"

Your motivations are so sweet

i actually had my v first deep conversation with him in my life yesterday evening. i called him up while he was overtiming at work and asked if it was normal to constantly want to walk out in front of a car. he told me "yes that's normal, I've had this feeling my entire adult life. it got worse after marrying your mother and having you. you get used to it" so umm yay

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14:31

he didn't even mean it maliciously lmao. it was just a "i can finally relate to smth you're going through" kind of vibe

I hate to agree with him there bc it's a horrible thing but ive had that exact feeling for years and years and you actually kind of do get used to it

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lmao his whole advice for me was v much "make money, provide for your family, die knowing you tried"

Papa Jory

i straight up asked him if he hates my mother and he went silent for a bit before dodging the question and reiterating the "no matter how you feel internally, you have to provide when you have people depending on you"

14:34

thanks Father, hope i actually see you for more than half an hour a day next time i visit home

I'm glad your dad has decent vibes though

Father has terrible vibes and is definitely coping with lifelong, abysmal depression through alcoholism but hey, he's nice enough when i don't see him for months

I mean decent vibes in comparison with your mother

tbf the bar is in Hell when it comes to being nicer than my control freak of a mother

Lmao

when time travel is invented im offering a service to go back in time and adopt any of you

I'm just working with what you've told me but also dont rely on me for vibe checks

nah dw I'm just treating this channel as a free therapy soundboard lmao

You're always welcome at my house if you need sanctuary

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14:41

We have nature, we have dog, and we have pizza

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actually thinking of going to church of all things. there's a wonderful cathedral 5 mins walk from me so i can sob amongst Catholic splendour while listening to the Bishop tell us Jesus loves us

14:42

ok intermittent sadness done, time to hyperfocus for the next hour until my shift is done

Good luck

14:43

For real lmk if you ever want to come over :))

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Bro your dad is a mood but also a highkey concern

LoLo <3

Bro your dad is a mood but also a highkey concern

yeah that's the family spirit

16:32

on the bright side, I'm back on track with my tasks bc i got 8 hours worth of work done in 1 hour

Jealous of that skill

it's not skill, it's unmedicated ADHD

16:34

and profound amounts of anxiety

I have the second one

16:34

Not very useful without the first

lmao anxiety is never really useful. I'm still shaking from my little mental sprint there

16:35

but i understand how you feel

Lmao holy shit that little anxiety rebound you get after you do something like you've held it off so here we go

16:37

Proud of you though

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Anonymous Confession (#704)

"Crying in the mirror again body dysmorphia season really hit hard"

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Just had a long ass argument with an old friend of mine, with him accusing me of being a shit friend and showing no respect and all the rest of it. Even though I tried to reach out to him and he constantly ignored me. Don't get me wrong, people drift apart but it just made me feel wretched that he's putting all the blame on me even though we are both equally to blame. Friendships are so difficult.

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Hope you're okay, that's so rough. Dealing with troubles like that in a friendship is horrible and upsetting, though its wrong for him to blame you for the entire thing. Here for you

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Fuckboy Drag King

Just had a long ass argument with an old friend of mine, with him accusing me of being a shit friend and showing no respect and all the rest of it. Even though I tried to reach out to him and he constantly ignored me. Don't get me wrong, people drift apart but it just made me feel wretched that he's putting all the blame on me even though we are both equally to blame. Friendships are so difficult.

that's really horrible of him to do. friendships are a two-way street so he should have put the effort in as well. people drift apart but pinning it all on you is stupid

20:45

especially since you tried to reach out as well

Ah bless you guys, it's fine. We're both to blame, we get what we deserve. Just needed to get it off my chest haha

Sometimes people don’t want to let people in and it sucks but you made the effort you tried to be there for him and that’s important. I don’t know his situation and I’m sorry he took it out on you when you were trying to help. All relationships require everyone involved to actively be involved. That sucks when one person cares more than another and it can really hurt but it isn’t your fault that he chose to not confide in you. Yeah people drift apart but that doesn’t mean he needed to make it anyones fault yk?

this place is cheaper than therapy i suppose lmao

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This all happened after my session lmao or else I would've spoken to my therapist about it

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20:48

Just sucks we have a lot of mutual friends who don't want to make things awkward so they don't know what to do either

It’s okay we’re here for you tho can’t promise to give the same quality of advice bc yk. We’re all fucked too?? (edited)

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True

20:49

Need to remember to get my doc to sort out my cbt soon

Fuckboy Drag King

Just sucks we have a lot of mutual friends who don't want to make things awkward so they don't know what to do either

I've found that if you don't let things be awkward then they don't get awkward. people follow your lead when it comes to situations like this so act normally and you won't lose the mutual friends

LoLo <3

It’s okay we’re here for you tho can’t promise to give the same quality of advice bc yk. We’re all fucked too?? (edited)

wish i could make you all unfucked :(

works 90% of the time. it takes some gritting your teeth but assure them that everything is fine on your end (if they ask) and it will eventually blow over

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Fuckboy Drag King

Just sucks we have a lot of mutual friends who don't want to make things awkward so they don't know what to do either

Friends are friends for a reason. Just because there’s a rift between 2 people doesn’t mean the whole group falls apart. Just keep as close to where you’d normally be as you can make allowances if you need to if stuff does get weird but there shouldn’t need to be a problem

E r i n

wish i could make you all unfucked :(

Virginisation? I’m listening

the strategy i used is denial

the strategy i use is repression

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ive never had sex, anything contrary is slander

mahariel

the strategy i use is repression

Same

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Here to spend my time going off on people that post annoying shit on concrete confessions lmao they are my emotional punching bags

my housemate ordered us food but I'm here smoking in my room instead. not quite a vibe lol

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Are you alright?

Anonymous Confession (#707)

"Going about my day and hoping I get a brain aneurysm and die instantly"

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hope youre okay OP

here to talk or distract if you need it

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not to say mood but mood (sometimes)

13:08

(often)

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so update on the whole sister thingy moms totally lost their shit last night (and it was kinda awesome tbh) and hopefully they got the memo

3

aw good

i mean our dogs and the snake don't even like the dude, let alone the rest of the family (edited)

Anonymous Confession (#709)

"kinda felt ganged up my housemates today. Like I get I left my washing up there last night but I have genuinely had no time to sort it after I had my first actual home cooked meal in a week like I’m sorry my schedule has been so booked and I’m completely stressed out and this just hasn’t helped. But when I actually have 5 fucking minutes I’d sort it"

5

I miss my cat so fucking much. The days are too quiet and lonely without him.

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dysphoria can fuck itself

Fucked up my lip

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im ready to fight god

16:08

as in fucking slay it

Are you okay?

long 24 hours

16:09

very long 24 hours

If it makes you feel any better I got hit in the face by the recycling bin lid and now my dad keeps making lip puns

oh my god

16:14

that fucking sucks

16:14

im sorry

16:14

are you okay?

What kind of puns

16:14

I’m really sorry that happened to you

16:14

But also I wanna expand my pun vocabulary

Yes I'm not leaving the house until its no longer visible

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16:14

He told me to 'stop giving him lip'

16:15

And that the bin clipped me

16:16

I believe he also said 'liperally' at one point

Fuckin amazing lmao

The funniest shit just had to happen the day after his birthday so I'm letting him get away with it

Lmao birthday busted lip love that for you guys

Anonymous Confession (#713)

"my boyfriend hit me last night"

18:38

Anonymous Confession (#712)

"having a panic attack in the middle of the day is fun"

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Hey op I am really concerned about this, do you mind coming to talk to me in DMs so we can discuss this

18:52

At no point should your boyfriend lay anyhands on you what so ever

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so annoyed that I strained my wrist and everything is like 10x more effort to let it rest but the part that annoys me most is dreading the reactions from all the condescending men at work

3

Just fucking ignore them baby they’re not worth your time

Anonymous Confession (#714)

"i hate "gay culture". i hate meeting online and not in person, i hate hookup culture, i hate getting played. i just want to be happy"

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I mean, there's plenty of ways to meet people in person outside of "gay culture" as you put it. buy tickets to gigs, join a club, attend a society. Nothing is going to change in your life unless you take the steps to change it.

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11:26

I'm hoping the vent was spawned from the horrendous thoughts of a 3am breakdown but just in case it wasn't ^^^^^^^

Anonymous Confession (#715)

"grateful for everyone I've met in my life but I'm not sure how much longer i can keep going"

3

im sorry youre feeling like that op, please do reach out if you want to talk about it. things can feel hopeless, but you deserve better times, and if people can help bring them about then please let us try

if not, if you ever need a distraction, or someone to vent to, or anything at all, just say

Anonymous Confession (#716)

"I think my boyfriend is abusive but I can’t leave because he’s all I have and I’m so attached to him"

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Hey op, please please please talk to me, I Promise you i will be confidential and I will be able to give you the ways of support

17:37

You are in this server, you have us as well. Hang in there we are there for you ❤️

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17:39

Also my own vent: Fuck I miss liam so much

17:39

I keep seeing things and just going, damn liam would've loved this and keep realising they are not there anymore

17:40

Parts of me wants to reach out to them, but at the same time I am scared to

im sorry, i dont know the full situation but from what i do know it seems really complicated

Nothing you have to apologise for hun

i cant say reaching out to them will work out perfectly, but with who you are and how you feel about them, id hope they would recognise the genuine intention and respond kindly

They were my best friend

17:43

i guess

17:43

yknow

17:43

its hard to let go of that

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of course if you are not comfortable pursuing that its completely valid, but i guess im optimistic that they would hopefully recognise your good intentions and respond pleasantly

17:43

thats honestly fair

Anonymous Confession (#717)

"dysphoria is just absolutely kicking my ass and alcohol, while it gives me a distraction, does not relieve it as much as i wouldve hoped"

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To just reiterate what B said, here if you want someone to confide in/Support where I can x I can guarantee you though, if you look on this server there’s people here who care for you <3 (if you’re on here I do x)

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I feel so ugly right now

Impossible

Anonymous Confession (#718)

"just bought my first cigarette, feels shit im seeking chemical alleviation of dysphoria but it works a bit so

‍♀️"

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absolutely feel this lmfao, I can't say much without sounding hypocritical as everyone has their coping mechanisms, but please do take care of yourself. cigarettes are an expensive habit to kick

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We’re all here for you, we love you, we want you around. Please dm me if you want to talk or text me or anything I’m here for you I’m so sorry you’re struggling like this

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Just bc you’re attached to someone doesn’t mean it’s healthy. We’re here for you if you need a support network please let us support you leaving people is hard but if you’re recognising patterns of abuse please let yourself get out before you get more hurt

B

Also my own vent: Fuck I miss liam so much

I’d say message them, if you want to send them shit, do. They might not reply but making the attempt to bridge the gap has to be something one side does before the other. At least they’d know you’re thinking of them even if nothing comes from it. I’m so sorry Bran

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Is there anyone nearby you can talk to get distracted from it? Alcohol when you’re already not feeling great isn’t always the most helpful thing

mumblingmiss

I feel so ugly right now

You are beautiful and wonderful and we love you very much

Anonymous Confession (#719)

"I'm completely ruining my lungs with cigarettes. i know this but the alternative is to go down even deeper into my depression spiral"

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here to talk if you want an OP

Both of you w the cigarettes omg please be careful

spiralling is scary and do what you need to to cope but please message me if you need someone to talk to. I don’t know much about dysphoria or what you’re going through with anything right now but if you need support I’m here for you. Cigarettes are expensive and I hate to think so many of you are suffering

LoLo <3

You are beautiful and wonderful and we love you very much

Thank you but I just don't feel that way right now

Its Stop-tober. Theres extra support around this month. Please seek out the resources available. Smoking is not a crutch you want to spend time leaning on

Anonymous Confession (#720)

"not the same cigarette OP as the person with dysphoria but that's hitting me too again. i just hate my body so fucking much. born underdeveloped and stayed that way. idk everything just hurts when I'm not on some kind of substance"

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Anonymous Confession (#721)

"I'm going for a walk bc if i stay in my room I'm going to keep smoking or start doing lines. god my landlord is going to kill me"

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if either of you need a break or some company please let me know, im sorry youre having to deal with so much. i know it can feel awkward to reach out but if you do need anything please say, you dont deserve the feelings your brain are forcing upon you

Anonymous Confession (#722)

"appreciate the support, i know its not a good habit but if it relieves my dyshphoria its a massive win compared to where else i feel id be heading"

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Op please talk to someone about that if you can that’s not comfy being on something all the time

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That’s understandable but please be careful using addictive shit as a coping mechanism

i did

23:32

you okay?

ye im fine dwdw

hmm

Anonymous Confession (#723)

"TW suicide if I killed myself now no one would know for a few days lmao"

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yo op please dm me if you wanna talk, or try and find a professional or something, i'm not an expert but i've been through similar shit and i can guarantee you this just isn't the case. We're all here for you

^ Op my messages are always open

01:21

If you need to ring anyone please ring me anytime

01:22

my computers discord notifications rumble my whole room down so I will always pick up

To the people who are struggling with cigarette addictions: It’s okay, it’s really really hard and releasing the statement that you’re struggling with it is so massive and I’m so proud of you for that. Whenever you’re ready to let it go, there is support available and you can always chat to me about it who knows first hand what a cigarette addiction (and other substances) are like. I still struggle with it now tbh but it ebbs and flows, sometimes it’s so easy and other times it’s the hardest thing in the world to choose not to. You’ve declared your struggles here though, you know now that these lovely people as well as the professional services are there to help you without judgement. Whenever you’re ready, I’ll be here too.

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You have a few days to yourself, talk to someone, anyone about it no one else will know if you’re on your own for a few days please let yourself have this. Normally when people feel like that, you don’t want to die you just want change you’re too afraid to seek yourself. At least take this first step op? Give someone an idea of where you’re at, let you get help

Nah right this is the worst fucking day trying not to cry right now. Couldn't sleep, trainline would let me buy a ticket, fly went in my mouth, guy on the train took fucking ages to get to me so I could buy the ticket, missed my bus, then when I went to get on the next one the driver said to get on the one behind but then the one behind left and so did the first one so now I'm just fucking sat here gonna miss my lecture. May as well fuck off back home at this point I stg

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god that sounds horrible and it's fair that you want to cry. hopefully you can get notes from someone for the lecture but this early in the year, it's mostly just introductions. let us know if you're not too drained and want a pick me up in the form of coffee or smth. I'm not on campus rn but I'm sure other people are

Thanks, lucky enough the wait gave me time to get a drink from AMT, I'm just ready to do my seminar and go home after all this

just one good day, would be nice

14:50

been a short while

14:50

in fact id take an okay day

14:51

or even a bad one

14:51

just not one that just adds to everything else thats going on like a weight ready to snap my back

Anonymous Confession (#726)

"alcohol not working the same it used to so now working on a mixture of brief relief until i can figure out how to get my shit together, open to suggestions"

Invest in some bubbles that always makes me feel better

you're building up a tolerance and most likely killing your liver, kiddo

If you have anyone around or nearby that you could chill with for a couple hours, switching it out for something physically active or fun like a walk, game, tv etc could be good? Until around 10 ish and then you can convince yourself it’s too late to have a drink now anyway. I mean… that’s what I do mostly

19:47

Likewise, doing a small task or two that you need to do

Anonymous Confession (#727)

"haha ty but my liver works had as is, im sure it can deal with the extra. still figuring out nicotine but seems to help a bit. not sure how much bubbles would help but ty for the suggestion lmao"

19:57

Anonymous Confession (#728)

"i walk quite a lot as is, like a lot lot. still not 100% sure my doctors would be okay with me running just yet, they may hunt me down if i try"

19:57

Anonymous Confession (#729)

"sorry i vent a lot rn, need to just deal with my shit rather than unload it on everyone else. tysm for being awesome people though ❤"

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Googly eyes

20:27

Put them on whatever causes you stress

20:27

and instantly becomes a joke

Lmao no that’s actually great

It works tbh

20:32

proven effective

Hell yea the Everything Everywhere All At Once strats

Ooh I forgot! Get some rose tinted sunglasses, everything is better with those!

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Not even a problem op, hope you’re doing okay

It's almost alarming how not subtle my brain is with my vivid dreams showing me exactly what I want in my life. Like I get it, I'm aware that's something I really want, you don't have to make me see it every night bc it's gonna take me a while to get there and living through it in my sleep just makes me feel sad that it's not real.

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Dreams like that suck I’m really sorry

make yourself a hot drink and get comfy idk shit that makes you feel good and try and ignore the parts of it that made you feel shit as much as you can. I’m here if you want to talk about shit, always

finally signed up for real therapy. let's see how this goes lol

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10:52

already feeling incredibly apprehensive and woozy about the idea of talking to a stranger but I'm out of any other ideas

mumblingmiss

It's almost alarming how not subtle my brain is with my vivid dreams showing me exactly what I want in my life. Like I get it, I'm aware that's something I really want, you don't have to make me see it every night bc it's gonna take me a while to get there and living through it in my sleep just makes me feel sad that it's not real.

i completely understand that horrible feeling, it really does just sucker punch you right? maybe start listening to music or watching smth straight after waking up so you forget most of the details? it sort of works, tho the remnants of these are mostly the emotions which are harder to forget. if you need anything then I'm here

10:59

would it be tacky of me to go through a couple cigarettes outside the therapist's office before i have to go in lol

mahariel

i completely understand that horrible feeling, it really does just sucker punch you right? maybe start listening to music or watching smth straight after waking up so you forget most of the details? it sort of works, tho the remnants of these are mostly the emotions which are harder to forget. if you need anything then I'm here

Thank you, it's just hard to have those fake memories in my head and realise I'm stuck without that reality. I'll try that though.

mahariel

would it be tacky of me to go through a couple cigarettes outside the therapist's office before i have to go in lol

Also main character energy

mumblingmiss

Thank you, it's just hard to have those fake memories in my head and realise I'm stuck without that reality. I'll try that though.

the happy ones tend to stick around for a while but after some time they'll start to lose their bite. if you remember the vivid fever dream i had a couple weeks ago that completely wrecked me? i still get a little sad when i remember it but it's no longer the stab to the heart it once was. the main thing is to keep yourself distracted so you don't have time to dwell on them

Yeah I'm glad your dream doesnt hurt as much anymore. Just need to find a new coping mechanism for my vivid dreams bc I have them most nights. Thanks for being there for me

mumblingmiss

Yeah I'm glad your dream doesnt hurt as much anymore. Just need to find a new coping mechanism for my vivid dreams bc I have them most nights. Thanks for being there for me

it sounds like bullshit but genuinely, a hot drink and immediate distraction with anything else

11:21

I'm sure there are other ways but that's what works for me

11:22

and always darling

you're always there when I'm having a bad day

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mahariel

finally signed up for real therapy. let's see how this goes lol

best of luck, i know it can be stressful but i hope it goes well

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E r i n

best of luck, i know it can be stressful but i hope it goes well

thank you

mahariel

finally signed up for real therapy. let's see how this goes lol

Ayo just gotta say Really hope this works out for you! Going to therapy is unironically the best choice I think I've ever made (and probably the only good one)

skeletons of anxiety

Ayo just gotta say Really hope this works out for you! Going to therapy is unironically the best choice I think I've ever made (and probably the only good one)

aw tysm eddie

it definitely feels like an excellent choice. i have high hopes

12:46

and you've made many great choices smh. don't sell yourself short

nah, talking about my hyperfixations with my therapist is definitely the best one

12:46

worth every penny

hahaha sounds fun, looking forward to it

tw: alcohol Managed to get through today so far without drinking. Admittedly not the same case with smoking, but we take small victories, and hope that said victory continues until i 'sleep'

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18:46

not a particularly negative vent but hey

E r i n

tw: alcohol Managed to get through today so far without drinking. Admittedly not the same case with smoking, but we take small victories, and hope that said victory continues until i 'sleep'

addictions are hell to beat but I'm so proud of you for getting through today without drinking. every hour that passes without alcohol is another step to recovering

i may be optimistic but i live in hope it isnt exactly an addiction, instead just a flare up of less than healthy tendancies

18:48

idk much about this stuff though so i may be making it sound less concerning that it is

18:48

either way tysm

E r i n

tw: alcohol Managed to get through today so far without drinking. Admittedly not the same case with smoking, but we take small victories, and hope that said victory continues until i 'sleep'

Proud of you

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I just had an inconsolable breakdown

02:38

and im like

02:38

processing everything

02:38

Talking to someone who was involved somewhat in the reason for it, but knowing there back in my life again

02:38

helped me alot

02:38

its weird

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Anonymous Confession (#733)

"Fuck I am so in love with this person and I am literally dreaming of all the ways to show them"

B

I just had an inconsolable breakdown

hope youre okay

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same op

Really don't wanna leave the house today, gang. What an annoying feeling.

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you okay?

Just my stupid anxiety getting to me, haven't been sleeping very well lately so probably just that. I'll be fine, I'll just report myself absent

honestly fair, hope youre okay and take care of yourself

When you open the last document for your reading and it's 32 pages long then you have to do the portfolio assignment

16:18

Debatable if I'll be able to come to the bar later:(

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LoLo <3

When you open the last document for your reading and it's 32 pages long then you have to do the portfolio assignment

ahh that fucking sucks. get through as much as you can and remember to take breaks

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Waking up to a panic attack was not the start to my Saturday morning I wanted but ig it’s the start of my Saturday morning I got. Happy too fucking early everyone

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im sorry, are you okay?

That's horrible, please try to rest and relax today. Have some cups of tea and watch your favourite show/movie. I hope you're okay, please feel free to message me at any time I'd you need to talk.

Anonymous Confession (#740)

"TW: Suicide I nearly killed myself last night. I haven't felt suicidal in a few months and it just washed over me about 3am last night. And what made it worse is that nobody would know for sometime that I had died."

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im sorry op, here if you do want to chat

jesus op I'm so sorry

and i think its worth remembering that even if people didnt know you died, people would probably still realise you are less active. if you are in this server, youre cherished, and even if im not personally close with you, doesnt mean i - or anyone here - never will be, and we're here for you if you ever need to vent, or need a distraction, or literally anything

i don't know what you're going through but as someone who has dealt with such things before, it's hell to deal with, but you have to find the little things that keep you going. reiterating everything erin just said but feel free to reach out if you ever need anything

Ah yes I love it when an ex you haven't spoken to in god knows how long has a couple drinks and messages you to argue about why you broke up with them. Honey, this is one of the reasons.

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your ex is a little shit who doesn't deserve you

Yeah hope he gets that hint soon

Anonymous Confession (#744)

"It's hard to not feel suicidal when you're alone? And when you don't have anything really to keep you going anymore. It used to be friends n that, but now I feel that I don't necessarily have any, and I was always the black sheep of my family. I sat in the middle of the road smoking and thought, hey, it wouldn't be so bad if something hit me. Even though it wouldn't kill me, it'd be enough to feel something again, you know?"

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Anonymous Confession (#745)

"Just want to die, just want to die just want to die just want to die"

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I don't know who you are but I will find you and I will hug you and I will make sure you feel loved ❤️

Anonymous Confession (#746)

"lowering your standards for one night to avoid something uncomfortable. This bitch right here"

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OP if you do ever want a distraction, please do reach out. I understand that things can just feel overwhelming and that there may not be an opportunity to feel right or good again, and while I don't know your exact situation, sometimes that loop of shitty thoughts can be broken - or at least given a break - by the most random things

10:03

I'm far from an expert on these things, but I have been in somewhat similar situations (I think), and if you do want to chat, or want to know of places to reach out to, or vent, or literally anything at all, please do say. There won't be any judgement or pushing you to do something uncomfortable, I don't think anyone here would ever do anything like that, but we are here for you in any capacity if you ever want it

^^^ we're all here for you. Please feel free to talk to us at any time

I really need to shower bc I have uni tomorrow but I'm deeply uncomfortable with myself right now. It's been a while since I've felt this way and I don't remember how I used to deal with it

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sorry you're going through this, low lights/candles maybe?

17:56

you can shower but can't see much

That might help a bit it's just a hard feeling to deal with

ofc, i suggest slowly working yourself up to it while keeping yourself mildly distracted

There’s no reason you have to have the lights on to shower, you can always play music as a distraction

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i literally cant shower without music, absolute life saver. something you like to tap your foot to or sing along to often helps me, so you can focus on the music and just do everything else semi-automatically

18:03

hamilton used to be that for me lmao

Thanks guys

The no lights trick really helped me out, thank you again

Glad you’re managing alright

Anonymous Confession (#748)

"how do you calm yourself down from wanting to punch a wall"

2

00:28

Anonymous Confession (#749)

"god i was doing so well and now my will to live has fallen off a cliff again"

2

Just sit and breathe op I promise it’ll be okay I’m sorry you’re feeling like this but it too will pass. Ik the time stamp and sometimes after midnight like that if you feel that bad it’s normally a good cue to try and get some rest I’m sorry I was not awake to reply to this before now

I hope you’re okay you can always message me if you need anything

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so sudden burst of gender euphoria last night lasted only a very short while

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08:41

oh im still horny (edited)

08:41

good to know

how much EDM can i listen to on full volume before my eardrums explode

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Alright pretty pissed off now so just gonna pop this in here. Got off the train at cromer like I usually do and walking past one of the shelters at the station this teen girl points right at me and goes she was staring at me on the train this morning like why the fuck are you staring at me and you know what that fucked me off. I didn't stare at fucking anyone and anyone that's met me knows I glance around at my surrounding a lot it's my little anxiety habit I can't help it and when I'm on the train I try not to look out the window too much bc of my motion sickness. But there's not chance I'd stare at that little piece of shit teen who I remember sat with her feet up on the other seat phone basically merging with her face. Some of us don't stare at our phones for 45 minutes get over yourself you selfish little bitch

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mumblingmiss

Alright pretty pissed off now so just gonna pop this in here. Got off the train at cromer like I usually do and walking past one of the shelters at the station this teen girl points right at me and goes she was staring at me on the train this morning like why the fuck are you staring at me and you know what that fucked me off. I didn't stare at fucking anyone and anyone that's met me knows I glance around at my surrounding a lot it's my little anxiety habit I can't help it and when I'm on the train I try not to look out the window too much bc of my motion sickness. But there's not chance I'd stare at that little piece of shit teen who I remember sat with her feet up on the other seat phone basically merging with her face. Some of us don't stare at our phones for 45 minutes get over yourself you selfish little bitch

people are so weird, hope that didn't weigh on your mind too much. she should definitely get over herself

Small vent of: The ADD in me loves being busy, especially when it's stuff I love/enjoy doing, but jfc where did all my time go? I literally have people asking me "oh when can we hang out?" and I literally have to check a schedule and fit them in hourly. I almost miss year 2 me, that bastard had 95% more free time than me and I'm almost jealous of that.

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I feel that so fuckin hard I love being busy but I miss last year already like my next fully free day is the 28th like what?? Just gotta get into a routine ig but it is kinda sucky

glad you have that many people around you who want to spend time w you tho that’s always a fun

Anonymous Confession (#752)

"The ear ringing is back, which sucks. Sealing with it how I deal with everything else, but just another thing to add onto the pressure"

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hope youre having fun, but do try to take care of yourselves. if needed, book in a slot with me where you lay down in a bookable room on campus or something while i bring you food and drink from the shop and cafes, youre amazing people who do a lot, but if you need a break, try to find a time to, you more than deserve it

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Didn't know where to put this. Does anyone else here have someone in their family where they truly have no idea how in the hell you're related? Like your traits are so completely different and opposite and it's not just from you but from the rest of your family as well.

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id say yes but im the one who i have no idea how im related to the rest of my family

That counts

17:48

I think

Fair lmao

17:52

Like one of my brothers, he's not mentally ill like the rest of us and he's loud and big-headed. E.g. I'm just sitting here in the corner of the living room watching stuff on my laptop earphones in room quiet and him and his gf are now watching TV in my parents bedroom which is weird I know they're sleeping there til Friday but they still have a working TV upstairs. Like I have my quiet atmosphere and he don't get that yk?? Just wondered if anyone else deals with something like that (edited)

17:53

I'm trying to maintain my vibe

17:54

Not angry just like eww imagine making noise

The med centre never sent off my prescription for another epipen:(

That fucked up

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18:04

Is there any way you can get it rushed

18:05

(also just realised I was basically complaining about extroverts lmao)

Nah sorry I’m not trying to piggyback your vent

18:10

I’m just annoyed I gave them a week the person who I called just didn’t do anything:(

No don't worry yours is way more important

18:17

They need to get that sorted asap

I need to call them again:(

are you okay?

Gonna have to do it tomorrow tho bc they close before I get out of Spanish:(

19:38

Yeah it’s just annoying

19:39

I don’t need them both if I have something w nuts in but it takes forever to get one and Blehhh

that fucking sucks

19:39

hope you can get the other one asap

yeah thats fair, still it shouldnt be something so awkward to deal with

^^ especially since it's literally life-saving

joking about it bc otherwise i start having an existential crisis

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19:51

~~why don't images work in confessions~~

i think mine just worked

19:53

i just did /confess confession:(text) attachment:(attachment)

huh ok next time then haha ty ty

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"test"

ty overlord bran

mahariel

joking about it bc otherwise i start having an existential crisis

obviously dont push stuff youre uncomfortable with, but if you do ever want to chat about this, just say

E r i n

obviously dont push stuff youre uncomfortable with, but if you do ever want to chat about this, just say

i really appreciate it, might take you up on it. i just have no idea what my head wants lol

honestly fair, just try to remember you don't have to figure this out until you want to

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it's so weird. irl i hate the idea of anyone referring to me as a man bc of how feminine i appear. but here i am, calling myself everyone's dad and my brain just goes "serotonin!! serotonin!!!!"

gender is weird

ofc there's tonnes more to it that stretches back to my earliest childhood memories but that's the first funny thing i thought of

Amelia - iced coffee enthusiast

gender is weird

100%

20:12

if i could shapeshift and swing between masculine and feminine on a whim then i would the happiest person on earth

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what i used to do was note down if i felt more feminine, masculine or androgynous each day to figure out how i was questioning and what mightve made me feel as such each day

20:15

far from a perfect system but after questioning my gender for years it helped break it a little bit. experimeninting a bit also helped figure stuff out

I wish I was androgynous

and i suppose even if you dont know your gender but certain things make you feel better than others, you can always ask people youre comfortable with to try those things, even if its not to figure out your gender, if it makes you happy thats all that matters

20:16

sorry not sure how helpful this stuff is

gender? i hardly know her this shit can be hard to figure out

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this is so sweet and v v helpful

20:17

tysm erin

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20:17

think I'll try the noting down method and see which way it leans

gender is a fuck you just gotta try out some stuff see what you vibe with

Fuck gender

But I get where you coming from tho

20:19

Like I don't wanna be masc and I'm fine being fem but there is a lot of times where its like let me be neither

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if you wanna be neither you can just be neither if you decide that's what's for you then fuck anyone who says otherwise

fuck gender, all my homies are Biblically accurate angels

i mean i cant promise ill always be perfect with it straight away but if anyone wants me to try different names, titles or pronouns for them, just lmk

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maybe you only wanna be neither some of the time, that's cool too

^^^

my pronouns are nothing, do not perceive or address me, is the current mood

no pronouns, do not refer

also worth remembering that expression doesnt always have to match identity, there are times where i act more stereotypically 'masculine', and lots of times where i felt a lot more androgynous

that's v true

I'm kinda building up to pronoun change rn like get myself used to it before putting it out yk

always happy to change to your preferred pronouns when you want to

I'm the kind of person who forgets their own pronouns lmao

20:24

Its so nice having a group of people to discuss this with

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here if you ever wanna chat

yeah it's really nice knowing that i won't be judged for any of this here

mahariel

fuck gender, all my homies are Biblically accurate angels

The best aesthetic

i'm always down to talk about weird gender shit

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20:25

Badgers at Dawn (he/him)

The best aesthetic

LMAO "i have 2 million eyes all over my body and you're wondering about my gender?"

Don't ask me about my gender, ask me about my cool af pins

mahariel

LMAO "i have 2 million eyes all over my body and you're wondering about my gender?"

Don’t forget the 6 wings

hot

Badgers at Dawn (he/him)

Don’t forget the 6 wings

6 wings? wow KFC are really skimping nowadays

cant wait to make some nephilims

no gender. only lovecraft

ah yes

20:28

tentacles

20:28

the great gender equaliser

mmm, non-visible wavelengths of the electromagnetic spectrum and geometry on spheres, so spooky howard

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Ripfangs

mmm, non-visible wavelengths of the electromagnetic spectrum and geometry on spheres, so spooky howard

non-euclidean geometry, my beloved

transgender? no, you misunderstand... i am trans-dimensional

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the dream

wait this is just zoe from monster prom

Amelia - iced coffee enthusiast

transgender? no, you misunderstand... i am trans-dimensional

transcendent (edited)

am I trans? yeah im trans. transhumanist. im trying 2 get a robot brain over here

yes! robot limbs!

hey apparently it’s Coming Out Day

20:39

perfect timing

my cyberpunk dreams are finally being realised

dont need to shave my legs every day if it is made of metal

20:41

would u replace ur left leg or ur right leg first

20:42

(u cannot afford both at once because it is the dystopian future)

uhhhh

20:43

flip a coin?

left leg bc then I'd be all right

atleast fictional dystopias have the decency to look cool

20:44

our real life dystopia doesnt have a cool aesthetic

20:44

it just looks like shit

its up to us to change that. by making the world cooler looking, not a better place ofc

I'd replace one toe

hell why do i have to replace anything? think outside the box and just give add to my exisitng limbs

20:46

or get doc ock tentacles

20:47

i am so very very drained suddenly

20:55

i get why but the temptation to just keeping going rather then resting is a bit annoying, like my brain says basic self care but my body says fuck off you can still get some stuff done

20:55

gonna get some sleep anyway because fuck my body its shit anyway it knows nothing

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always listen to your body

20:55

hope you sleep well darling

yes sleep well!

my body is the one telling me to keep going lol

oh then do not listen to your body haha

think of it like the needs bars in the sims!

20:56

you need to sleep

Amelia - iced coffee enthusiast

think of it like the needs bars in the sims!

perfect

i think of it as asserting dominance over a worthless lump of flesh that imprisons my conciousness and at times, for no reason, decides to fuck with me in inexplicable, often needlessly complicated ways, just to see what ill do

20:57

or begging it to stop, depending on my mood, being a switch and all

Darling get some sleep

just realised microsoft teams is doing a client side deadname every time i open it, so thats annoying

Can you not change the name you have on there?

it is erin, its just because i had the app downloaded before my name changed. i just need to uninstall and reinstall, just was a bit of a jab

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I’m so sorry baby

im fine, its not that it fucks me over entirely, just irritates a bit

People that go around the house leaving lights and shit on

die

20:19

Disrespectfully, perish.

Curveballing one temptation by giving in to a completely different temptation that is significantly better

what's the temptation?

I replaced getting a piercing with ordering fish and chips lmao

Panic attacks at work aaaaaaa

are you okay?

Anonymous Confession (#759)

"days like this, i wonder if happiness is a myth made up to make you feel better"

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therapy did nothing. i just paid to complain about things for an hour and then left miserable lol

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My therapist traumatised me more lmao

turns out she can't diagnose me so i don't see the point of it

16:34

whole hour was just "i want to die" "no"

im sorry

i wish they couldve helped more, here if you do want to talk at any point (I don't charge, but I'm also shit at advice)

lmao ty erin but you already do far too much for me

16:36

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mahariel

therapy did nothing. i just paid to complain about things for an hour and then left miserable lol

Oh darling I’m so sorry

I’m here if you need anything?

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i basically do nothing, but the offer stands, youre an amazing person and if you need support people are here for you ❤

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i showed up to her office in my Spectrum outfit bc the turnaround to get to pres was so tight so i wonder wtf she thought of me lmao

mahariel

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Youre about as fine, as a piece of ham left in the sun in the sahara desert for 3 weeks

B

used /snipe

E r i n#0726

a

FUCK

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me, dressed in a suit and harness (tried to look a bit more modest by buttoning up the blazer): so doc, i hate myself but i also think I'm a god. birth is a curse and existence is a prison her:

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mahariel

me, dressed in a suit and harness (tried to look a bit more modest by buttoning up the blazer): so doc, i hate myself but i also think I'm a god. birth is a curse and existence is a prison her:

I HATE

16:41

THE FACT

16:41

I FEEL CALLED OUT

16:41

BY THIS

B

Youre about as fine, as a piece of ham left in the sun in the sahara desert for 3 weeks

perhaps.

LoLo <3

Oh darling I’m so sorry

I’m here if you need anything?

it's alright, i just need to get my head down and deal with it

16:42

thank you though, all of you

mahariel

it's alright, i just need to get my head down and deal with it

I mean mood but I’m here if you’re going through it, this shit is easier with a bit of support

Also hear for all of you as always

<3

Here in whatever capacity you need

@ all of you

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love how i kept apologising to her for wasting her time and complaining too much and she replied that it was literally her job

Can I punch her in the throat

why??

Why not

she was lovely, just don't think it was the help i need

Ah okay I retract sorry

16:46

I hope you do get the right help soon though, you don't deserve to be stuck with the wrong help

fixing my mental health by fully leaning into the delusions of grandeur

mahariel

fixing my mental health by fully leaning into the delusions of grandeur

Ahhh mood

but are they really delusions if you actually are amazing?

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Ripfangs

but are they really delusions if you actually are amazing?

The twink has a point

thanks kiddo, i appreciate it haha

16:48

I'm just in a really shitty downturn today i suppose

16:48

disappointed in myself and just wish my mind and the whole world would stop for a while

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Wish I was up there so I could treat you or smth

appreciate that too. but I'll be fine

16:50

need to tactically cry so the switch flips and I'm back to mania

16:52

i just wish i didn't feel like such a doormat

Sorry if my responses or messages are a bit off for a while, I'm dealing with unresolved trauma right now because of the time of year so I'm trying my best

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here if you need anything

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mumblingmiss

Sorry if my responses or messages are a bit off for a while, I'm dealing with unresolved trauma right now because of the time of year so I'm trying my best

I feel you darling I’m sorry you’re dealing with that

always here if you want to talk

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sorry you're going through that

we're all here for you

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yesterday was hell and now I'm stuck in a limbo of dissociation (edited)

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18:03

it's really weird, my paranoia is amping up. i have these deeply ingrained superstitions where if certain things happen before i do smth then I'm not meant to do it

18:04

like if I'm planning to go somewhere and my shoelaces come undone, or i get my rings on the wrong fingers, my contacts hurt when i put them in, i forget my watch, and a multitude of other small things, then it's God giving me signs not to go

18:05

all of that happened yesterday before Spectrum and i ignored them. any time i ignore these signs, things end up going wrong

18:06

soooo yeah lol

im sorry youre having to deal with that, is there anything we can do to help?

hell, my bus sped away when i was just about to reach the stop

18:07

not really, i just become a bit too religious when my emotional state is not great

18:08

everything has to be perfect before i feel comfortable going somewhere but the time pressures of yesterday really fucked up my routines

18:09

i was exhausted and having an internal meltdown on the way to pres lol

18:10

my mind keeps repeating that I'm being punished for every act I've committed against God's wishes

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Your head’s in a fucky place. You talked to the person about some deep shit it’s understandably going to mess with your head somewhat. I understand the superstition, I really do but please forgive yourself for not being able to get everything right first time you’re going through a lot right now, and it’s okay. You were okay at spectrum nothing bad happened? Take it easy, you’re okay this will pass and you’ll feel better. Don’t put too much pressure on yourself for everything to be perfect, okay is plenty enough

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that's the thing though, i need everything to be perfect or the fear that something bad will happen absolutely paralyses me

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sounds like you could do with a chill self care day, at your own pace and hopefully just break gradually back into some sense of normality? any way you can find some time to do that over the next couple of days?

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it's why i was drinking so much yesterday. thought the alcohol would get the sheer paranoia out of my mind and give me a brief respite

mahariel

it's why i was drinking so much yesterday. thought the alcohol would get the sheer paranoia out of my mind and give me a brief respite

I did the same, it doesn’t work and I’m sorry I should’ve noticed something was off I was too caught up in my own problems

I'm far too busy to do that I'm afraid. i need my routines to keep myself in check

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LoLo <3

I did the same, it doesn’t work and I’m sorry I should’ve noticed something was off I was too caught up in my own problems

you had absolutely no responsibility to notice. please don't blame yourself for this, you've had a rough couple of days

18:14

this is just how i am

mahariel

I'm far too busy to do that I'm afraid. i need my routines to keep myself in check

That’s fair, maybe just little breaks in your work day that let you do what you need to do to unstress?

diet autism or smth deeper idk lol

mahariel

you had absolutely no responsibility to notice. please don't blame yourself for this, you've had a rough couple of days

No but I should have done I’m really sorry. We can’t always take turns to have bad days but that doesn’t mean I’m not there for you when we’re both struggling

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LoLo <3

No but I should have done I’m really sorry. We can’t always take turns to have bad days but that doesn’t mean I’m not there for you when we’re both struggling

hey, seriously it's fine. i was being stupid and getting caught up in my religious paranoia. nothing you could have changed

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18:18

I'm caught between wanting to listen to these signs bc otherwise i freak the fuck out and needing to do the various obligations i have

Maybe not change but ease at least. I'm here for you Jory I care about you

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thank you, i care about you deeply too

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ay gang gang protect jory squad you're wonderful and deserve to feel safe fam

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it's really just one of those things that will be ever-present. my routines, my signs, my need for perfection from both

18:24

trying to mitigate them but not listening to the signs really doesn't work out well and always leaves tornado sirens blaring in my mind

18:24

haha thanks eddie, appreciate it

ay it's fine, mental funk like that is always gonna be something to live with but it never has to define you

mahariel

it's really just one of those things that will be ever-present. my routines, my signs, my need for perfection from both

They are but we can try and find ways to make them more bearable if you think that's something that's possible and might help? I know it's scary to push through and do things anyway when your brain is telling you not to, I'm proud of you for being able to fight back against your head when it gets like that

ahhh the problem is that the signs are always right

18:28

when i ignore the signs, smth bad always happens or smth goes wrong

18:30

once again, entirely blame my mother lmao. she also has her own set of superstitions that she forced onto me. her reasoning was that if i don't stick to these superstitions, then she will die

18:31

this sounds hilarious from an outside perspective but the number 3 terrifies me. she always made me do things 4 times bc 3 is a bad number which will make someone die

18:32

honestly i get more out of yelling into the void of this vents channel than my therapy session yesterday lol. my brain is blaming that on the fact that i showed up to her office at 7:03

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Okay FUCK mummy Jory I have to do things in 3s bc it's just the good number

18:33

Like I always have to eat 3 wotsits at a time or it's wrong lmao

fair enough lol

mahariel

honestly i get more out of yelling into the void of this vents channel than my therapy session yesterday lol. my brain is blaming that on the fact that i showed up to her office at 7:03

I'm glad we can help even if it's just by listening

I'm sorry yesterday didn't do anything for you

ah dw about it, I'm just being dramatic

18:36

my self esteem has dropped back down to being non-existent

You're? Allowed to be dramatic?

18:36

Oh darling I'm sorry

I'm just kind of feeling humilated and drained. waiting for the switch flip so i can go back to being an uncaring narcissist

Just saw an old photo of me and Liam on my computer saver screen I didn’t delete

18:38

And now I’m crying

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18:38

Fuck

fuck dude that's always horrible to be jumped with

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18:39

anything i can do?

I'm so sorry both of you oh my god

18:40

It has not been our week huh

my week has been good overall. just last night and today fucking me up

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Can I like wrap you both up in a blanket for a few days?

lmao save that for sandman tonight

Fair lol

bran we'll distract you and get your mind off what you saw

Just have a chill night and not think about things (besides making fun of Jory wanting to fuck Corinthian)

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The only person I'll accept wearing sunglasses to that extent is Erin

someone say sunglasses

Omg we were planning earlier how hard do you think it'd be to get a glasses rack like they have in opticians for a wall?

easy if we make it a pride social

i doubt I'll go to another pride social

We're NOT storming specsavers

LoLo <3

We're NOT storming specsavers

Why are we all so fucked up we don't deserve this god is a cunt

mahariel

bran we'll distract you and get your mind off what you saw

Thanks

18:56

I just

18:56

Miss them

18:56

A lot

18:57

And it didn’t end well and yeah

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Anonymous Confession (#760)

"Is it odd that I have so many people who care about me but still feel lonely because one person doesn't?"

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Sometimes when all you want is that one person it can feel almost isolating with everything and everyone else. It's not odd, you just want their attention that's understandable. Is there any way you could maybe reach out to them and maybe organise to do something together actually know that you will have a segment of their time undivided with you?

Well, not to add to the already down energy but I got diagnosed with an eating disorder yesterday. Very fun. Can't help but feel like those scenes in scooby doo like "i would've gotten away with it if not for those fucking blood tests"

19:27

I was donating blood last week and they obviously have to check it for diseases etc etc to make sure if its given to a donor it ain't going to kill them right? Well, my GP contacts me to let me know I have an appointment with a dietician, I'm surprised but agree. My blood sugar was dangerously low apparently, she then asks me questions and whacks out a massive booklet for me to work through to get over my fear of food. Which is like. Damn. I never thought it was that bad until people point it out, you know?

19:28

Anyway vent done lmao, I was just cooking myself dinner which is already a rarity and realised how terrified of pasta I was. I haven't eaten pasta in a year? More than? Madness

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im so sorry, this kind of thing is difficult to deal with, but we're here for you if you ever need anything or want to talk

Eating is an interesting one. I'm really sorry you're struggling with that as much as you are, I've been there and it's fucking horrible. If you need support at any point I'm here, I'll help if I can, whatever capacity that takes. It was bread for me not pasta but I can promise you recovery is possible and so so worth it

Hey it's all good, all part of the journey to recovery ig. I just hadn't realised how much it had manifested itself in my life. Like, I don't let myself drink anything except vodka/gin because it has no carbohydrates and less calories than anything else. Same with lower sugar energy drinks, coffee, then into skipping meals and all sorts.

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19:33

Absolutely part of the journey. Just never realised it was a problem until someone points at your blood stats and says, "that's not right" and it sort of stunned me.

19:35

Because even now I hate my body (probably a nice bit of dysphoria in there but that's not the point), even though I'm the lightest I've ever been, it's still not enough. When I started uni I was hefty, about 84 kilos, I'm now down to 70 and all my head says is that 10 more then it'll be 60. Then I'll be thin enough, thin enough to be more masculine looking, thin enough to be good enough, you know?

19:35

Lovely stuff just needed to get it off my chest lmfao

hope it feels a bit better now that you have, dysphoria is awful and im sorry that it leaks into stuff like this too. you seem to have a good mindset about it being part of the journey, just remember people are here to help however we can, and its never an inconvinience

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also remember that you're 6ft tall and need food for energy with all the exercise you do

That's what the dietician said lmao and I was just like, yeah but it's not an excuse, I can manage on less and she just shook her head at me. Felt like I was being very carefully told off

the booklet will probably help a lot more than any advice i can give but it's a difficult mindset to break out of. the thing about building muscles is that it's a lot harder without getting enough of all the food groups, including carbs. all of these things are necessary to build tissue. even if you don't jump into the deep end and go straight for pasta, you can explore carbs that are more appetising to you first

19:41

rice works with basically anything that has some sauce to it

This shit usually stems from self hate and wanting fundamental shit to change. When I was in the depths of mine it was allll about the numbers not even weight necessarily but like calories and shit? But passing out from exercise is fucking scary and even if you think you can handle less the way it affects your body? That's not something you want to fuck around with. I ended up doing a course on nutrition before I came to uni so I knew the basics if I needed to pull myself out of that kind of place and despite occasional relapses when I feel really bad yk it does help to have guidelines from someone qualified to help you. You're good enough just the way you are you don't need to hurt yourself thin doesn't equal good

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rice, fried spam, soy sauce, your beloved fried eggs, and some optional seaweed sheets is an example of a super simple meal that you can make in 10 minutes but has some of that stuff your blood needs

And yeah rice is good and eggs is probably not a bad shout

actually, what Lo said is more helpful

dont want to talk about food too much in case its offputting but eggs were my lifeline when i struggled with eating, very easy to have in a variety of ways and easy to mix with something else

your mind won't agree but here to shout about how your body is more than good enough just the way you are

Yeah hopefully. Just so terrified of gaining weight I guess. It's always what made sex so off putting too, like good god why would anyone want to see this body? It's incomplete? It's not where it should be so why would it be good enough?

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19:46

Thank you all though, I know eating issues are somewhat common and in an odd way I'm glad that you guys have some experience with this

E r i n

dont want to talk about food too much in case its offputting but eggs were my lifeline when i struggled with eating, very easy to have in a variety of ways and easy to mix with something else

Tbh eggs are all I lived off for a long time lmao because it was the only food I didn't have any stigma towards

muscles weigh more than fat and that seems to be what you're going for. it's not about what's on the scale, it's about your personal goals for how you want parts of your body to look. i really understand hating your body but just know that simply bc it's not at your ideal, it doesn't mean it's not already amazing

Fuckboy Drag King

Yeah hopefully. Just so terrified of gaining weight I guess. It's always what made sex so off putting too, like good god why would anyone want to see this body? It's incomplete? It's not where it should be so why would it be good enough?

this is a massive mood, i cant give much advice on this but when im having good moments i usually put off that kinda dysphoria by just thinking 'how my body is right now is temporary, as a being im more than how it is now, and i will be how im supposed to be eventually'

19:50

doesnt always work but can just be helpful to remind yourself that your body is a small part of who you really are, and while thay small part can be stressful af, its also going to be better one day

Bodies are easily the weirdest thing about the human condition honestly

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not too get personal, but when we were together, i couldn't think of a reason to dislike the non-dysphoric parts of your body (no idea if that makes sense). i never thought you had too much fat or that you looked like anything but a man. to me, you looked lean, muscular, and frankly pretty damn amazing. ofc, that's not what your own mind tells you and idk if this is even helpful to hear but that's my take on you

Thank you, genuinely. Means an awful lot, we all know how hard it is to love your body and I just hate that I am also one of those people if that makes sense. I wish I could wake up and just think, yeah, that looks good, rather than like "does this make me look too X?" or whatever

19:55

Even now after eating it's so ingrained in me after eating an actual meal to go and burn the calories that I'm trying to talk myself out of going for a run even though I'm exhausted.

19:55

Oh my beloved therapist why did you say I was better and you'll talk to me in a month

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I'm sure if you need to contact them sooner you can?

19:56

Put some fucking comfy clothes on and get into bed you stupid boy

19:56

No running just nap

can you distract yourself with some other kind of self care? listening to some music, reading a book, watching a show you like?

Nah I don't actually need her lmao I am doing a lot better generally, we just never really covered body stuff because I never thought it was an issue until recently

19:57

Imagine self care we die like men in 5 degrees in running shorts

DO YOU NOT OWN JOGGERS

NO FEELING THE AIR ON YOUR SKIN IS BETTER

NOT IN 5 DEGREE WEATHER IT ISN'T

id say id chase you and make you sit down but i dont walk that fast ~~yet~~

might compromise and go for a small walk instead

19:58

and i will wear clothes

19:58

(some)

Thank you for the clarification you're not gonna start streaking lmfao

Honestly one of these days it'll probably happen

I mean that's one way to inspire confidence in your body I guess

i need to invest in a net

Twice last night someone invited me into the toilets with them, I thought Oh? and it was literally just to hold their stuff whilst they pissed. Now that might not seem relevant, but I saw so much of one man I'm not sure I'm the same

E r i n

i need to invest in a net

What?

no streaking

20:00

i usually support crimes but thats such a boring one

What're you gonna do try and catch him??

20:01

Tbf if I was gonna get arrested that's probably what it'd be for lmao

i feel like saying yes makes this sound more concerning

Honestly if she ever sees me sprinting down wilberforce road in absolutely nothing I absolutely advise for her to go inside her house and call the police

why would i call the police

20:03

i dont want stiches

be gay do crime except its some mentally unstable bi man running down wilberforce road in the nude

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Not very good with discussions of eds but I'm here if you ever need to chat or vent or just want some support. I'm always open to having a chat over the phone too if you just need to hear a voice. I really hope you get all the help you need, darling. Love yous. (edited)

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Anonymous Confession (#761)

"one of my housemates does not know who hitler was, what nazis are, or anything about that kind of thing. not really a vent just... I feel like I need to teach them, but I'm not sure if it's right to, and they do not want to anyway. Still just... it still kind surprises me"

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Wha

How tf

huh?!?!?

21:31

ho

21:31

how

Where are they from?

That battle between needing to go to the dentist but preferring the occasional toothache if it means I don't have to spend that much money on extractions

ik it's a lot of money and it's bs that it's not covered under the NHS but teeth are smth you should take incredibly seriously

11:35

the roots and nerves are connected to the rest of your head and a particularly bad infection can cause blindness, brain damage etc.

11:35

this isn't to scare you but to just make sure you know to get stuff checked out if it looks bad

Oh dw it's not an infection or anything I'm not that dumb

11:40

It's just issues with crowding post-wisdom but other than that I look after my teeth and gums

11:43

Girls got enough

health anxiety

to know when to do something lmao

oh that should be ok unless you have trouble eatint

11:44

they won't really take it up until it's a problem

Anonymous Confession (#762)

"i got drunk and ordered sex toys last night pls someone dont let me have money anymore ty"

ngl definitely more destructive ways to spend money

14:13

still do be careful

here if you ever need someone to drink with but make sure youre safe

OP now you have to tell us which sex toys lmao

oh fuck yeah this ^

praying it's a monstrous Bad Dragon anal plug

odds on it being that remote controlled vibrator?

hot

vibrating anal beads that help you win chess championships

only correct purchase ^

Concerning

Ripfangs

vibrating anal beads that help you win chess championships

why is this so specific

it happened

Wait wtf

someone used it to cheat a chess tournament

WHAT

How does that let you cheat wtf

How can you focus on chess w something up your ass

someone sent specific vibrations that communicated where they should move the pieces

mahariel

why is this so specific

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Holy shit

i

14:33

ok

14:33

respect the grind

I love being the one to introduce people to cursed things that actually happened

That's not cursed it's perfect

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the accusation is like the bead that vibrates is the piece and the number of vibrations is the tile

15:07

it's such a funny bit

that is genius though ngl

15:07

idk how they thought of that but its so clever

15:08

actually i can probably guess how they thought of that

it didn't actually happen, sorry for spoiling the magic

:(

15:09

someones definitely gonna try that now though

or, like, it probably didn't happen haha, the game was called off like 3 moves in

15:09

hmmm

imagine working really hard to win only for people to accuse you of cheating anally

honestly imagine winninh and no one finds out though (edited)

15:11

id prefer the credit for the cheating idea ngl

biiiiit morbid but i just set my siblings as the beneficiaries for my pension fund and Death in Service clause. if anything happens to me, they'll get a 50% payouts each of 3x my salary (+ the pension fund). so technically, that would cover each of their uni tuitions lol

Oh man

not really a vent, more just an interesting little tidbit

My siblings would be lucky to get a tenner off me

that is a bit morbid, but genuinely thats such a kind thing to think about despite how dark of a thing it is

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i used to work in a factory and i had to fill out a form saying who would get the compensation money if i was killed by the machinery lmao

ive got a will hanging around somewhere and its got a last fuck you to my father in ngl

15:16

basically 'give the money you owe me to a lgbtqia+ charity you asshole'

it's a difficult thing to think about but working in the finance industry has made me realise how important naming beneficiaries in your will is. bc if you don't pick specific people, the government will decide for you through their intestacy system. if you don't have a spouse or kids, your money goes to your parents. if you have no living relatives, they go to the Crown. so make sure to do this otherwise your estate might go to someone you despise or the government (edited)

last time i thought about writing a will i wasnt old enough. guess i could write one now that i am 18 though

the government is included in the someone i despise section

no way am i giving my parents a single penny lol

but yeah thats honestly really good advice

mahariel

no way am i giving my parents a single penny lol

imagine having money to give

Amelia - iced coffee enthusiast

i used to work in a factory and i had to fill out a form saying who would get the compensation money if i was killed by the machinery lmao

fucking ouch

E r i n

basically 'give the money you owe me to a lgbtqia+ charity you asshole'

you can also leave as much money as you want to charity

E r i n

the government is included in the someone i despise section

mood

mine basically just said 'if anyone wants any of my stuff for memories suck, sure, here who has priority the rest idc about, sell the rest and give it to my housemates to pay off any rent until they find a replacement housemate or void the contract, then any leftover goes to charity. the money my father owes me is (insert amount), make sure he donates it to a lgbtqia+ charity.'

15:20

bit longer than that but basically just covering up loose ends

I don’t think I have enough money that it’s make a difference tbh

E r i n

mine basically just said 'if anyone wants any of my stuff for memories suck, sure, here who has priority the rest idc about, sell the rest and give it to my housemates to pay off any rent until they find a replacement housemate or void the contract, then any leftover goes to charity. the money my father owes me is (insert amount), make sure he donates it to a lgbtqia+ charity.'

you'll need to get it signed by 2 witnesses (who aren't named in your will) + a lawyer to make it legally valid I'm afraid

E r i n

ive got a will hanging around somewhere and its got a last fuck you to my father in ngl

Remember kids, if you want to spite someone who could otherwise reasonably stand to inherit stuff in your will, leave them like, 1 penny That way they can't contest it by claiming you probably just forgot to put them in

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ahh good to know

Ripfangs

Remember kids, if you want to spite someone who could otherwise reasonably stand to inherit stuff in your will, leave them like, 1 penny That way they can't contest it by claiming you probably just forgot to put them in

fuck thats genius

15:22

good to know tysm

give everything i have to the NPA

my mother and father are getting a pittance, to be paid out in 10 installments of 1/10 of a pittance each

mahariel

you'll need to get it signed by 2 witnesses (who aren't named in your will) + a lawyer to make it legally valid I'm afraid

mine was a hasty thing and i didnt know much about the process, just presumed my next of kin would be given some sense of authority

E r i n

fuck thats genius

That way it's clear that you very deliberately did think of them and definitely didn't want them to have any more

mahariel

my mother and father are getting a pittance, to be paid out in 10 installments of 1/10 of a pittance each

this is brilliant im stealing that ty

Ripfangs

That way it's clear that you very deliberately did think of them and definitely didn't want them to have any more

can you just say 'give them whatever toilet paper i have left' instead?

15:23

still includes them

Perhaps I'm no legally qualified advisor for this sort of thing so always do your own research

'give them the biggest toe nail on my left foot'

15:24

gonna hire a lawyer specifically to figure out how to spite my father

ty i stole it from Futurama

E r i n

this is brilliant im stealing that ty

this i mean lol

legal help is so fucking expensive tho

b finish your degree i need your help

15:25

ill buy you a twix or something

Bran is my lawyer on retainer

cost £250 for solicitors to do the deed poll

you can do an unenrolled deedpoll for free

his retainer is a shot of alcohol per week

E r i n

you can do an unenrolled deedpoll for free

already done it

most companies and organisations accept it

15:26

ahh nice

the UK Deed Poll service costs like £50

15:26

and is fully legally valid

mahariel

his retainer is a shot of alcohol per week

ngl thought you meant shot like a vaccine for a moment

E r i n

gonna hire a lawyer specifically to figure out how to spite my father

https://www.thelawsuperstore.co.uk/wills-probate/help-and-advice/how-cut-someone-out-will-disinheritance

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you can use that to change all of your documents including passport and driver's licence

Ripfangs

https://www.thelawsuperstore.co.uk/wills-probate/help-and-advice/how-cut-someone-out-will-disinheritance

this is very cool ty

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unenrolled still works for drivers liscence (and passport i think)

you need like witnesses who arent in your family who have known you for 10 years and other annoying shit so its easier to get a solicitor to do it

15:27

and i wanted enrolled

ahh fair

and thankfully my parents are supportive so they paid it

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im still waiting a year for the gender recognition certificate, then need to turn up at my old high school and grab a teacher

15:28

granted gonna freak the fuck out of said teacher because i havent spoken to any of them in years and they dont know ive transitioned

15:28

but hey

my college was weird and didnt do an end of year party shit this year and instead are holding one in december when people have already left for uni..?

I can't remember if my college did that sort of thing, definitely didn't when I left because plague

i probably wont go to it but if i did it would be funny because i didnt come out to people there lmao

im up for hire to go to peoples reunions and stuff

15:32

i can pretend to be you

yeah sure

15:34

people probably wouldnt even notice

will they question you talking about the persian invasions of greece a lot?

15:37

probably not but couldnt hurt to be prepared

Amelia - iced coffee enthusiast

i used to work in a factory and i had to fill out a form saying who would get the compensation money if i was killed by the machinery lmao

I had a fill out a form like this for my job it was so morbid I put it off for like a week

also it was a meat factory, which is ironic since im a vegetarian but i like having money so

i refuse to die don’t make me think about what will happen when I die

had to fill out form saying i wont take pictures or talk to like animal rights activist groups and shit

they were going to make u into the pies

today is a trying day :)

Anonymous Confession (#763)

"one of them weird egg ones you put up in you and you have the remote to control it but like I could've picked smth cooler"

oh those

what weird egg ones

16:17

how do you put an egg in you

16:17

wouldn't that just get sucked up? like you wouldn't be able to get it back out?

theyre egg shaped, you lube it and put it in. it has this plastic thready thing to pull out

16:18

kinda like the end of anal beads

huh ok lmaoo

konk

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shut lmfao

16:21

do not take the egg

Might be tmi but I get my period next week after my doctor suggested that I switch from 21 days pill, 7 day break to 63 days pill, 7 day break to see if it would make things easier. But now its been that 3 packs in a row and I have to have the break I can feel my whole body going oh fuck no please this can't be good

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not tmi dw, hope it doesn't fuck you up too badly

mumblingmiss

Might be tmi but I get my period next week after my doctor suggested that I switch from 21 days pill, 7 day break to 63 days pill, 7 day break to see if it would make things easier. But now its been that 3 packs in a row and I have to have the break I can feel my whole body going oh fuck no please this can't be good

Hold up, your Dr suggested taking 3 packs of the pill and then break?

Yes

But why?

Bc my period every 21 days was making me v ill so life might be easier if I have it every 63

Which pill do you have if you don’t mind my asking?

Rigevidon

Oh god I am so sorry

13:02

That was my first one too it's horrible

Oh okay, combined

13:02

Erm, yeah I’m sorry

I don't mind I'm mostly used to it now

I stopped taking that 3 years ago because it was fucking me up (as it does, lots of people) and I was just surprised that a Dr would suggest taking it for that amount of time before a break

It's very common

13:04

Some people take it continuously and only take a 4 day break if they bleed

Same tbf ~ I was on desogestrel and it's easier but also bc it's not combined it didn't totally fuck me up? But they let me have it w no breaks but wouldn't when I was on yours

13:05

Mine lasted about a week on that but better than the 12 days I had naturally so eh

12 days?

13:05

Jeez I thought my 8 was bad

My body isn't my biggest fan

I used to bleed for 2 weeks but now I bleed for about 2-3 days

Apparently mine are due to get worse

2 weeks would wipe me out omg

Fair, I mean if it’s helping you then that’s good

I'm just bracing myself for this one then I can go back on the pill and hopefully be okay again

I wasn't a human in highschool lmao

If not just sleep w afab people ig

LoLo <3

If not just sleep w afab people ig

?

13:06

Oh syncing?

I feel like I never to talk about my period with anyone lmao

Roux

?

I meant more in terms of not getting pregnant

13:10

While I really want a baby I'm 20 and can't afford it lmao

Wanting a baby and wanting a hysterectomy at the same time is my issue

No bc actually same

13:11

I wanna adopt

Ugh spawn

But at the same time

13:12

Ahhhh I wanna be a mum

Genuinely, after working in childcare. No.

Ngl Lo let's get married and adopt kids

Can we

Yes

constant conflict between wanting to have a child but knowing its an awful idea

Let's take turns getting a hysterectomy so when one of us is healed the other can get it (edited)

I like spending my own money on myself, travelling wherever and whenever I want, working at a super awesome job without worry and rescuing animals that may not like children and we bond over that aspect

honestly fair

13:14

thats the kind of life style i want to, but then every now and then wanting to be a mother kicks me in the face

If I were to have kids I think I'd probably want to foster Give some queer kids a good home

Yeah I mean potentially foster and/or adopt kids, maybe, possibly, though it’s very unlikely. I just want a huge house with lots of unwanted maybe injured animals and I will love them and give them a great place to live out their days

I just can't imagine not having a big family w lots of kids, I'm from such a huge family it seems weird

I'm an only child but I want 2/3 kids

13:17

Be them from me or adopted or fostered idm

13:17

But I had a stupid dream I had like 5 kids

13:17

And ahhhh I want a baby

Let's go Lo

mumblingmiss

I just can't imagine not having a big family w lots of kids, I'm from such a huge family it seems weird

Same, I think? I’m one of 4

13:19

And like millions of cousins

13:19

Not quite

I'm one of 6 lmao

I've only got 1 sibling Got a fair amount of cousins but they all live in Wales so I don't see them that often

I mean I have childcare qualifications and nannying exp, I like looking after kids sometimes I just like to hand them back

mumblingmiss

I'm one of 6 lmao

Nice

Most of coastal north norfolk is my family

Go to be very wary of inbreeding over here

my family is a major reason why i think i shouldnt have kids lmao

If you want to make a tinder account in Norfolk you gotta include a link to your ancestry.com account

Tehe, I have a whole Irish side of the family that I have never met and who probably don’t know me so I’ve always been wary of Irish folk named Delaney

13:22

Oh shit sorry I’m doing that thing again

My ex's family were kicked out of Ireland bc someone punched a priest lmao

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Roux

Tehe, I have a whole Irish side of the family that I have never met and who probably don’t know me so I’ve always been wary of Irish folk named Delaney

cough

13:22

my last name is Delaney bahahaha

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Moved to Yorkshire and then had a fight up there so now they're in Surrey

ACertainSaffron

my last name is Delaney bahahaha

Cuz?

ACertainSaffron

my last name is Delaney bahahaha

~~That's Norfolk for you~~

Roux

Cuz?

omg

Holy shit

All I know is that in the early 1940’s?! Maybe. My great granny met this Irishman and she fell pregnant but they were out of wedlock so it was very taboo and her parents said she had to give him up. She was from Liverpool and he went to live in an orphanage there, she would send him photos and presents but we basically never knew my grandad’s dad apart from that his surname was Delaney and he had a wife and kids back in Ireland so took off when he found out great granny was preggers

13:26

My grandad then moved to Derbyshire where he met my Nan and blah blah here I am wanting to fill in the gaps of the family history

my mum did a really elaborate family tree for her side many years ago

13:27

managed to contact loads of people who we didn't even know about lol

13:28

and my dad's side is unknown because my late grandmother was an orphan and my granddad doesn't really talk about it so

‍♀️

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my uncle has done a really good job piecing together our family tree and managed to follow the tree back quite far

13:29

i should message him and get a copy

Interesting

13:29

I’m always so fascinated by this stuff

ACertainSaffron

and my dad's side is unknown because my late grandmother was an orphan and my granddad doesn't really talk about it so

‍♀️

Omg wait, what if we have the same great grandad?

I mean

13:31

it's possible ig

13:31

he was an irishman called delaney

13:31

that's all I know, but I could probably find out more

went to the GP 2 days ago to ask for a referral to a gender identity clinic, jumped through hoops and invasive questions with the GP, who concluded (paraphrased) "let's put the gender dysphoria to one side, and focus on your depression, I'm going to refer you to a very good psychiatrist in the city, his waiting list is only a month and he has much more experience". I asked for a referral in the appointment and I've been tossed into the mental health system instead. Wonderful. Is this psychiatrist specialised in gender? Will he actually listen to me? Will I even get the fucking email that the GP said he'd send right away and it's been 2 days with no email or text? Apparently saying I've only known I was trans for a year makes me a special fucking case that doesn't get instantly referred, I'll go fuck myself I guess. I'm just tired of it all.

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13:49

Tempted to just make a second appointment with a different GP and be much more insistent on being put on the waiting list

13:51

also such helpful advice as "have you tried exercise" or "make sure you sleep well" when I made it abundantly clear that my depression is caused by my gender dysphoria, like saying 'oh just cheer up' god it was patronising

im sorry

13:53

the system is so fucked

moreover there's part of me that's terrified it's been sent to a parent's email instead because where the hell is this email I've been promised?? I watched him write the damn thing

13:56

realistically I dont see how it could, but it's just something in the back of my mind

im sorry, its such a stupid process and can be fucked over by treatment like that so easily, its honestly a bit out of order how youve been treated. i would recommend making another appointment with a different gp, it does seem like they just refused to listen to you and not even explore what you outright said was the cause, and thats not how youre supposed to be treated at all

Oh darling I'm really sorry

the healthcare system doesn't seem to get it when it comes to gender it's really shit. Do you know which psychiatrist you're being sent to? Maybe you could look into them beforehand so you know a bit more what to expect? I understand depression being a concern but if your needing a referral is contributing to that they need to take that into account too. It has only been 2 days and being a weekend I wouldn't stress it too much, GP surgeries are under a lot of stress and everything is slowed a little over the weekend. I'd chase up the email tomorrow if you haven't got a reply by say lunchtime? I doubt they'll have sent it to your parents, if you're over 16 they need explicit consent to do that I believe. It doesn't matter how long you've been out to yourself, you're seeking a referral, they should be able to put you on a waiting list. See what the email says first but if it's not fulfilling what you need I agree with Erin, try and see a different GP and push for what you need. Wish you all the best baby, we're here if you need any support

LoLo <3

Oh darling I'm really sorry

the healthcare system doesn't seem to get it when it comes to gender it's really shit. Do you know which psychiatrist you're being sent to? Maybe you could look into them beforehand so you know a bit more what to expect? I understand depression being a concern but if your needing a referral is contributing to that they need to take that into account too. It has only been 2 days and being a weekend I wouldn't stress it too much, GP surgeries are under a lot of stress and everything is slowed a little over the weekend. I'd chase up the email tomorrow if you haven't got a reply by say lunchtime? I doubt they'll have sent it to your parents, if you're over 16 they need explicit consent to do that I believe. It doesn't matter how long you've been out to yourself, you're seeking a referral, they should be able to put you on a waiting list. See what the email says first but if it's not fulfilling what you need I agree with Erin, try and see a different GP and push for what you need. Wish you all the best baby, we're here if you need any support

Do you know which psychiatrist you're being sent to? Maybe you could look into them beforehand so you know a bit more what to expect?

haha nope, the GP has been totally non-contact

14:01

no clue who I'm being thrown to

14:01

I guess tho

i have actually just been referred to a psychiatrist by my gp as well actually because of gender dysphoria? not sure its the same one though

no I do agree with you Lo, it's just a little exhausting. The implication was that I might not know for certain because I haven't known I was a girl since I was 3 months old or whatever

14:04

and I had to tread around the conversation because that's just how healthcare professionals are with gender, so my wording was clunky and not wholly accurate

14:04

and for some reason my sexuality was relevant

that is ao dismissive wtf

14:05

im so sorry you had to deal with that

Wow heaven forbid you need to get to a place in your life where you have the capacity to explore gender like that and didn't have the luxury of knowing since you were young wtf kind of privileged perspective is that

they dont seem to be dealing with it particularly well imo, im not an expert obviously but i would say its worth considering getting another gps opinion

I'm so fucking sorry

honestly i just had vague ideas of not being satisfied with my assigned gender when i was younger, and only started questioning it in my teen years, there isnt a timer on this, thats lesson number one

ACertainSaffron

and I had to tread around the conversation because that's just how healthcare professionals are with gender, so my wording was clunky and not wholly accurate

yeah sometimes it does feel like trying to explain the combustion engine to a dog

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Okay love that analogy wtf

E r i n

honestly i just had vague ideas of not being satisfied with my assigned gender when i was younger, and only started questioning it in my teen years, there isnt a timer on this, thats lesson number one

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14:09

"Every boy wants to be a girl" teen -> "AAAAAAAAAA" young adult pipeline (edited)

Lmao I had the opposite like ohhh life would be so much easier if I was a boy but at the same time wanting to present hyper feminine like what is gender anyway

14:11

I'm probably closest to demigirl but I tell people I'm cis bc it's easier lmao

I've had this wonderful combination of 2 brothers, all boys school in a conservative area, no part time job, apathy for how I look, no interest in others, and living in a village

14:12

the peak of my teenage experimentation was choosing a female character in skyrim

moood

14:13

like exactly that except the all boys school

how tf do gender segregated schools still exist in the 21st century

but you are who you are, fuck that doctor, youre amazing and you know yourself

i hope you get a gp thatll actually listen if you do get another appointment, im sorry you didnt this time

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mochim30Froglove

14:14

thank you everyone, I just needed to get that off me

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14:14

if this person I'm being referred to is specialised in gender I'll go along with it

14:14

otherwise fuck that

Amelia - iced coffee enthusiast

how tf do gender segregated schools still exist in the 21st century

'I don't want you getting distracted by boys while you're doing important exams' ~ my parents LITTLE DID THEY KNOW

uh oh

hmm lets segregate schools by gender and dont teach sex education im sure this will not lead to consequences later on in peoples lives

also sorry for the different topic but: TW: weight buying scales may have been a bad idea :) just checked and ive reached my lowest weight since i was a child, about 50.15kg. my doctor was worried enough when i was at 53kg, and referred me to an eating disorder clinic when i reached 51kg. Whats really frustrating is that i thought i was making progress, last time I checked i was back up to 52kg roughly, so this kinda sucks

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wait 53kg is worthy of doctor concern

14:17

I'm 53kg

with my height and exercise level they were concerned

I'm 6' and do no exercise?

idk they thought it was something i needed to start focusing on, 51kg became a big worry for them

anyway I'm really sorry

ahh im 5ft 11/10 but i do a lot of walking (edited)

14:18

and was trying to get into running at the time

i need to start doing exercise and lose weight

Progress in this stuff is hard, I'm proud of you for putting the work in, gaining weight is hard

i dont really care much about my weight until it becomes a concern tbh, numbers have never really bothered me

14:20

just frustrating that im actually going backwards when i thought i was going forward, just another thing i need to be aware of and work on now, alongside everything else lmao

14:21

whoever designed this body did not beta test it properly

One thing that really helped me was setting alarms to remind myself to eat idk if that would work for you but while you're struggling it could be something that helps idk

idk i ignore my alarms most of the time unless its something important

14:23

i mean im still over 50kg so i can donate blood which is good

E r i n

just frustrating that im actually going backwards when i thought i was going forward, just another thing i need to be aware of and work on now, alongside everything else lmao

as someone who habitually skips/half-asses meals I know it's really difficult, but if you feel you were going forward then there's something you're doing right in there! It can be a lot sometimes though mochim30Froglove

mochim30Froglove

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Amelia - iced coffee enthusiast

i need to start doing exercise and lose weight

you do not need to lose weight, and you should only do exercise if it makes you feel happy, not as some chore to punish yourself with (edited)

well i feel unhappy with my body so i just want to work to improve that

Exercise should come from a point of loving your body, not hating it. Sure, it's good to work on yourself and get to a point within yourself that you're happy with, but not if it's to the detriment of your health. We care about you, please do this stuff carefully, okay?

every time i think about quitting smoking, sadness hits and i realise I'm not doing that lol

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16:34

it's the best and quickest pick me up when smth gets me down :/

16:35

"ahh stab in the heart", start smoking, "oh wait nvm my brain is swirling in circles"

im sorry, its not nice to have to use stuff like that to feel okay, here to talk if you ever want or need a distraction

im very much not equipped to give advice on smoking in any way, but i do hope youre feeling okay (or as okay as possible) right now

i should be fine haha. it is what it is

16:38

thank you darling

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I mean do what you need to do to cope but if you want to stop we can find ways to help you do that maybe?

i think the NHS has an app to help quit smoking where you can track how many days you havent smoked for and stuff

16:43

im not really able to give advice on smoking either and would probably come across as condescending if i tried

no it's alright, it's a stupid habit

16:49

one i shouldn't be doing at all bc asthma and my chest feeling inflamed all the time but will kick it somehow

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mahariel

one i shouldn't be doing at all bc asthma and my chest feeling inflamed all the time but will kick it somehow

hows about we try quitting together

mahariel

one i shouldn't be doing at all bc asthma and my chest feeling inflamed all the time but will kick it somehow

yeah thats bad

HarryJack

hows about we try quitting together

you say as you bought two vapes right in front of me a couple hours back lmao

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16:51

but we could do tbh

this is why i say we should try together, social pressure better than death pressure lol (edited)

can't have you beating me at smth smh

exactly hehe

16:52

one thing i can count on is being overly competetive

same here

16:52

en garde

couldnt beat me at monopoly cant beat me at this

all my pods have broken so slowly weaning myself off with the singular mostly empty disposable i have

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HarryJack

couldnt beat me at monopoly cant beat me at this

bet

16:53

mahariel

bet

HarryJack

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16:55

God gives his silliest battles to His most tragic of clowns

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you may have the advantage here bc i respect making gifs of yourself

mahariel

you may have the advantage here bc i respect making gifs of yourself

when youve got moves like that i feel obligated to share them with the world

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I shouldn't have opened this there's a lot of jesus

Where would be better for religious conversations

mahariel

me: God pls give me a sign God:

mumblingmiss

I shouldn't have opened this there's a lot of jesus

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bah, abrahamism, back in my day you'd throw captured soldiers into a bog for a blessed harvest and it never did us any harm

Jesus is my ex

HarryJack

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Psalms 139:14 is better smh

mahariel

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if you dont sin then jesus died for nothing

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Anonymous Confession (#767)

"Have my first date in a long time this week and I'm really nervous

"

6

have fun OP!

Jesus just has a pain kink and orgasmed to death

its gonna go great whoever u are :)

Have fun op

Bit of a tone shift but good luck!

im sure youll be okay OP, just try to have fun and not put too much pressure on yourself

17:02

easier said than done but hey

17:02

youve got this

HarryJack

if you dont sin then jesus died for nothing

better to rule in hell than serve in heaven

1

I want a date aaa

mumblingmiss

Jesus just has a pain kink and orgasmed to death

didnt actually die on the cross just orgasmsed so hard he passed out and took him 3 days to wake up

becoming ultra-Catholic to get through October

HarryJack

didnt actually die on the cross just orgasmsed so hard he passed out and took him 3 days to wake up

I have that effect on people

Brandon where's our date you little skank

mahariel

becoming ultra-Catholic to get through October

Fuckboy Drag King

Brandon where's our date you little skank

Dw I'll date you

1

Fuckboy Drag King

Brandon where's our date you little skank

we had different strategies

mumblingmiss

Dw I'll date you

A terrible decision really

mahariel

becoming ultra-Catholic to get through October

Dont think I can get any more catholic

mine was to make a move then run away, yours was more... direct

E r i n

mine was to make a move then run away, yours was more... direct

dw Erin when you reach my age you just stop beating around the bush and just go for it

Fuckboy Drag King

A terrible decision really

Not my first

1

yeah i get dates

from the date palm

They'll turn me down because I'm comp sci

ah cool its an age thing

no it's not but it sounded cool to say

just need to wait it out

17:05

fuck

17:05

i have a better idea

17:05

@ everyone who wants to date

it's fine you're a pretty girl you'll be asked out

Grow old with me, I dare you

simply believe you are an incorruptible beacon of beauty and you will gain enough confidence to ask anyone for anything

mumblingmiss

Not my first

I'll be the next bad decision

pick you up at 7

Fuckboy Drag King

I'll be the next bad decision

pick you up at 7

See you soon :)))

1

yes but that requires confidence, something i currently lack

I'll be your wingman next time we go out

Amelia - iced coffee enthusiast

yeah i get dates

from the date palm

where do you find the warm climate and calcium carbonate heavy sandy loam for date palms in this county, asking for a friend

a couple of "have you met Erin?"s and you'll have to beat the people after you away with a bat

17:08

you're gorgeous and a lovely person darling. what's not to like?

mahariel

a couple of "have you met Erin?"s and you'll have to beat the people after you away with a bat

I'm gonna date everyone here and it'll be a roulette for who I stay with

lmao that would end badly probably

Am I misremembering or did you have a date Erin?

rhetorical question, do not think badly of yourself

mumblingmiss

I'm gonna date everyone here and it'll be a roulette for who I stay with

better be russian roulette

eris

where do you find the warm climate and calcium carbonate heavy sandy loam for date palms in this county, asking for a friend

ok i dont even get those kind of dates

1

i did, but i dont think im into them romantically

1

Fuckboy Drag King

better be russian roulette

Only if you're the bullet

mumblingmiss

Only if you're the bullet

I can be a bullet for you sweetheart

HarryJack

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went amazingly last time as you can tell from the rundown i gave you lmao

Amelia - iced coffee enthusiast

ok i dont even get those kind of dates

the tesco near here sells boxes for 2 pound

Fuckboy Drag King

I can be a bullet for you sweetheart

Then I'm here to get shot

1

mahariel

went amazingly last time as you can tell from the rundown i gave you lmao

people are flirting and its confusing

1

im very tempted to treat myself to a box of dates one time

E r i n

people are flirting and its confusing

best way to solve that is to start flirting with everyone yourself

i try

how tf do you even flirt

I can't help it @Fuckboy Drag King is hot

1

Amelia - iced coffee enthusiast

how tf do you even flirt

Amelia - iced coffee enthusiast

how tf do you even flirt

if you want the real advice, it's to go and compliment them and then guage from there

mumblingmiss

I can't help it @Fuckboy Drag King is hot

What can I say seeing you in your danganronpa cosplay got me acting different

If I let enough words come out of my mouth eventually I will say the right thing

or whatever tory yoda said yes

1

will straight up have 'practice' dates on people if they want

hey CB should we take Erin on a date with us

Fuckboy Drag King

What can I say seeing you in your danganronpa cosplay got me acting different

That's all I've ever wanted to hear

1

Fuckboy Drag King

hey CB should we take Erin on a date with us

Absolutely

arent i already enagaged to you cb?

Yes, wifey

Should've known it was too good to be true

17:13

Are boys allowed in CB's harem or

Only you :))))

Bc you best boy

1

cb always says that, thats how they get you

me surrounded by pretty girls oh noo

17:13

whatever will I do noo

What a tragedy

You attract what you're most scared of

17:14

And I am deathly afraid of attractive women

~~hook line and sinker~~

1

hi

1

17:14

its a wip but hi

1

Oh no Erin you're so scary

17:15

please don't go on a date with me noo

ok

well played

that was mean im sorry lmao

flirting in the depression channel just describes this friend group perfectly

4

thats how this works

that entire meme of "no you're too sexy to be depressed haha" is just this gc ngl

3

If you feel bad, hit me up

ill fix you all

17:16

well i say fix, i mean make worse, but it might be fun? hmu xoxo

At least she's honest

i refuse to let you have a saviour complex

17:17

trust me, you will want to throw yourself off the nearest cliff

nah i have a god complex

i can be your nightmare ex

2

even the bot hates me

Mmmm honey you sad?

teehee I'll cheer you up

Amelia - iced coffee enthusiast

i can be your nightmare ex

How could I even refuse such an offer

my iconic text just vanished

1

i know im an idiot but i also think i can do literally anything just by being a stubborn bitch

mahariel

my iconic text just vanished

literally 1984

17:18

it got memory holed :(

honestly? winning mindset

17:19

i think i can do literally anything just by proclaiming myself a god in my own mind

17:19

prescribing you all with delusions of grandeur

17:19

take one 3 times a day for eternal happiness

Anonymous Confession (#768)

"Are flowers too much for a first date?"

if i received flowers i would melt

Confessions

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ehh depends on how much you like them. i gave a date a rose on the 2nd date bc i really liked them but your mileage may vary

i more just ram my head up against a wall until something (ideally good, but rarely) happens, because if there is a chance i can make something better then i have to take it

if they're a friend you know well then go for it

17:20

tinder date? maybe hold off

mahariel

if they're a friend you know well then go for it

id second this if its first time properly seeing them then might come on a little strong

Probably also depends what you're doing on said date

17:21

If you're going like 0g's trampolining maybe not?

honestly the advice is always give is just be honest to yourself, you want them to know and like who you are, so dont push yourself to do something you think isnt natural to you

But if it's like coffee or dinner or something, could be cute

flowers are a bit overrated, they'll probably throw them out after a while so

don't go overboard for a 1st date

or theyll eat them

are you dating a goat

mahariel

flowers are a bit overrated, they'll probably throw them out after a while so

don't go overboard for a 1st date

if someone bought me flowers on a second date id fall in love with them there and then, no one ever gets guys flowers :((

the goat ideally

what if your date is a bee?

HarryJack

if someone bought me flowers on a second date id fall in love with them there and then, no one ever gets guys flowers :((

lmao the person i got my flowers for was a guy. you just have to go on dates with the right person

2

1

buy plastic flowers on dates that's my take

17:24

or a pot plant

17:25

something you can keep

17:25

i feel awful throwing out flowers

Better yet take them to a fucking garden centre man

17:25

Buy them a 30 pound ceramic pot

Fuckboy Drag King

Better yet take them to a fucking garden centre man

go and look at all the fish together :)

Actually cute idea tbf

buy them a cute mug

or move to the woods with them and live a cottagecore life with a garden full of flowers

call me a cynic but i just advise against investing too much in anyone until you're 100% sure

generally i just buy them a drink instead

17:27

then you can judge their taste too

what would you consider bad drinks

17:27

what are red flag drinks

idk ngl

what more could a person want than drinks and flowers

flowers that last

also make first dates smth you can bail out of if they're boring or weird

but isnt their beauty in that they dont last

mahariel

also make first dates smth you can bail out of if they're boring or weird

omg absolutely this

HarryJack

but isnt their beauty in that they dont last

noooooo

17:28

it makes me sad

as a very paranoid person thats a requirement

eris

what are red flag drinks

My mate took a girl on a date and all she bought was VKs at like 6pm and that seems incredibly odd to me

mahariel

also make first dates smth you can bail out of if they're boring or weird

probably more likely that they would bail on me

Fuckboy Drag King

My mate took a girl on a date and all she bought was VKs at like 6pm and that seems incredibly odd to me

hmm, ok you make a very good point

i also recommend making a system with a close friend that if you send them a message (mine is just an !) they leave it a minute or two then call you feigning a reason for you to leave

Amelia - iced coffee enthusiast

probably more likely that they would bail on me

have a little more faith in yourself. if you can get them talking animatedly with you then you're onto a good thing

pretty basic but i think it works

oh my god blahaj and a raccoon in the new pfp?

E r i n

i also recommend making a system with a close friend that if you send them a message (mine is just an !) they leave it a minute or two then call you feigning a reason for you to leave

also good

yes

E r i n

i also recommend making a system with a close friend that if you send them a message (mine is just an !) they leave it a minute or two then call you feigning a reason for you to leave

damn i would never think of this

also if you don't know them v well then let your friends know where you are and who you're with

17:30

for safety

dating is too scary

mahariel

also if you don't know them v well then let your friends know where you are and who you're with

keknervous

also dont fall for card tricks

go in with the thought that people will be nice. it hasn't failed me

damn i see why people just avoid this shit so much to remember

dates are stressful as fuck, do your best to keep yourself relaxed

17:32

first port of call is to get your head straight and keep your confidence up

yeah i couldn't balance the "i have to have contingencies" with "i have to trust and assume this person is nice"

17:33

it's one or the other or my brain would melt

I remember on my first date we had a third wheel friend with us lmao

they're not mutually exclusive really. take precautions if you don't know them well but 99% of the time, you'll be fine. you like them, they like you, you're on a date, think of them as a puzzle to figure out slowly

mood

i just try to have faith in myself that if something is off, ill know, and have things in place to make sure im okay. makes me feel more comfortable turning that other part of me off for a bit

once you both get past the initial awkwardness, it will go wonderfully

i see

small talk is rather tedious, start asking them about their niche interests

Wtf have I opened this up to

17:36

There’s like 180 messages

17:36

Is everyone okay or are people just hoeing again

people love the opportunity to talk about stuff they don't normally get the chance to and appreciate feeling listened to

Generally slaggery and date advice

platonic dates are a good way to practice tbh, at least in my experience. do a 'date' activity with a friend

Fuckboy Drag King

Generally slaggery and date advice

General slaggery I can do

LoLo <3

Is everyone okay or are people just hoeing again

I'm teaching the kids that dates aren't scary

Date advice perhaps not

17:37

Offer them tea lmao

17:37

About all I got

17:37

Tho tbf I did that to the dealer too so maybe not

By that standard

take their sunglasses

you went on a date with a drug dealer

17:37

i was about to say

E r i n

take their sunglasses

erin have we dated

Fuckboy Drag King

you went on a date with a drug dealer

I would

not that im aware of lmao

E r i n

take their sunglasses

I fuckin will try me baby

E r i n

not that im aware of lmao

I still have your sunshades

17:37

And I am concerned to report they did leave the country with me

i got a replacement pair dw

Still in one piece though

can't date my drug dealer, he's on the run from the cops. biggie baby i need my [redacted]

LoLo <3

I fuckin will try me baby

pls

mahariel

can't date my drug dealer, he's on the run from the cops. biggie baby i need my [redacted]

drug dealers sell sunglasses?!

uhh sure if you ask them i suppose

hot

mahariel

can't date my drug dealer, he's on the run from the cops. biggie baby i need my [redacted]

I’ll be your redacted

"wagwan fam" opens fake designer fanny pack to reveal 200 glasses

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oh fuck

when i was in paris there were just like 1000 street vendors in front of the eiffel tower selling sunglasses

jory im in a room with my housemates please give warnings before talking like that

LoLo <3

I’ll be your redacted

sorry darling don't think you're going to put me in pure euphoria for 8 hours straight followed by 48 hours of wanting to [disconnect from server]

E r i n

jory im in a room with my housemates please give warnings before talking like that

i will not

1

mahariel

sorry darling don't think you're going to put me in pure euphoria for 8 hours straight followed by 48 hours of wanting to [disconnect from server]

Euphoria for 8 hours? Wanna bet?

mahariel

sorry darling don't think you're going to put me in pure euphoria for 8 hours straight followed by 48 hours of wanting to [disconnect from server]

mahariel

sorry darling don't think you're going to put me in pure euphoria for 8 hours straight followed by 48 hours of wanting to [disconnect from server]

wow what a euphemism

who needs drugs when you have horny

1

coomer erin

coomer?

ohh

E r i n

coomer?

sorry im chronically online

nah i just googled it

17:44

i am the exact opposite lmao

LoLo <3

Euphoria for 8 hours? Wanna bet?

sorry! no hoes, only drugs for a good Christian like me

why cant hoes be a drug

mahariel

sorry! no hoes, only drugs for a good Christian like me

i dont need drugs, im high on these bitches

1

E r i n

why cant hoes be a drug

this is what started all of my problems. resist and find the love of Christ Almighty

impossible

hey erin

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cool raccoon

17:47

wont convince me though

HarryJack

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this is what the DMT angels showed me

1

ah the clockwork elves

the clockwork elves made me shake hands with God before kicking me back down to this accursed battle they call living

E r i n

wont convince me though

how about

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very cute raccoon

17:49

still no

the raccardinal wishes you to convert

im already part of the cult of the raccoons

Erin our next date will be me taking you to the cathedral and watching as we both catch fire

the universe is merely a trash can from which the Great Raccoon will one day collect those they deem as treasure

Simultaneously whilst I pray

E r i n

the universe is merely a trash can from which the Great Raccoon will one day collect those they deem as treasure

i like this lore. I'm adding it to my Better Catholicism world

1

i am a follower of the great prophet zarquon

with the amount of alcohol in my veins i would combust just standing close to a candle, i dont think i can even say that its from me being cursed anymore

1

mahariel

how about

FEAR

Amelia - iced coffee enthusiast

i am a follower of the great prophet zarquon

oh my god you nerd

Fuckboy Drag King

oh my god you nerd

if you understood the reference then you cannot call me a nerd!!

Amelia - iced coffee enthusiast

if you understood the reference then you cannot call me a nerd!!

perhaps!!

am i using religion as a shield against the void? no, it's the cults who are wrong

Not to derail into depression settings again but I was tidying my apartment (massive W) but found a band t-shirt my ex gave me and you know how an item can just bring you back to a certain place in time? The way he apologised, saying he was saving up for the thing I really wanted, and I just ... wasn't good to that boy, despite it all. Too many unworked issues. People deserved better from me back then and I just wasn't where I am now.

3

18:02

Like on one hand, yay for improvement, nay for not doing better.

holy shit its so pink outside

1

Fuckboy Drag King

Not to derail into depression settings again but I was tidying my apartment (massive W) but found a band t-shirt my ex gave me and you know how an item can just bring you back to a certain place in time? The way he apologised, saying he was saving up for the thing I really wanted, and I just ... wasn't good to that boy, despite it all. Too many unworked issues. People deserved better from me back then and I just wasn't where I am now.

Bro just throw it out you don’t need reminders from that stuff if it makes you feel bad

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Anonymous Confession (#769)

"there it is again. that feeling of never being good enough to be cared about that I've missed so much"

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18:05

Anonymous Confession (#770)

"so my ED is back, and anxiety in full swing"

3

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Oh darling I’m so sorry

you’re good enough just the way you are, whatever your head tells you

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LoLo <3

Bro just throw it out you don’t need reminders from that stuff if it makes you feel bad

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Well that's kinda the thing I completely forgot about it, and it's a nice tshirt and the memories (generally) are really pleasant. I was just shocked it hit me, this sort of melancholic self reflection, it's good once in a while, for me at least.

Confessions

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If you ever need to talk my DMs are always open

I’m so sorry you’re struggling again OP baby steps back into it if that’s what you need, just do what you can to take care of yourself

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Fuckboy Drag King

Well that's kinda the thing I completely forgot about it, and it's a nice tshirt and the memories (generally) are really pleasant. I was just shocked it hit me, this sort of melancholic self reflection, it's good once in a while, for me at least.

Fair enough but please don’t beat yourself up on the past. Remember you’re a different person now and while that doesn’t change what happened it doesn’t inhibit your ability to grow from it

1

1

Anonymous Confession (#771)

"Maybe I ask too much of some people. I never had any expectations but here I am shaking my head and laughing to myself again."

3

mood lol

18:21

i knew my consistent happiness had to come down at some point. didn't think i would get hit so hard though

2

18:21

wow we're all going through it today huh

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You’re allowed to put yourself first OP I’m sorry people in your world are making you feel like this

my DMs are open if you need to talk

lowkey panicking that i broke my earbuds by crying on them

18:24

fingers crossed that it's just low battery

18:25

i need to stop listening to songs that make me so utterly sad

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I miss y'all, I wanna squeeze you all tight until the bad feeling juice comes out

1

it's alright CB, i just feel like a doormat

18:32

I'll be fine, everyone else needs help

Let me squeeze you

doesn't mean we can't be here to support you however we can too

18:33

you're a brilliant person that deserves just as much love and care as everyone else here

helping people is the only thing that gives me purpose

Let me s q u e e z e you

whenever someone i care about seems to be feeling like shit, my first instinct is to reach out and comfort

and that's exactly what makes you a great friend who deserves the same

1

1

my fatal flaw, as a Greek tragedy would put it

18:34

i do worry that it'll end up killing me

18:34

but hopefully not

I don't think it will, or at least certainly hope it won't

18:35

you've gotta go out helping me castrate as many tories as we can

18:36

i will also accept stealing someones yacht and accidentally crashing it because you get distracted by cute animal pictures

i just need to cry it out and go to sleep

18:37

so used to this that my brain has a whole routine for it

What's your fav snack

E r i n

you've gotta go out helping me castrate as many tories as we can

slap on the wrist considering

I'm really sorry you're having to deal with this, I do hope you feel better and get some good rest

here if you do want to talk

ffs I'm not meant to be like this. i spent the last few weeks reinventing myself to not be so pathetic

18:39

sleep and I'll be back to it

1

What your fav snack and drink

sorry about this guys

18:47

I'm kicking myself over things i can't really control

mumblingmiss

What your fav snack and drink

i actually have no idea

You never need to apologize, better to vent it out than let it swamp you in your head too much

It’s okay darling it’s not your fault

18:48

It’s okay it’s all going to be okay

Well if you ever have a snack or something that you love when you need comfort lmk girl gonna get a care package

i just wish i was who i see in my head but i suppose you all know what that's like. I'm not the right gender, i hate my body for its proportions. i wish i was the carefree, non-clingy person the dream version of me is. who has so many talents and isn't attached to anything or anyone

3

18:50

addicted to living life to the fullest and not nicotine and getting depressed over things that genuinely do not matter

mumblingmiss

Well if you ever have a snack or something that you love when you need comfort lmk girl gonna get a care package

it's alright but thank you haha. I'll do that for everyone else who's having a tough time though

18:51

no spouse or kids to spend my salary on so friends it is

18:53

i need to fill my calendar up to the brink again. i cleared it this weekend and that wasn't good

It's hard to know the right thing to say when you're saying I'm guessing exactly what a lot of us are also feeling. But I need you to know that you matter. We love you and care about you so so much. It's always hard to be stuck being a person you don't want to be and god knows if I had a solution to that I would spread it far and wide. I'm always here if you need to talk or if you ever want to hear a voice. I hope you can feel happier soon honey

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you're absolutely wonderful, all of you are. i always feel like an attention-seeker when i talk about this stuff but i genuinely appreciate all of your inputs

You're not an attention seeker, you're allowed to let everything out. It's always way better than bottling it all up

honestly it's just difficult to talk about this stuff and be vulnreble to people, I think the brain just tries to make reasons not to by making us worry that we're attention seeking

18:57

i mean, the only attention we're seeking is communication and comfort/help, which is something everyone deserves

1

mahariel

you're absolutely wonderful, all of you are. i always feel like an attention-seeker when i talk about this stuff but i genuinely appreciate all of your inputs

You’re fine darling you’re allowed to talk to people about how you feel it’s healthy

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Anonymous Confession (#772)

"I'm a little bit angry and want to say it to the people who are making me feel this way but I know it's a bad idea and I'll regret it"

3

Instead of telling them you’re angry maybe write down the things you want to say to them and figure out a way to phrase it in a less angry way so you get your point across but from a perspective of fixing it instead of just ranting and moving on? Working through the problems together is always better than being sad about it and continuing a strained environment

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Anonymous Confession (#773)

"It feels like all the progress I've been making in basically everything didn't work. I struggled so much to get things healthier, more stable, and now I find out basically none of it worked. The only difference is that I don't hate who I am, I just hate my body, how I deal with things, and the way the world is right now. I've been stuck in a pit of shittiness for weeks now, I don't even remember when it first started, hoping that short term relief will just buy me time until I have a clear enough head to approach things from a healthy perspective. That's what I always do, and while it is awful until I get to that moment, it usually works. But it feels like as time goes on I'm just recieving more problems, more stress, and so much more pressure. It's been weeks and I have come up with one way that could help me feel better about one problem, even though it is far more likely to make it worse, and I know I'm going to feel awful leading up to it, awful during it, and chances are awful after it. I'm confident eventually I'll get in that state of mind where I can fix things, but short term relief was not supposed to go on this long, nor was I supposed to feel this stuck and drained, and I know I'm gonna regret so much of this in the future but I'm just holding out hope that I'll end up doing what I always do, find something new about myself that keeps me going a bit longer. It's just that this is the first time its not been about me hating myself fully, it's about stuff that is beyond my control, and the problems that keep stacking up are also beyond my control. I'm confident in myself but I know that it's going to take a long time to deal with all this stuff now, and it's honestly scaring me so much now."

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Figuring out what works for you is a journey and not an easy one. I’m glad you’re at a point where you no longer hate your body, that’s a hard point to reach and a brilliant milestone to be at in this stage of your life. Coping mechanisms whatever they might be are usually short term. If you’re struggling with them now though it might be time to look for new ones. Genuinely I found what works best for me is facemasks when I feel bad instead of what I used to do. The cold shocks you and it’s good for your skin etc. there’s a lot in life that we can’t control. It sucks but there’s some comfort in that it’s not your fault. Take some solace in doing what you can to make yourself feel good first. Everyone has a little bit of I want to make the world better in them, but it’s okay if the part of the world you make better is the environment directly surrounding you. Yk how on a plane you have to put your own oxygen mask on first? Make sure you’re in a good place before you take on others’ burdens. I don’t know what it is that’s outside your control you’re referring to so can’t say much on that but trust in knowing who you are and what you want. Circumstances might not change but give yourself a fighting chance to face what you have to face. I’m here for you OP if you need anything

I feel like I can literally feel my period pulling up in the fuckin driveway and knocking on the door but I didn't invite it. Fuck biology my dudes

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mumblingmiss

I feel like I can literally feel my period pulling up in the fuckin driveway and knocking on the door but I didn't invite it. Fuck biology my dudes

Phantom cramps <<<<

15:54

Mine made me throw up yesterday it’s the worst feeling I’m so sorry

3

I have endometriosis and cramps are my worst fucking enemy in life

15:58

Sweating so much rn

kill me

mumblingmiss

I have endometriosis and cramps are my worst fucking enemy in life

ah that's horrible, do you have painkillers?

They don't work lmao

Hot water bottles?

It's not even the cramps rn my head is exploding

17:52

Would keep talking but my eyes are dead so ilk come back soon

3

hmm maybe no screens and a dark room?

Just try and take a nap baby I hope you feel better soon

Thanks guys, have restored eyesight now with the mystical power of gel ice pack

3

Glad you’re feeling better darling

1

Anonymous Confession (#775)

"Dysphoria walking up like "hi you haven't seen me in a while time to make your day worse""

5

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Oh baby I’m sorry

it’s nearly the end of the day, get a nice hot drink and snuggle under some blankets, try not to think about it and get some rest and hopefully it’ll be brighter in the morning. Here if you need anything, always

^^ distracting yourself is really the way to do it

22:40

don't let yourself dwell on it and know you're gorgeous no matter what your head says

Or handsome if you prefer that

we love you and think you look wonderful just the way you are

that too, tho i use gorgeous for everyone

Same lol

either one works

how the anonymous confession machine work?

type /confess

00:24

then in the box type your message

ah nice

00:27

well now i have to wait so its not obviously me

️‍♀️

stelf

Hysterectomy please, I'm begging.

4

Anonymous Confession (#776)

"made some mistakes and accidentally said some bad shit about wonderful people recently and I'm so angry at myself it's hard not to slip into the hate spiral. I'm my own worst enemy"

3

If you message them and apologise I’m sure it’ll be okay. Everyone makes mistakes it’s how you react to them that shows who you are. It’s okay, you didn’t mean anything to hurt anyone and you can still fix it. I hope you’re okay op

here if you need to talk

^ try not to blame yourself for something you didnt intend, try and make up for it and if you cant its beyond your control. you sound empathetic and considerate, just that you had a rough time and said things you didnt mean to. that doesnt make you a bad person. hope youre okay

^ always best to apologise asap and explain yourself without making excuses

the universe does not want me to be sober

17:38

not even 48 hours since i had my last drink and yet another thing comes up

Unless the universe has thrown a bottle of vodka through your window it does

17:38

You okay?

my brother just messaged me saying the anti terrorism police are visiting him tomorrow morning

What?

idk he just said he only has a vague idea of why and im just overthinking everything he said probably and its a bit stressful

Oh darling I’m sorry

18:07

I wouldn’t recommend going to see him, maybe message him in the afternoon see how it went won’t look weird

18:07

But this isn’t anything you’ve done you’re fine

yeah i know its just family stuff always gets messy

18:13

i shouldnt react like this its not my problem and i shouldnt feel shit about something that isnt even mine to deal with, ive offered to help however he needs it its now beyond me, so i just need to push it from my mind

Yeah, easier said than done I guess

I’ve got Spanish until 8:15 but I can come over after if you need me?

thank you, i appreciate it, im sure ill be fine. just gonna try and do some cleaning and work, keep my mind off it

2

It's fair to say I'll be switching back to my original combined pill routine after this until we figure out a better alternative

3

im sorry, hope youre okay and/or feel better soon

Thank you, wifey

Im just never endingly tired rn. Ive got double duty tonight and tomorrow night which essentially means I'll be on the clock from ehen I started at 8.45am this morning til I finish at 4.45pm on thursday and this week has already completely killed what little energy I had. Of the last 9 days ive only had 1 off, I am dyiiiiing

22:02

The piss poor wages I do receive are not worth it

22:03

£70 a week if nowhere nesr enough for the hours they fucking expect of us

2

Anonymous Confession (#777)

"I don't cry very often, and know I'm well overdue for a cry session that'll likely end up like the last one (full breakdown and panic attack that makes my housemates nearly break down my door to get in and check on me). Last couple of days I've just had brief moments where I'm fully ready to just break down, usually in public places which is unideal. Not 100% sure how to deal with this, if I should try to prevoke it when I'm alone or just wait and let it happen naturally and hope it's not too bad?"

3

tactical cry is usually pretty good

idk if you can force it

I'd say try and surround yourself with people you feel safe around if you feel something like that is coming, that way if you feel like you need people there there will be people there. Even if you'd rather be alone for it I think having people you trust to know where you are if you need help is the best case scenario

23:12

I'm sorry you're dealing with this OP it really is the season for menty b's but we're here if you need support okay?

Anonymous Confession (#778)

"how does one tactical cry"

~~look through old texts~~

02:01

nah i just think of things that make me sad or watch/read smth v depressing

gonna cry :’)

Will (he/they)

gonna cry :’)

hope youre okay

nope :)

2

❤️ itll be okay

i'm not sure if it will be tho

Do you want to talk about it?

Anonymous Confession (#782)

"definitely a positive vent but I went on that date! and it went really well im seeing them again next wk!!"

4

Ooo!!! Exciting have fun OP!!

Amazing! Glad it went well

Anonymous Confession (#784)

"Can someone please tell me how one tiktok resurfaces my groomer trauma to the max and why im crying about it. I thought I was over this"

3

I appreciate my advisor is always checking on me when he notices I've been absent from his classes this last week but making me feel guilty about it isn't going to help and will probably actually make me turn up less

3

I'm really sorry, I have a similar issue with absence and stress, but my advisor has actually never contacted me

12:16

do you have a reading week on your course?

Yeah next week

12:17

Thats when I was planning to catch up

same, I want to try and use it to reset

12:18

I'm sorry your advisor is making you feel at fault tho

12:19

like Erin said to me earlier, you've got yourself to look out for above anything else

Yeah he emails me even if I only miss one like he's nice and all but bugger off my dude, I'll do what I do and you leave me to it

12:20

Hope you're okay too

mochim30Froglove

12:20

we have the 2 extremes on the advisor spectrum, no contact and too much contact

Lmao

12:22

They should have like an enforced email quota to hit but only talk to us one every couple months

12:22

Or just I'll talk to you if I need to but don't contact me lmao

I’m in 3rd year and my advisor has only ever messaged me when I messaged her first:(

12:23

That being said I’ve only missed 3 lectures since starting uni so ig she doesn’t care

Let's swap advisors around

only missed 3 omg Lo how do you do it

I’m in a position where I have okay mental health most of the time and the first thing to go isn’t my lectures (it’s usually my wallet lmfao) so they don’t know or worry?

i missed like 1 in 4 lectures in 1st year bc i would be so exhausted from partying the night before

12:26

then never missed one during covid bc all i had to do was find my laptop and get back into bed lmao

I mean fair enough, I miss a lot but my grades don't slip so I don't think they care because of that

sorry your advisor is so overbearing tho

but I've been making an effort this year to be better with them, final year and all I feel like I should take this one seriously yknow

Ik he's probably just bugging me bc it's my repeat year but I passed my first semester with pretty decent grades, it was only the second one where I was too fucked up to function lmaooo

2

Just cut up the only lingerie my ex ever bought me for a halloween costume lmao this better go well or I'm gonna cry so hard

You okay hun??

I will be if this looks good

14:17

But my body keeps letting me down lmao

:(( well I'll keep my fingers crossed

14:17

What halloween costume are you trying to do

It's cool I'm out their league anyway. Just sentimental bc the last time I wore it was to sleep w them lol

14:18

I'm going as harley quinn w @Unknown as Ivy plus a couple others

14:18

@Unknown is gonna be kite man

Yes bitchhh

14:20

I kind of forgot about Halloween

ACertainSaffron

went to the GP 2 days ago to ask for a referral to a gender identity clinic, jumped through hoops and invasive questions with the GP, who concluded (paraphrased) "let's put the gender dysphoria to one side, and focus on your depression, I'm going to refer you to a very good psychiatrist in the city, his waiting list is only a month and he has much more experience". I asked for a referral in the appointment and I've been tossed into the mental health system instead. Wonderful. Is this psychiatrist specialised in gender? Will he actually listen to me? Will I even get the fucking email that the GP said he'd send right away and it's been 2 days with no email or text? Apparently saying I've only known I was trans for a year makes me a special fucking case that doesn't get instantly referred, I'll go fuck myself I guess. I'm just tired of it all.

so, update on this, I called the UEA med centre earlier today since still no email, and the lady said I had been referred to a gender identity clinic on my record?? So I'm not being referred to some therapist at all, my GP did a 180 and has done what I asked? I'm very confused but also very happy haha, just waiting on the clinic to email me now. I guess the doctor I saw spoke to his colleagues and they informed him that he kinda had to refer me if I requested it? Idk. Not complaining lol.

confusing but fantastic news, glad to hear it though! hope its a decent step in the right direction and they start supporting you properly

Bizarre but fantastic

17:48

Best of luck to you :))

Yooo best case scenario!! Glad everything worked out

Anonymous Confession (#786)

"You ever meet someone really attractive, get on really well and then you learn their name and the magic diminishes somewhat. Like just one of those names that's like.

you know??"

2

erin is a good name i swear

Ah fuck yall can't be post confessions about me like that

Lmao me w this guy at work-

I do feel this lmao but I also wanna know what the name is so i can judge you for judging

What's the name OP

18:15

Do I need to get a name change OP

Anonymous Confession (#787)

"Malcolm

"

O h

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yeah gg go next mate

tucker

AAAAA

greg

18:17

gary

18:17

stanley

18:17

i could go on

I'd date a greg

boris

he's mine

What's wrong with Malcolm

I was expecting a tv highschool bully name, like Biff

3

mahariel

stanley

Hey that’s my friends dead cat don’t be mean

E r i n

boris

that didn't stop you

like i said, he's mine

What sort of fucking name is Biff??

exactly

biff is an actual name i think

if it was Biff I would understand

LoLo <3

Hey that’s my friends dead cat don’t be mean

flattened in heaven

18:18

do you think cats go to Hell

mahariel

flattened in heaven

STOP SHE GETS SO MAD IF WE MAKE FLAT STANLEY JOKES HE GOT HIT BY A CAR

if dogs go to Heaven

Omg

LoLo <3

STOP SHE GETS SO MAD IF WE MAKE FLAT STANLEY JOKES HE GOT HIT BY A CAR

i have never wanted to be a car more

18:19

*cat

18:19

either works actually

I hate you sm

ow

mahariel

i have never wanted to be a car more

NO

fortunately raccoons cant die

18:19

dont ruin this for me

ngl had a similar experience today with meeting someone

18:20

I vibed really well with him and at the end he told me his name was Pascal and I would never judge but also it's a fucking triangle and I just

18:20

Imagine being called a triangle

18:20

I just couldn't

LMAOOOO

18:20

"Triangles are hot ngl" - Erin

OH THE SCALENE TRIANGLE

Fuckboy Drag King

I vibed really well with him and at the end he told me his name was Pascal and I would never judge but also it's a fucking triangle and I just

Tb to my ex hammered singing heathers w me then laughing ‘his names ram, that’s a compsci thing Lo incase you don’t know what it means’ like thanks baby let’s go to bed now smh

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Ew Compsci RUN

FUCK ME SCALENE TRIANGLE

18:21

is he actually named after RAM oh my god

Highkey doubt

18:21

Think it’s just American names weird

would he have shot up the school if the bomber didn't get to it first

Erin

18:21

Oh my god

what did she say

I wanna be a dodecahedron

Can we please gofundme Erin some therapy

WHAT DID SHE SAY

lmaooo

erin go on

18:22

tell them what you did

18:22

we're catholic you can confess here

im not though

don't care

fuck it

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i said

ill slam you into a confession booth in a minute

Fuckboy Drag King

ill slam you into a confession booth in a minute

18:23

LMAO

18:23

whoever reacted to that at the same time as me i love you

/snipe

thank you discord gods

i will strangle this bot with my bare hands

i should capitalise on my winding

What a sentence

going full Blade Runner on this thing

onlyfans subscription and you get a screenshot of every message i delete

Anonymous Confession (#788)

"fuck this bullshit. My worth is better"

5

idk what this is about but agreed

E r i n

onlyfans subscription and you get a screenshot of every message i delete

Ngl I just need to assume its something depraved and I know enough

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you okay OP? here if you want to talk

Confessions

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Assuming that is not related to Malcolm, but hope you're okay OP

Confessions

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Here if you need anything OP

^^

18:27

glad you're aware of your worth kiddo

We love self worth

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Anonymous Confession (#789)

"I'm into a few of you but it's basically just the people that will say "oh honey you don't want to date me" oh babes I defo do shut up"

3

honey you want to date me~

im an emotional mess

18:55

I will cry on you all night

the B polycule lives on

honestly there are like 2-4 people I would date here

19:00

am I your number 1 side bitxh

keyword on side

1

people think im being cute when i say you shouldn't date me, i don't have a dangerous edge or anything, i just have zero life skills and add nothing to a dynamic. amazing fashion sense and thick fuckin hips only go so far.

B stop confessing your love for me smh

All im saying is

19:02

none of you have taken me out for a date and wooed me yet

Do you like being insulted? If so, then I will

Nahh CB you talk a big game but I feel you'd be quite nice on dates

klsdgiponsdfnpsfsnipodfs

I wouldn't know haven't been on one since I was 14

19:05

I'll take you on my killer date 100% good fun

19:05

might die but

ghot

19:05

hot

19:05

hot

19:05

hot

19:05

hot

I mean if you want to

1

My day was going so good until the takeaway I just had

Oh no

19:17

What was it

It was just a pepperoni pizza and chips but fuck me that was bad

3

19:18

Another place I won't be getting food from again

Anonymous Confession (#790)

"So my emotions have just shut off? Like I relived a whole bunch of trauma tonight and now theyre just gone. I dont feel anything, except wants and needs? No happiness no sadness just nothing?"

2

I’m so sorry you’re going through that OP

try and get some rest if you can and eat something, stay hydrated and all that, I’m here if you need to talk

Numbness and lack of emotion is a very common trauma response. Its a self-defence mechanism to minimise any further pain and distress. Its a very difficult thing to be going through Ive been there myself. I want you to know youre not alone, youre not broken, and things can and will get better. Healing takes time, things won't improve immediately despite how hard it can be to feel like that. Patience is arguably just as difficult but so very mecessary. You will be able to feel again, to laugh, to cry. It might take a little while after a flashback or reliving events but you'll be okay. You're not where you were when it happened, youre not who it happened to anymore. Take time, show yourself kindness, let yourself recover - thats how healing begins ❤️ Whoever you are OP I'm here for you if you need me

1

Anonymous Confession (#791)

"I don't work very often, so when I do I find it really important to commit myself to it and make sure I do a good job. What I try really hard not to do is wake up with a really intense feeling of dread, struggle to control my breathing and not cry, and have to cancel my shift because the prospect of having to deal with a bunch of strangers judging me and making assumptions on me is just too much to handle right now. Alas, better luck next time I guess."

2

Hey OP, I'm sorry to hear you're struggling so much. Getting up and leaving the house to face a work day can get super difficult especially if you have to cope with all the anxiety that can come with it. If you genuinely can't handle going then you definitely made the best decision to stay at home. Your wellbeing will always be significantly more important than work. I'm here if you ever want to talk or hear a voice, have plenty of rest today darling.

Anonymous Confession (#792)

"woke up and emotions are barely still there. Maybe I felt a twinge of fear earlier but nothing else"

1

NOT MY ASSAULTER APPEARING ON MY TINDER

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21:36

FUCKING AWFUL

21:37

Fucking SAed me in first year

Oh Bran I'm sorry

21:37

Report and block and move on

21:37

Probably the best way to deal w it

21:38

Not to tell you what to do or anything but please don't dwell on it it won't help your mental state

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Coming down from a panic attack and @Will (he/they) is playing a song with Hatsune miku cryingsunglass

cryingsunglass

Why is it helping

ily

02:13

<3

1

I genuinely just despise hypocrisy

01:57

Such people describe that their friendships have been broken yet actively try to damage the ones I have, by horrible words which break my heart.

3

01:58

I am this close to purging these people from my life, and some from here too.

01:59

But, im not allowed to be upset about it, or I get threats on peoples own lives if I show weakness once. - Threats about SH TW

That's horrible to hear, people making threats like that is terrifying. You're absolutely allowed to be upset about it and it's very irresponsible for anyone to say stuff like that

Okay so the GP saga continues lol, I have been referred to a psychiatrist, but they're specialised in gender dysphoria supposedly. (Considering the letter is from 'Gender Dysphoria Centre Norwich' I would hope so).

Oh that's good hopefully?

15:12

Hope it goes well and this is a sign things are moving in the right direction

Im not appreciating being tossed around right now, so hopefully this guy knows what he's talking about and actually refers me

Anonymous Confession (#793)

"peoples statuses about ED is making me really uncomfortable"

1

Shit sorry op meant it as a joke I made earlier not intended to trigger anyone and have deleted it now, hope you’re okay

Anonymous Confession (#794)

"Nightmares have been retriggered again, trauma from my past has prevented me from sleep for the past few days. Im exhausted and dont have anyone to help. The only person I can actually trust is away. Everyone else i cant put my faith in, at least in my "close" friend group"

1

Anonymous Confession (#795)

"some people don't know when theyve crossed the line and they'll regret it"

Literally OP

Anonymous Confession (#796)

"Can’t believe the hypocrisy of some people. Would say Do better but starting to think that’s their best"

Go off OP. Also how many of these are the same person bc it's very similar

Anonymous Confession (#797)

"2/4 are mine - last op"

Solid 50/50 babes (edited)

21:47

Keep posting, get your score up

1

Anonymous Confession (#798)

"God reading old texts from an ex really fucking hurts. Like really fucking hurts. The good bits, the bad bits, it's all just pain it shouldn't be allowed, messages should just vanish immediately."

1

Anonymous Confession (#799)

"I am panicking a little bc I think I’m catching feelings for someone but I also feel like it’s too soon to know for sure. I also think that this always happens to me in which I meet someone, I feel@like I might like them and they might like me, but I do nothing about it and then just have to watch them be with someone else and smile and just cope with being their friend but I also think in this situation it’s just too soon to know and ahhhhhhsv"

i’m not “clicking” with anyone like i used to… like i’ll have my moments and such, but it’s nothing super constant

Anonymous Confession (#800)

"Can people be nice and not complete dicks about you behind your back for just once?"

hug

3

02:46

me rn

Fr

I

22:12

ran for my life just now

22:12

holy shit that was scary

22:13

men /neg

Anonymous Confession (#804)

"so many assignments. so many fucking assignments. i am so bad at this. i want university so bad because it keeps me away from real life and my parents grating on me but. how on earth am i gonna pass my modules. i am so fucking frustrated."

just wanted to go in the kitchen but now i hear foreign voices & loud music in the kitchen fml (edited)

It’s nights like this I miss the closeness of having someone I can just fall asleep on, like don’t get me wrong Will was an asshole and I will never get back with my ex. But like I just miss being able to sleep so easily with someone there

3

02:49

Thank you for attending Bs Pining ted talk

4

I fucking can’t this has actually ruined my whole day. im 98% sure ive just run into someone I know from high school. And he was just…the worst person. he’s transphobic and homophobic as fuck, would consistently make a point to misgender me when he found I used they/them. We were friends before all this and he used literal manipulative ways of keeping me as a friend telling me he was gonna kill himself because of me or hurt himself or something of the variety

23:33

im not even mad he’s here im more upset I’ve managed to bump into him. this university is fucking massive there is such a slim chance of me running into him

23:33

im just

23:33

ugh

1

good god my sister and her bf are at it again

Well fuck

03:05

So. For all of you who knows the shit between me and Zach, it costed me one of the people I care about the most. But now I’m worried about Zach, Zach is now close with my SAers Ex, the same person who dmed me abuse and claimed I lied about the situation despite me having a literal confession from the person. UEA did nothing about it ofc but now I’m extremely worried for the sake of Zach, I distrust him heavily. But idk what to do

03:06

My first thought was to DM Liam to keep an eye out, maybe I was looking for an excuse to speak to liam again but I’m genuinely worried for the safety of this person

03:06

Why is it so hard to just dislike someone and move on, instead of being scared for them so deeply it prevents me sleeping

03:07

Zach did awful things to me, but he doesn’t deserve the same pain which was caused.

03:07

Fuckkkk okay idk

3

Nobody deserves suffering B, regardless of who they are and what the thing is. Ultimately, it’s up to you what you do but honestly, I would say to set some boundaries with yourself on this one. Step back from these people and move on. When situations, people or places cause you this much distress, reliving the trauma, it’s not worth it. It’s taken me too long to realise but you can just walk away from people and sometimes it’s much better to. Life is too short for our precious time to be filled with worry and upset over people who do us harm. I know it sucks now but if they don’t see your worth then fuck it, move on. There are plenty of people who do

Anonymous Confession (#841)

"I need someone to force me to go to a therapist cause I never will, where do I start"

Got screamed at by a Karen today, nearly cried to my manager but she was surprisingly chill?

B

Got screamed at by a Karen today, nearly cried to my manager but she was surprisingly chill?

SHE SCREAMED AT U ??? PLS

gremlin

SHE SCREAMED AT U ??? PLS

"IVE worked in hospitality for YEARS I THINK WHAT YOU DID WAS EXTREMELY RUDE"

23:17

BEstie if you worked in hospitality, you wouldnt be screaming at me right now

HELP

Maybe she works for Costa HQ so she really cares about Costa's profits

SenorGonc

Maybe she works for Costa HQ so she really cares about Costa's profits

Its not like costa lost anything, I literally cannot process what benefits her from Complaining, but the look on her face when she asked my collegue for a manager and I spun around and said, i am the shift lead supervisor

23:18

She was not amused

23:19

I always get points for my sassy spins, with the bitch, I am the manager

pls she was such a Karen. like she was s c r e a m i n g to her family from the queue

gremlin

pls she was such a Karen. like she was s c r e a m i n g to her family from the queue

god it was so funny when she was staring at me laughing with my collegue and my collegue even scares me

B

Its not like costa lost anything, I literally cannot process what benefits her from Complaining, but the look on her face when she asked my collegue for a manager and I spun around and said, i am the shift lead supervisor

pls I love it when they ask for the manager and you can go “wELL AcTuAllY”

gremlin

pls I love it when they ask for the manager and you can go “wELL AcTuAllY”

you dont understand the power it makes me feel, I literally giggle

23:21

god I sound power hungry

I loved it when my seniors did it to my residents

23:21

it was so fricking funny honestly

only reason im a supervisor lmfao

1

love it when I’ve been sat here for 40 minutes thinking my clothes are being washed, and when the washing machine beeped and I checked my stuff was all still dry

00:01

circuit Lansbury yay

00:01

Laundry

fuck circuit

right

00:16

took my money and didn’t wash my clothes love that for me

Anonymous Confession (#853)

"My luck with guys is about as lucky as that of the guy who invested in blackberry instead of Apple before it took off. Every attempt of reaching out and forming a realtionship has just lead to heart break for one reason or another. Which I'm just straight up not equipped to deal with. Especially this most recent dumpster fire. Lowkey ready to just buy a bunch of cats and live alone xD"

itsgoing to be OK op, people are here for you ❤️

praise

1

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pls stop taking photos of me

I didnt know where else to put this but uh I really dislike jokes about people lying to me. it severely triggers a lot of paranoia and I do take thing very bluntly so if a joke like that is made I will genuinely believe it? idk ik it was supposed to be funny but it uh kinda rubbed me the wrong way and I just wanted to say for future like give me a heads up?

20:42

I’m okay I just uh. yeah just needed to get it out there

20:44

idk maybe I’m being dumb and this is a silly thing to complain about but

I should add this isn’t aimed or anything I’m not mad or upset at anyone in particular I just needed to say ig lmao

i have to call out today because we don’t have a car rn since it’s in the shop and it hasn’t even been looked at, and i can’t exactly uber bc it’s cost prohibitive rn. it wouldn’t really be a problem but my manager has it out to get me or it sure feels like it

So there’s a very real chance I have scarlet fever

. My mum neglected to tell me that my brother had caught it, and since yesterday I’ve had an insanely high fever, been delirious been coughing like crazy and EVERYTHING hurts. Don’t actually know if those are symptoms of scarlet fever, but I’m hella mad at my mum right now. Oh and I was informed last night that we’re going on vacation tomorrow, fun times

tw// threats? (edited)

19:01

this has kinda been building up all holiday (aka literal 1 week I’ve been home) and it kinda feels like things might make a turn. I have problems with my family as it is but my mother basically threatened to hit me earlier today, then kinda cemented it by telling the rest of my extended family that she wanted to “slap me round the face”. I don’t feel physically unsafe because I severely doubt that she would ever actually hit me but at the same time, idk I can’t tell if I actually feel unsafe or if my brain is just doing a funky. my dad also kinda yelled at me for nothing (it was about getting the boys food an hour ago but no one listened to me so I was like eh okay it’s not my problem) . I just am really really ready to come back to campus but I have at least over a month of staying at home left which I don’t wanna do but I have to because of work and yeah. downer I’m sorry just kinda needed to vent a lil (edited)

2

Emotions lowkey suck. I watch a single queer romance show, and now I'm out here sad I don't have that lmao.

ok since when do grown ass adults not know how to clean a bathroom, evenmore flush a toilet

14:11

Time to make a fun sign now I got my printer working

"Remember, it goes 'shit, flush, shit'"

15:11

That, or "Does one of yous not know how to flush the toilet after you've had a shit?"

Tio Ardu (Lilith)

"Remember, it goes 'shit, flush, shit'"

im literally going to be making a taylor swift meme which says

15:22

Taylor Says: Flush the toilet

️

️

when i have a 24hr exam and it’s our first day of trading in new premises

22:29

and the exam opens AT MIDNIGHT

Joseph

when i have a 24hr exam and it’s our first day of trading in new premises

WAIT

22:38

YALL ARE OPENING TOMORROW?

22:38

Your dads gonna love the chaps managers chat, everyone there hates my manager apparently

oh my sister will probably join it instead

22:39

yes we legit had the signs put up tonight

22:39

HAVE to be up to open

Heyyy you’ll get the chaps discounts tho

true

You have lifts going straight to your place tho

already on the system

Don’t tempt me to come in I HAVE COURSEWORK TO DO

PLEASE ME TOO

22:40

IM GONNA BE WORKING AND CODING

PLS TELL THEM FOR A DAY OFF

22:40

PRAY

22:40

SIR YOU HAVE AN EXAM

NOOO i offered cause it’s gonna be bussy

It’s a Thursday in chaps it’s not going to be the busiest Ngl

22:41

Friday is a crunch day

‍

22:41

still they’ll deffo be people coming out of their way for us

True tbh

22:42

Maybe you’ll have Paulina come in

i will personally call security

Joseph

i will personally call security

PLS DONT INCUR HER WRATH

22:48

SHELL TAKE IT OUT ON US

oh she’s one of those people

Joseph

SHE LITERALLY SAT ME DOWN BC I ASKED RO BE SIGNED OFF AND SHE WAS LIKE, NO YOURE NOT GOOD. So I literally went into the mental health issues she caused me and she was like “we all have these problems” I was like Paulina this isn’t fuckin Pokémon cards you literally cause me to have panic attacks

B

SHE LITERALLY SAT ME DOWN BC I ASKED RO BE SIGNED OFF AND SHE WAS LIKE, NO YOURE NOT GOOD. So I literally went into the mental health issues she caused me and she was like “we all have these problems” I was like Paulina this isn’t fuckin Pokémon cards you literally cause me to have panic attacks

THIS WOMAN IS NOT REAL

when is it my turn to be happy

Will (he/they)

when is it my turn to be happy

you deserve nothing but happiness

Joseph

THIS WOMAN IS NOT REAL

UPDATE, SHES SIGNING OFF THE NEW GIRL IN THE NEXT TWO WEEKS AS SHE KEEPS FAVOURITES

B

UPDATE, SHES SIGNING OFF THE NEW GIRL IN THE NEXT TWO WEEKS AS SHE KEEPS FAVOURITES

ofc she does

GIRL WHEN ARE THEY STRIKING DOWN ON HER

B

UPDATE, SHES SIGNING OFF THE NEW GIRL IN THE NEXT TWO WEEKS AS SHE KEEPS FAVOURITES

honestly start a Revolution atp

very um stressed atm. both my parents got declined as guarantors for this house so I’m starting to freak out a little. I have uncles and aunts I can use but yknow. stressful stuff

15:53

Ive decided I hate being an adult

It's kinda dumb that as a student you need guarantors, but as non students they don't ask for one :/

02:05

They already rail us with the rent prices lmao

we kinda worked out whyand its apparently bc we have only lived in our house for 6 months which isnt long enough ?

02:06

or something like that.

02:07

I got my godfather to try so hopefulllllly it goes through okay.

Pooooooooo

21:42

Oooooooooop

ty

Thats what the vents are for

22:10

Poopy smell needs to be out

Lol am I currently having a breakdown outside Chantry yes. Am I gonna be late for these 5 minutes y

:/ im sorry b.

Had a serious flashback trigger at the rest

23:52

It was pooo

23:53

Lady there calmed me down

23:53

Hate getting triggered

23:53

:(

23:53

Pooo

23:53

Poo

23:55

Guys. Pls help, my panic attacks are getting worse and worse what if i get one outside my bedroom or a room with a trained pep

23:55

What would peps think of me

in_sane_out

Guys. Pls help, my panic attacks are getting worse and worse what if i get one outside my bedroom or a room with a trained pep

I get it can be scary, but remember that people are there to support you and theyll be able to help you

Like

23:57

What happens

23:57

If i get

23:57

Triggered

23:57

On campis

23:57

That will

23:57

Be embarrassing

in_sane_out

Be embarrassing

I get it, but there are places you can go on campus for some quiet spaces

23:58

And it helps, the nap nook is one of my goto places

Wheree

23:59

Pls tell me wheree i can goo

in_sane_out

Pls tell me wheree i can goo

napnook above the SU

00:01

its a quiet space

00:01

and also a greatplace for a nap

What

00:01

Theres a place

00:01

Above the su

Yeah upstairs in the hive

00:02

If you turn right at scholars

O

00:07

Need sleep

00:07

Need to study tmmr

00:07

Oof

I have work tomorrow

Slightly behind

and opening

00:07

At 10

00:07

Yayyy

Yay

00:07

Oof

Having my first flashback in months at work

11:31

Work is now triggering some bad trauma yayyy

1

Is anyone awake right now

03:00

Holy fucking god. I don’t think I would’ve woken up from those types of dreams again

6

03:00

I’m still fucking shaking

mhm yes panic attacks. mhm yes being trauma dumped on and having my two best friends force me into the middle of their argument and now saying things that are triggering me. mhm yes being scared to sleep bc I know what probably coming. mhm yes.

1

falling back into my “therapist while my own life and trauma is falling apart” arc

O

SO my cards were stolen

15:38

And that means I cant use ANY money until I get another card (edited)

15:39

i have no fuckin ID so I cant go out

fuck dude

15:40

can you not apply for a new id? because it was stolen?

gremlin

can you not apply for a new id? because it was stolen?

I need to get it

15:40

but it will take ages to arrive

wtf when was it stolen ?

gremlin

wtf when was it stolen ?

last night im guessing

15:55

When I was getting home

Omg are you okay?

B

And that means I cant use ANY money until I get another card (edited)

Can't you use your phone to buy stuff or no?

not until a new card is issued

15:59

you can use apple pay i think as soon as you get your new card details ? i think as soon as a new card is issued you can see it in your bank app (or at least thats how it is with lloyds idk about other banks though)

Luckily santander is providing me with a card

16:09

and hopefully the fraud transactions will be removed

16:09

Furthermore, theyve updated my apple pay so I can now use that

16:10

now onto Halifax

16:10

All in all, ive lost 70 quid from fraud which I can restore 20 pounds in my wallet gone I need to spend another 20, to get a drivers license back So I have a yknow ID

16:10

But all and all, what a fucking day

16:10

so 40 pounds total loss

jesus fuck. i mean as long as your physically okay thats what really matters. but yeah thats so shit

16:14

do you know where and what the money was spent on ?

gremlin

do you know where and what the money was spent on ?

10 pounds to a Leon Wilson, 10 pounds to an arcade and 40 in a vape shop

16:15

All about an hour ago

damn

gremlin

damn

im fuckin crying at it all though

16:27

I feel so stupid

B

I feel so stupid

it wasnt your fault ????

idk I shoudlve been smarter or something

no stop it.

16:28

these things happen. its really fucking unfortunate and shitty but it is not your fault

I just fucking hate myself rn

1

B

I just fucking hate myself rn

There is literally nothing you could've about it it's literally not your fault

^ exactly this. its not your fault and its a really shitty thing to have happened. but it can be sorted. your card and id can be replaced and you can get the money back. not all of it but most of it. and you're physically okay as well which is much more important (edited)

i guess

16:49

its stilll really upsetting

B

its stilll really upsetting

i get that. and 100% understandable as well. but you just gotta understand that it wasnt your fault

I just realised they are so fucked

gremlin

i get that. and 100% understandable as well. but you just gotta understand that it wasnt your fault

Theres a direct time stamp on where they used it and when

16:53

As well as others, theyve inadvertantly created themselves a trail with CCTV

16:53

Theyve fucked themselves with the police

exactly

and im hoping that wallet can be restored

16:53

it was a custom engraved one from my parents

fingers crossed.

Still salty about the 20 quid and the license

16:54

just cant go to loft or buy alcohol for the next week

Where you planning to go to loft/but alcohol for the next week

SenorGonc

Where you planning to go to loft/but alcohol for the next week

no

16:56

But alcohol for tuesday and spectrum for pres

16:56

may be an issue

16:56

Ill figure it out

Also you could just get someone to buy the alcohol for you

ye

Actually saying that, I do have some gin

16:56

God alcoholism really sounds bad fon me rn

And then payback one it alll sorted

At least i have card payments again

exactly

Well Apple pay, online shopping may be an issue for a while

16:56

Until I get my new card

Lots of sites have Apple Pay on it now

again you can always ask people to buy stuff and just transfer money

its coming next week hopefully

yeeee. itll be okay :)

gremlin

yeeee. itll be okay :)

Also that Leon Wilson thing. looks like a personal card machine

16:58

Thats also a link

16:58

I dont know but either way

16:58

Im sad and need food

go get food

Time to break through anxiety of housemates rn

16:59

Just so I can eat and cry

B

Just so I can eat and cry

valid

Finding a relationship is impossible, any mentions of anything valentine related directly to me without my consent will be ghosted for the next week as punishment doublegun

doublegun

Making fun of this directly will get you blocked from my account for 1 week or unless

19:09

This is the end of my public announcements

Don’t even Valentine’s Day bad

Thx god someone agrees

I don’t wanna remember last years

It doesnt exist

19:10

Just like feb 30th doesnt

19:10

lol

PFFt

At the end of the day it's just another disappointing day

19:14

That's overhyped

19:15

Sorry not sorry

trueeeeeee

First back transferred it back now waiting on the other but could take up to two weeks

Image attachment

21:04

60 pounds to go outta the stolen amount

poopy people

21:10

they deserve poop

just finished that™️ episdoe of greys because I forgot it happened and I forgot to skip it and now it triggered me lol

22:23

they handled the situation well it was just. mm. Not it

22:24

not for my brain anyway. good episode but lotta triggering stuff I tend to avoid it when rewatching but I just simply forgot until it was too late

Planning on cutting my perants off

19:05

I have all the documentation

19:05

And stuff

19:05

Just share codes will be tricky

19:05

I will try and change the email for it

19:05

But ye

19:05

Very conflicted

how long has it been since you saw them? i find that the longer i’m away the more i think i am just being silly, then i go to dinner with them and all my work at therapy gets reset and i remember why i’ve gotta leave

19:24

make sure ur thinking clearly, if there is a pressure to just “get over it” that’s a bad urge, it will just lead to u getting hurt more

19:24

but u don’t have to do it today

19:24

there is always tomorrow, take some time to be sure

Ive been planning it since december

19:42

Sis been telling me to do it

19:42

Every phone call triggers me

19:43

I just cant

19:43

I feel better then suddenly it all goes down the drain

19:43

Like whats the point of keeping them around

i understand

20:07

it’s difficult

I am planning on talking with the councillor

20:10

But the thought of it all makes me want to vomit

20:10

And suicidal

20:10

I am so confused

20:11

Everything makes me feel shit but when I want to get away from shit I feel shit

20:11

Its

20:11

Exhausting

20:12

Oh no ugh i feel like i should unalive

20:12

Imma lock myself in and put my campus card away so i cant exit

20:12

Poop

So Santander have now refunded my accounts

Njce

B

So Santander have now refunded my accounts

that’s good !

gremlin

that’s good !

yeah, I guess so

22:11

im still very drained

22:11

and I think tomorrow i need a day off from Uni

22:11

ill speak to my seminar leaders

B

and I think tomorrow i need a day off from Uni

valid

E-vision here u come

it’s been a stressful few days and you’ve got the police phonecall tomorrow as well

i may just go tbf

22:11

I dont know

22:11

Ill see how I feel

B

i may just go tbf

don’t stress too much. you can always catch up later

22:12

Or literally do it from home. Where tis more comfortable

cant

22:14

Seminars arent online

B

Seminars arent online

can’t you get the materials from it?

gremlin

can’t you get the materials from it?

yuh but it doesnt beat the experience in person

ye In know

22:27

but like I’m saying for the sake of your mental health would it be worth just doing it online for this one seminar ig

in the phone call now stare

stare

Callin be like

I feel

13:04

Incredibly numb today

13:05

Ive been awake for 3 hours I can’t get up

13:05

Im just. Numb.

13:06

its. Idk I can’t feel ssnythign. I don’t feel sad I don’t feel tired I just don’t feel. Its

13:06

hm

I get it genuinely

Got lost in city

23:19

Didnt get mugged or anything stolen

23:19

Found a bus stp

23:19

Driver let me on for free

23:19

I think

23:19

God is real guys

23:20

Its time for me to return to being a practicing catholic

23:21

I am at peace

23:21

Someone out there is protecting me

23:21

I dony care who im going to pray to it

praise

2

in_sane_out

I dony care who im going to pray to it

Mood

1

Josh

Mood

Code Geas?

Ofc

23:25

10/10 pog anime

If you're on a 25 bus then I'm on it too hahahaha

No i was on 21

23:29

25 dont go in the middle of no where

23:29

I was

23:29

I the middle of no where

Josh

Ofc

3rd anime i watched

23:30

apparently I have good taste by some people

in_sane_out

apparently I have good taste by some people

You do!!!

1st Noragami 2nd death note 3rd Code geas

in_sane_out

1st Noragami 2nd death note 3rd Code geas

also top tier

No thats my watching order

23:31

As in when i staryed

23:31

Litterally what is everything else now a days

23:31

@Josh we must fan girl over anime if we ever meet up

23:31

Who ever u are

in_sane_out

No thats my watching order

Oh I got that. I thought Noragami was a single message that I was replying too :3

Ehe

in_sane_out

@Josh we must fan girl over anime if we ever meet up

We do indeed!

Maybe we should o.o

23:32

What interests do u have

23:32

?

23:32

intiating positive vibes

23:33

Boi probs left the chat its sleepy time anyways

23:33

If u wanna we can dm and stuff ahaha

Oh I was just pushing something to Github for work

23:33

:3

23:34

Man*

23:34

Ugh gifs

23:34

Wait

23:35

I think man

23:35

I dont know

23:35

Poop

23:35

in_sane_out

What interests do u have

I like gaming (mainly fps, survival ones), programming, esports (I work in that as an analyst), anime, history (mega simp), stargate + star trek and probably a bunch more stuff Im forgetting xD

23:35

Wbu ?

in_sane_out

I think man

Yea I am :P Basic he/him

Josh

I like gaming (mainly fps, survival ones), programming, esports (I work in that as an analyst), anime, history (mega simp), stargate + star trek and probably a bunch more stuff Im forgetting xD

Oh and drinking + coffee. Another basic gay personality trait

I likey anime, genshin, harry potter, star wars, LEGO science shit, birds, walking in nature

23:36

Gay

in_sane_out

I likey anime, genshin, harry potter, star wars, LEGO science shit, birds, walking in nature

I love birds toooooooo

Yeee

Puffin simp

If u wanna meet up we could go around campus bird spotting

23:36

Omg puffins

23:36

Its like

23:36

A parrot and penguin

23:37

Made babies

23:37

So cute

23:37

@Josh there is a eurasian jay in earlham park thats hard to spot

23:38

Its single i just saw it yesterdat

23:38

So it might be hanging around

Oo thats cool, ngl outside of drinking there Ive not really wondered around earlham park xD

Oh

Btw what course are you on ?

Dribking

23:38

As in

23:39

Alcohol

Yep :3

O how kuch

23:39

If u drink too much you should get help

23:39

Btw im a pharmacy student

in_sane_out

If u drink too much you should get help

xD

What about u?

i dont drink very often at all. When I do its a good chunk though.

Oh my

in_sane_out

What about u?

Comp Sci

I cringe for your liver

23:40

Thank god your young for now

Valid, although its much better than most here

23:40

@B

Alcohol is not a cure from reality

23:40

You can quote me on that

Pinged

23:40

What

Ye why u pinging

Do you not drink btw ?

Who u refering to?

B

Pinged

Cuz B drinks a bunch compared to little old me

in_sane_out

Who u refering to?

You :P

23:42

I know B drinks hahaha

I dont understand too much why things are the way they are. I drink very rarely. Mostly beer, cider, wine, champagne and liquor (cant spell)

23:43

Tbh I dont understand why people drink alcohol in excess

23:43

Its illogical

in_sane_out

I dont understand too much why things are the way they are. I drink very rarely. Mostly beer, cider, wine, champagne and liquor (cant spell)

Same, I think I drink maybe once a month. Sometimes less. Sometimes more if Im out multiple nights.

O

23:44

Oki

When I do drink however I drink a good amount. Not black out mind you. Just the right amount for the buzz :3

Confused

23:44

But ok

in_sane_out

Confused

Oh okay xD

Josh

Comp Sci

compsci gang compsci gang

I dont understand why

thepuppymuffin

compsci gang compsci gang

Best Gang!

i hope you have your programming socks and programming cat ears ready for inspection day

I forgot

23:45

Tk write

23:45

Manifesto

I was hoping to borrow Brandons tbh. Kinda slacking :/

Imma write it tmmr

23:45

Probs not gonna get voted in

23:46

But bruh

23:47

Oki gn

23:47

Its past my bedtime

23:47

Zzzz

23:47

I feel relaxed after talking about birbs

Gn

Josh

I was hoping to borrow Brandons tbh. Kinda slacking :/

Owo

B

Owo

have you got your programming socks for josh to borrow?

Shh joshy you’re supposed to keep it a secret

1

praise

1

:3

programming socks shouldn't be a secret, they should be a requirement for being part of the pride soc (or the compsci soc)

doublefacepalm

1

23:56

same with cat ears as i have said before

thepuppymuffin

same with cat ears as i have said before

What about dog ears? Not that I own any

Harru

What about dog ears? Not that I own any

these are acceptable also

I need my mind to not shut down after having many realisations last night. (edited)

10:46

well I forgot how to spoiler tag lul

gremlin

well I forgot how to spoiler tag lul

I do it by putting || at the beginning and of my text

yeh i knew that i just ✨ forgot ✨ in that moment how to do it

Im back home with parents, just to check if my memories wrent made up

18:41

They deffo not fake

18:42

Stress too much

2

in_sane_out

Im back home with parents, just to check if my memories wrent made up

Aw hun I hope you’re okay

18:51

Hang in there till you’re back

Back sunday

18:55

I forgot clothes last time and black shoes

18:55

Oh and shoes for hiking and stuff

Not long, you’ll get back soon

Ye

18:56

Everyone treating me so poop

18:56

Then theyre like

AAA I just realised my trains in 26 minutes and we’re not near the station

Oh why u not talking

in_sane_out

Everyone treating me so poop

B

AAA I just realised my trains in 26 minutes and we’re not near the station

Omfg

18:56

Run

in_sane_out

Omfg

I need them to drive me lmfao

B

AAA I just realised my trains in 26 minutes and we’re not near the station

yell at them

The station is 3 miles away

18:57

IM WAITING INA. CHIPPY FOR FOOD

ooft

18:57

my advice remains the same

in_sane_out

Im back home with parents, just to check if my memories wrent made up

also I hope ur okay. I 100% get this feeling not having the best relationship with my parents either. count Down the days and it’ll seem easier. just keep reminding yourself you’re only their temporarily

Ye

19:02

Cause like ye

19:02

But i left stuff behind

19:02

And I need some of that stuff back

19:02

But then afterwards

19:02

Should I

19:02

What if

19:02

Im making it all up

19:03

And making stuff up

19:03

So confused

19:05

But it feels happy sad when im with family

19:05

But i feel happier alone

19:05

But its stressful alone

19:05

Bc I dont have people that can give me attention 24/7 when i need it to mentally support me

19:05

And no one is really doing it

19:06

Too much

in_sane_out

Bc I dont have people that can give me attention 24/7 when i need it to mentally support me

I feel you, I have the same problem but ultimately it's impossible to receive constant attention and as time passes it does get easier to be alone, though if it's pretty bad it might be worth looking into professional support. Though if you need a chat my DM's are open :).

Tbh I feel so slightly sick of everything thing being online. Like its nice but like

19:20

I csll samaritans

19:20

Call gp

19:20

Message charities

19:20

Video call counsellor

19:20

Video call wellbeing advisors

19:20

Video call advisor

19:20

Maybe

19:20

Its not attention

19:21

Just a lack

19:21

Of human connection

19:21

I feel dissociated because I dont feel human

19:21

Just a bunch of floating concepts

Harru

I feel you, I have the same problem but ultimately it's impossible to receive constant attention and as time passes it does get easier to be alone, though if it's pretty bad it might be worth looking into professional support. Though if you need a chat my DM's are open :).

Ye will keep it in mind

in_sane_out

Just a bunch of floating concepts

Just a number in exams

19:22

Just grades

19:22

Just some words on my medical history

19:22

Like even now

19:22

What am I

19:23

I am deffo not having a mental breakdown

19:24

The waiting list for pressional help

19:24

Hella long

19:24

Gp sending letter

19:24

Currently its 13 mths

19:24

Not even emergency mental health nurse helped me move up the line

19:24

I just gotta wait

19:25

Or die

19:27

Tbh that wouldnt be a bad idea but I always chicken out

19:27

But oh well gonna wait

19:27

Cause thats what i decided a minth ago

in_sane_out

Currently its 13 mths

I feel you I've been waiting ages for therapy for my grief but honestly the wait will be worth it in the end, obviously it's annoying that you have to wait 13 months but you have to think of all the positives that therapy is going to give you

No

19:30

Thats not therapy

19:30

Thats only an assessment

19:30

Therapy theres another waiting list

19:31

After that

I don't think it should take that long to just get assessed?

19:34

Either way the wait for therapy will be worth it in the end

SenorGonc

I don't think it should take that long to just get assessed?

It does

19:34

I’ve been told

19:34

Even the gp

19:34

Is confused

19:35

Eh it doesnt matter

19:35

I dont think imma live that long

19:37

I stopped feeling suicidal for a week

19:37

I just forgot why i wanted to do it in the first place

19:40

Tbh euthanasia should be legalised fully in my opinion so I can use it

19:43

Sorry vent over

19:43

Resume ur other vents

Sorry if I clogged up the chat, I just feel like this everyday cant make friends to talk to at uea had a gang back in my old days

I really messed up today. I haven’t eaten in ages, but I really can’t bring myself to go to the shop and get food because I’m in so much pain (due to starving) and also having no energy at all (no food + no sleep). I also can’t sleep to help with the energy issue because I’m in too much pain to fall asleep. I feel so stupid for making more problems for myself on top of what has already been a very tough time

Slade

I really messed up today. I haven’t eaten in ages, but I really can’t bring myself to go to the shop and get food because I’m in so much pain (due to starving) and also having no energy at all (no food + no sleep). I also can’t sleep to help with the energy issue because I’m in too much pain to fall asleep. I feel so stupid for making more problems for myself on top of what has already been a very tough time

hey, if you think it might help, i'd be happy to go the shop and get food for you :)

Slade

I really messed up today. I haven’t eaten in ages, but I really can’t bring myself to go to the shop and get food because I’m in so much pain (due to starving) and also having no energy at all (no food + no sleep). I also can’t sleep to help with the energy issue because I’m in too much pain to fall asleep. I feel so stupid for making more problems for myself on top of what has already been a very tough time

If you want to I can come over whereever u are and cook a meal for u :)

09:38

Although I'll be back in the evening

Slade

I really messed up today. I haven’t eaten in ages, but I really can’t bring myself to go to the shop and get food because I’m in so much pain (due to starving) and also having no energy at all (no food + no sleep). I also can’t sleep to help with the energy issue because I’m in too much pain to fall asleep. I feel so stupid for making more problems for myself on top of what has already been a very tough time

i would’ve taken you to tesco or smth if i had know :(

It’s alright. Thank you though. I had some garlic bread since it was the only food in the house and then I managed to fall asleep

Slade

It’s alright. Thank you though. I had some garlic bread since it was the only food in the house and then I managed to fall asleep

Garlic bread is not a meal

12:09

Stop lying to yourself

Give me a break man

Start investing in your health

12:10

Ye

12:10

Its ol

12:10

Its just I was doing the same last semester and sometimes continue doing it

I am well aware that it’s not a meal

12:11

I’ve been doing this for years. Yesterday it just got really out of hand for the first time that I can remember though

Oh no :(

12:11

It sucks

12:12

Ik it might not be helpful to you, but I think to myself that proper meals is like

12:12

I dunno

Yes I know. I need to find myself a meal. It’s been like 30 hours since my last one

If u wanna my offer of making a meal still stabds

12:13

Or u can come to mines

12:13

Spaghetti and bolonaise?

12:13

I cant spell loo

12:13

Lol

It’s alright. I need to solve my own stupid problems

No

12:13

Ur wrong

12:13

We humans

12:13

We stick together

12:13

I understand this isolationist mentality

12:13

I do it myself

I don’t isolate myself

Good

12:14

Sorry i lack some social interpreations of stuff

12:14

So i misunderstand alot of basic phrases

I’m just saying I don’t want you to help with a problem that I caused myself. I want to fix it myself

Its just

12:15

Theres no shame in accepting help

12:15

But ofc

12:15

Your an adult

12:15

You have the right to choose what you want

12:15

Bc of human rights

in_sane_out

Theres no shame in accepting help

I know

Dude pls help urself. You deserve to do that to yourself aswell

12:17

Omg that sounded rude

12:17

Im not sure how to phrase

12:17

I hope your ok for the time being

It’s not rude I get it

12:17

Well I’m alive. Just extremely hungry

12:18

Not quite as bad as last night at least

12:18

Genuinely didn’t think I was gonna make it home last night

Slade

Genuinely didn’t think I was gonna make it home last night

Ik u dont know me personally but if you ever want someone to meet up or cook with or shop with I can do. As I need some motivation sometimes fot myself to get food lol

I have stuff. Just need to cook

Cooking is cool

Yeah. Just don’t always have the energy or motivation for it

12:27

Like right now

Its ok

Ok I should really get food before the pain immobilises me again

Slade

Ok I should really get food before the pain immobilises me again

Good idea

I has hads food. Now I feel sick

Slade

I has hads food. Now I feel sick

If you havent eaten in a while no wonder. Did you eat a small portion?

Yeah I did. I’m not that stupid

Very gud

Mhm. Still need to do a better job with eating though. This is getting way out of hand

Have you spoken to your gp?

16:14

Or a medical professional

Having a snack every 24 isn’t gonna end well

No

Yeah I did. A while ago

What did they say?

16:14

If you want to disclose

16:14

Uts ok if not

Prescribed a medication that made my appetite insane. I put on about 30 kg and it was awful

Oh my

Not doing that again

Yeah I struggle with my weight currently after going to the gym I put on 5kg when I started to do more stuff and being active not sure if I put on more muscle mass or just started drinking water more aswell

Slade

Not doing that again

Makes sense

16:15

Any other options

16:15

Or just you being drugged

Well I did therapy. I doubt they’ll have another option for me (edited)

I mean if you need to talk my DMs are open

16:17

Or any help

16:17

Im open to making friends aswell ahaha

They might hospitalise me. Which to be honest wouldn’t be the worst idea. But I don’t like how that might go

Oh no.

16:18

I mean it depends if you want to be alive or not

I know people that refuse to eat in the wards get force fed and that sounds horrific

No

in_sane_out

I mean it depends if you want to be alive or not

Not particularly

You get nutrients intravenously

16:19

Im suicidal so I could relate

I’ve heard both happen

16:19

Either way I don’t like the idea of it

I understand

16:19

Sometimes its painful that people might be forcing you to do stuff

16:19

Forcing to keep you alive

16:19

But

16:20

If u wasnt alive

16:20

Would you be talking to me?

16:20

Sorry if it gotten this deep

16:20

I would like to say Im not a clinician

16:20

For legal reasons lol

in_sane_out

I would like to say Im not a clinician

I figured

I mean soon I will be if i finish my degree

Fun

16:21

Imagine that

Yes imagine

16:21

@Slade wanna meet up soon if you want some in person chats ?

Sure

Yey

16:22

In other news. I need to fry some lamb and make some pasta soon to go with it

16:22

For dinner

16:22

And have 0 motivation

16:23

But at the same time

16:23

100%

Slade

Sure

Im available next weekend sunday morning if u wanna or something like that

in_sane_out

In other news. I need to fry some lamb and make some pasta soon to go with it

Sounds tasty

in_sane_out

Im available next weekend sunday morning if u wanna or something like that

Can’t next weekend

16:24

I’ll be in Birmingham

Slade

I’ll be in Birmingham

Wel then u gotta be well fed b4 then if not where dat energy be comin from

Hell if I know

Satanism is not the answer

Sure it is

O

How else do you think I’m playing ice hockey and stuff on no food and no sleep

16:32

My aunt just randomly asked out of the blue if I’m eating enough. This woman is now psychic apparently

Sometimes targeted ads really get on my nerves. I do not need weight loss ads right now

Oof

17:53

I hate sports they develop no skills in my opinoion

I’m not doing it for skills. It’s fun

Fun doesnt exist

22:25

In sport

22:27

Sport in my opinion is a form of some sort of crude animalistic instinct in which we channel it into orderly rules and games because we have created laws and regulations that stop us from persuing violent hedonistic pleasures

22:27

Anyways

22:27

I just remembered

22:27

I once got told that i am the incarnation of Professor Trelawney from harry potter

22:27

The more i think about it

22:27

Jt makes sense

in_sane_out

Sport in my opinion is a form of some sort of crude animalistic instinct in which we channel it into orderly rules and games because we have created laws and regulations that stop us from persuing violent hedonistic pleasures

i dont know about that lol

No you wouldnt as its my opinion

22:28

My head is a nonsensical place

22:28

Fjlled with a different worldview

22:29

I see humans as hedonistic animals held back by the sense of logic we developed in a way

22:29

This is probably why I am depressed

I know it's your opinion but i'm just saying I don't think all sports are particularly replacements for violence

Eh

22:30

They wouldnt exist otherwise

22:30

Or sports is a creation of preparing humans for war

22:30

As they did

22:30

Mostly with PE classes

22:30

Thats why they exist

Like, when I think of something like badminton or swimming they are not very aggressive

Badminton not aggressive

22:31

Bro

22:31

Anyways

compared to tennis it's less aggresive

In my opinion sports shouldnt exist

but why?

It shouldnt be a job at the very least

I can understand that viewpoint

Why do we put so much value in sport

22:32

As you are doing now

22:33

It is utterly pointless

22:33

Nothing good comes out of it

I'm not putting any value into sports, if anything you are

Hmmm

22:33

I guess

22:33

Thats is valid

I just think they can be fun, i'm not a fan of many sports

Its the same with video games they shouldnt exist

22:34

Because they have the ubderlying emotions cobnected to sport

22:34

In my opinion

But you play video games

Why are you suggesting it is immoral

22:35

I simply suggesting that its existence shouldnt be nessaray for humans

22:35

I simply need a form of escapism

I don't disagree most things that exist in modern life aren't necessary for humans to live

I think we should strive for knowledge for that is a higher form of pleasure

But they exist to make life worth living/ make lives better in some way

Now you should know what type of ethics i believe in

22:36

If you know anything about ethics

i don't lmao, I do Economics

I normally stick with JS Mill utilitarianism

22:37

But at heart im a negative utilitarianism

i don't have a deep understanding of ethics

22:37

but ik what utilitarianism is

Google negative utilitarianism

22:38

Its the belief that you should minimise suffering

22:38

And then maximise hapiness

so it's just regular utilatriansim but swapped around a bit

Yeee

but how would the removal of sports reduce suffering

22:38

if anything it would increase suffering

I suffered alot from sports

22:39

I hate it with a passion

22:39

Its existence should be wiped

22:39

From.the face of the planet

22:39

Different viewpoints

22:39

I can ubderstand yours but I live in my own body and it craves to stay away but also to participate in such thibgs

22:40

Very conflicting

but you don't have to participate in sports

22:40

I dont

Indeed

22:40

I dont

22:40

Sports cultivate a form of herd mentally especially with team sports

22:41

I think its dangerous

so then why would its removal benefit you?

Because of the people that put value in it

22:41

This then just boils down to the main critique of negative utilitarianism

22:41

Thats its just a genocidal

22:41

Ethic

22:41

Everything must go

22:42

As everything causes suffering

Yeah ik i just read that if someone who believed in negative utilitarianism could destroy the world they should

I wouldnt mind everyone dying but my wellbeing advisor says its just I hate the trauma i recieved (edited)

22:43

Its a critique

22:43

There are.arguments against it

22:43

As in any case philosophy there is

22:43

Its up to the person to make a decision what they think

22:44

I.e. if you destory humanity something worse might replace it

22:44

.e.g. if you erase suffering there is no way you can then minimise it

22:44

Stuff like that

but by erasing it you have minimised it to 0

There should be a debates channel

22:45

@B why isnt there a debate channel on ur server

22:45

Anyways

22:45

Hmmmm

there was

22:46

but I removed it

22:46

like

22:46

7 months ago

Oof

22:46

Anyway we shall continue in vents

22:46

Cause

22:46

I hate sports

22:46

And it should be erased

I just want to have fun (edited)

Oh i'm not trying to have a debate mainly because i dont fully understand all the intricasies of negative utilitarianism

If there is need of a debate

22:47

Threads exist :p

SenorGonc

Oh i'm not trying to have a debate mainly because i dont fully understand all the intricasies of negative utilitarianism

Its relatively new

22:47

Oh yeah

Had a nice vent

23:16

Probably something to do with me coming back from perants

23:16

Lol

Ugh

20:13

So like I contacted tge president of badminton like two weeks ago cause i wanted ti try it out

20:13

Made like 2 people friends yeah

20:14

And I saw one of them with another person I met

20:14

And I was like oh I think we forgot to exchange contacts

20:14

Wanna be friends

20:14

And he was like

20:14

Your bad at badmintoj

20:14

Lazy ass excuse

20:15

Could have said no

20:15

Dont need to go personally attack me because I tried being active again

20:15

After i got out of my depressive shell

20:15

Oh well

20:20

Dickheads like @Slade told me yesterday

Some people just are unfortunately (edited)

20:21

Oh I’m also not going to Birmingham this weekend

Oooo

20:22

U wanna meet up then?

20:22

On sunday

20:22

We can go to the cinema :0

Sure

I feel like I’m in a dream. I usually don’t consider myself particularly sane, but this is really freaking me out. It’s like I’m still asleep somehow and none of this is real

could you maybe see a doctor/ talk to the uni support team about it bc it sounds a little like dissociation ? <3

Slade

I feel like I’m in a dream. I usually don’t consider myself particularly sane, but this is really freaking me out. It’s like I’m still asleep somehow and none of this is real

^^

grape

could you maybe see a doctor/ talk to the uni support team about it bc it sounds a little like dissociation ? <3

Possibly. But I can’t imagine they could offer anything

Slade

Possibly. But I can’t imagine they could offer anything

i know, it’s very difficult to get help for anything like that BUT it might be worth giving it a go? if not i still have us to vent to and if your typing on this chat , i know i’m not dreaming so i can guarantee u aren’t :D

grape

i know, it’s very difficult to get help for anything like that BUT it might be worth giving it a go? if not i still have us to vent to and if your typing on this chat , i know i’m not dreaming so i can guarantee u aren’t :D

I take meds and I’ve done therapy I don’t know how many times now. I just don’t see them actually offering anything other than that

10:15

I’ve had dreams where I’ve messaged people. So I don’t know

Slade

I take meds and I’ve done therapy I don’t know how many times now. I just don’t see them actually offering anything other than that

i’m sorry bud, i know it’s hard and i’m not a therapist but it won’t be this bad forever and time really does help, is there anything u can do to take ur mind off it?

Time doesn’t help anything. I’ve been somewhat obsessively knitting, which has been a good distraction. But I ran out of yarn unfortunately

Ok I’m now officially insane. If I wasn’t before

is there anything we can do to help

I sincerely doubt it. But I do appreciate all the support

12:01

Might try and go back to the ward honestly

12:05

Although last time I tried they literally just told me to go back home. So I don’t know

Slade

Might try and go back to the ward honestly

Honestly if you don’t feel secure in yourself right now, that is the best thing to do

12:37

And I would also suggest informing student life team as well

As I said. I’m not really sure they’d actually let me in (edited)

why would they not let you in

Well they didn’t last time

B

And I would also suggest informing student life team as well

What does the student life team do?

They’ll be able to support you

Alright

12:46

Is that different from the wellbeing team?

Slade

Is that different from the wellbeing team?

Any team which can be there to help tbh

They haven’t been particularly helpful in the past

13:06

Plus I won’t lie, I’m pretty reluctant to explain to someone what’s happening. Last doctor I tried to tell just straight said I’m lying and refused to do anything

Slade

Plus I won’t lie, I’m pretty reluctant to explain to someone what’s happening. Last doctor I tried to tell just straight said I’m lying and refused to do anything

If you feel like your losing grip on stuff then I would recommend 111.

13:07

If it’s serious and you feel like a danger to yourself or others then 99

13:07

999*

Again, I’ve tried before. Police showed up, did nothing

If you feel unsafe then I would suggest trying again because your safety is urgent here

Honestly I don’t know if I’m unsafe or not

13:09

And I really don’t want to deal with more police or doctors or whatever that just do nothing and make me feel worse about myself

Slade

And I really don’t want to deal with more police or doctors or whatever that just do nothing and make me feel worse about myself

The things you’ve said it’s clear you need to at least see someone about it today

13:24

At least try 111

I forget, what’s 111?

like 999 but for less pressing emergencies

13:26

say you've been mugged or smth for example

13:26

999 is for when you've been mugged and they stabbed you in the process

And what exactly am I going to say? I’m losing my mind please believe me

Pretty sure it's more non-pressing health advice (edited)

Ok

Slade

And what exactly am I going to say? I’m losing my mind please believe me

Explain to them, I’m losing grip with myself and I don’t feel stable

I don’t have an easy time talking about stuff like that

Slade

Time doesn’t help anything. I’ve been somewhat obsessively knitting, which has been a good distraction. But I ran out of yarn unfortunately

if you'd like i could go buy you more yarn if you tell me where to get it from

I already bought some. It’ll just take a couple days to arrive

would you like someone to be with you irl?

I’m not particularly fun to be around right now

thepuppymuffin

would you like someone to be with you irl?

Any chance I can take you up on that offer?

Slade

Any chance I can take you up on that offer?

They left the server

Fun

16:27

Xey left Pride Soc too (edited)

16:27

I guess due to last nights incident

Ok well, starting to feel a little more back on earth finally

Slade

Ok well, starting to feel a little more back on earth finally

Good to hear (edited)

Been a terrifying day honestly

Ugh

20:49

Tiring day

20:49

Cant wait for s5 of my life

Some cashier was complimenting me

21:53

He wasnt up to my standards ofc and he seemed deffo older

21:53

Slifhtly felt he eas hitting me up

21:53

But theees my defence mechanism of sexual abuse when?

in_sane_out

Cant wait for s5 of my life

Same

in_sane_out

But theees my defence mechanism of sexual abuse when?

I do hope that this is a joke.

Roux

I do hope that this is a joke.

No, im scared af

21:52

Why do u think its a joke?

Because it’s difficult to decipher tone

in_sane_out

No, im scared af

Why scared?

21:53

It was a cashier complimenting you no?

Ye they were

21:54

It was scary

Okay. That’s not sexual abuse and just to note that using that for something as genuinely harmless as someone complimenting you in that scenario is worrying.

21:55

I understand if you were uncomfortable with it, totally

21:56

But that’s 100% different

I dont think you understood what I was saying

21:56

I dont make much sense if you dont know me (edited)

21:56

Why is it worrying?

21:57

I am allowed to be afraid of what men can do to me.

21:57

I dont care what they doing, It was night time and I am already on edge cause thats when my ptsd triggers

21:57

This is a vent channel

21:58

I vented what i thought

21:58

Ik its not true in reality

21:58

But thats not how mental disorders work

I didn’t say that you weren’t allowed to feel scared, I actually said that’s totally valid however, the mention of sexual abuse in a context like that where such a thing did not occur and honestly, likely would not have, is worrying.

in_sane_out

But thats not how mental disorders work

I’m aware

Im confused

21:59

What is worrying?

21:59

I don’t understand

The mention of SA in this context

22:00

I guess maybe spoiler it next time with a CW of SA tag

I said abuse tbh not assult but im not sure about the difference

22:00

Whats a cw

It’s triggering for people who have actually suffered SA

in_sane_out

Whats a cw

Content warning

Ok I wont mention it again in this channel

22:01

Or just block me im a walking trigger centre tbh

in_sane_out

Or just block me im a walking trigger centre tbh

Interesting, Ricky Gervais says the same thing. It’s not really the solution is it, we should reflect and adjust our behaviours to be mindful of others. It’s just human decency.

Who?

22:04

Person I dont really understand you but thats ok

22:04

I just want a place where I can vent uncensored

Yeah, its kinda appropriate to spoiler tag stuff

22:05

Vents, is a vents place sure. But always good to spoiler tag

Could someone give me a list of everything i need to spoiler tag

22:05

Bc i need to know

22:05

Put in in rules

SA is a strong example, since it is a serious thing.

Oki

22:07

Will do next time

Spoiler’d things generally include sexual abuse/assault, self harm, suicide, extreme violence, terrorism. that’s all I can think of for now but generally just things that are genuinely serious topics, that people could have suffered from.

Roux

Spoiler’d things generally include sexual abuse/assault, self harm, suicide, extreme violence, terrorism. that’s all I can think of for now but generally just things that are genuinely serious topics, that people could have suffered from.

Ok. I’ll just stop talking about it in these servers about personal stuff, I dont want to make someone feel unwell. But If i do feel like it I will use spoiler tags. Thanks for bringing it to my attention. I will stop from now on

I’ve got like 10 more days before I start back on my new meds and honestly I don’t think I can make it that long. I’d really forgotten just how bad things are without them. I always thought they didn’t do much, but this has really made me realise how much they did do. I’m constantly hearing stuff, pretty much all day at this point. And a lot of it is just really unsettling. Like, I’d gotten used to the whole knocking and rattling stuff. And since moving out, it’s a lot easier to ignore my mum’s voice yelling at me, because I know it can’t possibly be real. But I had a breakdown and received a pep talk from my own disembodied voice. Who responded to what I’m saying and everything, like they were really there. I hear people telling me to do stuff at random parts of the day. I hear insults or suggestions. Strangely I haven’t been seeing anything, which is something that used to be a really big issue. But still. I used be able to just tell myself it’s not real and ignore it, but I can’t anymore. It’s like I’m actually being haunted by ghosts. I can play music or watch movies and I hear their voices loud and clear, actually drowning out whatever I’m listening to. Sometimes I can’t even hear people talking IRL. It’s like I’m just being consumed by it all

2

Games night was cancelled at the siz today

16:51

Imma just be depressed in my room for the rest of the day nothing to do just listen to music. Cant be bothered to study

in_sane_out

Imma just be depressed in my room for the rest of the day nothing to do just listen to music. Cant be bothered to study

Wanna go for that walk?

Slade

Wanna go for that walk?

At 17:20?

Works for me. Same place we agreed before?

Yeee village entrance

Cool. See you there

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